#helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Manipulators

Some forms of abuse are from manipulators. Those fuckers twist shit 7 ways to Sunday until you dont know where the exit is or if you want to walk thru it.

Cruelty

#manipulator #abuse #mentaltorment #ptsd #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Its so hard to be present when you mind is stuck in the past

#bepresent #ptsdlife #past #toohard #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Flashbacks & Memories

After my escape I stayed locked up in my sister's apartment, venturing out cautiously here and there. Always looking over my shoulder, using the basement exit, anything to keep under the radar. I went were I knew Police would be, were my family was, were I thought I was safe, were I knew how to exit quickly. I knew if he ever got me he would kill me.

#exitquickly #neversafe #ptsd #abuse #pfaisapieceofpaper #nevernormal #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Ive had people tell me Oh you need a purpose in life that way you can get over this PTSD thing.

Are you Fkng kidding me???!!!

I have a purpose Survival.

#purposeinlife #survive #survival #ptsdlife #areyoukiddingme #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

I try to listen to music to calm down but it never fails I always wind up in tears. One word is all it takes to send my mind down a path of misery. One friggin word, one friggin chord, one friggin wift of happiness and I am down the path of horror, guilt, shame sadness.

#oneword #musicofmisery #ptsdlife #anxiety #fear #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Tired of being tired.

Its not a tired that sleep will fix, its a tired, my soul is drained tired.

#mysoulistired #tiredofbeingtired #ptsdlife #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Is this battle worth fighting?

#battleworthfighting #anxiety #ptsdlife #ptsd #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

Why is It

That a Smile lasts a Second but Fear lasts Forever

#fearforever #ptsdawareness #ptsdlife #ptsd #helpthebadbegood #smile #mylife #like4like

[survivetrauma]

There is no sanity in my silence, my thoughts scream too loud.

#sanityinmysilence #ptsdlife #mindscreamstooloud #helpthebadbegood #sanity

[survivetrauma]

My mind races like its trying to find a good show to watch on TV. All these channels and still nothing good, refreshing, intersting on, its all reruns of the same crap.

#racingmind #changingchannels #ptsdlife #anxiety #reruns #goodshows #helpthebadbegood #allthesechannels

[survivetrauma]

Why Is It

That the Bad Memories Stay but the Good Memories fade Away

#ptsdlife #ptsd #memories #badmemories #goodmemories #stay #helpthebadbegood #mylife #follow4follow

[survivetrauma]

Change is terrifying for someone with PTSD but in order to alleviate some of the PTSD you need to change.

#changeisscary #ptsdlife #ptsdawareness #alleviate #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

My thoughts were once a place I would go to escape reality, remove myself from feeling every crushing blow to my body.

Now my thoughts are filled with everything I once sought refuge from, I can not escape them.

How ironic. How funny how the brain works.

#ironic #escapemythoughts #ptsdlife #funnyhowthebrainworks #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

For years when people asked me about the abuse I endured I found myself trying to make it easier for them to hear by making a joke at the end of the convo to lighten the mood. I felt bad that people got upset that they couldn't help.

How friggin sad that it was too much for people to hear. I had to fucking live thru it, it wasn't funny at all.

I made a decision last year to not do that anymore, the shit sucked and was mentally draining feeling that I had to make it better for other people when the whole time it was sending me into a downward trigger spiral all alone.

#notfunny #shitsucked #ptsdlife #makethemlaugh #helpthebadbegood #triggermesad

[survivetrauma]

Silence surrounds me but yet my thoughts scream there is no peace in my quiet.

#peaceinmyquiet #ptsd #ptsdlife #racingthoughts #helpthebadbegood

[survivetrauma]

When the fear grips me, what can I do? As I resist it grips tighter. As I give in it grips stronger.

#fear #ptsdlife #anxiety #gripstighter #helpthebadbegood