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salemoleander · 6 months

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I think what you osserved about Cleo and Lizzie is a result of many factors.

Gender is of course one and a major one at that but it cannot be the only one as both Pearl and Gem have much more fandom characterization. Pearls characterisation especially can be attribuited almost entirely to Double Life.

There is also the factor there are a lot less females then males in the mcyt scene and that has always been a problem. But this means that there will always be way more discussion over man because there are so much more.

We should also consider that Lizzie did have a lot of characterisation back in the Empires s1 days that has been swept under the rug as she became inactive for long periods of time, she had a characterisation but this characterisation didn't even apply to the life series because she was never in it like the others, she missed 3rd life, Double life and Limited life which definitely didn't do her any favours. Mumbos characterization on the other hand still existed because he was much more active and when he was in hiatus his fellow Hermits kept reminding us about him... But Lizzie kinda dips for a while and then comes back and is never really mentioned.

Cleo always had the problem of being simplified as either chaotic arsonist, doting mother figure or talented artigian with dark humor... It's been since the 2020 that I have seen people discussing about her characterisation being basically cut down to one of these 3 personality instead of actually giving her actual personality. This was because newbies at characterization back in season 6 usually put either her or Stress as the nurturing mom friend in fanfiction who then other newbies took as inspiration and it kinda stuck around in a loop.

In a way one would need to analyze this problem at the olden days of minecraft content but then we would be here for days.

Putting most of my response under a cut because it got LONG.

To start, I will point out that "this is the result of many factors" and "in a way you'd need to analyze the origins of this, but we don't have time for that" are extremely common & toothless reasons to derail talking about misogyny (or any other -ism).

I do not think you are intentionally replicating that, but anytime an immediate response is "well it's not really ____-ism, and it's so complicated we could never hope to unpack it," that maybe isn't a useful addition to the discussion.

"[Gender] cannot be the only [factor] as both Pearl and Gem have much more fandom characterization"

I agree that gender is not the only factor, but I think going "well SOME women aren't as affected by misogyny so clearly it can't just be misogyny" is inaccurate. Also, if you look at Pearl and Gem's characterization - Gem is pigeonholed to a very particular type of cutesy fighting-princess role, akin to many YA protagonists of late.

Pearl does have more complex characterization from specifically Double Life, but the majority of analysis & attention only started going to Pearl after she won. As DL was airing, much more attention was paid to Desert Duo Redux and Team Rancher and Impdubs etc. I also think the fandom has taken to holding up Pearl as a token and going 'but look, we can write women! Look how many emotions she has. She's sad and likes murder and dogs."

I agree, it has been a problem forever (I've been watching MCYT since 2012. I watched Cleo & then False join HC. Believe Me, I Know.) But you'll notice my critique wasn't [All Life Series Dudes] are talked about more than [The Much Smaller Number of Life Series Women]. My critique in my post was 'if Lizzie's death happened to a man I would see more posts about that other hypothetical person" - comparing 1 person to 1 person.

We should also consider that Lizzie did have a lot of characterisation back in the Empires s1 days that has been swept under the rug as she became inactive for long periods of time, she had a characterisation but this characterisation didn't even apply to the life series because she was never in it like the others, she missed 3rd life, Double life and Limited life which definitely didn't do her any favours. Mumbos characterization on the other hand still existed because he was much more active and when he was in hiatus his fellow Hermits kept reminding us about him… But Lizzie kinda dips for a while and then comes back and is never really mentioned.

So this paragraph is definitely where you lost me. Your point seems to be 'Lizzie had characterization in S1 of Empires, and we're forced to borrow it because she's so inactive since then, there's nothing to pull from'. Allow me to share a screenshot of her series playlists here.

Let's leave aside the question of why people would pull from Empires S1 characterization when Last Life happened in the middle of it, and would evidently be a more logical place to pull from for Life Series characterization.

She had a whole Afterlife series, and she wasn't inactive after that! She had only 6 fewer episodes in S2 of Empires than in S1. It is patently ridiculous to claim that Lizzie is just so inactive and absent her Empires S1 characterization is necessary to fall back on, when Mumbo has better characterization despite vanishing for an entire calendar year to go biking. That is sexism.

Cleo always had the problem of being simplified as either chaotic arsonist, doting mother figure or talented artigian with dark humor… It's been since the 2020 that I have seen people discussing about her characterisation being basically cut down to one of these 3 personality instead of actually giving her actual personality. This was because newbies at characterization back in season 6 usually put either her or Stress as the nurturing mom friend in fanfiction who then other newbies took as inspiration and it kinda stuck around in a loop.

I'm glad you agree it's a problem! I can definitely see how that problem originated, but I've seen new fandom members for the Life Series - who don't watch HC or read HC fic- duplicate the same problems. I think at some point it's less a fandom-specific issue than a replication of the social division of women into Virgin, Whore, Bitch, or Mother categories, with no ability to imagine women complexly outside of those boxes or continuums.

This fandom seems to think moving the women in and out of the 'Bitch' box is the same as complex characterization*, and we've all just kind of gone 'okay' because the other option is nothing about any women at all. But we can and must do better, because I have to believe we're capable of writing and paying fandom attention to women as people.

