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transenbyconfessions · 1 year

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recently discovered that i have a faunagender and..... kind of questioning if i might be therian or petre as well??? unfortunately i don't know much about either of those identities and am kind of scared to look it up bc discourse and especially identity discourse is triggering to me

like...... as far as i know faunagender and therian and petre are all different things that can sometimes have some overlap or similar features? but im not sure what "counts" for these things.

so on the therian questioning side, I'm multigender & one of my other genders is a binary one, so is it possible to have something similar where i feel like both a human and also [specific animal]? or does that defeat the purpose of therian? (also did the term therian come from otherkin?? sorry if that's insensitive im just not fully sure what's what and ive heard more about otherkin than therians) like i describe myself as a non-binary [binary gender] bc im Both. so would saying "therian human" be similar?? or... or is that just not therian at that point

and, on the petre questioning side. my partner (agere, gender is specifically Boy but not Male) sometimes will call me like, his "little [specific animal]" and similar things and when i get overwhelmed and lose speech (autism) i get kind of snappy and it's almost like i can feel the animal ears flattening agitatedly on my head. i like to burrow and squeak and click with my mouth especially in a way that feels... little? like wanting to be cared for in the same way a beloved animal is? like wanting to be cooed at and fed berries and pet and just curl up on someone's lap as a little creature. and like i know it's tied to my autism & my gender and it sounds a lot like how my partner feels abt being agere (including tying into his gender) except it's about being a [specific animal] instead of being a young boy. i dunno i just. is that what that is?

like i really love being referred to as a creature or an animal and especially much if it's the specific animal i have a gender about, but i kind of wonder if that could even possibly be therian if i still like being referred to as a person.... then again i did start crying bc i was so moved when one of my favorite inhuman (but humanoid) blorbos that i relate to a lot got a motivational speech where he got told he was a "normal [his species]" instead of "normal person" in an otherwise very typical speech (speech didn't promote being normal as in regular, it was one of those "you're just some guy so live your life however you want" types, it was very nice to hear for me specifically)... auh idk. anyone relate to this at least??

Submitted February 17, 2023

#faunagender #transgender #trans #enby #nb #nonbinary #non-binary #non binary #questioning

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whoseafraidofliloleme · 2 years

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the last chapter of unexpected partners,,,,,, why am i kinda emotional 🥺🥺

i'm so thankful that i was able to find such a fun and interesting smau and making you laugh with my asks was honestly just a plus! ty for taking the time to answer every single one of them and even write that ynlix spin-off <33

honestly we've seen ynwon evolve (mostly jungwon bc at first i just wanted to 👊👊👊) into the beautiful and funny couple they ended up becoming, and it was a ride i definitely enjoyed: seeing yn slay at different clubs, become closer to stuco and be happy with her friends... she's definitely an mc i won't forget!! same for jungwon tho, because he went from this insensitive asshole to such a nice guy and a loving bf, i'm kinda proud of him tbh 😌

rlly ty for writing this and providing all of us with top tier ynwon content!!

(also i love that all the girls jumped into the men hating train at the end and that you gave the ynlix besties a last focus <3)

and now we're going onto another ride so... could you add me to the wrecking her plans taglist 🥰🥰🥰

Ngl I wasn't emotional when I was writing the final chapter, but now that it's out there it's hitting me that Unexpected Partners is over 🥺🥺.

As a writer I struggle a lot with wondering if anything I write is good or worth putting out there. So to hear you say that you found UP to be fun and interesting is just so gratifying.

Girl I think out of the two of us, I had more fun answering your asks than you probably had in sending them. Not just yours but the multiple anon asks I got for this au as well.

That Ynlix spinoff will forever be special to me. I never thought in a million years I'd write a spinoff story for a ship in one of my aus.

Not only that but it was my first time writing for Stray Kidz, since Felix was the main love interest. If inspiration strikes I may just write a smau for Stray Kidz, I'm not fully into staning them just yet but I'll probably be a stay in no time 😂.

Honestly I don't even remember where this idea even came from but once I got started with it. I just fell in love with everything in the Unexpected Partners universe 😂.

I think the idea of being so in love with someone that you do everything to help them, only for it to be unrequited and then you take the steps to better yourself and love yourself is when the other person realises what they've lost.

The concept itself is very much loving yourself before you love another. I'd like to think I showed that in the way YN grew as a person, branched out and became her own person outside of this identity of being the StuCo VP.

Honestly I was afraid that Jungwon's redemption arc wouldn't be well received or that it wouldn't seem genuine but I'm glad that everyone liked the way it went and it seemed realistic to me in the way a 17 year old boy would act 😂.

Lol I think we're all proud of Jungwon and his growth from asshole to a loving, caring boyfriend. Another reason I love the Ynlix spinoff so much. It shows what would've happened of Jungwon didn't grow, if he stayed the asshole. If YN didn't make the choice to leave StuCo and he wasn't faced with realising that he'd been taking her for granted.

I loved writing this, so thanks for reading and sending asks, hating Jungwon, loving Ynlix, eventually coming round to ship ynwon. Honestly so happy you think my little fic is top tier ynwon content 😂😭😭.

The girls going on a men hating train just felt very justified 😂. And the StuCo girls hating on Jungwon was really just to show how even on a girl's outing that consists of Jungwon's girlfriend (YN) and his best female friends (Karina, Winter and Giselle), the StuCo girls will still drag him 😂😂.

Ynlix besties will forever hold a special place in my heart. Even when ynwon are old and grey, Felix will still be third wheeling them just as old and grey as them 😂.

Some little Ynlix besties + Jungwon headcanons I have:

1. YN and Felix are both doing the same course at SNU and obviously they're shipped together. Our Wonnie boo gets so jealous that the shy baby gives YN a very heated, shouldn't be public kiss just before her lecture in front of her classmates to get the Ynlix romantic shipping to stop. Poor YN is in a daze for the rest of the lecture and Felix was live tweeting the whole thing 😂.

2. When ynwon first move out together. On their first day in their new flat, Felix comes with a box of his things and starts putting them around the flat. Jungwon questions him and he's like well I gotta have things that make me comfortable in my besties flat. When they at some point get a 2 bedroom flat it's a unwritten rule that the 2nd bedroom is for Felix.

3. Over the years, Jungwon and Felix become close, they have a Tom and Jerry dynamic. Always fighting but they got each others backs. This is shown when ynwon overhear some idiots saying rude things abt Felix and before YN can go give them a piece of her mind. Jungwon is already there glaring and shouting at these idiots who dares to badmouth Felix.

4. Finally when ynwon get married, Felix gives a speech with a PowerPoint presentation chronicling their relationship, he absolutely roasts Jungwon on his wedding day but Jungwon is too happy beside his bride to care. Oh and when ynwon have kids you bet Felix is their favourite uncle.

Okay I got a bit carried away with that 😂.

I'll definitely add you to the Wrecking Her Plans Taglist. I'll eagerly be awaiting your asks for that, there will be lots of drama in that au.

This turned out longer than I expected 😂.

#zainab answers #unexpected partners ask #up ask #wrecking her plans taglist #wrecking her plans ask #whp taglist #whp ask #ask: fallingforya

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diyeoracha · 3 years

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fanfic recommendations

for @kittensocute bc i heard “atsukita” and “iwaoi” in reference to fanfiction and i am There

i took your “i love slow burn or slow build fics... so i like relatively shorter burn fics (20-30k). If its a 10k oneshot slow burn hELL SIGN ME UP” and absolutely ran with it.

i listed my fav iwaoi fics (17) with a longer word count (longest is 80k) that are all mostly either canon compliant or divergent with only two straight up AUs. none of them feature heavy nsfw content and most if not all are tagged as friends to lovers lmao. feel free to read the my thoughts or just go into them blind!! and they’re all in order of how much I absolutely adore them :^)

now atsukita is not a big ship *sobs* but here are some of my favorite fics (7) of them! a lot of them are shorter bc i guess that’s just. what happens when it’s a small ship LOL.

the formatting in this is fucked if you open it from ur dash but if it’s on my actual blog it should be fine!

