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previous months are under the cut!
april ⋆ ˚。⋆౨ৎ˚
1) the goodbye cat by hiro arikawa (reread)
2) the traveling cat chronicles by hiro arikawa (reread)
3) this is me trying by racquel marie (arc)
4) kill her twice by stacey lee (arc)
5) the pairing by casey mcquiston (arc)
6) swiped by l.m. chilton (arc)
7) lies and weddings by kevin kwan (arc)
8) the odyssey by homer (audiobook)
january ⋆ ˚。⋆౨ৎ˚
1) beach read by emily henry (reread)
2) on palestine by noam chomsky & ilan pappé
3) valley verified by kyla zhao (gifted)
4) the wind at my back: resilience, grace, and other gifts from my mentor, raven wilkinson by misty copeland & susan fales-hill (gifted)
5) check please: year one by ngozi ukazu (reread)
6) check please: year two by ngozi ukazu (reread)
7) check please: year three by ngozi ukazu (reread)
8) check please: year four by ngozi ukazu (reread)
9) raiders of the lost heart by jo segura (gifted)
10) the frame-up by gwenda bond (arc)
11) everything i never told you by celeste ng ⊹
12) forgive me not by jennifer baker (gifted)
13) ever after always by chloe liese (gifted)
14) the summer of bitter and sweet by jen ferguson (gifted)
15) the lily of ludgate hill by mimi matthews (gifted)
16) last call at the local by sarah grunder ruiz (gifted) ⊹
17) the sun and the void by gabriela romero-lacruz (gifted)
18) a line in the dark by malinda lo (gifted)
19) biting the hand: growing up asian in black and white america by julia lee (gifted)
20) play it as it lays by joan didion
→ january wrap up
february ⋆ ˚。⋆౨ৎ˚
1) mister hockey by lia riley *
2) collide by bal khabra (arc) *
3) a curious beginning by deanna raybourn (gifted)
4) breaking the ice by k.r. collins *
5) if only you by chloe liese (gifted) *
6) anxious people by frederik backman ⊹
7) the catch by amy lea (gifted)
8) weekends with you by alexandra paige (arc)
9) happily never after by lynn painter (arc)
10) klara and the sun by kazuo ishiguro
11) good material by dolly alderton
12) in the event this doesn't fall apart by shannon lee barry
13) the night ends with fire (arc) by k.x. song
14) the good, the bad, and the aunties (arc) by jesse q. sutanto
15) where sleeping girls lie (arc) by faridah àbíké-íyímídé
16) sophomore surge by k.r. collins *
17) lighting the lamp by k.r. collins *
18) glove save and a beauty by k.r. collins *
19) home ice advantage by k.r. collins *
20) power play by k.r. collins *
21) grounded by k.r. collins *
22) line chemistry by k.r. collins *
→ february wrap up
march ⋆ ˚。⋆౨ৎ˚
1) happy medium by sarah adler (arc)
2) a darker shade of magic by v.e. schwab (audiobook)
3) expiration dates by rebecca serle (arc)
4) divine rivals by rebecca ross (book club)
5) the siren by katherine st. john (gifted)
6) light in gaza edited by jehad abusalim
7) how to end a love story by yulin kuang (arc) // reviewed here
8) rising from the deep: the seattle kraken, a tenacious push for expansion, and the emerald city's sports revival by geoff baker
9) les misérables by victor hugo (reread)
→ march wrap up
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Anyway here is an unprompted lore drop about my OCs’ disabilities/health issues/neurodivergences
Ambrose- Has ADHD but doesn’t realize it, he thinks his experiences are universal and is surprised and confused when other people express that they don’t relate to certain struggles. He also experiences occasional periods of depression and gets frequent headaches that are absolutely made worse by working with the Correspondence.
Emery- Autistic, particularly struggles with alexithymia (made even more prominent after losing their soul) and noticeably doesn’t express emotions in an allistic way. May also have ADHD, and developed some chronic pain after various injuries from BaL and monster hunting.
Liam- Has dysgraphia and dyscalculia. He sometimes struggles with mental health issues like anxiety, feelings of guilt/shame, and self-esteem issues but not in a way that fits a specific diagnosis. (Unfortunate that there is no good therapy in the Neath.) Has pain and reduced mobility in his left shoulder after it was injured pretty badly in the werewolf attack.
Charlie- Has ADHD and, unlike Ambrose, recognizes that he struggles with things other people don’t (but sees it as a personal flaw that should be covered up as much as possible). Hard of hearing since birth.
Henry- Autistic and has always dealt with chronic depression, which got worse after his husband died. Sometimes struggles with food due to a combo of sensory sensitivities, forgetting to eat, and lack of appetite from the depression. Deals with pain and joint issues in his right leg/foot that may have existed earlier in life, but definitely got much worse after he was injured on his journey down to the Neath and then didn’t treat the injury bc he was too busy digging holes under London in a dissociative fugue- usually uses a cane
Robin- Has a combo of an anxiety disorder and some OCD traits that present similarly to autism, but they wouldn’t fit all the autism diagnostic criteria
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Thoughts on Narnia and Iruma's conversation
Yo! I am back! It’s been a while. Hyper Fixations are crazy like that! But I am back in the welcome to demon school hell and I am super pumped by all the new chapters. I have a lot I could talk about but let’s talk about an interesting chapter. Which one?