*This is where DL Pearl generally falls to me, and why I am dubious of claims that she's well characterized. I think much of the fandom equates cruelty or sadness with good writing/interesting characters. But she's still fundamentally defined by the questions "How nice or mean are you? Are you in a relationship or alone?"

#salem tag #fandom criticism #life series #slsmp #secret life #lizzie #cleo #salem meta #I was trying to stay open minded by you absolutely lost me at the lizzie is inactive so we have to make her a sister bit

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checkmatein3moves · 8 months

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since i've been so inactive for so long and i feel bad about that especially with how many people still support me, i've decided i'm going to give everyone on patreon a short (min 500 word) drabble for their MC. just message me there with a description of the MC and whether you want it with a love interest, friend, or even a side character doing something, sfw please! (example: MC's name is maven vinteren, they are tall and tend towards cynicism, i would like you to write them arriving late to a meeting in a bad mood. Or anything. heheh)

extra note; i was originally going to include nsfw but given the inability to verify ages 100%, i’ll do fade-to-blacks or implications instead if a request warrants that.

#patreon #i wanna write what the people want. might try and go back to drabbles upon request after too?#get my brain unmushed

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wanderingelvis · 9 months

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lil update... 🧚

so......

lately my anxiety has been bad, due to a lot of personal reasons and as a result, the stammer/stutter i've had since i was a little girl is a lot worse than it usually is. i've had a lot of speech therapy throughout my childhood to help me get it under control but sometimes i go through phases where it comes back a lot worse and i find it really hard to get my words out and this summer has been one of those times

it's a bit of a vicious cycle because my stutter gets worse because of my anxiety but then my stutter causes me more anxiety but i'm trying really hard to try to make it better

i've always loved writing because i can't show my speech issues through writing (even though i've noticed that pretty much all of my reader characters in my elvis fics trip over their words at least once in each piece of writing lmao) and writing really helps me actually

i know i've been a bit inactive here this summer but i wanted to post why that's been the case, i've seen my speech therapist a bit more than usual and it's just been a bit chaotic but i've received so many lovely messages and requests and i promise to post more, especially as it gets colder and i don't have to be out as much (autumn is my fav!!!!)

that's it really, i suppose i wanted to vent and talk about it because it's not something i normally do... who knows, maybe i'll write a fic with a reader that struggles with her speech, i know elvis would be patient with her

#that was a lot #i feel nervous just posting lmao #stuttering #confessions #elvis #elvis presley #elvis fandom #elvis fans #elvis fic

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calenheniel · 6 months

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WIP preview.

So, I should preface this by saying that this is NOT a continuation of any outstanding fics I've already written, like In Fantasy or Winter's End - this is a new shorter piece I'm working on, four (?) parts planned in total. Since I've been so inactive of late, I wanted to share a draft of the first part with y'all. It's going to be a dark, tragic, R-rated sorta story, A/U, and - of course - centered on Hans x Elsa. No title as of yet, but I'll think of something eventually.

Thanks especially to @nap-hime, whose recent fic it became a nemesis is stirring the old Helsa flames in me!

See more below the line.

»»————-　❈　————-««

I. DAFFODILS

“I’ll have that princess bedded and wedded within a week!”

Hans recognizes Adrian by his boasting, not bothering to look up from the flower bed. Another voice guffaws - probably Lucas, he thinks, from the brassiness of the laughter - but he keeps his gaze fixed on his task as he listens, kneeling in the grass.

“You’re pretty, Adrian, but that’s a stretch⁠—even for you. What makes you think she’d open her legs just like that?”

Lucas snaps his fingers for effect, making Adrian chuckle. “You know the girl’s been cooped up in that castle since her parents died. She’s probably starved for affection.”

“And what about the other one?”

“You mean the disinherited older sister?” Adrian asks, snorting. “What about her?”

“Well, aren’t you curious to know what she looks like?” replies Lucas. “No one’s seen her in years.”

“Yes, I suppose, but she’s merely a curiosity at this point,” dismisses Adrian. “The younger one is the heir apparent. And now that she’s finally started to accept suitors, everyone’s after her. But I intend to be the first one in Arendelle.”

Hans snips with the gardening shears loudly enough to catch their attention, looking nonchalant when they turn to stare at him.

“What are you doing here?” Lucas snaps, glaring.

Adrian spots the shears and chuckles. “Why, he’s picking flowers,” he sneers. “Hoping to curry the King's favor with a spring bouquet. Isn’t that right, Hans?”

Hans shrugs. “They’re for mother’s grave,” he replies simply, gathering them into a bunch as he stands. “Daffodils were her favorite.”

“Like I care what flowers your whore mother liked,” Lucas spits, scowling. “You can join her under the ground, as far as I’m concerned.”

Hans’s look darkens as Adrian steps between them, tutting. “Now, now, Lucas⁠—that’s not very nice, is it? Even if he is a son of a whore,” he remarks, “he’s still our baby brother.”

His smile does not reach his eyes. “Now run along, Hans. You needn’t concern yourself with the affairs of your betters.”

Lucas grins. “I think the ladies-in-waiting are missing their favorite doll for tea.”

Hans grips the flowers a little harder, but only for a moment⁠—and then he wears a small, polite smile that makes even Adrian frown as he bows.

“I’ll take my leave then. Be well, brothers.”

Adrian scoffs and Lucas mutters as Hans walks back towards the palace, never looking behind him.

