#dont use the other one anyway i might

[anipgarden]

What Kind of Plants to Add

This is my sixth post in a series I’ll be making on how to increase biodiversity on a budget! I’m not an expert–just an enthusiast–but I hope something you find here helps! 

I’d love to be able to give a quick and easy list of things to add, but frankly I can’t do that. I can strongly encourage you, however, to look at these categories of plants and do further research to discover what’s native to your area, so you can plant things that’ll have the most impact in your particular area.

With that being said, I will mention a few plants as examples. This is in no way, shape, or form me telling you that you have to or even should buy these specific plants. Not every plant works well in every place in every garden, not to even mention across countries. Above all, if you’re wondering what plants you should be adding, I can wholeheartedly say plants that are native to your area--or at least nonnative non-invasive.

Flowers

Flowers are some of the most common ways people work to increase biodiversity in their gardens, and who can blame them? Seeing pops of color out your window, and directly seeing the impact via butterflies and bees visiting the garden? It’s a win-win for us and the wildlife!

Flowers--especially native wildflowers--are a quick, easy, and cheap way to increase wildlife traffic in your garden. Perennial gardens are more likely to get you the most bang for your buck, as they’ll come back year after year if you treat them well. But don’t dismiss annuals--if you get ones that easily reseed, they’ll eagerly return on their own! If you can, do your best to ensure that the flowers you plant all have different blooming periods--that way, your garden can support wildlife throughout the year instead of for just one brief season. 

Flowers are environmental super boosters. Their nectar and pollen can feed insects and birds, their stems and leaves can provide nesting materials for all sorts of creatures, and their seeds are a popular food source among birds at all times of the year.

Climbing Plants

Climbing plants can be fantastic options for maximizing your impact. If you have limited ground space, growing up can provide interest as well as additional habitat for all kinds of creatures.

Training plants up a trellis, fence, or bare wall offers food, shelter, and habitat. Trumpet vines, passionflowers, honeysuckles, and more will provide sweet nectar for pollinators as well as nesting and hiding spaces for other wildlife like birds, bugs, and lizards. Do note that in some cases, climbing plants can actually affect the structural integrity of walls and roofs if allowed to climb too much and too far along a house, so be careful. 

Bushes/Shrubs

Bushes provide shelter for creatures, which then provides hunting grounds for other animals. Their fallen leaves and petals can be food and shelter for detritivores, amphibians, reptiles, and small mammals--and they also provide good cover for moving around the garden, for creatures who like to stay hidden. They can be a bit more pricey to obtain--unless you get cuttings or seeds and are willing to wait--but they’ll definitely be worth it, and they’re typically low-maintenance once they’re established.

Bonus points if you get a flowering and fruiting bush, like bottlebrush, serviceberry, lilac, or others. This’ll make your bushes not only a place of shelter, but a food source as well--and depending on the kind you pick, may be food for you too! Making a garden border with a series of bushes can be a great option to providing lots of habitat, if you can manage it.

Shrubs with pithy or hollow stems are excellent options for supporting solitary bees. Some examples you could look into are elderberry, raspberry, blackberry, or sumac.

Trees

Trees have a high up-front cost and take awhile to grow, but once they’re settled in place they provide crucial habitat to all kinds of creatures! Insects will be attracted to flowers they may provide, or to nest in the wood. Others may eat the leaves as food, or use them as nesting materials. Birds will perch and nest in trees, and feed off the fruits and seeds and insects that also use the tree. Squirrels also use trees as nesting places, piling up dead leaves into huge clusters to raise their young in, and will absolutely feast on any nuts the tree may provide. Mice, badgers, and more will feast on fallen fruits or seeds, and bats roost in the trunks when given the chance. Detritivores eat fallen leaves and decomposing fruits, providing further food for hunting creatures. Trees can also be good for us--they help block out noise and air pollution, and are the poster child for taking CO2 and making it breathable oxygen. Not to mention they can provide plenty of food for us, too. Nesting grounds, hunting grounds, shelter from weather, and more--trees are, in my opinion, likely to be the best way to boost biodiversity long-term. If you can get your hands on a sapling for cheap and can care for it for awhile, I’d definitely give it a shot! Make sure the tree won’t get too big for where you’re growing it, though--you’ve definitely gotta plan for the long-term before you plant any. 

Some trees can be grown in containers. Though they won’t become gigantic branching behemoths, they’ll still do their part to support all the life that depends on them. Growing a tree from seed may take awhile, but could be an easy option to getting one if you have the patience--the trees are more than happy to help you, as they drop tons of seeds and fruit in fall for you to gather. 

