#earth should never do this again

[amelia-yap]

AUEGH

#ruby rose #rwby #obligatory tiny distressed ruby #my art #HELLO I HAVE OFFICALLY FINISHED YET AGAIN ANOTHER ONE OF MY SEMESTERS #and holy shit it was the most awful by far #i felt like absolute shit the entire sem and was behind in literally all of my classes #it was so shit that i actually skipped a class because of the stress of being behind on work. which i had never done before. #i am a criminal now lmao i feel so bad #also a little mad at myself because i know i could've done better. i've been doing the bare minimum and cutting corners #which was very noticeable lol #im gonna actually split my upcoming semester this time my ass and health cannot do this anymore #BUT ANYWAY I FINISHED MY SEMESTER RAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #COUGHS OUT BLOOD AND SINKS BACK INTO EARTH'S CORE AND EVAPORATES #IM DONE!!! #also my eyes are really red now for some reason #probably from the lack of sleep or the long hours staring at my bloody laptop idk #probably both #yeah i should go sleep now lol bye #ranting in the tags because i don't know how to talk like a normal person lmao #sorry if you read all this nonsense jkdhkfsdhfkhd #but i should be more active around here again!

[puddeneen]

free advice for anyone thinking about adapting the last airbender in any medium at any point in the future: if your vision does not feature the sky as a whole character in and of itself, you have failed right out of the gate - not only as an adaptation, but in Getting The Point, and the scope and the scale of the tragedy (and the hope) that drives this story, and its main character

#serious business #writing #atla #netflix atla #aang #air nomads #this post is not about natla hate if you rb it please do not try to make it so #but if you give a shit abt Themes And Motifs you will give us the gaang Living in the sky. not just journeying through it #you will give us zuko in his anger in his grief always tethered to the ground and always looking Up #you will give us people in the earth kingdom/water tribes/fire nation staring past the walls they've had to build/had built around them #you will give us not just comets and eclipses but shooting stars and auroras and migrating creatures and weird clouds and storm breaks #you Will Give Us the empty space where an entire nation should be. and may never be again

[jestersroute66]

i wonder if this guy sang about spiderman

#weird al #weird al yankovic #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #atsv #weird al fanart #fanart #al yankovic #procreate #this took me More than it should have to the point my pink was cramping im never doing this again #maybe #he’s actually canon in the marvel verse. he’s in earth 616 look it up

[weidli]

would be very funny to me to introduce a bunch of americans who are used to the constitution being treated as a gift from god that's very hard to change and is holy Because it's almost never changed and has been in operation in nearly the same form since 1789 to the way the swiss constitution (last total revision in 1999, there have been several hundred direct democratic votes on possible changes to it since 1848, all you need to suggest a change is hundred thousand people with voting power who'll sign the suggestion) works

#i think about it every time we talk about volkainitiativen in öff. recht sorry it's So fucking funny to me #american view of the constitution is like oh this ancient unassailable thing and every change to it is earth moving #and swiss people are like ehhhhh should we put in a rule fining dog owners for not picking up dog poop in public parks? #what do you think guys? show of hands please #i'm not saying one way of doing things is inherently Better (there's some fucked shit in the swiss constitution Because the voting #population can do whatever with it (ius cogens aside) see for example 72/3 minarettverbot or all the bullshit around 121a) it's just #very interesting to me #i also think it's fun when i read works of fiction #often fanfic #that take place in alternate universes idk scifi sentinel/guide fantasy whatever introduction of magic you wanna do #that results in the author making up a legal system including a constitution #and it's just Very Obvious that the author's never encountered a different concept of thought around constitutions than the american one #again not bad necessarily! but fascinating to me #iuris

[tenok]

