#i also didnt know that there are a lot of messages in my inbox so sorry 😣

[wolsim]

hello. just want to update everyone who follows me and to the people who are requesting gifsets from me that i will be taking a break here for a while. there’s a lot of things going on with my life lately (in terms of work and my health in particular) so i am not sure when i’ll be back. but hopefully soon 🥹🤍

#ill be queueing some gifs in the meantime #i also didnt know that there are a lot of messages in my inbox so sorry 😣 #ill be back soon - hopefully 🤍 #3.txt

[hanasnx]

HOLY SHIT FUCK PISS PLS GIVE ME MORE FRAT BOY ANI I BEG 🧎🙏 I need the spice 😩

once again my greatest weakness is exploited…. my inbox ….

ppl say jump in an inbox message i say how high

bcos quite honestly fratboy!anakin is so hard for me to write, simply bcos its so difficult for what i know of anakin and his character to align with a fratboy persona. however! i married the concepts my last fratboy post and i’ll do it again for u jelly. ive had to brainstorm a couple days…

next part

☥ likes nuts. peanut butter. pistachios. nut and seed bread. u ask and he’s like “i like feeling like a squirrel” and ur not sure if its a joke. probably keto diets. he eats his body weight in good fats and goes to the gym as an obsessive hobby bcos hes got so much energy and nowhere to put it

☥ mario kart is one of his favorite games. he has a nintendo switch solely for mario kart. his friends play in competitions and get super hyped about it, sometimes they play normally but sometimes they make it an entire event. his frat makes a tournament out of it tbfh and winner usually gets some stupid made up prize like “mk-losers of the frat is your slave for a day” or “everytime you enter a room, if a MK-loser member of the frat is present, they must announce you to the room like ur a king” or “you gotta set up the winner with one of your hot exes”

anakin usually wins. and gets pissy when he doesnt. hes so competitive. especially if the people around him make it a big deal that he didnt win, hes all like “whatever its just a stupid game anyway. i changed my vehicle settings this time around”

☥ as an excuse to be close to you he asks you if he can crack your back for you bcos you complained about it hurting and when you stretched trying to get it to pop it wasnt as satisfying as you wanted it to be.

“i can crack your back for you.”

you fall for his trick. “would you? that would be so great thank you,” you fist your hands and cross your wrists over your chest, like usual, expecting him to get behind you and lift you and jostle you like people always did when they cracked your back. instead, he gets to your front with a smile.

“i know a better way.” you look at him quizzically as he takes your wrists and drapes your arms over his shoulders. he stoops, large frame wraps around you and your waist, fists at the base of your spine. you get nervous. “go limp.” you relax as best you can, your cheek against his neck surely heating up with a blush at how youre pulled flush against him.

he knows exactly what hes doing and his cheeky grin is hidden from you. “alright, inhale deep.” you do as he says. “and exhale.” you do. and slowly he lifts you from the ground easily by standing straight, and his fists slide up your spine, squeezing you to him. your heart is pounding, and your spine pops as he moves up. he gets to the top and sets you down, and holds you while the black dots in your vision subside. you realize he’s embracing you so tender and patient and you politely push off of him.

“um. thanks.”

“anytime.”

and he meant that. bcos he gets into the habit of asking you if you want your back cracked, and you get into the habit of saying yes bcos of how good it felt, how good he was at it, and how close the two of you got when he did it.

to the point that when you saw him, he’d pavloved you, and you lift your arms above your head reaching for him, waiting to rest them on his shoulders so he can pick you up and pop your spine. he obliges every time, excited to do it. he loves pressing you against him like that.

☥ hes an engineering major i just know it. very bright, but not the top of his class. he doesnt study really, things just make sense to him. and he also admits to you that he does a lot of things in his free time that requires engineering.

“like skateboard ramps?” you taunt.

“something like that.”

☥ his favorite movie is treasure planet and he wants to watch it every time you two end up hanging out. if you ask what movie he wants to watch, its treasure planet. if you look over at him randomly, you see him mouthing the words. it was his hyperfixation as a kid and heavily influenced him. especially bcos he doesnt have a dad, and hes got a father figure named obi wan in his life that had no business caring for him but did anyway. like that pirate in his favorite movie:)

if youre not sick of it, you dont even bother to ask him what he wants to watch. u just put it on. it usually is background noise anyway for whatever conversation arises bcos this boy cannot focus on one thing at once, and must multitask and get distracted

☥ hes the band “chase atlantic” coded unfortunately

☥ would wanna sleep with u in ur bed all the time even if ur not dating. he wants to take naps with you. he has insomnia, and he noticed that one time when you hung out, he fell asleep with you so easily. now he asks for sleepovers constantly. also bcos it means he can subtly cuddle you.

and when youre closer, and he can flirt with you, and youre comfortable with him. he probably cops a few feels so you smack his hand or move it away for him.

at one point you move his hand onto your chest, indicating you wanted him to grab and massage it for real this time. just like he always teases. and it turns into grinding his dick onto your ass and squeezing your chest til the flesh pops out in between his fingers. circling and pinching your hardening nipples. arm under your head, hand on your jaw to inclined your face in his direction so he can bite and nibble your ear, lick at it while he talks dirty shit in it.

“you’re so hot, can’t believe you’re letting me do this to you… you know half the guys at house would kill for this…

you wanna help me make ‘em really jealous?”

☥ the horny texts and pics this man would send once you two are officially talking or together.

“i think about fucking you all the time.”

“you gonna let me hit after class? cmon i deserve it.”

“baby you gotta show me that pussy. its been so long i forgot what it looks like. remind me.”

“coming over today. you want a ride? on my cock i mean.”

“some guys at the house were talking about you today. can i tell them about us?

gotta see their faces hearing what a slut you are. i promise i’ll spill every dirty detail. could even show em some of the pictures if you want… or the videos. i like the bareback one, doggy style? cant get over the way you sound in that one. wet pussy, pretty moans, twerking on my cock like a porn star. miss you sweet girl.”

