#everything is going by too fast

[mis-calculated]

I'm so angry at myself for how little I have done in the first four weeks of this semester and every day I keep being like, "this is going to be the day that I reverse my path and start being a decent student" and then every day instead gets used up simply trying to survive

#i dont know how to dig myself out #i have so much shame and embarrassment that it makes me sick to my stomach every day #i just want to be a good and responsible student like alyssa so bad and i dont know how to get there #everything is going by too fast #all my teachers hate me #i cant breathe #why cant i get my stupid fucking brain to get back on track and stop flunking #i hate that all i can hear in the back of my mind these days is the voice of rob haskins telling me im a disgrace of a music major #im just so embarrassed at my existence right now #quarantine vents

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[linusbenjamin]

Prometheus stole fire from the gods and gave it to man. For this he was chained to a rock and tortured for eternity. Oppenheimer (2023) dir. Christopher Nolan

#oppenheimer #filmedit #cillian murphy #oppenheimeredit #henricavyll #usersilk #useranimusvox #jokerous #dailyflicks #barbenheimer #nikolatexla #this masterpiece was way beyond me. way beyond anyone else #think of a movie that everything about it is perfect #the soundtrack. the actors. the script. the atmosphere. #i don't remember if i ever watched a scene before where my heartbeat was that fast #there were more than 100 people inside and no one made the slightest sound and it was like i could hear every heartbeat #this was my first nolan movie. i couldn't go tenet (which was amazing too) but i'm glad i didn't bc this was the best one #mind you the only thing i understood at first sight was a scene about black holes in which i was genuinely interested before #you know the movie becomes way more fun when you actually understand it - not as a whole but also the details

[keepthedelta]

they put a baby in a kart and let him steer straight into the bushes

#insaaaaaaaane image #obsessed with everything about this #nico as the world's tiniest driver #keke with the slutty open race suit chest hair on display #the tiny baby helmet and goggles #the fact that nico really did steer them straight into the bushes because keke was going too fast for him #nico rosberg #keke rosberg

[luck-of-the-drawings]

!!! FLASHING LIGHTS WARNING!!! [IM NOT FUCKIN AROUND!!]

REACHED THE CUSP OF 'THIS MAY NEVER BE ABSOLUTELY FINISHED N IF I DONT SHOW IT NOW, IT WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY.' SO HERE, A PROJECT IVE BEEN ORBITING AROUND UHH SINCE 2021 OR SO.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #cw flashing lights #LOOORRD OF LIGHTNING SAAAAVE ME!!!! #RAAAHHHH I LOVETHIS SONG SO FUCKIN MUCH AND I LOVE GILLION SO FUCKIN MUCH RAAHHHH!! RAAHHHH!!! #BUT YES YES I HAD LIKE A WHOLE OTHER HALF TO THIS SKETCHED OUT BUT IT WONT FINISH COOKIN FOR A MILLION YEAARS!!!! #MAYBE SOMEDAY..... #ANYWAY. this is my first time actually syncing audio to my animations. normally i domnt know howww. #i animated it all in fire alpaca AND THEN i mixed everything in a pirated movie maker. it kinda uh. sucks. but its WHAT I GOT BAYBE!! #i relaly like how i animate swishy hair... i was inspird by eris from sinbad. i can only HOPE i got on that level w the watery flowyness #LIUGHTNING IS HARD TO ANIMATE TOO. I WATCHED ALOTTA VIDEOS ABSORBED MINIMAL TUTORIALS AND UHH I THINK I DID OKAY!! #better than bad!!! but i can still do better. eventually. ugh. FLASHING LIGHTS TOO HUH? U LIKE ANIMATINGB FLASHING LIGHT? #U LIKE MAKING THE BLACK N WHITE FLICKER RLY FAST UNTIL UR EYES BLEED OUT UR SKULL?? YEAAAHH YOU DO!!! #im also vry proud o the title cards i made at the beginning teheheheh. dependign on where riptide goes i MIGHT change it #BUT HEY THEORY TIME? I HOPE ONE OF THE GODDESSES COMES DOWN TO PILOT GILLIONS BODY SO THEY CAN BEAT THE FUCK OUT O THE OTHER GODDESS #WHO IS ALSO IN SOMEONE ELSES MORTAL BODY. GODS COMING DOWN TO WREAK HAVOC OVER PETTY DISAGREEMENTS OOOGH HOW FUN!! #GOOD ON YOU CHAMPION!! YOUR VESSEL HAS BEEN TRAINED TO BE STRONG AND HARDY. PERFECT FOR CHANNELING DIVINE ENERGY. #OHHHH WHAT A PERFECT WEAPON YOU ARE. NOW GO AND IMMANENTIZE A WATERY ESCHATON #PARAGON OF OCEANS WRATH I WANT TO SEE YOU DROWN THE LAND. DESTROY!!! EAT!!! BURN!!! RAAAGHH I NEED GILLION TO GET MORE POWER!!!! #ALSO in other news i uh. actually posted this onto twitter forever ago but forgot to post it here bc i can only post it from pc and BABY!! #IM NOT ON THE COMPUTER OFTEN! NOT ANYMORE!! NOT ANYMOREE!!! IM FREE BAYBE!! i used to be so miserable. sometimes i think abt that. #ANYWAY. pls enjoy. just this much took so long. i love makin the lil guys move.... ouh.... hava good day if u get the chance to.

