#everything is scary and bad and i don't like it at all

[vermilionsun]

If you are still open for requests..how about Ais and Kuras (or pick which one) with a child/children?

Of course!! Don’t hesitate to send in more if ya want <3

Ais

Father figure of the year

✩ Pretty chill in general

He's the type of dad who will let you have a good time but also make sure you're staying safe.

✩ Always there to lend an ear or offer advice… or constructive criticism—

You can always count on him to give you straightforward and honest advice, even if it's not what you want to hear. Even though he may not always agree with your choices, you know that his intentions are always good and that he genuinely cares about your well-being. Ais may not show his emotions openly, but his love and support for his child would be unwavering.

✩ Seems to know exactly what to say in any situation.

Whether you need help with a problem or just want someone to talk to, he is always there for you (with judgment /j)

✩ Don't even bother to lie to him.

He can see right through any facade and will always know when you're not being completely honest. His ability to detect deception is uncanny, but it also makes him a trustworthy confidant. Besides, what even did you do that made you think the consequences would be that bad? (Or even exist?) Partying? Smoking? Drinking? Drugs? Sex?

✩ “Lame. When I was your age I was way worse—”

✩ CRAZY parent lore.

And he mentions it so casually every time. Like, he's seen (and done) it all before. Nothing seems to faze him in the slightest.

✩ He's the kind of guy who would drop everything to help his kid, no questions asked.

✩ On the other hand, if we're talking about babies…

He might be a bit (completely) clueless when it comes to diaper changing, feeding schedules, or soothing a crying infant. However, his willingness to learn and his dedication to being the best parent he can be are admirable qualities.

✩ He's the type of person who will spend hours researching the best parenting techniques and tips.

✩ He gets the hang of it pretty quick.

✩ He is incredibly patient to the point where it becomes a bit scary. 

✩ COMMITTED.

From reading bedtime stories to playing endless games of peek-a-boo, a cheerleader, a rock, a shoulder to cry on—he's all in when it comes to being a parent. 

✩ GIRL DAD

✩ If anyone dares to think about touching his child, they'll never see the light of day again.

Kuras

24/7 confusion

✞ This begs the question of whether the child would be half-angel.

Let's assume so, because it becomes ten times funnier.

✞ Absolutely  b e w i l d e r e d  in the beginning.

✞ “...Why does it cry so much?”

Another question that often arises is, "Is there something wrong with it that I can't see?" He's just… confused. He doesn't really understand babies. Kuras is used to living a fast-paced, independent lifestyle, so the idea of being responsible for a helpless infant is overwhelming for him.

✞ Incredibly good once he figures it out.

Despite his initial confusion and overwhelming feelings, Kuras quickly adapts. Kuras is always on call to help with midnight feedings and diaper changes, making sure the baby is well taken care of around the clock.

✞ “Uh… honey? The baby is floating.”

Cue Kuras calmly walking into the room and safely guiding the baby back to the ground with a knowing smile. It becomes a common occurrence in the household. 

✞ Eventually takes on the role of mentor, teaching the child how to control their powers and use them for good.

✞ Slightly strict

Believes in setting boundaries and enforcing rules to ensure the well-being and safety of his children. He considers discipline an important aspect of parenthood, as it helps instill good behavior and values in his kids. He may come off as harsh at times, but it all stems from a place of love and protection. Kuras wants his children to grow up knowing right from wrong and understanding the importance of structure in their lives.

✞ Comfort

He listens without judgment, allowing his children to express themselves freely. Kuras encourages open communication and fosters a strong bond based on trust and respect.

✞ Don't even bother to lie to him part 2

If you try to sneak out, he'll be waiting for you at the door, arms crossed and a stern expression on his face. You can try to pull one over on him, but chances are, he'll see right through it. It's better to just be honest and upfront with him, because he always seems to know what's going on.

