#complex grief babey

[doomed-era]

also. i was going to ask this before but i didnt know how to word it: any zelda tropes you like/dislike? stuff like fairies being guides for link or the concept of sages/Legendary Sword or how link and zelda are always depicted or reoccurring characters like impa or beedle or epona. though theres probably not. a lot of tropes considering most games are vastly different from each other. uhh yeah if youve got nothing . things that were done from a zelda game that you liked?

OOH. tbh I had to think about this a bit (my gripes are usually with the fandom and how they depict the tropes as a Strict Narrative Rule) but! I do have some

UH ONES I HATE. this is gonna be long no matter what so it's going under a cut

Number one has got to be making link into a super special boy for basically no reason!!! being from a special type of knights is. so irrelevant to everything else about alttp link that I think a lot of people legitimately forget this. it barely ever comes up and it's honestly not that important to the story except as an excuse for why link's the only one that can grab the pendants and pull the master sword, which. why not just have him be the one to do this because he's just really determined? Ocarina of Time...tried this, sort of? almost completely irrelevant AGAIN. in twilight princess and wind waker they are just some guy basically and this is the best direction they could have gone with his character. except they ruined it in botw and ss and I will neverrrr forgive them for this. botw link beats up grown men at five years old he's like superbaby instant knight and I HATE it. it's just stupid. I don't even care that it applies pressure to him as a character and seems to affect him; they could have just made it an in-universe lie and it would have had the exact same effect so genuinely screw that trope

number two is calling random soldiers knights stop fucking doing this. i dont care that its fictional fantasyland it annoys me

number three! the 3D games' great fairies! I hate almost all of them the oot/mm great fairies are freaks, botw ones are so pretty but they're creepy as hell, and twilight princess is just a naked lady and it's stupid I hate her. wind waker minish cap and alttp fairies are gongeous though

number four. everyone thinking link is cool and or hot. I hate this in universe and in the fandom. I don't care that the devs wanted to make him """"cool"""" he's 100% always a LOSER!!!!

number five I hate the hijacked by ganon trope in zelda games so much. STOP ffs please let ganon/ganondorf take the spotlight we all love him. or let another villain be the main baddie

ok now for ones I like :)

nunberone...SENTIENT MONSTERS SENTIENT MONSTERS BABEY SENTIENT MOSNTERS ILVOE SRENTIERHSDJKFHSFHAAAAA

GRRAAA ITS A SECRET TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOE THE MOBLIN!!! KING BULBLIN SAYING HE FOLLOWS THE STRONGEST SIDE!!! THE ENTIRE DARK WORLD ITS SO

two. npc companions...rips off my shirt to reveal another shirt that says I LOVE MIDNA AND TATL AND EZLO AND KING OF RED LIONS AND GHOSTIE ZELDA AND MEDLI AND MAKAR AND TETRA AND SIDON AND YUNOBO AND

number three...I love random gods and spirits that are just hanging out because. keaton malanya zephos satori light spirits what have you. theyre great I need more of that.

number four incredibly weird npcs. need i say more

number five soldiers being extremely incompetent and dumb or getting possessed. soldiers as enemies or easily corruptible people

number six that one character that doesn't like link. you know what i mean (revali. groose. mido. iirc ralph? maybe? I haven't played much of the oracle games)

number seven hyrule with a dark and bloody past. and not only that but a fairly simple presentation of it that's clearly hiding a more complex underbelly. its just neat to see simple, clear-cut writing tell you so much with so little. it's a big reason I love alttp; it's simple but there's so much grief in it

number eight uh. clawshot/hookshot :] good stuff

#asks #hehe!! #glider rambles

[yingyings]

i can never be normal tbh. went from ‘omg a gifset thats so nyy’ to ‘alright so she actually has a lot of complexes and here’s a detailed explanation as 2 why she’s really an open book and later has to nip that in the bud and it’s depressing for everyone’

LIKE AUH there really is a tragedy to be had, a symbolic tragedy here, bc while she is not the victim it must hurt to come to the eventual realization that you were the sole cause for many problems around you (because you refused to grow up, because you never listened, because, because, because) without knowing and internalizing that. having to live with the grief of everyone around you losing things precious to them, important to them, because of your own mistakes-

which also! isn’t necessarily her fault, there’s a lot of depth to it but it ultimately falls under sh.en j.iu’s trauma reverberating onto those around him, but still! she’s going to internalize alllllll of this. there is nothing but misery in both pi.dw AND in s.v.sss

but it’s like a very different misery in both you know. she just cant escape the trauma babey, the grief! it manifests around her and someway or another i think she’ll always have deep regrets even if she’s not entirely sure or has an inkling, they’ll be there. 

