#gives him stability

[marshmellowtea]

i think what mark needs the most from will is for him to sit him down and tell him, 100% sober and genuine, that he loves him. but i also think mark wouldn’t be able to handle that without completely breaking down :’)

i also think that will needs the same thing from mark, except with the words i respect you. but i think he also wouldn’t be able to handle that without a breakdown :’))

#markiplier #who killed markiplier #actor mark #william j barnum #marshy speaks #i am feeling. so deranged about them right now #something something mark worrying that will doesn’t actually genuinely love and care about him back and just sticks with him now because he #gives him stability #vs will worrying that mark doesn’t respect him and is just putting up with him out of habit and that he does look down at him for his lack #of status like his (mark’s) parents do #and then the affair happens and both of them think their fears were proven correct #rather than it just being a breakdown of communication + entity bullshit + mark’s increasing instability due to previous factors and just #not taking care of his mental health #hnnng #the fcking headcanons i have about these two i swear

[shokuto]

Gwen didn’t not tell Miles about the canon event because she didn’t care, she didn’t tell him because she thought he’d die trying to stop it. It’s explicitly why she tried to stop him from changing Pav’s canon, why she freaked out when the rubble fell on him, and why she’s more dissident against Miguel after. Like the point with her is she buys into Miguel’s agenda of being powerless against the narrative until Miles averts it in front of her and inspires her to believe in the impossible

#But yall talk about her like she just didn’t give a fuck #Like she didn’t think about him after ITSV #Like she didn’t risk the multiverse to spend an afternoon with him #Like she didn’t assemble a rescue team for him #And like she wasn’t latching onto the only stability she’d get that came in the form of two grownups— #—who’d remind her she had nowhere to go if she didn’t do as they said #Yall miss out on some complex characters villainizing female ones who make mistakes #spiderman #atsv spoilers #across the spiderverse #spider gwen #gwen stacy #miles morales #pavitr prabhakar #miguel o’hara #spiderman 2099

[exx-bee]

YOU WANT ORTAL AU???????? YOU WANT FUXKIGN PORTAL AU?????????..

(alt versions of vik under cut! plus a silly potato doodle i did on my phone LMAO)

in this au potatoified vik would b . in tha potato but have a little hologram 2 annoy jayce with. gay people behaviors yk

#vikjayce #portal au #league of legends #jayce giopara #viktor league of legends #the machine herald #defender of tomorrow #league of legends au #LOL i love these fucking freaks #ive been doodling them nonstop #its unhealthy (positive) #my art #jayvik #i think viktor would really like to run little expiriments on jayce #dont think jayce would really like having expiriments ran on him but. give take relationships am i right ????? #in this au vik cant move off the platform (can control generally where it goes though. ish) #and uses the pole for stability #turns out having two legs with different numbers of joints is very offputting and unbalanced

[mammalsofaction]

HUMAN PERRY AU BACKSTORY

I've been having a lot of thoughts lately about Human Perry headcanons as I read a bunch of fic and rewatch phineas and ferb. You know you're hitting the nail on the head when scenes from a fic you might never write dog your every waking step and haunts your dreams so, I thought putting it on paper will help.

A lot of fics like to suggest that Perry's full name is Peregrine, which is understandable, but ever since I've rewatched 2D and found out their first name for him was actually Bartholomew my life was never the same. So Perry's actual name is Bartholomew. But nobody actually calls him that least of all himself.

FAMILY RELATIONS

-I really like winding headcanons that Perry is Ferb's biological mom's BROTHER, which honestly makes so much sense as to why both he and Ferb have green hair. Here are some add-ons that may get depressing;

Ferb's mom was Eve, or Evelyn. Her codename was E, for Echidna...because egg-laying mammals native to Australia. They were both orphans, and attached to the hip. They were each other's partner in crime.

-They were scouted for OWCA one day, bc the agency liked picking up kids with potential as young as possible. So Perry and Eve were trained for the agency since the start (which is why Perry is such a good agent at what seems to be a young age)

MY HEADCANONS FOR OWCA

-Owca is a largely independent authoritarian enterprise with branches all over the world. They aren't the only ones, obviously.

-OWCA also prefers training agents as early as they could. Sometimes that entails scouting talent. Sometimes that means taking in kids of employed agents. Either way, this means OWCA has elementary and high schools that are more akin to militant training camps. It's not cruel. The kids are well cared for and well fed, but OWCA prioritized competency, obedience and discipline.