[areyoudoingthis]

this week feels so uncomfortable to everyone for such a wide variety of reasons. the weird thing is that we're all feeling it, whatever our current issues with the show are. like, I love it so far because I'm easy to please and i appreciate all the work that went into it and how hard they've tried to work around the budget cut, but I still somehow feel deeply unsettled atm and I'm not even entirely sure why

#maybe it's the sleep deprivation #maybe it's the angst of everything going a little too fast and not knowing if we're gonna get a s3 #i think a s3 announcement would fix me actually #knowing that they're gonna have all the time in the world to work on their relationship and themselves #max fuck you pay your actors you dickheads!!!!!!!! #renew my show!!!!!!

[midnightskye05]

I feel like I’ve seen every single piece of Mizu/BES content on this app

#I’m going through everything too fast what am I going to do while I wait for season 2 #this fandom works so hard #blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #mizus wife #mizu fanfic #bes mizu #blue eye samurai fanfic #blue eye samurai season 2 #bes season 2

[ineffablebookgirl]

Um I just noticed while rewatching my "ugh good omens" fanvid playlist -- Aziraphale's not wearing a bowtie in the "You go too fast for me" scene, in the Bentley in the 60s. He's wearing a looser tie, like maybe an ascot? Still tartan, of course. But it's the only time in the 20th century he deviates from the bowtie.

I've written about the significance of the coat changing in the Blitz scene, and I have to think that this tie is meaningful somehow too. Aziraphale's look changes so subtly, every detail matters.

Maybe the more open collar signifies his deep vulnerability in this scene where he hands the holy water over to Crowley.

#good omens #good omens costumes #aziraphale #aziraphale's bowtie #everything is meant #you go too fast for me

[riodoesstuff]

i think 12 episodes would have worked better instead of 10, it would def fix the pacing issues the last 2 episodes have

#riosaysstuff #fionna and cake finale #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #everything was going by too fast in the last 2 tbh #along with some needed scenes that were just missing #<- marcy and simon talk

[willczek-art]

Remember that Rebels of the Outlaw Wastes fanmade trailer I made as my final school project???? Well, apparently people over at Nerdy Pup Games liked it enough to COMMISSION ME FOR AN ANIMATION FOR THEIR NEW PROJECT.

It's called Super Squad High, it's a boardgame about teenage superheroes and I DID THE TRAILER OPENING FOR IT!! :DD

✨>YOU CAN WATCH IT HERE<✨

#animation #board games #my animation #commission #animation commission #HOW IS THAT A REAL THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME #nerdy pup games #super squad high #i had my eye on this game since the Rebels trailer bc the art IS STUNNING and very much my vibe #teenage superheroes in general are literally the cornerstore of my artistic interests #so to say that this is a DREAM commission is an UNDERSTATEMENT #WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE THIS IS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED #now i need to actually learn basics of animation instead of being forever chased by deadlines and just making things up as i go #BUT I LEARNED A TON DURING THIS #CAN YOU SEE?? how much better this is than the Rebels one????? #still too fast bc i want to cram EVERYTHING in the very thight time limit i had BUT!!!!! #im beginning to see some animation potential in myself xD #ALSO BIGGEST THX TO BRATNIA DUSZA WHO HELPED ME OUT A TON DURING THIS!! would not have met the deadline if it wasnt for her THOUSAND THANKS