✞ Consequences

Although Kuras seems disappointed at times, he knows that it is all part of the process of growing up and learning from mistakes. He understands that his children need to make their own choices and face the consequences of those choices in order to become independent and responsible adults. Kuras tries to offer guidance and support, but ultimately allows his children to take ownership of their decisions and experiences.

✞ Always puts his children's needs above his own.

✞ Being the doctor he is and a parent can be a challenging juggling act. Kuras, however, manages to balance both roles with grace and dedication.

✞ T r i p l e t s

✞ If anyone dares to harm their child, he will stop at nothing to protect them. Fuck repentance and forgiveness; Kuras will seek justice with a vengeance that knows no bounds.

#verewrites #ais #kuras #red spring studios #headcannons #ts #touchstarved #touchstarved game #touchstarved headcanons #touchstarved kuras #kuras touchstarved #ais touchstarved

[quatregats]

Okay yeah not to be depressing on main or anything but I am currently dying of the tension between all my closest friends being in [place1] but [place2] being the place where I know how to and want to actually live, where my entire network is, where I would rather have a job, and where I don’t feel like I want to die when I think about living there for the long term

#but also i miss my friends and i'm gonna be sad if the school year starts and i can't be there participating in things #but also living there is just like. I Want To Die. #probably just as well that i have the apt though that'll make me have to go back :') #which is good for my mental health in some ways because i'm really genuinely happy with the community i have there #but also like god i can't imagine living in a place that isn't [place2] #the idea of getting a job in [place1] is uhhh. making me absolutely miserable #and i literally have like 2+ jobs i could probably get if i lived in [place2] so that's cool :')))) #i should never have gone somewhere else for uni that was the worst mistake (it wasn't but it sure does feel like it rn) #sorry i'm just ummm Depressed™. as the kids say #everything is scary and bad and i don't like it at all #perce rambles

[transmascissues]

i totally understand why some people have read my posts about my recovery experience and been a bit freaked out by it if they haven't gotten top surgery themselves yet, and i also totally understand other people who have had top surgery wanting to reassure those people so they don't get scared out of having top surgery.

what i don't love is when, in an attempt to be reassuring, other people who have had top surgery say "well, my experience was much easier than this and yours might be too. don't be scared of having this kind of recovery, because you might not!"

if you had a super smooth top surgery recovery, i'm so happy for you and i'll be the first to admit that i envy you. i'm genuinely glad you got lucky! but i also know that, when i was preparing for top surgery, i wanted to know how to prepare for if i did have a rougher time and need more support, because being pleasantly surprised by a better time than you expected is much easier than being unpleasantly surprised by difficulties no one prepared you for. trying to find out how to prepare and being met with varying degrees of "don't worry, that didn't happen to me" was infuriating. the chorus of "that didn't happen to me" didn't do anything for me when one day post-op it took three people to figure out how to lift me into a sitting position without hurting me, and i never want anyone to find themselves in a situation like that totally unprepared. i worked really hard to get ready because i'm disabled and knew my body never has a chill reaction to anything, and i want other people to be able to prepare themselves too, whether they have a specific reason to or not.

not to mention, nothing in my experiences so far has been some worst case scenario that you should pray never happens to you. none of the things i've described in my posts have been complications; it's all just natural parts of recovering. every single time my surgeon has seen me, she's assured my that i'm healing perfectly so far. so yeah, things have been rough, but this isn't a horror story that i'm telling. it's not a warning or a cautionary tale. it's all totally normal and expected, even if it is more intense than some people's experiences. it just doesn't feel great to have my experience treated as something awful when it's all just part of the process.

the confidence that comes with knowing what could happen and feeling ready to face it is such a powerful thing, and i want people to be able to have that going into their surgery. i want them to be able to trust in their knowledge of what could happen and feel equipped to handle whatever comes their way. i want them to know that it'll be worth it in the end, even if it's hard for a while. i want them to know that top surgery is a wonderful thing and is worth doing, even if it's a rough experience, and that they can have a hard time and still come out the other side thrilled with the outcome. i want them to be able to look that fear in the face and say "yeah, maybe it'll suck for a few weeks, but then i'll be so much happier for the entire rest of my life, so fuck it, let's do it."

if i've learned anything over the past week, it's that top surgery is scary but it's also so worth it. if it would make your life better, go for it. i promise, the fear will be worth it. and honestly? a lot of the scary shit isn't nearly as scary once you've experienced it and learned how to work with it.