☥ he honestly would pick out a hoodie for you to wear. he wants u to wear it. gets pouty when you dont “wheres my hoodie?”

“at my dorm.”

“why arent you wearing it?”

“ani—?”

“its cold outside.” he wants ppl to know youre wearing a guy’s hoodie— specifically his hoodie— for a reason

☥ he’d still call you stupid nicknames like “killer” and “champ”.

“hows it hangin today, killer? you look fucking good.”

“you’re late again champ, usually you get here before me. you avoiding me or something?”

☥ trying to get you to fuck him at his frat house or dorm or whatever bcos he wants the guys to hear you .. just so everybodys clear on whats going on between you two

#jellydodger #thanks for the msg!! #indy shoots the shit #fratboy!anakin #anakin #anakin skywalker smut #anakin skywalker x reader #anakin skywalker imagine #x y/n #x f!reader #x fem!reader #x female!reader #au!anakin #star wars #sw #the clone wars #tcw

[alciedoodles]

Hey Neyla! I hope it’s ok that I ask but is there a brush setting you prefer on procreate? I’ve been inspired by your art for eons but I can’t comprehend photoshop. You can totally disregard this if you don’t use procreate though!

Hello! I don't know how long this message's been sitting in my inbox because i didnt check in for a while 🥺 I hope you get to see this either way!

I don't use procreate unfortunately, but I can explain the settings I use for my brushes on CSP in general, and if it works like any other art software then you should have similar settings on procreate

for sketches/linework, I will very often use an opaque & slightly textured round brush. the most important for me is for the brush to have that fuzzy sort of texture that gives the impression of using a pen/marker on paper.

note that i am actually terrible when it comes to line weight, it's definitely not something i work on a lot other than in backgrounds, so I don't actually bother too much with pen pressure settings.

the only rule I abide to is to always set the minimum value above 0 (anywhere between 20-30 is what I use). this is because when I started drawing, I used to be very heavy-handed and would wear out my pens too quickly-- so setting a minimum can help you become more aware of how hard you're pressing on your pen and make gentler strokes.

another fun little setting i use is opacity: like I said, I use opaque brushes for lines, but I like to reduce a tiny bit of opacity when brushing very lightly to give that impression of pen on paper.

There's a couple more brushes I use for coloring or rendering; the major sticking point being that I don't use pen pressure to control brush size that much. If I want to make thinner/smaller strokes, I'll simply reduce the brush size because it's easier for me to control!

(also, opacity is something I'll use a lot more when I'm working on colors)

just know that this is my way of handling it, and it may not suit your style. pen pressure may be another artist's best friend, so please make sure you try out what works best for you :)

finally, some art softwares come with stabilization. I don't use it personally, unless i'm actually trying to do really smooth curves (which is practically never). stabilization can also make CSP lag a lot with higher values and large brushes. the use of stabilization doesn't make you a bad artist or a lazy one, and not using it can make your lines look a tiny bit wobbly if you're not used to doing quick strokes. use stabilization at your own leisure!

on a different note, i know this wasn't part of the question but I'm bringing this up since it's something I tend to hear from people who say they were inspired by my art (thank you by the way🥺💕!!) : don't be misled by artstyles that "make it look easy"! my sketches may look very simple and natural because i'm more adept at bringing out the essential and discarding details in a design. this is not necessarily what you want for your art style; maybe you like drawing details a lot, maybe you prefer the lazy way out going straight to the point. neither are good or bad, only what you like to do matters.

also, if you're frustrated by your work, don't be afraid to draw over it as many times as you want, adjusting things with the lasso tool or deform if something feels off then drawing over again. sometimes you'll be satisfied with your first take, and sometimes you'll need 3 bases before its acceptable (examples below)-- it all depends on your mood, energy, motivation, desired outcome, format, or even just randomness

oh and, sometimes the best way to enjoy drawing..is to find something to obsessively draw (,:

take care!

#long post / #inbox #art tips #i added a readmore but it doesnt work on the dashboard? great

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

Hey so idk if you would know this but where did the term canyon in reference to Izzy fans come from? I feel like I just started seeing it like three days ago but everyone seems to already know what it means

lol so disclaimer that this ask has been in my inbox since september 23rd and alsoooo i might not be the best person to ask bc i am belothed by many who consider themselves part of the izzy canyon (which is their right). so if you asked an izzy fan about this you would probably get a different answer. also from what i can tell the term originated on twitter and i don’t go there.

the tl;dr that i heard secondhand from someone who identifies as izzy canyon is that at some point last year (summer or fall-ish i think) a lot of izzy fans were blocking so many people who didn’t like izzy that a lot of them ended up being unaware of general fandom trends and it became a running joke among them that izzy fans were isolated from the rest of the fandom in an "izzy canyon." and then allegedly the term expanded to just mean "if ur not a dick abt ppl liking izzy u can be in the canyon." THAT BEING SAID there are other ppl who had a very different experience with how "the canyon" originated and what kind of fan space it tends to be.

(slightly longer explanation below)

the thing with The Canyon is that to understand its origin and also why some fans have a problem with it, you gotta know two things:

there are annoying puriteen anti types on the internet who think liking certain characters make you a bad person. from what i can tell theyre mostly on twitter and tiktok. these people are annoying but also in my experience they're usually pretty easy to block and ignore.

the popularity of izzy hands is disproportionate to his narrative role in the show, and the popular fanon interpretation of izzy hands casts him not only as a principal character but as a much more sympathetic, righteous character than he is in canon. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I THINK ANYONE IS A BAD PERSON FOR LIKING IZZY. this DOES mean that i think ppl who think ed is izzy's domestic abuser are wrong. and also this is part of an age old fandom trend of fandom favoring a masc white guy who is often a side character and also often an antagonist.

so from what i can tell. in the early days of the ofmd fandom (spring-summer 2022) there was a lot of #1 going around on twitter, screaming about how if you liked izzy hands then you're a racist abuse apologist or something. at one point a throwaway account tweeted a callout for a popular izzy fan and said "we know they live in this area and work for this company, so these are the locations where they might work. everyone should call these numbers and tell their job to fire them. also we're gonna target these izzy fans next" and like, obviously this account was pretty quickly taken down. but it was a pretty scary thing and left a lot of izzy fans pretty paranoid, hence the blocking everyone who didnt like izzy.

