#couldn’t get that space thing in there

[why-the-heck-not]

So I changed my thesis topic and it’s gonna be abt cybersecurity issues in BCIs (brain-computer interfaces), mmmight focus on neurological cyber attacks (”brainjacking” but I HATE that word, and will refuse to use it at all costs) but not too sure yet. But anyways, I’m feeling excited abt this whole thing again! 🧠

The only interests I’ve actually ever had have been space, crime things (mostly just criminology), neuroscience and coding. And this sort of incorporates 3 of them, so idk why I didn’t decide to go with this in the first place.

(this was my og plan tho, I just got ??insecure?? abt it bc not much of ML or AI in there, or even anything *that* technical (probs will have some pseudocode algorithms but not a lot). But honestly like it’s a bachelor’s thesis; just a practice run for the other theses you’re (maybe) going to do, the main thing for this one is to have something interesting to you & learn about the process)

#couldn’t get that space thing in there #’’neurological cyber attacks iN SPACE’’ god I’d want to write whatever the fuck that would be but that’s just not a thing #ba thesis struggle diary #january 2024 #2024

[hearts4pearlescentmoon]

Something I did for art class

#art #x’s art #traditional art #will wood #will wood and the tapeworms #self ish #self-ish #Sorry if the time date or amount is off #I couldn’t get those of of what was available on YouTube and I feel bad for asking people here because I feel like I’m wasting their time #Also I know the tapeworms logo is super small #I drew it like that in the sketch and just called it a day lol #The project was to make some ticket thing and it was super cool #I thought of doing one for a litwtc live event trww screanings the unknowing and the beholding #But went to this because I thought it would be “the most fun to do” #It was fun but I spent like 7-8 hours on it lol #I got a hundred so it was worth it #Also sorry the 20 is off center #I left that space as like a thing to punch the ticket or whatever

[spacelazarwolf]

always wild to get the most horrifically transphobic comments from someone then check their profile to see they have “she/they” in their bio.

#and it’s so weird bc they always come from this odd place of being defensive of womanhood #like in a very te/rfy way #like ‘well you’re a MAN now so you couldn’t POSSIBLY understand what us FEMMES go through’ #like bestie that was literally me a year ago #i fully do understand #it feels very ‘silence gender traitor’ #and like #idk how to say this in a less abrasive way #but changing your pronouns or being nonbinary doesn’t mean you can’t be transphobic #bc in the past few weeks i’ve experienced a WEIRD amount of transphobia from non transitioning nonbinary people #who just REFUSE to get that our experiences are different #or who look down on me for making the ‘wrong’ choice in my transition #and like obviously not all nonbinary ppl are like this #but a lot of non transitioning ppl who were afab tend to be vulnerable to falling for te/rf rhetoric #just by virtue of their life experiences and which communities they often start out in #and like this is obviously part of a larger conversation abt ra/df/rn rhetoric in queer spaces #but it’s just one of those things i wish i could talk abt without ppl immediately jumping to conclusions abt my views

[e-adlirez]

Chinese/Lunar New Year

So uh for the past few days I’d been contemplating a Chinese New Year piece for this year in particular because uh it’s the Year of the Dragon and that plus dragon dance so perfect a combination it makes, but uh… admittedly I bit more than I could chew so uh :’D

I wasn’t able to make a full artwork in time, but I do have my cleaned up sketch to show for the holiday, so without further ado, happy Chinese/Lunar New Year Stilton fandom <3

It’s very not complete and the dragon’s details aren’t even drawn in but I hope ya’ll like it anyway

I am planning on finishing this tho so stay tuned for that :3

#geronimo stilton #thea stilton #thea sisters #lunar new year #chinese new year #year of the dragon #I was thinking of having thea hold the pearl of wisdom but i didn’t know if she’d fit #turns out she could so I might add her in as i work on this piece #I legit didn’t realize the negative space to the left until i was like about to do colette’s bit here #she was a pita to draw btw because of her body angle :’D #paulina also took me a while to get to a point where i was satisfied #the girls made the dragon themselves lmao #soda gremlin and i were discussing in vc a possible scenario where the girls tried to buy a dragon online but it didn’t pan out #either because they couldn’t find a dragon the size they needed or because uh #see vi warned them not to buy from any sketchy chinese sites like anything run by dpp shells because let’s be real shinu is hella sketchy #(haha temu roast go brr) #but guess where the other girls wound up finding a dragon at #and guess how long it lasted them #correct unit is in minutes #soooo they had to make their own and it turned out pretty good all things considered :D