Iwaoi

the courtship ritual of the hercules beetle

Word count: 66k

thoughts: my absolute absolute absolute favorite iwaoi fic. the characterization, the fact that oikawa’s a bastard but because he and iwaizumi are older (late 20s i believe), it feels more realistic and sad rather than oikawa being a bitch for the sake of it. spoiler alert it’s slow burn and pining and mostly oikawa not realizing his feelings. this world building is pretty cool bc iwaizumi is the professional player while oikawa is an entomology professor! also i love non-linear narratives bc of This fic. there’s mutual pining in this fic but it’s really really really subtle to the point where you dont even know if oikawa likes iwa. this made me cry like twice.

sunset towns

Word count: 33k

Summary: In the summer of 2020, Oikawa Tooru returns home from his first successful stint as captain of Japan’s national volleyball team. In one hand, he holds the undisputed weight of an Olympic medal, and in the other, his unresolved feelings for a childhood best friend.

thoughts: the tone in this is So similar to the courtship ritual that I liken this as an alternate story even though it’s still oikawa’s pov. professional player oikawa and regular guy iwaizumi and oikawa is just. bumming around at iwaizumi’s place and naturally he messes up but things happen.

told before and told again

word count: 4k

thoughts: i looked through literally all the tags i could’ve thought of for this and nearly cried when i found it agian. outsider POV!!

In damp earth my body

Word count: 15k

Summary: Onscreen, the nation’s favorite setter has arranged himself so that he’s bowing, forehead pressed to the court, like he’s thanking everyone for their kindness thus far, like he’s asking for forgiveness. Hajime thinks: shit, it’s really happening

thoughts: oikawa retires and moves in with iwaizumi and they blur the line between roommates/best friends and being fwb. this is an iwaizumi pov and the pining is obvious on his end. as a iwa stan the tone made me feel weird bc it makes it seem like iwa cares more abt oikawa than he cares abt himself but. its a good fic

i grew up, you grew down

word count: 19k

thoughts: this is also SO funny bc basically oikawa retires and moves in with iwaizumi and becomes his stay at home wife and a bunch of shit happens like people think that oikawa is dating ushijima and oikawa basically loses it every time. here’s one of my favorite quotes:

“Oikawa also bought a new ultra-strength vacuum cleaner he’d decided to name Ushiwaka out of sheer spite, because it sucked all the air right out of the room. Iwa-chan didn’t think the joke was that funny when Tooru told him, which was frankly very hurtful and insensitive.”

Mint

Word count: 19k

thoughts: iwaizumi is moving and oikawa planned a perfect last hangout and it goes to shit featuring matsuhana. oikawa pov where he pines more than iwa which is something i can get behind!! and this was written in 2015 and iwa’s moving bc of a sports medicine program so iwaizumi stans know and love him sm ;;

Almost a Stranger

Word count: 16k

thoughts: same premise as mint LOL except they’re on a trip together and there’s more non-linear narrative!! this one is a little more mature in tone than mint i would say (funny how people just like splitting them up and throwing them in different countries huh)

with every second that you could give

Word count: 9k

Summary: The journey of Iwaizumi and Oikawa going for gold.

Quote: He knows they’re too close. Iwaizumi knows it too, and they both decided to move in together anyway.

thoughts: iwaoi roommates and they’re both obviously and really pine-y for each other and everyone sees it but them. srsly. they’re sleeping in the same bed. like my god

Lost in Translation

Word count: 9k

Summary: Because misfortune come in threes, Iwaizumi Hajime starts his Thursday having a screaming fight with Shittykawa, spends his lunch break listening to the UCI women’s volleyball team gossiping about how Ushijima Wakatoshi had gone public about his longtime love affair with Oikawa Tooru, and closes out the day by drunkenly dropping his phone into a sewer grate.

thoughts: so funny. so sososoosso genuinely funny. the tone is so snappy and iwaizumi honestly just sounds like a confused teenager (which he is in this) and it gets extra points for including a lot of american culture that a lot of the other iwaoi college au ones don’t include for like. obvious reasons lol.

Something Borrowed

Word count: 16k

Summary: In which Oikawa and Iwaizumi have always been a foregone conclusion to everyone else, but a massive, unanswered question to one another.

thoughts: iwaoi roommates thats abo but it’s like. mentioned twice. whiny and possessive oikawa makes an appearance in this but it’s done really well

things that change, things that stay the same

Word count: 8k

Summary: Oikawa realizes he’s in love with his best friend; it sucks for a while. (But only for a little while.)

thoughts: high school getting together!! my second iwaoi fic ever and this one is just. so sweet. just an unsure oikawa realizing iwaizumi might be more than someone he wants as a best friend. this fic is honestly really really lovely.

galaxies, within you

Word count: 21k

Summary: Hajime and Tooru move in together at the start of university. Too bad they’re stuck with the two gremlins that haunt their apartment.

thoughts: ok this fic was so funny. theyre uni roommates and matsuhana just come fuck shit up and they all act like idiots together even though they go to different schools. and this really throws me back to university days.

Thirty Years and Change (the Games of the XXXIII Olympiad)

Word count: 19k

thoughts: pro! oikawa and iwaizumi haven’t been close for a while until oikawa invites iwaizumi to go to the games with him. there’s a lot of frustration and pining and actually talking about feelings (aka iwaizumi losing his mind and getting advice from people like akaashi)

when it starts to rain, they go inside

Word count: 33k

Summary: “Where?” starts Iwaizumi.“ My parent’s old lakehouse, silly, didn’t you hear me the first time?” OR: Oikawa takes Iwaizumi to his lakehouse for two weeks, post-graduation.

thoughts: this was actually my first iwaoi fic which is funny bc the author doesn’t even like oikawa much and i didnt even ship anything in haikyuu before i read this fic and now im in iwaoi hell. oikawa is really frustrating in this in that it’s basically a really good character analysis on how oikawa comes off as a Mean person all the time bc he’s manipulative and there’s some explicit content

shiver

Word count: 16k

Summary: Oikawa was always the brave one. Hajime just followed two paces behind.

thoughts: iwaoi roommates with oikawa admitting his feelings first back when they were in middle school and iwaizumi putting that thought on the backburner until. obviously. things happen.

Desperado

word count: 80k

thoughts: one of my favorite aus. it’s all from kyoutani’s perspective and it’s almost so au that they’re original characters (if that makes sense). basically iwaoi matsuhana are ex-grifters except iwaoi are estranged and daishou somehow brings everyone back together. excellent world building and reading the pov from someone not involved with the iwaoi drama was refreshing

sing with me a song of conquest and fate

word count: 26k

thoughts: a mythical kings au that’s just. so pretty. iwaizumi ends up becoming oikawa’s servant for some reason and the world building is a+ because you can feel the trust and frustration from both of them build

Atsukita

dreams of me and you

word count: 10k (incomplete)

my second atsukita fic that rly sent me down atskt hell ;; what is essentially post-break up when atsumu gets signed to msby and he’s just Pining and sad for the most part. but the established relationship pre-break up was written really nicely because it just fits my hc of them just being domestic and atsumu being blatantly head over heels

take me home

word count: 4k

i read this this morning and it wrecked me. domestic relationship atsukita?? sign me up

No time like the rest of my life

word count: 19k

mythology au with kita as a regular person and rest of inarizaki as fox spirits! it’s cute and the world building is absolutely lovely but it is an au so they might seem ooc but their core character values are still there

wild blue yonder

word count: 6k

literally full of similes and metaphors and it’s more of an abstract read i guess? but it’s so beautiful and soft and this is exactly how i imagine their relationship

reap and sow

word count: 8k

atsumu confesses and kita ignores him and it’s a couple years after the fact and it’s mostly just weirdly domestic almost roommate like except for the fact that atsumu makes it clear he likes kita LOL. they’re really in character for this!

weightless souls

word count: 2k

pillow talk before atsumu’s first game! the atsumu pov and voice is amazing

if we were both alone

word count: 7k

now this was actually my first atskt fic that sent me down this rare pair hell. it’s an explicit chat fic (both tropes i usually try to avoid) but atsumu types like me (except for the nsfw parts alksfjd) so i guess i like. feel appreciation LMAO.

if you do read like any of these fics pls let me know so we can discuss

♡＼(￣▽￣)／♡

#iwaoi #atsukita #i added some more on friday feb 19!

