#finally people are seeing his potential.

[writingmeraki]

Cho Guesung for Elle.

he is the moment.

#cho gue sung #cho guesung #cho guesung icons #cho guesung for Elle #what an icon #what a man #HE IS THE MOMENT. #pls this photoshoot has got to bethe best one yet. #finally people are seeing his potential. #outsold models fr fr #south korea nt #number 9 #[ pri dumps ]

[mediumsizedpidegon]

thinking about Shang Qinghua as a calamity again...

#svsss #shang qinghua #technically counts as tgcf? #just the idea of sqh dying and coming back is so compelling because in canon he literally just going through the motions. he's given up. #he doesn't WANT to die (from mbj's hand– from cang qiong's fall) but that's all he sees. it's the only end he can imagine to his story. #so the act of getting him to the point where he WANTS to stay– where it doesn't matter that death has come to take him he's not DONE YET is #revolutionary to his character (his ‟character‟– his role as well) in of itself and requires some canon divergence to justify it #and it's INTENSELY interesting to imagine him getting there #Imagine: An Ding is cruel. It is cruel and inefficient and its cruelties only make it more so. Sqh is ‟awarded‟ with the role of Peak Lord #of An Ding (this crown of barbed wire). And sqh doesn't MEAN to change the plot but– it's awful here! It's so awful that it's OFFENSIVE #and before sqh knows it two years have passed and An Ding is a mess of growing pains: of infrastructure torn down and rebuilt #but it's... better. It's hard work. It undeniably sucks and makes sqh cry from frustration all the time! Balancing the fixing of all the #shit his shizun left broken while staying on top of his usual duties is a procession of sleepless nights and little pains. (perhaps sqh has #growing pains too. change is hard for all that it's necessary.) #and then– and THEN! He's on his way to a trade meeting or spying for mbj or something else: it's doesn't matter. #And however the stage is set sqh dies and– sqh's life is finally starting to NOT suck! yqy has been asking for his future plans and sqh has #been answering. qqq found a scrap of a picture book he wrote when he was a senior disciple and demanded he finish it because it #‟had potential to increase literacy‟! He has a second command that he trusts won't stab him at the slightest provocation! His life is busy #and more than a little hellish but it's HIS. He's changed things even he didn't mean to. #An Ding's HIS. he got rid of the assholes and poured so much WORK into the people left and then the people who came later. #All of it boils down to this: it's unfair. it's too soon. it wasn't supposed to happen like this. #and so sqh dies for the second time and screams himself back to existence if not life. #the system cracking beneath his teeth– puppeteer turned to power for the puppet to consume. #(So there is a ghost on An Ding for all that only the ghost knows it.)

[bunnbunn]

Ted Lasso was about the power of love, friendship, forgiveness, family.

But it also was a long long con, it took us up the mountain of wholesome writing and then drop kicked us off it on the last episode.

It reminded us with great joy that a show finale can suck so bad, it undoes every growth arc a character has had and turn them back into their Season 1, Episode 1 selves

#ted lasso #jamie tartt #roy kent #its sad that ted was right about it not being about him #because he basically is the same man he was in S1E1 #i dont know who those people were on screen today but it was not the jamie and roy i know #ted missed beard's wedding #thats the level of concerning were have reached #rebecca and sam had more potential for a romance than the dutch stranger please #yeah please tell that astrologist that her predictions are a pile of shit #something Ted Lasso writers forgot is no matter how much a father loves their child and compromises for them and tries to make them happy #if they are unhappy inside with themselves then it leaks out and turns into a cycle of guilt #remember when michelle and ted learnt that she was trying to stay in the marriage but that was also making her unhappy #yeah where did that lesson go #bitter bitter ending #not an ounce of happiness or accomplishment or joy (yes he was excited to see henry but did that look like a man ready to leave?) #this better be just the season finale cliffhanger and not the end of ted lasso #somebody said the Beard wedding was Ted having a dream (nightmare) and i am now hoping it was just that #but also how sad if that were true #ted dreams of his bestie and everyone else moving on without him

[ourhouseishaunted]

70% of my trigun thoughts are abt how plants (independent and dependant) work and what they symbolize and their relationships with other characters and the world and stuff and the implications of independent plants coming with the earth forces and what it says about how earth has progressed since SEEDS left the planet, 20% of my thoughts are "hope those guys (meryl milly vash livio ww knives) are having fun" and 10% is rotating trimax Rem Saverem around in my head at all times