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#I want complaine not only about bad takes in this fandom but also about theories that just!! so!! stupid!! but also I'm a good person that #doesn't shit on other people's fun #so I mostly suffer in silence #and block people in bunches #'you see! this theory absolutely doesn't take agency from character and doesn't minimize emotional impact!' #says person about theory that roughly summariasized as 'Crowley AGAIN knows more than Aziraphale and it's all so SAD because if only #Aziraphale knew he wouldn't make this desicion!' #I want to scream #somehow it also never about what kind of monster Crowley would be to willingly hide memories Aziraphale supposedly erised and never gave it #back in whole four years they had before season two #like. maybe not be a cowards and embrace 'I was a pussy and somehow didn't get a courage to RESTORE MY FRIEND'S MEMORY with some kind of #VITAL INFORMATION that could've IMPACT HIS LIFE OR DEAT DESICIONS #and now he's in place where he could be abused erased or killed and IT'S MY FAULT' angle hmmm? #at least it could've made it interesting #but noooo #also how the fuck them kissing in 1941 should've impact Aziraphale's desicion anyway I can't get logic behind this theories #(the angle with 'memories are not about some stupid kiss but about what Crowley saw in heavens' could've work but like first: Crowley didn' #saw anything Aziraphale won't hear from Metatron in next scene or can extrapolate using base logic #and anyway if Crowley wanted to use it as argument he like. should've start with it and not with 'blah blah you're an idiot we should run #from earth' #AT BEST I could've get behind him giving Aziraphale some kind of weapon or possibility of safe out or like. hell's fire to self destruct as #last resort. but memories? and especially Aziraphale's memories??) #anyway yes it's me being a hater. I just have no place to vent about it but I sure hope that no one that likes this theories will see it. #you do you!!! but I hate it so much!!!

[neonsbian]

my only request for gmmtv 2024 is a poly show, we need the second coming of 3 will be free so bad

#the real question is will it actually happen? #oh also i want a sexy and toxic gl series thats only friends esque #and a bl w older actors (maybe like a college bl but like the leads are profressors?) #and i want perth and chimon to have a show where they arent in high school #also ohm and nanon and earth and mix should be in a show together so i can experience the os2 high all over again #ok maybe i do have a lot of requests #gmmtv 2024 #vinnie talks #ok ik ohm and nanon will never work together again but at least one of them should be in a throuple series w earth and mix FOR ME

[running-in-the-dark]

sooooo

I'm 32 now

when can I expect to finally grow out of getting obsessed with men people stuff? I'm waiting....

#I doooo not want it #it's embarrassing #can it stop please #BUT also can I not feel depressed and like an empty shell when it's not happening #I mean I can handle it when it's things. hobbies. shows. whatever #sure it usually ends up being expensive as fuck but #at least I don't go around humiliating myself by talking about nothing but a random guy for months on end #how embarrassing! I think a man is hot! I must jump off a cliff immediately #but whyyyy can't I be normal about it at least #other people get obsessed with normal things! like. idk. anything else #soo anyway the opening narration for the texas chainsaw massacre is great isn't it? he did such a good job :) what a nice voice :) I am not #going to be weird about this man any longer :) no I won't! I'm normal about him! I don't want to bite him or chew on his face or anything #like that. just normal things. uh. sex? that's what people usually want. yeah fine that. I mean I do. want. oh I think I'm doing it again #haha no it's fine I just think he's neat (he's the only person on earth no one else exists anymore he's so beautiful oh my god have you seen #his little face he looks like a cute little potato I've never seen anything prettier in my life haha I need to run my hands through his hair #and have you seen how tall he is and he's so cute and I need to. be taken outside and shot. god. #I keep. shrieking. every time I see him. at such a high frequency that it hurts my own fucking ears. because. I can't believe that he exists #I'm. so. stupid!!!! #annnd repeat this every time this happens blah blah blah i should jsut delete this blog right now oh my GOD.

[isekyaaa]

I'm not the well versed with irl romance, but in so many romance manga/manhwa, there's a focus on a male lead that is extremely protective, vengeful for the mc, possessive, etc. He'll fight battles for her, support her, torture people that hurt her, etc. While I do not mind reading such male leads, I can't help but wonder if that's what those authors and fans want in someone. Someone that'll protect, support, and save them. You can also see it in the fics people write on this website. Like is that what romance is supposed to be?

For me, the thought of anyone being protective over me to the point of fighting my battles, standing up to people that hurt me, etc is disgusting. Like applying such a man to real life would disgust me so much. I was always taught to solve problems on my own. It's both my responsibility and my right. I do not want nor need people's protection. I do not want nor need people making my life easier for me. I appreciate support, but any more than that and I'd get so offended if anyone treated me in that way. It'd be the equivalent of saying that I am not adequate nor equipped enough to handle my problems. It's insulting.

But is that the kind of partner the people that write and read these stories want? Are they just reading it for fun and I do or do they deep down desire to be treated like this?