#out / tbt. #ultimately at her core she's still the same character yk #but p.idw nyy and sv.sss nyy are..... kind of different to me honestly #in the way their characters grow and develop #tbh that could be said the same #for a lot of the characters but regardless! i need 2 eventually #do an analysis on the difference between pi.dw and present nyy bc the experiences definitely made her harder #in both worlds but. man i can't think of how to describe it #pi.dw is definitely more desolate more depressing like she was at least able to flourish in present #whereas in pi.dw it's a lot more complicated and a whole lot sadder! #many feelings about her this is all basically the same but im sleepy #and idc u will hear me gargle the same 10 things about nyy bc im obsessed

[comradekatara]

omg amazing do you have Thao songs you would assign to the gaang+?

instead of answering this ask like i did, for example, the fiona apple one, i’m gonna answer it like i did this ask, focusing on a singular album and the feelings it evokes. i’ve been listening to temple a lot lately so i felt that it made sense to focus on, especially considering its overarching themes. 

temple is about intergenerational trauma, specifically between a mother and daughter, and the pressure of the daughter to live out the dreams her mother could not due to the ruination of war. therefore, i feel like it applies to katara in multiple ways: living out the dreams of her mother, grandmother, hama, and other waterbenders and/or women whose lives were lost to genocide, imperialist warfare, and even arranged marriages. but also, as a victim of that war herself, and reconstructing the southern water tribe as the only southern waterbender left, passing on that legacy to her daughter, and to korra, (and her other waterbending pupils, i would imagine,) knowing that they got to have the childhood free of war she had always longed for. i believe that korra would feel that mantle of responsibility strongly, as an extremely privileged kid growing up in a society that was on the brink of extinction less than a lifetime ago, and being mentored by someone who was exposed to the worst horrors of the war firsthand when she was only a child, and spent the rest of her lifetime trying to repair the damage. katara and korra’s relationship just means a lot to me okay.... 

phenom okay this song can definitely apply to lots of different characters: katara (”when the scorched of the earth / come back by sea”), toph (i know she’s extremely upper class but she’s also a disabled woman and as we see that puts her in an extremely tentative position that forces her into a position of docility and humiliation that she staunchly resists), mai & ty lee (irt their relationship to azula, their families, and the fire nation at large), but it first & foremost reminds me of hama, her overwhelming power, and her unquenchable thirst for revenge after the horrors the fire nation put her through. 

lion on the hunt reminds me of azula’s rage & despair when she realizes that ozai doesn’t care about her and was only using her for his own ends, taking credit for all her (evil imperialist conquest) hard work while he just sat on his throne basking in the glory of having finally taken ba sing se. obviously the original context of the song itself is nothing so insidious, but the lyrics “they said I polish and astonish, and so why not me? / and then they said it's complicated and some wah, wah, wah / I made the map and you put you on it, pay me handsomely” really does remind me of that scene in “sozin’s comet” when we see azula’s reaction to ozai discarding her. 

pure cinema this song is absolutely fuel for my “mai and sokka become best friends after the war” agenda because it totally resonates with both of them! they both feel like hollow shells driven by fear, a mere fraction of a person, just one incomplete piece of a puzzle. crucially, the difference lies in sokka’s eventual growth, later helping toph and zuko with those same feelings of displacement from their families by finding a new one. despite having loving and supportive biological family members, sokka is a depressed cynic with a fear of vulnerability, and it is the fact that he reaches out to them from a place of understanding that solidifies their respective places in this new family (suki too but she’s a far less developed character). concurrent to sokka, toph, and zuko’s ingratiation into the group, mai continues to feel alienated by azula’s insincerity and fear-stoking, and it is only at the end of her arc that she is able to stand up to azula and act authentically, but once she does, she is finally able to realize that she had true love all along.   

marauders reminds me of the tension established in sokka’s relationship with suki in “the serpent’s pass:” how his guilt and trauma over losing yue makes him push suki away out of fear that he won’t be able to protect her. but by promising to protect him in turn, she proves to him that their relationship can be an equal partnership devoid of obligation––that their romance is not doomed despite his misgivings.  