[opera-ghost]

me laughing at the same jokes i’ve heard 1000 times every time i listen to/watch a recording of phantom

#and i swear it gets funnier every time! #was dying while listening to an audio today #(it was specifically nehal joshi during the il muto ballet) #(i could not stop laughing and i couldn’t even SEE him it was just his delivery) #(ugh he’s so funny i love him) #poto shitpost #also side note im about to go on a tangent #but my phantom hyperfixation runs so deep and i have so many thoughts about it #i have at least 100 posts in my drafts about it and i’m not exaggerating #they’re mostly silly memes but it’s still like an overload of posts about phantom #and i’m like. insecure about how much i think about it???? and how much of my headspace i dedicate to it???? #so i keep the bulk of the memes/random posts in my drafts because i just feel weird about posting so much #i really could post about it 24/7 if i didn’t have to be a Person with Tasks #and idk i think im just hyper-aware of how i present my interests in daily life while offline #i am someone who hyperfixates and obsesses and while i could talk about phantom for years i am terrified of annoying people with my interest #i’m worried about being perceived as weird so i kind of flatten myself to make myself more palatable for others #which has me being insecure about the things i’m passionate about and how deep that passion runs #and these feelings have bled online to the specific space i have created as an outlet for my passion #like it’s my blog i shouldn’t be censoring my love for a thing that brings me joy #but my fear of being othered is like. overtaking me. because there are many things that i can’t change about myself #that categorize me as an ‘other’ (sexuality identity mental health etc) #and this is something i can control. i can control how i portray my personality #so i flatten my personality to compensate for the other (perceived) weird things that can’t be changed #idk i just shouldn’t feel the need to do that here bc pretty much everyone on here is super passionate about something #like obsessive about it #and that’s what i love about this site with all its faults. like this is a space for people to come and Be Weird and Act Strange #and everyone just accepts it #and also the phantom community in general #why should i water down my love for phantom in the one place where people can understand it and relate to it??? #hit the tag limit but i’ve come to multiple revelations while typing this lmao

[badolmen]

I can fix him*

*bad writing, underutilized gameplay mechanics, characters with unfulfilled potential, funded by bootlickers

#ra speaks #personal #sorry I made dr phone calls and have like. ten minutes til I gotta get ready for first class of the semester. let me have this. #I think I should get every COD game ever for free. it’s MY tax dollars at work after all (actually anything produced w us military funding #should be free I think I can trap even my bootlicker tax hating dad into getting onboard w this one) #anyways. ghosts was…decent. but jfc if you give me a silent protag I expect SOME self awareness in the writing. #why are characters calling to him on comms when they know he won’t respond? why doesn’t he have an AAC device or something more futuristic? #I’m just saying if you explicitly limit a character you need to respect those limits in te writing. it’s not that hard. #like non of the characters even acknowledge that Logan never talks. esp weird when he first meets the ghosts #also. obv not a big fan of ‘all of South America has United into evil space terrorists’ but it was 2013 so ¯\ _(ツ)_/¯ #wish we got to see some SDC civis y’know? get a bear on the average attitudes abt the whole. invading the US thing. #(jfc do not get me started on The Wall like this is a 2016 trump voter’s power fantasy) #also Riley was such an interesting mechanic why couldn’t they have at least substituted him w drones or something on the other missions?? #you get him for like. two missions. and then he gets shot and you have to protect him (gosh I actually loved that section) #just. it was clear Logan was The Dog Guy with an aptitude for tech. honestly Hesh felt more like the MC than Logan. #and while Logan doesn’t have a ton of personality we can glean as a result of non speaking + ZERO communication at all ever #seriously he doesn’t even like. wave or give thumbs up to people wtf dude do ppl just assume he’s psychic or something??? #I do LOVE the few scenes we get with him acting outside of player control/where he actually has agency (Elias’ death. the final cutscene) #and like it’s not much but it’s enough that I WANT to see what happens next #but alas. a decade old game without a true sequel (I think??? haven’t actually looked into it.) #my brother is making fun of me for being a COD gamer now like boy. I have no defense pls be nice to me T-T