Groundcover

Bare soil is the enemy of microbial life in the soil, and while small pockets of bare soil can be great nesting places for bees and other insects, having swaths of empty soil should be avoided. Groundcover plants grow low to the ground in a sprawling habit, and will often spread quite easily on their own. This is a great way to provide shelter, keep soil temperatures cool, block out weeds, and give your soil life a chance to thrive.

Sometimes, ground covers don’t even have to be planted in the ground. Shallow-rooted plants like succulents, ferns, and alyssum can be planted into cracks in stone walls, and moss can be planted by making moss graffiti and painting it onto a surface. As with climbing plants, do make sure that you don’t cause extra damage to important walls and housing foundations.

Host Plants

Host plants get their own section, because plants of all kinds can be host plants for different creatures! It’s common to think only flowers can be host plants in the beginning, but in reality, many bushes and trees are host plants to dozens of species of butterflies and moths. Honestly, I feel that factor's not talked about enough. Look up what insects live in your area and what kind of host plants they need, and plant some if you can! Bonus points if you can plant a variety of them--I know that there’s hundreds of kinds of milkweed, each one flowering and leafing up around different times of the year. Planting several varieties of milkweed, then, would provide monarchs with food through several seasons, allowing many more of them to grow up in your garden!

Nectar Plants

Plants that provide nectar to insects is a great foundation to increasing biodiversity! This is, of course, many native wildflowers (and even nonnative wildflowers, though be sure they aren’t invasives who’ll do more harm than good), but many native bushes, vines, and trees will also provide nectar to hungry pollinators! 

Keystone Species

To be frank, some plants can have a bigger impact than others in a landscape. By all means, every bit helps, but if you want to boost biodiversity quickly there are a few plants that can essentially serve as the backbone of local ecosystems that you can grow in anything from a balcony pot to a small patch of your backyard. These plants can be different depending on where you are, so do your research to find out what would be best to grow in your area. If you can’t get them all? That’s alright! But even hitting just a few of these target species really can do a lot.

That’s the end of this post! My next post is gonna be about things to keep in mind/continue to do once you get plants in the ground! Until then, I hope this advice was helpful! Feel free to reply with any questions, your success stories, or anything you think I may have forgotten to add in!

#biodiversity #solarpunk #gardening #outdoor gardening #ani rambles #out of queue #the biodiversity saga #sorry its been 2 months since I last posted to this series #I literally have everything drafted out I just got Busy because maannnnnnn animating a grad school capstone project all by yourself.... #i should really start using my youtube channel to post my animations but they never feel Done so I just Dont #i dont have as many links in this one because... they weren't in the draft and any tumblr posts that came to mind I couldn't hunt down #either way i hope this was Helpful and Lit and All That Jazz #I might just post the other parts tomorrow so I can stop having that hanging over my head #and so I can get my sources masterpost out there so people can like. see I'm trying my best not to just talk out of my ass #anyways see yall

[svampira]

normalest friend group

#wrong they all hate each other #except for elias only eden hates him rightfully so #he got his bestie dante exhiled anyways thats for when i design kat which might be never back to the line up #brooke looks so cute shes eliciting a omg puppy response from me. never slimming her face down again her cheeeks #the more adorable they look the eviller they are. in order brooke elias diamila eden #diamila will stab you in the back for fun and she probably has the highest vampire bodycount in the us BUT she doesnt kill humans #so that basically makes her a good person #elias and brooke would literally kill a kid the only difference is elias would only do it if he was pissed brooklyn would do it for fun😭 #shes so cute #wip #ill draw a full body line up later shivers #elias and brooke are the only ones where same face syndrome kicked in but i dont mind that much there is literally no way theyd get mixed u #wait let me go back on what i didnt mention #eden is off the evil scale hes a relatively good guy.... by kindred standards tho hes still a hypocrite kind of nines style but worse #he did the most to become baron and rallies the anarchs into going to war w the camarilla basically but he cant stomach violence #back to how much they all hate each other diamila and eden used to be friends but she did her usual backstabbing when chose the vt m b #camarilla ending diamila hates brooke and brooke just dislikes her but has no reason to hate her and eden and brooke hate love each other #mostly hate by 2021 honestly #his bestie wasnt named dante i meant it dante exhiled. you know

[quesadillayuri]

Propius saltat et bracchiae circum Roier’s collum involvit. “Ego sum laetissimus, formosulus,” he murmurit, osculari eius genae. Roier trahit eum prope, tadant eorum moti in dicio tam ponet eius mani in Cellbit coxarum supra. “Tu estne laetus? Homosexualis et laetus, catulus?” Cellbit iacit eius caput ridere et Roier torquent eos. “Homosexualis et laetus, formosulus.

quid??? quid est??? estne translationis de @atthebell's put to mind of all that i wanna be in lingua latina? ita! verum est!

in all srs, i've not really been in a super creative mood lately, and there's been a lot of issues with my own writing process. i decided to do a bit of translation for fun and to ease into writing again! hope that this satisfies the needs of the one other person in the qsmp fandom looking to read fanfic in latin!