how could i makes me think of sokka’s guilt complex when it comes to not being able to protect the people he loves. katara was present for kya’s final moments, but sokka was on the other side of the village when she was murdered, and didn’t know what had happened until it was too late. and then, he considers it his fault that yue sacrificed herself for the moon spirit, because arnook explicitly told him to protect her. her physical body literally died in his arms. and as we see later, in moments such as in “the swamp” or “the serpent’s pass,” even though it was the fire nation’s fault (yon rha & zhao specifically) that kya & yue were forced to sacrifice themselves, he is still plagued by guilt. 

disclaim evokes iroh’s legacy with his son(s), the guilt of realizing too late the devastation and atrocities for which he is responsible, and how he considers it his responsibility to shape zuko into the man he iroh should have been, and lu ten could have been. of course, the line “I was once an honorable man” is both incisive & ironic, since honor is an arbitrary construct, and iroh is no longer considered honorable because he developed morals. “I don't believe it's your destiny / to always chase my memory / how could it be insincere / to very clearly disappear” is interesting in this context because iroh clearly wants zuko to assume the throne and redeem the legacy of the fire nation, but in book 2, he’s also perfectly content to open a teashop and close himself off to the world outside the walls of ba sing se, along with his nephew. he knows that he and zuko have a duty to redeem the sins of their family, but there is a very large part of him that would be perfectly content with ignoring the outside world in favor of letting zuko heal. iroh is a complex character, but his love for zuko is never in doubt. 

rational animal reminds me of toph’s arc: abandoning her oppressive environment (specifically, her abusive father) and choosing to live authentically: not conforming to society’s standards and limitations for her as a disabled girl (who also rejects femininity). the bridge of “i believe my own eyes” becomes even more powerful due to the fact that toph’s experiences are constantly invalidated by authority figures due to her disability. she is keenly perceptive and empathetic––and not despite her blindness, but, in large part, because of it. 

i’ve got something is an extremely zuko song tbh. having the humanity & compassion stamped out of you to fulfill an imperialist agenda only to resist it due to your capacity for caring & overwhelming sensitivity that is impossible to ignore––that’s what it’s all about babey!!! 

marrow is actually about all of them because they are all children of war who are capable of being loved and of loving in return! but aang and katara’s genocide trauma and their unbreakable bond over their shared grief and desire for understanding, companionship, and happiness is especially potent, as always. 

#posts that are for 3 people one of them being myself #analysis #not tagging every character lmao #finally answered this cause im trying to clear out the inbox #(only 33 asks left to go!) #sorry it took so long #i have questions from february..... oof #anyway this is a hell of a lot of words for a post no one's gonna read #asks #edgarallanhoetry #synthesis #atlamusic

[vaguely-concerned]

hell why the fuck not, have this post about macbeth I wrote during my intense two weeks of fixation this summer, I just found it in my drafts lol. tl;dr: macbeth is actually a dark dark comedy and I am right about this 

- I love macbeth as a character so much because -- you know that excellent post that keeps going around, about how switching main characters between the tragedies would avert the whole plot and stop it from becoming a tragedy? (I think the initial example in that post is hamlet and othello) well, I honestly don’t think there’s any plot macbeth would fix, because he’s so gloriously, amazingly self-perpetuating in his disasterness. like give him free reins and hamlet still probably ends in exactly the same amount of carnage, just by different roads. *mwah* it’s perfect     

- I don’t think I’ve ever seen/heard the part with hecate and the weird sisters before, and let me just say that it cracks. me. up. that she’s like ‘that one? you’re wasting time and baboon’s blood on that one? ladies  l a d i e s  he barely even needed the push, if you’d just waited a few years he would’ve jumped off that slippery slope all on his own and you could’ve been doing something USEFUL in the meantime’  

- another thing that cracks me up: the fact that literally no one buys the macbeths’ story at any point. they’re all being real polite about it because they’re in their house and macbeth probably has a hand on his sword and an increasingly wild look in his eyes the whole time, but  n o n e  of them are buyin any of this lol

- after macbeth has spoken to the witches for the second time and he decides that actually, you know what my problem has been this entire time? thinking things through TOO much before I do them. from now on I am living from impulse to murdery impulse baBEY get in losers you’re going slaughtering (slash bird hunting ;____;). *chef kiss emoji* like what a takeaway from his current predicament, what a treasure of a character, what an absolute self-driving trainwreck of a man, I realize I am a couple of centuries late but I LOVE him 

