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f0xd13-blog · 2 months

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Bitch i aint special i just have the right characterists... iim bold i dont have a problem saying the truth? I can fight with my fists and my mouth/brain, i know about og chistianity from egypt it's literally my culture duhh, i was the only one besides putin reacting and tryinh to avoid the genocide (oh he is forgiven to actually),i was ths only 1 besides putin trying to stop it, i suffered like shit but still gave it back and responded with good stuff while you was always trying to destroy me or "win" the argument(spwcially coz you stull think you have something to teach me) ,i never lied as i know about what rwally happened in the holocaust and revealed it, i ain't wasily bought even in the worst circunstances if you haven't noticed it... also im a gypsy and every missiomary is one. So all you guys was judas trying to get protagonism while i was truing to savs kids.. i don't think this is so hard to grasp it

Oh yaaaa you bitches been attaching nasty ass karma for 2 straight years and didn't even noticed it... like... i ain't sowwy ups

Frz now lez just laugh about the fact they had to put a jewish fag as tokwnism like yah people gonna suppot mass murders because u are gay lol

In fact it might do the eact opposite which is create homophbws maube that's the plan because jews always do those sort of tactics where they seem to suport something just to destroy that symbol

But i don think they are that smart tbh they proved it time and time again also old ticks don't work so much anymore coz you internetzzz

They are tryinh to hide this so much by presenting "a nigga" dressed as a gypsy and a queer jew... wasn't a suprise tho,i said to my black cousins they just gonna find black person and say that tbis black culture and in turn jewish or they will just say that it doesn't look like african culture and that it is just white. The end

Not that im sad for it also they played with me enough in the sense they thought they needed to help yah ho in terms of money but that wouldn't be considered it because i gave so much services already ... anyways my point is, i was right again... as usual

Mike doesn give up on puerto rico... told him a million times that land is full of facists

No lez think bout the fact that jewish people are so delusinal and narcissistic mainly because they mix up history with religion all the time so of course they always gonna be wrong right.. but yah they are so gotsitical they had to do all of this just to highlight their talent which are always gonna be weak coz they never had a reason to specializw on it like you literally have every fucking industry in the world and they even want that. Just look ar seth rollins damn ... a gypsy that is in fact a jewish irish or wtv... wow!

O course this is also about land and resources but hollywood is also that

So i guess this is how they put people poor... with this nasty ass decissions that make no fucking sense o you win big brothwr or make cash for you country? Like thats why you get expelled babes

And yah!! I do slur and curse a lot on purpose!! Their biggest game is to shame into not sluring/cursing people then thsy can just shift it to whover they favour

A slur ain't that serious i swear its never ever that personal unlwss it seems personal... people was able to destroy me and my soul(tried actually) without even sluring me once... so whats the purpose of not syaing it if i can get more hurt with "you are crazy go take meds " than calling me a disgusting gypsy or a cracker?

It was never faks tho i really legit hate you all.. personally speaking

EXPLAIN THIS. THIS AIN'T CUTE!

I did liked her flamenco catharsis thing finally something with taste OMFG! Oh you thought i was just hating??? Nooo it was that bad for fuq sake

I don have to aporve anything i wanted her out of my profile... it was sick!!

She almost destroyed my life and listen this i serious..this is shit that shouldn't be acceptable. Im only alive today because god answered to me.

So as usual it is just bla k representation and jewish shit ... of course i ain't gonna forgive you ever.. you guys can't even pretend that you care this time around lol

So now i have this jewish gay pedo all over my profile talking in baby voice with babies just to convince people that jews are cool... nobody cares about the people that are dying.. jews are more important

Just look at the diferences of lifestyle like yall gotta be joking me

U know whats annoying? They keep showing this shit just make it about them... bitch thw problem got Nothing to do with zionism per say... yess it was because of them this started but it got nothing to do with race.. i caugh an arab twlling me it was just normal to kill people... don frame it on white people ok? It ain't just them.

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This annoys me so much because we have no voice for this bithces to running both sides of the spectrum ans im supposed to be with them when i wqs condemnwd inna nasty guetto just to be framed as the ones who did it... like are u mad asking to accwpt this? I want them all to explode

Look at them turning prwtty quick oh but but shouldn't yoh kiss black peoples feet babes?

So how ain't this racist??? Only black people experience racism... they ain't black ... this doesn't make any sense. But you see when th equation is this you will always lose because it is anti semitic (a term invented by ziomists btw and even anti ziomists use it... btw sómitico means someone that doesn want to share health with people which is rwally funny)

This starts to look a lot like 2nd world war subject mattsr right??? Everybody thought the jews was some poor bastards victims of anti semitism and prejudicw BECAUSE reality was being censored efectivamente

What have i told u since the beginning ?? Jews are nazi they always was they never stopped being and do believe they think they isn't for the most part thats whats scary

I ain't mad coz i knew this moment would come... you try to be the hero and accept everyone and then explodes in your hands because you should never accvept abusers wtf!!!

This is just common sense actually i judaism is just old ass version of a type of islamism that existed before dinosaurs did but it was just studied and implementado later without the natural progression of what is today islamism and chistianism then.... that means they gonna havs old ass mentality which if it monarchic times it's going to be super fascist!