[semidecentpoet]

I think “Art Is for Amateurs” by Jam Mechanics, featuring Bug Hunter and the Narcissist Cookbook, might be replacing “Ghost Stories” by the Narcissist Cookbook as my favorite song and I Don’t Know How To Feel Ab That

#like ghost stories takes me away to that Place yk #other plane of existence #something something sense of self #something something we are all ghost stories at the end of the day and maybe we should just aim to stay that way #BUT ART IS FOR AMATEURS IS SUCH A BANGER #IT GOES SO HARD #WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT #i’ve been listening to it on repeat #wdym ‘doweries or endowments or for the decorative towels’ #wdymmmm ‘so spare a thought for the middle-man who couldn’t make anything (but bank)’ #the raw EMOTION of ‘the more space you just make for the BULLSHIT’ #and ‘and I’m all in man this is all that I know how to do’ #different emotions #both raw as /shit/ #this song is the only thing on my mind always #it’s taking over my life #and putting a pen in my hand and pushing me to get back to work #bc goddammit #art is for amateurs #bug hunter #the narcissist cookbook #jam mechanics #ghost stories #this song slaps #both songs are amazing #ghost stories will forever be my first True Love #my gateway drug lmao #but new personal life anthem just dropped

[leahthedreamer]

For the amount of money that the Mickey Mouse company spent on the Percy Jackson show, boy is the lighting and direction weak.

#I haven’t been watching on Disney plus because they aren’t getting my money but the lighting these past two episodes #I also haven’t been posting much on it cause cough cough y’all are not supposed to be giving Disney free marketing rn #alas every week it trends on top of tumblr #it’s just BLACK NOTHINGNESS #couldn’t see a damn thing they could be in space they could be trapped in a box only god knows #also the direction is pretty uninspired but once again I wasn’t expecting top quality from a Disney plus show that can’t even give us more- #than 40 minutes of an episode #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show #pjo tv

[greyhavensking]

this is a pointless complaint so feel free to scroll past but like. why are kid fics so popular? I know I’m in the minority here because they’re so popular, and I have in fact enjoyed a few over the years, but I just. don’t get it. a lot of characters I love don’t feel like people who’d want kids, for one reason or another, and yeah okay personal headcanon/projecting I’m aware, but still. also there’s so often a storyline revolving around one of the characters being scared to have children, feeling like they won’t be a good parent, and it’s always resolved by their partner telling them that’s ridiculous of course they’ll be a good parent! like why can’t that be a valid reason for not wanting kids? even fics where the characters break up because of disagreements over this wind up with them getting back together and the person who didn’t want kids realizes that, oh, never mind, they wanted kids all along actually, they just didn’t think they were worthy of being a parent. and obviously in real life they are plenty of people with trauma who do feel they won’t be good parents but want kids anyway and I’m very happy they can see similar cathartic plot lines in fics. but just once I’d really enjoy a character actually committing to not wanting kids and not having them. biological, adopted, coming in as a step parent. kids aren’t for them. and that’s fine! either their partner accepts it or they don’t, but their stance doesn’t change because it’s not like not wanting kids makes them a horrible person

#maria rambles #this really isn’t about any one fandom #but getting into my latest fandom and I’ve gotten invested in a series that I now know includes them having kids and I just #it kinda lessened my enthusiasm for the whole thing. which sucks #this is so harmless and I don’t mean to upset anyone because I can absolutely just not read the kid fics #I usually don’t unless there’s a really compelling plot beyond the kid factor #but y’know it’s just like. there really are some characters I can’t see with kids #not because they’re too traumatized or anything they just don’t want them #and that is so rarely reflected in fandom spaces #so if leaves me feeling like the odd one out y’know? #anyway. sorry for all this #had the thought and couldn’t shake it until I wrote it out

[haleyincarnate]

I feel like such a captive to my mental health.