- I have found such a deep well of hatred within myself for macduff this time around. you know what? his wife is right about him just leaving them for the slaughter like the world’s biggest asshole and then being all manpain-y about it, I can’t believe mama macduff probably died by caesarean section for this sorry waste of a man  

- I have always liked the reading that the macbeths used to have a child who died -- it adds a level to the whole thing that really gets to me. it even gives more meaning to the death of young siward; macbeth spends the whole play murdering (or trying to murder, sick moves fleance) other people’s sons. it also perfectly brings out the immense feeling of senselessness that winds through the whole play -- they’re sullying their hands for all this power and it has no future, it never had a future, they have no children anymore. (also I don’t think their ambitions become any less immoral for being a symptom of unprocessed grief, or that it lessens the theme of how self-perpetuating evil can be once you let it get rolling, it’s just a more complex and human starting point) 

- the perfect agony of lady macbeth starting the play with her grand dreams of ‘sovereign sway and masterdom’ and ending it on her last lines wanting nothing more in this world than for her husband to take her hand and come back to bed with her so they can sleep... good ol’ billy boy knew what he was about huh

- like I said I kind of despise macduff (macbeth is objectively much worse as a person but he gets his comeuppance and also I love him) but I do feel bad for the sheer emotional whiplash of that scene where malcolm is first jerking him around to Test him and then he gets the news about his family. he must’ve just looked at malcolm for a moment like ‘...pls say sike again your highness???🥺’    - listen I don’t want to victim blame here, but at the beginning king duncan did ask that dude ‘so what’s up with this macbeth fella’ and that dude was like ‘I’d say his main trait is that he is capable of committing bloody carnage without hesitation’ and duncan was just like ‘:) aw that sounds lovely I think I’ll go to his sleepover tonight’     

- I Do Not Understand why people would play banquo without humour when one of his first lines is literally a joke along the lines of ‘wow bro did we smoke something, are you seeing this too’, why would you make him all Stately and Dignified when the text suggests much more of a jovial likability. (in general this play has a lot of darkly funny lines; a bunch of macbeth’s dialogue has a grim deadpan comedy to it and finding someone who understands that when they play him is a treasure.)  

#shakespeare #macbeth #I also went into some stuff about the actual historical macbeth for a few days and surprise: it had p much nothing to do with this at all #classic bill lol #it should tell you something about the state I was in around july that I was listening to different audio versions of this play #over and over again #because it was the only thing that seemed to make any sense to me. macbeth goes 'tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow' #and I sat there wild eyed after too much coffee like 'he's saying what we're all thinking' #the underlying slow unstoppable horror of that play had me nodding my head b/c yeah that seems about right

[trek-tracks]

Thoughts on Picard S1

I’m glad to have been able to watch Picard. Stewart’s great. I’m happy the show exists. The Troi-Rikers, Hugh, and Seven were wonderful to see. As a caveat, a) my expectations were sky-high, and b) I wound up watching it online with people who liked to snark, and two or three of them were serious haters, so this perhaps coloured my watching experience.

I just...I wanted to care more.

I like the new characters enough, and Elnor in particular is very sweet, but I still don't know enough about them because the show had no room to breathe.  We needed more silly/serious, in-between episodes to develop the characters, when it's not just trying to serve an overarching giant plot. A lot of the character development (Jurati and Maddox, Rios and his captain) felt like it existed mainly because it could move the plot along, which leads to a tighter season, but a somewhat emptier one. We did get “filler,” but it was filler where characters repeated things we already knew to other characters, so the filler was mostly plot-based, not character-based.

The problem with doing that, especially when we have a small number of characters that are known quantities, is that we SO disproportionately care about the TNG/VOY characters that the others seem like...not filler, but distractions from those we really care about. I’ve talked about this before in my review of a TOS book, which had a one-off romance character attached to one of the Triumvirate. We tend not to care about those romances much, focusing on the friendships that have been built up over years. This isn’t because the new character is bad, but because of the Character Fondness Power Differential (a term I made up).

(serious spoilers below the cut)

That’s why the scene with Picard agreeing to shut Data off hits right in the gut, because we care about these characters equally, and we care about their pain equally.