#i think abt rem a lot for a character that is like important but also isnt materially present in the story much #like idk her relationship with grief and regret and the idea of her looking at the shambles of her life and having to say #'well at least i can start over since theres nothing left for me' multiple times (after alex dies and she joins seeds #and after failing to keep tesla alive and getting a 'second chance' with vash and knives) idk its just so fascinating to me #and her idea of a blank ticket to the future and what it means in terms of how vash shapes his worldview in trimax #where it seems to be about how. death stops all future potential of a person. if they die they can never get better they dont learn #they cant change and experience consequence #like smth i find fascinating in trimax is that vash doesnt kill people but he will let somebody that person has hurt punch them in the face #and he thanks ww for killing to save the colony that one time. hes not opposed to killing/consequence entirely #i think it comes down a lot to how rem behaved in the aftermath of him finding out about tesla. how the potential for things to get better #would have died with him or rem and it would have just stayed horrible #idk idk im Rambling im turing things around in my brain #also man my main complaint with the manga is i wish it focused on the dependant plants more. they clearly experienced a big emotional #struggle esp in the final volumes and i wish we got to see more of it #but also i just like the wacky small town hijinks esp in the 98 anime i love when the main cast is just goofin around. i think they should #get to goof more #trigun #.txt #Dont Look At This Post Man its EMBARRASSING nobody should let me talk abt anything #the secret special bonus tjoughts are about chronica bc she fascinates me but i cant draw her good the way i can draw meryl and rem :(

[myimaginationplain]

imagine: professor utonium mentoring dexter vs professor membrane mentoring mandark

#dexter & mandark are the only two kids in their district to qualify for some young scholar program & arr bussed off to take classes from #their assigned mentor once or twice a week. #dexter is at odds with himself about it at first. on one hand he's glad that his intelligence is finally being appreciated & nurtured in #some official capacity. let alone by a mind as lauded as the creator of the powerpuff girls. but on the other hand he would prefer to just #move on up to taking college courses entirely rather than have to go through this half measure. & he also gets a little disillusioned with #utonium when he realizes 1) that pretty much everything utonium is famous for was invented by accident including the ppg #& 2) outside of the ppg utonium hasn't achieved much more than dexter himself already has #meanwhile mandark practically kisses the ground that membrane walks on because he's so glad someone in his life recognize's his potential #& membrane sort of sees mandark as the son he wishes dib could be. he's never very open or affectionate about it though because y'know. #it's membrane #he never talks about his kids & sees them so rarely that mandark didn't even realize he had children of his own until like 3½ months into it #whereas utonium cannot shut up about his girls. nor would dexter want him to since they seem to be the most interesting thing about the man #utonium realizes pretty quickly that dexter doesn't need academic guidance so much as he needs social interaction with 1) people who won't #bully or belittle him for being who he is & 2) children his own age. so he starts subtlety encouraging his daughters to meet & befriend him. #I imagine that they come to visit him during his office hours regularly anyways so this happens pretty naturally. #also I think that even though utonium & membrane would definitely respect one another & collaborate well in a professional sense they don't #really mesh personality wise. utonium finds membrane to be far too cold & callous. #membrane thinks that utonium is basically a baby man who doesn't hold himself the way an accomplished man of science should. #ppg #powerpuff girls #the powerpuff girls #dexter's laboratory #dexter's lab #invader zim #headcanon #au #professor utonium #professor membrane #dexter mcpherson #(why is that his fanon last name again? where did that come from)

[bumblingbabooshka]

‘tis i, nonbinary transfem tuvok enthusiast and recently i’ve been pondering the dynamic between her and transmasc b’elanna torres…. i love thinking of them having long conversations together about gender and cultural histories and their life paths and mental issues (real)

also tuvok’s quote of “there is nothing wrong in choosing to live” would be such an emotional statement to tell b’elanna who canonically has depression (they just like me fr). anyways these are my thoughts today take care my friend!! <3

