#confusing yet direct….

[coochiekrab]

Touchy yet touch starved

#confusing yet direct…. #my art #kuri #aubrey #worlds worst comic #im going to post this without proof reading and just hope i still like it in the morning. goodnight

[alkcomics]

Ghost! My shadow! Caress me!

Saw Cherry Glazerr play 'Moon Dust' live a few weeks ago and it fucking ruled. Been going through old pages for Reasons and u know my emo ass can't pass up a good song quote image post

Full-Spectrum Therapy (2016)

#playlist #that song is so fucking good #so this section of ch4 is top of my 'needs edits bad' list #i think it's a common place people stop reading #its shape in the narrative is like a weird knot that adds complexity and confusion at a point where it should be a first clear revelation #breakdown of safety structures -> finding solace in the void -> we see him actively affect the void -> he decides to get OUT #whereas damien is still trying to scrounge up safety structures and hasn't yet resorted to actively seeking solace in the void #like this scene should have much more emphasis and be a much more direct parallel to the climax of the story w damien staying in the void #i would just like that all clearer on a first read #this page is still fun tho #anyway remember this page for limiter huehueh #fullspectrumtherapy

[altschmerzes]

i log onto ao3, i see something marked as gen fic and tagged exclusively with Character/Character tags and has “#Romance” in the additional tags section and in the description is like “some established relationship fluff!”

i look directly into the camera and sigh so hard i simply disintegrate into dust

#gav gab #WHACKING SHIP FIC IN THE GEN CATEGORY WITH A BROOM #GET THAT OUTTA HERE!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!! #this one was so direct too lmao it wasn’t even your usual like #‘well they’re GONNA end up together but nobody’s making out yet tee hee’ bullshit lmao #it was straight up just tagged romance #lmfao. gang it’s hard out here. #‘but people don’t know what that means!!’ it’s in a list of things you pick the other options for which #are things like ‘m/f’ and ‘m/m’ and ‘f/f’ #and you have to mark a rating for the fic separately #and the faq is right there if you’re confused #come on now.

[silvery-stars]

would it be sacrilege of me to say that i am kinda hashtag Underwhelmed by the percy jackson show

#first off. the directing is just not that good. #like you could have taken the unique story and made interesting choices that make the story feel more exciting but so far it’s just so basi #basic shot composition basic camera movement fairly basic lighting #also like i can understand changes from the book. going from a first person novel to a show is difficult and you have to make changes. #but also some of them are just like nonsensical. why would you change the claiming from a moment of victory for percy to whatever that was #<- well okay not really victory. more confusion and fear and desperation with a tad bit of victory #(also the claiming symbol looked bad and i’m salty about that) #i liked that annabeth had it figured out though that was fun. the introduction to her character kinda slayed #oh my god also the decision for that scene where luke is telling percy abt him annabeth and thalia to Not have any broll type shots overtop #-of the explaination actually Showing what luke was saying was lame #i get that they don’t have the actor for thalia chosen yet but you could have easily done it to where you only showed young luke+annabeth- #-and just thalia’s like sillohuette or hand reaching out or whatever #also again about the claiming scene they just took away all of the hints toward future twists. the hellhound summoned by someone in camp- #-and the hints toward the Big prophecy :( #anyway overall it’s awesome and it’s so fun to see pjo on screen. it’s just a bit lacking imo ☹️ #oh and the reduction of gabe into an almost comedic character rather than as an absolutely foul person that percy and sally have had to- #-suffer just does not work for me. it’s such an important detail thematically and also gives so much more context and meaning to percy and- #-sally’s lives and relationship. i think it’s so important but they changed it to something more palletable :( #ash rambles #ash.txt

[iii-days-grace]

@tache-noire

brainwave

now i Really need to know what a Ghost Bath is in this world, because its real and i bet its awesome.

#mediverse #camp maggot #need a tag for the black metal part of this world now hm #sorry i know this is confusing but id' advise checking the first two tags haha. if youre interested #well i dont know what dennis is up to yet #but elsewhere there's romance and angst and medical kink and [shoves and pulls out megaphone] NECRO I SAID THERED BE NECRO. ok bye #original post #ohhhh i wanted to do magic so bad but didnt know a way to work it in #well thank you ims0vain for sending me in the direction of jim + kids [hospital] because that turned me towards j+kids [summer camp] #through various threads for me [summer camp] is connected to [black metal] so #lalalalalala! #all your fav black metallers are real and live in a vast and endless spooky forest

[whoatemyshoe]

"just google it" "do your own homework" "google is free" "find it yourself the information is out there"

but they are. they are asking people who have that information, for the information. they are doing their homework by reaching out and asking people questions. just because it's not typed on a search bar, doesn't mean it's any less of putting an effort to finding things out.

like i'm sorry people in the past refused/ridiculed you when you asked them for help. doesn't mean you have to be like them tho. why is learning through human interaction rejected in favour of isolated learning?

#my posts #rants #im part of the organising team for the women's march in my city #and someone interested to join the march was asking public transport directions to the march #the immediately response from the social media team in our group chat was to berate that person for being lazy/not doing their homework #like sure the transit map is available on the website #but anyone who takes public transport in my city KNOWS that the trains and maps are unreliable in so many ways #i was exploring a different line yesterday and got on the wrong train despite being on the correct platform #and i take public transport regularly and have a good sense of direction but the public transport here isnt designed to be user friendly #if they had to ask which line they should interchange at you KNOW they are clueless and probably terrified of the public transportation her #and yet as organisers they refuse to make it easier for people to participate at a march no one owes us to attend #they just gave them a link and asked them to figure it out themselves #i am very familiar with that route and i just KNOW the interchange is confusing and large enough that beginner commuters will get lost #and you know what could happen if someone struggles to navigate public transport? they probably would just go home instead #they blame the education system for producing youngsters who are spoon fed #girl the older generation said the exact same thing about your generation pls #your misdirected anger is being projected at the victim of this system instead of at the actual problem #which is what i've been observing from career activists around me and more #you claim to fight for the people #but the very people you're fighting for are asking you for help #yet you refuse to help them unless it's through significant policies or drastic systemic changes #your fight is conditional and only convenient for you but you refuse to admit it and then pretend the opposite #the moment they decided that they would 'teach them a lesson' indirectly by forcing them to figure out their own routes #they've already fallen into that activist trap of thinking they are above everyone else and that they are here to teach people how to #be a better person according to their standards because they know better by being more involved in activism and are better educated #instead of putting themselves in the girl's shoes and not assuming the worst of people as the default #maybe that girl is new in town and is unfamiliar with public transport here #maybe they had a bad experience getting lost before and wanted someone experienced to share some commuting tips to avoid getting lost #maybe she would rather pull her teeth out than try to figure out the route with unreliable mountains of information online #maybe she has executive dysfunction that makes filtering through tons of information to find that ONE route very daunting

[whimsycore]

one things I've noticed is once you've been mobbed or group bullied before you see signs ahead of time and try to get ahead of the curb just to be let down again

I just started a new job, I started in person suddenly I was seen as "antisocial, loud, unqualified" and every sterotypical attribute to black people including being repeatedly called "prioritized" by people who have offices while i'm in a cubicle

I could tell by today (I told my boss I was getting my ID) they were purposefully trying to be frustrating and gaslit me about it

the girl who usually lets me in was no where to be seen and someone WAVED at me and kept walking, I was eventually let in and told how I was a priority and they weren't when they got their ID.

Along with people coming up to my cubicle to peek at me and leave

Along with that my landlord called me greedy after forcing me to go to the store with her like....theyre wild in this City.

#shit like this happened to me in school and now I cant be fooled by it #it comes from the big boss too thats what makes it worse #i trusted two people #and they spread it around #So one of the bigwigs that needed me to talk to him that called me antisocial I went up to today #I told him to give me the benefit of the doubt he gave every other new person and that i knew i didnt have a direct degree in the field but #ive worked before and can also get that degree in 18 months #he tried to gaslight me and tell me that wasnt what it was about and so i agreed with him and he said #'oh i was in the pet food business before this' #yt ppl love forced interactions and feeling like theyre breaking u #they dont think you deserve to feel strong or be by yourself like they used to own us why would they #i told that man 'he shouldnt assume im always confused and that I am very capable of doing my job #he was flabbergasted and before that was like :3 my door is always open #these people are 40+ and have belts of accomplishments and yet some blk girl being quiet unfurled them #these idiots dont know it makes make case if i wanted to sue even stronger

[keptthepieces]

just another diary entry obvs

#i still feel so sad #yk i mean i take things very deeply very personally im sure some people remember may '21 lol #but this is just very hard for me because im so confused #why would you let resentment build towards someone about something they dont even know theyre doing to bother you #to the point that youre hurting the other person and they dont even know why for the longest time #it hurts a lot it wasnt even addressed at all until i brought it up bcs i couldn't stand not knowing and yet feeling so hurt and confused #i needed to know it wasn't in my head and i was right #but now im second guessing everything they talked to me so normally said they care about me all the way up until the day before #but ive felt the distance for a while so do they love me like they said or was that not true #if they dont then im such an idiot i really care about them i really respect them and love them #idk im really hurting very badly #really stupid for a 25 yr old to feel so hurt because they annoyed someone #but i just wish it was addressed sooner and for someone who prides themselves on being open and honest and direct.. #it feels like they maybe just didnt care enough to talk to me about it. #so yk maybe they dont care about me. #which also feels like an offensive conclusion to come to about them when they dont lie and value honesty and openness so much #i dont want to think they dont love me bcs i do think i know them pretty well i do think theyd never lie about that #but maybe ive only convinced myself of that because it would hurt far worse if they didnt #whatever anyways im so stupid and i know i must have fucked things up by being too much again. #ill leave them alone and the hurt will ease up eventually #their friendship has meant a lot to me theyve done a lot for me i dont want to lose it completely i really dont #i just dont regulate well how much i care for my friends and its too much sometimes its one of the worst things about me #but i genuinely want my friends to know theyre loved and thought of and cared about and i mean it #and i cant always tell when i hit overbearing so i fuck things up. #anyways i am sorry i made someone i care about feel overwhelmed and i regret that i made them uncomfortable for i dont even know how long #im hurt but thats the worst thing i couldve done #okay ill shut up now stop talking about it its just still fresh to me obviously cant talk abt it on twt and they dont follow me here #i needed to vent without my irl friends 'fuck them' attitude bcs theyre a good person and friend and it does feel like its only my fault #for the most part anyways minus yk the communication bit #but we'll circle back to the do they even count us friends doubts and we dont need that ill move on now needed to get it off my chest

[thebeautifulfantastic]

<3

#been thinking a lot about how whenever i have a dream or an idea marinating in my brain for long enough it then becomes something that i am #determined to pursue. and that no one can really dissuade me from #it simply becomes a permanent part of my creative direction in life #i guess you could say that's kind of the same thing as having a special interest but not QUITE #like for example. what i'm thinking of right now is my desire to start a band #and i come up with a lot of crazy ideas on a day to day basis but a good amount of them end up being simply fleeting or dictated by my mood #the ones that stay though... those are the one that actually HAPPEN #i've wanted to sing in a band for at least a year now #to be honest it's probably been longer but it's been at least a year of me being consciously aware of it #and it just made me realize. this desire has stuck around in my brain for quite a while now #and i think that means it is going to happen someday #i don't know exactly how yet because the way i originally thought it might happen (me going to music college) didn't work out #but it's been a year and i'm still thinking about it and keeping my eyes open in case i meet the right people to make music with #i know from experience that when i put my mind to something i WILL get it done #in the sense that i will surprise myself with how stubborn i can be when it comes to not stopping chasing my dreams #and i've had big goals in the past that i did achieve because of this #i'm also like. surprisingly adaptable??? i only recently learned that about myself but i be pulling Plan B's out of my sleeves #so that's all to say -- i'm choosing to believe that i will start my band someday and it will be better than i can imagine right now #and in general i'm choosing to believe that the things i truly love and truly want in my life will only become more clear over time #even if i'm confused and lost at times NOW... if i keep moving forward in time it will all make sense #and a lot of times situations do work out exactly the way they were meant to but in the most unexpected of ways #i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah #starting a band is only the most recent example #belle speaks

[siliconforbrains]

Alright I had a friend over so I couldn't play before but here we go again folks.

Also have a funny meme about my gameplay experience yesterday night lmao

#maxisrambling #max plays isat #my poor sister rlly chose the wrong time to hang out in the same room as me lmao #she was so confused and i was just viole tly gesticulating in the general direction on the screen #she got a crash course on Known ISAT Lore (until now) and shes lucky i havent wipped up a powerpoint presentation yet /lh

[quillandink333]

You guys realise Kazuma didn’t actually break his neck. Right. You realise Sholmes made that up and what he actually got was a severe concussion. Right.

#dgs #tgaa #dgs spoilers #tgaa spoilers #kazuma asogi #asogi kazuma #kazuma asougi #asougi kazuma #that already bothered me in 1-2 something about those angles just didn’t add up #he tripped and fell foreward he wouldn’t have hurt his neck unless he’d fallen in literally any other direction #and yet ​I keep seeing art of him with a bruise or some kinda injury on the BACK of his neck fsr #I think some of yall are a little confused no offence hgdhffjch

[linguenuvolose]

??????

#I am for sure having an autumn #almost ? got offered ? yet another job out of the blue by email #or it wasn't as direct but it was like hiii... just for your info there's this job.... #but I'm also very confused because it's from one of the people that I did my interview with so she... knows I got that job? #and presumably knows I start that very soon #and even if this other thing is just a week's worth it's still like ? huh?? #there truly are a million jobs and things going around right now what is this??? #good but incredibly intense and strange period of life oh my god #snicksnack #also went to a seminar hosted by my supervisor today and as I was leaving he said Ida! fatti vedere qualche volta lmao #I was like this is me facendomi vedere after not having seen him for 2+ months lmao it was like 70% the reason I was there

[hsslilly-blog]

anyways the funniest thing ever is the monster high assets still being present in the game files even after years. these are from the 5.4.0 version (the last update)

#hss #hss game #HSSPrime #high school story #there’s still a bat #and the special dorms files are still there as well #i couldn’t find the quests tho but i’ll open some weirdly named ones and see what i can find #hss had so many funny moments like what #the one direction quest back then was also so funny i remember being a bit confused since i wasn’t on tumblr yet #one of the hairs available today in the game was literally made for harry styles #you KNOW the one

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#my brain is not very good at solidifying concepts so im just going rant a bit until i can made sense to myself #the conception and evolution of life is so fucking cazy. its a self assembling machine. building and building and building #without direction. traits flow like a river. branching. halting. repurposing parts for new adaptations #what we see now was not the goal. what u see is an assemblage of traits that avaided death #the creatures u see are not always reflective of their total evolutionary history. somtimes the organisms that survive originate from the #group of weirdos compared to their sister species. the freak survives to confuse paleontologists #paleontology has infinity elevated my appreciation for the study of animals and plants. ive never been very interested in either but the #way they change over time. the creeping of traits. animals are organic machines of flesh and blood. i cant not see them that way. ive been #watching dissection videos and the complexity. the way theyre structured. skin and muscle and viscera all working in perfect order until #theyre not. robust and impossibly fragile. and they came to be as they are by the tumble of genetics thru history. a record of which we #have below our feet. pressed flat. years and years and years. and all that started with a tiny assemblage of molecules that didnt even take #that long to manifest on this plant in the grand scheme of things. it seems impossible that life couldnt be common under the right #conditions. there's so much we'll never kno. we have a limited record but with what we have we can see so much #its just so... its so fucking profoundly interesting. leaning abt paleontology has profoundly changed how i see the world. im so fucking #glad i started listening to common decent bc its warmed my fingers just a tiny bit and i was so so cold. im still cold #im so tired. my brain is exhausting. i wish it understood that if i slept for more than like 4hrs i could focus better #bc i wanted to spend my weekend learning. not stuck in a fog making myself miserable. and yet i dont let myself sleep. i could if i tried #but my brain wont let me try. in my cells is a history of life for a single lineage. my Brain is so remarkablely complex that its capable #of self awareness. introspection. and the intentional inflation of pain upon itself and it's host body #robust but fragile. another aspect of life i find most interesting is where things start to break down. what are the limit? #at what point do things start to come unspooled? and why? what does that say about our history? #sometimes i have a thought thats very unproductive. we humans are destroying the planet. our actions will and have perpetuated vast amounts #of suffering and death. but at the same time life has crept around so much death and suffering. a world without us would continue to #proliferate. we cant kill literally everything. something will survive to stretch across the surface of rhe earth once we're gone. change #continuing. unproductive as i said but also somehow comforting. a nearly empty world filled with now useless information abd only things #tbat creep and crawl. or thats what i like to think. we could prob kill everything if we tried #complex brains capable of infinite destruction #unrelated

[thesunshinydays]

man im really crying thinking about everything everywhere all at once again

#one of the best movies of all time #it hits so many people for so many different reasons #ive never seen adhd taken so seriously and handled with so much care in a piece of media this popular before #and whenever i see it in something else its always kids its never adult adhd #adult characters that seem to have adhd are so often comic relief and i never realized how exhausting that was #until the daniels gave michelle yeoh that script #so many reviews describe the movie as frenetic or chaotic or an assault on the senses #when thats just how it feels to live life to me constantly #thats how navigating the world feels to me #and evelyn with the box of receipts from all the hobbies she thought she was going to turn into a life #all written off as business expenses because she really thought each one would work #and how her attention is pulled in so many different directions during the irs meeting #such that deirdre thinks shes not paying attention because she doesnt care #and all the alternate evelyns lives being glamorized or unrealistic #because thats how it feels to think of what youre life might have been like if only youd been able to stick with something well enough #and theres comedy in the movie but its clear that evelyn is confused and scared for so much of it #god #and joy and how scared she is too but doing her best to hide it #im losing it man #thank you to the daniels i did not expect to see myself on that screen and yet #adhd tag #sunnyspeaks

[rileyslibrary]

After suffering a gunshot wound, you wake up in a hospital bed with Ghost sitting by your side. Unfortunately, the effects of anaesthesia leave you unable to recognise him and, worse, confuse him with someone else.

A/N: Fluff. Based on a request I received a while ago. Hope you like it, anon!

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A machine on your left beeps rhythmically. The taste of something metallic lingers in your mouth, and the iodine smell stinks your nostrils. Your eyes open slowly, but the bright ceiling light forces them shut again. You lick your lips and attempt to swallow a couple of times. Dry. Your mouth is dry. You need water. Your hand moves towards your face, but a low, raspy voice advises you against it.

“Careful now,” it says, and a hand gently grabs your wrist. “Don’t pull the IV off.”

You turn your head towards the figure beside you and squint. It’s a man, but your blurry vision doesn’t help you identify him. Your eyes travel to your wrist and focus on the closest part of him: a skeleton’s hand.

You try to shake your hand off his grip, but it turns out futile. Frustrated, you give up and raise your middle finger at him.

“Not my time yet,” you declare. “Fuck off.”

“Pardon?” he asks.

“Not ready to go yet,” you reply, tucking your middle finger in your palm and lifting it back up again. “And also, fuck off.”

The man releases your wrist, placing your hand gently beside you. He clears his throat and leans forward. Though your vision remains blurry, you spot what looks like a human skull with a hood over it.

“How are you feeling, love?” he asks, his tone softer.

“How am I feeling, love?” you repeat. “Did Hell improve their customer service?”

“I’m not-” The man begins but pauses. He sighs, shakes his head and rests his elbows on his thighs. “Never mind.”

“Where am I?” You ask.

“Hospital.” He replies. “You took a bullet.”

Directing your attention to your body, you feel a dull throb in your chest. You wince as your fingers brush against the bandages.

“You are joking.” You reply and slap your hand on the bed. “Why? How?”

“Well,” He says and tilts his head to the side. “You exchanged a few shots with the enemy, your gun ran out of bullets, his didn’t, and here we are.”

“My gun?” You ask, shocked. “I have a gun?”

“Several.” He nods.

“SEVERAL?” You shout. “Why would I possibly need several guns?”

“It’s your job, love.” He replies.

“My job is to have several guns?” you ask. “And shooting at people?”

“I wouldn’t put it that way,” he explains, “but it’s mainly for defence.”

“Well,” you shrug and wince at the pain. “Doesn’t look like I’m that good at defence—especially for having several guns.”

“I was really worr—”

“Water,” you interrupt and gesture at your mouth. “I need water.”

“Doctor said it’s not the time for water yet,” he replies.

“Why?” you ask, pretending to check a non-existent wristwatch. “What time is it?”

“No, love,” he replies and muffles a chuckle. “Doctor said you need to wait until you have some water.”

“You throw the ‘love’ thing a little too freely,” you mumble, licking your lips and lifting your index finger. “I’d be really careful if I were you.”

“Really?” he asks, leaning back into the chair and crossing his arms in front of his chest. “Why?”

“I,” you say and point at yourself, “got a boyfriend, thank you very much.”

“Oh,” he exclaims and tilts his head. “Is that so.”

“Yup,” you nod. “And he can kill you.”

“Can he?”

“Can?” You say, and a smug smile forms on your dry lips. “He will absolutely, one hundred and a thousand per cent kill you.”

“Is he that good?” He asks.

“I mean,” you shrug, motioning at the bandages on your chest. “He’s much better than I am.”

“Oh wow,” he exclaims and leans forward. “Is he as good of a boyfriend as he is a shooter?”

“Far from it,” you reply, letting your hand fall to your side.

The man doesn’t speak. He doesn’t seem that comfortable all of a sudden. He shuffles in his chair, trying to find a better position, and when he does, he clasps his hands together.

“Go on,” he finally says. “Spill it.”

“Ok, so,” you begin, “first things first, he doesn’t listen to me when I want to vent, and whenever he does, all he says is nonsense.”

“The lad gives you solutions,” he snaps, “and you call them nonsense?”

“I don’t want solutions, man,” you reply, shaking your head. “I want him to just listen to me.”

“Even if the solutions he provides are literally the answers to your suffering?”

“Even then.” You confirm.

“Gotcha,” he nods. “What else?”

“Oof,” you sigh, “how much time do you have?”

“I’m immortal,” he reminds you, “plus the next reaping is in five hours.”

“Oh boy,” you reply. “Business not going that well lately, huh?”

“Not many deaths to take care of,” he spits. “I guess some people could use some serious training when it comes to their aim.”

“Speaking of training,” you say, “he’s always at work and never spends much time with me.”

“The guy’s trying to spend as much time with you as he can, for fucks sake!” he shouts, throwing his hands up. “He even lied to get you on his team!”

“How do you know he put me on his team?” You ask.

“I keep a close eye on him.” He replies.

“What did he lie about?”

“Your precision in aiming,” he jokes and motions for you to continue. “Next one.”

“I can’t think of anything else,” you reply. “Other than he doesn’t say how much he loves me.”

“You’re having a laugh now, aren’t you?” He says, and his tone feels almost threatening. “He’s showing it to you daily; offering advice, keeping you close to him, even risking the possibility of being accused of nepotism for crying out loud! He doesn’t need to say it as well for you to know it!”

“It’s just nice to hear it sometimes,” you sigh and twist a thread from the bed sheet. You turn your head slightly toward him, and he lowers his head to the ground.

“How about you?” You ask. “You have a girlfriend?”

“I do,” he confirms.

“Shut up!” You shout, widening your eyes and immediately closing them back again. “Where did you guys meet?”

“Hell,” he replies. “Right in the pits of it.”

“How is she?” You ask.

“Perfect.” He states.

“Bullshit,�� you murmur. “No one’s perfect.”

“She is to me.” He says, shrugging.

“Do you love her?” You ask.

“Absolutely,” he replies, nodding slowly. “One hundred and a thousand per cent I do.”

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