#one other person is probably a stretch #me along in my party room fr #anyways !! this was a super fun translation to do!! bell uses a lot of words i dont usually get to use and it was really fun figuring out #how to work around my own limitations within the language #grammar might not be 100%. or like 80% but i think its a passing attempt . #vocab is my strong suit unfortunately :'( i know lots of words but can't really fit them all together #um #okay tag time #qsmp #spiderbit #roier #cellbit #qsmp fanfic #spiderbit fanfic #my fanfic #qsmp translations #qsmp translated

[bottombaron]

whenever i think abt writing Nandor and i get going thru a series of sequences of him behaving like a well-adjusted, caring, adult i have to stop myself, backspace several mental paragraphs and remember that he's basically a semi-captive lion being observed in a nature documentary and he functions on 92% Id

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandor #nandor the relentless #neat fanfic trick: if you're nandor is behaving ooc like a normal well adjusted empathetic human being just ask yourself #“what would a lion do in this exact scenario?” #and whatever the absurdity it's probably closer to the truth than not #anyways i have a lot to say abt the amorality of the vampires and how they simply don't function with the same human ethical thought #but that doesnt mean they dont care and love and have social behaviors of their own that shouldnt be judged less than #and will express those emotions in ways that might feel foreign to most humans #...is what i say to myself to keep from crying as i delete 3 pages of nandor talking out his feelings 😭😭😭 #(also brief note: when i say he functions on Id its not that he lacks intelligence or the capacity to use it along with his ego/super ego) #(as seen in the s5 finale) #(but rather he's an apex predator so his whole being is funneled into traits for hunting. not other things we think show intelligence) #(in the mordern non hunting/gathering world) #(which is partially why he's so disconnected from the world and struggles to find purpose in an environment that no longer values him) #(truthfully nandor is human but simply the definition of humanity has changed rapidly from what it valued centuries before) #(and leaves nandor lost) #(except for guillermo. his one connection to humanity and what anchors him to the modern world 🥲) #(...looks like i got lost in the tags again...)

[battle-subway-ghost]

he-eeee-eeey

*tapping noises*

is this thing on what even is--

*loud feedback noise*

--FUCK! ... oh! hi!!!!!!!!! so you're named Paris huh???! hey. hey do you know anyone named Shilo over there on your side i wanna know if i have a twin over there like maybe with a goatee perhaps- hey wait wait let me keep talking to him WAIT CMON NONON- *feed cuts out*

- @shilo-sumac

#asks #shilo-sumac #Greyed Walls Event #apocalypse tw #// looking between the older and newer panels I definitely like the older hair so much more- but one's faster and the other isnt #// might switch to a combo of the two later who knows #// anyways oops I realize the poses I used look way too similar JKSDHFJHSD oh well. dont even worry about it #// queued post

[valentinoappreciator]

damn people on tumblr really STILL cannot comprehend that you can be into a fucked-up FICTIONAL CHARACTER without condoning / being okay with the shit they're doing? please get some common sense <3

#text #my post #piss poor reading comprehension #im so sorry you dont have any critical thinking skills i hope you get better soon #yeah this is about hazbin hotel what about it #they are LITERALLY in HELL. ACTUAL LITERAL HELL. they are AWFUL characters #some are just better at hiding it than others #all of them - as in ALL OF THEM - are out to get the others. in one way or another #like #please use the inside of your skull to realize this. #valentino + vox + alastor are all awful at a first glance. they dont bother hiding it. #i can almost GUARANTEE you that the rest of the lot are equally awful #charlie might be THE exception. MIGHT #anyway rant over #[gets back up five minutes later] wAIT ACTUALLY---

[aishasauce]

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​COMIC FIESTA 2023

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look out for the eel balloons

Ｅｌｅｃｔｒｉｃ　Ｅｅｌ ///////////////////////////////////

#i figured since i spent so long on this catalog might as well put it on tumblr too. anyway. new merch. from me and jen #like idk how many ppl who will go to cf still uses tumblr or if search even works but. also i might open store in late jan/feb #comic fiesta #dragon nest #splatoon #tagging these two first specifically cuz less pop than the other ones #sousou no frieren #the frieren/sylveon stickers n academic prints n shinji tote are from jen #the 4koma comic is from rem #the rest are all mine #comic fiesta 2023 #cf2023 #comicfiesta #i feel like such an ig person when i do that (i dont use ig #comicfiesta2023 #comicfiesta 2023