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miaxeu · 4 years

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though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, MIA STOEGER is actually a descendent of DIONYSUS. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-ONE year old MYTHOLOGICAL STUDIES MAJOR from LOS ANGELES, USA has taken after HER godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CHARISMATIC & DUPLICITOUS.

( y’all dont deserve this real messy intro but im workin w half a bwain cell at 4am so i beg thee 4 mercy. nywyy im the excited new girl who’s hella pumped to meet all ur charas : katya ! feel free to hop in my ims to plot or drop a like and i’ll hop in urs ! x )

POWERS

natural acting abilities — her ma’s a hollywoo agent so she started actin real early & now shes a big shot actress. there r more deetz on her career below !

chlorokinesis — it wasnt as natural as acting n she only started working on it when she turned 13 n started going to camps. b4 she just noticed shes good w plants but it wasnt super crazy or nything. its p good now tho ! shes prioritizing vine binding and manipulation 4 the self defense bc awards r cool n all but they dont rlly protecc from monsters ykwim

levitation — shes trying her best ur honor

alcokinesis — she cant conjure it or anything, she’s just immune to it ffff

BIO POINTS — cw: drug use ( full biography here )

her mom raised her by herself bc dionysus the party god was out of the picture immediately. she never told mia she’s a demigod & it was always just “ wow ur so talented ” or “ aww u got a green thumb ! ” but when she saw him claim 13 y/o mia by placing a weird hologram over her head while she slept, she knew she had to spill da beanz & tell her kid

ofc mia thought her mom was jus playing sum weird acting exercise w her bc her powers r so lowkey she could highkey just be a Mortal but insert sad whistle, the realizashun & the claiming meant heightened monster threat !! so yea ,,, one ended up chasing her a couple days later rip

aside from the trauma, mia was ok. mostly bc she ended up cryin for dionysus like any child would n lo & behold he came & helped !!! as he should. nywy she made sure to go to summer camps every year after that but mostly just for protection purposes

she lowkey rlly hates this whole god business esp now that shes grown lmfao deadass thinks she got a bad deal bc life threats arent sexy !!! went to eonia eventually bc its Too Much Man. she just wants to go back to work and her life w the mortals w/o worryin for her life. would deadass fade her father if she could. may or may not be majoring in greek mythology to figure out the logistics of it all out of spite, who knows !

PERSONALITY

not ! a Drama Queen — dont get me wrong, shes hella Extra in the way she moves n acts sorta like shes always bein captured on film. is quick-witted & playful & can be a huge tease/flirt if she feels like it, but miss her w Real Feelings ! totally not sentimental. srsly she will try to rationalize away everything and is just,.,., not good w it. so soz folks, we just keepin it breezy here

ugh, she’s an Actress — aka she can act like she cares tho ! shes very much into keeping ppl on her good side. shes friendly n palatable to everyone bc its how shes been trained & while it doesnt seem fake, its def diff when its genuine

The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known — lemme circle back to the first one, ok so shes good w emotions but only in theory. does intense character work with her roles so she thinks that counts as her having eq when rlly shes just emotionally stunted, projecting n repressing like an idiot

blonde, skinny, rich, & a lil bit of a Bitch — shes only a bitch inwardly or to ppl she trusts enuff to let in on the gossip. if anyone full on opposes her or becomes real emotional, then this lil diva will rear its superiority complex head n snap a lil. will most probably do it v underhandedly n w a smile but it will be Brutal

girls just wanna have FUN ! — shes the child of da party god, so ofc she a true party girl. officially off the rails when she parties. inhibitions ? we dk her. can be insensitive in that case bc smtms its truly no strings attached, tis all abt the fun. likes company a lot & it doesnt even have 2 be loud or particularly abt her, she just likes having people around n the escapism of it all. will make friends with everyone n make sure they have a jolly fun time guaranteed at dionysus parties

Work Hard, Play Hard — real responsible when it comes to work and commitments and if she trusts/likes u enough, she’ll give it 2 u straight, no bs. def thinks Calling Out is an act of love but maybe does it a lil too harshly smtms. v much into efficiency, sentiments be damned. not the feely words type. will sit next to u or party w u or even pay 4 ur therapist if u need sum1 to talk to. she will Be There while u work thru it, so long as u dont expect her to change n be all emotional n stuff

if she seems a lil contradictory thats bc she kinda is. tis the good ol nurture vs nature. her ma’s a real no nonsense chick n her pops is a frat guy drama geek greek god whos rlly into cottagecore so u get this lil blonde bitch whos sorta teetering on the edges

OTHER INFO — cw: drug use ( full headcanons here )

re her career, she achieved pegot status when she was 18 aka she truly b dat bitch. shes not super mainstream famous tho, more like indie sweetheart, film snobs/critics fave typa gal. if ya want a trajectory she started w baby commercials then a sitcom from 4-10 ( think modern fam’s lily ) then it was off to the big screen & the stage !

mia has a lil bit of a drug habit. its not abusive or dependent, but it is a staple whenever shes parties bc alcohol is useless 2 her. started a lil young too bc hollywoo. primarily uppers/hallucinogens. she smokes weed a lil more liberally but the rest is mostly just an on occasion thing ( which, ngl, is a still a lil problematic when u party a lot rip )

after she got claimed, mia ended up going to demigod camps in a lot of diff places n countries, depending on where production would take her. there was never an established place, more like wherever was nearest when they wrapped up shooting bc monsters afoot n wutnot

she was always homeschooled but she still managed to go to a prom and homecoming bc party is life. that makes eonia uni p much her first chance at having a normal educational environment & experience and even then its anything but. still tho this is her moment !!! im lit rally begging her to get a personality that isnt her internally rolling her eyes going “ its not that deep ”

might put up a bio/stats page if im feelin sxc but i wud jus like the records to show that mia stoeger is a bi sxc babe bc me ? write a het ? no grassy ass.

POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS — cw: drug use ( full connections here )

omg danny devito i love ur work !

,,, p self explanatory sdkjfs sum1 who loves her work ! it can be lowkey/highkey fangirl to a civil admiration

OR alternatively, y/m can Not Be a fan of her work. they might think the storyline of the projects she takes on r too out of touch n highbrow yada yada yada, but yes, we love to see either of it !

summer camp sweetheart !

someone she met when at camp when they were teens ? doesnt matter in what country/city, but mia was only visiting so it was truly a one summer romance typa thing. bc she was younger, im thinkin 13-17 or w/e she was probably sweeter n a lot more emotional then. was it either’s first puppy love ? first kiss ? first “ relationship ? ” idk, do yk ? truly, so many possibilities. nothin set in stone just hmu bub

summer camp pals !

p much the same as above but make it Platonic

party buddies !

or druggie pals. either way works but she wud luv it if theyre both xoxo

friends w benefits !

most probably ( but not limited to ) sum1 she met at a party skdjhsjk is it exclusive ? is any1 starting to develop feelings ? im down 4 nthing n evrything

alexa play true friend by hannah montana !

give mia her college bestie ! her confidant who knows her feels and can call each other out viciously with no ounce of resentment. we stan the friendships !

omg i love ur skirt !

