#hashem help me

[jewishdainix]

Tumblr I am just trying to reblog normally what do you want from me

#literally ever tumblr update is 'how painful can we make it for her hands to reblog stuff' #hashem help me

[laineystein]

I usually only talk about the days where I lose a patient but a lot of days in the ED are like the day I had today: lots of sniffles and low grade fevers. And an irritated MD (me). Please hydrate, take some acamol TS, and go the heck home. I don’t have time for your ridiculousness.

#lainey things #er md #md things #tales from the er #hashem help me

[messmersflame]

all i can do is pray and not look away

#hashem help me be whole as i pray for justice

[farragoofwires]

Don' dweeblog

All I'm saying is someone once quoted "no one snowflake thinks it is responsible for the avalanche" at me and did irreparable damage to my psyche.

#i love to take 'i am personally responsible for the conduct of every other jew' as 'i can help!' instead of this avalanche #i don't know what the mental separation i have somehow managed is but i have in fact done it #and it makes me absolutely intolerant of 'ah yes the jews were being punished by hashem for infighting' #sorry sages i shrimply cannot do it.

[brightgnosis]

Firstly, I'mma need y'all to learn some serious critical thinking skills and discernment. Because practicing something like highly modified Mormon derived Folk Healing (which is explicitly condemned by the Church, and is an officially abandoned practice) as a spiteful disabled Pagan Queer currently converting to Judaism, who is Ex-Mo and was directly victimized by the Mormon church ... Is not even remotely the same thing as actively being Mormon. Nor does practicing it inherently mean being Racist just because the Mormon Church itself has a foundational history of Racism, y'all.

Practices can be changed, deconstructed, and used in "heretical" and "unsanctioned" ways by the very people victimized by their systems. This is a thing. It is not the same on on the same level or playing field as these systems themselves. If y'all can understand that about things like Catholic Folk Magic and African Diasporic Religions, but y'all can't understand that about Mormon Folk Practices, then you're a bigot and a hypocrite.

Secondly: I'm not even going to touch on the absolute lie that any form of the substitutions debate is "blatant class warfare that was explicitly designed to keep poor people out of Witchcraft, and is inherently a form of gatekeeping and eugenicist bullshit". Because not only do I blatantly disprove that by existing as a disabled, impoverished agender whose been doing this just fine for 23 years now with minimal resources or materials ... But I've also actually actively been directly involved in a lot of the originating discussions on the grand scale, and read enough history and older materials from the Revival, to absolutely know better that it's not.

That claim is so utterly asinine and divorced from the actual history of that debate in the last decade especially that it's literal ahistorical insanity and doesn't even deserve any kind of response. Please grow up and learn both your class and occult theory from somewhere other than Tumblr University 101.

#meow-meow-nerd #misletoechaos #HaShem Grant Me The Patience; #NEVER In My 23 Years of Practice or 33 Years of Life. #Please For The Love Of HaShem Stop Making Things Up. We Have Enough Pseudohistory To Deconstruct In this Community AS IS. #Your Absolutely Batshit Conspiracy Nonsense Is NOT Helping Anyone or Anything Y'all. #And the Absolute Irony In The Mormon Thing Is Just Too Much To Handle Honestly. #Please Grow Up #Religion & Magic #Mormon Folk Healing #Witchcraft #Oklahoma #Personal #2023 #ExMo #ExMormon

[animazed]

and i can’t tell if you’re laughing

between each smile there’s a tear in your eye

there’s a train leaving town in an hour

it’s not waiting for you,

and neither am I

#Pinny cut things off #I spent the night with Jeffrey and made a voice note diary entry #made some progress on my puzzle with the fun shaped pieces #And watched two episodes of house that priced really relevant #(s5e7+8) #I’m gonna be okay #I’m terrified #But I’m gonna be okay #i just have to keep moving forward #i don’t have much of a support system outside Hashem #and it’s hard to see Hashem very often #so there’s me #And background Jeffrey and Mrs. P #and there was Pinny once upon a time #who left me with words to follow #So i can see now that Hashem is setting me up for things #and I’m grateful #i just hope I’m about to stop the bouts of paralysis #maybe therapy will help if i can’t get a friend or something #i dunno #idk how to keep myself motivated when i am so prone to hiding and wallowing #but please Hashem #let me get through this phase soon #please #rant