Chapter two ninety six. Specifically the talk between Narnia and Iruma. Mild spoilers ahead naturally but if you have already read up to at least two ninety six then you are fine. Alright let’s talk.
Now the conversation between Narnia and Iruma is very interesting for several reasons.
One: It offers us an insight into Narnia's character. Something we got hints of in previous chapters but now we have definite traits. Specifically how manipulative and truly evil he is.
Two: One of the other goals of the six fingers and what Bal is up to. As well as what might be confirmation that Narnia is working for them or is allied with them all for purging the underworld.
Three: Iruma’s growth and remaining insecurities.
We will go in order and start with one. Narnia Naberius, Kalego’s older brother and someone who works for the border patrol in the shadows. We knew for a while that Kalego had some unknown family members such as Narnia and the yet to be seen uncle. Now we have a definitive member and he is very messed up to say the least.
We got hints of this when it was revealed that he was the one to recommend Shiida and Atori. Already that is a red flag, he works for border patrol and he just so happened to recommend two six finger members as teachers. That wouldn’t have happened unless he was allied with them in some way.
While we could safely say he was involved with them at that point, we still didn’t know to what degree and why. He wasn’t a character at this point and Kalego himself wasn’t giving away much. The most we could tell was that Kalego didn’t have fond emotions for his brother but again we don’t know the reasons.
Then a couple of bombs drop, one is the deviculum and Narnia is a candidate for a crown position. Another hint that Narnia is a powerful and influential demon but another red flag as going for a 13 crowns position can be seen as a power grab.
Alright, we can fast forward to the actual deviculum now. Narnia is revealed with the twist that Kalego is confronting Henri disguised as Narnia and that Narnia is actually hidden and talking to Iruma. Which is terrible especially after what Azz revealed about Narnia.
Narnia before the conversation is described as very intimidating. He is a lone wolf, nobody can talk to him unless he chooses them, especially his prey. He tortures criminals, anybody who disrupts the underworld. He is the guard dog of the underworld itself, able to sniff out any disturbance within it and eliminate it. I am not even covering everything that was said but you get the idea. Narnia is death itself and he is chatting with Iruma right now.
Now onto the conversation itself and I want to draw a parallel here. Let’s compare the conversation Narnia has with Iruma in this chapter to the conversation Henri has with Iruma in chapter thirty eight. Why? Because it reveals many things about both Iruma and Narnia himself.
To refresh in chapter thirty eight Henri talks to Iruma and confronts him about sending him back to the human realm. This was back when Iruma was still getting used to the underworld and wasn’t comfortable in the school or around his classmates yet.
Iruma is very insecure during this phase because he feels like an intruder. Someone who doesn’t belong and will be killed when discovered. This was the perfect time for Henri to really get at Iruma and possibly break him into wanting to return to the human realm.
But he doesn’t. Iruma is terrified during the conversation and Henri isn’t helping with the boiling jokes but it’s a mostly comedic conversation. Henri even goes out of his way to mention, without saying outright that he knows Iruma is human, that he will be protected and sent back with no problems. He even says his friends and relatives will have their minds wiped which is sad but it also means they will be okay and won’t be worried or punished for associating with him.
Henri didn’t take advantage or try to manipulate Iruma into returning and just gave Iruma the option. He even checked on him to make sure he wasn’t being abused or was hurt. Henri clearly just wants to make sure Iruma is okay and that he knows the danger he could be in while giving him a way out.
Now compare this to the conversation that Iruma has with Narnia. Narnia starts off by initiating the conversion and goes on to talk about how ruthless and intimidating the border patrol members are. A subtle way to put Iruma on edge when talking with him but disguised as a networking opportunity for Iruma.
He asks Iruma about demons and Iruma proceeds to gush and talk about his friends and classmates which seems to throw Narnia off a bit. Iruma even mentions that he wouldn’t be here without his friends and relatives. Which leads Narnia to asking Iruma about what he thinks the future of the underworld should be if he is king.
Narnia at this point is gathering information. Why? We will see in a bit as Iruma answers that he wants a kind underworld for the demons around him. Which is a good answer and a very Iruma answer.
Which makes it all the more shattering when Narnia proceeds to twist and use his answer against him. This is where we see how manipulative and evil Narnia really is. Which makes sense, he tortures criminals and demons are known for being physically resilient. Breaking a demon physically is one thing but breaking them completely from the inside out is another.
Narnia also reveals a goal that the six fingers have. The complete eradication of everything that is not a demon. Narnia’s response is basically the equivalent of someone saying they want to make the world better for mankind and then someone responding with ‘so you want to exterminate all animals then.’