On every level of OWCA recruitment, training and employment, there is a fedora, and band to mark whichever level you are on the totem pole.

1) Middle school kids are given a bandless fedora.

2) High school kids (soon to be graduates) are given a white band

3) Fresh graduates, training into full employment, are Yellow Bands. Here you start being assigned to full branches, and trained by field work professionals. Think OWCA Files.

4) It's fairly easy to graduate from Yellow Band into a Purple Band. Purple Bands are largely refereed to as Junior Agents, but that's not quite accurate. Purple Bands are the highest reporting authority in any division that ISN'T FIELD WORK. The OWCA Tech, Clerks, RnD and Science Divisions all have Purple Bands to signify they are fully employed, or Superior Officer. Pinky has a Purple Band.

5) It's VERY DIFFICULT to graduate from a Purple Band to a Black Band, not least because there IS NO PREDETERMINED TEST. Black Band agents are Superior Agents, only one level below Division General. There's no telling what could turn you from a Purple to a Black, because the agent has to prove unwavering obedience and faith to the agency in dire circumstances. It's saying "I am willing to do anything for the Greater Good."  Often it entails a death of some sort. OWCA often says Black is the band soaked in blood. Black Band agents have licenses to kill. It's why Black Band Agents are few and precious far in between.

6) After a black band, and you live long enough to retire, you can choose a bunch of things. Most agents choose to become Division Generals or Branch Managers: think Major Monogram. They're basically glorified "Guy in the Chair". Some agents choose to become educators, in which case they are given White Fedoras. White fedoras arent exclusive to black bands though; there are plenty purple band white fedoras. In fact most educators are purple band white fedoras.

-Perry's Black Band Event was Eve's death

-At the time of Eve's death, she had already been married to Lawrence. Ferb was barely a year old, maybe 10 months old?

-Lawrence was told it was a car accident: drunk driver. Truthfully it was a mission gone wrong, involving an underground child trafficking ring, and she stayed behind to give them all the chance to escape. She didn't have the chance to escape when security explosives around the building detonated, and she got caught in the crossfire. Perry had to leave her behind.

-This is why Perry refused to get a partner btw, aka his Lone Wolf tendencies come from.

-In the aftermath, OWCA agents approached the family to give them their condolences, and offer to take Ferb into the fold. For the first time since Eve's death, Perry practically lost it. He didn't hurt anyone, he's much too professional, but he knew Eve didn't want Ferb to get wrapped up in OWCA, and for good fucking reason. Due to their training, neither he nor Eve had much of a childhood, and he refused to subject Ferb to the same kind of life experience.

OWCA was NOT happy. Things were tetchy for a while, at least until Perry was approached by Major Monogram. Francis had a wife, and a son, and he understood where Perry was coming from. He suggested taking a permanent residence in Danville, which was his branch division. It was more stability than Perry ever had working in England, where he and Eve was originally stationed, and it was easy enough to come up with a work-related story to convince Lawrence, who was more than ready enough to leave the house where he and Eve originally lived.

-It was after moving did Lawrence meet and fall in love with Linda.

Edit; I've decided to change Ferb's bio mom's name bc I found something that fits better to me :) She's Eve now

End Backstory.

#the ending is a bit abrupt but i hope the post was comprehensible #so he did basically help raise Ferb until they moved to the states #and he meets Heinz yadda yadda yadda #I like the flavour of angst in his backstory #and why he enjoys the peace that comes with stability in Danville even despite all the chaos #bc then OWCA doesn't really bother him since he has his hands full actually #I also like giving depth and dimension to Francis #instead of making him just like. This bad guy #Because he didnt want Monty to be a part of OWCA either #perryshmirtz #perry the platypus #human perry au

[redrobin-detective]

I wonder how long Marcy tried to get Simon back from the crown after they met up again before she gave up and avoided him.

I can see vampire Marcy roaming endlessly with no purpose after she destroyed all the vampires and finding Ice King. Initially she must have been thrilled, both she and Simon were alive and had all of eternity together. But it became clear the crown's madness had sunk in deep to him and the Simon she knew was lost. She screamed at him, talked gently to him, told him stories, cried into his shoulders, grabbed the crown and ran far, far away with it. Nothing worked, this obnoxious looney tunes character was all she had left of her dad.

