#doesn't really come off great to me

[boneless-mika]

I have never seen a thumbnail that manages to so effectively mock both autistic and trans people at the same time. I think maybe the worst part it's very likely this is unintentional (so I'm not hating on the creator, I just think they didn't fuly think through how this would be interpreted), I don't watch transphobic or ableist content, the reason this was recommended to me I think is that I watched a few minutes of a Sad Boyz episode where they talk about The Good Doctor

#sad boyz also used this exact image of the actor for their thumbnail and idk guys #doesn't really come off great to me #again I don't think it was their intention for it to look like they were mocking autistic people but it kind of reads like it #and that makes me uncomfortable even though the titular Sad Boyz obviously wouldn't think it's okay to mock autistic people #but once again I am abnormally sensitive so maybe all other autistic people think this is fine and good and has no negative implications #but that doesn't mean my opinion is inherently wrong #thank you for not treating me like crap over it #anyway that's probably why this video ended up in my recommendeds #bc it has a similar thumbnail and subject to that video #and I guess talking about this show is super popular rn #(I do hate it FYI) #(I think it depicts autistic people badly and like only savants have value) #(and as an austic man who is below average at everything that just really hurts) #(my friends do appreciate me even though I'm not a super genius and they don't ever demand I act more like an allistic person to deserve #to be loved) #(and the idea they should or would be justified in doing so is fucked up)

[steakout-05]

//ableism mention tw

ok just gonna say something really quick: i absolutely hate Abe's characterisation in the reboot of Clone High because it is nothing like how he acted in season 1 and it just. isn't funny. they've turned this good-intentioned but flawed loser kid who just wants to be like the original Abraham Lincoln but doesn't know how to, into a self-centered and arrogant asshole who literally almost said a horrible ableist slur twice in the first episode. like. i'm being serious, he almost says the R-slur twice in the same minute and i dunno about you but i really don't find it very funny when a) the only "joke" behind it is "oh look at how bad Abe is compared to the more progressive sensitivities of the new generation of clones, isn't he just terrible", and b) they felt the need to completely rewrite a pre-existing character that fans are already attached to to do something against his own morals for the sake of a shitty joke, and c) TOPHER WAS RIGHT THERE!!! isn't he supposed to be the asshole or am i missing something?? like...

i'm not saying you can't have "edgy" or "dark" comedy or whatever, but personally, i don't find it very funny when a character that actually means quite a lot to me and is one of my favourites is twisted and rewritten into an arrogant asshole in an apparent attempt to appeal to the people who hate Abe for his flaws in the original show. especially when he's rewritten to be someone who would say a slur that's literally been used against my fellow disabled peers, myself included. it just feels... wrong. it actually hurts a lot to see a character i once loved and found to be one of the funniest and most important characters in the show be turned into an arrogant dick, with barely any thought or meaning put into him. i don't like what they did with the rest of the OG cast as well (such as Joan making a complete 180 in her entire character, JFK's character assassination, the removal of Gandhi, Cleo barely being in it etc.), but to me, they did Abe the dirtiest in this season and i'm really disappointed that one of my favourite shows had to continue like this :(

#clone high #abe lincoln #rant #sorry this post is a little heavier than what i usually post on here but i just felt like i really needed to say this #abe from clone high is actually quite an important character to me and i'm still upset that he's been written so poorly in season 2 #like he's a silly parody of a teen drama protag but honestly i think his struggles in the original series are actually really meaningful #like he's a little shy and doesn't exactly know how to express his ideas in the best way but wants to help and i just think that's so real #especially as someone who struggles with that myself #he has so much pressure to live up to the OG abraham lincoln and he really wants to be like him and tries but doesn't get it #i mean he even says something like that in episode 2 when joan and gandhi come to see him in his room and that's really relatable #so to see him so horribly misinterpreted as a selfish asshole really hurts me. #they've essentially done the thing where a fandom will tear apart the neurodivergent coded character #and write them off as selfish and arrogant and completely misinterpret everything about them #not saying that Abe is written to be neurodivergent but you get my point #it's kinda like that #he's relatable to me as an autistic person and a lot of his struggles are similar to what the autistic community experiences #also i'm sad that gandhi had to get removed because he's important to me too #he's actually one of my favourite ADHD reps on tv i've seen and he's just really funny #i know he was removed because people in India got offended and they probably don't wanna cause another incident like that again #but still it's such a shame he couldn't be included because he was a great character #also slightly unrelated but i think turning characters into a moral debate it stupid and often results in stuff like this happening #ableism mention #tw ableism mention

[itsybitsylemonsqueezy]

Really getting quite disappointed about the number of people on my dash reacting to the DDOS attack on AO3 with "GOOD!" :/ Like, even as a joke...

