#hashtag is messed up

[avephelis]

oops! all eber

#toh #the owl house #eberwolf #eberwolf the huntsman #toh eberwolf #avepharts #hey everyone back at it again with the pencil brush #wanted to mess with it again and wanted to draw eber and wanted to do something more sketchy so. those worked conveniently. #i'm his number one supporter nobody understands him like i do he's the main character actually hashtag ebernation rise up #i drew this all on one layer. why? the demons. #-> ID by anistarrose

[alackofghosts]

mucking around with some riso brushes ft the besties :]

#i was gonna stay more hashtag authentic to the spirit of risograph prints #but then i put this other random colour underneath so i could make sure they were the same size etc #and i liked how THAT looked too much so i ended up messing around with that. happy accidents! #G'raha Tia #Alisaie Leveilleur #Final Fantasy XIV #i draw sometimes #fanart #speedpaint

[snowpuff79]

Title card Remix (w.i.p???)

Mhhm golbetty

I love at's and fac's title cards so much

I'd render this but I am busy so here very mess very quick thing

#i saw someone of twitter want a redraw of bespoken for with golbetty and i was like #but also #cheers #i do enjoy fionna and cakes title cards #the golbetty hashtag is my life line #simon petrikov #adventure time #betty grof #golbetty #petrigrof #fionna and cake #simon is a blob #edit i am currently rendering and it looks way better guys my concepts are just always messed up ♥️

[brookheimer]

these recent episodes in particular have been so endlessly heartbreaking and fascinating regarding not only how logan's abuse has manifested differently in each roy but also how the forms the abuse took as well as logan's motivation/emotion behind it varied so greatly from kid to kid. each kid is uniquely damaged, both because they're different individuals and also because the treatment they experienced wasn't uniform at all. i think kendall and shiv received the most similar treatment, just with variations based on their identities as Golden Boy and Woman (Derogatory) respectively -- i think logan's approach towards both of them was rooted in his desire for them to 'reach their full potential' in his eyes (which, again, probably means different things depending on what genitalia they have). connor, meanwhile, was subject to pure neglect. but despite the differences in the abuse experienced by kendall, shiv, and connor, one thing holds true for all of them: each one of them is obsessed with independence, be that through rebellion or self-sufficiency. they convince themselves they're over it, over needing dad's love, because they're their own people now, so everyone else can suck it. they're lying, of course, but they're trying to believe it so hard it's painful.

and then there's roman, whose abuse at logan's hands has had the opposite effect: it's nearly impossible for him to even conceive of himself as a real person with agency and value. while logan's 'tough love,' as he'd call it (although most psychologists would call it 'abuse'), towards ken and shiv was motivated by his desire to actually make them live up to their potential, and to increase their value by instilling (what he viewed as) 'positive qualities' into them, logan's 'tough love' for roman was motivated by his desire to beat the wrongness out of him. rather than trying to add anything positive or bring out the best in roman, logan's priority when dealing with roman was trying to get rid of (what he viewed as) the 'negative qualities' inherent within him. and when he couldn't, he sent him away to military school. ken and shiv were taught to live up to their respective potentials, connor had to teach himself how to live because no one else did it for him, but roman wasn't taught anything -- he was only taught how not to be. because while the others were lacking qualities logan desired, roman was innately, uniquely, entirely wrong. it wasn't a matter of making roman into the man logan wanted him to be so much as it was unmaking roman into something logan could look at without feeling sick. because roman is abnormal, unforgivably so. he's broken, fucked up. he's not made right. real people, normal people, don't act like this, feel like this. everyone else is a person and he isn't, so he doesn't count, not really. while logan shaped the identities of kendall, shiv, and even connor, all he did for roman was convince him that he's not enough of a person to have one, that all he is and all he'll ever be is Wrong.