I don't personally see Tuvok as being a positive person for B'Elanna to talk to about much of anything personal without like, some sort of change to how they interact with one another since I think he'd both intentionally and unintentionally antagonize her BUT I can absolutely see them looking at each other and feeling the gender envy even before they know what that particular sensation is. Knowing B'Elanna I bet she'd worry she has some kind of weird crush on him hehehe~ Someone starts a group for queer members of the crew to meet but it seems like more of a dating thing and they're all human and no one else is trans so B'Elanna leaves and runs into Tuvok and is like "Oh! I didn't see you in there." because it's common knowledge by this point that Tuvok's trans but Tuvok just does that 'obviously.' look and goes "...No." so B'Elanna leaves her alone but they happen to run into each other next week and the week after and it eventually becomes an unofficial thing and it's a real rollercoaster. It's a real russian roulette of what kind of a time you're gonna have - sometimes it ends in a fight and sometimes it ends in the most insightful realization you'll ever have. Such is life on Voyager... Thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful day too~!!

#I see many people cite that episode where he taught her meditation as them getting along but I think he 1000% failed to be helpful at all #and mainly just reluctantly and impatiently taught her how to meditate while sort of insulting her - B'Elanna taking his lessons to heart #is really all on her v_v #Tuvok isn't exactly the kindest person in the world ... yet he cares about people. Complicated man v_v He'll stay up for two weeks straight #trying to rescue you and then make a crack at how he thinks Klingons are barbaric ... honestly I'd say B'Elanna should yell at him but I #think he'd just go 'ah...my point proven. v_v' BUT I DO. THINK THEY'RE SUCH AN INTERESTING POTENTIAL PAIR?? #Not romantically - I mean pair of characters together bc they have SO MANY SIMILARITIES !!!! It's INSANE!!! #they truly deserved a character development 'getting closer' episode #honestly maybe this gender thing would do it...hehe maybe they'd finally have to talk it out bc they're the only other person o nthe ship #who'd understand....the power of being trans~!! #I hope this doesn't come off as negative - I liked this ask and I like Tuvok <3 #+ comforting things don't have to be in line with canon...nor is my interpretation of canon the be all end all #+ transmasc B'Elanna...embrace your short king swag <3<3 #this post is half inspired by my friend inviting me to join my school's GSA in middle school and me saying yeah absolutely! #then running away when their back was turned v_v SORRY #I really do hope this doesn't come off negative or rude - I don't want people thinking I'm gonna be rude if they share their thoughts #and headcanons with me =_= but I have trouble with tone... #Q&A #anon

[torgawl]

gojo's death has been way too controversial for something that has been premeditated for such a long time

#like... this was so coming #also the fact gege took every chance he got to say how gojo was still alive/not dead yet 😂 #anyways i hope shoko survives to see some change in jjk society #i was reading a few of my old posts and tags yesterday and i had written about how from the trio she was the most likely to survive #and how i hoped though her they got to see change in the new generation unlike they were able to experience in their youth #and i still hope that's true #maybe jjk won't have a happy ending but i hope it's just just pointless you know? #also i don't think megumi is dead i refuse to believe yuuji's big moment isn't coming and that his whole thing isn't saving megumi #i still have wishful thinking he'll be able to honour the 'then start by saving me itadori' #he's also the person that makes most sense to win against sukuna #people undervalue yuuji as a protagonist a lot although he isn't your typical shonen main character he still is one and for a reason #so i want to have hope he will be able to do soemthing to save megumi somehow #i don't care if i'm delulu but there's just no way kenjaku and sukuna's big final moments won't be with the main characters right? #there's no way yuuta isn't gonna try to kill kenny like he said and no way yuuji doesn't face sukuna methinks #at least that's what i'm kind of hoping for endgame i think it would wrap things up well maybe not but it makes sense to me 😂 #just wonder how gege wil wrap up some other characters #i think i'm preparing myself to be disappointed with shoko's fate i really wish she would be used in a relevant part of the story #i just think she had so much potential but that doesn't seem likely right? not at this point #but anyways just ranting #not just* #jjk spoilers #okay adding something: even if gojo didn't die or is able to be saved still he had to face death/be disabilitated for the story to go on #in my humble opinion. i just think this story was always about him passing the torch and not about him having any real impact in society #gojo's generation (and i'm including yaga here) has made the choice to help the youth which in itself is already breaking generational #curses but every single one of them has been doing the equivalent of putting bandaids on a fatal wound #obviously the story is much more complicated than this simple analogy but it was not up to gojo's generation to do anything #i just think the parallelism between them has always been pretty obvious about it #that gojo's generation was about intent and aid rather than being successful themselves?! #idk where i'm going with this but i really think this is a story about the youth consinuously trying to do better even if they fail #and they will fail because life isn't fair

[yeonban]

Do you guys realize how batshit Dan Heng's story is. And this is AFTER the dozens of years he was forced to spend in the Shackling Prison. This was his freedom before meeting Himeko and Welt.