I bet she consulted wizards, read books of magic and searched the nightosphere for answers. Once she met Bubblegum then she was begging for a scientific approach to cure Simon. It backfired when Ice King fixated on her and Bonnie held a grudge over that for centuries. I wonder how long it took before despair set in and allowed anger and frustration to build up.

After all, Simon had abandoned her years before. He chose the crown over her in the first place so why was she trying so hard? If it weren't for him, she'd still be mortal and not cursed to live forever. Time had passed, she had forgotten how much Simon resented the crown and what it was doing to him but was helpless to stop. She was no longer a scared child but an angry young adult stuck permanently in the confusing state of late teendom.

Marcy did not have Betty's obsessiveness, her knowledge of research practices, her willingness to go beyond the limit of reason and responsibility to get Simon back. One day, she gave Ice King a gruff goodbye, threw away her notes and proceeded to keep him far away for hundreds of years. Ice King is brought up in conversation and she diverts, never talks to or about him. Enough time passes that no one remembers they used to have a history, even Bonnie never got the full details.

She told herself the Ice King meant nothing to her until he tracked her down -once again- to jam and she realized not only was Simon still there but he still loved her. And then did she open her heart.

#adventure time #sorry im having feelings about them #its been a thousand years since they departed #you know when they first met back up that marcy was gungho about fixing him #the devastation when she realized taking off the crown would no longer bring him back #running around in circles like Betty would in the future to undo the curse #how long did she spend trying to stabilize him #how angry did she feel that he left her to become this wreck of a person #at what point did she just give up and pretend simon was gone and to never see ice king again #and how long did they spend apart before marcy finally was in a good enough place to realize Simon was still there #different and hurting but still there #wahhhhhhhhhhhhh

[hazelnut-u-out]

watching morty cry and wander around the woods really put back into perspective how young he still is…

he’s just a little kid, who’s been through so much shit, and tried to extend kindness/remorse in the only way his warped perception of human relationships could think to- only to get absolutely torn into.

at first i was like… “what happened to the little feral child we saw in ‘forgetting sarick mortshall’?”

but here, he’s COMPLETELY alone, his stuff stolen, his feelings hurt, and scared. STILL, he tries to be sweet to the cronenberg creature- and AGAIN gets hurt for caring… punished for being kind and naive.

#sometimes i just wanna scoop him up and give him love and stability #i’m your parent now #and we’re gonna go get ice cream and be nice to each other all day #i’m so maternal towards fictional male children #they are all my pseudo-babies lmao #rick and morty #morty smith

[xoue]

#seonghwa #the mv made me insane btw #whyd they give him those lines.................... #what abt ?my mental stability? #my art

[emmcfrxst]

ppl who complain abt me writing arthur as the romantic type haven’t read his in-game journal entries for sure >:(

#i know he’s awkward and has walls that are nearly impossible to break down but he wants to be loved so bad. you can tell by the way he talk #about abigail and mary in his journal. he wishes he could have someone to come home to. he wants to love and be loved so bad it fucks him u #inside. but yes he definitely would freak out and not know how to respond to affection or even slight interest at first #but he just has so much love to give and he’s so desperate for it just look at the way he handles mary in the game #even the way he talks about black belle. he just wants someone by his side so badly #he just doesn’t know how to work out his emotions because he’s never known any kind of stability and his mentor has the emotional range of #a fucking carrot

[wonder-worker]

Any judgement on (Richard III)’s reign has to be seen as provisional. The critic of the reign only has to consider how the Tudors would now be regarded if Henry VII lost at Stoke, to realize the dangers of too many assumptions about the intractability of Richard’s problems. But it would be equally unrealistic to ignore Richard’s unpopularity altogether. The fact that he generated opposition among men with little material reason for dissent, and that the disaffection then continued to spread among his own associates, says something about what contemporaries regarded as the acceptable parameters of political behaviour. There is no doubt that Richard’s deposition of his nephews was profoundly shocking. To anyone who did not accept the pre-contract story, which was probably the majority of observers, the usurpation was an act of disloyalty. Gloucester, both as uncle and protector, was bound to uphold his nephew’s interests and his failure to do so was dishonourable. Of all medieval depositions, it was the only one which, with whatever justification, could most easily be seen as an act of naked self-aggrandizement.

It was also the first pre-emptive deposition in English history. This raised enormous problems. Deposition was always a last resort, even when it could be justified by the manifest failings of a corrupt or ineffective regime. How could one sanction its use as a first resort, to remove a king who had not only not done anything wrong but had not yet done anything at all?

-Rosemary Horrox, "Richard III: A Study of Service"

#r*chard iii #my post #english history #Imo this is what really stands out to me the most about Richard's usurpation #By all accounts and precedents he really shouldn't have had a problem establishing himself as King #He was the de-facto King from the beginning (the king he usurped was done away with and in any case hadn't even ruled); #He was already well-known and respected in the Yorkist establishment (ie: he wasn't an 'outsider' or 'rival' or from another family branch) #and there was no question of 'ins VS outs' in the beginning of his reign because he initially offered to preserve the offices and positions #for almost all his brother's servants and councilors - merely with himself as their King instead #Richard himself doesn't seem to have actually expected any opposition to his rule and he was probably right in this expectation #Generally speaking the nobility and gentry were prepared to accept the de-facto king out of pragmatism and stability if nothing else #You see it pretty clearly in Henry VII's reign and Edward IV's reign (especially his second reign once the king he usurped was finally #done away with and he finally became the de-facto king in his own right) #I'm sure there were people who disliked both Edward and Henry for usurpations but that hardly matters - #their acceptance was pragmatic not personal #That's what makes the level of opposition to Richard so striking and startling #It came from the very people who should have by all accounts accepted his rule however resigned or hateful that acceptance was #But they instead turned decisively against him and were so opposed to his rule that they were prepared to support an exiled and obscure* #Lancastrian claimant who could offer them no manifest advantage rather than give up opposition when they believed the Princes were dead #It's like Horrox says - #The real question isn't why Richard lost at Bosworth; its why Richard had to face an army at all - an army that was *Yorkist* in motivation #He divided his own dynasty and that is THE defining aspect of his usurpation and his reign. Discussions on him are worthless without it #It really puts a question on what would have happened had he won Bosworth. I think he had a decent chance of success but at the same time #Pretenders would've turned up and they would have been far more dangerous with far more internal support than they had been for Henry #Again - this is what makes his usurpation so fascinating to me. I genuinely do find him interesting as a historical figure in some ways #But his fans instead fixate on a fictional version of him they've constructed in their heads instead #(*obscure from a practical perspective not a dynastic one) #queue

[mitskijamie]

longer version of the roy taking jamie home as a pet au cause i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it:

in this au, roy and jamie actually meet a few years earlier when jamie is like 20yrs old at a party that he definitely wasn’t invited to and roy is still in his party (coke) era and sees this pretty boy and ~wants him~ carnally

jamie is starstruck meeting his hero and is happy to do whatever roy wants cause he’s BEEN down bad. long story short they have sex but this is jamie’s first time with a man which roy finds sooooooo hot cause he gets to like train him how to suck and ride dick. they both end up coming a crazy number of times but morning comes and jamie has to go home cause he has training the next day.

roy already wants to keep jamie so he gives him his number on a scrap of paper and jamie promises to call but UH OH, he loses or destroys the paper on the way home and has no way to contact him. both are suffering cause they have no way to reach each other.

cut to 3 years later when jamie gets loaned to richmond and roy sees HIM, that man who rocked his world but who never called him back. at first he’s a little angry cause WTF jamie? but it’s quickly replaced by desire.

jamie is freaking out cause part of the reason he wanted to go to richmond was so he could talk to roy again. after training ends, roy drags jamie into the boot room, first to give him shit about jamie not calling him back and then to get jamie to suck his dick as an apology (which jamie LOVES since he was a little worried roy wouldn’t want him anymore). jamie is still the THROAT GOAT 💪🏻 (which was exactly how roy trained him) and roy is even more convinced that he wants to keep him like a pet.

when they leave to go to the parking lot, roy brings jamie to his car and jamie just follows along like a happy duckling cause he is so down for whatever roy wants.

roy very matter-of-factly says that he’s keeping jamie and jamie is so happy (and horny) and they end up fucking again. they enter into an intense bdsm tpe puppy play relationship ☺️

i think both of them would find it hot to talk about jamie quitting football and just being roy’s house pet 24/7 but that’s just a fantasy (… unless 👀) though having jamie stay a footballer means roy can use him whenever he needs, like at away games, on the bus, in the change room, etc

they also still start their one-on-one training like in canon but it’s even more insane and sexual, if such a thing is even possible.

and they live happily ever after 💙

(i have more depraved thoughts about this scenario but this was already getting long and convoluted lol)

(also this ask is from @jamietarttt, on anon cause i didn’t want to send such filth from my main lmao)

I'm actually obsessed with this thank you. I don't even have anything to add... please tell me All of your thoughts rn I need it (if you want to!!)

#ask #fave #royjamie #as for the 24/7 thing I do think it'd be fantasy for the time being bc Jamie's career is so important to him but i think they'd #talk about doing that after jamie retired #Roy had a really hard time with that transition and he'd want to make it easier on Jamie #it gives Jamie something to look forward to + he knows what's going to happen to him so he's not just staring into the terrifying abyss #of retirement as he gets older #like roy was #it's also comforting to know that if he gets hurt and has to quit suddenly he'll still have a place and be loved and have stability #it's so strange to think about Jamie retiring though afjkdjshsk...... jamie is 25 forever to me

[boligona]

had a rough evening

#couldn‘t get a physical hug so giving him one gave me emotional stability #they‘re best friends #even during breaking times #die drei ??? #die drei fragezeichen #bob andrews #peter shaw #pecj art

[mistergreatbones]

Comics Duke is just a guy who gets into situations and simply rolls with it, as well as being highly intelligent and confident in his assessments. Wfa Duke is a nervous Nellie who overthinks everything and is probably going to worry himself into an early grave. And I love them both.

#comics Duke would gently put his hand on wfa duke’s shoulder and tell him to calm tf down #not that comics Duke doesn’t get stressed he is Very cerebral and has a lot of pressure on him but he keeps his wits about him #Wfa Duke I would offer him some of my lamotrigine #and maybe a beta blocker #(this is a joke i would not give other ppl my meds) #bones’ bitching hours #duke thomas #wfa #wayne family adventures #if you don’t know your drugs: lamotrigine is a mood stabilizer and beta blockers lower blood pressure #hey if I’m wrong you can tell me I haven’t read every single Duke appearance

[tricks-n-illusions]

[ Reply to this from @guardians-of-dreams ]

→ Silas has been healed by Malachi! He will no longer appear to be injured in future posts.

→  Silas has also received a wish from Malachi! It will now take the form of a yellow Star Piece and be displayed on his profile.

[ . . . ]

It would be an understatement to say Silas wasn't sure how to react, he took a long moment to stare at the gift. This was the second time someone had given him something. His expression shifted from confusion to worry before settling into something more neutral as Malachi explained. He didn't say anything at first, he was almost completely lost for words. Only being able to give a small puzzled sound before he hushed up again. It was after a long and awkward silence that he finally spoke up. Unlike his previous loud and over-the-top persona his voice was low and quiet. Barely loud enough to be heard, he seemed to be his genuine self in this moment.

It was obvious he wanted to ease their worry, possibly reassure them. But he couldn't, he couldn't possibly say it, not with all the people he let down. Those he ultimately left betrayed by his impulsive and self-destructive actions. Now that another person was willingly putting trust in him after all these years he wasn't about to make a false promise and ruin their hopes. With a final sad glance at them, the Zoroark nervously put the item into his bag. Rather than closing it and moving on, he began to carefully go over everything. He shifted things to the side every so often as he appeared to be looking for something, something he could give them. After a while of searching, he finally pulled something small out of his bag.

"It was mine before I was forced to evolve." He quickly cringed at the thought before he continued, his voice still quiet, "My mo- I mean. My trainer gave it to me a long time ago... All it does is remind me of something I never wanted." He sighed holding it out, "Just don't break it, Please. If you don't want it. Just give it to someone who needs it more. I don't care. It's probably worthless to you anyway." Despite claiming to not care, It was clear it pained him to give up one of his sentimental items to them, but he was too dead set on paying Malachi back to care for his own feelings at the moment. Begrudgingly he gave the Jirachi the strange stone before he turned away, his usual rude tone quickly returning to cover up any vulnerability that might have slipped out. Silas threw them the best glare he could muster up. "Don't say I owe you anything. Alright? I don't want you knocking on my fuckin' door like a debt collector." "I don't owe you shit, so don't say I do."

→  What's this? You received an item from Silas! He refuses to take it back. You have been gifted a [Everstone] by Silas, it appears to be roughly carved into the shape of a Zorua.

-> Malachi has been added to the relationships page.