#rambles #i don't get it #rereading 'i'll save this damned family' again and reading the comments (which i should never do) and like... #the amount of people that dislike the ml for being arrogant and challenging the mc #for holding her accountable for her actions #yes i'll read almost anything but he is such a breath of fresh air #he reminds me of ayato ngl #he nearly full on flogged the mc for the charge of (harmless) sedition against royalty (him) #probably would've followed through with it too had she not fainted #he doesn't harm the people that try to harm her but let's her handle her own problems #he's arrogant and calculating #but he doesn't judge mc for her weight (she starts the story at 100kg) and the fact that she is a woman #he will continuously challenge her because he knows she's up to the task #but wow some people think he's the absolute worst #it's like they view mls as requiring to treat the mc like queens in order to be morally supportable #that's another pet peeve of mine like... #men must treat women absolutely perfectly #if they don't they are the scum of the earth #let's just ignore the fact majority of these mls have been traumatized in some way #men can't have flaws for some reason in these manga/manhwa like????? #literally why are you going to manga/manhwa for 'good' female/male representation like y'all are the true clowns here #why would you go to the circus and get pissy over the fact there are clowns? #if you want to read something that has good non-flawed' representation that would offend no one tiktok is literally free #but alas i am the true fool for reading the comments on the first place 😔

[pepprs]

ok actually yeah. i really need to do dishes and go to bed and not stay up late mentalillnessposting a little too viscerally on tumblr the night before i facilitate a workshop in front of the literal president of the university and the vp of my division (LOL about that btw. actively shitting my pants.) but oh my GOD. so saying goodbye to lia was actually fine in the moment. neither of us cried and we talked about all the ways we’ll still be in each others lives and reasons we’ll have to interact in the near future. and she gave me an extremely heartfelt thoughtful gift and we left on a very hopeful note and i felt better and content bc there’s still the rest-of-life and we’ll see each other there. but like an hour before that as i mentioned i was HYSTERICALLY sobbing. in full view of people i know AND people i don’t. and i just sat there and sobbed while everything carried on around me. everything carried on around me!!! and i feel like im about to sob again thinking about it.

#purrs #delete later #idk. i typed a bunch here and then deleted it and now idk what to say. i just feel so lonely. i have had fucked up relationships with every #single older adult in my life and never had someone who could a) stay in my life b) be consistently present in my life c) meet my emotional #needs d) actually See me and accept me for who i am. Like not one person who can be all four of those things. and i have to be all four of t #those things for myself now because im 24 and i missed my chance. but how fucking shitty and painful is that? especially after a year like t #this. the way it’s literally ending the SAME way last year did. huge scary promotion (which i haven’t even talked about on here or to anyone #but lia today actually. but it might be huger and scarier than i thought. which is good but also HUGE -‘d scary. and not a bad thing of bc o #course but it’s so fucking… perilous? like it makes me feel profoundly imperiled because i have extremely good reason to feel that way. and #i have to endure the mortifying ordeal of applying for my own job AGAIN after the first time was so horrible. lol) and also losing a beloved #mentor figure who understood me in a way no one else did which mattered immensely even if they couldn’t do the whole presence thing or #whatever. and now i only have one older adult in my life left (aside from my therapist who doesn’t really count bc i only see her once a #week and we barely know each other still) who is like. here and helping me and i KNOW i am so sick in the head i KNOW and i should not be #writing it but every single day i am fucking terrified that i am being or will be separated from him emotionally or physically jsut like all #the others so. LOL!!!!! i am normal and well adjusted. but it’s like so fucking painful because im grasping at straws but again the reality #is im 24 and the only people on this earth who it is fair for me to expect all 4 from and who should’ve provided it to me are my parents. #and i missed my chance with them forever and now i have to do it myself. and that’s ok sometimes and i can handle it… except in the moments #where im sobbing hysterically and everything carries on. when i am in my darkest moments i want to run to an older adult and have them #comfort me but i truly cannot do that with any of the ones i still have left / regularly interact with for so many reasons. and it’s so #painful it makes me sick sometimes. and now i have to be the romy and the lia i wish to see in this world. but how can i do that when i #haven’t finished grieving over them leaving which feels like leaving ME — NOW — in this moment when i have never needed more support of that #kind more. how can isummon it within myself. im not ready yet. i need a long hug and a hand to hold that won’t (have to) let go. when im #crying i need someone to take me somewhere and comfort me and calm me down. and im 24 so i can’t ask for it. but oh my god i need it. and i #missed my chance. and lia left today and she only ever did that for me metaphorically but… tonight i feel more alone than ever. #and it’s like i don’t even have the emotional intelligence or whatever to ASK for that. bc im playing by ear and i don’t know how to read #the music of it. im self taught. that fucking sucks. that SUCKSSS. also that’s too strong a way to put it liek obviously my friends who are #closer to my age are INTEGRAL to me being able to function and i learn from them and cherish their support. but just like i can’t be a mom #to me my friends can’t either. so it’s like what the fuck do i do. get steamrolled by relentless grief and rage every day i guess. #also side note. everything carried on when i was in brighton too. i came home early ofc but it’s like nothing changed in my absence. and #that has fucked me up SUPREMELY. i think that might be a root of it. like hm… it seems my presence doesn’t have impacts. but idk

