#girl why am i doing YOUR job

[saviourkingslut]

i should be getting paid for the number of times ive noted concerning things in my friend's thought patterns and behaviour that she didn't pick up on and neither did her therapist fr i feel like im doing half this woman's work sometimes

#i don't want to air her stuff but honest to god so many times she'll say something and i have to point out that something's not right #that those are unhealthy thoughts or behaviours that are showing something is very wrong or are actively making your life worse #and she'll be like. oh. i hadn't thought abt it like that. but you're right. ill mention it to my therapist. #not when my other friend and i got told by my friend that her therapist liked/agreed with what id said to her. 💀 #girl why am i doing YOUR job #obviously being a good friend to someone who has severe mental health issues just. that's what you do bc you love them #you gotta be there for them and tell them things they want to hear #but that doesn't mean it can't be exhausting. i get weary too when it's the second week of a friend's bad period #and i have to be emotionally available 24/7 just in case they get very bad thoughts or need a moment to vent #sometimes im just not feeling it! but i can't exactly bail when i know someone regularly has suicidal thoughts or heavily disocciates #suicide mention #tw suicide #not really but just in case #curry rambles #might delete later

[fauvester]

#dee s 9 #garashir adoption au #girl… you use your brain for your job… why do you turn it off while dating. lol #I BANGED this out at work lol I am TRYING to get faster at doodling

[gregoftom]

alright nero damn

#WHERE do i even start with this ohahnd m #ok first of all TOM why is your voice so fucking low???????????????????? like girl......... #i know he's being quiet but it's also so LOW. so murmuring...... so .... IntimateTM #the way they act so TETHERED to one another. the way greg is like OH YEAH for a second i forgot #i am bound to you. so am i gonna be okay bc are you? are WE? #YOURE GONNA GET CASTRATED ON PAY SHUT THE HELL UP NERO!!!!! I KNOW HE AINT SAY THAT ON ACCIDENT #he's still thinking about nero sporus he hasn't forgotten what he said to greg in that office he still feels the same way #greg is his sporus now and forever i'm suprised he didn't drop the sporus right there tbh #but i think i can keep you girl i KNOW that is all you are thinking about. that is a top fucking priority for you. you want to keep greg #at all costs. your job yeah you want that and all but the Real reason you want it all is to keep greg with you just SAY that #i mean. you did but still #also stop looking at him like that by talos!!!!!! it gets worse by the day i s2g #tom [looking at greg like he's his entire world]: die #ALSO THE WAAAAY HE TOUCHED GREG TWICE AFTER #cant just touch him once huh. touching his face tenderly is NOT ENOUGH i Must touch his shoulder too. more touching. he is mine btw #tomgreg

[alwaysneedyforsir]

back to bad habits (staying absurdly late at practice)

#like ok yes it was productive! #but it’s also almost ten pm and i’m only leaving now #ya girl’s still got to get home and finish her homework and try to get to bed at a reasonable hour #who knows tho i may stay up n bake cookies #honestly who needs sleep bffr #i am *killing* it rn on no sleep #promise!! #tired n hungry n fuckin beat up #the bruises i have on my body rn are ridiculous #plus somehow fuckin scratches?? #anyway my body’s fallin tf apart rn hehe oops #who wants to kiss my bruises better?? #taking applications rn #apply within w your qualifications n an essay of why you should be considered as an applicant #perks of the job include hugs n kisses whenever you want n probably when you don’t want #you also get a free use fuck toy who needs your attention on her all the fuckin time or she withers away n dies #n lots of flowers n books n chocolate too!! #honestly what’s a girl gotta do to get some flowers #good god idk how to shut tf up #whatever it’s not like i know how to shut up in real life anyway so #honestly if anyone’s read this far lmk bc that deserves a fuckin prize #(we can negotiate details of said prize if you don’t like my initial offer hehe) #me #my thoughts

[bbbrianjones]

um guys........ i think u need to understand i'm going fucking insane over this picture