that is the ugliest effing skirt i've ever seen. lmao basically sum1 mia pretends to like or acts civil w but rlly ,,,, Cannot Stand for w/e rzn

im p much braindead rn but those are just sum ideas !!! ofc the usual staples like the pals, enemies, wutnots are also v welcome we love to see it. if u also have a wc that u think mia would fit in, id luv to know more ! there are also a couple more detailed ones here, but pls feel free to shoot me a msg n we can get 2 plotting x

( * wipes brow * how did i type so much n say so little rip. mia is also a completely new muse so pls b patient n if i fuq up from time to time, pretend u do not see >.< nywy thnx 4 readin, sweets ! feel free to hmu here or at discord if ya wanna <3333 )

FULL INFO || EONIA TASKS

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the-little-giant-maknae · 4 years

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this is about the teaser for s/vt that just came out today so yeah :/

yeah hm the more i think about it the more my head hurts also. When I first saw it, it was already kinda terrible to see? Of course there were clips of regular sv/t laughing but it was definitely overshadowed by the more darker?realistic? scenes. But at that time i just knew that it was sad. I saw some ppl uploaded gifs from it on my tl and i did immediately think that it was a little odd to be making gifs of something so intimate? so i just avoided those and i only retwted one screenshot where he said that they’re supposed to only smile on stage. since that really had a lot of meaning, wistful? wry?? something about. that struck a chord.

but then the more I thought about it, it kinda started to feel a lot more sad? even though they were just showing another piece of reality for them. (not sad for them in the sense of pity, but it was just a sad of seeing another human being having to suffer through this way?especially if those said human beings almost always showed their happiest sides? even the times we see them crying, its almost all from happiness. The last time I remember seeing them cry from sadness is from when they were trying to debut in 17/project, d/k feeling like he wasn’t good enough, wo/ozi feeling burdened with the lives of 13+ people, etc. that’s the closest we’ve come to actually seeing them share their hardships with us, the public). Then i started seeing people’s thoughts, and they’re right of course its completely wrong to post screenshots from that as memes or reaction pictures. But also?

Not everyone has the complete mental capacity ( learned or innate) to understand what they did was wrong. I’m not excusing them at all. But at one or more points in your life, there should be someone to point out something that you’ve done wrong. And to say that it’s insensitive/thoughtless to apply a serious topic/gif to unrelated humor. Because if they don’t understand why it;s wrong, they may leave puzzled, maybe even repeat it (whether for this fandom, or later in life) or feel immensely devastated for something (that they probably took a few thoughtless minutes to do). And of course they should feel devastated, and they should feel bad. But not to the point where they feel like there’s no return, they aren’t even worth being friends with anymore. We’re human too. We need to learn too.

Also I want to add that, in refutation to that, you could say, well the ppl who did it regardless are completely disgusting people that should be blocked and done with. And those are also valid feelings, whether you feel completely horrified by the thought of ppl trivializing serious topics, or just angry at empty-headed ppl. It’s ok to block the posters i guess. But I hope people understand that by doing that, or telling them to stfu (which iS a valID RESPONSE...not the best but VALID) you’re making it harder for them to actually learn from their mistakes.

WHICH i’ll say bc of something that happened in middle school? Something really bad happened to a close friend of our teacher, and when she shared that with the class somewhat casually, it was a pretty serious topic? half of the class laughed (who knows if actuality or just as a reaction) and half stayed silent. and a handful didnt know whether to laugh or not. She got really angry, telling us that the ppl who laughed, and those who didnt know which to do were terrible people. We were in 7th grade.. she expected us all to have the mental capacity to understand the weight of the situation? I couldn’t tell if she was making a joke or just talking aloud randomly, so i had no idea how to respond to that, I was in-between halfheartedly-laughing and not, I couldn’t tell how bad the situation actually was. I wish she had told us outright it was a bad situation. and that she wanted to just let us know, instead of talking about it in a jokish way then lashing out at us. I’m sorry but I never had a situation where something bad like that happened to me as of then, I had no idea how to react. Was I truly a bad person for not knowing how to react correctly? (I was definitely wrong in the way I reacted. I hate how I halfheartedly laughed a little, I’ll never do that as long as I live now but at that time?? I honestly had no idea. I relied on social cues ..))

You: hey wait but that’s a middle school story?? This is on twtr, there’s way more ppl with varied ages there, there’s no excuse for the older ones at least.

Yeah you’re not entirely wrong. There’s younger people who might not know how to approach this correctly. And then there’s older people that sHOULD know how to act correctly. All of them need to learn one way or another. Just bc the old ppl should know, doesn’t mean they currently do.

You: It’s not my problem to educate these dumb people.

Yeah it’s not your problem. You’re right. But I hope you could try to, or let other people educate them. It would be nice. And it would help the people in the wrong to understand what they did wrong, and what to never do in the future.

Of course if they think what they did was completely warranted and they’ll never change , then yeah tell them to stfu and never look at their pfp again. But most ppl would not act this way.

but of course twit tl is always so extreme so yeah :) anyways before all that i just wanted to say that i feel kinda sad, in the empty pit in my stomach kinda way. I hope s/vt really is ok with releasing this. And I hope car/ats will approach these sensitive situations better.we are all human. pls take a deep breath, sit back. calm down first. but if you don’t, it’s understandable.

#long post #kelly why did you write 1.035 thousand words when you could have said this with one paragaph #bc my mind is either 0 words or 1k #also the reason i say this is bc time and again I always see people jumping to conclusions and it annoys me to no end juST SIT BACK AND #THINK WHY THEY DID IT #but at the same time i know why you're so angry and im NOT telling you to stop being angry #anyways if anyone actually reads that?? props to you bc it's waaay too long to read #and also its not even a happy thing to read to so yeah.#i would write this in twit buuuutt.. hhaha.. seeing as how i wrote 1k words...#not happening on twitter then..#tauko talks #my head hurts #im tired #but i needed to write this #and doing it by hand would kill my already hurting hand

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aelinbitch-archive · 5 years

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unpopular opinion: i don’t like rowan/rowaelin. i’m not here to convince u to unstan lol ppl are allowed to like/dislike things w/o feeling bad about it omg but i hate that some rowan stans are so insensitive when it comes to those who don’t like him! they’re so thirsty for him that they condemn anyone who doesn’t stan him & then excuse his problematic/lowkey triggering actions bc he’s hot and it’s gross. AGAIN not saying ppl can’t like rowan it’s ok lol but it’s more about some stan’s behavior

That’s totally fair my angel. I dislike the vibe that some people are locked out of the fandom for not being a cheerleader for every aspect of the series, and I hope that my followers/mutuals know that if they dislike stuff I like, or like stuff I dislike, expressing their opinions regarding that won’t ever cause me to cut them off (unless it’s like, some truly gross shit, which disliking rowaelin isn’t).

Also I have to say, even tho I do like rowaelin, I understand where you’re coming from about people excusing his actions because he’s hot. I’ve toooooootally seen that. And I’ll just be 100% honest - no shade to anyone, but some of the rowaelin content on this website disturbs me a little bit, in terms what’s considered hot/romantic/acceptable when writing or depicting them in art. I’ve seen some weird stuff defended as hot or even just “not that bad.” Which isn’t necessarily a problem with canon, but your ask was more about stans anyway, so yeah.

A while ago I actually wrote rowaelin meta in response to some other peeps (which was more about Aelin in relation to Rowaelin and how she’s included or not included in discussions of the ship, but it has some thoughts relevant to this ask) so I’m gonna just copy and paste what I wrote below and feel free to read if u want. (It’s like very overdramatic and fiery lmao but anyway).

