#god i'm so insecure

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

He's a Beautiful Butterfly!

#tgcf #hua cheng #xie lian #In a moment of perfect seridipity; this was on the same page as my forgotten pahknohk redraw. #Butterfly creature hua cheng is one of my favourite doodles to do when I'm sitting around waiting for something or in a long meeting #They are all very silly and he is always having a good time. As he should be. #'OP Why?' I am once again putting it out in the universe that all the poorly drawn characters are 3-7 cm tall. They are all creatures. #If you wanna see pretty; ask to see San Lang. He's just the normaliest guy ever! #Hua Cheng in particular deserves to be a lot more monstrous and uncanny. Love me some uncanny HC designs #I also do want to reflect on the fact that initially I was like 'Dang his esteem is so low - he should be genuinely monstrous.' #then i realized 'oh god he's just like me for real (grew up ugly and unwanted and now can't reconcile with being Not That as an adult)'. #Growing up pretty privilege is not doubting what the hell people mean by complementing you. Why are you lying. What do you want. #Shout out to all of us insecure creatures. We'll get there eventually <3

[kittyslashers]

jesus christ. was not expecting this kwite video today.

#i feel so fucking bad for him dude. #revealing his biggest insecurities just because some lying little bitch decided to start shit #god. what the hell man #kwite #kwite situation #idgaf i am supporting kwite in this. he did not do what orion claims he did #forced the man to fucking face reveal and talk about his performance issues just to get some internet attention #i'm not even finished with the video but he's given more evidence against orion's claims than what orion has given to support them

[viiinz]

everyday I think about him (Ippolit Terentyev)

#idk why of all characters he's the one that has left such an impression on me but oh boy #it's been over a year since I've read his 'explanation' and everything that followed and it hasn't left my mind since #ippolit terentyev #the idiot #god all he wanted was some sympathy and recognition #and they just make fun of him #literally all this boy wants is to be taken seriously and no one does #they either laugh at him or beg him to shut up #because his vulnerability and the fact that he's dying makes them so uncomfortable #and he's so ashamed as well over his own vulnerbility #that even when people aren't laughing at him he'll imagine they are #and people blame him for being self absorbed?? like of course he is!! #he's EIGHTEEN and DYING #this is a teenager who's just come to the realisation that he has no agency over his life whatsoever #and that all that awaits him are the cruel laws of nature #he has a right to be upset about that #he's literally the man condemned to death that myshkin talked about #and yes he's ridiculous and awkward and not always right and incoherent and all that #and he can really be insufferable and contemptuous and unfeeling towards others #and even the state he's in doesn't really serve as an excuse for that #yet i feel bad for him #and he's such a teenager too he's so insecure and just wants to impress the people around him #and yes he's doing it for attention #of course he wants attention #can you blame him?? #all he wants is to be heard #to feel like his life mattered #but instead everyone's just begging him to shut up #like they're just waiting for him to kick the bucket so the uncomfortable ordeal can be over with #sorry i just have a lot of thoughts about Ippolit and I'm being very incoherent because i didn't plan on typing all this lol

[deepspaceclawstation]

Saw the confounding take 'Garak never held Julian's hand or said soft words to him'. We are speaking about GARAK. That’s the issue you have with him??

Edit: Everyone keeps reblogging the version without the addition so I'm turning off reblogs (which I should have done already). I wish there was a way to only allow for reblogs with unreal/romance's addition but there isn't so we'll have to make do

#Garashir #They are not wrong exactly I understand what they mean #They feel that Garak doesn't demonstrate his feelings explicitly in face of Julian's very public brand of affection #and that would create some insecurity for Julian #I don't agree with them on this but it's a valid point to make I think #But god framing it like he doesn't hold his hand or speak soft words to him sounds so shallow #Do you only know of one way to show affection #Oh apparently it was more about he doesn't provide emotional support. still don't agree but if I'm vagueing I'll vague correctly

[meownotgood]

does aki like the itty bitty titty community

oh of course... he thinks they're so beautiful and perfect. he loves the way your chest fits in his hands, the way he can hold and squeeze your whole breast in just one palm has him reeling, and he adores how shy you get when he starts kissing them, how you buck into him when he bites and licks at your nipple. how he can wrap his arms around you, tug you close, bury his face in the crook of your neck and have your bodies completely flush with one another.

he'll spend forever showing you love and reassuring you of how pretty you look until you feel just as cute as he knows that you are.

