#feeling real TIRED of this shit already

[antianakin]

I'll never understand how some fans are so incredibly willing to just be okay with "it happened in a timeskip" to excuse bad writing lol. Like "oh yeah these two characters who have been enemies for like four seasons of a TV show had their entire reconciliation OFF SCREEN in the time skip between episodes right at the end so it works" or "oh yeah this character who was left basically broken had their entire growth and development where they came to terms with the thing that broke them in the time skip so it works" kind of stuff. Like that's literally the ENTIRE emotional climax of a story that's been building for a while and you're FINE with not getting to actually SEE IT???

Can't relate.

#fandom wank #i'm so so tired of people telling me 'well it happened in the timeskip' when i get annoyed about something #like a character doing a personality 180 #or a character suddenly changing their mind about something that was really important to them #or literal wholeass character development that's integral to this character's story #there are some things that can happen in a timeskip and some shit that CANNOT #like imagine if luke had NEVER confronted yoda or obi-wan about keeping the truth of his parentage from him #like we come into rotj and they're just fine and it's never addressed #like luke's just never mad and they never even have a convo about it #imagine how unsatisfying it would feel to have had that massive bombshell dropped without any real payoff to it #imagine never actually getting to see luke work through that particular revelation or how it impacts these relationships #and they were just like 'well it happened in-between movies' #it would SUCK #you NEED those convos in order to actually understand how luke fully comes to accept the truth about anakin #because even if he's calmer by rotj he's still upset by it a bit #only by TALKING to yoda and obi-wan does he actually get to the point where he has total faith in anakin's goodness #we HAVE to see that he's still frustrated about this and still working thru it #we cannot fucking skip it #i'm willing to accept that he's calmer about it due to the timeskip but not that he's already worked thru it all #there's a fucking difference

[thedawningofthehour]

Draxum is a fearsome commander and warring warrior scientist, but he's also a Dad and does exactly what Dads do.

#except my dad he used the names of our pets because he loved them more #this is major first draft shit the dialogue feels very clunky to me so there will probably be revisions #yes draxum uses gale's fake birthday despite knowing it's not his real birthday #he's gotten REAL into the roleplay #he probably does change it to donnie's real hatchdate after this because absolutely no one knows that besides him #i remember once i picked up my mom's phone to pull something up and she started giving me the passcode and was shocked when i was already i #“how do you know my passcode?!” my mother in christ it's literally about me #raph is tattling on gale because he set up draxum's computer to accept whatever password he types in btw #he got tired of draxum forgetting his password and needing his computer reset

[chrollohearttags]

rule #1: never take ashwagandha and get wine drunk 🧍🏾‍♀️

#cw sex talk #look away #don’t ask me why #cherry chats 🍒 #just don’t #all imma say is…my sexually active folks be weary #cause this shit not for the weak #bout to get tmi but we family here #like I knew they said it was supposed to help w sex drive and stuff #what I didn’t expect was my whoremones to be wilin like this #my libido is already through the roof so it just made me worse #if I was in a relationship #the only thing my man could do is get tf out my face right now #I think real dick would only pmo atp 😭 #I’ve never had it but I know it’d br useless #now I’m randomly thinking abt that woman who beat up her man for nutting after one round djdjfh #it feel good ngl but like imma be tired as hell #got a rose with a switch and everything this is crazy

[moodbroads]

i may or may not be questioning a whole new ahh religion like how are poeple this dumb but like not dumb because human survival instincts i just dont feel human as a whole but like not in a nonhuman way i just cant explain the major crowd herding happening right now and nobody noticing exept me

idk man its hard for me to put it into words

anyways have a lil speculative dude meant for changing gravity lolol

#goofy goof #doodle #i know this is just my insane declining mental health but #it just feels so real to me #and makes so much sense #i dont want to say too much #i cant even say too much because of the lack of english human words #im just 14 man why do i know this #im supposed to like lisa frank and gossip in highschool and shit #not lay in bed for hours at a time left alone with the horrors my mind comes up with #i like speculative evolution guy #hes cool #idek how i made him #i just thought #like #different things #i wanna go back in time #earth is so small #life is so small to me #i want bigger #but i know i will never get that #no human will ever get the exitement of discovering a new animal #because we have discovered it all already #our space rock is too small for me #i want to go out and see things the human mind and eyes cant even comprehend #im so tired of animal parts #i need more #so much more #never ending more

