#feeling very happy to be alive

[gworlinterrupted]

i’m a person who’s very sentimental abt anniversaries and stuff and like. today is the one year anniversary of me deciding not to kill myself and ending up in the hospital and basically in my head it’s the one year anniversary of me starting to get better and dude i’m having Big Huge Feelings

#feeling very happy to be alive #very lucky

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Business comes first! Drinking is the job!

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #It's finally outfit change time! Third time for wwx and second for lwj! #I'm always a big fan of when characters change clothes and it's fun to change it up. #this scene once again emphasizes how much wwx acts in a reactionary way and gets *so thrown* when someone goes ‘yes-and’ #‘no lan zhan- you arent supposed to *agree*’ #there’s also a lovely gentleness to how he phrases it. Lwj just wants wwx to be happy. Bonus if he gets to be in proximity #wwx’s hedonism is a very interesting topic for another analytical rant #pre-burial mounds he’s a creature of pleasures! Post burial mounds? He doesnt feel alive enough to warrent enjoying life’s pleasures #i guess you could say both lwj and wwx have struggled comparing and contrasting two versions of each other

[colealexart]

Relvin, Liliana & Imogen Temult Lil self indulgent drawing of happier times

#critical role #critical role fanart #cr3 #imogen temult #relvin temult #liliana temult #digital art #my art #I was thinking about the possibility #that Imogen's mom might've been alive when she was very young #and i got emotional #thinking about all the memories they could've made #that Imogen doesn't remember #i just have a lot of fuckin feelings about this family #i love imogen so much you guys #i just want them to be happy!! #critical role spoilers

[be-an-echo]

let's go my love, we don't belong here anymore...

#THIS HURTTTTTTTT #when i say i wanna cry... #why internet why? #im feeling very miserable rn #after i counted both twitter and tumblr votes i wanted to punch myself for giving u this option #pls dont make the same mistake and dont listen to sad music #its just a bad dream because they are still happy and alive in jackson #its one of joels nightmares #tess always comforts him afterwards #she hugs him so close joel's not sure if he's still breathing #he tells her about the nightmare so tess lets him listen to their hearts steadily beating in their chests as a proof that they are alright #because they are #and it was just a bad dream #tess servopoulos #joel miller #joel x tess #tessjoel #tess tlou #joel tlou #tess lives

[junebugtwin]

even while it was happening, you knew it wasn't going to last

#parahumans #worm #lisa wilbourn #tattletale #feeling BAD about my girl lisa in the club tonite #i am convinced she is the most tragic main character in worm #which is a bold statement i know #but i just cant handle even thinking about her shit FOR REAL #she knew the cops and robbers shit was bullshit! from the very beginning! #of course she did! Coil fucking forced her to work for him at gunpoint and she totally understands that #if she doesn't do what he wants shes going to end up in a torturebasement!! #she knew aall of taylors funny little problems n Issues from the start! she tried SO hard to keep her alive and at least a little happy #struggling and clinging and digging in her claws as she watches this girl somehow get Worse(?) #and every time taylor takes a step towards the void guess who sees it in excruciating detail even when taylor can't/wont!!!! #and in the end it doesn't matter!! all her schemes and plans don't amount for shit!! she doesn't save the girl! #she doesn't save the girl. #my art

[mummer]

still sorting out how to feel about it but fuck ncuti was just insantly beyond all expectations. King

#i feel sad his first appearance was sort of playing second fiddle to tennant and he didnt get a proper regen or anything #but i am soooooo excited for him to get started in earnest #plot wise probably my favorite of the specials but that was pretty unhinged #my full conclusion is that rtd is the most self indulgent showrunner alive which works for him but is also very Apparent lmao #doc who #doctor who spoilers #like whys ncuti feeling like a companion/side character in his own show like???? #as someone who isnt a tengirl it’s like. Okay. #also as someone who enjoyed the donna tragedy SORRY #like these specials were really not For Me which is fine. but lets get going cmon 💪 #i’ll just never be a happy ending enjoyer i need it to be at least bittersweet which is why i like this show lol. too happy booooo #me and capaldi being like ITS SAD. ITS ABOUT DEATH. rtd putting his hands in his ears and playing with action figures #which he has the right to do i wish him nothing but happiness also 14 and 15 sjould have fucked

[hollyhomburg]

