#emotional sylvain

[art-bloob]

Post training stretching, all very innocent of course.

#fire emblem 3 houses #fe3h #felix hugo fraldarius #sylvain jose gautier #sylvix #blue lions #dimidue #my art #fanart #art #artists on tumblr #illustration #digital art #sketch #doodle #they’re that kind of couple to me. the stretching goes just a little too far and in front of everyone bc they’re preoccupied #my byleth will always look vapid no emotions ever

[yellowocaballero]

i’ve typed and re-typed this paragraph in my head several times but. just. i am at a complete loss with how i should say anything. your writing is compelling and genuinely cried (when i thought i’d never relearn crying again). on a slightly more articulate note - i love your sylvain. so principled to the end. kudos in the truest sense of the word.

Thank you so much this is so extremely sweet!! ;-; The story really hit at some personal topics for me too...everything I write does, but in a few chapters it'll be most obvious.

Having feelings really is the worst thing in the world. I'm the type of person who's tried many times in in the past to carve out my heart. You have to be a little jealous of Byleth - of her own little world where nothing hurts, where sadness and pain and loneliness cannot penetrate. She can't love, but she can't feel the pain of a broken heart. There's far more pain than joy in the world, so it really seems like she has the better end of the deal. But I think the only way to survive is to be saved, and you have to save others before you can be saved yourself. And in order to save others you have to live in everybody else's world too, where pain and heartbreak is inevitable. It's like forcing yourself to place a hand on a hot stove, and to do it again and again no matter how often it hurts, but doing otherwise means you aren't living at all. You're not saving yourself or anybody else. We only have one life, and I'd rather live it.

Byleth's a fictional character. She can live 20 years without emotions, but we can't. Any attempt to carve out your heart will ultimately be unsuccessful, because we'll always reach back out to touch that stove again. So long as there's a billion assholes out there like me making very small and stupid little attempts to save people, I think we can't lose the ability to cry - I mean, you reached back, didn't you?

UM I HAVE A LOT TO SAY ABOUT SYLAIN BUT THIS POST IS ALREADY STUPID...I don't make it obvious but Sylvain is low-key my favorite character, up there with Felix. Like Felix, he does bad things for self-centered reasons. All I'll say right here is that Sylvain is the only one of the childhood friends who fully understands that Dimitri is a prince, and that as a big brother figure he is caught in a bad crossroads of protecting Dimitri and protecting others from Dimitri. Thanks for reading!!

#im not talking jesus saves im talking bodhisattva saving. btw. #sorry im watching in stars and time and it's making me MAD philosophical lmfaoooo #taps microphone play the world ends with you and read omniscent reader's viewpoint uhhh that's all #also be an extravert who loves people but whose Been Through It #my asks #my writing #theres a lot of reasons why sylvain is the favorite that i won't go into #but he actually fully understands how the world works and he is the only fucking one #(his biggest limitation is being a guy i think. dorothea voice.) #(also being rich. yuri voice.) #and he's an extremely kind and loving person who is also so so so bitter #im looking forward to posting the cat byleth story cuz a lot of the emotional heart is about sylvain and his son #legend of korra had it right. sometimes your blorbos are shitty fucking parents.

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Honestly though, this (what Ashe is pointing out) is exactly why I don't think GW could possibly end well. There's no "talking it over" after all the bloodshed (especially bloodshed started by them, and especially bloodshed started by them that didn't have to happen).

The way the narration leaves it "open" too at the end of GW just comes across as "it failed". It feels like... a kind of pointless story?

And I know some people might think that since Dimitri personally isn't as deeply affected by losing Matthias and so might be willing, that's still no good if his people and closest allies aren't. Rodrigue and Sylvain wouldn't be so forgiving, and I do think Dimitri would follow suit because that's his father (Rodrigue)'s closest friend and one of his own closest friends' father.

Add that to the fact that they have Sreng to deal with still (and I imagine sooner or Sylvain would figure out that Leicester had a hand in provoking Sreng to attack Faerghus) on top of losing Matthias and I imagine all the stress and aggravation wouldn't bode well for Leicester as far as Claude's thinking of things working out goes.

I just really can't see where GW goes afterward that would be "good" or works in Claude's favor at all. Maybe that was the intention and it was meant to be a route with a completely tragic ending, but apparently there are players who think it would end well and whatnot and I just can't see that happening (both from Faerghus' end and from Adrestia's end, the latter of which Claude discussed within GW itself).