(this got really long so the rest is under the cut!)

why did logan treat each of his children like he did, like he does?

logan manipulated kendall and shiv and tested them again and again because he saw potential in them and wanted them to prove their worth -- so, he constantly oscillated between showing them love and withholding it, hinting at acceptance before cruelly whisking it away. we see in the present that this incessant game of keep away has resulted in violent, emotional oscillation for shiv and ken, in that they are similarly constantly ping-ponging between two poles, depending on how logan treated them last. they only have two states of being: a desperate desire to win logan's approval, and a burning anger that can only be quelled by 'destroying' him entirely. right now, obviously, they're obsessively in that latter mindset, and even though they try to say it's not about logan, it sounds hollow even to themselves. then there's logan's neglect of connor -- i guess he never really saw connor as a true son, never really cared enough to love or hate him, which resulted in the connor we saw insisting he's able to subsist without love a la 4x02. connor's experience is also unique, as he's the only kid whose daddy issues stem not from logan's presence in his life but his absence from it. it's pretty opposite from shiv and kendall's experience, but clearly no healthier or easier to heal from. then there's roman, the disappointment. he's not a disappointment in the way that shiv and ken end up being, because logan didn't expect anything good from roman anyways. he's a disappointment from the get-go, before he even had the chance to become anyone -- we're told time and time again that logan's relationship with roman has always been defined been his conviction that there's something inherently wrong in his son. we don't know the origin of logan's disgust for roman, but it's not hard to imagine it has something to do with his deeply misogynistic beliefs and the fact that roman is not exactly what one thinks of when they try to picture Masculinity. he cares deeply, loves fully, and logan cannot stand it. shiv might be his daughter, but roman, roman's the girl, and somehow that's even worse than if shiv were. this distaste only strengthens as time goes on -- most of roman's issues stem from that distaste to begin with, so for a long time it's just a seemingly endless cycle of roman becoming 'worse' and logan despising him all the more for it, which, of course, leads to roman becoming even 'worse' and so on and so on. logan will never respect or like roman, will never choose him, because he thinks something is deeply, deeply wrong with him. logan's disgusted by him and uniquely cruel because of it; after all, there's a reason roman was the only one he ever hit.

this idea -- that there’s something uniquely and inherently wrong with roman, that he’s not a person the same way his siblings are, that he never has been or will be -- this exact thought is both roman's biggest fear and his strongest held belief, and the only reason that thought even exists in the first place is because logan made it the fuck up. obviously, it's not true; there's no such thing as Being Inherently Wrong And Bad, especially not for, what, showing emotion and loving your family? roman is not inherently wrong, inherently abnormal, but at this point he's so deeply convinced he is that it doesn't matter (and at this point, he's got enough issues to fill up an entire edition of the DSM, but that's due to trauma and abuse rather than some innate internal failing of his). roman desperately doesn’t want it to be true, desperately hopes no one else sees that in him, but he strongly strongly believes that everyone does anyways, and that's terrifying. that's why he's flippant, devil-may-care -- so what if i'm wrong? i don't care. fuck you. that’s why roman had such a strong reaction to kendall telling him point-blank “you’re not a real person” in ‘Too Much Birthday;’ whether or not kendall intended it to be, it was quite possibly the hardest-hitting thing he could've said at that moment. roman was on a high, albeit a painfully transparent one, and that comment brought him right back to earth — it doesn’t matter that dad’s favoring you right now, you are not a real person and you never will be. no matter what you do, you will always be broken, wrong, abnormal, incomplete.

what’s ironic is that as much as roman wants to prove that statement wrong, he is literally incapable of allowing himself to do so. he’s internalized this abnormality and wrongness so fully that he cannot bring himself to do anything at all that he feels would contradict it. it makes him feel sick, viscerally uncomfortable, like he's doing something wrong; meanwhile, it's only when he's being 'wrong' and gross and abnormal that he feels comfortable. just look at his sex life. it’s not just that he doesn’t enjoy regular sex and only gets turned on by weird shit, but that he is deeply, deeply uncomfortable and disgusted by any attempt to have sex normally, to love normally. he feels like it’s something he’s not allowed to do, someone he’s not allowed to be, and it just feels wrong wrong wrong. he’s too wrong to have right sex. he’s too wrong to have right love. his identity is wrongness. being wrong, being seen as wrong, is the only thing he understands. anything else is inconceivable. it's so ingrained into him that he can't imagine any other way of being.