[nudibutch]

i was finally able to have the house to myself for a bit today... brought all my dirty dishes out of my room and was able to tidy up a little bit without feeling weird

#by tidy up i mean put my dirty clothes into a hamper and my clean clothes onto the floor so i can reclaim my bed #i dont know why i feel so stressed taking dirty dishes out of my room with other ppl around #im self conscious. i think because my mom would get mad if she saw me doing it #and that leads to bad eating (not being able to eat) etc. #i took rlly poor care of myself this week.... but it felt like it just didnt slow down #i was barely able to feed myself cause there was just no time for grocery shopping #and i STILL need to grade tomorrow #bc thr fucking. kids. are so stupid. using chatgpt and making my head hurt #i cant wait to grocery shop tomorrow #i might try and get up early for it so theres no one around but we'll see #me saying 'i cant wait to grocery shop' u know its bad when i HATE grocery shopping #but this evening was wonderful... after a field trip day that was good for me (got sun on my face) i came home and washed my hair #and got cozy and played stardew valley and balatro #i'll do laundry tomorrow... grade... grocery shop... try and just relax #anyway ur still here. gives u a thanks 4 reading sticker

[aroacettorney]

dont mind me. im simply just putting together a ludgercasey angst collection.

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#aro ludgercasey propaganda #''why cant u be normal abt them'' how can i be normal abt them when solid 80% of their interactions is either angst or stemmed from angst. #even their ''fluff'' moments were also angst. #literally no one does angst like they do. #ludger prefers to keep most of his connections extremely impersonal/professional. #but whether or not he wants to admit it theirs on the other hand simply does not... fit in that category. #he'd even tried to convert it that way but it just didnt stick bc neither of them could help but be themselves around each other lmfao. #ludger is seemly still oblivious to caseys attempt to mend their personal relationship. #which is not too surprising considering he was also oblivious to the existence of their past relationship. #after all there was no reason for him to believe that casey would want to have anything to do with him. except maybe putting him in jail. #so pushing her away seems to be the most logical decision right? personal relationship is a luxury to him anyway. #alas casey who wanted to believe in their past friendship takes it as a sign that ludger has no interest in maintaining it. #she now has to take a step back because ''if you force a relationship it may become more estranged.'' #so unless he takes the initiative they are likely stuck in this limbo. #(casey might use impersonal excuses to stay around but rn its all up to ludger to change the nature of their relationship) #casey girlie forget him i would have treated you so much better... is what i would have loved to say. #i wouldnt be suffering this much if ludger wasnt clearly holding himself back most of the time / if it was completely one-sided from casey. #i dont know if this is a slow burn or hurt no comfort but if casey gets no closure im gonna commit arson 😔

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[risingsunresistance]

i went to a con over the weekend and bought a bunch of stuff from a rock shop. love going to cons in this area bc it's like 25% fandom junk (and i dont rlly watch anime), 50% arts and crafts, and another 25% JUST for funko pops hdhfhd

already showed you Apple :]

also got this lil tree

some mushrooms to go with my bigger mushroom that i got at a different convention from different people jdgfkh

and... ROCK PIG !! he is wonderful and also very heavy

also bag update! got the heart pin at the con, everything else has just been added/moved/etc overtime lol. need to space it out better but im tired of stabbing myself so it's fine for now

also ark got me a beetle :D

#that is all i got at the con btw 😭 #was hoping i'd see some splatoon stuff but this was the smallest con they've had yet #next con should be a bit more interesting #but i greatly enjoyed the rocks #i know ppl are wary of rock decorations like this bc they might be fake but #tbh i just like the way the look so i dont rlly care lmao #if my rock pig is actually made of Unknown Material that's okay 👍 #the heart pin is the only one i didnt pick up at the rock booth #subtlest aro pin ever 👍👍👍 IM SO MAD THEY HAD A REALLY NICE RAINBOW PIN #BUT NO IM 23 AND STILL FORCED TO BE IN A GLASS CLOSET JHDKFJK #mom i know we both know can we just get it over with already 😭 #also got to meet some exiled queer family down there and catch up talking YAYYYY their youngest added us on discord jdhdhk #it was so fucking refreshing. i thought the only other one in my family died... had no idea that was why we didnt talk to them anymore #anyways that's how my life has been sorry for the continued absence tjere's a lot hapwning rn 👍 #and by a lot i mean nothing but i stay exhausted hdhfkj it's just been. [static] ya know #chat