#idk like. if your experience wasnt like mine go ahead and make your own post detailing how things went for you! #but maybe don't come onto my post and talk about your experiences as if they somehow contradict mine #don't act like i'm giving the Bad Scary Info and you have the Nice Reassuring Info that can make it all better #all of the information is important. all of it #and all of it - the really smooth recoveries and the really rough recoveries and everything in between - are just part of the process #it just. feels Bad #i'm gonna leave this mostly untagged for now i just wanted to put it out there #top surgery adventures

[holocene-sims]

a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊

#holocene.txt #hlcn: story extras #consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :) #i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me #it really does mean a lot #it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/ #i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues #i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing #and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it #and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything #i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned #i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels #i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice #and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly #i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[da-proti-toku-grem]

my mom found this super detailed online test that helps you find careers that you'd probably like according to your answers (ofc we know that it's just a test and it doesn't mean you have to study what they give you, but i just can't find anything that i like and i'm running out of time, so we were like, why not yk) so, i took the test and after 30 minutes of answering questions you know what i got? biotechnology. the same career that i chose last year and the one i dropped out of in january.

idk if i want to laugh or cry tbh

#i mean it gives you more than one option but this was the one with more compatibility #and the other ones are also a big no for me so... #god idk what to do with my life #and atp i can't help but start thinking (again): did i drop out bc i didn't like the career or bc my mental health is SO bad #i think it's a combination of the the two bc yeah i probably would've enjoyed the few months i did at least a bit more if i wasn't depresse #but i REALLY didn't like it #tho then again i don't know what changed bc it WAS what i wanted and then i got there and i went NOPE almost immediately #and like i know your opinions can change and that is good that i dropped out if i realized that's not my thing #but i can't help but wonder if it is really not my thing or is my brain just not letting me enjoy the things i like? #bc every option i've been looking at to start next year is like... No #i can't find anything i think i might enjoy at least a little bit #i found this university that i gives you the possibility of doing the classes and exams online and everything #and that would be to study 'translation and interpretation' with english & french (& spanish ofc) #and since i'm already bilingual in english & i've a certificate in french (not bilingual but is smth) i would be able to skip some subjects #which is good i guess and i like languages but it's also like the opposite of what i've been doing my whole life bc i studied science in hs #and then again idk if i'll like it or not #and i know i won't know if i like it or not until i try it out and everyone is like 'well if it's not your thing then you drop out again' #which i mean is true i Can but god i don't want to go through all this again i need at least a bit of certainity or i'm gonna go insane #also i've been searching for so long w/o findinf anything that my parents are already saying #'well if you don't want to study you'll have to look for a job' #and if the thought of studying a carreer is already scary #if i have to look for a job rn (there are not many options here if you don't have a degree)...... #the thought itself makes me sick :/ #i just don't know what to do and i'm so fucking tired i just want to curl up in bed and not do anything for at least 2 months #(am i having another existential crisis after that panic attack 3 days ago or did the existential crisis not stop since january?) #(probably sooner) #(i guess we'll never know........) #venting #maca speaks

[grimark]

i like bad special effects. meaning not just old and outdated (which in a lot of cases were actually groundbreaking for their time, but i digress) but also low-budget or rushed or just kinda corny and poorly executed. i think it adds charm where a lot of more polished productions are lacking.

#i don't think this is a particularly hot take on this website #i think a lot of us here also appreciate special effects that are either outdated but were brilliant at the time #or are just flat-out bad by any standard but still enjoyable in a campy way #but like. when the untamed was popular on here i saw a lot of people saying like 'just ignore the bad special effects lol' #when personally i ADORED the special effects in that show #up to and including the shitty animatronic dog lmao #i think they really added something to the atmosphere and the melodrama of it all #and slicker special effects would've made it a worse show. #feels a bit more like you're watching a stage play if you can peek around the curtain in this way #which is very fitting for the sort of show it is! it's very theatrical and dramatic and everything is a big fucking deal! #and you have to make the active choice to suspend your disbelief and get invested #in the idea that this flagrantly fake dog puppet is scary #it's sort of like i'm being asked to collaborate in the story i guess? #if the sfx isn't perfect then my conscious participation is necessary to make it land #so the overall result feels more personal and meaningful because i had to commit to it

[visdiefje]

#girl help I am not doing well #basically. so the bedroom does not have the measurements that were on the plan #it is in fact significantly smaller and we're going to have to see if we can return stuff #which is fine and all. it's just tedious. it's fine. #but a switch has flipped in my brain from happy to oh no. #I'm just. dreading. everything. #dreading being there and not feeling at home #dreading being out of place #dreading going out of my room and my parents are Not there #I like the apartment. I know I do. I know. #but I can't feel it right now and that's. very scary #after having spent money I feel I just. want to be home #and I know that's not the solution because I've been feeling I need a change so bad #and I do. I need to learn it. I need to try. I need to grow #for at least a year #but god I do not feel up to the task at all #I want to curl up and hide #but my days here are so numbered that it doesn't feel safe. it feels like a timer ticking #and I don't want to do it there. I don't want to be alone I don't want it #aghhhh #at least I'm finally crying. it's been weeks overdue #r is comforting me the best they can which isn't a lot but I do appreciate it and acknowledge what they say is correct #bien rambles

[nexus-nebulae]

odd thing we've noticed. the less okay we are the smaller our active system gets

#like logically you'd think we'd get more members while stressed but we don't usually #we actually split way more often when we're feeling okay and alive #i think it has something to do with mental bandwidth #like when mental health bad we don't have enough mental energy to put towards the system #so we just. reduce a lot in size. to make the workload easier #like a few months ago we had about 100+ people active at once all rotating out frequently and cofronting a TON #and now we're down to like. three or four active the rest really only able to be active for a few minutes at a time #we're just too exhausted to deal with the chaos of so many people so it kinda. slows down a ton #it's hard to get used to when everything was So Loud before. its kinda scary sometimes #like damn. i cant just call Incredibly Specific Task Guy to deal with this task i really cannot do right now. that kinda sucks #but knowing that this is like. more bc of the fact that we Can't Deal With Much More Than This makes it a little easier #we're a bit like my current computer. shit ass RAM bc its got like 50 malware (illnesses) on it #and once i get a new computer (get a little better and more functional) i can get back to multitasking #side note my god my RAM on this computer is shit running tumblr and minecraft at the same time totally breaks it #like it makes the Entire Computer run at 10 fps it's Great #i'm getting a new one at the end of this month hopefully #and hopefully Actually Nice Thing Accomplished will also help brain a lot #also not having to stress about how annoying to use our computer is should help lmao

[bicuriousmuppet]

feels extremely isolating knowing i'd lose like all my irl friends if i spoke my mind on issues just once. like we have a great time just hanging out and i'm not going to have myself lose that again for some ideological bullshit but holy shit sometimes it makes me want to blow out my brainsss

#m #worse too cause i have extreme fear of being evil or gross or whatever so i constantly overcompensate with hours upon hours of research int #some random topic #and so i Should trust myself. i do everything i can to be on the right path. hell i DO trust myself! but it's so scary #i'm so scared all the time. oscillating like i have some sick insecure god complex #kinda on that note rn i'm reading “side by side: parallel histories of israel and palestine” #because although i have the set values of 'don't murder children and innocent palestinians maybe' and 'antisemitism is still bad' #i... don't actually know much about what's happening. and i hate the idea of only knowing online activism bullshit bc i know majority of pp #get their info from tiktok and linked cnn articles #sigh. yeah i'll stop now lol

[varjopeura]

.

#why must my brain be like this #just an absolute nervous wreck because there are Too Many things going on #not even bad things! actually they are explicitly GOOD things!! #a good friend of mine is probably getting a puppy (yay! a puppy! we love puppies!) #i'm maybe seeing another friend today (we like seeing friends! it's going to be nice!) #my workplace dnd group is finally possibly agreeing on a good date for a session zero (hangouts with cool people! roleplaying!) #aaaaaand because my brain is an asshole its response to these things happening simultaneously is Avoidance #going all 'let's cancel everything and stop talking to people you like. now go hide in the corner and cry' #like no! i don't want to! i WANT to be social and i WANT to trust that people can be good and not scary! #i just hate that waiting for good things to happen is so miserable every single time #sussitalk

[soubiapologist]

i don't expect any of you to understand the reference but alice cooper. from riverdale. is a little like if a loveless character was really really really fucking funny

#in that she a darkly realistic portrayal of Your Yes Your 🫵🏻 Insane Mom #i have never seen a more.... i don't want to say ''realistic'' because riverdale exists in this like. absurd parody dimension both-- #on purpose and on accident but like. #nothing that EMULATES the FEELING of having a Crazy Mom who has no idea she's crazy #and thinks she's justified in literally everything she does and is just like. a complete fucking controlling nutcase who is making-- #literally everything worse by pretending she doesn't have trauma #of course it's also very silly but rvd also wants you to take it seriously so it's just like having an (AWESOME) aneurysm the entire time #you have to have a very specific sense of humour to enjoy rvd if you like like. #sardonically sitting around watching increasingly absurd things happen to characters you have zero investment in other than laughing at-- #because they just live these deranged lives that are beyond parody and just like bitching at your TV for fun with like a friend then i thin #--you might like it. #like you absolutely cannot get seriously invested in the plot or characters if you want to enjoy it it's hard to explain #but it's also like kind of like loveless in the way that the fandom was originally people doing Shipping and then getting increasingly-- #annoyed when it didn't do what they wanted and dropping off #and in the process missing out on the craziest train derailment of all time just like absolute complete lunatic shit #and it seems like it keeps trying to self flagellate for the first like. half #and in riverdale's case it's REALLY funny and in loveless's case it's really um. scary (affectionate) #also like 99% of the people who watch rvd seem to not understand that it's supposed to be insane and 99% of the people who read loveless-- #miss that it's supposed to be HASHTAG SCARY #like rvd also exists in this weird dimension where you're supposed to think it's funny and they're trying to piss you off on purpose #but they're also trying very hard to like Discuss Social Issues and it end up very funny because they're bad at it but GOD It's so sincere- #while standing next to the campiest insincere shit EVER it's so fucking funny #meanwhile loveless's tone problem is like yun kouga is just a crazy person. #i mean roberto is also a crazy person but yun kouga is like a tortured crazy person. and he's like. the guy who would make glee crazy-- #person. does that make sense. #no one is reading this don't worry about it. smiles.

[running-in-the-dark]

a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)

#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have #heart disease. #scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it #but it's been years now so I don't remember the details #just that that's a thing apparently #and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that #do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :) #it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week. #like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭 #also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary. #like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and #yeah it sucks. #specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't #need to say it where anyone can see #it's embarrassing enough #though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about. #like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45. #it's so unbelievably exhausting. #but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :) #oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently #that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me #haha isn't that fun :) ) #ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very #well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part. #and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for #this long. so. guess I'm just fucked. #personal

[steakout-05]

important post regarding AI and Tumblr

i'm making this post just to make my followers aware that Tumblr is having a deal with selling user data to AI companies. as an avid AI Hater™ i'm incredibly against this decision as i think scraping people's data and using it to train models without them knowing is unethical. here's what to do if you don't want your blog to be a part of this:

go to your Blog Settings. on desktop, click your blog button and then click the 'Blog Settings' button on the right sidebar. on mobile, click the three bars in the top left, scroll to your blog button, open the menu underneath and click 'Blog Settings'.

scroll down to where it says "Prevent third-party sharing for [blog name]" and click the button next to it.

as an extra precaution i'm also discouraged searching for my blog from sites like Google and Yahoo as well. i hate the integration of AI into social media and i hope this AI integration trend burns and explodes into a million pieces.