roman has been so thoroughly convinced that he doesn’t count as a person, not really, that he doesn’t even realize the fact that he has agency — when it comes down to it, he only thinks of himself as someone that things are done to, not someone capable of doing things, especially not to others. he thinks he doesn’t have an impact on other people because he’s not enough of a person for his opinions or actions to matter. roman is incredibly passive in every relationship he has: someone allows him to be in their life and as long as they do, he will never actually leave of his own volition, i don’t think he fully realizes that’s something he actually has the ability to do. people just begrudgingly let him stay in their lives until they don’t anymore. he’s just there like an ugly bauble on a shelf, unmoving until someone remembers it’s there and throws it out — and he always, always expects to be thrown out. it's the other person who decides what happens to him. he doesn't decide what happens to him, much less them. he loves unconditionally because he's been taught to think he doesn't deserve it in return. the other siblings have been taught that they need to fight for it, but even that is newer to roman; he's used to loving dad without being loved in return, and the others aren't. being loved in return is a bonus.

every sibling is so incredibly broken as a result of logan’s abuse, but roman’s the only one who thinks he deserves to be. because that’s what logan taught him: he needs the wrong beaten out of him. so anything logan does is fair game, because roman is the one who provoked it. roman is the one who came out wrong. he's not a real person. why would he expect logan to treat him like one?

#ok ive looked at this too long hashtag posting it. sorry for the fucking thesis but god i've been going insane about him and all of them #roman roy #kendall roy #shiv roy #connor roy #succession #succession spoilers #logan roy #succession s4 #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #and also succession in general really. christ you're a mess #succession meta #is that a tag i use? idk #100 #500

[empoleon]

i love these guys

#texte #pokemon #furret #sentret #my art #this is inspired by the pkmn concierge hashtag on twt! #the one for furret is so mf cute i am in love 😭 haven’t had a chance to watch it sadly #but hopefully i will eventually lol #i keep messing around with so many brushes on procreate if u have a favorite one…. hit me up

[noots-wears-blue-boots]

I never thought in my life I would make and/or POST fortnite fan art in my sad artist life but here we are-

Montague has a chokehold on me (I wish)

(Y'all fortnite girlies should hopefully recognize the last man, but yes, it's Kado Thorne.)

#please #i am on my knees #i am on the floor #why is he so hot #what is with me and french men #i was up grinding until four am just for his skin #his nose is so pretty #and his hair #and his eyes #and everything about him #montague fortnite #kado thorne #fortnite #fortnite fanart #also they are dating #i have made them very gay #epic games i am sorry #but they are my baby boys #they are having a spring wedding #these hashtags are a mess im so sorry its 4 am rn #anyways yeah #i am mentally ill #but also #fuck ai art #cause its stupid #ai could never “draw” montague as beautiful as a real artist #i love him #i love men #especially french ones

[afterartist]

Get angsted on nerds

Check out my latest video plz I worked so hard on it I may cry

Remake of my first ever tiktok :D

Here are some of the frames for y’all ;)

Also cute one cause I’m not 100% mean just a little mean

#art #my art #undertale #sans #sans au #papyrus #papyrus au #undertale au #fanart #dont steal #guys please watch the video I think I messed up my back fr working on this hashtag real hashtag not click bait #angst #animation #animatic #I don’t actually know what this counts as #utmv #Undertale multiverse #barrierfall #barrierfall sans #barrierfall papyrus #skelebros #barrierfall angst #my undertale au #idk how to tag for this plz- #putting all my self worth on the reception of this video 😔 /J #Youtube #let papyrus say fuck