#LMAO??? WHAT THE FUCK ?? LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FAVCT???????????????????????? #you see the man on the right on your screen is probably the greatest man to have ever lived in my eyes #also known as riccardo patrese #i mean look at him!!! and his suit and tie and waistcoat??? #BABY BOY YOU LOOK AMAZING!! #actually breath taking stuff right there i mean full rights to him for looking that good #and dear god he looks so good #and other guy is walter rohrl whom i don't really care for. nice to see him there though :) #because wherever there is walter there is usually his codriver christian geistdörfer #who just so happens to be the second greatest man to have ever lived in my eyes #christian is this little beam of joy. i love looking at him. he has such a kind face. #like the sort of face you would feel safe asking for directions if you needed to #whcih would be fantastic considering that is like literally hiss job #ANYWAY #the faact that walter and riccardo are together meant that riccardo and christian probably have met and like shook hands or something??? #DO YOU UNDERSTAND THEN WHY I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #lord if there is a picture with those two i will literally go to grave crying tears of joy. maybe that is all a girl ever wants. #god i can't get over how much excitement this picture causes me. there is so much hope in the world!!!!!!!!! #also patrese................................. again. i think we should have kissed at least. utterly unfair.

[bedlamsbard]

Now I'm just mad and that makes me sad. :/ I really do try incredibly hard not to hate things in this fandom, which doesn't always work out because, you know, feelings, and I don't want to think about hating things! I want to think about things I like!

#also I am exhausted because I had to proctor an exam at 8 am this morning #and the surface is for real dying this time which was REAL inconvenient #(light on the power cord keeps blinking but either the charger or the battery or both have been whack for while now) #(yes I bought a new computer but I was hoping to not have to set it up until AFTER finals) #plus I keep getting information overload on some job/work/school stuff #I am just very very tired #during the last few years of being a star war I hated nearly everything and it was an absolutely miserable fannish experience #I do not want to repeat it which is why if I think I'm going to hate something I simply do not watch it #honestly my greatest fannish achievements of the year have been realizing when I'm heading for a rage blackout and turning off the episode #(what if rewatch on the cc ep and secret invation) #but what if makes me insane in completely different ways except for The One Thing #(probs because it's so variable so I can't simply go 'not for bedlams!' and move on with my life like I did with si) #your girl #(also I realized that when s1 aired I legit have like. fannish ptsd. over the entire concept of 'the animation might become live action.' #I do not say that lightly but the scars from the star war run REAL deep. I still remember how bad my reaction to various articles was!) #I'm going to go for a walk and maybe buy some cupcakes

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

For once I would like to work at a place where me calling off doesn't result in a guilt trip. Sorry I'm the only responsible employee there but I was literally hyperventilating at the idea of letting my manager down bc I woke up and instantly started bawling about everything and could not face work. And my stomach has been murdering me from all the anxiety I've been dealing with so I literally can barely function anyway.

#like it is not my fault our newest employee can't remember anything. i trained her for over a month honestly. she still can't remember where #half the buttons on the screen are or what they do. I'm half convinced she has dementia bc she's asked me multiple times what year it is #when she was doing her paperwork. like even at my first job i was left alone more than my boss will let this woman. she refuses to let her #close alone. and like i know it'll go bad. but it is not my responsibility to babysit a 65 year old. i trained her and i know i trained her #well bc the other 2 people i trained did not have this amount of issues. i am not an assistant. your shitty company will not give me that #position even though i asked. i am the same rank as everyone else working there and i cannot have anymore stress right now or i will fucking #quit. the other girl that works here just got her wisdom teeth out and she'll be down for the count. not like she was much use anyways. but #i do not understand why my manager is making it all my problem when i taught our new employee everything. i was working by myself here for #entire shifts by the time i was here a month. the store might burn down if she does but Jesus Christ not everything is my responsibility #when my manager isn't there. I'm not the fucking assistant. I'm a fucking cashier. like I'm about to stop doing all the things i was doing #to try to get them to promote me to assistant. cause it obviously didn't fucking work. not gonna go around and make a list of everything #expiring this month. not gonna obsessively organize and stock the cooler. I'm tired of being the only one that does it and does it right #anyway. it's so fucking exhausting. like last week i was so anxious and upset i was throwing up. i couldn't have gone to work if i tried. #now I'm just over being the useful one bc it never got me fucking anywhere.