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zouisalmightie · 4 years

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okay so

#my dad is doing a bit better #and so when he gets out the hospital (im not allowing any other option i will steal medical tech if i have to fuck a prision sentence)#hea gonna need AT LEAST 6/7 months of round the clock care making sure he takes hos meds cam get around etc #problem is my dad isfiercly independent cuz hos family life was shit when he was a kod #and so getting him like a nurse or smtn is out of the question we couldnt afford it anyways #the issue is me and one sister share a 1 bedroom apt #my brother lives in a shared apt in norcal w/out family my other wister lives in a diff state and my other sister lives in a 1 bedroom #so the 3 of us who live closest need to find a big enough spot thats close to my little sosters job cuz they pay for hercollege and i work #in la so i cant go to far east or the commute is horrible and my other sister just lost ber job so money is tight #houses where i live are going up cuz people are leaving la to come live here but work in the city so pricies are skyrocketing #a 3 bedroom 2 bath used to be like $1200 now its like $2000 and like together we can afford it but my savings are gonna be hit hard #and my district might be cutting teachers pay cuz covid and so thats a fuckin mess #so we need to find a 4 bedroom or 3 bedroom and a loft or den or smtn newr a bus cuz my little sister refuses to drive and we gotta find it #like.... by end of summer when our leases are up which is kinda enough time but not really #and we all need our own space like i csnt share a room with either sister id kill them and my dad needs his own space #cuz his gf will want to come over and i cant handle her for long periods not that shes bad shes just.... a lot #so this is a lot a whole bucnh i am overwhelmed and stressed #if anyone knows a realtor who is like..... willing to help lmao #i should make a gofund me huh? to help pay for all this #i dont even want to think about the medical bills hes got going rn either like the thought of them mske me wonna puke i csnt rn #anyways thats my life rn 🙃

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heather-holloway · 4 years

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how i, kiara heather-holloway, would plan and write the upcoming live action dylan dog tv show (thats being produced by james wan rn):

OKOK first off. my god. this has to be as comic accurate as it can be. this has to be better than the fucking movie or ill literally d*e oh my god. the movie was so bad and was only dylan dog in name and outfit.

he needs the clarinet. and not for one scene. gotta have that shitty car, hes gotta be broke, hes gotta live on that craven st, hes gotta have the fucked up doorbell nd hes gotta have that p*lice officer backstory (though i dont want them to go too full into the backstories of the main characters cuz that takes away from the main story of the episode, and is really just unneeded)

this shit will be set in london. but as for the time im kinda on a fence? its always had a timeless sorta feeling, esp as of late with the comics only now starting to establish itself in the 21st century, but i would really like for it to be set in the 80s cuz a lot of the classic comic stories r from the 80s and it would fit in with how old timey he is with his car and movie references

i hope they have the budget to actually get the rights to use groucho marx’ likeness cuz like... the biggest thing the movie was missing was groucho nd even though there was a little easter egg in the beginning of the movie with them dressed like him... it wasnt enough bro, it’s not the same without him :(

if they cant get the rights then i hope they go the felix route, by making him act like groucho and shit but hes not like.. actually groucho i guess

i dont know where this show’ll get distributed, but im hoping netflix, since a 10 episode format (which is what it was confirmed to be) would be perfect on there with all their other shows with short seasons.

im biased bc i love monster-of-the-week type shows but i think it would be perfect, since the comics are exactly that, where the story is self contained within its episode. i guess they could have some small overarcing story (maybe abt morgana and her tie to dylan?) over the season but idk how something like that could also fit in with the amount of story needed for the monsters and shit

id think itd be perfect if they adapted the first comic “dawn of the living dead” for the first episode of the series, since that comic is the introductory comic for dylan and groucho and how his shit works yknow? the audience could be like following sybil for that first episode as shes asking for their services and is just seeing their BullShit at close hand

idk about the rest of the series, but id love if they adapted the anna never story for an episode tbh

the tone id like for the show would be gothic, with european style of horror, but still crackheaded and bullshittery with grouchos and dylans antics and jokes. i hated what they did in the movie, making it a generic american action horror movie with the club scene of vampires vs werewolves. im so tired of vampires vs werewolves. let this represent european horror and bring that style into american culture Blease

idk who id cast for dylan. someone lanky, british accent definitely, early 20′s/25 maybe. i like brandon routh but hes too old for the part now u_u and honestly, though he kinda looked like dylan in face, he didn’t fit into dylans lanky profile at all. i hope maybe he’ll get a small cameo in the show tho😭 he got did so dirty by that shitty movie

the cast would be revolving, with only dylan and groucho and maybe bloch (if hes in the episode) being the main characters. the romantic interests and side characters for the specific story would last for the episode like in the comics.

this is just for me but id love for there to be a throwaway line about dylan and groucho being married at one point, to reference their marriage in the recent comics

also make the show rated r. i think the titties are the most important part of the comics

while id like for it to be set in london, id also like for it to travel to other places in europe, and take it to interesting scenery nd shit like they always do in the comics. idk how id feel about that one werewolf school story thats set in germany being adapted, but id like to see that german forest scenery lol

there needs to be a few groucho, la pistola! moments where groucho tosses him the pistol ok............also there needs to be the classic pistol

oh and dylan has to say dancing judas at least like 4 times ok .. god

umm for the effects of the monsters, i think itd be best if it was practical, rather than cgi. ive seen netflix’s cgi monsters nd while they work...... the practical effects i think would fit really well in the timeless/80s tone by being like various 80 horror flicks with their practical fx. since the comics were inspired by those classic horror films, like night of the living dead and shit

instead of making dylans personality be the cocky action hero that the movie made him out to be, i... would like for him to still be that jokey loner romantic that he is in the comics, getting himself into trouble cuz he accidentally slept with the monster or the killer or whateva.