Gonna have to think about cleaning up my follows I think.

#not aimed at anyone in particular #not trying to vague blog #It's just disheartening and even a little disturbing to me to watch people gleefully dog pile on or shrug it off as karma or some shit #I really don't understand where all this ill will comes from #and the thing I most want to ask is where do you want people to go? #What perfect website do you have in mind that will be the great moral bastion of fan expression? #I don't even demand that you have one ready to go just... #What do you envision as a replacement? #If you're that mad about XYZ AO3 does or doesn't do... what the fuck is your solution? #*sigh*

[vitamin-zeeth]

every time I see someone with a doctor who take or theory or anything that puts any weight whatsoever on 13s run I like immediately stop reading and just skim the rest of it. No hate to them I just

- didn't like the run

- gave up watching it during the timeless child arc cause the lore inaccuracies pissed me off

- generally ignore its existence cause it's easier

#to me everything osst like her first season is not canon sry #i didnt like the direction the show took i didnt like thewriting style or the general production style #it kinda felt like a weird dream id have when i was ill and had just been watching a bubch of dr who #also im a jay exci fan forever and always so the 5 Hour Dr Who Video Essay is a big part of my dislike #they made some great points and put ibto words loads of vague feelings id had about the series in a way i really liked #i only realised recently that a lot of dw tumblr is actually way into 13s run lmao so maybe this is a controversial take #but if it is then BREAKING MY SILENCE EXCLAMATION MARK EXCLAMATION MARK SHOCKED FACE SERIOUS FACE F WORD FACE #sorry non dw mutuals for putting more dw on your dash also trust me on this im really correct and cool and you agree with me B) #i also really hope this doesn't come off as passive aggressive towards anyone other than chris chibnall idgaf what you guys vibe with #anyway #dw #doctor who #look. chibnall made some wild lore decisions in his run that imo he did not by any means earn. so for that fuck you chibnall

[anarcho-masochist]

Okay, I thought this was universal but maybe my last three therapists were right that it is not:

Is it normal for boredom to be truly unbearable?

As in, worse than anything else, would rather get eviscerated while fully conscious, will do anything to escape it which might actually include suicide if no satisfactory options are available?

#it's bad #and no it's not 'when you aren't distracted you're forced to experience existing pain' #I'm not generally suicidal. There are a lot of things I enjoy and want to do. I have plenty of problems but I tend not to care about them. #I do have things to do. Usually even if I don't want to do anything I can entertain myself since I can't switch my brain off anyways. #Literally infinite things to think about #The problem is when none of it feels interesting or exciting enough. Which doesn't make any sense at all. #If I'm unbearably bored and a friend makes the mistake of talking to me I get really toxic. It is a problem. #Usually I have great self control when it comes to destructive or toxic behaviors but not so when I want to end it all because nothing is #interesting enough. #It's like 'if I do something really extreme I'll stop because bored' #Bad things happen... #Or I try to overdose or slit my wrists #better yet is when I try to get myself killed because suicide isn't good enough.... great reasoning (disappointed) #I met three of my ex boyfriends that way #Note to self to stop fucking men i get in knife fights with PLEASE #it is ALWAYS a bad idea. Has never turned out well. #Invariably they always either have anger management/impulse control issues or they're just arrogant jerks who want to be tougher than you #sometimes both #Man really rambling in the tags here. Should probably delete that. Oh well. POST

[deancoded-deangirl]

hello can nick and i get married yet just asking for a friend

#he's the weirdest dude but he's so fucking patient with me #i need someone patient and stable to ride the emotional waves with me until i get better at self regulating #so far i'm getting really good at telling him that i need a minute or i'm going to be mean and passive aggressive #so then he gives me a minute and i regroup and then can speak rationally #which is GREAT for me who was once so brutally cruel instinctively #anyway by patient and stable i didn't mean he's my punching bag #i just meant that he doesn't match my extreme emotions (he will match excitement and happiness) and thus provides a baseline #like he stays steady so when i'm upset or mad he'll ask why and i break it down and by the time it's broken down i'm like... okay #so there was no reason to be upset #and we talk about impact vs intent all the time like sometimes he a lil weird in talking so it comes off bad #but yeah he's just really stable and so it's easy to bring myself back if no one is hyping me up #and whenever i'm irritated with him i'll still call his ass and put myself on mute and fall asleep with him on the phone #he's very good at calling me out too (he's also great at taking accountability if he does something) #like one time he showed me a video and i only watched a sec before jumping down his throat #and he called me out and i apologized and redirected and all #one time he had an attitude (when I was upset) and i was like dude what's with the tone #he's also good at like... idk what to call it #but he told me during one of those times when i was upset that it wasn't fair to him to say no but then expect him to do it anyway #because how was he supposed to know when to listen to me and when to not? it was a no win for him and it wasn't fair #and you know what? he was so correct and true for it #i apologized for that too #anyway. when can i marry him. #nick

[draconicace]

ashfkaj kim you cannot just let me off the hook for stealing the boots. i desecrated a dead man's body

#aiden's monologuing #ailbde #i thought i was going to be able to sell them. and well. i wanted to know why on earth the game would let me do this #turns out i got some cool new shoes #i really hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the ass. it would be funny if it did though #my outfit's great now. got a mesh tank and a silk robe hanging off one shoulder #armored boots cool sunglasses and a hat

[cerbreus]

had a trainwreck of an in person consult for my sleeve tattoo yesterday only made better by the itty bitty yorkie shop dog adoring me and sitting on my lap the whole time.

#also chatting with my partner after ofc i felt so much better tysm chris ♥ #but yeah it was not great #it was supposed to be on friday #but she changed it last minute saying she was too busy can we do it the next day at 5 instead? yeah fine #kinda disappointing she didn't tell me in time to like do smth with friends i was invited to but had to opt out of bc of the consult #but whatever #get there early text her that i'm there. stand out side. in the rain. for 15 minutes. she didn't see the text. she didn't see me outside. #in fact.. she was in the middle of tattooing somebody. the client noticed me after 15 minutes and finally let her know. #she comes over all suspicious like. cracks the door and asks 'who are you?what do you want' #even after i say i have a consultation at 5 she didn't remember it was HER who had the consult. i had to rattle off all the details for her #to finally remember it was HER consult and say 'oh i completely forgot about that' #finally get let in and sit down and. she then spends the next couple minutes profusely apologizing to the other client. saying like #'ohhh im so sorry i completely forgot i had a consult scheduled.... i'll get this over with quick' which. well. :( #finally start going through it. she doesn't remember anything about the tattoo. not that it was a sleeve. not what elements were in it. :( #i wasn't expecting a sketch or anything but. even just having re-read the emails before the consult would have... been nice.... #after she does that she says 'oh we didn't really need an in person consultation' which is also. :( because she suggested it. #i get a whole like 5 minutes to rehash stuff we already went over in emails including her not remembering i'd put down a deposit AND we had #3 sessions scheduled already.... and it needs another 2 sessions which i wish she'd told me about because she's booked so far out my last #session might not be until. may. #i didn't even get to ask any questions! i wanted to ask! like does she use saniderm? (i can't have that on my skin) #does she want other things for a tip than just cash? (absolutely not offering that now) has she dealt with KP before? are there any things #she wants me to bring to the sessions? (they're gonna be long) #and then i'm rushed out the door and sitting in my car in the rain and just absolutely fucking crushed #and feeling bad that i feel so bad because like. is it entitled of me to think that like. #maybe if u have a client paying u thousands of dollars to design & tattoo their sleeve tattoos.... you'd like.... treat them like a client #i was so excited about my sleeve i was so fucking psyched and now im. not. at all. #i'm worried about what if she forgets about my appts? what if she books over my appts like she already did with just my consult? #and i'm left hanging trying to get things scheduled in so so so so late like i'm some second rate flaky walk in.... #i guess it could have gone worse

[silverselfshippingchaos]

this is one of my favorite k.yohei moments!!

#he's just so sweet!! #that's my husband right there!!! :D!!! he's such a great guy and i love how kind he is #ash rambles 💚 #he's so comforting and sweet and i just wanna kiss him and tell him i love him! and thank him for being the best husband ever!!! #my s/i doesn't always feel great abt herself and pre-relationship he once gave her a whole 'you're worth it' speech #and ever since then she's been so comfortable being who she is around him #and hey clearly he did something right since they got married a few years later but still #my husband!!! he's the best!!! i love him #he's been on my mind a lot today #that and uh. you know how reboot d.ante is my bestie forever? and you know how he has a twin brother that's lowkey evil as shit? #that twin brother also happens to be my s/i's ex! he's a horrible guy but fuuuccckkk he's sooooooo attractive #also i'm so not okay about his dlc. THE STORYTELLING... THE SYMBOLISM... AHJSQHDJQHJEHA #yeah he's been on my mind. one of my fave characters <3 he broke my s/i's heart and has done horrible irredeemable things but he's so l #so well-written and also soooo hot hehe! sorry d.ante but- oh but d.ante's reaction to finding out they dated was so funny ajskajsj #d.ante assumes it was a one night kinda thing since my d.mc s/i does that a lot but. nope. his brother was all 'nope. she was my gf.' #anyhow that relationship ended horribly which is part of the reason why ash is the way she is- anyhow d.mc lore aside!!! once i start #talking about this game i seriously cant stop LMAAAOOO back to my husband!! #he's the best and he makes me feel so safe! i love my husband! kiss kiss kiss! also i really love kissing his wedding ring. he's just the #best! and he's such a great dad to my fankiddo too! i love this fankid <3 she doesnt have a name yet (i call her daughterdota) but she's #so cool! usually wears a hat like her dad! she can come off as kinda 😐 sometimes but she's sweet!! she loves her skateboard and her pet dog #who is a shiba inu named ginger! i love her <3 ! #and i love my husband!! #okay it's getting late and i have class tomorrow- goodnight my friends!

[whipplefilter]

When Lightning & Cruz started out as CC & racer, what was something outside of general inexperience that other race teams and crew chiefs noticed and thought "ah! - that's a chink in their armor that we can use in our strategy"? On the other tire, what was the first thing that the Ramirez/McQueen duo noticed about another racer or team that they actively tried using to their own advantage?

Lightning's tendency to default to coaching Cruz the way he'd run the race, rather than the best way for Cruz to run the race. Theoretically he knows that he and Cruz are different cars, and what setups and strategies work best for him aren't necessarily what's going to be the optimal options for her. But being able to execute on that in the moment is far easier said than done--Lightning's an instinctual being, and a lot of was he does operates purely on feel. There's a flow.

Crew chiefing Cruz is actually not that--and it's not something that comes naturally to him, particularly given how much of Lightning's career has been spent crew chiefing for himself (both by virtue of having fired his crew chief, or in the wake of Doc's death). It's a hard reflex to un-learn, particularly when the thing you're trying to do instead is something wholly out of your element.

The worst-kept secret in the garage: Lightning is not actually a great crew chief. He's completely average, and rendered even less effective due to inexperience. He will never be a generational talent when it comes to CCing--certainly not the way he very much was as a racer.

It's possible for the other teams to use this to their advantage, by being able to predict how the 51 team is likely to approach a given race (because the less experience/facility Cruz has with a track, the more likely it is Lightning is going to end up defaulting to his own strategies--strategies that aren't optimized for Cruz and that are at this point VERY well-known to any regular viewer of the Piston Cup. The small boon for the 51 team here is that Lightning's "usual" racing style is fairly unpredictable, so at least there's that). The other teams also know that if the 51 team already appears to be flirting with disaster, applying pressure to them will probably cripple their race strategy pretty well.

It would be a mistake, however, to write off the 51 team because of this, and to assume this means they won't be a threat to be reckoned with. Because here's the thing: Cruz was never meant to be a racecar, either. Neither of them have any business being out there in the roles that they are in--but they won the Florida 500 in their first stint out, and it will not be their last. Because they know that these are not the roles that they were built for, and they are smart enough to be smart about it. They have drive enough to work twice as hard to get half as far, to push their brains and bodies to places that don't come naturally, and to find the weird solutions that no one else could possibly have ever seen--because the path they're taking isn't one. And sometimes that added pressure is exactly the thing they need to sneak through that window.

That's what makes the 51 team dangerous.

#as for what the 51 teams uses against other teams--I think they're mostly just focused on trying to run their race! #they certainly got into storm's head at the florida 500 and threw him off but tbh that's not very classy #even if storm was the one being un-classy first #if they don't feel some shame about that... they should #but even if they don't when talking about what does and doesn't come naturally to the 51 team #i think running their race and only their race is something that definitely does #lightning mcqueen #cruz ramirez #cars fandom #pixar cars #cars 3 #not me back on my 'lightning working really hard at something he is at BEST completely average at' bs again #i think he has a lot of conflicted feelings about that #and about coming to terms with the idea that you can put your whole being into something you'll never be great at #(plenty of piston cup backrunners do this for entire careers) #but i think it will be good for him #asks #thanks for this ask!

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Nothing quite as humbling as looking back at your old takes and realizing that you were completely wrong

#this happens for me when i'm emotionally invested in a character or show and won't let myself acknowledge that it's bad #like i thought the wandavision finale was 'great'...i did so much meta-writing about loki before finally admitting it sucked... #theory-wise i'm not typically incredibly off but when it comes to evaluating quality i do have a subjectivity issue #like moon knight--i really loved that show and did not recognize most of the pacing or plot issues until the finale #to be clear i still love the show because despite its imperfect story the character exploration and acting really held it together #and i love that they took things in a new direction with how deep they were willing to go with exploring trauma #but it was definitely not as good as i was feeling like it was...and it's ok to like things in spite of flaws #i just have to be aware of them haha #but also sometimes i'll absorb other people's critical takes even when they're off-base (e.g. worried about something that doesn't happen) #like with the season finale to the mandalorian season 2--there was some strong criticism of it and i jumped on that train #because i was worried that they were completely abandoning the story and relationships that they had put in place #and canon has since confirmed they aren't (although i still haven't watched bobf) so those worries were at least largely unfounded #but i am still concerned about how they intend to treat din's religion and what his arc will be bc it can still go badly #however those concerns should not make me evaluate existing content unfairly #all of this is why i am so absolutely resistant to seeing any criticism of kenobi #because i am enjoying this show so thoroughly that i don't want anything to burst my bubble #if it is truly not that great i'll recognize that soon enough once the joy of seeing my BOY on screen again wears off #but i am being so positively affected by this show that i don't want anything to burst that bubble #especially because as stated above a lot of criticism comes from people being worried that they'll do something that they aren't doing #like making the show all about vader was a common preemptive criticism. it is clear that is not what's happening #anyway that's an awful lot of thoughts but in short yeah my takes are not perfect and sometimes i am too forgiving #but also i (and others) have been too harsh before and really all it does is kill the joy! i just wanna enjoy the things i love #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags

[moonlayl]

For the sake of humour, they made Jennifer Walters ridiculously incompetent, even though she’s supposed to be a good lawyer both in the MCU and in the comics.  

#it's annoying tbh #and like...I thought the first episode wasn't bad #but it's just more and more ridiculous situations and her not really learning anything? #like she comes off as obnoxious and self-centered #and not in a 'she's supposed to be a flawed character so those are her flaws' way #more in a 'she's super strong and great and this is what a girl boss look like' #looks* #where's the struggle in being a superhero outside of it affecting her dating life? #they legitimately had her more upset about going against the guy making her her dress #than about defending the man who attempted to murder her cousin #like initially when people went berserk over her angry outburst in the first episode #I didn't agree with them because idk I felt they would actually expand on that? #like okay she can perfectly control the hulk. clearly she doesn't realise how difficult it would be like #I thought the next few episodes would show us her struggling with it after her initial 'everything is fine. I'm fine.' phase #but no....she was legitimately fine. with a big change like that. wtf? #like she says something along the lines of 'I work for THEM' but she chose to do it and didn't really fight it? #and don't even get me started on her using 'she-hulk' to try and find dates #that was just weird. #15 year old Peter Parker thought about it and recognised the ridiculousness in that #and he was only wanting to impress ONE girl who he KNEW was a fan of spiderman #and he STILL immediately talked himself out of it. He's 15. #'is there anything more depressing than dating in your 30s?' #yeah...how about a terrifying transformation that gives you new powers and changes your body and impacts every aspect of your life? -_- #anti mcu #jennifer walters #she hulk #anti she hulk #marvel meta #in the tags #layl.text

[datastate]

Honestly respect you so much for doing a canon rewrite and making an intense effort not to overwrite the development of other characters and overall themes. I know it's hard work because I've been working on a similar project for YEARS with a different fandom and Boy... It is a time. Best of luck to you!!

thank you so much!!! i wish you luck with your own projects too!! this is a very kind message, and it means a lot ♡

I've kind of rambled on abt AUs and this specific one and such because I'm tired, but I'll put that under the cut.

honestly i was very close to putting this project in particular down because - well, it is a bit indulgent! i am satisfied with how kai's story ends in-game, but i still wondered specifically how his dynamics with other characters would form if he was alive. this was especially important to me because ... we don't get to see much of sara's reaction! which is a shame! because she's the only person that really had any connection with him prior to the death game, and i would've liked to see her process it more.

BUT I've gone on. my point here was: i almost had to put it down because if sara and kai were to begin to reconcile, then kai would end up filling in the place that nao currently takes (specifically as a source of support and not wanting sara to burden herself) and it would be a disservice to both of their characters. and i didn't want that!!!

part of why chapter two hits so hard for me is because of the dynamic between sara and nao after the events of chapter one. they both admire the other for being strong, and try their best to support each other after the losses they endured. in order to keep this, i needed to add other factors to the story that would keep kai from disrupting it - beyond the fact that he wouldn't wish to make her uncomfortable. remedying this was an issue i had for a long time, but because it's been in the background for a while, i've found an alternative way to keep the weight of sou's antagonism, nao's support, and kai having a strong presence in the story without directly interacting with sara herself as often as others do. i could go into that but i am sleepy and this is getting long aghsms

but yeah!!! something i really appreciate about the original game is how these themes (especially of humanity and healing/grieving) are conveyed through the characters and their relation with each other (even in this short time) and in order to recreate the feeling of these satisfying arcs, you'd have to figure out why the original ones were put there at all! which usually ties into the overarching message and...idk aghsms dissecting this stuff is really fun for me, regardless of whether or not I'm trying to recreate it with stuff like this! but it really does help, especially with the relatively short time we have with the characters in this situation, to make it feel complete and fit in line with the impact the game provides without like...completely ripping the same few lines for its use? if that makes sense? like, understanding why this works is a key part to making the au feel complete and not just. shallow...? which sounds a little harsh, and i don't intend for it to be, because those can still be enjoyable! but it's just not my type of story???

surprisingly! i don't really like aus, generally. at least not making them myself. the premises are usually cool! I'll read a few on occasion. but i tend to be really thorough when i write things, and that's part of why my original story stuff has taken so long [alongside the entire. plot revamp OTL] too. i feel the need to pick apart every bit and make sure it's reasoned out properly, which is why a lot of my other wips tend to be left behind too...! if i can't figure out when this would take place, and it's not an easy fix to readjust to be compliant with the timeline, I'll usually discard it or completely rewrite it later on. it's not necessarily a good habit, but it's how i tend to work when it comes to writing!

erm. this was a lot afhsms but my main point is that...it really does mean a lot to me when the effort is actually recognized and i really do hope when i finish this project that it does work well and that I'm able to get the idea across as I've meant to!!! I really love yttd as it stands and i just hope this theoretical ends up feeling as put together and satisfying as most of the game has been so far! (just...hesitantly looking at ch3 ngl agbsms)

#agggh i cannot emphasize how happy this msg made me :] ik i got off track bc I'm in a rambling mood (incoherent ver) #but like...yeah!!! i like stories that primarily expand upon what we're given and still feel so...embedded in that world #it's part of sbabI's appeal to me!! (an hk fic. i really love it) #and I really hope this doesn't come off as pretentious im just autistic and this is how i prefer to enjoy the stories i love #i like digging into them and seeing how it works and i can only hope to somewhat emulate it when im figuring out fanwork!!! #that's part of why i got so happy when someone complimented how i wrote mask//maker (hk) as if it was actual dialogue #because i like looking into lore and speculating on it and even for characters like that where the speech style is unfamiliar #it's just so fun to look into how they got to this point in the snapshot im writing and using that to write the pov AND to #show how much is kept to themself by comparison. or the subtleties (as is the case w mm especially) of its core conflict #AHHHH IM TALKING TOO MUCH. UM. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! HAVE A GREAT NIGHT #ask #anonymous

[godofsmallthings]

anyway on a personal note (as if i don't overshare on this website every day) i have never felt more at peace & grounded & genuinely excited during a taylor release and i'm really glad that i was able to get to a place where being a fan of hers (yes, even a superfan/stan) feels very manageable

#i think a lot of it is just general growing up stuff #but ive done soooo much self-reflection in the past couple years and it was really hard honestly #but i think im finally figuring out how to do this in a healthy way for me #and it's been great because i can literally just enjoy this shit and take the swings as they come #without getting so caught up in the noise #like i feel excited and it's overwhelming but it doesn't feel uncontrollable #i can tap into it or turn it off when i need <3 #anyway fandom is tricky to navigate and u little gay ppl in my phone make it worthwhile #vi is typing...

[lord-radish]

So it turns out that 8 seasons of The Blacklist is bordering on too much. Not because I don't still enjoy it, but because it's got a relentless myth arc that doesn't have nearly enough resolution the longer it goes on.

I think there's a trope on TV Tropes called the Chris Carter Effect, named after the showrunner of the X-Files, where a show will keep adding onto its myth arc until the show implodes and people stop watching because they don't care what the mystery is any more. It took one turn too many, kept people on the hook for so long that they ate through the bait and decided they didn't want to be reeled in.

For the most part, I think shows that do this aren't wholly planned out. I think Lost was a big example of this in the 2000's, it was written as it was being filmed and the ending disappointed because they couldn't possibly resolve everything in a way that made sense - it was never written to make sense. From what I hear, the X-Files pulled the same move of building up this myth arc even when it was revived. Some shows thrive on that "down the rabbit hole" feeling without actually having an endgame.

I don't think The Blacklist is that kind of show. It is absolutely a "rabbit hole" type show, it's a conspiracy thriller - what I mean is that I think it has an endgame that it's had set in stone since at LEAST season four. The issue is that it just isn't giving up the goods, and the conflict is now being built on top of that tension instead of resolving the tension. It's beginning to get frustrating.

#the blacklist #mind you I still like the show #and also frankly? I like what they're doing with elizabeth keen. haters fuck off #I'm at the point where seasons 1 and 4 are my favorite seasons. season 6 marked a significant decline imo #some of that is because of keen. some of it is because of reddington. I'm firmly on keen's side in that she's been drawn into this mess #and she hasn't had any agency or any relief from this waking nightmare that the past 8 years of her life has been #people on imdb are going 'shes the worst part of the show just kill her already' and it's so annoying #like she's a flip-flopping primetime TV protagonist. it comes with the territory y'know. she does her job as a character and it's fine imo #that's the worst part of the viewing experience so far - this fanbase that's frothing at the mouth insisting she's the worst part #I'm not entirely happy with her character arc either but the hate is just really shitty #ultimately the way the show handles her character can be poor #lots of character shilling while a list of her manipulating and hurting everyone else keeps adding up. that's a bit frustrating #that being said - as a relative civilian being groomed into the criminal lifestyle by a person who's clearly close to her #but never actually discloses his relationship to her? who is proven to be so deceitful past a certain point #that she can't even trust him after what he had her believe? #and trust me I know what the big fan theory about that is. the reason I'm watching the show is because of that. and I'm loving it #but elizabeth keen doesn't know that. and she's turning to extreme measures just to find closure for a mystery that reddington opened up #just by stepping into her life without telling her why. I 100% side with keen even if her character can be wonky #and her methods aren't great. I totally get why she's like this. and I don't like how other people react to her showing up for 2 minutes #by docking review points for the episode and saying they should kill her off. I'm really getting sick of that

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oh man, sorry for the radio silence this week but going from doing nothing all day for months on end to suddenly working full time has been an adjustment and i went to family friends' wedinng last night so i had basically zero time for anything else. haven't even gotten around to listening to the new Teen Talk yet and it's been half a week since it came out

#I'm absolutely loving the new job so far though which i wasn't really expecting #my colleagues are all really nice which is great #and i think I'm doing a pretty good job considering i had no prior experience in the field #for some reason my crippling anxiety over making phone calls doesn't extend to making/taking calls for work either? #who would've guessed #getting up at 6am every day sucks but even that is not as bad i thought it would be #and the wedding last night was absolutely amazing #i even made a new friend! we were actually both at another wedding last year but never talked that night #but yesterday we started chatting and immediately hit it off #never been this comfortable about a new acquaintance this quickly before #she lives kinda far away but already invited me to come visit her soon when i have some time off work #I don't think I've been this happy in many many years #irl bullshit