(there was also a "izzy hater group chat" twitter account that was literally just a small group of mostly minors posting memes and also abt izzy that got accused of being connected to that whole mess. but afaict those guys have nothing to do with harassment of izzy fans they just dont like izzy)

so the thing is now that all of that has been used to justify shutting down any type of conversation about #2, or writing off anyone who posts meta about izzy that isnt like, "he works so hard and is so unappreciated despite everything he's done for ed" as an "izzy anti." analyzing izzy critically and posting this in the #izzy hands tag on tumblr is likened to genuine harassment.

oh lol and speaking of harrasment: there was also a problem with ppl on tumblr getting anon hate, and izzy fans will tell you that the anon came from an izzy hater who was targeting izzy fans bc the anon messages use "izzy critical rhetoric." however as someone who has posted "izzy critical" metas or whatever, i have actually gotten the same harassing messages accusing me of being an izzy stan and a racist abuse apologist. that's not what a targeted harassment campaign looks like. that's all been less of a problem ever since tumblr made it so you need to be logged in to an account to send anonymous messages.

anyway my stance on all of this:

i don't hate anyone for liking izzy. i am critical of certain comments/behaviors i often see from ppl who identify as izzy fans, but izzy fans are rarely the only ones who have this problem. from what i've seen tho, a lot of it comes from izzy fans.

before i ever saw even a hint of harassment against izzy fans, i saw izzy fans coming onto my posts and to posts by fans of color trying to argue that these posts were contributing to their harassment. from my perspective, it looked a lot like fans of a white character were trying to shut down conversations abt their favorite guy, especially when those conversations were being had by fans of color. i was very skeptical and oftentimes pretty dismissive abt the existence of this harassment.

since then tho ive done a pretty deep dive into the anon harassment on tumblr, and also looked at takes from different perspectives on the whole thing, and my conclusion is that there is harassment of izzy fans, however it is on the same base-level shittiness that most people experience from just... being on the internet. death threats and insults and slurs are literally just part of being on the internet. and yes, it SUCKS and it's wrong and nobody should have to put up with it, but izzy fans are not victims of specific targeted harassment. theyre victims of being on the internet and having to put up with general internet shittiness. and im sympathetic to that up until ppl start using "ive been harassed for being an izzy fan" as an excuse to be incredibly nasty (check out this tumblr acct for examples of what i mean lol). the ofmd fandom is annoying and parts of it are toxic but like, by no means is this the most toxic fandom to ever exist. we're not at "undertale fan giving out cookies with needles in them at a convention" levels just yet.

finally, tangentially related: i am inherently wary of fandom sub-groups that like, name themselves?? in my experience, the more people make being a Type Of Fan part of their identity the more it tends to lead to problems. this goes for fans who label themselves "antis" or "anti-antis" or whatever the fuck. i've personally been called an "izzy anti," an "izzy hater," and an "izzy critical fan" but like, i dont really call myself that?? it just seems weird to me idk. it gets to be very "us vs them" on default with little nuance and ive never found this kind of thing to be like, productive in fandom spaces. but that's just me.

#ask #anon #mine #txt #link #og

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

there is this Weird thing on social media of people being absolutely obsessed with phrasing re: trans issues, even when the person whos phrasing they dont like is pro-trans or trans themselves. and honestly as a trans person myself, id rather take a kind older cis person who still uses transvestite or transsexual but fully supports trans people than some random on the internet who spams hate messages because you didnt word something perfectly

a lot of the terms used today came after my time and I don’t really like using them because if I use them wrong or just clumsily I get babyqueers in my inbox calling me problematic.

I am glad language has evolved to the point it has so more people can accurately describe themselves if they choose, but at the end of the day it’s more important to me that a person is uplifting of the trans community than if they use the words right. Biased of me to think that way? Perhaps. But I do think this comes back to my opinions on the toxicity of infighting in the queer community. I don’t care if a lesbian would rather call herself a bulldyke, I do care if she is harming other lesbians in some way. Maybe when we get to a point trans people aren’t murdered on the street for existing we can start yelling at other trans people and acting like saying amab makes them a transmisogynist. We aren’t there yet. I genuinely do not care about this discourse at all because there is so much genuine transmisogyny from both TERFs and far right freaks that I cannot be assed to humor this really.

I’m sure I’ll have another call out post made, “watch out for owlvid! not only do they dare to HATE Purina Proplan Dog Food but they also used the term amab in a way I don’t like which obviously means they hate trans women and want them all dead!” or some such, but I really don’t care. I know what I stand for, and I think most people who follow me have figured that out as well. If everyone decides it best to shun me for my usage of amab then that’s their choice. I don’t track my follower count. If my wording makes anyone here uncomfortable they are free to leave.

Or be obnoxious in my inbox I suppose. I don’t actually mind that either.

[moonstruckme]

hi!! as one of my favourite authors, i want to ask you what i should do in this situation - please dont be offended or take it the wrong way :)

i submitted a request to one of my other favourite authors a few months ago and they haven't written it - not saying they have to ! i totally understand that sometimes a request just doesnt inspire you or you just dont want to write it which is totally valid! accepting fanfiction requests is not an obligation and it should never feel like that! but i am in a bit of a pickle. i hate sending the same request to multiple authors, but in this case, if i dont know if they are ever going to write it/they have chosen not to write it, is it alright to send it to another author? it just seems disloyal, in a way, to send the exact same request to multiple authors so at least someone will accept and i dont want to do it! i dont want the author i originally sent the request to to see it on someone else's blog and feel bad about it but i also want to know if it would be okay? because maybe they personally dont like the request or maybe there was a tumblr glitch and it didnt get sent (in which case i dont want to spam request)- idk! but if it were you who i sent a request to and then you rejected/did not write it for a few months how would you feel if you saw the same request on someone else's blog?

feel free to ignore this if you wish to !! i love you and i love your works so please take care of yourself and stay hydrated 🤎🤎

Hi! It's really considerate of you to ask babe, it's a complicated issue!