Y E S i live for sad bily facts

Okay so! Hiding them in the tags cuz I’m on mobile enter at your own risk

#seriously If you don’t want spoilers or to be apart of the angst dont click!!!!! #first off: jungkook dies first #a seizure takes him out at 55-60 and it’s partially namjoon’s fault #namjoon doesn’t catch him before he hits his head and he goes through a period of depression after and eventually comes to the conclusion #that jungkook would have forgiven him and he would have #the kids take it the worst especially their youngest who ends up sleeping between the mc and tae for a full year #as for the next angsty tidbit- yoongi dies before the m/c #and she’s actually really really happy because he never got to know what a dead mating mark feels like like she’s actually very thankful #tae and the m/c and hobi are the last ones alive and they leave the house to their kids and retire to a smaller seaside cottage #hobi only gets to live in it for a few weeks before he passes at like 80 #the mc and tae live for a few more years after that both of them with their dead mating marks on the sides of their necks #the spend most of their time with their grand pups of which there are 8 of one of which looks so much like namjoon that #tae in her haze of dimentia actually talks to him like he is namjoon #tae and the m/c pass hours from each other though like #maybe less than 3 hours #and live until they’re 91 years old

[hayaku14]

kuroba toichi you need to stay dead or im going to fucking kill you myself

#you sick son of a bitch #if you truly love your son you wouldnt be alive #it's bad enough that you basically left the mantle for your teenage son to take up but you actually being alive???????? #you just out there living your life while your son is destroying his relationships chasing after something that you started???????? #his very motivation is your death and it's not even real??? the utter fucking betrayal??? #and maybe being kid has kade him a better magician and has helped him find out more about himself #but he shouldve been able to have a choice if he even wanted to be kid at all it shouldnt have been a responsibility pushed upon him #AND IF YOU ARE FUCKING ALIVE AND YOU'RE JUST WATCHING YOUR SON RUNNING AWAY FROM THE POLICE WITH PRIDE INSTEAD OF GUILT YHEN YOU CAN #GO FUCK YOURSELF #Honestly the worst #also that theory that maybe chikage is travelling the world because she KNOWS toichi is alive and she's with her elevates this fuckery into #a whole different level #anyway go read cuethesun's tomorrow and the next day #good fucking food and bad parent chikage and toichi enjoyers will be pleased ;> #lol #dc prattles #as much as i want happy everybody is alive kuroba family #i need touichi and chikage if she knows too to feel the repercussions of their horrible parenting and i need kaito to be able to let himself #feel the hurt and betrayal that he is justified to feel even if he is happy that his dad is alive #but i dont trust gosho to handle that nicely if anything i think hes gonna just handwave it and wont address it properly #anyway my point is i just need more hurt and angry kaito also if shinichi is there im happy #sorry i sneaked in a kaishin i cant stop the brainrot unfortunately theres no cure 🤚😔 #ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED WITH BAD PARENT KUDOS OOOOOHHHH

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

When i was younger i often mashed together leaves to try and make “paint” so imagine FL seeing reader mashing together a bunch of plants to make natural paints and he copies them, making his own paint and painting alongside reader but his claws are too big to hold a regular paint brush so has to dip his claws into the paint to draw

-sleepy anon

oh oh OH listen what if what IF you and Foul Legacy get to travel around Teyvat in search of materials to make paint :D

you're an artist, yes, but the paints you makes are also in high demand due to the unique and vivid colors they produce, so whenever you're not working on a new piece you're usually making more paints, a very curious Abyss monster peeking over your shoulder. if the paints you're making are made of something edible like berries he absolutely demands a taste, but otherwise just silently observes what you're doing before wandering off. after a few minutes your ears pick up the sound of something crunching- Legacy's making his own paint!! he's trying to use sunsettias, he likes their sunset orange color, and you stand and bring your own supplies to sit beside him, fighting back a smile as you watch him dip his claws in the mixture and gingerly dot some of the color onto your skin in lieu of a canvas

it's not long before you're bringing him along on your trips to other nations for new materials, Legacy eager to explore and adventure and go anywhere, as long as it was with you. it's so wonderful to watch him rush off ahead, letting out delighted chirps and trills when he finds something new, something fascinating- his favorite thing, apart from making paints with you, is bringing you new supplies; seeing you gasp in awe and admire the hue and texture of whatever item he has cradled in his talons- crystals, valberries, nilotpala lotuses, sakura blossoms- all collected so you can make the loveliest paint for your work and for others. when asked how you manage to create such wonderful colors and pigments, you merely tilt your head and smile- "I happen to have the best assistant in Teyvat"