If their intention was for a totally tragic ending, like yeah, I can see that... but as always the writing muddies the waters to make it sound good while something bad is happening. It keeps trying to have a positive spin on bad things as if they're just afraid to commit to a fully bad ending.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #also to be specific the reason I just call Rodrigue his father outright is bc he refers to him as a “second father” in Houses #but I'm not gonna literally write “his second father” every time I mention it and honestly “adoptive father” doesn't work for me either #bc him being an adoptive sort of parent doesn't make the fact that he /is/ a parent to him any less valid #like a parent is a parent and I don't feel the need to point that out and the feeling is mutual between them #if Rodrigue is literally calling him ''my boy'' it's a pretty cut and dry parent/child relationship #obviously I'm using Houses context in this case but it's still accurate in Hopes #and I just can't see losing Matthias going over smoothly at all and things getting better with time #I mean Matthias is such a major player in Faerghus and so important that I just can't see them being like #well it was only /one/ important bigwig who died. like no it was one important bigwig saving a whole lot of lives #who is also very intelligent and has a deep say in politics. that's ofc not counting #as Ashe says here in AM in reference to Adrestia that they've killed so much on both sides bc of the war #that he can't imagine just sitting and talking now. just because we as players only saw one named character die #and just because that character wasn't a playable character nor a returning character we already knew and loved #doesn't mean hundreds if not thousands more didn't die in Leicester's invasion #like Ashe says here I just don't see how both sides could sit and talk after all that #esp since Sylvain would prob be involved and uh... Sylvain is... a very emotional and angry person #and extremely vengeful (and they rly leaned into that side of him in Hopes in all routes) #I canNOT imagine talks with him involved not getting heated and aggressive #and he'd /have/ to be there bc he's the Margrave now in GW. if they want to have important talks like that #they need all their major players which like even if Felix say wasn't there #Rodrigue has basically equal authority as Felix bc Rodrigue has the respect of experience and has proven himself #so they could be swapped out for talks and Felix being the ''official'' Duke wouldn't affect talks in the least #if Rodrigue was/had to be present instead. with Sylvain you've either got no other options #or you've got Miklan who I can't imagine would want to even get involved with all of that #both bc of his mixed feelings on Matthias but also bc he's been out of the political atmosphere for so long #so yeah I uh... can't... see talks ever going well unless Claude legitimately makes amends somehow #or Houses Claude gets in there smacks him around and fixes some shit before heading back to his own verse lol

[villtura]

im a professional sylvain enjoyer and i have to say you draw him in the most beautiful way. the freckles and the lips are so crazyyyyy thank you so much on behalf of sylvain fans you feed us so well

thank youuuu i love drawing him with very soft features because it adds to his pathetic wet dog energy (affectionate)

#asks #anon #this was a well timed ask bc i was suddenly overcome with sylvain-related emotions the other day out of nowhere #he makes me a quite insane still. i want to chew on him

[sylvainjosegaytier]

The wrong song came up on shuffle while I was trying to write about Dedue’s childhood right after coming to Faerghus and I had to stop working bc I was crying so hard I couldn’t see

#the dangers of this instrumental playlist. I love me a good Sad Violin. #these emotional outbursts are so funny bc like they’re super cathartic and help me get the tone of the writing right #but I always look back at what I wrote later and it’s like ‘he did not know how to work a forge himself’ #which is perhaps not inherently sob-inducing lmao #my favorite incongruous one was where I was weeping so hard I had to call my partner to talk me down from it #and what I had written was something like ‘the horse nuzzled into Sylvain’s jacket looking for more carrots’ #it’s about the intimacy of loss. the pain of nostalgia. the relentless reminder that time only ever goes forward #and we cannot go back

[squirshie]

do we think if i scrounge up enough orbs i could make sylvain a similar offer to what brought malleus home last time

#i have. an idea #but again it's not really a bargain at this point #if i had feh pass he would have been mine so many summons ago #idk maybe sylvain is more interested in being an emotional support bunny boy than anything else #i could get a sylvain keychain or a button or something #i have three canes without keychains so we've got options #or he could go on a bag #or a jacket. whatever works

[ronsenburg]

I can’t believe I started this AU five years ago as a silly joke and now I’m absolutely feral over it.

Because!