[softhe4rted]

february mb

#hashtag rant ahead #lol #oooooohhhh guys i’ve gotten myself in a complicated situation and can’t really discuss it with my close friends #oooohhh i’m feeling things for a friend and i think maybe she’s feeling things too and we’ve been living in such tenderness #but si pasará it’d messed up so many things about our friend group and our day to day routine #so i can’t really talk about with anyone and mmm sabemos que sería mejor to stop it now before it’s too late pero literal ninguna quiere #not really so uuuughjskaoqa #i just needed to tell someone on the intenert #its just she kissed the inside of my arm yesterday and i can’t stop thinking about it #anyways hoping for a wiser february …. or just bolder or something #moodboard #visual moodboard #pinterest

[jjohhuii]

just dudes hanging out

#and by hanging out . lets just say. kissing #hashtag love wins #project sekai #proseka #pjsk #shinonome akito #akito shinonome #aoyagi toya #toya aoyagi #akitoya #mars draws #i wanted to mess around with lineart while i was on a plane so i cleaned this up for posting

[ievaowl]

Heather Avia.

Fully brain off drawing of my DnD girl! She is a very funky satanic/demonic monk in the campaign and probably the most swag character I've made yet!!! She is a very edgy secretarybird who's really prolific in chemistry and of course witchery and because she is a monk - martial arts! Thank you for reading and also, with this: I'VE COMPLETED THE AT LEAST 1 ART PIECE PER MONTH GOAL!!! I'm so happy about this information, I hope to continue in 2024 :3333

Heather's theme song: https://open.spotify.com/track/7fftnG8BcZ7385YMvWuBes?si=a5f2b362ea434536

#digital art #art #furry #furry art #barn owl #dnd character #dnd #how did this turn out moderately good i barely put in effort into this #I feel like I should let my mind roam free more often #hashtag probably the best art piece of the year ngl xd #I am aware I messed up the colouring because her chest and hair and beak blend into one but idk it *looks* ok #yes the blood on her name is supposed to subtly make it into an n creating “Heathen” instead I think that's cool #colon three

[thebirdarts]

The Death of Family

blood stains, innocent blood stains harder. The blood of those you love stains forever. For prompt 6 of @owlcatober , family [click for better quality and notes are under the cut]

this did not happen but also this is what actually happened, the true version of events, not whatever cold and callous series of events actually took place in the mansion on that night.

this is the metaphorical representation of what happened.

her best friend dying in her arms, white dress getting stained by the blood. fingers intertwined the same way as when they practiced dancing. she dies with a smile on her lips and muras eyes are heavy with grief, taking in every detail as the blood pours out from the gash marring her friends beauty. something in her shatters at the same time as the woman in her arms heart stops beating. something shatters so badly that all is left is glass dust, impossible to put back together. in the warped light the blood looks pink and the shadows on her dress seem akin to the bloodstains on her friends. the only thing unstained, the last gift, a wreath of pure white flowers.

What is left after you kill the only person you let in your heart, other than to become a monster.

so this is entirely for the symbolism. mura wouldnt have her classic hairstyle yet [hell i didnt colour in hair or eyes because muras current ones are dyes/changed] and they both would be younger and given shes using gonna use the body to set up someone she would not have time for a melodramatic finger-entwined kinda embrace.

but the drama!!!!

the parallels to the pieta are intentional [but hey what dead body cradled in someones arms cant be related to it]

her friend is the sacrificial lamb for muras permanent decent into villainy. with her friend gone she has no reason to care for others beyond her own survival.

in many ways this moment is more important that mura overtaking her father, this moment seals her on her trajectory. in many ways this froze mura in time, and planted the largest crack in the wall of her image of her fathers excellence.

ive mentioned it before but the only way for mura to be happy and anywhere near normal, would be someone interfering before this point. as soon as her friends heart stopped beating shes locked in her path and beliefs.

it has a roundabout connection to the prompt, it damages her relationship with her father, and also regardless of the label, her kinship with her freind is a powerfull bond, and their extend lifetimes meaning that the growth they shared was not over years but decades, makes her so important to mura, and in some ways family.

an alternate title would be 'death of innocence' or rather the death of muras last shred of compassion and love.