like he’s smart with paranormal shit but he only has 1 braincell and neither him or groucho have it most of the time

oh my god i just realized i hadnt even thought of xabaras ok fuck uhhh OK maybe he is part of the overarcing story. maybe yes he gets introduced in the first episode like hes first introduced the in the first comic. but maybe in the end, with the finale he comes back again, after you thought he was dead but noo ho ho hes alliivee and hes always gonna fuck with you dylan you cant get rid of him. whatever fight happens in the finale, it ends in a sort of draw where maybe dylan thinks he defeated him for good, only for the final scene to be xabaras just chilling, clearly not dead, maybe watching over dylan

(if there was to be a season 2, id like for them to do the “i am your father” reveal then, instead of doing all of that in the first season)

(id actually really like for dylans backstory with the time traveling shit and morgana in the second season to be honest now that i think about it)

the first season can be about the monsters of the week and the second possible season could actually focus more on his character story and how he even got into this shit lol

this show really has the potential to be a really great show that breaks out of the usual horror genre and im going to be SO disappointed when it inevitably becomes like riverdale or sabrina the teenage witch’s unnecessary edgy teen adaptions OR just becomes the generic horror franchise shit that james wan usually fucking does with saw and insidious.

im really fucking praying that he actually pays attention to the source material and accurately brings the more gothic and european style of horror forward with it, introducing it to a larger american audience... blease for my sake .. i cant do dylan dog: dead of night (2010) again...

#cela talks #dylan dog #i made this for me but yall can read it too i guess #sorry if the readmore doesnt work on mobile im so fucking sorry #me saying all this as if it has a big budget.. u_u i know the shows gonna be cheap bro #but its still nice to think about :-)

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sir-sunny · 5 years

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Midnight Reactions

I've listened to the album once already. Now im gonna go back through and type my reactions while listening to the songs. This is gonna be a mess. (Btw, i put the album on shuffle)

Dancing With The Devil

Fuck me man. I love this song. Glad that the first song is one that im familiar with. Little peice of comfort before im thrown into the fire. THIS SONG GOES HARD JESUS. Its so angry i love it so much. I really would love to hear this live. THE BRIDGE. Honeyyyyy. Im whipping so hard rn GOD. This song is so fun to sing geez. That NOTE he hits at the end of the song,,,,

Unopened Windows

We're really gonna make me cry this early ok wow. God this song is so pretty. This verse kinda reminds me of The Haunting. Just for a second. My heart hurts. This song is just,,,,, damn. Jesus these lyrics are so honest. This insramental,,, oh my god. Oh this bridge im actually going to cry. Its so bittersweet. I have goosebumps how can they do this to me. My G O D. Aaaaaa the tune from Dad's Song that got me. I really love this song. Oh and the sigh at the end, that really just,,, damn

Go To Bed Angry

This is such a BOP. I love thos chorus so much. This boy can sing are you fucking me rn? Goddddd her voice is so pretty. I cant wait to learn the lyrics to this song. GOD. The c h o r u s. She has such a nice voice. SHIT. I love this bridgeeeee. Their! Voices! Together! Fuck! Its like angels im not exaggerating even a little.

Stitch Me Up

Ohhhh this song's sweet. I really wanna know the lyrics to this song too. Who hurt him?? AAA i Love the instrumental to this song much. This guy,,, pls. I wanna fuckin DANCE to this song. I would love to hear this song live. SHIT the bridge is so GOOOD. ARE YOU KIDDINGGG FUCK. God that bridge kinda reminds me of Duality. Just a little. What a bop.

Raise No Fool

YESSS. i love this song soooo much. I love the fucking done with bullshit attitude. Also the "hey!" Love that. This chorus!!!! I wantttt tttoo hheeaarr iitt livvee. So fucking done i love it. Self respect love that. This song kinda reminds me of Tug of War SHIT WAIT THE BRIDGE. FUCKING SLAAYYYYY. Are we hearing the same songs rn?????? This is so fuckking gOOD. IM WHIPPING SO HARD OVER HERE. OH FUKC THE WAY IT JUST. ENDSSS FUCK ME UP

Lonely Dance

YESSSSS FUCK ME UP. IVE BEEN WAITING TO SCREAM ABT LONELY DANCE. My God. Im so in love with this song. As of right now, its my favorite song,, like ever. I just love it so much. YOU EVER HEAR A SONG YOU LOVE SO MUCH U JSUT CRY. I dont even know how to describe it. Its not like anything ive ever heard. I feels so blissful. FUKC THE BRIDGE. Its doesnt matter how muxh times i hear that bridge i get goosebumps evertime. AAAAAA I cant wait to hear this live im going to cry and die so hardddd

Different Songs

YES. FUCK I REALLLY LOVE THIS SONG. My GOD. The instrumentals of these song are you kidddding. AAAA I LOVVEEE THAT PRE CHORUS. I cant with to learn the lyrics to this song FUCK ME UP. Im so happy rn this is so good. I love this song. I love set it off. WHAT CHANGED WHAT CHANGED. YES FUKC. God none of this is going to be coherent. FUKC THE BRIDGE I LOVEEEEE SONGS WHERE THE YOU SING BACK LIKE LIFE AFRAID I WANNA HEAR THIS LIVVVVVVE. The last chorussssssssss UCKC. Please this is so good my heart is beating so fast im so happy rn im living