I agree with a lot of this, but (at risk of derailing ms aelinapologist’s amazing post) I do have a few things to say, which are

1. OP took two whole paragraphs at the beginning of her post to say that the point wasn’t to discourse about rowaelin being abuse or not abuse, it was to talk about how the conversations centering around said abuse consistently display a disturbing lack of empathy for the character who should be the main concern of the debate. So I just find it a bit funny/odd that the replies (including a portion of the one I’m about to make, I admit that) have been like “Yeah great post! And now to discourse about Rowaelin-” but I digress.

2. I have consistently loved reading about Rowan and Aelin and they’re one of my favorite fictional couples. So nothing I’m about to say is intended to be like “GOTCHA they suck and you suck for liking them!!!” Because I like them as well. A lot. And in addition, nothing about this reblog is intended to be shady or confrontational in any way shape or form. I just think this is a great and very needed discussion I’d like to contribute to, so here goes.

3. Even if we look at HoF alone and ignore how things play out later: yes, they are both mean to one another, yes, they are both in a dark place and end up having a mutually positive effect on one another (so I definitely agree that, at least for HoF alone, it’s not a “douchey guy changes for the heroine story”) but. There IS still a power imbalance. I don’t think it’s entirely accurate to say “they were both bad The End” without also bringing up the fact that Rowan is 300 years old and Aelin is 18, and that Rowan is training Aelin and is in a position that gives him a massive amount of control over her, and that he is stronger and more powerful than her physically, magically, and socially (he is a prince and legendary warrior, she is a AWOL teenage princess currently working as a scullery maid).

Maybe I’m reading into it too much, but I really just don’t think that Aelin, a 17 y/o girl going through an unimaginably shitty time, being like “fuck you!!” to this 300 y/o jerk who doesn’t know shit about her is on the same level as aforementioned 300 y/o jerk hitting her, biting her, and telling her she would have been of more use to the world if she’d died when she was eight.

And in addition to that, we see that his behavior effects her a lot more than it effects him. When he verbally tears her down, we see her experience genuine and devastating despair and shame, whereas everything she does and says to him, no matter how snarky or outright cruel, is not having that same effect on him. People always seem to think they’re giving Aelin credit for being a Strong Woman™ by saying “she’s tough! she can handle it!” when in reality… we have evidence for the fact that she kinda can’t handle it. That the way he treats her in the beginning is slowly wearing her down and sending her deeper into a depressive state. And I don’t understand how it somehow reflects poorly on Aelin (or is even misogynist) to acknowledge this. Women, especially literal teenage girls, should not be measured by their tolerance for mistreatment.

All I really wish is that somewhere along the line we’d gotten a genuine apology from Rowan for this besides a throwaway line in KoA about regretting their “brawling.” And again, none of this is to say “see!! it IS abuse!!” it’s just to suggest that, even as an enemies to friends to lovers story, the “enemies” part was not exactly on a level playing field.

4. But with that being said, I could probably forgive the imbalance in their early relationship, mostly because their later relationship, as both friends and lovers, is so amazing and supportive in pretty much every way. And the great thing about enemies to FRIENDS to lovers, like you said, is that 1) none of the assholery occurred during any kind of romantic or sexual relationship or a transition into one, so it was sort of “fair and square” in that way, and 2) they had the opportunity form a solid, platonic foundation of trust and caring before they crossed into the lover territory.

Aaaaaaaaaand then Sarah did a retcon job on HoF which negated… pretty much all of that. I can totally be down with “good old fashioned mutual hatred thaws into caring which grows into love” but once we start hearing shit like “‘Sometimes, you’d be sleeping beside me at Mistward, and it’d take all my concentration not to lean over and bite them. Bite you all over’” and “‘That was the first time I really lost control around you, you know. I wanted to chuck you off a cliff, yet I bit you before I knew what I was doing. I think my body knew, my magic knew. And you tasted… So good. I hated you for it’”……. hhhhhhhhhhh.

I can’t think of many arguments for this NOT contributing at least a little to the “he’s mean because he loves you (and stick it out because someday he’ll figure it out)” trope. And while it might be a bit different because Aelin was quite mean as well, her behavior was just… meanness. Not some sort of weird outlet for repressed sexual attraction/love. I guess I just get flashbacks of “No sweetie, that boy in your class kicks your desk, pulls your hair, and calls you names because he likes you and doesn’t know how to express it.”

And I think this decision on Sarah’s part to go back and say he was into her all along is 1) a result of the mating bond thing she’s so fond of and 2) kind of a panicked backpedalling to the backlash she might have gotten over Rowan’s behavior in HoF? Which is…. so ironic because she made it SO much worse. In my humble opinion, she should have just doubled down on what she originally wrote as enemies-friends-lovers (and had Rowan bring up his early behavior and apologize in some way), and the problem would have been solved. And while I personally feel that I can recognize this for what it is - a shitty retcon - and enjoy the relationship despite it, I don’t think we should talk over people for whom this is a deal-breaker for the ship.

5. I don’t think about all of this and have the reaction that so many “anti tog” people seem to have of “FUCK Rowan he’s ABUSIVE and PREDATORY and I wish he was DEAD!!!” I think there are things to criticize about his behavior and about the way Sarah decided to spin their relationship, but they have had many great moments, especially in the later books, and I don’t think I or anyone else is “shipping abuse” by enjoying that. All of this is just to emphasize how, in OP’s very succinct words, “your inalienable right to enjoy two characters’ dynamic does not outweigh the right to criticise it.” Because there ARE valid things to criticize, and we as Rowaelin shippers (lol.) need to be careful not to conflate ugly hatred with valid criticism when we speak over it.

And because there IS so much ugly hatred for Aelin and her relationship with Rowan on this website, I completely understand why there’s a kind of knee-jerk reaction of jumping to defense of this ship we love. But that impulse, quite frankly, means nothing to me if defense of Rowaelin includes the erasure of Aelin’s canonical experiences. And maybe this is wacky and controversial, but I’m pretty sure we can express our enjoyment of Rowaelin AND keep Aelin as an individual from being swept under the rug.

6. More than saying any of that what I really really want to do (and have been trying to do in the previous paragraphs, but maybe unsuccessfully) is bring the conversation back to OP’s original point which was not “abuse!” or “not abuse!” but about how the ways in which we discuss “abuse or not abuse” often includes a stomach-turning lack of concern for Aelin and some frustratingly reductive arguments. And somehow I have the sneaking suspicion that Rowaelin shippers are reading this post and missing the point, which that this is happening on BOTH sides of the argument.

Everyone is perfectly entitled to ship Rowaelin and argue their opinion about its merits or lack thereof, but when we cover our ears and say “she was mean too she was mean too she was mean too she was mean too la la la la la la la” that’s completely ignoring the genuine pain that she did experience in HoF and the power imbalance that she was subjected to, no matter whether or not we personally feel that it was sufficiently rectified in later books.

And I see this ALL THE TIME, in both the fandom and “anti-fandom”, and I’m honest to god quite sick of it. I’m sick of the willful ignorance of a teenage girl’s pain in order to further an agenda. Yes, it’s more stomach-turning when the agenda is to prove what an evil bitch she is or whatever, but it’s not excusable if your agenda is to prove Rowaelin is great, either! And I don’t understand why we have to throw all nuance out the window and ignore how Dorian hurt her, ignore how Chaol hurt her, ignore how Rowan hurt her, fucking hell, ignore how SAM hurt her, just so we can make our arguments! Because as much as the antis love to scream about “WHAT MESSAGE IS THIS TERRIBLE SHIP SENDING THE TINY GIRL-CHILDREN WHO READ THE BOOKS???” it’s also like, what kind of message is our ongoing discussion of it sending by sweeping a teenage girl’s experiences under the rug when we argue about her relationships?

And like OP said, what have we even got to show for it? No conclusion has been reached, nothing has been achieved besides valuing a romance (or the hatred of that romance and preference for a different romance) over individual characters, namely an individual character who happens to be a teenage girl that has suffered an ungoldy amount - suffered, sometimes, at the hands of male characters we like.