His smile is frozen in place.

»» —— ««

He slips down into the kitchens with his usual ease, unnoticed by the guards, ignored by the cook and most of the servants.

They’re used to him, he supposes, or perhaps he just blends into the scenery⁠: another piece of furniture to be occasionally dusted and polished.

He finds his target rummaging through the pantry, and makes his entrance.

“Freja, my dear,” he says from behind her, “you’re just the girl I was looking for.”

The servant turns around with red cheeks that make her pale skin seem to glow in the dim light of the space, her brown eyes wide and flustered as he takes her hand in his and plants a kiss upon it.

“Your Highness!” she exclaims in just above a whisper, glancing over and around him nervously. “It’s almost dinnertime. There’s too many people around⁠—”

He squeezes her hand, making her squeak. “I promise I won’t be long,” he replies, smiling as she fidgets. He withdraws a small silk pouch from the inside of his suit jacket, and places it in her hand. “These are tea leaves from England⁠—Prince Adrian’s favorite. Have Chef Jensen serve it to him at dinner.”

“From England?” she asks, interested. “How did you get it?”

“I have my ways.”

She opens the pouch, sniffing its contents, and frowns. “This doesn’t smell like any tea we’ve made before.”

“It’s a new blend,” he says, closing her fist around the packet. “Named after Charles Grey.”

She blinks, bemused. “Who’s that?”

“The Prime Minister, dear. But that’s beside the point. You can switch out the usual tea with this. Chef Jensen won’t notice.”

Freja bites her lip. “I don’t know about this, Hans⁠—”

He draws the girl in that much closer, holding her hands warmly in his, and she trails off as she melts into the sensation.

It’s too easy, Hans thinks as he watches her face go flush, and her eyes darken with want⁠—but one chuckle from him is enough to bring her back to the present.

“Now be my sweet girl,” he murmurs in a low voice, “and do as I ask. I promise you’ll be well-rewarded for it later.”

She pouts, but eventually manages a smile as she stuffs the pouch in her apron pocket.

“Fine. But no surprises next time, you hear?”

He nods. “Deal.”

She pauses to look over her shoulder one more time before tiptoeing her way back into the hall, and flashes him a hasty wink before making herself look busy with a pile of plates by the washbasin.

He watches for a while from the shadows, still smiling.

»» —— ««

Tea is served alongside Chef Jensen’s famous apple cake, greeted with applause by Hans’s brothers and their wives.

“It’s been too long since you’ve made this,” remarks the king as he takes the first bite. “You’ve outdone yourself, Jensen.”

The others at the long table follow his lead, and their chews and groans of pleasure resounding throughout the great hall remind Hans chiefly of a herd of masticating cattle.

The chef bows, looking pleased, and the king’s steward gestures for the servants to begin pouring the tea.

Adrian is the first to sniff his cup with interest. “What is this, Jensen?” he asks between mouthfuls of cake. “It smells different.”

“Smells the same to me,” says Oskar, another of Hans’s brothers, from across the table. “Some kind of dark tea.”

“Ceylon, to be exact,” Adrian corrects him, sipping the brew and tucking his black hair behind his ears. “But I wouldn’t expect someone with your pedestrian tastes to know the difference.” He blinks as he sets the cup down, ignoring Oskar’s scowl. “This really is something else. Quite lovely, actually.”

“I don’t know what you’re on about,” grumbles Oskar. “It’s the same damn tea as always.”

“Enough, you two,” barks the king, silencing them. He dismisses the chef from the hall. “It’s unbearable to think we’re all related, sometimes.”

“Well, most of us, anyway,” says Lucas, smirking at Hans; the others chuckle at this, some coughing into the remainder of their wine to hide their amusement.

The king doesn’t spare a glance at his youngest brother, turning his attention instead to Adrian at his side. “Is everything ready for your trip tomorrow?”

The younger man nods, his bright blue eyes blazing with excitement. “Yes. We’re heading out at sunrise.”

“And not a moment too soon,” Harald mutters into his tea, making the brothers on either side of him, Erik and Frederick, chortle.

Adrian shoots them a frown. “Laugh all you want, but soon Arendelle will be swarming with princes from all over Europe. Getting there first is the best chance I⁠—” he pauses, catching the king’s wary eyes on him, and swallows, “⁠—we have to secure it as a permanent ally.”

“What can they even offer us?” scoffs Niels, the second oldest. He shrugs at the king’s dark look. “You know I’ve been against this from the beginning, Magnus. Arendelle is little more than a glorified fishing village with some nice scenery, as far as I’m concerned.”

“Then it’s a good thing this doesn’t concern you,” snaps the king. “What they have now may be of little value, but the potential is great.”

Adrian grins, and clinks his teaspoon against the cup. “Indeed, Your Majesty. Potential that must be tapped.”

The wives all titter with feigned amusement while half their husbands guffaw, and the other half roll their eyes and grumble.

Hans alone neither laughs nor mutters, and when the table grows quiet again, he takes the opportunity to stand and raise his glass to Adrian at the other end.

“To your safe journey,” he says, smiling. “May you sweep Princess Anna off her feet.”

His brothers and their wives look uneasy at his toast, glancing between themselves; but when the king stands, raising his glass, the others follow.

“To Adrian, and his success in Arendelle,” he says.