[recallthename]

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#I am so annoyed rn #and I’m trying to find the space between swallowing it and completely freaking out #the thing about being me is normally people ask things of me and my brain is like ‘it is my job now to do this thing’ #regardless of my actual feelings on the matter #and I’m trying hard lately to… not do that #but idk how without feeling like I’m going to another extreme #I just consider being generous and picking your battles very valuable? #but then I’m like ‘bitch why are you considering playing dnd with your friends a battle?’ #anyway I’ve died in every combat encounter we’ve had including twice in the most recent one #I’m playing a class that I already wasn’t interested in and only chose for party balance #and my dm put restrictions on which subclass I could pick cause she thought some were op #and is now reaching out saying she wants to nerf me cause she thinks I’m to op #yes the girl who was dead for literally the entirety of our last combat encounter is too op #playing one of the THREE subclasses she recommended #I just don’t even know what to say #it’s especially frustrating because she can’t 1) wait and see if it’s actually a problem #or 2) come to me and say ‘I’ve noticed this and I’m worried’ #she’s just like ‘this is what we should do is that cool’ #i love dnd but man I kinda wish I wasn’t playing dnd with these people

[ronanlynchbf]

hell day today and i'm only two hours into my EIGHT HOUR SHIFT

#9 to 5 by dolly parton starts playing in the background.. #literally had to open up shop alone 2day and also was entirely alone for the first 45 min. of my shift so that was already a negative start #to the day + i heard that i can't have my break later than two thirty which is very bad for me bc 1) there'll be a lot of ppl all around me #when i'm eating which i already dislike and 2) like 85% of ppl taking their break around that time are VERY noisy eaters so even worse and #then 3) it'll be really loud in the room as well bc everyone's talking loudly and eating and the cutlery's clanging against plates and such #and also some ppl have actual full-blown arguments with each other in the break room bc half the ppl here hate each other's guts so more #negatives to the day and then on top of that we've had sooooo many annoying customers already today who r just. intent on making u stressed #out and upset and literally will tell u to your face to 'do your job better' like bro...i can easily tell you haven't worked in retail.... #also someone hung their clothes on the rack outside the fitting rooms which is where u hang ur clothes when you're DONE fitting them & don' #want them bc they don't fit or don't sit right or u just don't rlly like them after all so if clothes are hanging there we the ppl working #there WILL take them and hang them back in their original places what did u expect to happen?? anyway someone hung the clothes they had #tried on already and did want there and i reached out to take them bc like. that's what we do here..we hang the clothes on the 'discard #rack' back in the store bc else the rack gets stuffed and the woman literally grabbed my arm and said 'those are mine what do u think you'r #doing' LIKE?????? GIRL THE RACK'S THERE FOR A REASONNNN ofc i'm going to assume u don't want them anymore if they're hanging there that's #why it's called the DISCARD rack....also how am i to know those specific clothes are yours HONESTLYYYYYY STFU AND GET OFF ME #ALSO some dude was like (to his child but like. looking at me while he said it.) 'this guy needs a haircut doesn't he' bc my hair is kinda #long and apparently i passed today. LIKE 1st of all kind of a rude thing to say to a stranger innit 2nd of all setting a great example to #your child there just casually commenting on other ppl's looks like that👍 3rd of all jokes on you you wouldn't consider me a guy if #you Knew most likely. thanks for that little zing of glee much obliged <3 but also man just piss off will you. 4th of all my hair isn't eve #that long....like the ends of it are just shy of my shoulders wdym LONG if u knew the long-haired guys i know you'd faint. #anyway. great start of the day. i still have six more hours to go 🥴 #ALSO no surprise this always happens but my legs already hurt SOOOOOOOO BADDDDDD :((((((((((( #r.txt

[ookaookaooka]

i LOVE first contact with aliens stories, seriously it’s one of my favorite tropes, but authors writing it really need to understand that there’s no writing it without engaging with the colonial history behind it whether you intend to or not, and if your story is about humans settling on another planet you’re gonna look stupid if you don’t