[wereh0gz]

I just want to be done with this one stupid class I don't wanna do shit for it anymore

#ramblings #neg #like genuinely what if i just gave up #i have like 4 assignments left one being the final exam and like #what even is the point if i'm not gonna continue college #it's not like i would even do good in the final bc like half the shit in it isn't covered in the class #either that or it's just not expanded on or explained well enough #it's been the same for the midterm and most of the quizzes #they tried to cram a class that should take a whole year at least into a single semester #and cut so much stuff that is literally crucial to passing with a decent grade #like what is the point really #god i'm so fucking glad i dropped everything else now i know i would've fucking lost it by this point if i hadn't #honestly the only reason i didn't drop this one too is bc i missed the period where i could drop it without paying #since it was on a different schedule than the others i still had enough time to drop them before they charged me for it #which is fucking stupid by the way. making you pay to leave #they should give ppl refunds when they drop out i think #not like i paid for anything since i at least got enough financial aid to cover it all #but anyways fuck this gay earth i hope the entire college institution burns to the ground and no one has to deal with this shit ever again #i'm so fucking tired man #i've never wanted to give up on something more than i have on school #i'd rather do literally anything else

[off22theraces]

yoo we should call the hot southern guy hotline

fact voice I CANT THEY KNOW ME THEY KNOW MY VOICE THEY KNOW ME

#yk that one audio? anyways #i thought of a crack au to go along w this while i was in the shower #basically aarons at a party or smth and someones like ‘dude we should prank call the phone sex hotline’ and they end up getting aaron to do- #-it because he never does aaaannnyyything #so. he does. and rick is working there #so the whole time rick is trying to flirt with him and fact is like ‘uh. is your refigerator running’ #and eventually rick picks up on how uncomfortable he is and tells him to have a good night then hangs up #and then later fact goes home and calls again and apologizes #cuz even tho it isnt a practical job rick was just trying to do it #andthen they have a nice lil convo and yeah. peace and love on planet earth #nobody write this before i do

[the-busy-ghost]

“Ok so the other bookshelf hasn’t arrived yet but why don’t I start organising my books, it will be a fun activity and useful!”

What nobody tells you about said fun activity is that you have to make Choices about how to organise and it’s all very confusing

#I run into this problem EVERY DAMN TIME and I still hate it #I like my history books arranged a certain way so that tends to fuck up the Dewey Decimal or any other system I attempt to impose #Ok so for example what to do with primary historical sources like chronicles and collections of letters #Do I put them with the mediaeval literature section (some of which also functions as a primary historical source- i.e. the Brus) #Or do I put them with my history books (ordered by time period and country) #Or do I put them in their own tiny little category of their own- an extremely confusing and apparently irrational category #Or biographies of authors of which I only have two or three #Do I put them with my other history books or next to the literary works they wrote or on their own little section again #But since I only own maybe three it would be a weird little section just Aphra Behn James Herriot and Robert Henryson by themselves #And then what on earth do I do with C.S. Lewis' Allegory of Love #It's technically literary criticism but I don't own many books in that vein #Never mind the question of whether I should separate novels poetry and plays even if it breaks up an author's output #I don't really want to have to look for Violet Jacob or Oscar Wilde in two or three different places #And then sometimes a book doesn't fall into either of those three categories- should split Nan Shepherd's novels from the Living Mountain? #And what if it's a 'Collected Works' by an author which contains a bunch of non-fiction historical essays as well as a novel? #And don't even get me started on what I'm supposed to do with the Road to Wigan Pier #And then THEN we come to Wodehouse #Do I put Leave it to Psmith with the other Psmith books or in the midst of the Blandings books? #I want all the Psmith series together but what if some hypothetical person new to Wodehouse wandered in #And wanted to start either series at random- would they be confused at the introduction of Blandings too early? #Wouldn't they miss out on some of the best bits that come with knowing Blandings BEFORE Psmith? #I don't know who this hypothetical person is by the way #Nobody's wandering into my house and browsing my bookshelves except me so I don't know who I'm curating this for #I suppose in the back of my mind I always thought I would have kids who would one day be pulling randomly at the family bookshelves #And so that's why I've saved some of the fiction books but I'm not likely to have or even want children so what is the point #I'm not even the kind of person who regularly rereads my childhood favourites but somehow I can't bring myself to throw the kids' books out #It's an immense waste of space and a bit pretentious to have lots of books that nobody else will ever read #Honestly I'd have been happier running a public library or a bookshop I think or even having a flatmate to share books with #Ah well if this is a problem at least it's quite a nice one to have; first world problems only this evening I'll count my blessings #Earth & Stone