So on one hand, there's always the possiblity that they're fully planning to write it and just haven't yet. I think one option is to just message the author/send something to their inbox asking in a very no-pressure way whether they know the request you're talking about and would be okay with you submitting it somewhere else. Because personally, I would be a bit upset if I saw something that I was planning to write being written by another author (even if I might suspect the situation you're describing has taken place, I have no way of knowing you didn't just submit those requests at the same time, you know?)

Also, and this is just my own philosophy on this, but when I've submitted requests to authors and they haven't been answered, I just sort of take that as me having placed a bet and it not panning out. (Which is definitely not the best way to describe it, I just can't seem to articulate what I'm trying to say atm) I typically let that one go, usually because in my case I've submitted that specific request to that specific author for a reason and I wouldn't really want someone else to write it anyway, but that's just me. I hope that doesn't come across as patronizing or like "get over it" in any way, I just wanted to add my perspective as a requestor as well as a writer.

Overall, I'd say the safest bet is to just make all writers involved as aware of the issue as you can, because in my experience, writing a request that someone else has gotten makes me feel like I've accidentally betrayed that other author. Maybe messaging the author you sent the request to to ask if you can submit somewhere else, and, whether they respond or not, just briefly disclosing in your new request like "I submitted this months ago to x use/another author but they haven't responded, so I get if you're not comfortable with this" might work?

I realize I've given you a lot of hoops to jump through and obviously you're your own person so do what you want! You seem like you're going into it with great intentions and I'm sure that'll come across whatever you choose to do :)

#sorry for this very convoluted message lmao #i tried to articulate many things and it didn't work very well #mae’s asks

[jung-koook]

let me talk about something here please.

every time I open my inbox I saw hates messages. I prefer to block these messages, ignore them completely but this time I think I need to reply to these ones that left me extremely offended.

stealing from twitter??? what?? whenever I go on twitter and see a photo or video and post it here I always put the credits. I also check their twitter account to see if there are any messages from them asking us to not repost their videos and photos. and after so many controversies and fansites wrong behaviors, i also stopped supporting fansite fantakes. when I go on twitter to look for translations for my gifs I always put the credits in the description of them. when I post only the translation I take a screenshot of their account and post it showing their username. I also use twitter for news and I always post a screenshot showing where the new came from. and I use twitter to see other instagrams uploading members photos, but do i need to put credits where i got these photos? please, I didnt steal anything from anyone!

now this one.. gosh :/ being called a sasaeng is so offensive, I’m really shook right now :/ let me reply to this message :////

first of all, I am a 24 year old adult, thank you. “has major saesang behavior”??? what do you mean by that?? if you call me something like that you have to give me proof of what you're talking about! I never posted anything from their private events and schedules. nor pics of them just enjoying their lives. i document every moment of jeongguks life?? I cant understand what you're talking about because i dont to that. I never posted anything private about his life!

i already posted some pics of jeongguk that his brother posted on his instagram and his brother talking about gureum. his brother always interacted with army on instagram. he already posted some pics of jeongguk and some bangtan fanarts on his instagram. his brother never told armys not to interact with his account. but after some people asked me not to post these photos/pics here anymore, i deleted them.  (i dont see anything wrong with posting these since his brother doesnt see a problem with it. different from hobis sister who already said she doesnt like her instagram posts beind shared. )

when jeongguk was to film the ‘left and right’ mv. I saw a translation account translate to where he was going. I had read the kmedia news but I didnt realize that the two accounts were talking about different places. so I completely wrongly shared what the translation account translated but that account translated the place bighit was trying to keep private. a nice person here saw it and came to warn me about it and after that i deleted my post and apologize for sharing that here. I think unfortunately these are mistakes that anyone can make. but that doesnt make them saesang. please search on saesang term first.

if i cared about ony notes i wouldnt make gifs anymore. I make gifs because its a hobby that helps me to relax, to forget about the things that are bothering me in my personal life, to show a little bit of my love and admiration for bangtan by making my gifs. but notes are something important and caring about notes is nothing wrong! everyone wants to have their work recognized in some way right? and here its through the notes. so yes, I will self-reblog my posts whenever I want, thanks. :) 

I dont know why but there seem to be a lot of people who dont like that I've been here since 2013 lol and they think I dont deserve the support I got since the start of my blog. been here since the beginning helped me a lot and its something important for me. please dont try to take that out of my story. my blog is a beautiful part of my history as a bangtan fan. please dont try to hurt this part of my story. I went on hiatus for a while because I'm studying architecture and I had to focus only on my studies :)) when i came back tumblr was completely different. the people I knew from before werent here. even though i still had a lot of followers i felt like most werent here anymore either. so for me it was like starting my blog all over again. most of the people who support my blog here dont know it from the beginning, most are new people. so the reason I have support here is not because I've been here since 2013. the only ugliness I see here is you and your messages. you tried to ruin my day and you succeeded. :)

I'm tired of people trying to make things up about me! leave me alone! I'm not hurting anyone. I just post my gifs, support the work of other talented people here and scream for bangtan. stop trying to make up extremely dangerous lies about me! if you dont like me and my blog, stop being pathetic please do something for yourself. blocked my blog so you will never see me here again.

P.S. I’m sorry for my bad english but i needed to answer these messages. and I answered that way because I needed to block these people or the same person from my blog.