In conclusion, the mass allergy everyone seems to have to giving a shit about Aelin unless its to further their agenda is sickening. If I had a dollar for every time I’ve had to hear about how poor Manon’s character was “ruined” by Manorian (although not directly by DORIAN, of course, because apparently Saint Haviliard can do no wrong) I’d have enough money to buy a lamborghini and drive it off a cliff like I wish I could every time I hear someone’s terrible hot take about how Aelin is complicit in her own alleged abuse. Yet somehow I’ve never heard anyone complain about the damage done to Aelin’s character by any of the male characters, including Rowan. It’s never “Rowan ruined Aelin’s character!!” it’s “Rowaelin sucks and so does Aelin.” In fact, one of the REASONS Aelin sucks in the first place IS Rowan/Rowaelin! What a great implicit message to send to people reading your “critiques”: if you are annoying and #problematic enough, your suffering will be used against you and you will receive no sympathy for it. Cool!

And for other ships, too: it’s never “Chaol and Dorian, while at points a very good for Aelin, also caused her a lot of pain” it’s either “Chaol was right about Aelin in QoS and both he and Dorian are ruined because of her #chaorian” OR, from the fans, who, again, are not off the hook, “Chaol and Dorian and Aelin are BFFs forever #originaltrio.” And as a teenage girl myself, who loves and identifies with Aelin, who is more invested in her story than anyone else’s… I’m just tired. And more than a little appalled. And I wish we could do better.

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For Renee: 15, 16, 25, 38, 21, A, G, E. For Alister: 1, 13, 22, 18, 21, 16, 31, E, . For Cas: 3, 15, 18, 21, 22, 31, 38, 43, 7, E. For Cameron: 1, 3, 7, 8, 10, 13, 17, 18, 21, 30, 32, A, E, B. For Rory: 2, 11, 14, 16, 25, 35, 40, A, B, E, G

ok u asked for it. I literally had to wait and do this on the computer bc like… I aint about to do all these on my phone

Renee:

15: It depends, sometimes she says stupid shit on the spot (especially when she’s mad) but she stops and tries to articulate her words when she’s trying to comfort or encourage someone

16: LUCAS. But really, seeing Avery never stops making her feel sick in fear AND disgust. (not just bc he ugly)

25: Something she never liked to think about for herself because it’s completely impossible for her to live a normal life and not endanger her spouse. BUT when it comes to other people getting married she’s a romantic and loves seeing happy couples. (that’s why she likes a good romance movie)

38: pfft she relives her mistakes constantly, but most likely the first person she killed. It’s the most often recurring thought, anyway.

21: She just wants to be able to live a normal life, honestly. She tries to be optimistic about it. Oh, and she wants to murder Avery so he can never hurt her or anyone else ever again :)

A) I like that she’s actually trying to improve herself and it’s nice to see her actually TRY to learn to her mistakes and be a better person even tho it aint work.

G) She’s so damn petty and destructive in her relationships, it takes a lot of effort for her to step back and unlearn the behaviors she was taught growing up.

E) Yeah if the bitch wouldn’t go off on me

Alister:

1. Maybe a half hour? He’s not good at relaxing lmao I wonder why.

13: He throws on mostly dark or neutral colors, which looks good BUT he actually looks best in red imo. He probably wouldn’t choose to wear it himself but wouldn’t be opposed to it either.

22: It’s actually pretty easy to make him jealous, but he’d probably just distance himself and act like he could NOT care less. big surprise and not super obvious at all. He’d just never admit to it.

18: The vague implication that he cares about his friends, family, romantic interest.. etc.

21: pretty well only because he has people he cares about he wants to look out for. Oh, and he’s stubborn af and not to mention already too used to carrying on.

16: Lucas, Avery, both of his parents… etc.

31: That’s hard bc they all dumb af. but uhhh he appreciates Renee a lot for all her optimisim despite everything they went through. They made things a little easier for eachother outside of the whole dumb mutual crush they had going on. They’re genuinely good friends tho.

E: I’d just think he was a prick probably and even if I knew he was actually a decent person I don’t VIBE with that type of pal irl.

Cas:

3: readingggggg. He finds it fun and distracting.

15: absolutely rehersed to sound as dumb as possible lmao. He goes over a lot of his dumb speeches in his head.

18: not being able to control himself tbch. Obviously he’s embarrassed a lot.

21: He wants to try and get back to his normal self. haha can u imagine. But tbh he wants to figure out who he used to be.

22: it manifests in passive aggressive comments about the person he’s jealous of. He’d probably come out and say something if it were really bothering him, but he’d try not to overreact.

31: his PALS. Renee reached out to him first, so probably her. She’s popular w/ the squad apparently. (also I’m answering every 31 question outside of the rp otherwise they’d b different lol)

38: His memories are mostly ingrained with Kate. He mostly comes back to a moment where he was isolated and calling out for her. He finds it VERY shameful.

43: He’d say he thinks girls are pretty. But sometimes, he also thinks BOYS are pretty. And then someone would say “bud ur bi” and he’d be like “haha ya!” with a vapid smile on his face.

7. Being at his HOUSE, of course. It makes him kinda sad and empty though. It’s more of a bittersweet feeling.

E: Maybe in small doses. He could get annoying.

Cameron:

1. 0 seconds. He’d have to go entertain himself or bother someone.

3. Daydreaming, for sure.

7. fuckin uhhhhh sometimes just being around his brother can give him some actual good nostalgic feelings, but it’s a mixed bag because their childhood was… u kno, bad.

8. By his mom? stop talking so much/so fast. By his brother? stop talking to random strangers u swamp creature.

10: He mostly lied to his mom about where he was going, what he was doing, and just to avoid getting in trouble. He doesn’t really feel bad about it.

13: He thinks he looks best in blue. It suits him pretty well, actually.

17: He has very little shame, so no.

18: He’s a little embarrassed when he’s complimented by a friend or praised by an adult, but he just covers it up with bravado so u can’t even tell.

21: Since he’s a very social person he really just wants to get up and hang w/ his PALS. and have a good time.

30: Steeeeeeeveeeee

32: He’ll just say something off the wall or sarcastic.

A) Honestly? He’s just fun bc he has absolutely zero self control.

E) Yeah he’d be fun to hang out with, just maybe not constantly because he’s kinda Much.

B) he was literally just supposed to add some more background for Alister, but now I have to deal with him 4ever. :(

Rory:

2. She’ll laugh openly if someone trips or does something embarrassing. Usually she’ll just crack a smile at a joke, unless it’s HYSTERICAL

11. Depends on the circumstances, but most often she’ll just nod and try to seem mature while having no idea what the fuck is going on.

14. She loves animals. Just not snakes.

16. Being grabbed or touched without warning makes her feel sick. It really depends on how she’s feeling that day, though.

25: Something she’d love but can’t see herself being able to manage.

35: She tries her hardest to be like “ok… neat.” even if she thinks it’s dumb. Sometimes she’ll make insensitive comments or be really obvious about her lack of interest but she TRIES.

40: She knows her own flaws very well, she just doesn’t go out and admit it openly. Her self esteem is crap but sometimes she gets caught in the moment and doesn’t realize she’s being shitty until after the fact.

A) the way she’s slooowly working to the point where she’ll be able to kick Lucas off a bridgeB) my thought process: im need… more girl. E) nooooo and no. actually MAYBE sometimes. G) Her being kind of a fukin jerk most of the time is like lord don’t u get tired go take a nap

#ocs #bakugosucks #oc tag

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brosura · 6 years

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hey there demons, it’s ya girl mimi (no last name)

QUICK FACTS:

like, twenty? she’s not keeping track.

originally from lestallum but her origin story was different before comrades

irresponsible knife gal

more info below the cut!