the two fracture points are mura and her friends hearts. i will use the shattered glass motif till i overuse it.

also yes the braid around muras bun thing in the future is a replacement for the wreath of flowers her friend gave her. heartless my ass. for somone who wants nothing more than to forget what happened she sure doesnt let herself forget.

anyway! girlbesties!!! dont we all kill each other and parts of ourself just for the approval of greater forces!!! betray and scar each other in ways that will last forever!!! whats a friend but a sacrifice waiting to happen!!

notes on the piece over, this is now a personal update:

so this was delayed cause i overexerted myself, unfortunately this means my weekend to relax and do some more prompts is now spent testing the limits of how many painkillers i can take. im mostly annoyed, but hey! still have plenty of jojos to watch /read, and ds9 & the expanse are up next on my watch-list so its fine that i cant move any muscle connected to my shoulders without crying in pain! please ignore the pile of corsework i have to do!

this isnt at a level of quality that i would like it to be, but i am happy with it. no artist ever is fully satisfied with their work, its just this time there is a larger distance than normal.

these notes have been long! thank you for reading so far! i hope your weekend is going well!

#thebirdarts #mura hagdaughter #owlcatober 2023 #warning: this work includes copious amounts of projecting and unprocessed feelings. proceed with caution #hashtag girlbesties #friends that die together. haunt forever #but no this is the key point for mura and is what locks her into her path #one day i will write it because muras internal justifications are just so tragic and messed up #she gets SO close to breaking through #but no. #wotr

[arolesbianism]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN ONI EARTH HAD SMOG SO BAD THEY COULDNT EVEN USE SOLAR ENERGY??? JUST FOUND THAT LOG AND. HEY???

YEAH I KNOW RIGHT most of the oni logs are so stuck within gravitas that it's easy to skip over the random little bits of fucked up world building, with the smog being my favorite piece cause it implies a whole fuckton of other environmental issues and it's suddenly like damn these guys were rly just living their lives while half suffocating huh

#rat rambles #oni posting #like as a hashtag grew up in hawaii guy even mild smog already sucks I cant imagine what enough smog to block the sun would do #like you just know theres like a billion other crisies going on like at the very least with water #which in turn also means food #which means that water purification facilities are a must #which need power #its that full circle that also somehow manages to tie into the gameplay babey #luckily the smog doesn't as pumping gasses into space is a much easier option when you dont have an atmosphere #speaking of space and sky travel must have been obnoxious on oni earth #like if it was thick enough to prevent solar power it definitely was making the sky a smudgy mess at best #Ill assume that there was enough light to see but the sky itself was probably always just grey smog #and Im pretty sure in that same log its mentioned that nuclear power is banned or smth? so probably some incidents there #all in all I dont wanna know what a rainy day on oni earth felt like

[ive-a-problem-to-flaunt]

I don't really expect the show to explore this beyond that (1) conversation between the twins but ngl, I am SO invested in the idea of a messy, codependent relationship between siblings that are devoted to each other to an unhealthy extent.

like, GIMME that toxic, absolute devotion between the brothers with unwavering, unquestioning loyalty even in the face of death!!

"I'll go wherever you go"

"Since you chose that way, I was ready to go with you"

"Because it was the only way we could be together"

an incredibly concerning way to live life, nanfah you are a mess and I love you.

For me, you are a very important person. I know that I am important to you as well.

YEAH YOU ARE. you two are so important to each other that you were genuinely ready to shoot yourself if Nannam let it happen, you keep placing the choice of whether you live or die in his hands, and you both KEEP going back to each other and trust each other and repeatedly choose each other over everyone else - that is one incredibly fucked up and absolutely delicious relationship, inject more of their messiness into my fucking veins, I am SO into this.