“To Adrian!” they shout, and finish off their wine.

When they sit down again, their tension is dispelled, and the conversation resumes. Only Adrian remains perturbed by the sudden tribute, eyeing Hans with a wrinkled, irritated brow, and he drinks the rest of his tea more quickly than usual.

The youngest prince pretends not to notice, picking at the rest of his apple cake with practiced calm.

»» —— ««

“I swear it was that blasted tea!”

Adrian moans in-between heaves, his body weak with nausea as he leans over a vessel hastily provided by a servant in the parlor. His other brothers watch the scene from a distance, murmuring amongst themselves, their expressions torn between pity, amusement, and disgust.

Hans slips in amongst them from the back, keeping his own face impassive.

The queen sighs, patting her brother-in-law gently. “We all had the same tea, and no one else got sick. Perhaps you just caught something⁠—I hear a spring cold has been going around.”

“Nonsense⁠—”

The prince’s protest is cut short by another bout of retching, and the queen backs away, holding her handkerchief to her nose. She looks at the king with concern.

“Dear, I don’t think he’ll be able to travel in this shape.”

He frowns down at Adrian, sighing. “No, I don’t think so either. The journey will have to be delayed until he recovers.”

“What!” Adrian cries out, his arms shaking as he grips the sides of the vessel. “You must be joking, Magnus. I must go at sunrise as planned!”

“Don’t be ridiculous,” the king snaps, watching as his brother writhes with the urge to vomit. “I won’t have you showing up at the princess’s doorstep looking half-dead.”

“Yes,” cracks Harald. “That would defeat the point of the whole enterprise, after all.”

“Quiet, you!” barks Magnus, frowning. He motions to his steward, who quickly jogs up to his side. “Bring Chef Jensen to my study. I want to know if there was something in the food that could’ve resulted in this.”

Adrian pants as the steward rushes out of the room, his gaze traveling up from the Persian rug beneath them until it finds Hans in the crowd of spectators.

“You!” he accuses, pointing a trembling finger at him. “You did something. I know it.”

The others all look between Adrian and Hans quizzically, while the latter demonstrates surprise at the allegation.

“I⁠—”

“What utter nonsense,” Magnus interrupts, scowling. “Leave him out of this.”

“But he was listening to us in the garden earlier!” Adrian objects, looking to Lucas for support. “You remember, don’t you? He was spying on us.”

Lucas, on the receiving end of a glare from the king, swallows. “He was just picking flowers, Adrian. You said so yourself.”

“But he⁠—he’s jealous!” Adrian balks, glowering even as he grows more wan. “He’s trying to take the princess for himself!”

“Don’t you hear yourself, man?” the king rebukes, sighing. “What would the princess want to do with him? He’s nothing.”

A grin twists and grows on Lucas’s lips. “He’s right, Adrian. She wouldn’t bother wasting time on the Unlucky Thirteenth.”

The room is filled with laughter at this pronouncement, but all is quiet in Hans’s mind save for the beating of his own heart, a steady thump in the night.

He smiles at the last, if only to himself.

Yes, he thinks, if only there was someone out there who could love me.

#helsa #frozen #frozen fanfiction #wip

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youredreamingofroo · 2 months

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once again coming back to apologize for my inactivity, I've not only been depressed but also burnt out of tumblr 🫠 I haven't been motivated to check tumblr and haven't really cared (as much as I love it here) to just reblog and wtv. Today was a really hot day (for me) and if the rest of the week or month looks like this, then definitely do not expect anything from me (especially as we ease into spring and eventually enter summer), hot weather is my mortal enemy and it's like im fighting demons nonstop whenever summer/late spring rolls around so... yea.

on top of that I just haven't used my laptop in a couple of days LMAO after the play on Saturday, I was absolutely knocked out for all of Sunday and the last two days I've been playing red dead redemption 2, which I've really been enjoying 🙃🙃 which means eventually when I get back to tumblr will probably be rbing rdr2 stuff lmao

cut is just me rambling about the next two games I'm planning on playing after rdr2

also I currently have a line of games (and by line, I mean 2 games LMAO) I'm seriously looking forward to playing on my Xbox/Laptop-

First game is skyrim, I LOVEDDDD playing it on my switch, but I haven't played it properly for sooo long, but I recently saw that skyrim is free on gamepass and will definitely be installing it on my laptop 🥹 Granted, my character in skyrim is veryyyy op and it'll be upsetting to have to restart but whatevs! I just have to do what I always do and power thru battles that are intended for higher levels- and also grind pickpocketing cuz I can NOT live without that skill LMAO

Second game is a well-loved game of mine, ARK, I've played well over 500 hours on my phone and well over 250 hours on my switch (which ofc I enjoyed infinitely more, but nothing beats the nostalgia of mobile ARK LMAO), and when I TELL you I was elated to see it for free on gamepass, I mean it cuz I was SOO giddy, of course I know rdr2 will take bloody forever to finish (at the rate I'm going) but I'm just so excited to play it, especially since I think all the expansions are free as well, which means I can play genesis without paying for it (since I bought the other expansions on my switch- aberration FTW btw)