BACKSTORY:

originally conceptualized her as a side quest character in the vein of dino except that instead of asking them to put themselves in danger for rocks she asks them to put themselves in danger for food

in her original concept, she’s nineteen and from lestallum but is also a persona non grata there bc she kept dining and dashing from all the food establishments & lives in one of my friend’s (@ cara dis u) ocs little hunter settlement intermittently

to be fair tho she was orphaned by the war w niflheim and raised by an old lady in lestallum who spoiled her and tried to teach her to become a crown citizen (bc she believed she’d have a better life there) and the old lady died when she was like thirteen so she basically doesn’t know how to take care of herself

started hunting bc she has 0 sense of responsibility but likes being active! and she got pretty good at it! likes the independence!

very irresponsible tho - hitchhikes everywhere, forgets to eat, forgets to make sure she has money, forgets to take on hunts, takes on hunts ALONE bc she doesn’t want to split the money, etc.

the boyos met her on one of those sidequests where you give some stranded hunter medicine except it’s not medicine, they literally have to feed her since she’s irresponsible and a FOOL and forgot that she had no money for food and went out on a hunt to get money for food but passed out as soon as she’d completed it because she hadn’t eaten it in like??? she doesn’t know

immediately attached to the group because like, her dream since becoming a hunter was to have enough money to travel to meldacio and afford the hunter’s ragout and when ignis just casually makes something similar for her she’s like ??? y’all eat like this every day??? and they haven’t been able to get rid of her since

she’ll just show up, greet only ignis, and ask what he’s making for dinner and wait expectantly to be invited, and her side quest is to obtain ingredients nearby usually with a fight involved

joins the party as a guest party member tho so at least she helps

ignis stan, he’s the only one whose name she remembers

calls the rest of them a variation of ‘city boy'

in this version she has only brown hair and keeps it cut short and usually wears a secondhand hammerhead hat (BIG CRUSH ON CINDY)

in comrades!!

still from lestallum, but actually made it to insomnia at around age sixteen after the old lady died

had a hard time in school both bc she was hella behind after years of just struggling to stay alive (and still honestly struggling to stay alive, tbh) and bc this group of girls bullied her for being an outsider and kind of ??? gave up on it.

chance encounter with some kingsglaive in her neighborhood (while she was cutting class lol) gave her Ideas, and she joined up at around age 17 (lied about her age and said she was older, and honestly she doesn’t know how old she is)

kind of distant from the rest of the kingsglaive, bc she’s younger, joined later and is mainly in it for the paycheck and access to a place to sleep and eat, so she doesn’t really catch on to the coup that’s happening

basically shows up to the movie kingsglaive 15 minutes late with coffee and accepts the first orders she’s given which were, naturally, from draut0s

catches on hella late when someone tellin her to take on cor and she’s like wait?? no? why?? i don’t want to die? and she joins the glaive/crownsguard that are trying to evacuate the city instead

the rest is, as they say, history

honestly really unhappy to be back in lestallum bc i imagine she was still a dine and dasher in her youth and is like :/ :/ don’t recognize me pls :/

SKILLSET:

K N I V E S

she’s from lestallum when i created her so she’s a sSTRo NG and has HIGH HP which actually fits her tenacity and will to live?

bad at magic but good at warping!

warps, even when it’s unnecessary, purely bc she thinks it looks cool

WHAT SHE LIKE THO?!?:

first of all she’s bi so jot that down

her two persistent crushes are ignis and cindy (she met cindy once while hitchhiking and she’s been in love ever since)

very externally motivated with a #treat yoself mentality and in her original concept it was food that she was motivated by just bc that was a ‘luxury’ but in insomnia there’s like clothes, too?? hair?? anyway she’d definitely dye her hair as soon as she found out that was a thing bc now the luxury is Lookin Fly

she’s still into the food thing tho tbh

CRITICAL disagreement with gladio on the value of cup noodles, she’s had to eat them for so long & doesn’t care for the taste

flexible/adaptable to the point that she’s almost flaky? like. in her original concept as soon as she was kicked out of the city she was like ‘i’m a hunter now i guess’ and she was flip flopping sides during the events of kingsglaive bc she was confused and just?? ran with it.

resilient, tho!! and aggressively optimistic! doesn’t let hopeless situations get her down!

very confident that noct will come back during the WoR even tho she’s technically never met him!! and when people are like ‘that’s a lie he’s just being a coward’ she’s like ‘well if he’s a coward then we’re all gonna die so like? i’m just gonna believe he’s charging his King Powers because that’s the scenario where we get to be alive’

a fool also, tho, really really dumb

in the original concept she just doesn’t get that noctis is the prince even tho he accidentally introduced himself as noctis and she’s got the evidence and that makes her SUPER insensitive sometimes

like, ‘noctis, huh? your parents must’ve really liked the prince to give u the same name. well, he’s dead now so it looks like ur one of a kind!’

in comrades this translates to her like, never having actually SEEN noctis before moving to insomnia so one time she gets assigned to his guard at an event and he walks in wearing regular clothes and she’s like WHO’S THIS KID and the person with her is like MIMI SHUT UP THATS THE PRINCE

very knowledgeable about certain things tho!

fixes and sews her own clothes!! good at repurposing objects from other hunters/glaives for her own use! very practical gal!

short sword fangirl! like the thing that makes her recognize that noctis is the prince in the original concept is the fact that he summons the engine blade and she’s like??? wait excuse me??? that’s the engine blade??? that’s the blade that royalty uses??? your name is noctis??? are you the noctis??? the royal noctis??? that uses the engine blade???? engine blade??

honestly the responsibility of running Lestallum’s power grid should never have been given to her bc like me, she would absolutely divert critical power to the clothes store first bc she wants to look Cool

#kats original clams #HERE SHE IS #mimi #FUCKIN mimi #my follower mimi i'm sorry this is gonna b weird for u #long post #text heavy #IF UR ON MOBIle I'M SO FUCKING SORRY

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smuttyfairy · 7 years

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i am so fucking frustrated rn because my dad arrived here from the us with his new wife after seven years. i'm still mad at him for neglecting his responsibilities to us and what he did to my mom but i hate how everyone is so against to us seeing him. i missed him so much. i love my dad a lot. i haven't seen him since i was in elementary and i dont know what to do anymore. im just really really sad about the whole thing bc my mom's ok with meeting him but my dad insists on bringing his new wife+

his new wife is nice and i get why my dad fell in love with her. shes nice and calm and shes takes care of my dad dearly. shes very supportive of him and maybe thats why dad liked her. my mom is nice too but when my dad went overseas to work he cheated on my mom a couple times. i get why my mom hated my dad. i hate him too for it and i will never forgive him for the terrible things he put us through but no matter what happens. hes still my dad. i havent talked to him properly for the past+

6yrs (and maybe a couple months) that he wasnt with us. ive only recently talked to him and i just really wanna see my dad you know. my mom wont let me and i understand where shes coming from. but i hate how controlling she is of everything. she kinda hates me right now for always talking to my dad and getting excited for his arrival here. im just torn between everything. everything makes me wanna runaway or hurt myself because this is all too much for me. even my relatives are not helping my+

mom get over the whole thing. they're provoking her and drilling her head with bad thoughts instead of telling her to let go of thing. i know it's hard and maybe a little insensitive of me to tell my mom to just let it go and be happy and i should never get tired of comforting her but it's so hard for me you know. im only human and im 17 yrs old. ive been dealing with this ever since my early elementary years. im so done and fed up with everything. it's kinda ungrateful of me to say that i hate+

my life because we're pretty well off but yes i do hate my life because i want a whole family. i would sound like a total hypocrite if i say that the material things in life doesnt make me happy. it only gives me temporary joy & what i want is permanent happiness. im sorry if this is too long i just needed to vent out & i didnt want to bug my best friends because their vacation has just started & i want them to not worry about me. thank you & i hope i didnt annoy u guys for this long ass message