[confetti-critter]

The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired' #WEH. #I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf. #why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again. #but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess??????? #gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter* #that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

[daz4i]

bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

#i truly and sincerely hope they all die in a fire i am not even slightly joking #they promote violence and encourage an even deeper split between the people. bc it helps them #and it's disgusting. they don't care who they hurt as long as they get more power #actually they DO care who they hurt. they WANT to hurt people!! that's how they get more right wing voters!!!!! #they openly and proudly announce they want palestinians dead and out of their homes and it's sickening #(the fact this is WHY people vote them is even more sickening. they fact they were allowed to get this far is awful) #in addition to that they ofc want the lgbt community dead and they actively hurt women's rights bc how can they not :^) #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #sorry for talking politics. i try to avoid it but everyone on social media is talking about it. i'm so tired i hope we all explode fr #actually i'm not done i really need to vent lol #it really feels like there's no hope. the fact it keeps happening. and it gets worse every election cycle #and it's all bc fucking netanyahu is trying to avoid going to jail :^) i hope he dies today right now actually #for years everyone on the left jokes abt moving to another country but now it's becoming literally real #many people already HAVE left the country!!!!! like how fucked up is that!!!!!! that's how bad things are here!!!!!! #there's been rallies and protests for months now. i think nearly half a year at this point bc i remember it started in the winter #but obviously it doesn't do jack shit. bc why would it. if none of the right wing politicians literally get murdered - #- there is no real threat to them and so they have no actual reason to care. i sincerely think someone should take one for the team - #- and kill one of them lol i truly think this is the only solution at this point. #not to mention many of them are literally just. gross people. you hear them talk and can tell they have no experience in politics #they're all violent and constantly yell and this is how they appeal to the other violent people here #which is also why i think violence is the only way they'll understand. but alas if the left becomes violent we will be hated even more #ignoring the fact they have been violent this whole time yeah? they literally try to RUN OVER PROTESTERS #do you see why i have no hope here. do you see why i hate this so much. how can one be optimistic about this. everything sucks

[ozlices]

btw it is our little's chosen birthday today since it's also emu's bday & not a single person has wished them happy birthday even with them being devastated in our discord status so 🙃it'd mean a lot to them to come back from their sad nap to ppl wishing them happy bday

#mine #we're not saying their name or alias publicly on our acc that's pushing it #but like. i got permission from our primary protector to say smth bc they're genuinely devastated & we're all fucking pissed. #like they literally. told multiple ppl when they picked it out. & were already hurt when they didn't wake up to anything #& then made our status a vent & still. not a single person has said anything. like. idk. im rly pissed idek what to do w myself. #they've been put through so much bullshit this yr w being treated like shit & made to feel just as shitty as we all do. it sucks. #we're all pissed & hurt on their behalf & our own & each other's. i just. idk. #like they say u know who ur real friends are when ur hurting & it's like. damn not even our little has anyone who can be arsed #to give a genuine damn & say anything to them when they're crying on their bday they excitedly chose???? & looked forward to??? #they literally were begging & praying to get attention today but instead it's been mostly me & our protector out bc they're so devastated. #idk what to do or say anymore i cant even bring myself to say anything directly to anyone. #im sick of watching not even our little be spared from being treated like shit for being depressed considering the circumstances bruh. #ANYWAY... they're in the back of the headspace taking a nap w another protector to try to cheer up a bit. so. #wish them happy bday and wish them well smth idk just take the load off all this loneliness bc it's suffocating for ALL of us #but it def hurts them the most and it sucks. and im tired. and pissed.

[elfyourmother]

that rant I made a while back abt fandom treating haurche like a fridged woman is sitting on my spirit again

yeah I know ppl can write what they want, curate my space etc but if I blocked everyone who did this I would literally have no one to interact w in the ishgardian corner and this is exactly why it’s so frustrating

#some days I really feel like snapping and going into the proverbial wilderness #I just do not want to read see or perceive any more of this ‘he died to make my wol a better hero’ shit anymore #and that is literally all anybody does #I am tired of my favorite character being treated like this #like nothing in his life mattered #like HE didn’t matter #except for dying and making ppl sad and cry and be comforted by ‘real npc li’ #hell is being a fan of his in 2023 #im sorry I’m just inundated with this today and I was already in a bad brain space #negativity cw

[arcadequeerz]

Oh mind electric we're really in it now.