#reply #tni: chrono #tni: silas rune #congrats you're the second person thats been unwillingly promoted to friend status in his head - Use your power wisely #He (mostly) trusts Malachi now #didn't backstab and hurt him? Well shit. He's emotionally attached now. Deal with it. #Silas would have given the other person a gift too if they didn't walk off before he could return something #He is a very sentimental person when it comes to gifts and getting gifts he never doesn't give people something back #I hope you don't mind I gave it a physical form having it physically puts more pressure on him to not fuck things up #Dude needs a little stability in his life somewhere #Rn its physical items reminding him “Hey not everyone hates your guts” #Chapter 1: The Introduction

[void-and-virtue]

Do you ever think about how Kevin thinks he’s broken down into enough pieces that everything he has left to give is his unbending faith?

Do you ever think about how Andrew has had everything taken from him, been abandoned and lied to and failed until he decided that the one absolute he had to give, the one thing he refused to let go of or break because it was the last thing left, was his word?

Do you ever think about how Neil understands the worth of a sincere promise because every single lie he’s ever told about who he is and what he’ll do made true belief in people, both being offered it by others and the ability to feel safe enough to extend it to someone else in trust, the most precious things he’s ever known?

#do you ever think about this and go insane? #I could elaborate endlessly on all these points but I think I need to lie down #this is brought to you and inspired by that wonderful Kevin meta post I saw earlier bc it made me think of him and his faith in other people #Kevin day the man that you are #he really just keeps believing in people who have long since given up on themselves and can’t stop #both Andrew and Neil need a friend like that in their lives so bad #also Andrew being adamant about his word because giving up on a promise would dissolve all the glue in between his broken pieces #is something I think about 25/8 #nobody ever kept their promises to him and he’ll die before he lets himself be like them #and that’s a kind of stability that Neil can trust implicitly in spite of himself #they give me brainrot #aftg #all for the game #kevin day #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil

[howlhawk]

tonight's art offering: charlie's future dog, winona! he fosters her for about six months, trying and failing to get her adopted, before giving in and adopting her himself, making her his first actual pet. alistaire is less than enthused at the prospect of a large slobbery dog inhabiting his apartment, but winona very quickly grows on him, especially after she bonds with his cat enemy of the state.

#oc art #pet art #dog art #canine #pit bull #stanley does art #charlie grimms #winona #charlies not in this one but shes a subcharacter To Him so he gets a tag #charlie fosters dogs before her but he has never fully adopted one #thinking he wont have the time or money for one / always worried about his ability to provide that dog a fully stable long term home #but by this point he lives with alistaire and that gives him a lot of financial stability so he feels okay actually permanently adopting he #fun fact he normally prefers herding type dogs #he did not expect to end up with a pit #alistaire is fine with the dogs charlie normally fosters but since they're always herders they're smaller and don't drool as much #so he's put off by winona at first but then he loves her #vice versa charlie also likes ali's cats skeletor and enemy of the state #he likes it when skeletor sits in his lap purring and has silent camaraderie with eots being up in the middle of the night #shocking: two guys with a preference for one animal but who can actually exist with the opposite animal without vocally hating it #this is the One (1) thing they're both normal about. is that they Prefer one animal but still Like the other

[5516-minutes]

my characterisation of carlos is based off that bbc sports interview from his toro rosso days where his answer to the question "are you better looking than your friends [who are all spanish]" is "i think we're all pretty ugly, the spanish" like why would you say that 😭😭😭

#CARLOS YOUR SELF ESTEEM BACK THEN WAS 🚮 #such a typical response from someone who doesn't back themselves #and then he pivots the response to favoring the asker 'not as pretty as the british' #tom's face when he looks into the camera after carlos rags himself and his friends says it all like #can u believe what this guy is saying with a straight face 😭 #carlos is so privileged and sheltered rich private school kid #u can take that kid and give him moderate success in his dream career and put him in ferrari n all of that but he still has that dog in him #tying this back to: carlos wanting multi-year contracts/stability as proof that a team wants him and believes in him #bc if his team does then truly he can and SHOULD believe in himself... #but without that contract he's one of many in the ensemble of drivers that get rotated in and out #i'm not deliberately woobifying him btw this is just my take on how different carlos is nowadays vs toro rosso days #and how he's not that different at all #anyway self confidence and self esteem are two different things and you can have plenty of one but not the other