Hey love! So sorry for the late reply I really wanted to sit down and reply to this since its a personal problem. I’m so sorry to hear about the relationship you have with your parents and that it must be rough :/ I can understand where your mother is coming from although there is no need for her to be so controlling of your life as you are 17 years old, almost an adult (in the US at least). Your father messed up and ruined his relationship with your mother and family and while he did make a mistake or two, it is true; he is still your father. As a father’s daughter its perfectly fine and natural to feel excited to see your dad even though he has hurt your mother. He is your dad, and you still love him im sure. Forgiveness doesn’t come too easily and perhaps your mother has crossed that just yet so she may still have those spiteful feelings toward him. Maybe that is why she doesn’t want you seeing him too. Though soon enough, when you become a legal adult, your mom will have no so in what you do and what you want to do and who you want to see. Talk it out with your mother and tell her how you feel and just try to have her understand how you see it in your eyes. You love them both, and hopefully equally. If you have done this already, then I’m sorry hun, I’m not sure what else to tell you other than sorry :c No one could possibly be happy when they’re in a situation like this. I hope things will work out for you soon and that you overcome this issue and try to feel better

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iknowitsjustmenow · 7 years

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Good and bad

7/25/17 So I have tonsillitis again and they said if it happens again I have to get them out which I don't want to do bc I'm scared and it hurts but I do want to bc then I'll lose weight from not eating. Today was a little better than the past few days bc I cut ties with the people who pretend to care and I've realized that I need to be in bed by 12/1 am or the really bad thoughts start. I'm p sure me and B aren't gunna ever be friends again or at least not back to where we were before. And bc of it me and F are pretty distant but we always have been. Court still switches between being a bitch and being a friend so it's hard to rely on that as a strong relationship. I went out to eat with my mom and sister and step dad today and just re realized how uncomfortable he makes me just being within a few feet of him. I've never been raped and I'll never say this to anyone bc they'll think I'm being dramatic or insensitive but whenever I have to hang with him or talk to him it feels like asking a rape victim to hangout and talk to their rapist. And with writing this I just now realized that I always planned on growing up and leaving them all behind but my sister is going to always be a permanent tie to him. And that really upsets me.

#diary entry

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the-skye-under-the-sea · 7 years

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All of them danke

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1. What have you eaten today? Ummm 2 boiled eggs, 2 bananas, an apple, a sandwich, bugles, a muffin and pasta

 2. Who was your last kiss with? Was it pleasant? Fuck off

 3. What color shoes did you last wear? Black

 4. Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week? Kerry setting the pen on fire in chemistry

 5. What is your favorite scent? Petrol

 6. What is your favorite season? Why? Autumn bc it’s so pretty

 7. Can you do a handstand or cartwheel? Nope

 8. What color are your nails? None

 9. If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? Like a tiny lil black outline of a heart or something

 10. What is something you find romantic? Random compliments, cooking for someone, planning the date

 11. Are you happy? Kinda

 12. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad? School

 13. Dogs or Cats? Cats

 15. Which do you prefer:a museum, a night club, the forest or a library? ALLL

 15. What is your style? Tired

 16. If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be? Watching Sherlock

 17. Are you in a relationship or single? Single

 18. What makes you attracted to the person you like right now? His humour, occasional bursts of kindness, stupid dancing, idk there’s just something there for me

 19. If you could replace your partner/best friend with a celebrity of your choice, would you? Who with? I wouldn’t. Well maybe I’d talk to Benedict Cumberbatch for like a couple hours and then change you back

 20. Are you holding on to something you need to let go of? If so then what? Yeah but idk how

 21. How did you celebrate last Halloween? I didn’t really

 22. Have you recently made any big decisions? No

 23. Were you ever in a school play? Some in primary

 24. What movie would you use to describe your life? He’s Just Not that Into You

 25. Is there something you have dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it? I can’t think of anything

 26. Complete this sentence, “I wish I had someone with whom I could share…” everything

 27. What are two things that irritate you about the same sex? Bitchiness and putting relationships above friendships

  28. What are two things that irritate you about the opposite sex? Insensitive and oblivious

 29. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week? The Lying Detective

 30. What is something that makes you sad when you think about it? My cat dying

 31. How long was your longest relationship? 🖕

 32. Have you ever been in love? Yes.

 33. Are you currently in love? Yeah

 34. Why did your last relationship end? 💩

 35. What jewelry are you wearing right now, and where did you get it? Just my helix earring, from Rebel Ink

 36. When was the last time you cried and why? Uhhh I think sometime last month bc I never fucking do anything and I have no motivation to change that

 37. Name someone pretty. My cat

 38. What did you receive last Valentines Day? Nothing

 39. Do you get jealous easily? So easily

 40. Have you ever been cheated on? No

 41. Do you trust your partner/best friend? Of course

 42. Ever had detention? No

 43. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city? Both

 44. What do people call you? My name

 45. What was the last book you read? The Bookseller of Kabul

 46. How big of a nerd/dork are you? Depends on the subject

 47. What kind of music do you listen to?  Pretty much anything

48. How tall are you? Like 5'4"

 49. Do you like kids? Not really

 50. Favorite fruits?  Mango, banana, raspberries

51. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Jeans

 52. What’s your earliest memory? Being in a baby carrier and my dad pretending to box with my hands

 53. Ever had a poem or song written about you or to you? No hahaha that would be so sweet though

 54. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind for sure

 55. Do you have a collection of anything? Notebooks I suppose

 56. Do you save money or spend it? Both

 57. What would your dream house be like? A house

 58. What top 5 things make you the angriest? Pro life people, people against feminism, the word “retard”, when maths is really fucking hard and the teacher goes too fast, the SQA’s stupid ideas of what makes a person clever

 59. What top 5 things always brings a smile to your face? “I like your hair”, my cat, thinking about going home, new Sherlock, my friends

 60. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? I’ve answered this before

 61. 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? And this

 62. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. Love

 63. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Paris

 64. Do you like the beach? Love it

 65. Ever sleep on the couch or a bed with someone special? No?

 66. Do you have a middle name? If so what is it! Margaret

 67. Do you talk to yourself? Sometimes

 68. Describe your hair. Bushy

 69. What is the meaning of life. Who knows

 70. What is your ideal partner like? Just fuckin anyone at this rate

 71. Do you want to get married? I’d like to

 72. Do you want to have kids? Definitely

 73. Like or dislike your family? Like

 74. Are you Chunky or Slim? Chunky

 75. Would you consider yourself smart? Probably yeah

 76. What would you change about your life? How little motivation I have

 77. Religious or Not? Nah

 78. You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? I wouldn’t do that

 79. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? Would be lonely

 80. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Kelsie

 81. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Having a swell time

 82. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Oh look, there’s nobody there

 83. Do you like when people play with your hair? Not really

 84. Do you like bubble baths? Yeah but nothing beats a hot shower

 85. Have you ever been pulled over by a cop? Nope

 86. Have you ever danced in the rain? Yeah

 87. Do you trust anyone with your life? Not sure

 88. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? Fuck I have a double of maths first thing

 89. If money wasn’t an issue, what top 10 places would you travel to? (You get to stay at each place for a week) Germany, Canada, Scandinavia, India, Iceland, The States, Mexico, Australia, Easter Island, Amsterdam

 90. How was your day today? Aight

 91. Play an instrument? Would like to learn piano

 92. Describe the what you think of the ocean. It’s so mysterious and beautiful yet terrifying I love it

 93. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? Aliens yes, ghosts no

 94. Honestly, are things how you wanted them to be? Nope

 95. Do you have a mean bitchy scary side? Yeah

 96. When are you vulnerable? Like always

 97. How much free time do you have? Lots but I just waste it anyway

 98. Do you like to go hiking? Occasionally

 99. Odd or Even Numbers? Idc

 100. Would you ever go sky diving, bungee jumping , cliff diving, wing suit gliding, parasailing, snorkeling, or other extreme activities? Sure would

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