#i hate posting negative things on my blog but this is something i need to post

[97-liners]

Okay first of all, im defending her because of the content of the fic amd i have personally read it, NOT because she specifically is my friend. And second of all im not asking anyone to become personal friends with authors i didnt even imply that, i mean if ur gonna read an author, looking at gheir page a bit might be helpful but thats optional, now for the last bit if you read the first four paragraphs of a fic and go "oh this isnt for me" then it ISNT for you, dont assume the rest of the fic is bad or it doesnt get better, angst is a genre that exists and it has vsrying levels, just because it isnt for you doesnt mean its disgusting or wrong especially in this context. For example, i like to read angsty fics about dealing with weight issues because of my ed but that doesnt mean its for everyone and it doesnt mean the fic is GLORIFYING anything such as "being skinny" which the fic isnt even about btw

You always go on when people have a counter arguement trying to own them like "oh well this defense train" "oh well your her friend so your biased" i have a working brain dont i ??? I can come to conclusions myself without bias, im coming to you in your asks as a fat person, not as her friend although yes i am going to defend her. If i see bullshit i call it out, if she was in the wrong i wouldve 100% told her that, i think we have talked to each other enough for you to know this about me anyway but all you ever want to do is be in the right about things and blame other people and be self righteous and im kind of sick of defending you for it to my other mutuals but this was definitely the last straw. Slandering people for fics that you personally dislike as opposed to it being ACTUALLY harmful is crossing a pretty big line and this is ridiculous

this entire ask has nothing to do with the previous rant you sent in my inbox or the original anon that was hurt and the subsequent discussions but ok

but since you’re so insistent of me reading the full fic, i did. and i still don’t see how it’s supposed to be an angst fic about overcoming bullying when the entire premise is “i was bullied for being fat, then i lost weight and got really fit and skinny, and now everybody is fawning over me”

this isn’t a “this isn’t for me” reaction, this is a “this is cruel and i feel shitty and ugly reading it” reaction.

from the start, there’s so much emphasis on the contrast between the former self and the better, more attractive and more successful current self. the current self is repeatedly emphasized to be thin and fit.

throughout the entire fic there’s continued references to how attractive both characters are and it’s almost always tied to thinness (eg hoshi’s sharp jaw and muscles)

i understand that maybe this is why you said this is angst about overcoming bullying. but if “overcoming” bullying is you losing a lot of weight and entirely changing your lifestyle and appearance, and “overcoming” is also your former bullies being envious of your success, then that’s a really fucked to message to communicate.

this isn’t a case where writing is bad and i don’t like it, the writing is okay both from a technical standpoint and from a style standpoint. but the content is actively harmful. like, sorry if you can’t see it, or if you think that it’s positive representation of the experience of being bullied. i hope you can overcome that and set healthier expectations.

#sorry to anybody reading this response read those snippets #literally cruel.

[wannaeatramyeon]

*Sets a table with tea and snacks in your inbox*

I say the story that always leave me like “???? Wtf” would be the one with the ocs, also probably the tamest

Me and my ex had a mutual friend(I met him through my ex) who had ocs that me and my ex loved and found cool and loved their stories

And of course with people with ocs we playfully ship them and sometimes do ship them with other ocs

I had an oc called Gemini(his story is kinda being reworked but his vibe and design is mostly the same as before and i do have designs for the other star signs because i took the star signs and had fun with it and the world does have magic and a mix of fantasy and modern day theme and the star signs are immortals) and is the oc that I look at and lovingly call him “Wh0re💜” and our mutual friend liked him as well

And one of his ocs he shipped with Gemini and of course we like to play around with the idea of other ships with other ocs but he loved Gemini for his snarky, sassy, crackhead energy, skinny ass self, and my ex liked Gemini too and tried to do shipping stuff but the ocs my ex made just, well, kinda felt like an “I can fix him” kinda vibe

Gemini’s story isn’t all happy, it gets dark and does have some psychological torture and also dealing with horrible things he has had happened to him and things he has done, and i did like adding some fluff to the end of the story but he does have trauma and habits that never leave him and stick with him for forever

And my ex did also do things with their own ocs, but mostly their self insert, which was their main “”oc”” and tried to kinda do stuff with him which i felt was awkward and also doesnt really go well with Gemini and we did do rps with our ocs because it’s fun and i like writing and playing around with Gemini(he’s my favourite ti hurt and also comfort)

If they had done it with some of my other ocs that are on the more not as dark or forever mentally and psychologically scarred side, i would have felt a little bit more okay with it

But also with Gemini, he does have kids later and with certain other ocs and my ex was like “Well what if my oc was the one to have the kids?” And i told them yeah that would be a whole thing and it wouldnt work with their own stories but maybe he has another kid but with your oc? And yeah they pouted and kinda didnt like that

And back to our mutal friend’s ocs, they really liked one that i’ll call Brandon, who was a nerdy librarian who goes through a lot and me and our mutual friend had playfully did a ship with Gemini and him(cause mutual friend oc’s story was also with darker themes and not a happy ending but aus and fun and all that) and my ex didn’t like it

Was like “I’ll share Aaron and Damien but i don’t want to share Brandon!!” And got jealous when I liked stuff mutual friend did with his ocs, or when he drew my oc and his oc together

And kinda was like “He’s my favourite and i don’t wanna share him >:((((“ like, he aint your oc bitc-

But for the sake of peace because my ex would ignore me and not answer my messages or calls when mad at me, i kinda just let them do it but with Gemini instead of shipping i was like “Well maybe he’d see you as a little sibling instead?”