#as a member myself I can confirm this #god he makes you feel so so pretty #you never once feel insecure when you're around him because he just treats you with so much love and passion #rest assured no matter how big they are the moment you take off your shirt around this man he becomes a mess #he's blushing and trying not to look #he's very much a personality guy so... #either way he thinks your body looks perfect #aki hayakawa for small breasts!! yeaaaahhh!!! I'm starting a fan club!!!!!! #ask mags #forgot to mention it but he also likes how cute you look when you're wearing his shirts 🏃‍♀️

[willowser]

as we all know, i am an au girlie (gn) at heart but god damn it if this doesn't make we want to write the softest pro-hero fic for him.

#ideas are Rattling #one thing about me i'm gonna write an au #and i think that stems from being insecure on my ability to write canon well LOL #but. by god i have to try. #go to bed and quit being so dramatic LOL #✿ shut up willow

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I think the funny thing about my being a youth leader is that I basically just Hang Out with a bunch of middle schoolers. like I just pal around with them and play games and then sit down and ramble at the youth pastor when it's time to discuss the Biblical topic of the night and somehow this has charmed like half a dozen of them into considering me A Cool Person despite the fact that I'm actually Introverted And Awkward at all times

#actually part of my goal in youth leadership is to show that like... you don't HAVE to be all together and chill #like when I was in youth group (briefly bc I was only in a location where it was an option for like 6 months tbh) #all the youth leaders — especially the female ones — seemed so Cool and Calm and Put Together ALL THE TIME #and it made me (frumpy and 16 and trying so hard to make friends) feel REALLY inadequate and insecure #and like I still have to work through the insecurity that caused in me!! bc the girls a few years older than me #who were youth leaders all seemed so CALM and RESPECTABLE and MATURE #and I STILL don't act like that! and I'm certainly not cool and calm and put together skskfndksnf #so I just want to like... not hide my awkwardness too much with these kids. not try to project Coolness or Looking Put Together #because I want them to see that like... they're fine just how they are? I want to be an example of what it looks like #when you're NOT the naturally calm and organized kind of person! when you're Awkward and Loud and Goofy and Hyper sometimes #because if you're following God then that stuff really doesn't matter. He made us a certain way and that's fine #idk. I think about this every so often again though akdkdkfnsk #Lu rambles

[mamawasatesttube]

thinking kon & jon otgw au thoughts...

#rimi talks #i typed up a whole rambly thing about these thoughts but it was so disorganized and pointless #i'm just listening to the otgw ost for vibes while fiddling w halloweenfic and it got me thinking. again. #canon didnt give kon & jon literally any relationship to work with #but i can. i can make it so good. insecure teenage kon who copes with false confidence and bluster... #...and the starry-eyed five year old who really does believe him when he declares he's cool and capable #something something the simplicity of a small child's unconditional love and trust in the face of all of one's own existential angst #otgw the masterpiece that you are. god

[bonefall]

I’ve been rereading TNP and am both amazed and horrified by how insanely they fuck up Firestar’s character and turn him into the biggest asshole in the bathroom (and also erase his friendship with Bramble for some reason and have Bramble act like he’s like afraid of him???) god bless your Firestar being normal

I have soooo many problems with TNP but have to admit many of them start in Darkest Hour, particularly Firestar's character tumble.

For a glimmering moment we get the REAL Firestar back for Firestar's Quest, but it has a massive problem... the weird love triangle it writes between Firestar's wife and a dead medicine cat. Plus all the xenophobia uuuuughhh

(note: im serious go back and read FQ, you get to watch Firestar be like "i must pick out the Genetically Superior descendants of SkyClan out of this lot of soft kittypets" bro,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,)

But I care him so much. I love him. With my whole heart I adore him. BB!Firestar I'll do you right

#Bramble also gets done dirty honestly #I really miss the polite and insecure dude from TPB #It's unfortunate I'm so committed to Bramblestar at this point because I really do vibe with rewrites and AUs that fix him #But he's bad in TNP. god

[izvmimi]

i wish you guys knew how easily a nice comment can like make someone's day like i try to tell people when they've particularly touched people as a rule in general (at the risk of being annoying) but like man!!

#someone just said something to me that like smashed one of my little insecurities #like i told them #but my god i'm so happy they said that jasdlkjfa;lksdfa #mimi speaks

[allgremlinart]

anyway time to fall asleep to my 10k angst with a happy ending Clark introduces Bruce to his parents as his boyfriend for the first time fic I’m writing in my head. snrk mimimimi etc

#yah I love angst stemming from insecurities what abt it #Clark: ooh oh god what if this is all too strange for him what if he hates it what if he realizes he doesn't want this much commitment #Bruce: oooh god what if he realizes how much I love this and how much commitmentI want this is making me want more I'm gonna scare him away #also. Lois + Clark amicable divorce timeline. so bonus angst on Bruce's end w feeling inadequate as Clark's partner/parental figure 2 Jon :)

[rhysintherain]

Playing Baldur's Gate 2 again, and I'm gonna put some snippets of the Most unhinged NPC dialogue here because it's hilarious.