[hinenihineni]

Was crying today thinking about how no one besides myself has been there to see me through every revelatory and and soul-crushing moment of my journey. Stopped crying when I realized hang on yes someone else has been there this whole time and it’s Gd

#his purpose might not be to stop the pain but rather to just be there with me to help me bear it #with every scathing thought I’ve had about how he betrayed me by allowing me to come to such harm #I missed the truth of his devotion #the horrors I’ve seen haven’t been caused by Gd’s absence #they’ve been withstood because of his constant presence #despite everything I see now that I’ve been protected all along #not from danger and harm #but from ever having to go through it alone #hashem

[sugarspunfaerie]

Granted I’m taking a break from coding my Neocities but I’m so into it I would love to start coding my own Toyhouse & Tumblr themes once I get more confident in my skills

#rabbit rambles #thank hashem for teen me coding on early 2010s DeviantArt #I got at least some basic HTML knowledge in #and even editing code here on Tumblr has helped #Now I’m actually learning more & putting it to use.

[unbidden-yidden]

I'm gonna be honest here: one of the more exhausting parts of the online discourse is how much of a tightrope I am always on, that those of us who care about human rights for all human beings are always on, because any statement made in favor of the "other" side is ripe for tokenism.

I, as a Jew, care about the safety and human rights of Palestinians and Arab Israelis. You will never convince me that there is an ethical way to kill civilians, especially children. You will never convince me that police brutality against citizens marching for their civil rights is necessary. You just can't. And yet I have to be so careful when/where I say that and how I say that, because too often this simple acknowledgement that all people are created in the image of Hashem and should be treated accordingly is ripped out of context and placed between a deluge of other posts denying my people that very same acknowledgement. The number of times I have said these things, only to go into the reblogs and see my words surrounded on all sides with violent antisemitism? I've lost count.

And guess what? It's made me less effective as an advocate, it has actively silenced me from speaking up sometimes, because I refuse to be your "good Jew," your token, somebody whose words can be misconstrued to kasher your vile hatred of my people. And to be very clear: Jewish Israelis are my people just as much as fellow diaspora yidden are, and they deserve better from both goyim and diaspora Jews alike.

And I've seen this go the other way, too: I've seen Palestinian activists and journalists who are trying very hard to balance the values of respecting other people (including Israelis and/or Jews writ large) as fellow human beings with the pain that their people are currently suffering. And I've seen their words ripped out of context and used to excuse more violence against them and their people.

And then there are lots of other people - genuinely well-intentioned people who are trying to learn from me - who keep treating me like I'm some paragon of nuance. I'm trying, truly, but I'm Just Some Guy. You know what I do? It's extremely simple and I promise you can do it too, any of you, if you slow down long enough to think before putting anything out there: "Would I say this about my brother? My mom? My daughter? My people? Would I be happy if the person I loved most on this earth was living under these circumstances and being talked about in whatever way I'm about to speak? Would it feel victim-blaming? Would it feel disrespectful of their struggle or dishonest? Does it ignore their history or trauma? Is it actually helping?" These are the types of questions I try very hard to ask myself every time I post about the conflict, about both sides. I try to talk about this as if the people on both sides were my family. Because truthfully? They are. Am Yisrael is a family, before anything else. Palestinians are our closest cousins. This war is a bloodbath and a tragedy, and everyone is suffering. For those of us who are not living there, please remember this and have some respect.

#המצב #i/p #t-minus 60 minutes before someone l i t e r a l l y does the exact thing I'm on about here

[i-am-a-fucking-nerd]

Been so fucking dysphoric lately and idk what to do. It’s like. Debilitating in a way it never has been for me before. All I wanted to do td was claw at my skin and try and move to be in the right shape but that’s not smth I can do lol. Had to go out to get food and I genuinely thought I might have a breakdown in the middle of a convenience store and I was so paranoid that everyone could see that I was wrong and I wasn’t a person correctly. I had to force myself to stop scratching my skin.