That was okay to them and liked it but dang it them being like “Well my oc would give Gemini the side eye and judge him for having a kid with that person” like, Gemini does bad choices and had to do things that he isnt proud of and regrets a lot of it and your oc is judging him when he comes to your oc, raw and hurting and if they had grown up together they would have seen he had one of his masks of nonchalance to hide his true feelings of fear and hurt and see that his body is tense and knowing he’s lying(which i did point out but they kinda responded with “Lol they’re dumb so they wouldnt have noticed” and didnt like that i made that have consequences with Gemini and their oc’s relationship later because Gemini needed to be reached out to, to be helped and not judged for something he hadn’t wanted and wasnt prepared for)

Also we did like aus and played with them but it always had to be the aus they liked and the themes they liked and trying to find a way for modern no magic no immortals coffee shop au with Gemini, who has a shit load of trauma and pain and bad decisions to fit in the au was fun(not)

Also wanted their oc to be the centre of attention all the time and to be doted on and it felt like they wanted them to be the main character

Also our mutual friend stuck with them in the end and unfriended me and was like “You didnt get social cues i gave and so like bye” and left and stayed friends with my ex

(I have like three other stories to share but one of them is destroying some google docs of mine and replacing it with stuff that I don’t want anyone to have done to their work and the other is cheating stuff and doing stuff with Adults online like they were still underage and not immediately saying no to someone who was like “You wanna do stuff with your dog” and they said that they were trolling the guy but like, thats something you report and block not try to troll???

And the last is a kinda forced polyamory situation too so that was fun cause i didnt want to speak out because they seemed happy and when i spoke out i again, got ignored and not talked to and they got upset when i didnt agree and so that was fun(not))

Sorry if this is too long and like, doesnt make sense at some parts, its 2:30 am and had been working like four hours ago and super tired but also cant fall asleep

-Seo Simp Anon🖤

ANON?!!?!? How the FUCK is the OC bit what you are thinking about when you just casually mention the cheating? The shit with the dog? The forced polyamory?

Hold my medicine, brb-

#ramen asks #seo simp anon

[vampyrsm]

helllo! i am just dropping in your inbox to say how amazing your sukuna fic is! i was woken up at like 6am by loud outside noise, so my go to is to just pop on here, read somethin till i get drowsy…

and i had your fic queued in my tbr, and omg ! i am so grateful i had 3 chapters to eat up. *didnt intend for that to be a pun regarding the fic but it works lol

the way it threw you in to the world right away…i find that that is such a hard introduction to get right, and balance time passing quickly while capturing the right moments. and you did it soooo well! like i was sucked in and then the smooth transition to being at sukuna’s palace of sorts. just…so good! (some other blabbering thoughts i have: ok but the face in the corner of the room, while i read..in said darkness i’d my own room omg. i think the horror elements are written so well! also love how bad ass reader is with their circumstances & with sukuna, like would’ve been like alright eat me up time my time has come lolol. also probably would’ve passed the f out in that hot spring.)

also, just the feeling of a new read, in the early hours of the weekend, in bed — just makes me feel like a kid watching my early saturday morning cartoons as a kid lol. tho — a bit more violent lolol! anywhos, just wanted to express my gratitude in your sharing your writing! apologies for my rambling thoughts but i just had to get them out!

i am so excited to see where else the story takes us! have a wonderful weekend! 💕

AHH!! Thank you so much for your lovely kind words! I'm so glad you enjoyed it! It's definitely a tough read, I know some of the topics I touch on aren't for the faint of heart so it really does mean the world to me that people are willing to feel a little uncomfortable just to read it (if that makes sense lol)

The figure in the corner was actually a lot of fun to write, I'm not going to reveal just yet what it was or the true meaning behind it (I think I bring it up in a later chapter) but it was very interesting to write. It may make a return at some point too

Also yeah, I would've given in instantly if I saw a man with four arms and two faces LMAO

That also makes it fun to write a reader who is so strong and unwilling to break so easily. I think that's absolutely just because of her upbringing as the Shogun's daughter, and the training she had to be a Samurai. It's just very interesting to write and a fun dynamic to explore

Anyway, I hope you have an amazing weekend too, thank you so much for taking the time to read through it so far and leaving a nice message! I can't wait to post the next chapter! <3

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[n7punk]

I know you write for yourself but do you ever ask your homies for feedback or advice on drafts or ideas?

oh yeah. that's just growing as a writer. i dont like, send drafts or anything, but i might ask for votes on an idea, or advice on something that's not working, or just talk through it with them to get there on my own. one of my friends has beta read for other people and another is a writer herself, so they can be a good resource when im having trouble, even if it's just sending a sentence and being like what is WRONG with the grammar here someone fix me LMAO. sometimes you get advice and then immediately realize what you actually want to do and it's not the advice you were given, but if it isn't what you were going to do before you asked someone, that's still helpful! it's not something i do that often because i like to just do my own thing, but it's definitely helpful when i do.

oh, thank you! it's something i have a lot of fun with. it's not something you can really do in any medium BUT fanfiction or like, a reboot, you know? so i really like to play around with it here. It's like, all my fanfictions are dozens of parallel universes revolving around the same characters and concepts, and i like seeing all the ways i can spin those out. i also just really like putting in references to canon. i always love when people pick up on a line i referenced or something.

lol you're welcome! it was a pretty different angle i've wanted to poke at before, but usually she's too emotionally constipated to even get that far lmao. in this case, she channeled that into a coping mechanism and it worked out.

it's so funny that this dumb little story is what has elicited so much, but i think it's mostly because the responses are centered in my inbox rather than the comments this time around. like, i can check my inbox and have five messages, and then there's only one new comment on the fic. and yeah, i can guess that's because it's so horny LMAO

unrelated, but im almost done with my first draft of the last chapter, so the next chapter should be coming along fairly soon even if im going to have a busy weekend. and now, more spoiler asks beneath the cut

you get it <3 ive loved how many people have gotten it because i was a little worried with this one people would be Unhappy with the direction so im glad i havent gotten any hate anons lmao. it has been so much fun to write and explore. on the sensory front, oh boyyyyy is this girl autistic. It's directly implied in chapter four, actually, though adora isn't formally diagnosed. and muscle tees are like. catnip on butches. it was made for them so like, good taste.

ohhhhh boy. what ISNT in the scene in LMR lol. I have never had a fic outlined like i did for this one. Like half the conversations came to me while i was lying in bed trying to fall asleep or wake up and i had all of that to work with (and tame) when i went to write.