Because for Felix it’s like, what if you’ve never been able to trust a single emotion you feel because you can’t be sure if it’s your own or if it’s someone else’s that you’ve mistakenly collected into your subconscious? What if you’ve never been able to trust a single emotion someone’s felt about you because you can’t be sure if it’s what they actually feel or if it’s your own that you’ve mistakenly projected onto them? So you resolve not to feel at all, to train your mind and body until you’re more a weapon than a person, and set yourself on an arrow-straight trajectory, always moving forward. But how do you stay the course when the only person who has made you want to feel is always there, footstep for footstep, urging you along? What truly scares you more, that they don’t mean the things they say, that the devotion they claim to feel is just a resonance of the feelings they inspire in you? Or that they do? You are a weapon, now. You are only capable of inflicting pain. But for a weapon, you do so fear the fresh wound’s sting.

Because for Sylvain it’s like, sometimes you become the thing you fear the most simply by trying to run away. You were born to prove someone else’s point, to provide validity to a interplanetary thesis. Raised by one parent to triumph in a war that ended before you were even born, by the other to carry the banner of a legacy. Little thought was given to your wishes. You sit squarely between two worlds, a human tether, but what—or who—is it that tethers you? You’ve loved him for so long, now. It doesn’t feel the same, loving anyone else, no matter how many times you’ve tried. So what will you do when he leaves, when he abandons you to the emptiness you’ve been trying to drown in the depths of your feelings for him? When it is only you, left in the dark. Without the legacy, without the future that was chosen for you. Who do you become, then?

Because.

#girl help I have been lost in my feelings over this for so long #10k and six different word documents and I don’t even have a single coherent scene because #it’s all just thoughts and emotions and outlines #I should give up and move on but #screaming shaking crying #it’s felix nearly starting a war after two minutes of accidentally glimpsing the chaos inside dimitri’s head #it’s mercedes so full of guilt for abandoning her own brother that she follows felix across the galaxy to be someone he can lean on #and it’s sylvain #sylvain retiring from starfleet at the age of 23 due to an injury that Felix inadvertently caused #one that should be fixable but isn’t because it’s more than just flesh that’s damaged #and having to live a life that’s his alone and not a product of his parent’s influence #and all of them still ending up back on the deck of the uss faerghus because their love for dimitri is so complete #I’m going to delete this in an hour when I’m less emotional #I need a tag for this au so you all can block it #tactility: a primer

[dmclemblems]

BITCHES I AM ABSOLUTELY LIVING THE DREAM

#Three Hopes #Felix #Sylvain #Sylvix #FELIX BLUSHES IN BOTH THEIR A SUPPORTS. BOTH GAMES HE BLUSHES AT SYLVAIN #HE'S ALWAYS SO EMOTIONAL AND GUNG HO ABOUT SYLVAIN'S SAFETY AND HAPPINESS #SYLVAIN IS TEAM MOM BUT LIKE FELIX WILL SLAY BITCHES DAY AND NIGHT AND IN BETWEEN FOR SYLVAIN #my god i love it i love them i love them together i love them being HAPPY #I LOVE FELIX STRAIGHT UP GETTING INTO PHYSICAL FIGHTS BC OF PEOPLE TALKING SHIT ABOUT SYLVAIN #HE KNOWS HIS STATUS IS VERY IMPORTANT BUT SYLVAIN IS MORE IMPORTANT TO HIM #IM YELLING IM SHOUTING IM HOLLERING IM SCREECHING

[pirdmystery]

a thing that happens to me sometimes is I scroll through sylgrid tags and legitimately get misty eyed like I love them so fucking much and I can barely even explain why

#i think it’s kind of like. #two highly misunderstood people who are both averse to earnest emotional expression #but understand each other essentially perfectly without having to say a thing #in a way no one else does #and most of their relationship is characterized by teasing or scolding #to the point where whenever they stop and are genuinely like hey btw you’re incredibly important to me #it just overwhelms me man #also imagine knowing everything about sylvain and seeing him at his absolute worst and loving him anyway #aaaaand post #sylgrid

[callmewishful]

Gautier-family Holiday Headcannons

Featuring the largest bunch of redheads y’all have never seen because I still can’t draw! 😁 (might do more parts if anyone’s interested)

Phelan (Matthias’s second wife, Sylvain’s mom) LOVES holidays. She is all for decorating but she values each holiday individually. Thanksgiving decorations go up before Christmas ones, sir.

Matthias is meh about decorating. He will put decorations in high places she cannot reach only because he values Phelan’s happiness. Does not decorate otherwise and refuses to let her decorate his office

Sylvain takes after his mother. Holidays are the few times a year that everyone smiles, even Miklan because he’s toasted, and that makes him happy.