#anyways! my little life update i suppose #i feel bad letting this tumblr die down #but life is life and such means that i cannot exist on tumblr 25/8 like i used to #on a diff note. i wont be posting anything about rdr2 cuz im just too lazy #and its on my xbox so trying to get screenshots from point a (xbox) to point b (laptop) will def be too tedious for me #i have to say that i am NOTT a controller savant. ive always been better at playing on keyboard and mouse #so trying to play a game like rdr2 on a controller with barely any grasp of aiming on controller...#yea its just SUCH a fun time for me 😞😞 usually i never have aim assist on but with rdr2... i have to have it on to even figure out where-#-someone is cuz i can barely bloody see with how slow the aimed sensitivity is #“you can change i-” I DID. ITS ON THE HIGHEST SETTING AND ITS STILL TOO SLOW FOR ME 😭#im not even bad at aiming or finding ppl or wtv. i had a 2 or 3 K/D ratio on cod mobile (i was a mobile gamer for so long 😭)-#so again its just that im not well versed in using a controller cuz i normally do nott have the problems i do on keyboard and mouse-#-that i do on controller #yapping

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lycorim · 2 months

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Update

Hey y'all, I know I've been really inactive lately, especially with posting art. As of right now, it has been about half a year since I have posted a piece that I put more than like 10 minutes into, and that's because I've been in a pretty major art slump lately. Idea-wise and motivation-wise, I've fallen off since October, though I could see the signs of a slump even before that. I have a nasty habit of comparing my "success" (whatever that means) to others, and when a slump begins that only gets worse (cue a self-maintained downward spiral, etc etc). It happens. It's far from the first time for me, and far from the worst. I think I'm past the crest of it now, fortunately.

For those of you who sent me requests, you are not forgotten! Though extremely belated, I fully intend to finish all of my requests in the near future (and reminder that my ask-box is always open)!

I'm not going to be posting any more were-sigils stuff for the forseeable future. If you sent me an ask about it, I will respond privately, but that AU has really run its course and I'm ready to move past it. I don't own the AU, obviously, so if you feel so inclined to use the idea, go ahead! I'm very happy it resonated with so many people, but my time with it is closing.

#personal

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colorlesschristmastree · 5 months

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I was wondering who ran the justfeysand acc? it’s no longer active & i loved that account for us feyre girlies 😭 or queerincrisis too who i used to love. i’ll never forget when of the coolest people deactivated from fandom and their name was hotdiscodauce ..wherever you are hotdiscosauce feyre girls miss you. cant even blame people for saying “fuck this” lmao. i love feyre too much to crumble though so i suffer thru the toxicity of this fandom just to ride for my girl !!

the only thing that could make me inactive is if she doesn’t do shit in hofas while nesta’s mid self gets a pov while also being randomly paired with bryce when really that should be feyre. if the pregnancy ends up as a plot device to sideline her or the bargain i know ill be pissed and leave. especially if she has no cute scenes with bryce. just bc they aren’t that similar doesn’t mean i want to see bryce with nesta and bryce of all characters. and it better not just be rhys in the spotlight for hofas with amren sjm since only they know the language

Hiii! So sorry for responding late to this but I actually have the answers to your ails! Justfeysand was ran by my sweet sweet moot who has just become a little busy and less interested in SJM recently. Fear not though my dear anon for she is still here in the form of @moonfyre-s!! Aggressively defending our high lady Feyre and also giving us some darklina and miscellaneous content.

And the lovely aqueerincrisis is still here as well!! You can find them dishing out their hot takes on @acourtofcriticalthinking! Dw nonnie, our love for Feyre will always be there even as our interests and lives change :)

Honestly I'm very aware of the fact that I haven't been as active lately and I feel really bad about it, I still do reblogs and such but I just haven't been making as much original content recently. I've been trying to cut down on the anti content I post here and keep more of my criticisms in the Feyre server, I don't have a lot of energy to actually argue on here like I used to so I just talk my shit over there. Once cc3 comes out and I get Feyre crumbs though I swear I will be back to yapping, I just need more juice for my inspiration to come to me.

Some people in the Feyre server and I might be rereading the series after we've all wrapped up cc3 though so I'll def make some content during that. :) And I completely agree with everything you said, I don't really care that Nesta is going to be talking with Bryce as it is just a bonus chapter and I'm of the belief those genuinely aren't that important and only exist for marketing and to possibly build some excitement about certain things, I just hope that during their brief time in cc3 all of the acotar characters Feyre get treated well and we get some interesting scenes from them.

I'm not really a fan of cc3 theories that put one acotar character as objectively more important than others in the grander scheme of the SJM multiverse. I think they're all just cogs in one large machine and all these theories saying "X character is actually going to be the key player because of Y reasons!" is always silly to me. Tbh I'm not really a huge fan of the acotar characters becoming things outside of the context of their own universe/stories (if that makes sense)? Why can't they just be helping Bryce out? Why must one of them secretly be the key to everything? Or the Mother? Or the CC gods? Or a prince of Hel? BLAH!

anyways I got off track! It's so sweet that you noticed those two blogs were missing and they were both very touched when I told them I had an anon reach out to inquire about their wellbeing. You're a sweetheart!