I started working on it in late december and it's been my "bedtime story" for the most part since then, so a lot of the scenes played out there, which is where Scenes usually originate from. i had a really full outline from that. i had so many scenes that i had to cut and combine some that i really liked because they were just superfluous and would have dragged it down even if they were good on their own. or i had multiple versions of one conversation that i had to pick the best fit between, or when it came time to write it i had to buck the outline even though i liked what i already had because something else was a better match.

basically all of chapter 3 is A Scene. several scenes are in 4 and 5, too. i couldn't really pull just one thing but... god no i was trying to pick one and i cant. chapters 3-5 is my answer lmao. chapter 2 is the only thing i didnt have any Scenes for, that was basically just a hole labeled [insert smut here] while i was planning it, and chapter one was finished so early on that there's not really a Scene there, but nearly everything in chapter 3 onward is a contender for The Scene.

#ask #anon #long post

[junggunz]

ok like...recent thoughts. i got a lot of them.

kinda crazy how i only recenly passed 600 followers and i stay losing track of messages in my inbox if i dont answer them as they come in orrrr i get distressed when i get requests and can't write them fast enough LOL ESPECIALLY since sometimes i wanna write for csm and jjk characters but those fandoms are so big i know i would get a bunch of followers i couldn't handle.

i also appreciate how everyone who has sent in requests for oneshots/drabbles like ages ago during the summer has just accepted im slow as shit with writing and no one has tried to rush me. i luv that for us. it's actually so nice that i haven't had to aggressively remind anyone that i write for my own enjoyment by dropping my venmo/paypal to announce that if you want me to do something faster, money will motivate me HAHAHA

with how much gun has been showing up in my inbox, i might just say fuck it and throw my spooky halloween oneshot for him up to the priority list. especially since i've been in a slump with other halloween prompts??? like normally for halloween i get a bunch of ideas but this year...i haven't had as many. i think it's bc my job has already started playing christmas music lmfao.

if i can figure out how to write the threesome with fratboy!jake and sammy that doesn't sound like the last one i wrote (just with more plot) in a timely manner, i'll do something halloween themed for one or two of the windbreaker characters too. i know for sure if i have time for it, joker would be my first pick for a windbreaker halloween fic. idk who the second character would be yet.

i said this already but like...windbreaker has me acting up. i wanna write stepbrother!jay jo or tutor!jay jo so bad. i never had any malice toward shelly but im just saying...she wouldnt even know what to do with all that dick. kinda like how vinny didnt even know what to do with all of yumi's ass LMFAOOOO.

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[creweemmaeec11]

Hey!! Really sorry cause this one's going to be a little long of a rant.

I started reading your stories exactly a year ago and that time itself was one of the worst ones that I'd ever gone through. Shit had gone incredibly down, basically I was a living corpse with undiagnosed depression and anxiety but like, idk I was trying to find anything that could make me just a little happy and then I stumbled upon your blog in the process.

Thing is, your fluffy stories were really heartwarming for me through tough times or when I needed to get my mind off things for awhile. I'm not saying that everything was absolutely perfect but I do know for a fact that your writing helped me a lot in terms of understanding a few things even if it was just fiction. Like, yk how most of your characters are all abt "teaching one another how it isn't not embarrassing to ask for help," that part was the most soothing one for me; and altho it did take a long, long time before I actually asked for help, I'm really grateful to you for planting that idea in my head. It kind off like stayed and nurtured and is getting more habitual. A yr has passed and I can't say that I'm completely healed or smthg but I'm doing way better than before and hv also began taking therapy.

So overall, what I'm saying is that I'm genuinely grateful for the message you've given through your works and for being an absolute sweetheart abt literally anything and everything. Keep writing and I love you so much<3

Tc<3

I'm sorry it took me all day to reply to this but I didnt want to because firstly, how does one even respond to something so sweet and two I wanted to keep rereading it in my inbox 😅 but honestly from the bottom of my heart the joy this brings me is indescribable. It is the exact reason I post my work to begin with. I've said it before but if something I've written makes even just a single person's day just a bit better, than it worth it.

I'm so sorry your going through that, I know exactly how you feel. I'm currently living with a whole array of medical issues, (depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, POTS) and even after 5 years of doctors visits they still think these and symptoms of some still undiagnosed endocrine issue. Its exhausting. Nobody knows what your going through internally, but they all believe they know what best for you, and you can start to doubt even your own judgment without the evidence to back it up. "Maybe I'm not sick, I'm just lazy. Everyone gets tired," it's such a dehumanizing and terrible feeling, so I'm so glad your doing better and really hope things keep improving in your future <3

Yeah, learning to ask for help is so difficult, even when you desperately need it. But its human to ask for help, and I'm so glad you picked up on that in some of my stories, it is definitely something I struggle with too, 😅 one of those "practice what you preach" moments but hey, we can all get there eventually!

Thanks so much again for this message ♡♡ it absolutely made my entire day. Also don't ever apologize for rambling, long random asks are my favorite, especially of this variety. Is read a full essay if someone sent it to me as ab ask haha. I love interacting with others! ♡

And no I love you way more ♡

[eddiebuckley-diaz]

I personally dont think it was queerbaiting but I am a lot more upset than im letting on on my blog bc i know people will be mean to me abt it. Outside of the emergency of the ep i didnt like it tbh and its mostly bc buddie was the only thing that looked like it made sense with all of the plots and acting choices we were shown throughout the season from buck and eddie. There’s literally so much i could say i could go off for so long abt it. But i dont bc ik people will give me hate for it saying im only in the fandom for buddie etc etc. and im not only in the fandom for buddie, trust me. But i am super invested (maybe too invested?) in buddie and i cant help that??? Like everyone being like “calm down” and “so glad i can enjoy media” like bestie I AM enjoying the media but i also feel constantly let down bc part of this media im invested in is buddie and it feels like they make so much sense and then are just ignored by writers. I dont think its out of malice tho and there r reasons i dont think its queerbaiting (yet) but its still insanely frustrating. Like idk i cant help how i consume media too intensely. I enjoy the media too much u could say and therefore, as someone insanely invested in these characters i feel connected to, i am super upset when buddie doesnt get tg. Im not giving up hope tho. Im going to spend hiatus reading so many fix it fics and spec fics and just healing my heart / brain and then ill go back to clowning for s7 saying theyre going to get tg.