#trans #queer #dysphoria #havilah's thoughts #like I’m so sorry boy Havilah I did not mean to let u out just so u could constantly feel distressed and bad #idk how to help u deal w these feelings! I obviously haven’t been! they’re new to me and idk what to do w them!!! #u did a good job td. and I believe in u for tm. we can do this. we can do this. #if I could give us the right body right now I would I would I promise #but idk how to get it rn. idk how to get surgery or hormones. and we’re stretched so thin rn tryna get a therapist like. buddy I Promise u #I am trying my absolute fucking hardest #and we will make it through this #but I need u to be alright enough for now and to make peace w the body hashem has given us until we can make any modifications yknow #wish I could wear a binder my top dysphoria isn’t even that bad but it’d be like. an actionable thing u could do to put on a binder every #day yknow. but I can’t stand to wear them #anyway. enough rambling. if anyone got this far thanks for listening and have a good time of day

[tikkunolamresistance]

I want to thank you for doing this despite all the hate. I was never Pro-Israel, but I was a fence rider, and this account really helped me take the final steps to being anti-Zionist, as a young Jewish person

Baruch HaShem my friend, continue to do the work. Standing by Palestinians is standing by every oppressed person; by every Jew. We cannot find our liberation in the oppression of another! Take good care of yourself and your community. Thank you for your kind words ❤️

#org responses #anon asks #anti zionist jews for palestine

[princeofwittenberg]

Screaming out into the void once again about how painful it has been to lose so many former friends since 7/10. I have to keep reminding myself that it’s most likely ignorance not malice but it is really really hard to feel like the people who you once trusted now wouldn’t care if you died and it’s really hard not to take that personally.

I keep having these thoughts of like “how little did you ever respect me if you can believe blatant misinformation calling my people genociders?” And how little must you respect me to not even ask me why I would be supporting a side that you think is committing genocide?

So many of my former friends, people who I thought knew me well, overnight decided that I’m a terrible person who would support a genocide and didn’t even bat an eye. What the fuck ? Why do you think so little of me? Doesn’t it make more sense that you have it wrong? Or have I always just been this evil person to them?

I’m lucky to have a great Jewish community and lots of Jewish friends to feel supported by but I’m in a place of total loss of goyische friends and total distrust in the non-Jewish community because I have no idea who will listen to me and who is just going to spit vitriol in my face. Non-Jewish places don’t feel safe anymore because I am tip-toeing around people trying to figure out if the topic will come up and what to say so I don’t get the look of disgust I keep getting from people who just don’t know anything. It’s like a constant state of social anxiety but I don’t think I’m overreacting.

I wish I could just sit down with people and help them understand what’s actually going on, help them identify their antisemitism, help them understand the conflict and how to actually support Palestinians, but no one wants to listen. They just want the easy, un-nuanced answer so they don’t have to think, but that answer is wrong. And it’s hurting people.

The feelings from this are going to linger for a long time. I’m really scared that my trust around non-Jews is never going to return to where it was before. And I hate that. I don’t want to be isolationist.

But I have so much hurt inside me that I can’t resolve, so much that it feels like it’s suffocating me sometimes. It’s pain, and mourning, and grief, and anger, and it’s like I have to keep taking the hits.

B’ezrat Hashem the hostages will be released soon and Hamas will be dismantled and we can return to peace. But I’ll be honest tikvah is not my strong suit right now.

#just thoughts and feelings #phew #jumblr #ישראבלר

[littlestpersimmon]

I dont have a support system after my cousin moved away, I don't I really don't. Whenever I reach out to anyone online I'd get told to seek a therapist, or seek more and new friends when my problem is that I am not getting love and affirmation that I need from them. What am I spposed to do. I seek therapy I seek human connection, why do my already existing friends think this way of me? It feels juvenile to say all the things I jst said but I feel totally unnecessary to the world. So many of my relatives tried to "arrange" a marriage with me by saying they will fund my immigration to America so I can find more work opportunities to help with the cancer yreatment of my two close relatives in our extended family but then they will randomly say "yes but you habe to marry this man you have never met and is also 15 years older than you." I can't stip crying, no matter what I do, I sold my bike, I sold some of my books and I'm taking in s many commissions, I've reached out to so many people in my life, I've been irritating everyone, I've been posting so many things on timblr, I've exhausted all my options, I've went to every clinic in manila, I go tonsleep crying, I wake up crying, I text people crying, I work I'm crying. I don't want to marry this guy, I want mybcousin back, please come home..please come home. I want my friends back, why is this happening to me HaShem?! What did I do for things to end this way for me?? My face hurts, my back hurts, my wrists hurts, please tell me things will get better, I don't know how much longer I can hold on. Please God please please please.