#Cade.Txts #i think about tht song all the time. #when they say: Someone help me / Understand what's Going on Inside my Mind! / Doctor I can't tell if I'm Not Me! #I felt tht shit #like man.................me too. #idk tht bit of lyrics has always kinda hit me hard specifically. #Anyways how is everyone doin. sorry I don't ;ost much anymore. #I am posting on my stimblog mostly now BHINJGFDNI if u wanan see stimboards check it out. #im doing a series of stimboards on my favorite pokemon #so far got two boards out already d:) #Wanna keep working on it but i should also make gifs of stuff. #been kind of stressed by shit lately thts unrelated. worried about bigfoot. #he's been acting weird lately. real sluggish n tired. his teeth are bad- n we need to take him to get them checked #but it cost like. 600 to just get a few teeth taken from our dog frankie. #s o. -slides stimboard commission post on my stimblog- /nf #dont like advertising it. feels weird making things for money but if he does need teeyh removed #idk any other way i could make money for it. #hes just got me worried. he's a old man- even tho i always forget he is- #thinking about losing him scares me. am probably rly over thinking shit- he's old course he sleeps n lays around a lot. #but im stil worried. #ANYWHO. stimboard grind 24/7

[ketavinsky]

honestly i thought that joining a writing group would hold me accountable to deadlines and motivate me to write more but instead im so constantly stressed i can barely sleep

#dellete #this is . #not a real world problem. im aware of that #criticism isn't the problem; criticism makes things better I'm surr #*sure #im just so tired.... i feel like every young aspiring novelist has half a book cranked out already while im still structuring workshopping #havent written a chronological set of chapters because i keep going back to the drawing board #im never doing enough and i know in part this is affected by the relentless depressive episodes #which im not managing well either #im just - fuuck! fuck! i need to achieve something! i need to achieve something good and #prove that im worthy #i have the ideas and the ... themes and the arcs to make something good here i think but it needs to be impeccably structured #and im wasting time and im never going to make it but i need to prove im good for something #and its difficult i just cant do enough. i just cant do enough even though i do fuck all with my life and i cant outrun the old anxiety #that it needs to be done ASAP because i might not have much time left #im stressed? im stressed and tired and i feel mocked and. and these arent even real world problems like jobs and bills and shit #im barely interacting with the world as it were and its so terrifying to me #its so disappointing. whatever

[blk-xniverse]

This year's just... yearing.

#So tired of folks thinking they can play in my face + continue to be disrespectful with little to no consequences in return #I am NOT the same girl I used to be #I'm not just gon sit on my hands + take it AND that infuriates them SO bad #cause it's like... 'who do you think you are??? you think you allowed to take up for yourself??? defend yourself?? set BOUNDARIES???' #and that shit blows bc then they feel like they can challenge me to see if I'll fold or not which is even more disrespectful on top of the - #- shit that was already going on in the first place #like if I gotta go through AAAALLL that for a weak ass connection then I gladly let it go but don't let me say that - #- bc then it's an even BIGGER showdown bc I be letting em know that if they gon keep disrespecting me + my folks then they need to get tf on #very simple terms imo but mfs want to fight + be passive-aggressive all day like.... ain't nobody got the time nor the energy for allat fr #and as soon as me and my sisters stand our ground we magically become the villains and the bad guys #and this shit is spread to whoever is willing to listen and this shit irks so bad sometimes ngl bc idfw ppl lying on our characters #this year has completely SUCKED in terms of my connections with ppl and that makes me real life not want to talk to anybody ever again bc #ppl always pretending to be something they not to get what they want out of us #+ as soon as we fall short/make a mistake/unable to do a thing then the mask falls off + they become the most disgusting person ever!!!!! #and it's like... who tf is this person???? this aint who i befriended???? hello????? #and the lamest part about all of that is that we are always 1000% ourselves so we automatically expect folks to do the same with us #and maybe that's our fault for thinking like that idk but at the end of the day the shit is wack #and I just plan on being in hermit mode for as long as time permits + until i get a sign/message to do something else #if anybody read all of this: thanks for reading + sending you so so so much love + kindness into your life! We for sure all need it 🫶🏾✨️✨️ #abtme #4:26 pm

[milkweedman]