#muse: dan heng. #I'll have to write a meta on this bc DH truly is one of the strongest people out there /and/ one of the best adjusted all things considered #Can you imagine that for about 2 decades you don't know anything but the darkness of a prison (in which you were 'born' to begin with) #everything you've heard about you only know through descriptions in books. you hallucinate and have nightmares 24/7 #you finally get to see your hometown for a few minutes but you're in shackles and feel eyes filled with hatred on you from all directions #then you get your freedom and you almost die more times than you can count; in so many ways that you become jaded to the idea. #you're almost assimilated into a cult; almost stripped of your memories and thus your identity; hunted down by an undying man #who wants you dead and who has sunk all the ships you were on - including kiIIing all the people on those ships you might have befriended #so you choose to go everywhere alone and opt for the deadliest road in order to escape that man even if it means potentially dying #you even try to kiII him and /manage/ to; but then to your horror he just stands up again and again and your nightmare never ends #Genuinely WHAT even is DH's life. How is he so normal despite all of this. His willpower is out of this world

[magentagalaxies]

tonight is a "getting emotional over paul bellini" kind of night <3

#just thinking about how lucky i am that not only did he see me being a nerd over mouth congress almost two years ago and reach out to say hi #but also that in our first conversation he asked about my comedy and immediately was interested in seeing where it could go #like i have a distinct type of dynamic with each of the kith people i know of course #but bellini's always going to be special to me bc he's the first one i met. he's the one who met me before i knew anyone related to kith #both scott and bruce met me as someone who already knew someone from the show. but bellini met me as just a random fan #like he didn't have to bring me into the world of kith as much as he did but he wanted to! #and idk i'm just thinking about it bc in my little interview i did with him for my final in a comedy class #i did ask him what it was about my comedy that made him think it had potential #and he gave such a thoughtful answer that really showed he thinks i'm funny and that i could be a great comedian #and he referenced past work i've shown him etc. and it was all in that great bellini tone where he's very complimentary #but it never feels disingenuous or like he's just being nice bc he respects you enough to tell you his honest opinions #i value a compliment from scott or bruce or paul very much bc they're all some of my favorite comedians and my mentors #and of course having a different dynamic with each of them means i will value their comments in different ways #and i wouldn't say i value one person's feedback more than another's #but there's always something special about bellini bc he's the one who has known me the longest and knew me before all of this #(technically he's the only one who got to know me as a teenager bc i was 19 when we met even tho my 20th birthday was a few weeks later) #and yeah i really hope he's having a good night tonight bc he deserves it

[doux-amer]

Look at Leo singlehandedly (or nearly singlehandedly. Busquets is there too and it's hilarious seeing how unaccustomed he is to how low the bar is in the MLS and Miami just signed Jordi) take the worst club in the league—the one that's literally dead last—to first place. It's going to be hilarious.

And the petty vindication I'll feel when that happens will be great. People can finally shut the hell up about how Leo's brilliance will fade/has faded when he's out of a system that was essentially constructed around him and for him to win. I'm sure the argument has shifted to "Well, the MLS sucks so of course he'll look amazing and in fact look even better than usual," but it doesn't hold any water because many former greats have tried to make a big splash in the MLS and none actually succeeded to the degree that Leo's already changing things.