#my posts #ramblings #cc3 #cc3 thoughts #feyre #pro feyre #pro feyre blog #self identified toxic feyre stan #acotar #sjm

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derangedthots · 1 year

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Life/Blog(??) Update:

hello again my darlings💕💕

i know it's been a couple weeks since you guys heard from me(i keep doing a disappearing act on you fjsks sorry about that) and i know i've worried a few people. i finally felt like i had enough mental/emotional space to address everyone again - however long or short this period of activity ends up being - so i'm here to say i've been dealing with some stuff in my personal life that's kept me from being present on this blog. my hopes are that i'm coming to the tail end of The Current Life Mess™ but if that doesn't end up happening, i wanted to at least leave some sort of 'official' explanation here.

regarding CTF, i'm still very much working on it so there are no worries on that front. obviously the next chapter/s update is gonna come later than what i'd originally planned (april-may? who was i kidding omggg) but hey, that's life🙃🤷🏻‍♀️ trust me i'm not happy about it either (very cringe behavior from me being this late ugh) but i wanted to be transparent abt the delays bc this community has been nothing but kind and generous and patient and i didn't want to leave you guys hanging dry just completely clueless about everything🥹

in the couple weeks i've been inactive my askbox has filled up again and i'll try to get to answering those very soon. thank you again to everyone for being so patient with me, i appreciate every single question/comment/rant very Very Much😭💕

on a final note, and perhaps the most important thing out of this whole post - there's a good possibility that i'll be privating Fire Made Flesh and Courting the Flame in the next few days. all this stuff around AI/ChatGPT has been making me anxious for a while. the amount of entitlement that's been increasingly pervading creative and/or fandom spaces is very concerning to me and it should be concerning to everyone else if it isn't already. i haven't encountered any problems (that i know of) with my own works or from any one of you lovelies(💕💕) but all the same, i've come to a point where i don't feel comfortable risking it. i know making my fics available to only registered ao3 users doesn't completely prevent this from happening, but i'll take any stopgap i can right now until the OTW does smth about what's happening. i might change my mind in the future and make FMF/CTF publicly available again for a short time (ultimately that is how they can get the most visibility) especially when i update CTF but, for now, that won't be the case. i'm mentioning this for transparency but also bc i know not everyone has an account and i wanted to give you guys the time to take whatever measures you need to have access to the fics, whether that's making an account or just downloading them. i also wanted to mention it bc i know not all of my readers has a tumblr/knows i'm on here so i thought you guys could help spread the word. (i'll be adding a short mention of this to the ending author's note of CTF ch 2 as well don't worry)

wanted to say thank you to everyone again, i love all of you and i hope you're healthy and happy♥️💖 stay amazing my darlings💕

sincerely, your wife😚❤️‍🔥

#important #life update

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thunderxleafart · 8 months

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Hey y'all! You'll never guess who got sick immediately after getting over being sick before!

That's right, this gal! xD Though thankfully it came and went quickly so I'm feeling better now!

All joking aside though, September has gone exactly like August did. And unfortunately I've just really not had the motivation for art. I've been in a depressive slump as of late, not just with art but in general, so I apologize for being so inactive. :( Though I have been able to doodle a few things here and there, I'm not ready to post any of that yet, if ever lol. It's mostly just comfort doodles and experimental stuff to try and get my groove back.

But I do still wanna at least try to keep this account alive, so I dug up this piece for y'all!

I actually drew this a good while ago now, I just didn't feel confident in posting it. But I was pretty happy with it, and still am, so you know what? Screw my anxiety, I'm gonna post it anyway! xD

Ever since I was little, I've always had a soft spot for Shadow and Silver. And I really like them as a duo! Their dynamic has a lot of potential. Especially since they've honestly both lost so, so much, and both of them absolutely need a hug because of it. So why not let 'em hug each other? :D

So here they are! ^^

I wanna thank y'all for sticking around while I try to work through personal stuff, I really do appreciate it. ;; And here's to hoping I can get back into the swing of things soon and get back to posting my silly lil blorbos! xD

But that's all for now! And as always, thanks for looking everybody!~ ^w^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Shadow & Silver (c) SEGA Art (c) Me! <3

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hammercarexplosion · 4 days

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Hi hi, I wanted to ask you about something that your blog's been making me think about. Way back in high school my biology teacher made a passing comment that it's better for humans to get sick instead of try and prevent sickness since getting sick helps build up genetic resistance to illness. From what I've learned, while he's right from a purely biological view, it can pretty quickly veer into eugenics territory. Though it can be tempting to do things like pox parties, ultimately it's dangerous since you don't know who's immunocompromised. If someone's immunocompromised, then the whole getting sick to build immunity method doesn't work for them right? So instead of putting people in danger by purposefully infecting them with live strains, we created vaccines with inactive strains that mimic being infected. But because germs are always mutating, especially viruses, these vaccines aren't 100% effective and need to be updated. So then what is the most humane way to combat illness while still helping develop future generations' genetic resistance? Or should we be focusing on disease eradication instead of genetic resistance? I'm asking you cause I like your opinions and you seem to know more about medical issues and their interactions with society than the regular person. Obviously this is a loaded question, but I'm more specifically thinking about how a society that prioritizes health and cleanliness for all would work, or if it's even possible on a global scale. It feels like we're stuck at vaccines, and considering their overall efficacy, it feels like we need to keep moving forward instead of pretending that vaccines alone will fix everything. Idk, what do you think?