[whack-patty]

Here we go

Buster Moon meets a socially awkward yet well meaning private eye

#i probs wont be continuing this comic but the idea spins in my head rent free #also briefly considered adding her to the sneep snorp comic. but then she would've solved everything too fast #& we havent even made it to the illegal parts yet #i actually low key love ethans dog design im having sm fun drawing her?? what a babe #maybe she'll cameo in the bg for funsies #also?? this is good comic practice. im a lil rusty #ive got a couple more comic ideas for this au crossover in mind so maybe ill get some more silly practice in #before getting back to the main comic grind #ok here we go #sing movie #buster moon #ethan macgregor #earth day or space freaks #earth day/sing #furry #my art lol #incredibly self indulgent comics my beloved

[layla-carstairs]

Darius and Eda are going to beat Alador's ass when he shows up after the day of unity 😭

they specifically sent the kids to his house to get them out of the way so they would be safe, what do you mean you were personally flying them to fucking belos himself and now have no idea where they are.

#the owl house #please it's kinda funny ngl #all the other adults were doing everything in their power to keep the kids out of it #and fucking alador's just like #'you're gonna go save your friend aren't you 🤨 okay I'll drive 😁' #he did not even try to talk them out of it 😭😭 #i get why he made that decision but eda and darius (and the other parents too) #are Not #he's gonna need to explain himself fast 😬 #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #alador blight #luz noceda #amity blight #willow park #gus porter #toh hunter #eda clawthorne #toh darius

[bookwyrminspiration]

the reason lee and annie weren’t talking to each other practically the whole book is because the moment they started working together again they immediately accomplished like half a dozen tasks everyone else has been fighting tooth and nail for for months to years, that’s so funny to me. munda said guys i need a conflict stop solving things you’re both in time out

#the aurelian cycle #lee sur pallor #antigone sur aela #flamefall #lee: this all happens the evening annie and I start talking to each other again #like bro that’s like a while Revolution right there #no WONDER we’ve spent so long with your relationship being so tumultuous #it’s the only way we can keep from solving everything too fast #now that you’re on the same page #hopefully more permanently now #i am afraid of the challenges that will be thrown at you #since they will have to step it up to match you #also no I don’t think everything’s fine and solved it’s just in the moment things appear to be going right so I’m focusing on that #i have no doubt catastrophe is about to strike though

[mcdannowave]

#h50 9x21 #can't believe this #alex o'loughlin #steve mcgarrett #reaction gif #hawaii five 0 #[Inside McDanno's house.Nightime.Saturday]Steve could only smile and cover his face at that scene #Having just arrived.he heard at least dif beepings coming from the kitchen.one was definitely for the stove #From the living room he could see.His husband going all around their (tiny) kitchen. Acting like he's trying to run a restaurant #He knew was Danny was doing(or trying to).At work earlier they both forgot it was their 1rt date anni.And Steve didn't mind #They had a tough case and could celebrate other night.But Danny?Nope.He wanted something special for his SEAL #(even thought one of those things seemed like a burnt steak..along other unidentified smells that were in the living room already #Danny tried his best to manage all the full banquet he was trying to achieve when he finally saw that smirking man there at the door #''Okay.I know we said no celebration today.But.Today is important..okay?And i wanted to do something nice and...'' #He just pointed to the direction of the kitchen.almost as messy when Steve and Charlie does breakfast together for the family #Taking the tools of his hand.Steve just smiled down at Danny.that one that assured him everything was right #''Thank.You.For everything.Danno.I loved the day we decide to give us a chance.and tbh..i wanted to do something too'' #that's when the SEAL pointed to the living room.bags full of their fav fancy restaurant food #''How- how did u get that so fast in such short time?It needs weeks just to get a reservation and..'''..''Sshh.Let's just enjoy.okay?'' #He lead the blond to the living room. smiling all the time.He was happy to share that night with his beloved #[After so much eating.and now cozy in the couch]''I still don't believe u pulled that off.I'm pretty sure u payed a fortune for those'' #'Don't worry Danno.It costed just the food.I waited there myself to grab it.Just wanted to go home to you''He said.sealing w/ a kiss #And to be true.That night was great indeed.One that both wont forget #[4 hrs earlier.Fancy restaurant;Nightime]''So.to be clear.It would be a shame if my friends in the Health Inspection came here.Right now'' #''Bc wow.this place seems packed tonight!But i can't stop to think abt that hydrant being blocked.or those shaking bushes that may be rats.' #''Your order is being prepared right now. Commander''..''Thank you so much.Tonight is special.I don't know what i'd do w/o u guys😉'' #headcanon tags #mine

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Every bookbinding tutorial i found online: "DO NOT TRY THE COPTIC STITCH AS A BEGINNER ITS TOO ADVANCED"

Me who has only bound one book before and used a completely different method: "ehh it can't be that hard"

2 hours later

.....I was right. Its not that hard.

#its technically slightly wrong cuz i dont have signatures #im just doing one folded piece of paper at a time #which does take longer #but i was expecting that #doing actual signatures would have a. been way too thick cuz im using watercolor paper and getting them to lay flat wouldve been annoying #and also i wouldve had to pay a lot more attention to how the pages were actually laid out #and this project was already kinda overwhelming without that added in #im also combining methods a bit cuz im also gonna glue the spine with wood glue for extra support #and i also dont want the stitching to be visible #every tutorial was also like ''coptic stitch is great for exposed stitching!!!'' like cool story. not why im using it. gonna cover that shit #also finding one that wasnt in video form AND actually showed everything i needed to know was completely impossible apparently #i needed to know how to attach a fresh string when i run out cuz i always struggle with that in any sewing project #and generally need a refresher each time #and all the written ones were just like ''just make sure your string is long enough before hand!!! but not so much that it becomes #tangled!!!'' bitch im making a much thicker book than you. i cannot just use ONE string. it b #absolutely WILL become tangled if i make it long enough to finish the binding in one go. #yall are WEAK #my book is 3 times thicker than yours #i need to know how to attach a fresh string #the video tutorials cover that but i had to fast forward through most of it #im running out of steam for tonight (hence why im here and not working on it) so ill be finishing this tomorrow #was hoping to get this part done over the weekend but i ended up not getting a lot of the writing done on friday as i intended #cuz i ended up having to play tech support for my friend so she could update her sims mods

[cosmicmakos]

imagine holding your f/o when they need comfort from their lover (even if they don't make it known and/or try to deny it). they feel safe in your presence and can finally let their walls down and release all of their pent-up emotions while in your embrace.

#my favorite war criminal <3 would sometimes avoid letting herself let her emotions out #half the time its because her mission takes priority and she wants to avoid distractions and the other times she denies she needs it #when she first came back to the citadel after she died and got brought back she shoved all her emotions down when she saw me again #a friend of hers convinced her to go over to me while i was watching skycars go past in the market area #she came up right next to me and said my name quietly to get my attention - all i could do was stare at her confused #she started to stumble out what happened and to tell me everything but she started talking too fast and the tears made it worse #i pulled her close to me and told her it was a story for another time while she mumbled apologies into my neck #she held on to me like i was going to disappear into thin air #during the war she just refuses to give herself a moment's rest since the galaxy is depending on her to save it #she always tells me her emotions can wait and goes off on her next important mission #unless we're all alone between missions she won't let her emotions out as they could compromise the task at hand #if those conditions are met she finally lets her emotions out while i hold her close to me for as long as i can #corporate necromancer has a hard time letting her walls down and at one point it caused an argument between the two of us #she doesn't like/want people to see the vulnerable side of her #she thinks it'll make people think less of her or make her look weaker #she slowly opens up to me and after some time she doesn't keep her walls up around me #its hard for her to admit she wants to be held while she lets her emotions out but one of the times she did was before the o4 relay mission #oops only two characters on this one since i have too many thoughts on this #f/o imagines #imagine your f/o