It’s not that we don’t care about Raffi, Rios, Agnes…it’s that we care SO much about Picard, that when he dies (and we pretty much know that, with Picard Season 2 greenlit, we can’t fully give over to grief because something’s going to happen to cause him to be able to participate) we’re focusing on our own grief, not the grief of these characters who are still pretty new in our hearts. (Okay, Babey Elnor crying was pretty sad.) Why do they get to have the grief, we wonder, since we feel we’ve known him longer than they have? It’s like having the UberEats guy give your aunt’s eulogy because she ordered in a lot in her last month.

I did feel those big feelings I was looking for in the episode with the Troi-Rikers, and when Picard and "Data" were interacting (I really enjoyed Nepenthe, and Kestra, and I’ve made my peace with all that added semi-necessary angst). Seeing Riker in the Captain’s chair was awesome, though we really could have used a “Riker sit” of him getting into it. 

Despite the beauty of Picard and Data’s final conversation, though, I really don't think we needed to experience Data's death again, "but for real this time." It's like, it already hurts! He was already dead! It was emotional, and sweet, and fine, but ouch. I know Spiner doesn't want to play him anymore, which I absolutely get and appreciate, but it sort of felt like stomping on the fans so nobody would ask him to do it again. I still love Data forever. I kind of wish he’d gotten to talk to Hugh or Elnor. There was no scene of Elnor getting to meet Spot II. I wanted to riot.

I’m glad they didn’t fridge her, but it was less than impressive that nobody even mentions Bev, Picard's best friend and confidante on the Enterprise - not even Troi, Bev’s other best friend. Yes, that could have easily changed over decades, but I’d like to know why - I can’t tell if they’re saving her for next season, or if they just really don’t care about her, and I’m scared it’s the latter. I did, for a moment, think that if they really were going to kill Picard, technically in at least one future there’s a Captain Beverly Picard…so she could have taken over and the title would still work.

I do like what they did with Seven, and I’m thankful they gave her a complex role and are letting her be happy enough. Her grief over Icheb felt real; it hurt less for me, due to his actor’s phenomenal crappiness, but man, did it have to be so graphic? The brief second of a budding Seven and Raffi romance was cool - wlw Seven! To build up to that, they could really have showed them together grieving first, rather than splitting them up for those scenes. That way, they could have at least one more interaction that would support a flirtation. (It still makes more fucking sense than Seven and Chakotay.) It’s great that we got such a range of female characters, and (almost) none of them died to create manpain. (Sorry, Dahj. Alas.) 

However, killing Hugh, the show’s ray of hope, was a really cheap shot for shock value; I spent at least two episodes hoping that he would be brought back, somehow. They seem to have developed something potentially meaningful between him and Elnor, both patron saints of lost causes, but it seems like 90% of those scenes hit the cutting room floor, so it was unclear what was going on in the finished product, and how and why they bonded. Hugh was the hope of rebuilding, and I feel like he was meaninglessly sacrificed for evil when he could have been used symbolically for good. Even if his story in relation to Picard ends in Season 1 - let him continue his work. Because that’s what Star Trek is all about, right? Continuing the Great Work. Seven, Hugh and Elnor could have been the most adorable family. Raffi could come too. 

The Romulans seemed to backslide into more cartoonish villains, when the show could have been used for development and depth. The Romulannister incest overtones were unpleasant. What the hell happened to Narek at the end of the last episode? The writers just seemed to forget about him. Is he still on Coppelius (I still can’t get over that symbolic name, and “A.I” Soong)? Did they let him go on a ship? Is he in jail? Did they let him wander off, because they forgot he existed? Did he start a new career as a Disco Spock impersonator? We also didn’t see Narissa’s body, so who knows if she’ll be back again. If she comes back instead of Hugh…sigh.

It will be interesting to see how they deal with Picard as a synth. I hope that they don’t just totally let it fade into the background, treating it as a “first season problem” solution, and actually give it practical or philosophical implications. (Someone in my chat, seeing Picard and Data in the “quantum simulation,” said that it looked like we were about to get a Trek version of The Good Place, and I was so into that idea I almost gasped.) 

In short, I had a bunch of issues with the season, I’m still feeling warm overall, and looking forward to boldly going into season two - but maybe at a slower pace. Warp 2 instead of Warp 9?