There's no real basic way to address these issues because what you're describing is the problem at the core of immunology and epidemiology. Because our immune systems are not muscles, we should do everything we can to prevent them from facing infection so they work as well as they can for as long as they can. Any viral infection can have long-lasting effects on your cells, organs, immune system, brain, and even genetics. It's best to use non-pharmaceutical means to attempt to eliminate disease in general. This is the only tried and true method of public health that works on a societal scale. We cannot rely on personal responsibility or the corporations that provide our healthcare. There need to be clear reccomendations and support for those who are sick. Vaccines are useful and should be used whenever possible, but no vaccine is 100% effective even though we act like it. Only through changing our behavior and beliefs around hygiene can we hope to keep everyone as safe as possible.

Basically, we cannot achieve public health in the late-capitalist system of government chrony-ism and profit maximalization. We will need socialism AT BARE MINIMUM to ensure the culture and services needed to support true public health procedures at a societal level.

(This answer becomes more complex when we start discussing other diseases such as bacteria, prions, or parasites with different vectors such as skin-to-skin, insect, and waterborne.)

If you don't follow my covid blog (@covidsafehotties) you should check it out. This topic comes up somewhat regularly since H5N1 is now infecting cattle across the globe and we gotta talk about zootropic transmission and other public health concepts.

#asks #anon

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chahnniesroom · 24 days

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Even if the Hanahaki fic won't follow the usual guideline most fics in with AU do, I'll still enjoy it. I literally enjoy all your works, or at least the ones you have posted here. For example, in 'From this day forward' I adored the fun dynamic you've set up between the pair, a certain playfulness never leaving it, no matter how sweet things became. Or in 'For better, for worse', how both the Reader and Minho were held responsible for their poor relationship, and how despite everything, Minho realised that he still cared for his wife. Don't let me mention 'For richer, for poorer', because that one just left me with glistening eyes. I felt for the Reader, as someone who most of the time makes things for others as gifts. It was all just thought out well and portrayed even better on your part, I loved it. And 'In sickness and in health'? It was just the fluff I needed after all that angst, Seungmin's soft side shining brightly that he likes to hide most of the time. (I won't even mention 'Tenderness' here, as I already rambled about it on my blog enough, haha.)

What I'm trying to say is that you portray emotions very well in your stories, captivating your audience. I'm sorry for this impromptu essay, I hope it won't intimidate or overwhelm you. I just want you to see the beauty that you create and that there are people who absolutely adore them, no matter how active or inactive you are here :)

-that one anon (who could be called 🦦 anon, if that is alright with you)

🦦 anonnnnn 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i'm sorry for the late reply but you literally left me speechless. like no words could express how much this means to me, i am so so thankful 🥹🥹 i like most my work too, enough that i am willing to post it, but have found myself being really insecure about my posts, especially since i took such a long break and tend to get caught up comparing myself with others. i discourage myself easily, which is something i know i need to work on. i know i've said it before but messages like me are really what motivate me to keep writing, otherwise it would be so easy to just let my drafts collect dust or never even make it to the point of becoming a draft. writing is an extremely long process for me and it is an honour and still unbelievable to me that my works have been able to reach other people and affect them in this way.

thank you so so much for leaving such a lovely and wonderful message.

#ask #🦦 anon #from this day forward #for better for worse #for richer for poorer #in sickness and in health

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ferelbasta · 7 months

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Hopefully back for good

Hey everyone, you might not recognize me but it's actually @bigbluebeast talking here. I wanted to start anew here since I've been so so inactive over on my old main account, plus alot about me has changed so I feel a new account is necessary.

As seen by my username I go by FerelBasta now, I still have the name That Blue Otter here since they're one of my sonas/selves, my otter self ( Beast) and my Daeodon self ( Ferel ), there is a third self but thats more personal. I also now identify as non-binary and asexual and go by they/them and he/him, just these make me feel alot better in my own skin. I've also have been searching within regarding my religious beliefs, but I won't get into too much of that until I decide to talk more on it, basically alot about myself has changed regarding how I was on this website may years ago...

I want to apologize first off to being so inactive... everywhere really. My personal life has not been the best due to certain things going on that really prevented me from sitting down and just getting some art done how I used to do back then, mainly starting in 2016... I've been over this countless times it feels but a rather drastic event happened over on twitter that caused my derailing from creating any artwork, I became very nervous and scared to really post much of anything thanks to what happened and looking back all these years nothing has changed. My depression and the events had caused me to shy away from creating and just watch from afar, I knew I was always bad with starting and then just stopping, but things were taken to a new extreme now. The past four years especially didn't help anything regarding my healing due to finding a job where I was harassed and then... something awful happening between me and a family member near the end of 2020, which did lead to my discovery of me being non-binary but.. I still wish things went better... I ended up finding a different job in the middle of 2019 but ever since the pandemic hit I wasn't able to function at that job anymore.. plus even more harassment from co-workers doesn't help either. Though despite all this.. it soon seemed like something was going to change.