Much to Matthias’s horror (he’s horrified every year, even though it’s always the same. Phelan just shakes her head at the invisible camera) Phelan invites all of their family to the manor for Thanksgiving AND Christmas

To put this in perspective, Matthias has 4 older siblings, most married, all with kids. Phelan has two siblings, both married, each with at least 1 kid. (And they have parents)

In total, it’s like 28 people coming to this man’s house. He’s in hell.

The two Matthias sons actually switch feelings for this

Miklan pretends to be aloof and indifferent, but he secretly likes the people. His favorite Uncle Marcel (4th Gautier son) comes to visit and always makes sure to spend time with Miklan because he knows Matthias doesn’t always have time for the oldest son.

And if Marcel is pulled away, Adalius (2nd Gautier son) is there to make sure Miklan doesn’t feel lonely.

Basically, despite alll the people, Miklan has two cool uncles who spend time with him. Now, they are Gautier’s so verbal communication isn’t their strong point, but it’s nice to be noticed and included all the same

Sylvain actually hates this part of the holiday season. He’d much prefer a more intimate, lowkey affair with just a few close family members.

His grandfather had claimed him as favorite grandchild because he has a crest and will inherit the title. Therefore he gets a lot of attention from the old man, but Sylvain hates him and it and avoids both at all costs

He takes the attention from aunts/uncles/cousins and the chaos in stride because they’re less crest focused (being as none of his uncles have a crest), but boy is happy when everyone leaves

Phe is elated. She loves her big family coming together and gushes throughout the day about how nice it is to have everyone together.

Matthias is still in hell lol

#I feel like I need to do some on Matthias’s brothers and how they feel/act #anyway you have a nice mixture of emotions here #matthias raoul gautier #miklan anschutz gautier #sylvain jose gautier #oc: phelan mirela gautier

[blaiddydbrokeit]

I don't talk enough about how Felix makes me go 🥰🥰🥰 but

#might delete later i'm frankly an emotional mess right now because i am exhausted and have not slept correctly in uhh #i'm not sure how long #enough sleep deprivation to be about as functional as a drunk #i think #sylvain might laugh and make this a future running gag but 🧡 foxy if you see this i love you too #come bother me foxboy i finished the lyrics for rad dogs 🫠

[yeyayeya]

Let me just say that I have never been so into a straight ship like Dimitri x Marianne and I would stand against anyone who says something bad about them

I would also fight you if you say otherwise (haha jk, unless…)

#fire emblem #yeyarants #LISTEN #their paired ending? #holy fuck that made me feel so much fucking emotions I can’t #I have nothing against straight mind you #it’s just I kind of gravitate toward gay and lesbian much more #I like some ships and think they’re cute #but I’m not like actively shipping them ya know? #but- #Dimitri and Marianne on the other hand #they have me in a chokehold #nothing can top my fe3h otp #which is Felix and sylvain #but once again #Dimitri and Marianne come super fucking close #yeah I know Dimitri and byleth as well as Marianne and Hilda are way more popular #nothing wrong with I actually really like Hilda and Marianne #Dimitri and byleth on the other I’m so fucking tired of seeing them and they annoy me but there’s nothing wrong with the ship #it’s just the amount of times I’ve seen them that I went from liking them to being neutral to being extremely annoyed #this is me it’s my fault I feel this way it’s not anyone else’s #BUT DIMITRI AND MARIANNE ARE SO ADORABLE AND THEY GIVE DIABTES THEY ARE SO SWEET #anyone who ships Felix x Sylvain AND Dimitri x Marianne are literally in my good graces #Dimitri x marianne #Marianne x dimitri #dimimari #fe3h #fire emblem three houses #you don’t know how disappointed I was when they didn’t have a support in three hopes #Yuri and Ashe having a support helped me not be too disappointed tho

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

"[...]and... your family."

miklan is still alive in this route and is referenced immediately after this scene, he's literally telling sylvain to take care of miklan too