#i hate ai #fuck ai #all my homes hate ai!!! #the only ai i respect is data soong and his silly lil weirdo family #if data were here he'd hate this #no but seriously i despise the integration of ai into fucking everything. i hate it. i hate everything about it. #it was funny when it was just dalle generating pictures of walter white delivering pizzas but now? #now it's just getting ridiculously unethical and really scary #i hope a really big set of laws are made that practically squash all of this #i hate ai so much i really do #do you understand how annoying it is to search something up only to see that half the results are just generated by ai- #-and have nothing to do with what i fucking searched up in the first place??? #i'm so sick and tired of seeing 50 ai generated ''cursed garfield'' images when i'm trying to search up garfield comics it's THAT BAD #i don't CARE if most of my posts are just stupid shitposts i'm not letting midjourney use it as training data for their stupid ai #i might actually just move over to cohost or something because i'm so sick of tumblr's decisions at this point #does this mean i might have to private my art? god i hope not #i want to keep this blog up for people to enjoy because i really do like the shitposts and art i post on here #but if this shit starts to get wild i might have to private it all #cohost is a little smaller and cosier and i like that so i might start reposting everything there chronologically #i would recommend that people make a cohost account and archive their stuff there because the platform seems promising #i hope ai explodes

[mishkakagehishka]

if i weren't the most absent-minded forgetful easily-distracted person in the world, i'd actually be so powerful. Instead i'm senile at 19

#that post that talked ab adhd forgetfulness and how scary it is bc you always live in fear of it worsening #still dk for sure if i have adhd or not but i do have the scary forgetfulness #like if i'm forgetting everything from things as small as tea to that as big as homework #i went to the shops yesterday i WROTE DOWN pasta and i forgot to buy pasta all the same #i set an alarm for myself to head to the post office and pick up a letter on my way home but i forgot to take the letter receipt i needed #for it. and it's like. Jesus Christ. i don't recall being This Bad a few years ago so is it gonna keep worsening? i hope not

[heart-bones]

I have been here one full day and I am already ready to go back to my apartment why am I like this 🙃

also please lord tell me what have I eaten that has completely ruined my stomach, I feel like I've been nauseous since I got here 😫

#i will get over it and be sad to leave in two days haha #i got to walk around the koreatown plaza out here and got snacks and milk tea w my sister #then we went to lunch w my parents 😊 #and grocery shopping #then lin left and my parents and i went to a few places for fun #we watched the last voyage of the demeter a n d everything everywhere all at once together #(finally seeing it!!!! it was great & loving and i cried) #(because of course) #my mom got up at one point and got dizzy she fell and kept falling and it was Really sudden and very scary #all the plants were knocked over and i was immediately screaming like an idiot #but i helped her up and we walked slow to the bathroom together so i could look her over and make sure nothing was too bad #she skinned her arm in a places - she's so skinny so it bled a lot which was also scary. #i may have immediately stress cried while i was helping with her and we sat together for a long time to talk #then my dad was So Upset so he had to vent #(i understand his frustration to a point but i also feel like he's holding everyone else to this standard in his mind - ) #(- of how they should “deal” with my mom having cancer - that my older siblings aren't “stepping up to help”) #(but he literally talked about my mom fading away and getting weaker every day like she wasn't sitting right next to him ???) #(and she was!) #i don't know MAN #i dont have things figured out at all but ot made me so angry and so sad #i know he is just feeling hurt and upset 🫠🫠🫠