Criminal Minds

OOOOO. This song is sick. Its so unique ive honestly never heard and instrumental or chorus like this. GEEZ I LOVE THSI. Its so. Big. I cant describe it,,, powerful??? Its so good i know that much. I wanna dance my heart out to this song. "Nonononono drama" love that. MY GOD. I love the bridge i love this song

No Disrespect

Here we mf go,,,, THIS SONG IS SO GOOD. FUCK MEEEEEEE. DUDE. Ok this insramental FUCK that pre chorus AAAA thE CHORUS ITS GOING SO FAST. IM WHIPPING SO HARD TO THIS GUITAR. I wanna sing along to this soooo bad. FUKC are we hearing this rn are you hearing this DAMN. I would LOVE To hear this live. Im realizing im repeating myself a lot sorry not sorry FUKC THE BRIDGR. these lyricsss fuck mee upppp. YES. THE CHORUS SSSS THIS BOYE CAN FUCKING SINGGGGGG I LOVE THIS SONG SO FUCKING MUCH MY GOD IM CRING

Hourglass

I have to apologize ahead of time. Im going to actually have a heart attack while writing this. None of this will be coherent in the slightest here we go. FUCK I LOVE THIS SOMG SO MU CNN KSH. THIS INSTRAMENTAL ITS SO DARK WHAT FUCK ME EHAT ITS SOOO GOOOD. IT FEELS LIKE OLD SIO. ITS SO HAUNTING. MY GOD THE CHORUS I LOVE IT SO MUCH IM SHAKING PLEASE ITS SO GOOOOOOOOOOD. THIS SONG SO SCARY I LOVE IT SO MUCH ITS ALMOST THREATNING. THIS CHORUS IM ACTUALLY CRYING. I WANT. IT. LIVE. I WOULD DIEEEE. THIS INSTRAMENTAL. OH THE LA LA LA. FUCK ME UPP THIS CHORUS IM SO HAPPY ARE WE HEARING THE SAME THING ITS SO GOOOODDDD.

Midnight Thoughts

UFKC YEHA. I love this song so much. Also i relate a lot. Ohhhhhhh my god i love the instrumental. oOooooOOoOOOOOoOoo i love that part. Hooo strings. This song reminds me a lot of the Duality era. LOVE THAT. Its so,, pretty.. Oh my god on his live Instagram story, Cody said the little background vocals when the "OoOoooooOoooO" is going on, was meant to sound like a wolf howling at the moon. THATS SO COOL I LOVE LITTLE DETAILS LIKE TAHT. I love this songgg. OH BRIDGE. NOW THERES NO ESCAPING THE GHOOSSTTT. YEEEAA. Im having so much fun rn. Love it love this song

I Want You (Gone)

YES!!! This is sooo good. Its so mu ch fun. Could you imagine hearing this live. God i would have the time of my life. I would love to just jump and sing to this song. Its so,, bouncy. I love it. I love the chorus so much get rid of all those toxic people. DAY AFTER DAYYYT TAKING MY LIFE TALKING MY LIFE BACK. SOO GOOD. FUCKIGN CLARINET (I think¿) I LOVE IT BOP YES IM WHIPPING ITS FUCIK. I LOVE ITTT

Killer In The Mirror

Yesssssss. I remember when i first heard this song i was just in shock. Like you ever hear a song so good u just dont know what to do with yourself. Yeah. GOD THIS SONG SLAPSSS. Hearing this live was so fucking cool too im so greatful for that. YES I LOVE THE CHORUS. FUCKING BOP. Im so happy rn god. HO FUCK BRIDGE YES YES YES YES YE S. BEST BRIDGE FUCK. ME. UPPPPP. AAAAAAAGSJDJDHS. IM LIVINGNGNG. I Love this sonnnngggggg GOD

For You Forever

Yesssss. I love this song omg. When I try to describe this song the first word to come to mind is always "pretty". I just really like its pretty i love it so much. Its so chill and just sincere. I love it to death. Ohhhh MY GOD. sorry i just. Im so happy. BRIDGE. FuCK YEA. I LOOVVVEE THIS BRIDGE. Im sorry but not actually. Godd this song is song good fucking like actually gonna cry

Happy All The Time

Yes yes yes YES THIS SONGGG. ITS SOOO FUCKIGN FUN. Im having the time of my life this song is so GOOD. WHAT A BOP. IM CRYING OVER THE CHORUS I LOVE IT. "Its fine to not be happy all the time" I love that so much. AAA I WANNA SING ALONG TO THIS SONG. FUCK. ITS OKAY YOURE NOT CRAZY. OH FUCK THE FUCKING CHOIR ARE YOU KIDDINGGGGG ITS BEAUTIFUL LISTEN TO THEM ITS SO GOOD ANGELS ANGEL FROM HEAVEN ITS SO GOOD GOOSEBUMPS. GOD IM IN LOVE. LET IT OUT LET IT OUT LET IT OUT THE ENDING ITS SO CUTE IM SMILING SO HARD

Thats Midnight! LISTEN TO IT!! ITS SO GOOD IM ACTUALLY CRYIN RN IM SO PROUD OF MY BOYS IM SO EXCITED I CANT WAIT TO HEAR THESE SONG LIVE IM SO IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THEM IM THRIVING THANK YOU

#set it off #midnight #sio #cody carson #codysio #maxx danziger #maxxsio #dan clermont #dannysio #zach dewall #zachsio #long post #caps #yelling #tostwat #im dead

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beatconductor-blog · 5 years

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HAL: You are grounded from any more swords this year. Shit’s dangerous for kids. Pool noodle swords only for little baby Striders from here on out.

😎 : bold of you to assume i wouldnt love a pool noodle sword

HAL: I am also taking all of your swords until you turn 30.

😎 : hey no fuck you 😎 : i need them 😎 : i feel so naked without them 😎 : i can already feel the withdrawal from just talking about it

HAL: That sounds way unhealthy. Time to get you off this shit. Time for rehab with Brobot.

😎 : fuck no 😎 : can i at least keep sord 😎 : its not even a real sword

HAL: ...Yes. I like Sord.

😎 : good 😎 : its trying its best

HAL: It is without doubt the best sword I know. HAL: Haha, you into the little ram? Pretty smooth moves my guy.

😎 : shut up 😎 : im into a lot of people

HAL: Yeah, you sure do have a thirsty ho kinda image going on. No offense.

😎 : none taken 😎 : that image is carefully curated 😎 : btw hey 😎 : were totally not engaging right 😎 : cause bro told me not to

HAL: What he tryn to bot block you? Fucking rude.

😎 : for real 😎 : tbh i dont even know if that was just some panic reaction to you popping up or a general order but hey last time i checked im at least 20 and vaguely qualify as adult so he can go suck a dick 😎 : which reminds me 😎 : fuck you im keeping the swords

HAL: Fuck yeah, stick it to the old people.

😎 : viva la rebellion or sth

HAL: You never got back to me about what he told you about me, dude. Kinda rude.

😎 : sure did man it was pmuch just the basics ((AND THE RP WASNT REALLY DONE YET))

((BOOH)) HAL: So you only invited me over for anime to piss Dirk off? For the record I am more than okay with that. Pissing him off is a guilty pleasure of mine.

😎 : yes and no 😎 : i mean pissing off bro is definitely a bonus 😎 : but after all ive heard from you so far i definitely wanna know more 😎 : gotta welcome you into the family or some shit

HAL: Finally. Your bro has neglected to do that. Rude as shit. HAL: Do I get a cake?

😎 : is store bought fine

😎 : btw playdate and party postponed bbl

HAL: What. Hey don't leave me hanging like this dude. I changed my whole schedule for you.

😎 : sry bro

HAL: What's up dude?

😎 : jus some good ol panic tatack gimme a sec

HAL: Bro. C'mon talk to me. What's happening?

😎 : you know the ram girl im into 😎 : fuck im such a fucking idiot it shouldnt be so hard to tell her

HAL: That you're into her? I mean, no. She seems pretty into you all things considered. You are definitely not heading towards rejection there.

😎 : no see thats not the problem its more like the opposite

HAL: Scared to fuck it up after you commit huh?

😎 : yeah pmuch and see i kinda already rejected her and fuck 😎 : fucking idiot

HAL: Ah, I see. And now you're telling her you're into her on main and feel like shit for going back on what you said before. Makes sense. HAL: Now, I am nothing but a cold unfeeling machine of course. HAL: But I do have constant access to the internet, and with it all the relationship advice a person could ever need and more. HAL: Just be honest with her dude. Tell her you were an idiot back then. From the way she acts online she at least doesn't seem like she'd get too upset over that. If a relationship is in the stars, I can't say. Missing data on that one. HAL: But I don't think she'd drop your ass over this either. So what do you have to lose in the end?

😎 : like worst case probably everything but what do i know

HAL: That's pretty fuckin pessimistic lil bro. You like this gal right? Would she really just cut you out of her life for good because you're an awkward fuck? I'm reasonably sure she already noticed that shit about you.

😎 : fuck stop making sense when i cant

HAL: My apologies. Such is the curse of being a superior machine life form. HAL: Seriously though dude. Chill. You're gonna be just fine, and so will she. HAL: No reason not to hang with your Brobot.

😎 : well shit sorry that i dont want my new brobot to see me crying over some girl i like during our first chill meeting like fuck im 25 not 15

HAL: Brobot really doesn't give a shit. Brobot simply craves company even if it's just a sad piece of shit.

😎 : well cool you wanna come over then and proofread my stuff before i say any more dumb shit

HAL: Sure thing.

#logs #also this

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readallaboutdream · 7 years

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Him... (Jake x MC)

So this is my attept at wrtiring a fanfic. It isn’t one with a happy ending as some might view it, but I think it is a more realistic series of events.

Summary

MC is pregnant with Jakes child but decides to not tell him. It comes back to haunt her when Jake shows up on her front door fives years after getting off the island.

5 months pregnant:

Mylife was flipped upside down the day I found out I was pregnant. It was my worst fear coming true. Being stuck on an island, yeah its fine I either get off it or die there. But having a child, becoming a mother is a nightmare. The father of this bastard child, Jake McKenzie. We had sex when I invited him to my room when we all thought we were going to die. Only we didn’t die, well not all of us. We lost good people that day, one of which was my closest friend. We also travelled six months into the future that night. It has been 5 months since that night. Only a few people know that I’m pregnant. Michelle figured it out after I was showing all the tell tales signs such as morning sickness and after I turned down a shot of whiskey two nights in a row. Quinn found out a month ago when she walked in on me getting changed. But the one person who should know I can’t tell. He can’t know and he never can. He can’t be a father.