#went to the science museum with some friends for one of their birthdays and we wanted to see the space film in the dome #which the dome is a massive theater where the screen wraps around the ceiling and such #and we took some edibles beforehand to have fun and I didn’t even take like half #and it wasn’t even that but my motion sickness made the first ten minutes so unbearable that I had to leave #and I had an anxiety attack on the way home like the first real one in like months #it’s a great reassuring thing to have happen when I’ve been trying to work on my anxiety with actually doing shit and interacting w people #I feel like I failed but like the first part was good at least??? #my mom gave me money to get lunch on the way back and I couldn’t even stop I was shaking and felt like passing out #godDAMMIT dude I was doing so good #anyway I’m gonna relax because I’m exhausted now and I ordered jimmy john’s so I didn’t have to go out #fucking anxiety #hmh

[sweetcitrusboi]

Watching gaming dudebros have full-on heart attacks and stroking out over tasm2 not winning or any of their basic ass shooting games and running around talking about how “nobody played Alan Wake 2 or BG3” when in fact a shitload of people did play both games and yall refuse to branch out and play other games and yall live in a bubble of just Fortnite, Cod, and other games just like it, and now you’re going out of your way to be unhinged individuals online about it instead of showing good sportsmanship and congratulating the amazing games and teams behind them that did win an award.

#also I’m like the biggest spiderman fan out there but ofc bg3 sweep had to come through but even im not sitting here screaming over tasm2 #i feel like dudebros crying about their games not winning when they single handedly refuse to interact in fandom spaces and support content #is the main reason why ur games didn’t win bc y’all don’t interact with anything outside of the game #it was the dedicated fanbases and the ppl who loved these companies and the actors/writers/producers/etc tht got their deserved awards #bc they actually care !!! #yall don’t gaf about anything outside of just gameplay yall sit in isolated bubbles and act like every other game is “mid” and non existent #bc u refuse to interact and yalls weird thing with specific genre games tht I won’t get into rn bc tht will go into weird masculinity play #in gaming spaces but #stop being weird ass adults online bc your game didn’t win #just saw a shit load of comments admitting they “weren’t voting” for anything while pissing bc bg3 got goty like make it make sense???? #don’t call something mid or bash the va who rightfully got an award when u showed no support for ur game #like looking at half of these tweets and corny ass dramatic reaction videos by grown ass men is embarrassing #I’m so glad that I’m an actually a well adjusted adult bc I couldn’t be acting like some of yall fr #bg3 #alan wake 2 #goty 2023

[handsome-edvard]

#ok I gotta get this off my chest. #Lo siento pero I’m not seeing enough girlies being so normal about this old man #what is Ahsoka about other than space whales and this old man? #I couldn’t tell you. I’ve watched the whole thing. I don’t know what’s going on. every time this old man comes on my brain is mush. #I cannot pay any attention when he’s on I just I can’t #sighhhhhh CHILDDD anywaysss like cupquakes always says #we fucking old men again

[theshadowrealmitself]

Like I always do, I’m still thinking about other planets covered in water containing so many large and frightening looking aquatic creatures that by human definitions are alien marine dinosaurs, both deep sea and deep space creatures

And because I’m always thinking about Humans and Vulcans, I’m currently thinking about a Human who’s a marine biologist who specifically goes to other planets to check out creatures like that but they’re on medical leave because of what happened on the last planet they were on

And I’m imagining them happily explaining their job and the Incident™️ to a Vulcan they met on public transportation while the Vulcan uses every training technique they’ve ever learned to not outwardly show how horrified they are