#people really thought they had a point when he went to psg as if he even wanted to go there and there weren't other external factors at play #and as if he still didn't play well even if it wasn't to the standard we expect of him #and as if he still wasn't breaking records over there #where are all the 'but could he do it on a cold rainy night in stoke' people now #look at what he's doing with mid to even horrendous clubs #and teams (sorry to argentina but we know that this era isn't exactly the strongest of squads we've ever seen) #your favorite can genuinely never (they can score a lot of goals sure but not control the game #or they can control the tempo and passing or defend but they won't score the crucial goals needed to save the team) #FINALLY won the world cup which was the only thing that eluded him and kept those ridiculous people from calling him a GOAT #and i wouldn't be surprised if he shattered 9823738279832 records and massively changed things for the MLS #i talked about potentially dragging inter miami to the upper rankings on the table if not the league title itself #but on a game level....there's no way that clubs can stand by and let leo destroy their defense like paper every match #they're going to have to level up if they don't want to be mauled #so it'll be interesting to see the ripple effects of his stay here

[calibrijack]

hope is restored im going back to physical therapy

#this time for my knees not my scoliosis 😭 #my dad took me to give the prescription and everyone was like OMG CAL HI WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE #i missed all of my physical therapists they are the sweetest people ever #i wish i didn’t have to go but!! at least i get to see them all again #it’s either this or going to see someone & potentially getting surgery so uh. i rather not. knee surgery sounds scary #my doctor also gave me a gel that’ll help with knee pain!! haven’t tried it out yet but i probably will soon my knees hurt rn haha #im a little bummed i gotta go during art fight cuz i wanted to focus on drawing but health comes before art at the end of the day #finally getting help for my knees yippee!! #>calibri rambles

[mrfoox]

Talking with Fabian and whooooooooo boy that was an conversation and a half...

#miranda talking shit #Uuuh i was kinda rightfully anxious? I told him about how i am a little freak and i basically am down to date 90% of my friends #But i got told by Oliver that it could be i act that way bc i dont want to be abandoned/left so im willing to compromise however they want #Me to... So talked about that with him and yep. We finally got into the whole... 'what are we' business. Or well kinda not directly #He said he didn't want to bring it up but we basically are on the subject so... And how hes worried that i will think too much about him #'i worry the more time we spend together the more your life will revolve around me and you'll value me so much more than i do you' #'it doesnt seem fair to you so ive occasionally not talked with you because i worry about that. You're a great friend but I know how much #You think about people. And im worried if you think about me too much you'll develop feelings or I'll mean more to you than before' i... He #Isnt wrong? Thats kinda how i work. The more people prioritize me the more ill value them and cherish them? But also... Idk if he understod #That i dont actively think about kissing or dating my friends? Its just a thing i know that if anyone asked I'd be down for it. But i dont #Daydream about it or anything. But then again he said some cryptic fabian shit like 'i dont have anyone else to compare with so i assume #What we have is normal. I sometimes want to cross the line to see where i still stand with you after doing it' like bro... Im so sorry i am #I am so far from 'normal' and him having me as his biggest both friend and female/woman in his life is probably such a mess i am crying #Me: ok then cross the line and see how you feel. 'but thats the problem. You dont have a line you're so open and down with everything you #Dont really react badly' I know i... Probably am making things hard for him sometimes but this was an holy shit moment /: hes worried to #Spend too much time with me bc of how i can potentially feel? Meanwhile I'm basically 80%+ of all his social interactions 😭 at one hand i #Appreciate him thinking of me and worry i guess but... Yeah. I told him: listen Fabian. My life does not revolve around you and youre not #The only one i think about. You are safe.' his and mine relationship is my favorite but also i definitely worry bc i know how much what we #Have or talk about or act is his... Only reference for girls basically. I mean outside his mom. He's not had any other girl friends and no #Actual girlfriend. So his reference to whats... Okay and appropriate is basically dictated by me and im seeing that very clear now im kinda #Afraid. Like... Im not normal on any level. If he's basing his view on women on me hes going to have an awful time truly... Idk if i should #Be offended or flattered that he thinks he's the center of my world 😭 like hes not completely wrong. I talk with him multiple times per #Week. But i can also say hes not all i think about at all waking hours lol. I obviously love him and care so much about him but im not #In love with him. Not as far as i know anyway. I dont think of him how i do people i have crushes on for example so yeaah. It bothers me #More that he couldn't just say 'im not into you' bc thats fine. He added the whole element of 'im not sure' like buddy now im going to be #Anxious about that in the future. I guess he have no reference to crushes so he cant tell but like... How do you want me to act so you can #Tell? I want an solid answer putting in an maybe is cruel even to me. This is funny bc tbh i dont even know if i would be able to date him #Even if he said he wanted to. Bc i know his biggest wish is to be a dad and i have nog fully embraced that idea even /: 'i can feel how ego #Centered i am. Assuming im the center of your world like that' at least youre self aware sweetie. Sounded like he was at peace with all we #Said and im here like... Binch there's so much to think about i wish i could read your mind i need more information to understand all this

[iniziare]

Tag drop: Guizhong. (God, I truly wish I could explain non-emotionally how much it means to me to have her on this url).