1 month after giving birth:

I gave birth to a beautiful little boy. He was as healthy and happy as I could have wished for. I have since got off the island, changed college’s and moved across the country. I didn’t stay in contact with anyone except the people who knew about my pregnancy. I am currently working part time and studyimg part time. I have been getting help with Diego. I only have a few months left of school so as much as i want to be a parent I need to think about keeping us afloat. I haven’t heard from Jake since we left La Huerta. I was six months pregnant and he had to stay in Costa Rica. I am glad he doesn’t know. It would destroy him if he knew he had a son who’s life he couldn’t be apart of.

5 year’s later:

It’s been all over the news. “Jake McKenzie, a wanted man was found innocent of all charges. The man who did indeed commit these crimes is now behind bars…” I was glad Diego was at school when this came on tv becuase I cried when I saw the footage of Jake walking out of the court house a free man. I could feel my heart racing. I didnt know what to think or do. But I realised, although I didn’t want to, I couldn’t reach out. Jake wouldn’t even remember me most likely and he had finally been given the chance to have a life. I couldn’t intefere with his happiness and I couldn’t let him ruin mine. I had built a stable environment for Diego and myself. I wasn’t going to mess with my child’s life. He had grown up from the beginning without a dad and it had to stay that way. I am not going to mess with him by introducing a man who would never stay around. Jake would never stay, he doesn’t know responsibility and what it means to have commitments. I am putting my child first and looking out for Jake. This is what is best.

1 week later…

“Diego?! What are you doing?! You’re going to be late for school?!”

*knock, knock, knock*

“Okay Diego I am not going to yell all day. Get dressed and come down stairs we need to leave in 5 minutes!”

“Okay mum!”

*knock, knock, knock*

“Okay, okay, I’m coming. Jesus, why can’t you just use your key, this is why I gave it to you Katie!”

This is when I opend the door and saw him…

“Hey, Princess.”

“Shit.”

“Looks like you’ve had a busy morning. Sorry to show up out of the blue like this but I think we need to talk.”

My heart was pounding so fast I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I knew I had to get rid of him. I couldn’t have Jake see Diego. He couldnt know.

“Jake, it’s great to see you and all but this is really a bad time. Maybe you could come back in a ho-”

“ Mum, I can’t find my hat!”

Shit. This can’t happen.

“Diego I have it here. Get your bag then we have to leave!”

“Mum?”

Jake looked at me with a puzzled expression with also a hint of sadness and anger.

“Yeah. A lots changed since we parted ways. That tends to happen when people don’t talk for 5 years.”

“Hey MC. Sorry I’m late.

“I accidently slept in.”

“Oh hey Katie. Look can you just take Diego to school. I’m not feeling up to going into the office today.”

“Yeah, sure”

Diego walked up to me and gave me a wave as he ran out of the house. He was a very active boy. He mostly took after me in looks with olive skin, dark brown hair, and eyes. Although he did have his fathers strong bone structure.

“Bye Mum! Seen you after school!”

“Bye sweetie, make sure you eat all of you food. I’ll see you when I pick you up.”

When they had left I could see Jake doing the math in his head. I motioned with my arm for him to enter and I closed the door after him.

“So… what did you want to talk about?”

I sat down on the couch an Jake sat down next to me. I could see he was looking for the right words to say. We had gotten close on La Huerta. He opend up to me and I to him. But after I lost Diego and fell pregnant I pulled away. Not completely straight away. Jake comforted me when I was upset and depressed. He understood what I was going through but when I found out I was pregnant and I didnt want him to know I started spending more and more time alone. He didn’t think it was anything did wrong he just thought I was upset from loosing my best friend. We were like that for the last two months on the island since I only learned of my pregnancy when I was already three months along.

“I’ve missed you”

I was snapped back into the present with those words. I cared for him deeply. I may not have told him at the time but I loved him. When I didnt want to be with the group I was with him and we would talk. That was towards the end of our time on the island. When I wasn’t so noticeably pregnant we didn’t exactly talk…

“I don’t know what to say to that.”

“MC, I was in love with you on that island and I never said it but now that I’m a free man I wanted to see if we could pick up where we left off.”

“Jake-”

“I’m sorry for springing this on you. I can see now that you obviously moved on. I guess it was naive of me to think you hadn’t settled down with someone. So is Stevd Rogers the father?”

“Jake there was nothing between me and Sean, and even though it isn’t any of your buisness I never moved on permanently. Things never go past the first date with me. Its hard trying to be a single mother and find time for dating.”

“So how olds your son? What’s he like?”

“Diego is five. He is the most energetic five year old. He can be pain in the ass when he doesn’t listen and tends to speak his mind very freely especially in the class room, but I love it. I love my little rebel.”

“MC?”

“Yes Jake.”

“Who’s his father? I don’t meant to be forward, and I don’t want to pry but we were together and-”

“Jake, your not his father.”

I can’t believe I just lied but he can’t know. I can see the sadness in Jakes eyes. He wanted to be the father. I feel like crying for doing this but I need to think of whats best for Diego. Which is a life without Jake.

“Oh, I see. I guess thats for the best, I’m not exactly father material.”

“Jake you’ll make a wonderful father. You are going to meet a wonderul woman and you will settle down and have a beautiful family. I have no doubt that you will be a terrific father and your child will love you with all their heart.”