[toytulini]

I think i figured out increases with scales. i was over thinking it. if you'd believe it

#toy pic post #undescribed #crochet #art #scalemail #still. might look a little better in like. slightly bigger scales w the same size holes? and i need. to get. A Lot More Scales #as you can see here it used all 100 of my green metal scales and i had to dip into the plastic glow in the dark ones #i also need to crochet a little looser. cos to crochet w scales from the top down i gotta kinda. do them upside down and flip them? and if #i crochet too tight they dont wanna flip...and i cant do my usual trick of using a bigger hook cos this is the biggest hook i can use w #this hole size. anyway uh #the trick is astoundingly simple. first of all i do a scale every other stitch. and i do a half double crochet (usa terms) #and i do them every row. the half double seems to get me the height i want and work up pretty quick without getting too crowded #and then: get this. you just do the increases like normal. while still doing a scale every other stitch. and its just.....fine? #crazy shit #i was wayyy overthinking it and struggling

[snekdood]

ive been disillusioned with a lot of the left for a while, it's nice to at least see that other ppl see it now, though the reason why kinda fucking sucks.

#i used to think i could trust ppl bc of pride flags in their profile or them being trans or whatever #and then i put allll of my trust in that community not realizing theres a Multitudes of types of ppl in it #aside from even the fact some trans ppl can be nazis- some trans people- as much as it might make us look bad to admit- #are also predators and abusers and want to lie to you and use you for money and sexually abuse you and dump you like trash #and then accuse you of doing everything they did @u@;; ask me how i know! #so on the one hand im happy ppl see it now- it's not that leftists or queer ppl or feminists are better ppl- ppl more worthy to trust- #they're just as diverse and as good and as shitty as any other demographic of people. #you're gonna find shitty people everywhere. obviously you're more likely to find predators on the right but that doesnt mean theres not #plenty on the left too. #at a certain point calling yourself 'on the left' doesnt mean much aside from idk. thinking ppl need basic human rights? #and even then its apparent that some leftists dont think that. so who can say. maybe you wont misgender me? but nah- you will #if i disagree w you or if we get in a fight- i've seen plenty of leftists do this. #i just think the term is useless now. #i think the left is about to fracture into different groups at this point #anyways be weary traveler of ever putting all of ye trust into any group of people. #its possible to like ppl and enjoy being around them and still not fully trust them. and if something tells you to gtfo? you should #also putting all your trust in a group of ppl is a one way ticket into possibly joining a cult on accident #or at the very least a culty friendgroup

[liquidstar]

i finished drawing the king+queen pair for my ocverse but i figure im not going to post them just yet, bc i also wanna revamp some older designs from andy's group, and i think if i post them all at once as a set i can have all their infoboxes in one place so its more convenient (since andy's group doesn't have those in their og post)

#so itll be a royals set. w andy and her parents. and also her friends lol #neither koe or percy are royal themselves but theyre heavily sworn to the family so they still fit in #i used the same background color for the knights as for the royals to show affiliation anyway #i might also group ursa w them even tho i already posted her w an infobox and dont have any redesign in mind #just so shes w a set #this is convenient for me also bc i can have a masterpost linking every post w each different group #probably the only ones ill leave totally solo are eris and the two upcoming ones #also the only set w uncoordinated colors from these is the last one i posted w parents. bc they dont have the same affiliation #these ppl dont know each other theyre just connected to their kid so that was the background color for each #anyway this is all just me thinking out loud at this point i doubt anyones reading this far #i could say anything and you guys would never know........... #*farts* #how hilarious would it be if this was the method i used to announce to everyone that [redacted] #and it was just buried in tags no one would read so no one would ever know even though i said it #< nothing bad btw. but no ones reading this anyway so clarifying is moot point lol

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[woundjob]

what did i miss

#hi guys #i might be back because twitter is severely broken #also i was dealing with a stalker this spring and he used a bunch of side accounts to mass report me so i just fully do not have a platform #there anymore #which is a bummer but also kinda freeing #also apparently the terfs here have died down #and also my ex deleted his blog #so uh. might be back #little update abt me #im moving to canada in a month #i have two wonderful boyfriends who i love very much #im moving to canada to be with the canada one! #hes fantastic and a great listener and also just like. gets me. yknow #the other one is my bestie of many years nico #i am despite the stalker stuff and losing everything happier than i have ever been :) #i dont rlly have a reason to be back here aside from kinda missing having a platform lol #i like the attention :) #anyway! i hope everyone here is doing well #miss you people #mwah