#star trek #star trek picard #picard #jean-luc picard #data #will riker #deanna troi #beverly crusher #st:pic #data soong #agnes jurati #chris rios #raffi musiker #seven of nine #narek #narissa #elnor #hugh borg #picard spoilers #star trek picard spoilers #i had a lot of THOUGHTS ok

[experimentaldata]

Rules: Pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions. Don’t cheat. Tag some people. 

tagged by: @momentofmemory and I’m sorry it takes me so long to get back to you on these things T.T Also YouTube shows count because I said so.

* Critical Role, Campaign 1

* Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

* Daredevil

* Buzzfeed Unsolved

* Parks and Recreation

What is your favorite character in 2? Whyyyy would this quiz do this to me. Literally all of them?? But Riza Hawkeye has my heart, I think. She is kind and warm, a cruel and ruthless soldier, beautiful but strong, stoic in the face of danger but sobbing over the pain of those she loves...just a lot of contradictions and a complex character that I can relate to. Love her.

Who is your least favorite character in 1? Uuuuuhhhhh they’re all so good don’t make me do this...not a huge fan Tary yet but I JUST met him and everyone loves him so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

What is your favorite episode of 4? Literally anytime they do stuff with aliens...just the chaotic energy of Ryan’s “let’s hear them out” and Shane’s “this is patently ridiculous” is peak dumbass best friend energy and I love it so much.

What is your favorite season of 5? I would say 2 or 3. They had gotten the humor down and they really hit their stride with the characterization. That said, I have a hard time remembering which episodes go where in sitcoms lol.

Who is your favorite couple in 3? Ohhh noooooo finding a stable relationship in this show is hard :( . Foggy/Marci I would say. Especially in season 3. When Foggy’s all upset and Marci doesn’t understand but still supports him...that’s the long-term relationship experience, babey!

Who is your favorite couple in 2? Well if we’re going with explicitly canon couples, Izumi and Sig Curtis. The sheer amount of love in the midst of the grief of losing your only child, the pain of infertility AND having to watch your spouse go through a painful chronic illness, while staying faithful to and patient with one another the whole time...that’s pure love. 

(Also Royai but I mean who doesn’t love them)

What is your favorite episode of 1? It’s a tie between the episode where (SPOILERS) Pike and co. resurrect Grog, and the one where they resurrect Percy. Basically I just love seeing when the characters express what the other characters mean to them...the found family is real, yall.

What is your favorite episode of 5? Sooo many good ones...the one where they have the Halloween party at April and Andy’s is a classic though lolol

What is your favorite season of 2? Don’t make me pick one aaaahhhh...Season 3 or 5. 3 because there’s some really cool character development that happens, and 5 because it’s just so heart-wrenching and good.

How long have you watched 1? Started it a couple months ago as a quarantine project, haven’t stopped since. 

How did you become interested in 3? Oookkkayy so I joined Tumblr back in 2015 because I had a friend on there and also I was learning a language and one of the resource pages I found was on Tumblr. Turns out one of OP’s mutuals, who I ended up following, was really excited for this new show coming out on Netflix: Darededevil. I’d never heard of it. Then, they posted those panels from the Waid run where he’s describing what depression feels like, and I just felt...seen. So I watched the show, and the rest is history. 

Who is your favorite actor in 4? Well they’re not actors, so...both of them? Shane and Ryan have great BroTP chemistry and you can tell they’re having so much fun. It’s a joy to watch them interact even on top of how good the show is. 

Which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5? Out of those three? FMA:B. You cannot beat the diversity of female characters, heart-wrenching plot, baller theme music, and spot-on social commentary. 

Which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3? Well Daredevil would be insufferable if it had the runtime of CR so I’ll have to go with CR1.

If you could be anyone from 4, which would you be? This is weird, they’re real people, I don’t like this question anymore :/

Would a crossover between 3 and 4 work? *Ryan voice* This week on Buzzfeed Unsolved, we’re examining the disappearance of Elektra Natchios, a woman who is claimed to have reached immortality, and whose whereabouts are currently unknown...”

Pick two characters in 1 who would make an unlikely but strangely ok couple? I feel like Vax and Pike could work? Compassion/healing power couple. Still a bit of a crack ship in my mind, though.

Overall, which show has a better storyline, 3 or 5? Parks and Rec. I watch Daredevil for the characters and relationships tbh. Parks and Rec has great character development and a satisfying, if quirky, ending. Plus the anti-Asian racism in Daredevil but that’s a whole other post...

