Merlin: Who do you think you are? The King?
Arthur: No, I'm your husband, Arthur.
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deseret book is more persistent than duolingo.
i ordered 2 books for a church research project on Black saints in the early Church and also in the Reorganization, on which the one book had a small section us and all had info from the our shared early church history, and it was an ebook too!
and i get physical mail from them once a month. i have no idea how to cancel.
herald house, the community of christ publishing house, contacts me much less, and i buy books from them all the time.
and oh their church book app reminds me to read my scriptures and the words of their prophets regularly if it's not in sleep mode.
i have to admire the effort behind it, ngl.
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stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying
I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.
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so! I've not been sleeping well lately. and I've gotta get through the next few months (of writing my stupid thesis) somehow. I need a lot of sleep to function. so I've decided to increase the dose of the medication that lets me sleep (an antidepressant) again. we only just reduced it earlier this year so I know it's fine.
the dose I've been on is the lowest dose possible, so this is still very low. I don't think it really does much for my mood either way (even at the higher dose that I used to be on). but not sleeping well definitely makes me feel like shit, and especially lying in bed not being able to fall asleep. I'm not good at consistently taking this medication long enough before I go to bed, so it usually takes about an hour until I can sleep. I know that at this slightly higher dose, I get sleepy very quickly, maybe read for a few minutes and then fall asleep with no issues.
I really want to take fewer meds (for someone who is ~young and healthy~ according to their GP (🙄) I take a lot of medication every day, and tbh it is really annoying), but they help a lot and at the moment I can't function without them, so I'll just have to wait a little longer (and that's fine)
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