With shortness of breath, I will explain the infinite And how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist

#ic. [ teach with wisdom. be bound by virtue. fortify the bones. unite in ambition. their convergence shall be known as the guili assembly. ] #countenance. [ many things only seem to surface beneath its poignant glow. wherever the moonlight shines; the heart is wont to follow. ] #introspection. [ although she did not live to see the splendid sights of today: she was as much a hero as any other. ] #meta. [ her manuscripts still lie unfinished in her abode. the blank pages give one cause for contemplation on what might have been. ] #little notes. [ she always sought to make everyone happy and one must say: she had quite the gift for it. ] #wishes. [ wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains. ] #mortals. [ at their full potential; they could be her equal. a human who could have as much to teach an adeptus as to learn from them. ] #guili plains. [ as guizhong once said: “it takes every blade of grass and every flower to make a homeland.” ] #liyue. [ perhaps she will look at the liyue of today and steal a smile when she sees the prosperous land that it has become. ] #realm of clouds. [ a voyage to a sanguine sky. ] #mechanical arts. [ in one's heart; i knew that she was indeed the superior talent in the mechanical arts. ] #glaze lilies. [ they were far more abundant back then. entire fields of them would appear to the eye as a veritable sea of flowers. ] #morax. [ whoever it was that revered her so much was very clever indeed. ] #guili: delusionaid. [ with shortness of breath; i will explain the infinite. and how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist. ] #marchosius. [ who would dare snub the stove god and his wondrous creations? at the sight of him: we would all drop any argument. ] #streetward rambler. [ it almost felt like she was back again. sitting right there on the stone stool next to me; chatting away. ] #cloud retainer. [ we each had our ideals; and neither one of us would yield to the other. ] #osial. [ she would disrupt the silence around them with a hum; as if to sing along to the harmony of the water. was this his song? ] #sea gazer. [ he could be quite the braggart when it came to those collectibles he was so fond of; he always loved to show them off. ] #skybracer. [ to who lived by the mountain; he was their savior. in fact; they thought higher of him than they thought of the lord of geo. ] #ganyu. [ if we planted flowers in the guili plains; do you think that one day we'd be able to recreate the sea of glaze lilies? ] #adepti. [ until the moon set and the sun rose. and only then would the banquet finally come to an end. ] #npc: marchosius. [ born from a spark when stone struck stone. he was a god with a great love for humanity and their wellbeing. ] #v: descension. [ she descended whose dominion was over dust; and whose reach shrouded the skies for thousands of miles around. ] #v: guili assembly. [ it's great to have it back but i want to go back to the world. and start with guili plains. ] #v: archon war. [ they fought upon the plains; where black dust choked the heavens and a thousand rocks splintered. ] #v: present. [ all wrapped up in a city that has existed for so many moons to date. all these things: they are why people chase the moon. ] #tag drop #one day hoyo might give me her; and that day i will absolutely cry real tears for numerous days in a row. #more than just numerous days; who am i kidding.

[hollenka99]

YouTube yesterday: Hey btw The Longest Johns just released a song about Horatio Nelson's death.

Me: Cool, excuse me as I stare off into space and think about L'Manburgian soldiers' reaction to hearing about Kiril's dying to withering whenever I play the song.