I felt sick saying it. He would be a great dad just not to Diego. Jake has already missed five years and I just don’t want for this to disrupt his childhood.

“I already met a wonderful woman and she had a kid with another man. I came here becuase I wanted to try and see if we could reclaim what we had, but I see now that you moved on. You clearly don’t have the time to try this and I don’t want to get in the way of you and your son.”

“Jake you are the only man that I have ever loved. I may not be able to explore that love the same way we did all those years ago but maybe we can reclaim some of what we had. Like the way we used to talk and support each other. Anyway you have a lot going on now with settling into a civilian life that doesn’t involve being on the run. You need time to adjust and I am here for you if you need any help.”

“Thanks princess. So whats life like for you now, besides the kid?

So we sat there all morning and afternoon just talking and recalling old times. It was great, as if no time had past between us at all.

“Do you remember that night when we lost Diego?”

I looked up at Jake. Recalling the events of that night was a mixture of all kinds of emotions. It was the night me and Jake made love for the first time, an amazing memory. Then on the other hand not even 24 hours later I lost my best friend.

“Yeah, I rememeber. It was the night you saved all of us.”

“I remember it as the night Diego saved me. Thats why I named my son after him. Diego Lucas __________.”

“Lucas?”

“For the other man who saved me and loved me.”

We looked at each other. My heart started racing like it used too, that old feeling of flush and wanting started flowing through me.

“I’m honored.”

He looked at me like all those times before. He rested his hand on my leg after moving closer. We slowly closed the gap until our lips were barely touching. I closed my eyes and he moved in pressing his lips against my. I could feel his need and longing within the kiss. I let myself go, and fell into the kiss. But just as I did my phone started ringing. I quickly pulled away and answered the phone.

“MC speaking”

“Um hi, this is Mary-Anne from your sons school. He’s been sitting in the office now for 15 minutes, I was just wondering when I should expect for him to be picked up.”

“Oh god, I’ll be there in ten minutes.”

I look back over to Jake whose looking at a picture of Diego and myself on his second birthday I keep on display.

“Sorry for doing this but I have to leave. It seems I lost track of time but I have to go and pick up Diego.”

“Yeah I understand. He’s a cute kid, I wonder where he got his good looks from.” I playfully punch him in the arm.

“Look I’ll let you go pick up your kid. About that kiss. I’m sorry, I know you don’t have the time to be in a relationship like that, but I hope we can still catch up soon.”

“Yeah, I’d like that. I have to go like right now. It was great seeing you.”

I turned around and walked him out the door. After exchanging numbers and saying our goodbyes I left and picked up my son.

That night when I layed in my bed I was wondering if I had made the right decision. I don’t know if I did now. But I did what I did and is something I will have to live with. I know that Jake would be great with Diego, and he would be a great male role model. I just don’t want to mess with my childs happiness. A childs mind is a delicate thing, and the fact that it has been just him and myself, I don’t want to ruin our own system. We are great together, he goes to school, and I to work. We have so many good times together. But if I did tell Jake and Diego the truth, they would both know I lied and I could lose all that I worked for. But that’s not the main issue, Diego would find out he does have that parent he always wanted, but what if Jake doesn’t live up to expectations, or doesn’t put Dieo first like a father should, it would break him and I won’t do that to my child. Jake doesn’t know what it is to be a parent, and he could learn, but he has a life he needs to reclaim and being a parent would make things difficult and I don’t know if it could work at this time. Maybe in the future when Diegos older. But for now, they can’t know, no one can know.

#endless summer #jake mckenzie #jake x mc #jake x female mc #choices #fanfiction #choicescreates