[hindahoney]

hi, hinda! sorry if this question is like over the place ive been trying to figure out how to word this and my search hasn’t given me any like definite answer. im considering converting ( for bg info im black american from a christain bg ) and every where im looking is saying converts are like a part of the jewish people? is there a reason why that is or is it like a purely religious thing and im misunderstanding it to be like an ethnicity change ( for the lack of a better word ) ?

super sorry if this doesn’t make sense 🥹 and ty for taking your time to look at my question !

This question is totally fine! It's a really interesting question actually, and I'm always excited to answer interesting questions.

As with everything, there is no 100% agreement among the Jewish people, so please know that my opinion is my own, and if you're able to discuss this with a rabbi they would give you a more well-rounded answer than I can.

That being said, yes I do believe that converting to Judaism changes your ethnicity. If you are defining ethnicity solely on heritage, then no they don't suddenly have Jewish ancestors (this too can be debated, as we believe that all Jewish converts come from Avraham and Sarah). But if you are defining ethnicity on everything else – language, culture, food, shared identity, and belief system – then yes, unequivocally, a convert's ethnicity changes. In addition to this, converts can not be treated differently in any way or reminded of their status as a ger, so the issue of their ethnicity being brought up would almost never happen and we see them as indistinguishable from a born yid.

So, when someone converts and becomes klal Yisrael, they undertake all of the responsibilities and, in turn, also the responsibility of speaking up for your tribe when we face antisemitism. When you convert, you have to be keenly aware that you are now a target like the rest of us, and the trauma we all have is shared with you. You don't just get the good food and community, you also get all of the hardships. You are converting to our history, which means the Shoah, the Crusades, the Inquisition. Each pogrom, each time one of us dies al kiddush HaShem, it is felt deep in our bones. The ger inherits that sorrow, and we share it together. We are one people, and that's essentially how many academics have defined ethnicity.

I think many Jews are pretty much in agreement about this, but not all, some still want brownie points for flaunting their pure yichus. Others are using a different definition of ethnicity, as the concept is not concrete. This is another problem Jews face, we have existed long before racial and ethnic classifications so it's hard to put us into a box. It doesn't help that "Jewish" is hardly ever on those government forms they make you fill out.

#jumblr #judaism #jewish #frumblr #jewish history #jewblr #jewish conversion #jewish convert #ger #ask hinda

[animazed]

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#what an interesting night #a few days ago a guy randomly messaged me on reddit asking about what I felt the effects of Reddit were on my yiddishkeit #and boy did things go on from there #fast forward to tonight #and basically #ahhhhh I’m too embarrassed to even say it here #but we talked over the phone for a few hours and each of us had a turn for it to get really intense so to speak #he’s a very sweet guy - shy and naïve but so willing to open up to feel comfortable #it’s really interesting #and then there’s me of course who has no shame talking about any subject whatsoever #we have been thinking about each other and really enjoying our phone conversations #tonight I’m feeling a full range of emotions - from curious to intrigued to ‘playful’ and even a bit flirty #to wanting him to feel good and just kind of relaxing together and just enjoying each other’s company #then after I got a bit lonely and then kind of thought of Joey and just got sad #but countered with this crush type thing going on #to wondering if I’m really just a bad influence to all #and how not caring about certain mitzvos makes me a bad Jew and really just unsure of why I have this crazy dichotomy in me #and I’m just not sure but I know I’m lonely and it hasn’t been six months yet but I’m so desperate for a relationship and to feel loved #and of course it doesn’t help that I’m on my period and just read sole sappy love stories cuz it never does #and how my life is just kind of a mess right now and I’m failing the tests Hashem keeps putting in front of me #and I don’t know what to do about it #and it makes me sad #about ALL the situations I’m current in #and I just idk #I wanna go to England #rant #I wanna feel pleasure and just be hugged by someone #why is it so hard to get married and live a Torah life?

[lesboevils]

in a tight spot financially because i’ve been out of a car since the accident. (i’m okay baruch hashem) if you could help it would mean the world to me. please and thank you for all your help.

cashapp / paypal / venmo: cosmobaut

#my last post lost traction #and i wanted to put more links #so here #ofelia.txt #okay to rb #car accidents //