#regicide au #like yes I know realistically Kiril would be a bit of a controversial figure in L'Manburg #his father (and ancestry in general tbh) represents centuries of colonialism and oppression #like ffs you can't just walk into a place like Pogtopia going 'hi I promise I'm a good Krafta' #when you've had to spend the past few years drastically unlearning all the colonialist propaganda you were fed as a child #anyway Artur is representative of continuing the oppression of an entire people no matter how hard you have to grind your boot on them #while Kiril represents the effort to at least make a start on fixing the mistakes of the past #with liberation in the hopes that will open the door for reparations etc #not that he ever expects to see that because he'll be dead from fratricide #(not to mention shit like that will take generations for the wounds to begin healing so no veteran of this war will live to see it either) #he still wants to do *something* as a way to work towards that better future though #a war of independence sure as fuck wasn't what he imagined but 'the universal language is violence' yada yada #it certainly seems to be Artur's universal language #and Kiril gains an even better image of himself as a general who is willing to fight and potentially die with his soldiers #those under his command absolutely have deep respect for him thanks to how he conducts himself #...and then the withered arrows start flying #people are going to end up talking about how he never let on he was hit himself #he simply visited the affected soldiers in the infirmary some of whom were doomed to die in one of the worst ways possible #then he was gone. just grabbed by his brother so he could be killed in Rayusel (or away from the public eye in general) #rumours are going to fly about all sorts of things pertaining to Kiril's final hours but one thing is for sure #there is going to be grief amongst the soldiers who loved him #'let him die in peace' ...yeah they really are going to hope that somehow he didn't suffer as much as a typical withering victim #god I am just shaking this song vigourously by its shoulders I swear

[starryarles]

he broke up with me

#he said the distance finally got to him #and a part of me always expected this but it was still my worst fear #it's not like last time thought #it's different #idk if it's better or worse actually #for now it's better and we're remaining on good terms and staying friends #but at a distance #because we both know we're interlinked #our hearts and souls are genuinely interlinked and there's really no way we can stand to not be with each other #i'm scared of tomorrow #how it's going to be without him and not talking to him as much or probably at all #we were gonna be forever #and ever #forever each others #but it got to him #he said he felt like it was wasting his time and those words should hurt me but they don't because deep down i know that it's true #i asked a bunch of questions #he said he never once looked at another person during the entire time we were together after getting back together and even turned down peo #which hurt me so much knownig he sees this now as a waste of time #knowing he could have potentially dated and gotten with some of those people and gotten the physical touch he wants and needs #it doesn't hurt like last time did #it's almost a relief #but all i want is him back #right person wrong everything else #everything #i hurt him so much #and he hurt me #but we are interlinked #i really hope one day in the future our paths cross and not everything else is wrong besides him #i really really hope one day we can see each other in person

[yamujiburo]

Why I Love Hanamusa

I get this question very frequently but have never given a really in depth, definitive answer. All just kinda implied through my comics and spread out asks. So here's this I guess! Long post ahead:

First, as a Pokémon fan in her mid 20s, I love seeing a ship where the characters are both in their mid/late 20s. Already, they’re much more relatable to me and my current experiences. Most Pokémon ships are between preteens, which can be cute but ultimately don’t interest me as much as they used to when I was a kid myself. Not enough to get super invested in and draw a lot of fanart for anyways haha.

I’ll also start by saying that canon doesn’t always influence whether or not I’ll ship something. I’m much more drawn to potential. Could the characters work together? Do their personalities work together in a nice way? I feel like this so much of fanon is anyways. Especially with queer relationships because they’re rarely depicted in the first place. A lot of the context for these ships is usually up to the fans to piece together or make up in general. And that’s the fun part to me!

Jessie and Delia have only met in the anime a handful of times. Any interaction they’ve had has either been pleasant, or just a typical Team Rocket interaction, with Delia dismissing them/not seeing them as a threat. Already a great jumping off point for me since, truly, they don’t have any actual beef or true, ill feelings towards each other. It’s not TOO out of the realm of possibility for them to potentially fall for each other. “But Jessie chased Delia’s son around trying to steal his Pokémon!” That’s where that dismissive and aloof attitude that Delia has comes into play. I’ll go more into Delia’s whole deal a bit later but I do think this aspect of her personality is a large reason why this ship can work. It’s not that she doesn’t care that Jessie has a bad past, but she can tell that, on the inside, Jessie’s a good person. And, in a scenario where Jessie is trying to become a better person, is forgiving enough to give her a shot. I feel like this is such a solid foundation for a ship. A character who has done wrong but is trying to be better and another character who is willing to help them be better. A classic dynamic!

It’s not just one-sided though; where Jessie is the only one benefitting and learning from the relationship. I believe Delia could get a lot out of being with someone like Jessie. To understand why, I think it’s important to know these characters’ respective backstories.