#also like. idk how to put it into words but. #if your excuse for why humans are leaving earth is because it’s become uninhabitable. it will always always ALWAYS be easier #to try and fix earth than to start over somewhere else #literally even if earth has nothing but rocks it STILL has more going for it than even the most habitable exoplanet #at least earth has air we can breathe gravity we can bear and is in the habitable zone #and it’s not full of potential allergens or plants/animals that we can’t eat #and we *already know* what’s edible and useful on earth which we’ve learned over millennia #and also. hand waving all the shit like allergens and inedible flora/fauna. #if your colonial humans are scratching a living from the soil and trying to find a niche for themselves in the local ecology. #ugh what am i trying to say here #like. *mean girls meme* so you DO acknowledge that ‘primitive’ technology is the best tools for this job? #but it’s more than that. like okay these colonists are doing the best they can with what they have and so they’re not ‘primitive’? #so you admit that the best way to ensure survival for future generations is to live sustainably? #i get it. i get it. i love made up alien ecologies and i love survival stories #but there’s gotta be (there is i’ve read it) a better way to tell them that doesn’t trash indigenous people while having your characters #live like them #like??? that’s what i’m trying to say. there’s some cognitive dissonance here #i’m trying to tell a story about people doing colonizing and having them live off of and understand the land #*IN not i’m

[cinna-bunnie]

lmaoo not me on vacation missing my manager 😩 she's a real cup of sunshine omg.. i can Feel when we haven't had our one on one in a sec bc I'll miss talking to her and won't be as energetic bc i haven't had my fill for the week ૮ – ﻌ–ა ♡⁠ we work in different offices but it's really really nice getting to see each other in person sometimes too bc she's so so pretty and rly fun and sweet and gives incredible hugs 😔💕🥰

we always end up hanging out n talking way longer than we need to, last time she was like omg yeah let me hurry up n finish so u can do ur thing and i was like listen.. i am never rushing u i love having ur company u are always welcome to stay as long as u want i can just work right here ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა take ur time ♡⁠

#we talk and it gives me Strength fr it's not fundamentally motivational or anything i am simply a very gay girl having a great time #yeah it's some business but this is just some Girl Time 🤭 heyy girl what u up to #i look forward to seeing her again. I'm not in a rush to have to work again 😹 but god if there's a silver lining in it!! #our beloved executive director who isn't above rolling up her sleeves and doing The Work that keeps us going herself. regularly 😭 #she helps our small IT work on tickets when she can and she goes between the two offices in our half of the state regularly #so it's rly helpful w knocking out some of the in person stuff too and like. #what i really really respect about her is coming from corporate the volume of tickets itself would be an issue and they wouldn't care How #it'd just be your job to figure out how to fix the problems w other teams and make them go away #where here she understands Why we have the tickets and is actually pretty in the loop on what's going on and is super #understanding and is just sorta doing her part!! and she's a busy gal!! yet she does it all and loves it and idk she's just really cool #like not just a leader in name but she really walks the walk you know? i love u girl i appreciate you

[carcinized]

feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely. #just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’ #type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100% #like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks

[h-f-k]

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#why do i keep thinking about things that a) i know the answer b) are just a fact? #like no girl. your ex manager doesn’t even remember your existance and of course you didn’t make any impact #in his life whatsoever bc you were just a coworker #i am having such a bad time at my job that I’ve been missing him so much #apart from the romantic shit aside lol he did help me in so many things and it was nice to see that he actually cared about the shit i said

[vampirehowl]

if we are ok with me being completely honest my dream version of this upcoming barbie movie is written and produced by david lynch and werner herzog in addition to the current use of White Couple Weekly. do i think that this would probably end up in a murder/suicide? yes. but thats a risk im willing to take in the name of Barbie

#everything else stays exactly the same of course #i just dont trust greta gerwig and her husband to get how intersectional feminism would actually look like #so the only other option is eraserhead baby nosferatu barbie #like if laura palmer was a depressing german movie but pink and sparkly #i think it would also be more accurate to the average barbie storyline utilized by little girls #i want blood and i want viscera and i want it to look like a 2008 blingee #i want banksy to watch this and publicly commit suicide because he realizes he cant ever top this with his bullshit attempts at #throught provoking art #if i cant have genuine intersectionalism on race gender and capitalism #then i want viewers to walk out of that movie with a sparkly pink version of the disorientedness that i got after titane #like i think itll probably do a good job of a Girlie Truman Show schtick or whatever. but thats not enough for me anymore. #thats your average lady gaga music video and why steal from her #barbie deserves more. we all deserve more #i want barbie to be the next rocky horror picture show but for girls who behave like damian from the omen and adults who get blackout drunk #at a 10 am brunch on mimosas and daquiris #talks #ok im normal now sorry

[pr]

curly girl truthers: u have to take care of ur curls n cultivate them n love them for them to blossom 🥰🥰🥰

me, actively trying to destroy my curls, but they continue to plague me: well how the fuck do i NOT do that

#LISTEN. I GET IT. I KNOW WHAT YOU WILL SAY. LEAVE ME BE #please if you have curls and love them or perhaps have curls you are on the border of loving GO LOVE THEM N EMBRACE THEM PLS LIVE UR TRUTH #THIS IS ABOUT ME N MY PERSONAL WAR. I JUST WANT STRAIGHT HAIR. SORRY. I AM SO DONE #but also i have dyed my hair for the past decade and will continue to do so for the end of time #so i am NOT going to add heat damage on top of that!!! so i will NOT use a straightener/blow dryer outside of #special occasions where i will be photographed!!!! so i am just try to put products in n brush these bitches #while damp in the hopes they will dry straight or even just wavy BUT THEY WILL NOT #and listen!!! they are so pretty I DO APPRECIATE THEM I DO #but i am almost 30 and i am realizing about myself i will ALWAYS toss and turn to the point i move my fucking mattress out of place #and NO AMOUNT of satin/silk head wrapping or pillowcases will save my curls overnight so they are not just #a frizzy mess on day 2 and i canNOT be washing my hair every FUCKING day i am sorry i am NOT that girl #i LOVE dry shampoo she is my BABE and body showers sure but like if my hair was just STRAIGHT i wouldnt even have to fucking #worry about how it isna rats nest every morning. i could just brush it and wear it down w/o having to find #some fucking style and take time to do it so i could look presentable everyday like IMAGINE JUST BRUSHING YOUR #HAIR AND WALKING OUT THE DOOR. COULDNT BE ME. EVEN ADDING REFRSHING CURL PRODUCT JUST #MAKES IT OILY AND IS NOT ULTIMATELY HELPFUL. UGH. #anyway i have to go to a job tomorrow and hope to god my curls make it to the morning i am procrastinsting sleeping #that is why i am bitching sorry ok goodnight #op #hair #also ps i do actually hate the slander of curly girl method??? it fr does work and actuallt has made my curls so beautiful #just by using drug store/trader joes products and i dont understand why ppl hate the method so much???

[stonerzelda]

ik im not supposed to bitch abt work but like. Dam. This job definitely has its frustrations

#i have from 8am to 4pm to finish all the rooms on my adsigned floor right. i usually end up staying until 5 bc i do my fucking job properly #somebody. who i am family friends with btw lol. bitched at me today and could Not understand that it wasnt that i did a shitty job #in her room. it was that I hadnt. fucking. been there yet. #hers was my final room and i got there at 2PM. 2 hours early. #yet because i didnt have it done at 12 like she expected apparently that makes me a bad employee. #no matter How many times i explained she kept coming back with 'if you want to keep this job you have to do what your boss is telling you' #i literally was and had on purpose kept her room for last bcos i THOUGHT that it would be nice to have familiar company around to chat with #bc she usually MAKES ME LATE bc SHE LIKES TO CHAT #and then she was confused as to why i was frustrated. girl. fucking help me out #then besides that :) figured out that the nurse who decided she hates me #is the sister of this kid in high school that fucking hated me #like god i love being alive actually its so fair and normal and understanding #rant fuckin over sorry but My God man i am killing myself every fucking day for this place and this is what i get.