Near the end of February of 2021 I was talking with a good friend of mine over the phone, she and I have known eachother ever since we met on twitter in 2016, and in 2019 we started to talk again after two years of silence from both ends. I remember it was that very evening she admitted she felt in love with me.. and honestly I felt the very same way with her <3 I had started to feel some sort of adoration for her after we started talking on the phone, just hearing her voice and bonding with her made me feel things I never really felt before, sure I had puppy love crushes on some friends before but that was because I'm a rather cuddly and affectionate person to begin with, but this time? hearing she felt the same way just set things in stone.. I had found love. She then came to visit in March of that same year and we've been inseparable ever since, yes we do have our moments but what couple doesn't have them? We've been growing stronger and closer as time went on and I feel thanks to her I felt like life was worth living.. like there are things to look forward to and do.. just having someone like her with me makes me feel so happy and thankful to be alive.

I believe in late 2021 I returned here with a new blog relating to help myself cope with things going on in my life and just with life in general, but due to certain things happening I have again fell off the horse for maintaining said blog. I won't get into too much because it's very personal but I'll just say that I was struggling with where I stood regarding certain things around it. I have since settled and stood my ground on where I am with it all and I'm feeling alot better about it, the same could also be said about my religious beliefs, I grew up christian but I never ever identified with being one due to... well... more personal things but I recently discovered a religion that I felt like I belonged in, Kemeticism. I'll save most of the info for its own post but to just make it brief, I have always loved the culture and history of ancient Egypt ever since I was a very young kid, and I had a awakening of some sorts after coming to terms when a game I play had a Egyptian themed event going on, now it really feels like I found where I truly belong...

We now come to when I'm writing this entry, the start of my new dA account and some tumblr as well! I just last night fixed what was going on with my tablet because it wasn't working properly which prevented me from making any new art, that and I lot access to photoshop CS5 due to my laptop needing to be updated and... the program was outdated for the OS... ofc... BUT! I still have Clip Studio Paint so until I get another art program to do the coloring and touch ups in, thats what I will be working with. I will also be posting my traditional sketches here and tumblr just so I have stuff to offer to everyone, this will be a rough journey of relearning how to not be afraid and just get to making things that make me happy, but it seems like I'm on the right path

Thats all I have to say for now, but until next time, I hope to see everyone again soon,

Thank you for reading <3

#Ferelbasta #ferel talks #new post

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fanficallergy · 4 months

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Hello! This is the admin from thgfanfictionlibrary (backup account for the library)! I just wanted to let you know that I responded to your reblog question/concern under the active authors part 5 post. Below is the reply:

Hello! I'm sorry that you felt you were deliberately excluded from the lists-that is 100% not the case! I'm sorry to hear that you're undergoing cancer treatments and that people have been nasty to you online as well, that is truly terrible on both fronts. I pulled these lists directly from the page of authors I created (which you are present on!) BUT I missed the "a" for active in your tagging for the listing despite having you as an active author! I've remedied the issue and you are now tagged as an active author using the tagging filter on that page. I've also added your listing to the current "active authors" post that is in my draft for when I have ten active authors. Again, I'm sorry that you felt you were excluded on purpose, that wasn't the case it was simply a coding error on my end! Sometimes things just slip through the cracks when I'm coding and I don't pick up on it!

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The page system I'm referring to is "Libraryofauthors" in case you wanted to take a look at it. Again, I'm sorry that you felt I had intentionally excluded you for one reason or another but I did have you listed, it just slipped through my coding when I was inputting the tags into it. Sorry about that! Let me know if you have any further questions, comments, or concerns and I'll be happy to update anything! (Also as an FYI I haven't gone back through after making that page to update the information I've added since late August of 2023 so if it says something is incomplete that is now complete or if your popular fic is different now that's why! I'll be updating probably mid-march when I have a little more time!)

Thank you for addressing this. ^_^

I figured it had been a mistake and not a deliberate slight, but it still felt not great, you know? Especially since there is a huge stigma where people stop reading your fics or commenting when they think you're inactive. Comments and feedback are the only currency we as authors receive and the feedback which often encourages us to write more (especially if it is more than just a "write more!" or "When's the next update!") can really feed our ability to write and to write with joy such that we want to share our work. Without that feedback, people give up. Decide the effort isn't worth the reward and really do stop writing in the fandom or at all.

Feedback matters and authors who are considered inactive get less feedback. People can have very good reasons for not updating and it can make them feel unwanted and unwelcome if they get tagged as inactive in their fandoms. In my case, I've been fighting 3 different, unrelated cancers since 2021, and while I've updated and written in that time, most of my energy has been devoted to my health and work so I can pay for health things. I know of other authors in this fandom who are going through major deaths in the family (parents/spouse), domestic abuse, or new parenthood all of which eat into someone's ability to update/write.

I kind of feel that the authors should make that distinction themselves (ie. state that they are on hiatus) or the length of time between declaring someone as inactive needs to be lengthened... A year feels short to me unless the author has declared a hiatus or died... because I do feel that death does put a damper on someone's update schedule. ~_^ From chatting with @rosefyrefyre we tend to consider a fic/author on hiatus if they haven't updated since 2020, and we allow for longer delays because of COVID, Real life, and the world going to hell right now.

I also understand that this is YOUR blog and you can decide what works best for it. I don't get to dictate what you do do on your blog. ^_^ I do appreciate you doing this in your free time, it has to be a lot of work. I also appreciate that we, as authors, are often easily upset or can get defensive. So dealing with all of the personalities can be tough.

So once again, thank you for addressing the error and correcting it. I do appreciate all of the work you're putting into this.

#on writing #what defines inactivity #cancer mention #on fandom #the hunger games

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