Jessie is an orphan/foster child who grew up in poverty. Her mother Miyamoto (from The Birth of Mewtwo) was a Team Rocket operative herself, who went on a mission to find Mew. In order to do this, she had to leave Jessie when she was just a toddler. Unfortunately, Miyamoto went MIA on her mission leaving Jessie to more or less fend for herself. Jessie went through life with zero stability, evident by her MANY different careers and constant moving around. It’s implied in the show that she went from foster home to foster home, and later in life tried being an idol, weather girl, florist, wine connoisseur, actress, most notably a nurse and finally a Team Rocket field agent. And even while in Team Rocket, she, James and Meowth were always doing odd jobs to get by. We see that Jessie used to be a sweet kid, and even adult, but the world and her circumstances repeatedly did her dirty, leading her to become the character we know today. Hot tempered, mean, selfish, etc. But despite this, her soft side does still shine through for the people and Pokémon she cares about. She is incredibly loyal.

Delia, unbeknownst to a lot of fans, also had a rough past (see Pocket Monsters: The Animation). Like Jessie, she had a lot of dreams and aspirations like wanting to be a model and even a trainer. But when she was 10, her mother didn’t let her, telling her that she had to stay home and learn to run the family restaurant (she’s an only child). Delia’s father left her and her mother to be a trainer, and never returned. When she was 18, she married Ash’s father and became pregnant shortly after. But right after Ash was born, he also set off to be a Pokémon trainer. And soon after that, her mother passed away, leaving Delia with just the restaurant and baby Ash. This gives so much context to Delia’s attitude in the show. We see that Delia is pained whenever Ash leaves on a journey, but she never shows that pain to anyone. ESPECIALLY Ash. She’s very quick to shoo him off when he shows any sign of wanting to go on another journey and even when he returns home, she acts more excited to see Pikachu than him almost every time. Without all this backstory, it’s easy to just read this as a funny gag, BUT with context, I think it really shows how quickly Delia shuts down and detaches in order to not confront her own feelings. She’s afraid of losing people and getting hurt again.

All that said, I think Jessie and Delia provide each other with EXACTLY what the other needs. 

Aside from becoming rich and famous, Jessie’s biggest aspiration is to get married. In my opinion, this is more so an underlying want for love and stability. There is no one more stable in the show than Delia. Delia’s lived in Pallet her whole life, she’s worked at the same restaurant since she was young and she is always there when Ash comes back home. She has all the love, patience and stability Jessie needs and craves. While forgiving, Delia’s not stupid and can keep Jessie in check. Delia’s also just an angel, which I feel, would make Jessie want to be better. And on top of all this, on more of a surface level, Delia’s a chef and excellent cook. She shows love through cooking and Jessie, who grew up poor, regularly starving and eating snow, happily receives that love. Jessie’s able to live a happy and healthy life with someone like Delia.

Delia, as stated, is very stable. Likely pretty monotonous and solitary, especially living in such a small town like Pallet. This isn’t a bad thing but it’s a little sad when you consider that Delia also had dreams of traveling, being a model and a trainer. She had to give up so many dreams in order to fulfill her duties as a restaurant owner and mother. And even now, when Ash is off on his journey, she feels the need to always be home and be that stable pillar, leaving behind any ambitions she had, thinking it’s too late for her (she’s only 29 btw). But then along comes Jessie, dangerous, passionate, an absolute firecracker. Someone who’s whole life has been about chasing dreams and either, never giving up on them or finding a new dream to chase. Upon learning about Delia’s past aspirations, I could see Jessie pushing her towards them, letting her know that life’s too short and she has nothing to lose from trying. On top of this, Jessie’s also loyal. She, James and Meowth are depicted as doing anything for anyone who gives them food or shows them kindness. Delia does both so there’s no way Jessie would leave her. This fulfills an essential need for Delia, who is afraid of the people in her life leaving her.

There’s so much potential for mutual growth and learning between these two and I adore that. They compliment each other, they help each other and they bring out the best qualities in one another.

I’m not really sure how to end this and I could truly talk about them even more but I don’t want this to be tooooo long haha. OH I could end it with maybe the most funny aspect of this ship that I've brushed over and also what drew me to it in the first place. Jessie. As Ash’s stepmom. THE END.

#hanamusa #hanamusashipping