Jan: they're not bad, but they're not gnomes. Where's your elephant?

Beeloo: back at the circus. Can you believe the judge ruled that an elephant can't choose who they want to live with in a custody case? He slapped me with a theft charge! I just got out of jail!

Jan: legally?

Beeloo: no. They should hire a better locksmith.

---

Minsc: You're a very impressive fighter, Mazzy.

Mazzy: you mean for my size? Because I'm littler than you?? I'll have you know halflings can-

Jan, somewhere in the background: YOUR KNEES ARE MINE!!!

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Nalia: and I'm engaged to this HORRIBLE man, and I know he'll use my home for awful things if he gets control of the estate-

Gordon's Ward: I could kill him for you?

Nalia: absolutely not!

Nalia: although it would solve so many problems...

Nalia: but no! That would be terrible and completely inappropriate!

Nalia: but also awfully convenient...

#baldur's gate 2 #god i love these idiots #mazzy's insecure but she really is one of the toughest fighters so why borher? #basically the first words Jan says to you are 'shit it's the cops... cover for me!' #accuracy not guaranteed I'm recalling some of these from vibes alone #but you get the idea

[legallybrunettedotcom]

look i have zero romantic experience, i get what it's like and i will always listen to all the women around me moping about it and desperately wanting a relationship, it's normal, and i think especially for women there's this societal pressure and feeling like a failure because of it, i get it all, but sometimes, just sometimes i'm so close to patrick bateman screaming on the payphone stop sounding so fucking sad!!!

#i'm only human #i'm so patient but god i can't deal with it all the time #even back when i was super insecure i didn't go around moping and mentioning it to literally everyone

[notmoreflippingelves]

Is is just me or is S11 the hottest Flambeau has ever been?

#notmoreflippingelves watches #father brown #hercule flambeau #john light #i'm just sitting here clutching my face and staring stupidly #he's just... oh my god...he's everything #it's not even just the beard #even if its the best its looked since 'mysteries of the rosary' #it's not even the slow transformation into a silver fox since that's been happening since at least s4 #it's not even the grappling or the disguise outfit since again; we've seen this before #there's just something about him in this episode that has bewitched me body and soul #can't quite put my finger on why tho #i saw a man so beautiful; i started crying #father brown spoilers #except not really cause the spoiler is just...john light = big sexy #which we've known for ages #okay little spoiler: i can't believe sullivan threw his own gf in jail #for no other reason than flamby made him look stewpid in front of her last time #like...insecure much; eddy my boy? #this is just reinforcing my desire for flamby/ mrs d tbh #or maybe... #flamby/mrs. d/sullivan #nah sully's too repressed and conventional and law-abiding to even consider it even if he is demi and bi #but it would be so hot though #i'll probably stop binging after this ep tbh b/c 5 episodes in a day is too many and i need some impulse control #i wasn't even planning on watching this one but john light's stupid handsome face seduced me into it

[bloodofvoid]

tw for rant

I hate the fact that I can go on for so long not feeling insecure, and then I'll see one busty person and everything just drops. Something I've done since I aged into a teenager was try to just ignore my body, and imagine myself as someone who's curvy, pretty, busty, worth something.

I hate feeling sad, I hate crying alone in my room all because I want bigger boobs. It's not fair, it just isn't. Why can't I be prettier? Why couldn't I be blessed with the genes that would make me beautiful.

I wish I prettier, and that will always just be a wish, I'm ugly, and there's nothing I can do to change that.

#Tw rant #vent post #tw vent #insecurity #God I wish I was pretty #i wish i was her #Worst fucking part is that it was art #i'm so pathetic

[cementcornfield]

Ja’Marr is very outward and expressive and shows his love for Joe out loud, and Joe is SO introverted I hope he doesn’t feel insecure about how much Joe loves him or their relationship.

these are my thoughts as well!! disclaimer that obviously so much of this is speculation and projection about two men we don't actually know BUT

i've talked about this before with some beloved mutuals and i do think that the most likely explanation for why ja'marr tends to walk some of his crazier comments back is that he might get insecure about their friendship when joe is not quite as vocal as him about it!

#in public at least #in private god knows #i'm sure joe shows his affection in his own way and that deep down ja'marr knows that they are good friends #and that he has nothing to be insecure about! #again they have so many great moments together that there's no way they both don't know how special the other is to each other <3