[dumplingcatho]

i romantiCISEEEE even the worst. of. times. when- all it took to make me cry!!! was being ALIIIIIIIIVE!!!!!!! look up and see a reflection of someone who never gave way to the pain WHAT IF I TOLD EM!!! NOW THAT IM OLDER!!! THERE ISNT A MOMENT I WANNA CHANGE!!!!!!!!! if u even care!!!!!

#paramore keeping me company while i animate #why on god’s green earth did i decide to do a walk cycle x2 #12 ppl to animate 12 times and then colour that 12x12 again!!!!!! i should never do this again!!!!! #it’s turning out well doe i like the piece #personal

[witchey]

why do i feel so #cringe talking about my own mental illness... like who let that happen?? hello?

#🔮💭 #so sorry but it will happen again <2 #fr idk maybe it's just like.embarrassing for me #especially bc i try not to talk about my own personal suffering so up close. like idk maybe i should go and hide in a dirt hole and never #come out. like i'll go full molegirl and dig a series of tunnels underneath the earth and live like that #but yeah don't observe me i do not wish to be observed

[bl4ckbox]

wow the notes in that previous post suck so bad. I am begging you all to go outside and travel

#like people with their whole chest saying uwuahaaa this id why i cant travel im just a smol bean and i cant handle itttt #fuck off. like yeah you're an American tourist! you're gonna annoy people!! get the fuck over it! do it anyways!!! #you really all live your life praying to never experience the SLIGHTEST discomfort huh?? #do things that annoy people. be a bother. take up space. get the fuck over yourselves we are on this planet to ask of others AND BE ASKED!! #but nooooo you're just too much of a scawed widdle sociawwy anxious enby bean to dare setting foot outside your bedroom. grow up!!! #you can be the most respectful kind self-contained person on earth and people will still be annoyed by you sometimes thats LIFE #but. i digress #idk why i dont automatically expect tumblr posts making a joke about a common uncomfortable experience to immediately be taken as #yes so true this is exactly why we should all never leave the house again #.txt #atlas shrugs

[captain-lonagan]

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#ive made the mistake of thinking about the public reaction to buildmart once again #and the amount of bullshit noxcrew and scott go through for the fuckin existence of that game #like yeah there will always be people who dont enjoy it. there is no thing on this earth that everyone loves #but the environment around that game would get a Lot less toxic if Some Streamers would stop shouting to the heavens #and to their thousands of viewers about how its a garbage game and should be removed. #when you have that many viewers your own behavior does set a precedent for what is and isnt okay in the fandom. #its why saying 'i dont condone harassing' is useless if you single out antis and put them in a thousand-person spotlight #and i can think of two times off the top of my head that Certain Streamers have gotten their coworkers sent death threats #because of calling them cheaters or whatever while live #'you cant blame them for the fanbase' but i can blame them for encouraging that behavior with their actions #there will always be toxic people in fandoms and there is almost always some low level toxicity spread throughout #but there are ways as a cc you can mitigate that toxicity Or make it worse based on your own conduct #and Some Streamers consistently choose to make things worse #and they're either too incompetent to realize it or they know damn well they're doing it and just don't care (but will never admit it) #critical #cc critical #negative #discourse #and its wild because they do That as professionals but they're all lovely people off camera so its like. #youre clearly not a total piece of shit or everyone in the servers youre in would hate your guts #in their personal lives and to their Friends theyre lovely but as adult professionals with large audiences jesus christ #and because people in the audience know theyre cool theyre more likely to vouch for and defend their Not Good behavior and its uuuuugh