#get any social interaction

[nexus-nebulae]

i. hate feeling like im so starved for social interaction that I'm forgetting how to speak to anyone at all. but because im forgetting how to speak im too scared to reach out to literally anyone

#i just want to like. chat with people every now and then #get any social interaction #because it's actually fucking up my mental health bad that I'm so alone constantly #but how the fuck am i supposed to make friends when i don't know how to have a conversation AT ALL #i need someone who's patient enough to basically hold my hand like a little kid to teach me how to talk again #but how do i FIND people like that when I'm already isolated #i can't ask people to help me meet more people so what do i do #I just want someone i can talk about my system and my interests to but i don't know how to speak so all I do is traumadump or infodump #i don't know how to find someone patient enough to deal with me and i can't just Ask People cause that's fucking weird #and the few times people do reach out even in a small way i dont know how to respond at all my mind just goes blank #what words do i even use i literally can't figure out how to form a normal sentence #nobody wants to deal with that especially when it's only talking through text

[egophiliac]

GREAT GOOGLY MOOGLY, THE NEXT BOOK 7 UPDATE FOR THE JP SERVER IS SET FOR MARCH 1ST.

HOW WE FEELIN LADS!?!?!

AHHHHHHHH NOOO I'M NOT READY, I thought we'd be getting the fourth anniversary first and then Sebek's birthday and then maybe some more episode 7, I didn't -- I didn't think it'd be Friday --

oh god and they're rerunning the story cards, they didn't say this was the final part but it feels like...maybe the penultimate chapter? could the end of episode 7 finally be looming in the distance?! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO

#art #twisted wonderland #gif warning #gifs that accurately represent the inside of idia's brain whenever he has to have a social interaction #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #THE SHROUDS ARE BACK IN TOWN BABY #time to find out how the heck ortho managed to hack(?) his way into the dreamscape(????) via a couple of robot dogs(????????) #a-are they going to show us dream!ortho #i don't know if i want that or not. i mean i do but DO I? #(chanting softly) ortho fight ortho fight ORTHO FIGHT -- #okay no we're cool we're all cool here #preparing mentally to get exactly zero answers to any of my burning questions #(i kind of suspect anything involving crowley-and-possibly-revaan is going to wait until the presumed episode 8....) #(FEEL FREE TO PROVE ME WRONG THOUGH TWST) #man i just want someone to say the words silver vanrouge at some point #60/40 on whether or not i think it'll actually happen but i want this for my BOY #HE DESERVES IT #he's been through so much just let him have this #...there is something a little bit hilarious about sebek's birthday coming AFTER a big episode 7 drop though #we're gonna be in the middle of like. sebek manfully clasping silver's arm and monologuing about how they are brothers in soul or whatever #and smash cut straight into sebek in a sparkly silver bowtie screaming at a picture of goofy falling down a toilet #my kingdom hearts brethren...i am beginning to Understand

[awakenthebeing]

(Mainly leaving this here for storage per usual!! Don't mind it too much) (Do not worry Fake Peppino is okie. The grab is firm but not with intent to harm)

(The words at the last image btw are "that is enough")

#mainly made this set of interactions bc i wanted to orchestrate Piepoe Social Uncomfort Levels #with some signs she exhibits when particularly getting overwhelmed! :3 #dw tho theyre both fine. im sure piepoe lets fake peppino continue to be silly if he doesnt cause any harm and such!!! ^^ #wouldve attached this to the big piepoe reblog post but like. its too big already this might just be a new one for now :>!! #Piepoe arts #this also was just an excuse to draw fake peppino not knowing the Concept of Personal Space whatsoever <:]

[pocketramblr]

you know im thinking. im thinking maybe Yoichi wasn't even that into captain hero as an adult, but AfO kept bringing LITERALLY every conversation back to that because he decided to Be The Demon Lord and so Yoichi like, can't get an argument in unless he uses the same material so he's like 'oh my god i haven't even thought about that comic in ten years but even i know the bad guy didn't win. you should not be basing you whole identity, business model, and world destruction plan on your five-second impression of a comic book bad guy who didn't even win! also you shouldn't kill people!'

#AfO has a very flat picture of Yoichi in his head #His Possession. Weak and small. and taught him language reading and socialization with Captain Hero #he's THORS POPTARTS-ing his own brother in his memories #what sort of art styles did yoichi like? how did he interact with gender? did he like his eyes or did he wish they were different? was he a #morning person or a night person? were there clothing textures he loved or couldn't stand? did he like to collect feathers or leaves? did h #ever pick up any sense of religious knowledge from his assorted readings? cultural identity? did he learn how to cook in theory but never #had the materials to practice? or did he cook once they were older as AfO sort of internalized that as yoichi's subservient role? #or did he make absolute monstrosities when he attempted to bake anything? #We dont know because all we see of Yoichi is: #his brother's memories of him. could be flanderization for all we know #and an imprint of Yoichi in ofa #who by necessity has to be focused on his brother #we'll never get to see the whole picture of the dead holders. they're dead. and we can't change that. can't know their vibrant lives #so yeah lets see. a five+one fic about yoichi's changing relationship with media property captain hero over time in his life and death #compared to afo's static impression of yoichi's relationship / afo's own unchanging relationship with it #hmmmm

[i-am-church-the-cat]

I didn’t want to hijack the person’s post bc I don’t care what they think but I am a defensive bitch so we’re talking about this

Logan and Oscar met when they were 13/14. The next year they were on the same karting team together but didn’t race each other directly. This would be the last time they don’t race each other until 2019 when Logan moved up to F3 and Oscar was still in Formula Renault. They had a championship battle in F4 and F3, they were teammates in 2020, they haven’t raced each other since then which has been the biggest gap since they’ve known each other.

That still doesn’t mean they’re friends though. You know what does? Them literally saying they are.

Oscar saying “I’m quite close with Logan Sargeant” on that podcast. The Miami GP 2023 post. Them playing paddle together. Logan in that interview where they asked about “Loscar.” Now the podcast episode.

They aren’t forced to be around each other, if anything they’re so busy they don’t have time to hang out, yet they still seek each other out when they have the opportunity. Obviously we don’t know anything about their personal lives but at the very least we know they’re friends?? Not brocedes level of friends, maybe lestappen level of friends cause I don’t think they’re actual friends either, definitely not galex level of friends but that can also be attributed to the fact they don’t talk about themselves a lot, compared to Alex or George who post everything about their lives.

Like, have you ever seen them interact? They’re chilling they’re casual but they are friends. Whatever you think about their dynamic they are at least that.

#just wild take to make to me #logan and oscar: yeah we’re friends #random person on the internet: i don’t believe you #yeah the fandom might be exaggerating it that’s what we do #but it’s not like we’re just making shit up ?? #‘logan and oscar aren’t actually friends’ and i couldn’t let that slide #logan sargeant #oscar piastri #loscar #maybe a problem is that some people who like loscar don’t know The Lore so they just go off of what they believe from this year #also is there any marketing thing where it’s just logan and oscar? #like there’s the FOL videos and now the podcast but we never see them interacting directly #can you even tell if someone is friends or not until they’ve been forced to do challenges by a social media managaer who gets a fourth of #their salary? /j

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Trigun Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 2

So now that I've finished with volume 1, I just wanted to write down a couple thoughts I've had and neat things to point out so far

When I was watching Stampede, I took note of a few kind of textbook avoidant behaviours Vash engages in, and lo and behold, here he is in the manga displaying even more of them. I'll list out a few here.

In order, we have:

Casually asking for a time limit on the interaction (ie. "How long do I have to keep this up before I can leave?")

Attempting to lose people in a crowd

Leaving without saying anything (and as a bonus, dreading being recognized in public)

Over-indulging or over-involving oneself in social events to create a viable excuse to leave suddenly (in this case, he uses alcohol as a reason to "pass out")

Sleeping to avoid unwanted conversation

Escaping to the bathroom to get away for a bit (and also to grumble about it haha)

Playing off sincere reactions by deliberately allowing them to be misinterpreted to avoid personal questions

It's really obvious, even this early in the manga, that Vash is intentionally avoiding prolonged interaction with people, and only involving himself in situations by necessity. He doesn't like attention on himself - the only reason he intentionally draws it is to divert it away from others.

The reason for this is a bit muddy though. It does seem that Vash doesn't particularly enjoy being caught up in drama, and it is also very likely he wishes to get in and out of places as quickly as possible to avoid them getting caught up in his drama too. It may even be that he finds prolonged socializing kind of tiring; that he needs a certain amount of time to himself.

But then there's also this bit, shortly after the celebration, where he pretends to pass out.

This brings in a bit of a guilt aspect to it. It likely has to do with July, or maybe it's due to something else (at this point, we can't say), but I think it's notable that Vash cuts things off shortly before they become intimate. He can play along to make others happy and to share in their joy for a bit, but the second things get too personal or focused on him, he will quietly slip away. Now this is specifically an instance of physical intimacy, but I think it'd probably hold for emotional intimacy as well, given the continuous avoidance and misdirection he does to prevent too many questions.

I made some commentary on Stampede Vash's self-punishing behaviours - specifically, the way he denies himself food. I don't want to get too into it because I don't know if everyone reading this has seen Stampede, but food is framed as something to be shared in the show - so, denying himself food is denying himself the right to share with others, which is denying himself belonging, which is denying himself any semblance of intimacy. (It means other things too, as food-sharing is associated with Rem, but I don't want to get too into it here.)

Vash in the manga doesn't seem to have the same issues with eating, but this is a similar premise - he's denying himself intimacy out of a sense of not being deserving of it.

So, then, there are probably many interwoven reasons for Vash's avoidance - he's sick of the chaos that follows him around, he doesn't want others getting hurt, he gets tired from having to "play it up" all the time, and he seems to also feel that he doesn't deserve that closeness. I'm intrigued to see how Vash's avoidance will be tackled going forward (I'm assuming it will?), and I suspect, more than there being one right reason for it, that all these reasons are actually true to an extent.

On a completely different note, this panel here is the biggest mood. I feel it in my bones.

#me looking at vash's avoidant strategies: ha ha ha. i do that. #me: ...wait. no. that's bad. #meryl says 'vash stop getting into situations' and vash says 'i am trying to get OUT of the situations! i don't want to be here either!!!' #i do think there's a lot of... exhaustion to his character we don't see as much with stampede vash. manga vash looks TIRED man. #it makes sense. we know vash isn't... happy. to say the least. #playing it up all the time when you are not happy - i can tell you any social interaction becomes flat out exhausting #you're always acting. you feel like you have to be so careful with what you say. it's far less draining to just leave the room. #trigun #trigunbookclub #vash the stampede #trigun meta #storyrambles #if i'm just saying what is incredibly obvious or repeating what others have already said i'm sorry. #once i'm caught up i'll follow the book club tag and read what others have written!

[commanderfreddy]

people are discoursing about the laios and shiro fight bc that was always going to happen but i do hope that wave crests quickly and we can all come to see it as what it is: literally one of the best written fights between two people who are both entirely justified in their actions and acting without any malice or cruelty of all time

#theres a tendency - especially in action and faction based media (which a lot of fantasy is or is in dialogue with) - to depict fights only #as happening between someone who Is Right and someone who Is Wrong #and getting to see a full on beatdown between two dudes who are both acting in an entirely understandible way and who both dont actually #want to hurt the other at all - to the extent where their desire to maintain a positive relationship with each other is the SOURCE of their #conflict in the first place - is just so cathartic to see #like unpopular opinion but sometimes you do just need to Fight someone to work through issues youre having #like irl i would not recommend that extent of Force obviously #but if you're two people in a situation where neither has active power over the other sometimes the healthiest option involves expressing #and receiving genuine anger that is not filtered through a social buffer #like sometimes you just need to yell that someone is pissing you off by how much they invade ur time and space and sometimes you need to #yell that someone is sabotaging your ability to interact with them by not expressing any discomfort with your behaviour ever #AND MOST IMPORTANTLY SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE YELLED AT #BECAUSE it sucks. it sucks to experience and until you can both share that space of feeling awful with each other youre not gonna get past #it and you're not gonna understand each other's pain #i think they're both wonderfully well written characters and its a testament to their depth as people that i can so easily understand why #and how both of them are behaving the way they do #im still only like halfway through the manga but it is like my favourite character interaction scene so far #fred says a thing #dunmeshi

[blinkpen]

i made a semi-facetious joke about kabru dungeon meshi but then it turned into a long ramble oops

kabru is so weirded out by laios' inscrutable vibes and lack of interest in other people (including kabru which he totally doesn't take personally or anything) that he immediately descends into paranoia and assumes malevolence

what i'm saying is laios is autistic rep, this we know, but kabru is also autistic rep, for equally traumatized autistic people who think their hard-learned mastery of people pleasing, social scripts and masking translates into unilateral skill at reading people of all types and assuming they are right on the money about it every time (**despite obvious cases of this not being true) and now call themselves Dark Empaths and have that one person who didn't wrong them but also didn't notice them or immediately become their friend and so said Empath is waiting desperately for another, actually valid reason to call them out and claim this weirdo was evil all along and be 'dealt with' and feel reassuring closure over not being able to connect with what is now clearly proven to be just an obvious error of a human, whatever that even means,

and tragically not grappling with the irony of this being the exact fate they've merely defensively trained their way out of facing at the hands of others

i say this as someone who likes kabru and think he and laios should kiss btw i just wanted to see how many people read all that and Flinched, happy tuesday

**something something:

Worthy Contrast i think, between A) kabru assuming average joe adventurers laios and falin are sinister people hiding something... after seeing their honest generosity be pretty blatantly taken advantage of, without them ever catching on or at least never causing a fuss, and kabru assuming laios could only ever be corrupted by the forces of the dungeon because laios doesn't care enough about people or what people think, which must mean he doesn't value human life enough to not do evil things one day

B) kabru having misguided trust for the town's literal crime lord, who he knows is a crime lord, entirely bc of how friendly the guy is and how clean and orderly he runs things (because it's functionally pragmatic to not be as evil as possible about it) and oohh they're so well acquainted! kabru knows he's a ultimately a good dude who'd do the right thing and care about the community whose seedy underbelly he oversees, and look at him, he even looks like santa claus...! after all the cordial interactions they've had, surely "leave money on the table to prevent a calamity that could leave hundreds dead" is a favor he won't mind kabru asking of him at all!

kabru said he wanted to see a mask fall,

he got exactly that

#fandom warbling #dungeon meshi warbling #fandom posts will not be rebloggable bc i don't gamble #dude that face jumspcared me the first time i read the manga LOL #panels including spoilers for a minor character we see for like 1 chapter turning heel ig? #i hc kabru as jealous of laios' more 'honest' weirdness while kabru is running on Hypervigilant Social 4D Chess Mode at all times #also the lovehateboner partially rooted in laios being a chaos variable in any social script kabru could possibly attempt to break the ice #unlike most people he has to formulate interactions with laios From Scratch just for a conversation to -functionally continue- #in a way he's forced to be himself enough to confront what he even wants from these conversations to figure out what to even say #even if what he ends up saying is more people pleasing bullshit for a dude who you don't actually need to try that hard to befriend #haha he makes you feel vulnerable in a really abstract way every time you simply try to Communicate with him doesn't he kabru #i'm rambling again hi #i like kabru and i don't think the anime is doing him justice but maybe that'll get better

[princessiicake]

angela !!! <3

#WOOOO MY FIRST POST #this is my first time posting any art on tumblr SKJSF #i get scared of being perceived sometimes ;o; #i have extremely bad social anxiety but im slowly getting better at managing it !! i like interacting with ppl on here :'D #professor layton #angela ledore #i need to practice drawing her more... i was struggling with her hair for a bit asjdfh

[griffincastle]

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#Honestly I kinda miss when forums were a thing #This is in ref to *previously reblogged* because YEAH the other social media websites are flat out boring about CODZ #The way people interact with 'fandom' has lost all it's fun #That's only the fault of social media websites- not people #You cant modify your profile anywhere - follower numbers are public and create a fake chaste system... #and they have this weird fixation with limiting interaction of person to person??? The only interaction they want is person to Content #I mean there's nuance in this too though: like saftey concerns ofc #BUT you cant write essays on why you think Dempsey's favorite color is blue bc word counts limit you- #You can't make bad art or you'll get bullied off planet earth- #Everywhere else creates a 'who cares what you think' environment if you have fun bc you don't have followers #(Important for CODZ too bc if a YouTuber has an opinion everyone else will echo it without knowing what it even means #((Like 'Jugg is a crutch perk' omg shut uppppp. Tell me what that means. You get it to survive more hits?? DUH. IT'S A *PERK*. #...anyway. that's why I'll always see tumblr as > than any other website #Despite the flaws it's the closest thing to the forum/personal website days #And weirdly enough....twitter/tiktok/insta- the creatively limiting places- are the unhinged sites...

[cozycryptidcorner]

I see a lot of exophilia posts like “I just want to be the first and only source of love a monster ever feels” like Jesus fuck bestie that’s a weird desire to have and a shit ton of responsibility.

#not talking shit on any specific person #just when I see that… I get the ick #because it kind of feels like #when I was still a Christian and priests/ccd teachers would say stuff like #god is the only one who loves and understands you #like okay #????????? #like speaking as. domestic abuse survivor #kind of off putting that some people want #to be someone’s only positive social interaction #I’m not accusing anyone of anything #but like please review those desires #and ponder why you’re attracted to that kind of situation

[iamthecomet]

The long dark days of January are really digging their teeth in right now. Sorry if I am less responsive/vaugely MIA/slower to answer things. It's not you. And I promise I am fine, genuinely, and will continue to be fine. I am just exhausted and all I want to do is sleep and craft and listen to murder podcasts and not think. It's hibernation days. Maybe I'll be back to normal by Wednesday when I finally have a day off (last week was also the busiest week I've had in months), maybe not. But just didn't want anyone with unanswered messages or asks (current and future) to think I didn't want to answer. I do I am just so, so tired. I will get to them when the energy returns, I promise.

#comet comments #comet lore #personal #I haven't seen the sun in weeks #I swear #And this past week has felt very much like “get up do the necessary things survive go to sleep” #and maybe it's just my introvert self being over peopled EVERY DAY for the past week #also still plugging away at words behind the scenes #but man does social interaction of any variety feel like work right now #give me a few days and I'll be back to normal

[irhabiya]

little highlight from the past few weeks: my mom and i have gotten into baking lately and we usually make little pastries kinda as meal prep that i take with me to uni

on days that i have my elective i take a few extra because we stay quite late and around two weeks ago one of my classmates that i've seen around but never really talked to was sitting next to me. i heard her complain that she was hungry and offered her some of my pastries and she loved them sooo much😭❤️ it was so cute watching her entire face brighten up. the next week she offered me cookies that she baked and now it's kind of a ritual for us to share the food we made during our elective

#she's so sweet :( <3 #i hope we can get more chances to talk i only really interact with her during our elective #otherwise she usually hangs out with her group of friends and i don't know any of them we have completely separate social circles

[thesinglesock]

why is he just like me fr

#I found him very annoying while reading. and then I realized it was because #he was a bit too relatable. in the bad ways #I don't have his knack for remembering names and faces though I'm just a freak about rhetorics and words #and I overthink how to say the right things so I get the outcome I want from any social interaction #and when someone says something I know will be misinterpreted I want to scream #even tho the same thing happens to me too. it happens to all of us. and it hurts either way #dungeon meshi #vitpost

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[otaku553]

I'm mildly torn because I remember forever ago you mentioned when you do more art you do less fic writing and vice versa, and I so eagerly await the demon slayer fic and the albedo Fullmetal alchemist fic (your last update was literally on my birthday and it was, no exaggeration, the best gift I got that day). On another note though, I'm cheering you on through your schooling!!! I'm getting a math degree, so I feel the struggle 😭

It absolutely made my day to read this!!! Thank you anon! I’m glad the chapter could was a good birthday surprise!!! I’ll try my best on the next chapter and the Kazuha KNY crossover!

And best of luck on your math degree!!!!

#sometimes I get asks like these and I am just Immeasurably Happy for the next few hours #truly best of luck on your math degree anon #higher level math (complex analysis and partial diff eqs) have very thoroughly dissuaded me from pursuing mathematics of any kind #honestly I am artblocked to hell and back right now so hopefully I can devote some time to writing #was planning on opening commissions over the summer but I am Burnt Out already from Just Social Interaction