Brand new migraine + hips have been going in and out of place all day = misery 😔

#have spun a couple nests at work already which is nice #but i am so tired and in so much pain and the brainfog is real rn #also realized that i yet again managed to schedule a whole bunch of shit for the same day #which is very soon and i will have to wake up super early and wont get home till very very late #auugh. etc. #also seem to be having... idk a depressive episode ? rly dont know what it is #only that i feel wholly apathetic towards everything and my brain sinks into this horrible mire of despair #whenever i give it half a chance

[feralnumberfive]

Good morning to every organ in my body except my stomach. Get your shit together

#went to a pediatrician for 5+ years for stomach issues and was on a medicine for 3+ of those years that sucked the calcium from my bones #just to try to help stop the pain only for her (very kind dr. btw) to really have no idea what was going on and just said it hurt- #when I was stressed (which is very logical for me) but it's such a weird issue #I was tested for celiac disease (which my sister has) but that wasn't it and if I get a small stomach virus it kicks the pain back up- #for weeks before settling back down. I can't have energy drinks anymore because the high amount of caffeine- #makes it feel like I've been punched in the stomach & I'm also cutting down on or completely cutting out red meat in my daily diet because- #my stomach doesn't seem to process it well and my stomach is already highly sensitive to greasy foods #the weekly stomach pain returned months ago and I'm getting real tired of it sometimes the acid reflux medicine doesn't even help either #and I've had symptoms of a stomach ulcer on and off but a lot more recently in the past year or two but I never got scoped to check for one #so now I have to go to my current doctor and talk with her and hopefully I'll get scoped but who knows I don't think it's an ulcer though #my stomach hurt while writing this it knows I'm talking shit lol #personal

[steampoweredskeleton]

My physio wants me to go outside and walk every day. I feel like I should have warned her that the likelihood of me having that kind of energy is incredibly small, and even if it's there, that energy needs to go towards shit like cooking before trips outside

#delete later #it makes me feel lazy sometimes that i hsve so little energy but at thr same time i know that its not my fault #trying to keep a good level of functioning in terms of self care like eating and washing and chores is already really difficult #whilst working full time. i may have the energy for every other day after the flat inspection. tonight i need to reserve energy for #tidying and shit before that. im so tired i legitimately had to fitce myself not to lie down earlier bc i knew I wouldn't be getting back u #idk what the fuck is wrong with me but this is how ive been since i was like 11/ #12 and had to lie down after school #i also keep teetering on the edge of a real freak out. ive been switched to probrct management again so im doing a bunch #of emailing abd communicating and checking. most of which doesnt have concrete answers and relies on understanding #whst ppl are trying to say in their survey responses. which i rly rly struggle with. and on top of that several things #have changed this week at work ahd its impacted my workload sbd responsibilities a lot so im trying to breathe theough it #but im incredibly frustrated and stressed and overwhelmed and having to spend at least a couple hours under weighted blanket each day #most ofbthe tine i dont require the weighted blanket its just nice. i require it right now. frustrating

[polzkadotz]

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#gonna be venting I guess lmao #this is what happens when you delete your twitter account I guess lol #I'm getting real tired of being me but above all of being someone struggling with substances. it's hard to be kind to myself #especially because I feel like I dont deserve it #I'm burying myself in debts I barely talk to my friends I'm trying to build routines but it all falls apart the MOMENT I relapse #I've self-harmed for the first time in years I've been more suicidal than ever and I can actually see my body breaking down #and it's hard to care about me cuz well. I've never cared about me. and every time I talk to the people I love I try to put on this front #bc I don't want to upset them or make them worry about how unwell I actually am #and honestly...... I'll be so surprised if I survive until the rest of the year. I honestly don't see myself surviving past my nephew's bday #and that's... two months away? how can it be two months away already wow time really flies when your a piece of addicted shit #not the best way to refer to myself but Oh Well lmao #I'm sorry I'm not a good person to be around friendos. And I'm sorry if my death is gonna affect you/traumatize you but like #me dying would make the life of a LOT of people better. and I think it'd make me happy to go out by doing a good deed I guess lmao #anyway #here's wonderwall

[burnhamandtilly]

having a manic episode today and I'm about to make it everyone's problem :)

#i already feel sorry for my dog because she keeps following me around the house 😅 #she's gonna get tired real quick #but I'm gonna enjoy this while it lasts #i have so much to do that I haven't done in months #gueaa I'll get at least some of my shit together today 😏 #anny.txt