(unfortunately, I feel like the show will not be exploring this much more, sigh. Well, except for that one scene in the trailer where one of them is stuck in a fire, maybe? I hope we get some sibling angst there, with one being unsure if the other survived or not and choosing to do something incredibly reckless, self-sacrificial, and downright stupid about it.👀)

#mhmm I guess yay for Nanfah eventually learning #that a person can have space in their life to love and care for more than one person #and that Nannam's love for Nithan doesn't come at the cost whether he cares for Nanfah #so good for you nanfah! #like that IS an important and healthy lesson etc etc #and it only took your twin getting shot and nearly dying #for you two to sit down and actually communicate for once about how much you matter to each other #hashtag just brotherly things🥰 #and i will agree- asking naanam to pick between his lover and you by holding his gun to your head sure was an effective conversation opener #ah nanfah and nannam you absolute messes. i love you. #anyway idk why the whole 'i will follow you wherever you go' thing is such a tasty trope to me #and even more so when it's about siblings or friends rather than lovers #i think every other instance i've seen of this has been romantic? so I am eating this UP #the jungle #the jungle the series #placeholder tag

[smol-blue-bird]

Greek mythology retellings that I like:

We updated this myth for a modern setting while keeping most of the story and major elements of the mythology intact

We made a story loosely based on or inspired by an old Greek myth, and we’re upfront about that

Greek mythology retellings that I don’t mind:

This is an adaptation for laypeople who have little familiarity with the subject matter, so we simplified some things out of necessity

This is an adaptation for children, so we kept it age-appropriate and handled the sexual/gory material in a non-explicit way

This is a ten-minute YouTube video that can’t possibly explain every tiny detail about this extremely complex topic, so we’re gonna stick to the basics

Greek mythology retellings that I loathe with every fiber of my being:

This is the Secret True Version of the original myth that historians have been hiding out of malice, and if anyone tells you otherwise they’re a liar who’s shilling for Big Archeology

The original myth was Wrong and Problematic and you’re Bad if you enjoyed learning about it, but don’t worry, I rewrote it to make it Good

I hate history, I hate reading, I hate the classics, and I especially hate ancient Greece. I did zero research whatsoever for this project and I have no respect for the source material or the field in general, and I’m very proud of that

#i think this is why i’ve always liked Hadestown but I hate those Hades/Persephone romance books #there’s a difference between making a play loosely based around an old myth #that incorporates existing mythology about Hades being the god of wealth/the ruler of the underworld and uses it to make a point #versus writing a romance novel and going NO ACTUALLY THIS IS TOTALLY WHAT THE ANCIENTS BELIEVED #EVERY HISTORIAN IN THE WORLD IS LYING TO YOU BECAUSE HISTORIANS HATE TRUE LOVE #this is also why I never minded kids’ series like the Percy Jackson books or that weird goddess high school AU #using Greek mythology as a framework to write a fun adventure story is cool! #but sitting there and going #UM these myths are Messed Up and hashtag Problematic and I rewrote them so now they’re Morally Okay to Like #is just obnoxious #basically #making not-necessarily-accurate-but-interesting mythology-inspired fiction is fine #but making stuff that attacks historians and archeologists #or spreads misinformation #or makes people feel bad for ever enjoying or wanting to study the original Problematic mythology #is just irritating. #anyway #classicsblr #greek mythology

[twilightarcade]

I AM IN POSSESSION OF THEM!!!!!!

#wordstag #hi please look at them please they are hashtag irl can you believe this oh my gosh #immediately messed up aka because I tried to fix a tiny air bubble because I am stupid and oh my gosh I will never get my honor back #I don't even have anywhere really to put them I'm just going to stare at them forever ok <3

[bad-wolf-circe]

I DIDNT EVEN *LIKE* ANYTHING HAZBIN HOTEL RELATED I JUST CLICKED THE HASHTAG ONCE????? WHY IS HAZBIN HOTEL FLOODING MY DASH????

#hazbin hotel #listen no hate to you if you like the show #no hate to the show either #i just literally do not like it #and have no interest in watching it #and idk if tumblr's algo is messed up or what #i just clicked on the hashtag by accident and now my entire dash is filled with hazbin #like sorry!!! i do Not care abt ur twinky hellgays or whatever!!!!