#humans #aliens #Star Trek #space marine biologists my beloveds #horrifying alien marine monsters my beloveds ♥️♥️♥️ #‘so I was under all these tons and tons and *tons* of water when the most amazing beautiful specimen swam up to my lil probe ship’ #‘and opened her jaws- and I know it was a her because she had these specific markings on the facial area- anyways so she opened her jaws’ #‘and this specimen- when the jaws are wide open like that- their mouths are 6 meters large! isn’t that fascinating???’ #‘so as you can picture her jaws would make quite an impact on my little submarine- and they did!’ #‘she clamped down so tightly and wouldn’t let go that they had to stun the poor thing’ #‘it wasn’t malicious the poor thing was just trying to get a meal’ #‘anyways so even after my crewmates got her away from my ship there was still the issue of said ship being out of commission’ #‘and a breach in it that couldn’t possibly stand the weight of the water anymore and was about to start filling my ship up with icy water’ #‘I was rescued before there was any permanent damage to me but they put me on medical leave anyways’ #‘they say I need the rest after what I went through but I’m just roaring to go back out there :)’ #Vulcan who’s now made an internal pack with themselves to never go near another body of water: #‘…fascinating. are you sure you don’t want to consider a career change though?’

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss the lxl divorce couch (it appeared in 1 image)

#this is h o r r i b l e who allowed me to type things into gdocs helloooooooooo~~~~~~~~ #complete and utter crack (mostly bc i forgor how to characterise 99% of the good dudes and ladies in this series lmao) #<-with that warning out of the way the divorce couch probably appears way too often in this tbh. u m. #(also very minor nghy bc i couldn’t control myself im not sorry) #this is the monster i spent my sick leave cooking up ig lmao #but man~~~~ i’ve tried to reread my past fics following a craving for bottom of the barrel worst of the 🅱️ad fics out there yk #h o w e v e r i could barely find anything coherent to read bc 90% of my docs are unfinished wips… i really played myself there huh… #oh well at least with this garbage i have one more critter to read when i wanna cringe at something bad lol #either way im sorry for taking up space on your dash with this. um. i’ll get back to tling soon… maybe… if time permits… #added to my personal cringefic compilation #<-seriously i don’t get how that tag is still in my autocompletes i barely use it smh

[meowonhao]

my ticket finally came!! 🩷

#i rarely have to use my full english name unless it’s stuff like this that i have to verify myself #and it always reminds me just how long it is ajshsbsjsk #like especially in korea but honestly even by like american standards #think it’s like 26 characters total including the two spaces since i have to do my first middle and last name 😅 #long ass line blacking it out taking up half the ticket #diamond life #anyways story time! #no one knows the stress interpark has put me through in the process of actualy receiving this ticket…. #was supposed to be mailed out like within a week of buying it #took forever to do that #Then they finally did like sometime last week and said expect it to come 3-5 days #and it came thru the post office and i was like okay probably next week because they don’t deliver on weekends #or so i thought #anyways that was like thursday i think? then i get a text like friday afternoon #saying oh we tried to call you to come deliver the ticket (bc i have to sign for it) but you didn’t answer so #even though i did not have a single call that wasn’t a saved number all day #so i immediately called the number that texted me and they were like well it’s too late to come today #(it was like 4pm) #and it’s about to be the weekend so we’ll come on monday just make sure you answer the phone this time #even though they literally never called me in the first place 🙄 #pretty sure they were just pretending so they could go home early on a friday ahsjsks #but the thing was. i wasn’t even expecting it until this upcoming week so they could have just waited and i never would have known #ANYWAYS so i was like okay fine i’ll make sure someone is here to get it on monday #tell me why i slept in bc it’s sunday and i don’t have rehearsal and i was woken up by a call #they’re like i’ll be coming to deliver your ticket in about an hour! #like it is literally sunday and you said you couldn’t deliver on weekends…..but whatever i was like oh 네 감사합니다 you know #then dude came like. 5 mins later i’m still basically half asleep and look like a mess #but anyways none of that really matters now bc i finally have my ticket but #it put me through so much unnecessary stress bc i’m always paranoid about stuff like this until i have it physically in my hand #even though i knew it was gonna come and be okay

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