#however the problem is that so far

[raiiny-bay]

consider: a monster boyz movie, but it's... a romance?

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #blood tw #myedits #mb #teeth #red #i've had this dumb idea rolling around in my head that monster dhes has to be kept on a leash at all times #or else he'll wander off & get lost or get into trouble #also i have been thinking #we should have a simblr-wide apocalypse #everyone's sims & OCs become monster boys (gender neutral ofc) #or just get put in the MB universe #(survivalists? eaten by monster boys?? monster boy hunters???) #however the problem is that so far #there is no universe #i have approximately zero lore for them aside from. evil man-eating monsters that live in a hut in the woods on a post-apocalyptic earth #& i guess the leash thing #but that's not canon #i just think it's funny #i am picturing one of those toddler backpack leashes just btw

[fallenangelontheceiling]

I’m breaking my No Tumblr For Lent rule because I really have to share -

I’m 65 pages into Mansfield Park and I can’t stand Edmund. He’s objectively a Good Person (which I can already tell is going to be a rarity in this narrative), but god is he insufferable.

The Crawfords are flakes, but at least they’re entertaining flakes so far.

Austen is always scathingly snarky but this is the first time I think she comes off a bit self-righteous??

#jane austen #mansfield park #btw I already know how the book ends #which is NOT HELPING #the moral of Austen’s books is imo #young women need to leave the damn house #even Lizzie who is already sparkly comes into her own when she leaves #Anne definitely benefits from getting tf away from her Dad’s #afaik Fanny never gets that? #besides visiting her bio family in Southampton #which is literally a manipulation tactic to say #haha see you could be poor and stuffed like sardines #see it could be worse! stay with us it’s your only option! #Fanny clings to William and Edmund because she never finds her people #she starts the novel not valued at all #and ends it valued only as so far as her Aunt finds her Helpful #however #I might be looking at this with too much of a 2024 morality #but that hasn’t really been an issue with other Austen novels #so… is it me? is the problem me? #not to be all women need to be xyz to be interesting… #wouldn’t Fanny make a great sympathetic villain #let my girl be jealous and bitter and totally in denial about it #that would only work if she felt emotionally entitled to Edmund #god this book is such a chore

[wormfunkie]

really gotta say. not a fan of norman. dude has to be one of the worst dads in pokemon and the bar is already pretty low 💀

#to being said i have not made it to the black and white arc yet so ghetsis might just beat that record but so far? its norman #pokespe #like as many jokes as i make about Giovanni being a shit dad the dude does actually care about his son #yeah he is not a good person nor do i think he is supposed to be written like a good person however #Giovanni still like actively cares about his son Ruby's dad in the meantime just keeps #just keeps hitting me with fhe exact opposite thing you would think a dad would do #yeah yeah yeah let me train my son and be emotionally disconnected from him so i can train him to go through a really dangerous tower with a #a really dangerous pokemon yeah yeah yeah wait? my son hates? ok so like I'll get another kid that #that i did not want to train to begin with and only wanted to be a good trainer and make him climb the tower even though he already #has problems breathing go climb the dangerous o zone tower go go go

[anemoflower]

Also I was playing that event game in h.onkai sr earlier today and there was this question mark thing with Sunday in which you look at books in that library and then you hear a soft whisper and it's him and he asks if he shall explain the books to you ... Of course I said yes.

Ngl that would be a good beginning for a romance story I DIDN'T SAY THAT

#;phia plays games #damn you angel guy #I'm still not sure what to think about him tbh #that is my only real 'interaction' with him in game so far xD #and I keep away from spoilers #gosh I want to go to P.enacony idk I love it's vibes #but as I'm a slow gamer- it will take me a while #Sorry Sunday you will stay at a strange 'idk-if-I'm-interested-in-you-but-you-are-pretty' stage #me and my problems with h.onkai sr guys #however I will stop rambling about maybe-possible-f/o's for now and go back to drawing Elias :]

[unpretty]

i feel like if i keep working at it there might be enough clutter on this wall soon

#original #it's the wall behind where i moved my desk #now here's the real problem: #right off screen to the right is my treadmill #walking is fine #but i am absolutely sure the first time i try to run #half the shit up here is gonna fall down #i need to get a small metal file cabinet to cover in more magnets #however i am determined to find one that will accommodate 12x12 scrapbook paper and so far i can't #one of the items on my magnet board is a ticket to the tah/wtnv live show at sdcc #it is held up by a jones soda magnet #and i cannot move it. because i left it there for so long that now the part beneath the magnet is a different color.

