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reblog for sample size !!

#big ol flamepoint ragdoll type beat #not magnus content

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Jon in episode 154: Please, Martin. I want to leave this place with you. I think I know a way we can make it out but I don't want to do it alone. Just take my hand, please, I...

Martin:

#BAD DEAL MARTIN. THERES NO DISCOUNT #described #q

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i love this cat so fuckin much dude

#bean tag #i love my other two kitties desperately as well but like. she would have actually died without us. she is 4x the size she was #when we found her #shes weaning to solids!! shes good at pooping now!!!!! shes had her first vaccine!!!! #that’s my babychild!!!!!!!!!!! #not magnus content

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[id: bean, a white seven-week-old kitten, asleep facing upwards on someone’s chest with her belly exposed. end id.]

behold the she

#bean tag #described #we settled on the name bean bc i have become very attached to it despite my intentions and my wife likes it #bc she is just such a bean

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celia themagnusprotocol and her beautiful son, jack the ripler

#tmagp spoilers

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sam and alice have such a beautiful relationship. it is clearly a dynamic based on long term deep-seated genuine care and intimate knowledge of each other, which is why it is just so heartwarming to see that they still manage to constantly say just bordering on friendship-endingly cruel things to each other because they have matching cases of late stage foot-in-mouth disease. <3

#theyre so important to me.................... #aliceposting #samamaposting #tmagp #tmagp spoilers

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the talented ms ripley

#sure ill reblog that #tmagp

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#society will never understand 😞 #tmagp

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yeah yeah parallels i hear ya but outta my way milf celia real

#tmagp spoilers #tmagp 13

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Have you played UPRIVER, DOWNRIVER

By Ella Watts

All you’ve ever known is the Great River.

Gather your crew and swear a magical Oath — to each other, to your ship, and to your goal to reach the Source of the River or cross the horizon of the Sea. No one has ever found the Source and no one has ever come back from the Sea. Journey to four locations along the River, each tied to one of the major arcana, never moving backwards and never lingering for more than 72 hours, but impacting life on the River all the same.

Your time on the River is short, but that it is insignificant.

Upriver, Downriver uses a combination of polyhedral dice and tarot cards to guide the narrative through four to twelve 3-4 hour sessions.

#looks pointedly at pine #hey. hey pine

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Martin: *does anything for Jon, ever*

Jon's default three responses:

#oh my god #described #q

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ok. years have passed and we've had some distance, so i'm finally gonna take the leap of faith that tma fandom is finally ready to hear me on this. let's talk about tannins.

161 was the first tma episode i heard on early release, and i felt the bit where martin declines wine and cites tannins was pretty obvious in its implications. cool, got it, say no more.

imagine my surprise when i was one of maybe three people i saw read between the lines there, in a fandom famous for red stringing--a fandom that immediately caught the much less obvious thread of ignition sources in the same episode. i'll spell it out: alcohol is an issue for martin.

maybe it just felt obvious because addiction is a pet issue for me--as it is for jonny, who has said everything he writes is filtered through a lens of addiction. i don't know if that's due to his own experience or a loved one's, and i won't speculate; i also don't know if martin personally struggled with drinking or just avoids it for fear he would, but alcohol would fit what we know of his family. his dad walking out and his mum spiralling into bitter wallowing and verbal abuse? i'd bet one or both of them drank, yeah.

on a basic level martin tries to decline alcohol, and that alone should have raised eyebrows given what we know of martin and, again, a fandom that dissects everything. we already knew martin "K" blackwood lied about his personal life and his family in particular, especially pre-canon, which is when this flashback took place. i was shocked that everyone took his flimsy excuse at face value with no further questions.

and the excuse is flimsy. martin turns down wine by--nervously--exclaiming tannins are "a proven headache trigger!" which sounds like trivia from a magazine cover and not the words of someone who actually has headaches--and it hasn't come up before or since. jon, confused, points out that tea, a drink martin consumes to a degree that is memetic both in- and out-of-universe, also contains tannins, and martin squawks a panicked, "what?!"

if tannins are enough of a concern for martin that he knew they're in wine and so avoids it, why didn't he know they're in his drink of choice? why does he still drink tea at the time of canon, and why doesn't he struggle with constant headaches from consuming 'a proven headache trigger' day in and day out? why, indeed, would someone avoid wine and not tea?

when sasha insists martin drink he caves and agrees to 'just a drop'. i imagine him pouring it in a plant, which admittedly he could have done if tannins really were the issue. i will say that i, for one, would be less likely to falsely agree to something that makes me physically ill than to a private issue that i'd rather not be pressed on any further. this scene also establishes martin's birthday was an ice cream party instead of the more traditional visit to a pub.

also, this scene was in the first episode of the final season, as one of three flashbacks that could have been to any pre-canon event in the archives. prime narrative real estate. not really time one would waste on establishing the important character context that martin has... headaches. which never comes up before or after, even regarding the week he spent in spiral town. but you know what is pretty crucial character background...?

it felt like a no-brainer, and yet all i saw was h/c fluff about jon attending to martin's headaches. and i hate feeling bitter about disability representation. i want folks with chronic headaches to feel seen and have fluffy escapist fantasies. i don't want to be mad about people portraying a character with a disability. but, guys? you got the wrong disability. jonny sent a clear message, and it went over fandom's head.

#oh this is so real ?? ive always hcd mart as having this sort of issue more latently #hence that art i did of him pouring spirits in a coffee mug during s4. but like #this is so valid and good i dig it #martinblogging

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im normal. except about that one thing. Oh and that other thing. and that third thing. and also that fourth smaller but still present thing.

#tmagp vague

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[ID: Three digital drawings of Teddy Vaughn from The Magnus Protocol on a gray background. He is a fat, bald, black man with dark brown skin and a lot of body hair and a goatee and small mustache. In the two largest images he is wearing small gold hoop earrings, a dark blue sweater, a gold button-down with the sleeves rolled up and the collar unbuttoned, brown slacks, blue socks, brown oxford shoes, and a gold watch. On the right is a full body drawing of him doing a little dance and whistling, and on the bottom left is a chest-up drawing of him lifting up a glass of beer with a pinky raised saying "cheers" but written as "cheeahhs~" and making an exaggeratedly posh expression with one brow raised and his eyes rolling back a bit.

In the upper left is a doodle of him wearing a dull yellow button-down, gold necktie, and gold and brown argyle vest as well as his earrings, looking back tearfully at Colin, who is a skinny white guy with a blonde ponytail and mustache and glasses, and who is also looking tearfully at Teddy. There is a little broken heart between them. end ID]

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teddy sillies cuz i like this guy. i ended up doing multiple from that poll. also i think colin and teddy maybe had a thing that ended when teddy left, they're silly guys

#TEDDYYYYYYY #also this is the second time im seeing mention of colin/teddy. hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me #tmagp #described #q

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The Amazing Devil truly knocked it out of the park with Fair in terms of love songs i mean its got everything. Domesticity, deep adoration, confessions of love when youre sure no one else can hear, a that's what she said joke, yogurt, genuinely dont think there's a more romantic song on the face of the earth

#it’s also just extremely real #cause u make me laugh when im actually really fuckin cross at u for something……. wow yeah. true

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wehhhhh my name is lelan and i hate it when saint does some recreational tulpamancy wehhhhhh

unironically have listened to mr bonzo more than once on purpose separate from the podcast and won’t apologise

#bestie im sorry but you would be AT my stag party #and he wants to play so jot that down 😤

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unironically have listened to mr bonzo more than once on purpose separate from the podcast and won’t apologise

#it’s genuinely good music well written. srry. but i am not