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #i think his strength would be very useful for crushing up any stones or rocks you wanted to use #he could just crunch them up and give them to you with a happy purr #OH my friend got me a narwhal plushie aaaaaaa #i named the plush tartaglia obviously hehehehehehe #also my head does not hurt anymore we love feeling alive!!! #short scenario #other's stuff #sleepy anon #chit chat #good evening

[justanotherfanartist]

I think we as a fandom are collectively sleeping on Carolina being raised with Jewish holidays. dude can you imagine her being reintroduced to them once she’s with the reds and blues maybe cus they picked them up as a found-family sort of tradition because of church and they continue them when he’s gone. her getting to relive the sweet nostalgic parts of her childhood with her new family. can you imagine her coming in and seeing all the decorations and food she hasn’t seen in years (this is ofc assuming they didn’t really do holidays on the MOI) screaming and crying do you see it do you see my vision

#she needs something happy her childhood has caused her a lot of pain already #im having some banger matzah ball soup rn and it got me thinking cus this stuff is the definition of warm and comforting simple food #can you imagine Carolina having that again for the first time in years and remembering maybe when Church or Allison used to make it for her #and now it’s the reds and blues doing the same for her and keeping a part of her culture and family alive andjshlfbsldm #im not Jewish myself so I had to do a bit of research for this so if I got something wrong about how holidays and observers work #im very sorry feel free to correct me or add on #rvb #agent carolina

[saintbleeding]

man since i have had any cats at all i have wanted three cats. and i have three cats. anddddd it rules. and they are all. very healthy and very loved and. what! a blessing. i love u my kitties..........................

#idk why maybe bc my rodent pets have been in threes? maybe bc having more cats than humnans makes them feel like. an unstoppable army. #which i do love #we got a feliway diffuser today and everybody is getting along well and being niceys. i love my babies!!!!!!!!!! #also we took beanie to the vet today and they were very happy w her health (she can get vaccinated next week!!!) (she is only five weeks ol #). but ya shes trucking well and tbh #im extremely proud of myself for that #because actually it's been a LOT of work not just to keep her in good condition but to keep her alive at all #and i have done that. and i am proud. and i have done it bc she deserved it #she is. my weenie beanie baby. :3 #not magnus content #saintkitties

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[sc3n3kitt3h]

IM LIKE IF A BOY WAS A MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL WAS A SCENE FAG

#SCENE ART #FUNKY COOL ART #T SLUR TW #F SLUR TW #CONTEXT: MY MOM CALLED ME A TRANNY AND A FAGGOT DURING AN ARGUEMENT WITH ME AND HER AND MY DAD #IT DOESNT REALLY BOTHER ME ANYMORE THEYRE DUMB AND CONFUSED AND THEY ONLY LISTEN TO FOX NEWS ABOUT ANYTHING EVER #AND THEY THINK MY BABY FOOD MADE ME AUTISTIC #SO THEIR OPINION ON MY IDENTITY IS STUPID AND WRONG #ANYWAYS I WAS KINDA PISSY ABOUT IT SO I MADE SOMETHING KINDA EZ TO FEEL BETTER AND GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF DOING DIGITAL ART #CUZ IM STILL GETTING USED 2 MY NEW TABLET!!!!!!!!! SIMILAR MODEL SO ITS NO BIGGIE BUT STILL #ANYWAYS IF U COULDNT TELL IM IN A BIG CAPSLOCK MOOD TODAY 4 WHATEVR REASON LAWLZ #ANYWAYS ANYWAYS YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! POSITIVE VENT THING IF U WANNA CALL IT THAT #IM NOT SAD ANYMORE CUZ I HAVE FRIENDS AND THEY THINK IM COOL!!!!!!!! AND I THINK IM COOL TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF AND ITS SO POGGERS IT WAS SO WORTH IT #AS IN EVERYTHING WAS!!!!!! #AND THIS IS VERY VAGUE BUT THATS FINE CUZ I DONT REALLY WANT ANYONE ON HERE 2 UNDERSTAND LOLZ. OR AT LEAST ALL THE RANDOS FOLLOWING ME #ILY ALL IDK WHO U R THO XD AND U DONT HAVE 2 KNOW MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE STORY #BUT I DO WANT IT TO BE KNOWN SOMEWHERE THAT IM VERY HAPPY AND EXCITED TO BE ALIVE DESPITE EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENED #AS IN EVERYTHING YOU ALL DONT NEED TO KNOW ABOUT #AND I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF AS MUCH AS I LOVE EVERYONE ELSE EVER EVEN MY DUMBFUCK PARENTS!!!!!!!!! #IM SO HAPPY IM ALIVE IM SO HAPPY UR ALIVE TOO :) EVEN IF I DONT KNOW WHO U R (IDK WHO IS AND ISNT READING THIS) #SO I HOPE UR ALL HAPPY WITH URSELVES 2 AND IF UR NOT I HOPE U CAN BE ONE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AND SPEAKING OF DAYS (AS IN 12AM FOR ME AS OF TYPING THIS) I HOPE U HAVE A GOOD 1 TODAY >:D <3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[haunted-xander]

Guiding Light

#(not ship btw) #i have So Many Feelings about their whole deal #kanon seeing right through fret immediately.... her wanting to help him get past his horrible coping mechanism of putting up a happy face #but being unable to due to the circumstances #but trying to do what she can anyway as little as it is #and her using her very last moments alive to give him the last push he needs to be able to start healing #just. just. #I Love Them Both Okay #tosai furesawa #fret #kanon tachibana #the world ends with you #twewy #neo the world ends with you #neo twewy #ntwewy #art #my art #xanders art #xanders haunting art #digital art #fan art

[crescentfool]

guys. isn't being alive so cool. there are. so many swag people in my life. some of them don't even know i exist but i know that they exist and they're doing cool shit and i look at them with fondness that's enough for me.

the people who do know that i exist are also wonderful and i cherish them so much beyond human comprehension its unreal to me that in another lifetime i wouldn't know such splendid souls but they are here with me now and i think that's all that matters.

and there's so many cool little creatures and animals and plants and whatnot and even if i don't know shit about them i think its so cool that somewhere out there these things spark whimsy and joy and breathe life into people that their brain is like a cozy little library of encyclopedia knowledge.

the way in which life can take us on so many fun journeys and paths even if it may not look like anything to us in the moment i think it's so fucking neat to be able to walk this path and that even in hardship there will be good for us eventually and stories to tell for getting through these things.

guys i love being alive im so happy i love life and i'm so glad that i can feel a depth of emotions because it means i can be grateful for so many cool things like this.

i hope you all have something to love in life too you are so epic and swag for reading this and i think you will absolutely be able to skyrocket out of the universe to do the thing you want to do. keep on keeping on fellow humans!!!

#lizzy speaks #i needed to get this out somewhere #today on lizz exists i am feeding my brain nutrients #i have been neglecting to give my brain positive messaging so i put myself in a rut on an accident :c #i hope everyone can be compassionate to themselves! you are so cool. tell yourself nice things u deserve it #there is so much joy in being niceys not only to others but to urself #i think being alive is so beautiful sometimes i feel so strongly about things it makes me want to cry from how wonderful life is #do i need to post this? no. but i want to. this is a moment of lizz brain to be preserved methinks #and it makes me very happy when other people can enjoy being alive. i sincerely hope the people around me and the ones that i may not be- #able to see in this instant can be happy too. happies for everyone!!!

[sysig]

You learn to live with it, learn to love it if you can (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #I 👏 want 👏 ZEX 👏 to be 👏 happy!! 👏 #I want him to be hale and hearty and living his best life!! I want him alive and well!! #Professional Take-ZEX-Out-of-Situations-er* *(Not actually paid to do this I just feel very strongly about my volunteer work) #Lol #To do with my love towards Max as well? I'll never tell (yes) #Thinking about a ZEX that managed to get back up on his feet with Dex et al's help and start to make a life for himself #Gets into human fashion and goes back to school and makes friends and kisses people <3 It makes me happy #It's not a complete blank slate-start over but if he was able to come out from under everything - persevere - I'd like to see what he'd be ♥ #It's also enjoyable to think about his rise out of pain into something neutral - and then from neutrality to something positive #Going from constantly being afraid and isolated and sad and lonely to a kind of passive disinterest #Very much the stages of grief #Coming up into acceptance - I wonder how isolated he would feel from his life as Admiral ZEX :( #Moments where he's still very far away. Our scars never really leave us they just fade little by little #And some things that he'll never get to experience as a human like depth perception and parallax haha #But still <3 Growing into what Max never had the chance to be ;; #Still not making his parents ''proud'' or whatever |P Dex just happy he's showing initiative and y'know - interest in existence #I do like the idea that he still calls him DAX - the one thing he can't give up completely - but it becomes something like an inside joke #A painful one but a kind of wink and a nod that they both Know #Things will never be the same but they're both taking each day as they come - together #Hhhhh even just little bits of happiness ;; I just want them to be A Little happy