It's an intentional twist but Narnia takes it a step further by talking about how humans don’t belong and they should be exterminated on the spot. How a human would just cause chaos and disrupt the balance towards all demon kind.
Iruma doesn’t belong.
He is just causing chaos and disrupting the peace by his very presence.
This echoes what Iruma’s deepest insecurity is telling him. He doesn't belong. He isn’t a demon. Thoughts that he has always held and even worried about during the deviculum when he wasn’t sure if his grandpa wanted him to come. An insecurity that Narnia was able to sniff out thanks to Iruma gushing about his friends and how he wouldn’t be here without them.
Narnia even asks Iruma what he thinks about humans just to drive the stake even further. He is interrupted by Azz’s mom thankfully but the damage is done.
Narnia is a deeply manipulative person. He picked up an insecurity that Iruma had and used it to weaken his resolve and to draw a line between Iruma and his support system. He made Iruma feel like he didn't belong with his friends and relatives. All individuals who have given him nothing but love and support for over a year now.
I am not going to act like I am an expert in manipulation tactics but separating someone from their support system is a very good way to hurt them. Isolation and chipping away at a person’s self esteem seems to be things that Narnia is very familiar with.
This conversation shows a lot, Narnia is very different from Kalego and Henri and he is now a 13 crowns. This is not good to say the least. Having someone this manipulative and genocidal on the crowns will just lead the underworld into a potential war zone as it is split into radical sides. Which seems to be what the six fingers want.
Narnia showed that he was allied with the six fingers and the genocidal nature of them is not all that surprising. The organization already ran on the idea that demons in their baser instincts were more powerful and superior, Narnia’s views are just the extreme of that vision. Bal either agrees or just doesn’t care and will go with these views for power.
We are given a clearer idea on how the six fingers think and what lengths they are willing to go with to achieve their demons brought back to chaos idea. Which includes eradicating the deities which is bad for literally everyone. How they achieve this we will have to see but they definitely plan to be sneaky at least for now. Narnia being a manipulation master on the crowns seat is an obvious sign of this.
But this also brings us to the final point, which is Iruma’s character development and what this conversation meant for him. This was an important point for Iruma because this was one of the first times he was confronted by someone who truly and deeply hated him with every fiber of his being and nothing Iruma could do would change it.
Iruma has met people who didn’t like him like Kalego at the beginning of the school year but true hate was something he hadn’t encountered yet. Iruma is a charming and kind character, down to his very bones. People who didn’t like him eventually warmed up to him or didn’t truly hate him. Iruma could live with that, it's just a part of life.
Iruma has also been surrounded with wonderful individuals who love and support him. It was a normal thing for Iruma to wake up and see the smiling faces of his friends and grandpa. It had become a normal, precious thing to Iruma and he was grateful for this. He wants to believe in this love and support with all his heart.
But he isn’t a demon. He doesn’t belong and he will bring nothing but chaos. He is a parasite who should be exterminated for simply existing. The love he has is undeserved because he has tricked so many people around him and intruded upon their lives.
All complete nonsense of course but it’s what Narnia makes Iruma feel. Iruma back in chapter thirty eight would have been broken by this because he would have agreed with it. He would be aware of how unnatural it is for him to be there and he would have wanted to leave as soon as he could. The Iruma that we see now is insecure and it does get to him but it doesn’t break him.
He needs a pep talk and feels horrible but he isn’t broken, far from it. Even when confronted with pure hate, Iruma is still okay. Deep in his heart, he does believe in the love and support shown to him. He has changed and it’s thanks to those around him that helped him. It's a good way of showing Iruma’s insecurities without backtracking on his development.
He is a teenager after all, a teen who has been used and abused a majority of his life. That doesn’t just go away, even after all his accomplishments and support. He falls back into his old habits and thoughts, he is still human and still needs to hide and lie about that. It would get to anyone after a while, especially someone who isn’t used to affection.
The important thing is that Iruma still listens to others. He still lets people in and he will grow and recover from this. He has grown from the terrified teen he once was, he is shy and insecure but he isn’t as scared as he used to be. He has support and that will be what gets him through. Iruma is such a wonderful, relatable character. He shows what we are capable of when we let people in and try our best to grow and understand those around us.
I love this manga and I could talk about the themes and ideas all day but this is long enough. Let me know if you agree and what your thoughts are about all of this. Also let us appreciate that super nice slap that Amaryllis gave because damn. Love her for this.
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Et Satan conduit le bal, 1962. D'après Siry.
Avec Jacques Perrin, Catherine Deneuve, Henri-Jacques Huet, Françoise Brion, Bernadette Lafont. Réalisé par Grisha Dabat.
Synopsis : À Collioure, Ivan, un gigolo au charme ravageur, et Manuelle, sa nouvelle compagne fille d'un gangster à la retraite, se rendent dans une villa somptueuse où ils retrouvent deux autres duos. Le temps d'un week-end, ces trois couples entament une danse de séduction complexe, qui évolue bientôt en un tourbillon de passions et de jeux amoureux, où l'amour physique devient le cœur de leurs interactions.
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