#DCB Three Hopes Run #Gautier Fam #im streaming this for someone who doesn't want to play the second half of the route #and im all gautiermotional again :((( #like obvs he's telling him to take care of his mother but like. the fact that #that would be a given is different. it MAKES it different #matthias is telling him to take care of miklan as the new margrave (which is something he wasn't able to do) #he's basically saying take care of your brother and right after this says he knows he's been a bad father (to sylvain but #i'd guess he means to both of them :'( ) #and miklan is one of the first things sylvain thinks of after remembering this #and in a sad way it's probably more likely that sylvain could take care of him than matthias could #i think matthias knows at this point that their relationship as father and son is probably a lost cause #but probably also hopes that at least sylvain might be able to repair his relationship with miklan #this could've been more interesting if it didn't happen in the context of gw #bc as most of us who read my posts at least seem to agree on gw was a disaster #and it's a shame that it happened in the context of gw bc i could've rly loved all this stuff #but knowing why matthias died in this route makes it feel so stupid in a way #this is so heavy and emotional and imo just doesn't belong in gw. it should've happened in like #ag and/or sb and had sylvain survive sb instead. frankly i think if this conv had happened in sb #that sylvain would've been a lot less reckless with his life and wouldn't have died in ailell #BUT EITHER WAY matthias implying he wants sylvain to take care of miklan sends a wave of #gautier energy out of me that is unmatched by most waves of gautier energy

[daz4i]

#maybe the reason i stopped reading fics that aren't smut is bc anything emotional ends up being a personal callout #jk that's only for sylvain pov fics 😔 #have you ever seen a man so kinnable

[snifferz]

no genuinely i fucking quit writing novels bc my english teacher always gave me a grade under everyone else bc the plotline was too complex or it was too much

my writing was decent AT LEAST like i poured my heart out into that shit and it was usually a form of allegory for something that i went through

shoutout to miss ayub /s

#the narrative i wrote for my gcses was about samael having a breakdown over its abuser #and gradually going from high and mighty and godlike to HIGHLY sensitive and small #and it uses the symbol of tearing down a statue to represent trying to get over how he feels #and it BANGED. i dont have it anymore but it was SO GOOD. #but yeah she literally tried to get me to cut out the most emotional part of the narrative bc it wasnt needed #and literally complained about me describing pointless things too much (i described the setting as being grey and boring to contrast.) #THERE WAS SOME RLLY GOOD FUCKING LINES IN THERE #the fact razor and sylvains relationship was a way for me to project me grooming trauma + a lot of the narrative focused on this #kiiiinda makes it worse. like my teachers knew i got groomed and it absofuckinglutely showed in my writing. #thank you for ruining my love of writing!!! #my english teacher whines abt ppl not looking deep enough into shit #and then when i use fairly obvious metaphors to represent that razor is a god + dictator it goes over her head #and then when the theming is generally about trauma she ignores it #'this is very political' i fucking know thats the point #I SHOWED IT TO MY *PHYSICS* TEACHER AND SHE FUCKING LOVED IT. #GOD BLESS MY PHYSICS TEACHER SHE POINTED OUT MY FAVE LINE AND WENT 'oh my god i love this bit' #MISS DUDLEY THE TEACHER EVER

[endlesscacophony]

Sylvain + his birthday

A celebration of birth, of being welcomed into this world, blessing it with the grace of the presence of another child. Often to memorialize the coming of an age, Sylvain used to enjoy this, used to enjoy the extravagant parties thrown in his favor to celebrate his life, the life of the Crested second born son of House Gautier. There was a time when he would look forward to it, would revel in the days coming up to such a grand event, to the people who would come, the gifts he would receive, the attention he would garner from anyone and everyone who was invited.

Over the years this appreciation for his own day of birth grew sour, morphed into that of hatred, he never asked for this. He never asked to be born, to have his crest, to be seen over that of his brother - he would’ve rather been side stepped like most other second born sons. The hatred, the ire of his brother had eked into Sylvain’s very core and left him with nothing of his own, nothing but disdain for his own existence, for his very birth, loathing that he had found at the bottom of a well during the hours in which he had spent in there, screaming for help --

No longer does he seek these celebrations, these parties to flaunt how far he’s come in his life when it should have been his brother’s. In fact, he prefers to withhold the actual date of his birth, to keep it dubious, to tell others to  ‘nevermind that nonsense, let’s make the most of the time we have together now!’ Anything is easier than having to deal with so many people, whether they like him or not, to wish him a life of longevity and good health. 

Not when his life has only ever been an ill omen to those around him.

#i have so many emotions around Sylvain and his birthday #i Strictly Cannot Imagine he enjoys it anymore #AND WITH HIS BIRTHDAY IN THE NEXT DAY OR TWO :EYES: #𝙏𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙮 𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙒𝙚𝙖𝙥𝙤𝙣 (𝘚𝘺𝘭𝘷𝘢𝘪𝘯 || 𝘏𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘯) #headcanon