#crazymaking

[kings-speaks]

uncertainty principles

crazymaking burnout culture who the fuck knows what goes on in the news anymore? i fought for safety with my fingernails, blood between my teeth, screaming my beliefs out loud, because i believed if i could just make it out of the frying pan, i would be happy. now the whole world is on fire. (or it always was) freedom, safety no longer promises deferred but expectations pushed upon us. aren’t you happy? aren’t you happy? this is normal, this is normal, this is paranoia, the war is over, the war is ten different petty arguments on twitter, meanwhile people are dying, drowned in debt or choking in a respirator and yet another politician is trying to make me illegal, but sure, i’m the crazy one.

get up, coward, i scream at myself, get up and fucking fight, but my fingernails hit air, leave trails of glitter in this technicolor dreamworld, and honestly, i’m just fighting to stay on my feet as the world bucks and shifts under me. the other day, someone said to me “the center cannot hold,” but i think the center has been missing for a while now, and we’re all just stars, missing our galaxy, flung far out and spinning on and on and on into some new nightmare dance like fucked up marrionets

but maybe we’re not. maybe they’re right, and we’re about to land in the pillow of the soft, warm, ground. i can’t tell, and it’s making me kind of crazy.

what is true but irrelevant? what looks beautiful but lies?

please, give me something to bite into, give me something that my teeth can hold. please, just let me taste blood again. at least then i’ll know what to do.

#poetry #poets on tumblr #poets and writers #burnout #covid-19 #crazymaking

[leclercenjoyer]

#pierre gasly #esteban ocon #pierresteban #pg10 #eo31 #pgeo #insanemaking shot. truly crazymaking. #salt and pepper shaker-coded #they literally color code themselves it makes me CRAZY #the difference in their shapes also makes me insane

[paramountie]

currently having a mental breakdown over all the scenes where Fraser makes Ray Kowalski laugh, bc so few people realize Fraser is funny on purpose and even fewer people like his weird sense of humor

#due south #fraser x kowalski #thinking of the Lou scagnetti scene and multiple times on odds #absolutely crazymaking #Sarah talks

[mybrainproblems]

"Hey, there were 3,000 people at that convention. You were the one I thought wasn't boring. That says something."

sick and twisted there aren't more fic for the absolutely insane meet cute of bailing a stranger out of jail simply bc he wasn't boring but also implies that house was already aware of wilson pre-arrest which like? hello?? HELLO???

like okay fine. let's say house was just at the bar already; that man was looking

on god how is this not half the fic written after 5x04 birthmarks aired??

#it feels more insane when you look at pics of hugh laurie and rsl from the 90s and are like. hm. hmmm. #hate crimes md and hilson not quite on the level of spn and destiel but still crazymaking #i do not want to write it. only read it. i'm sorry 😔 i just don't think i can get the voice and tone down #hate crimes md #hilson

[transmutationisms]

man remember when queer eye was really big on here and it was deeply obvious how many people view a lack of interest in fashion / interior design as inherently pathological & self-loathing lmfao fucking BLEAK

#i watched zero minutes of the show ever i just mean the discussions sparked by it.... crazymaking

[evendumbo]

#tedbecca #I don't feel like a clown because tedbecca didn't happen #disappointing but whatever i'll live #i feel like a clown because i've been defending them from accusations of lazy writing for over two years #just for rich people to talk about fans derisively as they wave goodbye? #shippers and antis unite on the picket line to support artistic accountability and refusal of crazymaking #and you know economic justice and whatnot

[mummer]

love that despite surface level structural similarities bcs is very much like: the love was there it matters that the love was there thats the tragedy etc etc etc etc etc and barry is like: What the fuck do you mean “love”. No such thing. Not real sorry. it was never real and even if it was it never mattered anyway. Also fuck you

#two very very different ideas of tragedy in equally fun and interesting ways i think #crazymaking characters who literally have no idea what love is at all. sometimes you remember just how cynical it is lol #barry #imagine being capable of love… cant relate… #in a way barry is more of a sociological story and bcs is more interpersonal #like not completely either way but i think bcs really does care about the humanity of these characters in a different way #vs barry being more about the structures trapping them #does that make sense probably not

[moregraceful]

Kas I just went to the last page of the men's hrpf tag on ao3 which is fics backdated to 2002 and one of them included the note "(Originally posted to the Hockey Dreams Yahoo! mailing list)" and The Lore runs so rich and so deep, only those who were there when the deep magic was written truly know!!!