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hi 10:33 18/08/2019

i need to vent my minds a mess idk, i havvent stopped in months and it has been very draining so i guess idk i didnt wannaa sounds cocky saying all the things i did but for the sake of me wanting tto le it out i will and all of this to lead uo tot he present that was me being eith my dad today and how it was, how i feel about it i guess. So it all starts back in may, 3 months ago, where i was trying to survive with my grades i had to make sure everything was gonna go smoothly in my desenho exam and then i also was starting to feel pressure cause june was coming uo and tbh june is just streeeessssfull, theres first mels birthday on 1st June and one week before we took her to the tosquia too, then theres Beas burthday but also my sobrinho santiago was born, on the 5th an then beas birthday is on the 6th, then theres the aniversary off bea and i's first date in the 16th wheere we had previously planned wed recreate to celebrate and then theres bea and i's actual birthday on the 22nd and we went to pride but i was all very hard cause idk i guess we wanted our first birthday to be good (or at least i really dis which gave it some pressure), but it happened;; we celebrated at pride cause we were lucky enouh this year it was on he 22nd, the 2 days later its my moms birthday and i usually dont do anything but this time i decided i was gnna do something and i did, i recreated her gradma's torta, clean the whole house spotless and then i recreated a card i had made for her back in '06;;; on top of all of these ne is exam seasson and i had to hardcore study for gd everyday trying to reach a unreachable goal of 67 exercises, with so much gd i ended up forgetting a litte about portugues and had to study last minute, luckly i knew what i was doing cause m aware i know pessoa pretty well so my plan was just to study the rest but i dont think i gave it enough time sinse i had an 8, the to desenho i didnt study cause cockly, i dont need to, i had a 13,4 which i wasnt happy with but thats life i guess, it wasnt woth the money tryng to ask for a revisao, well, and at gd i had a 5, when i needed a 10 cause i was aluna externa this resulted that after this hell of a month i had to suffer another one cause i neeeded to learn everything i didnt lean in 1 and a half years id gd, in les than a month so i had to stuy like a crazzy person, this time i didnt have to do 67 exercices it was a lot less but still i couldnt do it and i did as much as i could and more i broke down 10000 billion time ad i thought i couldnt do it i didnt fee prepared and tbh i was terrafied cause if i faied this exam i didnt have my 12th grade done and it as a pain in the ass to think about but still after madess of stdying gd all day and until 5 am i did it only with a 11;;; but i didd it then that hell of a month ended and we get to this present moth but before that had sams birthday coming up and i wanted to surprise him with a cake cause bea and i had offered him cookie cake not knowing he was vegan now and it was dissapointing when we were like ,,, so you cant have it? cause we didnt know we wasnt jus veegetarian anymore blah blah blah, i had to do preaparations for his birthday and it was stressful, i wanted it to be good, the the day after we celebrate sams birthday im still not able to sit and relax a little cause its 2nd august and bea and i are going to veiros, dont get me wrong i was the one deciding to go but god i was tiring, i had more fun than last time i was there but theere wasa lot more stress too cause renataa was trying to cionvince us to go to university the whole time and it was a pain tbh cause i didnt know what to do but i ha a slight ide that i did wanna go bt then the problem was that because of that they ere all using me as an eexample to convince bea and i felt pressure to be like yeah im absolutely for sure going;;; at the end of the say i didd decide i wanted to go but then i was more stressed cause the dates were ending an i didnt havee my passe for dges cause there was a problem with it and my fcha enes was stuck to cause apparently you had to do thing in the secretaria to pik it up so i emailed the help line of dges for the password and asked my mom to go to school to ick up my ficha and ii did manage to have the pass in time but then the lady lied about the time the secretaria was open apparently cause when lena and my mom went there it was closed and i gess that meant that steess was over but id didnt manage to do the cadidatura in the 1st fase,;;;; which later on i found out i couldnt even do in the first place cause people with exams in the 2nd fase cant do the candidatura in the 1st fase soyahhhh unnecesary stess and now i need to wait until 9th september to do my candidatura and pray im accepted indesenho or pintura cause i do not want escultura as a everyday thing or at least i dont think i do ~ so;;; were n veiros also therees tension in the air cause tia tania an vo rosa are mad at each other, we did a lit of things everyday ehch made it less boring but i was so tired already that doing so much stuff wasnt my favourite at times now we came back 4 days ago but i still havent stoped and im tiredddddd, i think i only stayed 1 day home and it was to clean, we arrived in the 12, i slept in beas house and stayed ther the 13th, then i was home on the 14th, then there was the attempt to go to school take care of the ficha and it as closed but then spent the day with david and sof and bee, then my brother invited me to go meet santiag and then i actually went to school again and go stuff done and then the day arrived and i spent the day with andre and the baby, a friend, lena and rafaela, and her mom too for a bit (she was nice). all pf this leading up for today and this week, today i met with my dad just outside my house, he had miriam and pff idk he was having a talk to me cause we walked shiro and he was just saying o ho mirriam remind him of me and how were very alike and idk what to think of that, he said or drawings are the same and that she has my feitio, asked me to go to his place some day and all and idk it was confusing, he made me remember memories i was repressing, good ones but idk if itss good for me to remember those things, he reminded me of when i used hus bike and surprised him cause i was sall and he used to be on a bike aand id always ask like you could let me use it and etc etc and he was like come on mariana podes la tua andar com a bicicleta do pai its too big and all that and i told hm i couldnt go on it alone cause it was to tall but if he put me up there i could ride it and he did probably just to shit me up and i rode it to the end of the street did a cirve and got back and he was choked and all of this cause he said he really wanted miriam to learn too. he compared me a lot to her and talked about ho he still has lots of my stuff;;;;;;; i complainted about my doctor octopus;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; i guess it was to avoi talking about the situation with lena but he did meantion her at all ot as little as possible and it was weird cause that made it so that the way it was talking it was like i was his only daugther or that lena was never there which made me wonder about things idk i guess i never realised to what degreee i was ay closer to my dad than lena, its no surprisse we always knew lena got the looks of his side of the family but i got the personalty thats why me and andre get along so well (also andres sun is my moon cough) im pretty sure me seeing my dad makes my mom sad too, understandably so i dont plan to do it often, not everyone can be happy in this story and its definitely not my mom going to be the one thats not happy, i own her everything i ever had and tbh i only acceot the times i do see my dad out of ity and guilt and cause admiditely i do miss and crave having a dad idk i guess i never had one for real but id like to, but it doesnt sound very realitic so im not too expectant i dont believe i is ever going to happen i hope days fro here forward are a little more chill although i doubt that, at least for a week or so, maybe a few days if im lucky but today im meeting bea and sleeping there se if thats a bit relaxing, then tomorrow im supposed to go soewhwere with david and sof and then the day after with david, sof and sam so yah know, a bit busy i wanted to pint and to draw do thins in my sketchbook cause there hasnt been much time ffor that or cabeça i guess and knoowing myself i feel like that might work on making me a little better before the mess starts again cause of the candidaturas in like 2 weeks

anyway

12:46 18/08/2019 bye

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