Anyway, all this to say ur not alone and ur honestly p brave to say ur mind on ur blog bc im too scared to. Not unfollowing or muting just admiring u from afar and feeling ur pain with u. <3 there r people who agree with u some of us r just too scared to say it ily

You have my whole heart nonnie. I appreciate such a thoughtful and well put together message like this. I agree with everything you have stated.

I feel so often that we get so hated on for speaking up when something isn’t great.

We can enjoy a show and still be upset at.

We can enjoy characters and still be upset about how those characters are handled.

We can feel however we choose to feel and it shouldn’t be an entire brigade of people down your throat for doing so.

“It’s just a show!” A penny for your thoughts to those who say this:

YES. It is just a show. I am not delusional about this. I can be upset BECAUSE it’s just a show.

Who comes into a person’s inbox to state this, if they aren’t also taking this all wayyyy to seriously.

I will look more into my previous posts regarding the queerbaiting and make a more informed opinion later on :)

Thank you so much nonnie and feel free to jump into my inbox or messaging anytime

[cheolhub]

ohmygod someone get him and his gigantic ass hands away from me

https://www.tumblr.com/tomorrowxtogether/716287811434725376/230503-soobin-weverse-moment?source=share

do u think he knows his fans have hand kinks

what does he want from us

also sar (ur name is so pretty btw like everyone gives u the cutest nicknames wtf 🤧)!!!!!! i hope ur having a good day today :D like it's been productive and ur irls have been nothing but nice to u :] 💕 IDK IVE J BEEN KIND OF LURKING FOR A WHILE NOW BUT i wanted to drop into ur inbox and just say that ur my favorite writer on here (might even be the best writer on tumblr but u didnt hear that from me) ! i think ur works are all really neat like u inspire me a lot a lot and i hope to better my stuff so one day it can be just as good as urs 😁 um and i got introduced to txt bc of u so like thank u for putting me on some good ass music and v pretty boys (do u have a bias btw? or are u an ot5??) 😭😭⭐

this message got way too long IM SORRY ill end it here 😦😦😦😦

-first time inboxer 😁

i was on twt basically saying i wanted him to slap me bc oh my god …. OH MY GOD. i was so disoriented when the pic dropped too, it was like 4 am and i was literallyyyyy dry heaving bc OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD?:$/):?/ um anyway ☠️ im in love with soobins hands, the rumors are true

and i personally think he does know. HES NOT AS INNOCENT AS HE SEEMS.

ALSORHWHDBS I SAW THIS YESTERDAY AND I WANTED YO LET U KNOW THAT IT ACTUALLY MADE MY DAY. i was literally crying over life and then i saw ur ask and literally could not stop smiling 🥹IM ur favorite?!?!!? 😭 dont lie to me omfg im literally in love w u now. but seriously, this really means so so so so much to me bc im really insecure about my writing and knowing that someone enjoys it literally makes me the happiest person alive >< im so eternally happy that i inspire you and your work is probably amazing!! don’t doubt yourself (this is so hypocritical bc i doubt myself sm dhshdh)

ONTO MORE IMPORTANT THINGS— I PUT U ON TO TXT?/!. nonnie… omfg… im so glad ur into them now. their discography is literally unmatched, like no bad songs and they’re all unproblematic and the prettiest boys to walk the earth. literally not a single flaw. FLAWLESS, TALENTED AND UNBOTHERED. i am v ot5 but if i HAD to choose a bias, it’s def soobin ^^ what abt u! do u have one 🙈

#[💌: anon] #U CAN SEND ME LONG MESSAGES DW #DUDE I LOVE U #PLS COME BACK SOON UR SO SWEET IDDJVD

[versadies]

you have no obligation to continue the fic you know? you started it because you wanted to, you were having fun while writing it, you WANTED to write it and i'm so sorry people have taken that fun away from you (and if i'm included in one of those, i cannot apologize enough).

if people think they're obligated to send threats just because you wrote something they do not like, i feel scared for the way this world is going to be. everyone has freedom to state opinions and disagree with other's, what they have no right to do is be a sh*tty a-hole just because they find someone writing something they don't agree with.

sorry im really pissed.

just take care of yourself and your health. keep drinks lots of water. this is not enough to get your mind f-ed over.

on a lighter note, the kazuha theme looks so amazing!! i really love how it looks.

ty for your words, comrade — and omg dw, you’re not included with the reasons why i feel like ive lost the feelings i had when i first wrote evermore. if anything, youve always been a sweet person to me in my inbox and said nothing but great words about my works <333

im aware i have no obligation to continue evermore, and honestly, i think i would give it up if it werent for you and dear readers who come up and told me how they’ll still continue to love and read this series of mine that i cherished. for that, im grateful for your sweet words and i knew i must finish this just for you guys :DDD you guys let me know that there are people who appreciate my works and me finishing evermore is my way of showing my gratefulness to you guys 🫶🫶🫶🫶

i also appreciate all my comrades who criticized me and expressed their disappointment, especially when they made sure to put it politely and remind me that this is my fic by the end of the day. they’re the reason why i wanted to add another version of evermore even when im fully aware of the time it’ll take for me to write. (and i want to thank you guys for not attacking any of the anons who had the courage to tell me ab the problems :>>)

besides that, there werent any threats at all — but rather messages that hurt my feelings / made me feel demotivated and scared in writing evermore. i mustve worded my venting post wrong and made it look like i received scary threats so my bad 😭😭😭 and dw i understand why youre pissed, there are rlly people out there who have the audacity to send threats to others just bcuz of something they didnt agree with and that is not a slay thing to do 👹👹👹

ill continue to try my best to take good care of myself and stay healthy as well as not getting my mind f-cked over — i hope you take care of yourself too !!

and tyty, im glad you see my theme that way hehehe

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