[tabbyjack]

the problem with building out america's rail network btw is that it's privatized and there will never be a corporate incentive strong enough or backed enough to implement effective, accessible, AND privatized countrywide travel. nationalize railways deliver on the demands of railway workers and most importantly respect indigenous sovereignty/include indigenous design input when plotting routes

#and a million other things mostly to do with geology but in terms of politics and morals this is what im going with as far as a snappy #summary of 'the problem' #however geology elaboration: america is So hard to build railways across because our most populated areas along the west coast #(where most of the rail drought is; rail PRICING on the east coast is a whole nother thing) #are stupid mountainous. the california hsr plan is spending several million more on the rail line bc they gotta plan around a mountain #and the problem gets worse the farther north you get on account of the cascades and ESPECIALLY the region around shasta #in another life i was a seismic engineer. anyway #i'm looking for a papers or other peer-reviewed content on the history of american rail labor #if anyone has favorites send them my way cause all my research is locked on california and the pacific coast more broadly #'research' my font of pdfs i downloaded from ILLs lol

[southern--downpour]

pros of new hyperfixation: dopamine :) 

cons of new hyperfixation: i cannot focus on school work all i want to do is read trigun nothing else is interesting rn

#i have so much classwork i need to do but all my brain can do is go 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i cant do Shit abt it #I HAVE *THINGS* TO DO #last time i fixated this bad was dsmp and i literally failed a math class bc of that #and like. logically i know i should be doing stuff. i know this is probably gonna make me crash and fail. however. #entire rest of my brain is in fact still going 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i Cannot Do Anything About This Other Than Read More Trimax #shut up virgil #anyways. hehehehehhehehehheheheh vash :))))) #i started reading trimax ofc and i am fucking in love w/ the black/blonde hair he looks so cute dude #i really liked seeing nightows artsyle improve so far too #love the early art still ofc but its a little inconsistent in quality? + the text placement was SUPER confusing at times #like. it was just hard to figure out who was talking #that was like the main problem ive had reading it so far #but like thats been gettin progressively better and the art has gotten INSANE and im barely into maximum #also. that one page. where wolfwood tells vash to shoot him. yk the one. #that is all. #trigun :)))))) #actually no that is not all that entire interaction has been rotating in my brain nonstop #holy shit its such a good scene #i really love wolfwood man #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this series is going to fucking kill me #/pos #this motherfucking hyperfix is here to stay apparently esp w/ stampede and the influx of new fans #like if this happened when i first watched og trigun i wouldve just been digging through old content and fan content #and probably wouldve drained it of dopamine pretty quick #but theres NEW content? that i can watch while its AIRING??? im not going to shut the fuck up!

[quiltcas]

*shaking my mother by the shoulders* boundaries are good and identity theft is bad actually!

#parents.txt #bitching below: #do I have Problems of the monetary sort? #yes! we're all poor here! #are these Problems going to get worse? #definitely! #however #begging the one guy who has only ever loved money to give me some + make my PTSD worse in the process is not a solution #me refusing to talk to him doesn't mean the solution is for me to sit by you while you pretend to be me on my phone #you acting like a kicked dog because I don't like your idea that would involve breaking the one boundary I've manged to keep so far in this #god-forsaken household #doesn't make me want to change my mind #it makes you feel like shit and that's it! #so please stop with the theatrics oh my god

[ectonurites]

Coming off Tim's Sixteenth birthday arc is so funny to me like- Robin 120: Batman is a terrible, abusive person and the only reason Tim doesn't cut him off right now is because he knows he'd loose all of the friends and family he'd made as robin in the process. Robin 121: And then he makes him go to bed on time- and then the next day he has him do his homework- and the worst thing Tim can imagine from him is his disappointed dad face <3 Like yea I do heavily prefer the latter and will accept the jarring as hell transition if it gets me out of the former faster but gosh golly is that some narrative whiplash

LMAO YEAH. YEAH. what a switch over of writers does to the General Vibe And Narrative of a book is so fucking funny sometimes

#tbh overall i far prefer the lewis run to the willingham run BUT the last arc is definitely the low point of it #because the. i guess the complicated problem for me is that i think at core Bruce should not be portrayed as a bad person like that #HOWEVER. it's not like that story was the first time. and if it had had a different ending where it became a more... teachable moment #for Bruce about how he can't prioritize the mission and training above like These Individuals Who Are His Family #then it would have been sooo much better. but considering everything was a) gearing up for War Games where Bruce was going to #continue to do assholish things and b) it was the end of a run so the arc needed to be tied up quickly #it just wasn't in the cards. #but the earlier arcs of lewis' run i just. so near and dear to me. just like a lot of Fun and some utterly heartbreaking steph stuff #that is like getting punched in the face (positive) for me personally. so im willing to forgive the birthday mess #vs willingham's run overall is just a far less enjoyable read to me outside of like the batgirl crossover/the early blüd days

[skrunksthatwunk]

finished dante's campaign of dmc2!! it was bad!!! <3 and i can't tell if it's anticlimactic or a surprising show of mercy that it only took around 4 hours

#and a notable amount of that was me bumblefucking around so #look i need to reiterate that i am not a hater for the most part. that's not who i am. However--- #i'm kind of surprised that it managed to have even less of a plot than dmc1 bc that's a low bar. neither game prioritized the story and i'm #honestly fine with that y'know? so long as the game's fun it doesn't matter that much to me #which is not a problem for dmc1!! the aesthetic the monster designs the general game feel is all there. dmc1 rules #dmc2 actually has some pretty good monster designs imo. like there's things to like about dmc2 it's just all the stuff that takes some extr #time to notice. as opposed to the blaring unavoidably shitty gameplay that you notice far faster and more often #anyway im about to go play lucia's campaign i guess. so. look forward to me complaining more probably #also the way i HOWLED when lucia started repeating trish's lines... YOU CAN'T JUST MAKE THE Devils Never Cry SCENE TWICE GUYS #IT'S REALLY OBVIOIUS #dmc #dmc2 #sigh. also i got blue eye stared by dante at least once and i thought that was funny. he kinda looks like a bald eagle head-on #like he's pretty but. screee

[nozomijoestar]

The entire T8 story is on YT and I hyperventilated so hard you'd think it's not 30 something F right now but 55

#I AM SCRUBBING THROUGH THE ENTIRE THING TO SEE ASULILI FIRST BECAUSE I MUST #and i have to say so far...Ehghhhh like yes im happy to see them finally be portayed this way but at the cost of not having much to Do #in ways which surprised me with how quickly it moved or wasn't rly addressed so tbh I'm in between about this #NO ONE can take away the silly and cute shit they did from me though #Asuka being chill w Xiao & Panda though like they were in the pachislot 💖 #AsuLili are also cool with Alisa- they got the pachislot gang together again instead of the comics w Leo at least they got friends #HOWEVER I WILL SAY I WAS VINDICATED A LIL- when the 'Why doesn't Asuka know Jun?' question was sorta answered #ALSO SORRY LARS FANS HE MADE ME LAUGH OUT LOUD IN THIS ONE- YOUR MAN IS SO GOOFY #needed to pause when i saw the motorcycles 🤣 #Nina's VA is awesome in this too #**SPOILER**hmmm ok i think i know what's not sitting right w me: This is 100% The Jin Game at the expense to everyone elses character depth #if you like Jin then you'll most likely love this one if you like anyone else or are neutral on him you're sifting through scraps #and the scraps all come in different sizes- which kinda sucks HOWEVER now that this is out the way it does set up a T9 without this problem

[themonopolyhat]

memo to me

a reminder of my objectives in writing my current wip:

I) Make The Barbies Kiss

what to do:

explore the barbies' individual motivations

put the barbies in situations so they can See each other

create scenarios conducive to barbies kissing

what not to do:

allow the Research to psych you out. FUDGE THAT SHIT

II) Build The World

what to do:

include asides and mentions of things outside of the pov character's scope of observation/knowledge

construct vague map and timeline where necessary

disguise exposition with snark

what not to do:

allow the Research to psych you out. FUDGE THAT SHIT

III) Indulge Yourself 10000%

what to do:

save canon-doomed characters from their fates

write interactions that spark joy

give girls (gender neutral) lots of friends

put men (gender specific) in situations and outfits

what not to do:

allow the Research to psych you out. FUDGE THAT SHIT

#writing #writing problems #fanfiction #wreck me in the wine-dark deep #wip #can you tell that i have one (1) crippling habit #i love to research but man sometimes i get so far into the weeds i can no longer see the forest #or however that saying goes #my writing

[enok1]

Being in that weird middleground of homeschooled and unschooled is very... Strange..!

#Like. I DID go to school! Until I was 9! And then I didn't anymore. #I don't know math but I am literate. Science eludes me and I don't understand basic functions. But I. Am literate! #Going back to learn things as an adult is so frustrating and embarrassing because these topics are only every framed for children #Understandably! I don't have a problem with that itself. However it makes it more obvious how far behind you are on everything #And it's exhausting. The progress is slow. I can't spend a school day's worth of time studying because I have responsibilities. #My mother made it clear that it is my job alone to learn these things. When my brother expressed his rage over it she said the same to him. #'If you're so upset by it why haven't you learned it yourself?' Something along those lines. It hurts a lot #Where do you start. I have over 10 years to catch up on. I know he was confused and overwhelmed as well. #Whether or not it is our responsibility to learn now.. It doesn't change that she should have taught us then. #But I can't talk about it. Or I will get yelled at or guilt tripped... 🙏

[molluskzone]

based off that one mikeyway image

#furry #anthro #art #artists on tumblr #my art #sanctuary #ugh i could not figure out that fucking angle of the pose #especially w female character she looked too boyish my first few attempts #the problem is her legs they should be less far apart #however it looked off balanced when i ddnt draw them like that so :/ #its weird to draw blake not smiling

[britneyshakespeare]

you know. back when i reviewed poetry submissions for [insert unnamed literary magazine here], i once got a submission containing only two poems (you could submit up to five) both of which were about the author's older brothers, whose names are dan and john (my older brothers' names are dan and jon...athan) and her relationship w them and descriptions of them were not all that unlike my own brothers. still one of the weirdest things that has ever happened to me

#i understand my brother's do not have the most exotic names in the anglophone world #(although this was an international outlet and we frequently got pleeenty of submissions from non-anglophone countries) #(in fact one of the reasons i got sick of it over time was seeing too many worthy poems be rejected for bullshit reasons #and that seemed to happen in especially high numbers to poems from perspectives of other cultures/international issues #that i found to be very well-crafted and objectively deserving! but u can only afford to publish so many poems a week right #so u have to pass over the vast majority of stuff. so u have to grasp at reasons like 'the voice is too close' whatever tf that means) #(that shit used to pissss meeeee offff. i hate literary magazine readers. it's a fool's job and i can say it bc i've been the fool) #however that being said. what a coincidence #tales from diana #they were good poems too. i think i gave them a thumbs up before they were eventually rejected like most other thigns that are worthwhile #did i ever mention the literary publishing world is bullshit? bc it is #especially especially the poetry side of it. completely bullshit and so out of touch w how ppl read and appreciate poetry nowadays #no wonder that shit makes no money. well that and nobody wants to pay for it anyway #but when it comes to my poetry i have no problem being a starving artist. i never made a dollar from my work #but i don't think my work has ever been worth a dollar. it's never COST me a dollar either #and as far as i'm concerned i don't really want to be appreciated much for it #not that i ever have been. well. lol #but it wasn't about me bc i have reviewed thousands of submissions but only submitted to like... a handful of outlets over time #and having been on both sides of that equation. i do think that that's not for me #sometimes i do think about self-publishing but i don't even think the work of that would feel worth it to me #and if i were to do that i would probably do it under a pen name. #i don't have a collection of poems. i just have poems. thousands of em. #if i ever get around to writing those plays i have outlined in my head i might consider it though #bring back the closet drama

[girlscience]

I hate finding a fandom that likes to take a slightly emotional character and makes them cry and have panic attacks constantly in every fic. Least favorite fandom trope ever

#leave my man Kirk alone 😭 he's a little sensitive. he's in tune with his feelings. #he's not sobbing every episode or having breakdowns every time something stressful happens in screen #I don't WANT to read about his trauma feelings when as far as I can tell they are Grossly exaggerated in every instance #sure. I will accept he was traumatized by the shit that happened in his childhood #however if he was acting like he is made to in half these fics he quite literally would not be fit for command #ack. this isn't just a kirk thing though #I really have so little patience for visibly or over the top emotional characters to begin with #I know it's my low empathy talking but it's so annoying #shut up!!!! put it away!!!!! I don't want a character sobbing every time someone treats them nice for however many chapters #suck it up and move on!!! get into more interesting shit! #I know people use fanfic as an outlet or therapy or whatever but I wish they would write about more interesting feelings #or find more interesting ways of having characters express them #like idk. give Kirk weird issues around food cause of starving as a kid #give him weird attachment problems that make him over protective but also distant to avoid being sad when they die #make him work extra hard to keep the enterprise safe because it's like the one consistent home he's had #make him relentlessly curious because his education as a kid was inconsistent so he works to learn everything he can now #or like he over compensates for his lack of childhood education. have him perceive failings there where there aren't any or something #make him have lots of issues with dictators #I mean fucks sake even in the episode with the man who killed half the people on the colony he was on as a kid #he kept a level head and was the only one trying to actually work through it logically and didn't immediately jump to trying to kill the guy #unlike the other characters #it just makes zero sense to have him falling apart over essentially nothing all the time #it's just stupid!!!! and annoying!!! and I don't want to read it!!!!