My white whale is knowing whether or not people were making sports rpf zines in the 70s and 80s bc i feel quite confident that they would have gone hard af. However I do not have access to the University of Iowa's special collections and archives, so I will never know 😔

#can you even imagine how hard the f1 rpf fanzines would have gone in the late 80s #crazymaking just thinking abt it #cage replies #peardita

[valeroyeaux]

katherine arden you son of a bitch youve done it again

#love winternight so so much (easily one of the best trilogies to come from the slavic folklore craze a few years ago) #and the warm hands of ghosts is. whew #very different in terms of writing style but gorgeous and crazymaking

[ghostzzy]

i think i’ve made this post before but it’s worth repeating that i pity every single person on earth because they will never know about mack and rachel and florence and zack. what a sad life that must be.

#so sorry but they’re the most crazymaking characters anyone has ever created in human history. #and they belong just to me and yonks. to live forever in our burner email boxes <3 #yonks wake up i’m reading old emails and . Them. they. #izzy.txt

[onewomancitadel]

The really weird thing about the sort of semi-prevalent attitude (in more implicit and explicit forms) that what you do in fiction is real, not that it has realistic consequences but even is even its own type of imaginary harm (which is like... legitimately crazymaking on its own) is that if you extend that beyond erotica and/or enemies-to-lovers of whatever is targetted du jour, if, say - and this is the prominent example that comes to mind - you put your character through trials and tribulations, how are readers not meant to wonder a) how much you specifically want to harm the character in question - that it is a real harm! and b) hmm maybe you're a bit fucked up for cooking up a narrative like this, aren't you? No matter how much it reflects the actual human condition of suffering.

So it is untenable, as always, because it is crybullying and a reactionary politics but its own contradictions come to the fore quite easily if you apply it logically. Beyond that, when I gestured to implicit beliefs, I do think that people really do feel, on some subconscious level, that storytelling is real, and when your author is particularly mean to your favourite character, it feels like they're hurting them on purpose. I think that's a function of narrative, not aberrant, but it's not surprising how it feeds into, or has some aetiological influence on 'anti' antics.

At the heart of it, though, is something that really sterilises storytelling, and I think this is anti-humanistic in its own way! Storytelling is cathartic! And it's incredibly odd to foster a panopticon that judges how much harm you secretly want to inflict on other people, or indeed imaginary characters, based on... basic narrative challenges and trials and tribulations and sometimes - even - torment. There are much more concrete ways to judge that which don't fundamentally compromise narrative or actually encourage pathological behaviour.

#stirring the pot #like 'you secretly want to do harm based on the things you write about (like characters being emotionally tormented)' #is a genuine OCD rumination #and from the other side of it it is genuinely crazymaking to think that about other people #you need to be able to judge harm based on actual presence of harm #and documented patterns of behaviour #not abstract 'everybody might secretly be evil because they torment fictional characters and put them through heroic trials'

[ghostpunkrock]

msr really is the purest case of hetbait I’ve ever seen in my life tho every single ep some random guy goes up to them and says you mean you two aren’t banging each other and they go haha no that would be silly we just work together we’re very platonic friends and then every writer and producer swarms out and starts kicking me and hitting me with baseball bats

#I know many have said this but now I am also saying it. it’s crazymaking fr

[televisionforwhales]

Of course part of the insanity of the Happy Place 4.05 is inextricable from the show's lack of follow through. It's devastating enough on its own merit (on purpose! I'm gonna love you on purpose!) but we also have the meta knowledge of what it's all leading to (or not leading to) and we're left salvaging what we can and throwing out whatever we wanna refuse

#crazymaking show