Which has better theme music, 2 or 4? KONO OMOI WO KESHITE SHIMAU NIWA MADA JINSEI NAGAI DESHOOOOOOOOOO (FMA:B obvs)

Thank you for tagging me, Mem! I’m tagging @mookybear12404 @feenyxblue @daughterofluthien @askclint and @darnitjack

#ask game #ask meme #long post #daredevil #parks and rec #cr1 #fma:b #bfu

[yououghtaknow]

I definitely need a WATT au for skam, likd instead of the bus, they are cheerleaders and I need Vilde to kill someone. I know she can, and she should

niche post time: skam multiverse watt au

riley - kelsey

kelsey’s the all american cheerleader babey!!!! she’s in it to win it, she’s ambitious, she’s seen bring it on so many times. kelsey also has the same energy as riley’s “we accept whatever colour of the rainbow you identify with” speech, it’s about the gsa allyship. also kelsey seems like she could kill someone and get found out because she got too emotional about it.

cairo - zoya

just prom royalty things!!!! zoya and cairo are both perceived as aggressive, when they’re really just protective of their friends and will do anything for them. cairo also does a lot of the planning and thinking in regards to the murders, and zoya’s also just very intelligent and i can see her reacting in the same level-headed way.

kate - shay

look. look. kate’s whole energy in act 1 is how shay feels in season 1. like the pining, the repression, the sarcasm and just being really funny and having a lot of complex emotions towards megan/chess and just. i believe in it. but also noora as kate for the closeted energy and the cool girl “i’m only doing this for you” stuff.

chess - megan

a girl who was known to be a good athlete who stopped prior to canon and has issues with substance abuse? yeah. she fits. i just think chess has eva energy, and megan just vibes the most, as many of the skamau girls do for watt. they have similar themes with the pressure to succeed and the pressure on teenage girls specifically.

annleigh - daphne

see, i was going to put kelsey for annleigh, because of the good christian girl thing, but annleigh’s canonically a little homophobic, so No. daphne is Not homophobic, but she does have the vilde energy of acting kind of above everyone else, but secretly being just So Nervous. also just “move on” is such a good grief song and adds a lot of depth to annleigh, which daphne deserves.

farrah - lola

annleigh/daphne’s little sister who has problems with alcohol and partying who deserves so much better? hell yeah. also farrah’s whole aesthetic just has lola vibes and just. listen to before the breakdown and tell me you don’t get lola vibes. thank you.

clark - season 6 basile

listen. clark is the kindest boy ever. i love him so so dearly. but i will never like any basile other than the nice version i’ve heard was in season 6 (i have only seen gifs from the season, but i’ve heard Things). this role needs nothing more than “boyfriend to annleigh and nice boy”, also i think it would be funny if alexia killed basile.

reese - alexia

plus-sized dancer who has insecurities about her weight and is very kind and funny and a great friend? hell yeah. reese just has similar energy to all of the chrises, and also alexia and reese’s humour just have similarly Good Vibes to me. i just love them both so dearly. alexia captain of the team 2020.

mattie - viri

i feel bad about not including the eskam girls, but none of them really Fit the watt characters. the main thing they have in common is being written well and with love. Anyways, viri as mattie is a galaxy brain move. both are just adorable, kind of naive and want to be cheerleaders. also viri has big “it’s the little things” energy.

eva - amira m

has a job at a pizza place? check. trying to stay in her lane but will stand up for herself? check. has more common sense than anyone else combined? check. also i would say american even for eva but alas. she does not exist except for in my heart.

anyways i highly recommend streaming we are the tigers original cast recording and watching a very legal video of it on youtube dot com. 

#skam #i rock back and forth with joy #combining special interests just!!!! fun times!!!! #isaac speaks

[grendelsmilf]

i finished the episode and i was like. WHAT ARE ORIANNE'S THOUGHTS

well, let me just say, I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT. okay here are my initial, discombobulated thots (spoilers, obviously)

i’m gonna get this out of the way first: they kissed! and i love how it happened, because i was really hoping it wouldn’t be a in-your-face thing. it felt so natural, like this isn’t the first time they’ve kissed in a while. because, they’ve been together since the end of “stakes” and now they’re just retroactively confirming that in a blatant but not too blatant way. no one would interpret their interactions as platonic if one of them were a man, and that’s the whole point. their kiss was merely an extension of the romantic behavior we’ve already witnessed, and i loved that

betty becoming golb just felt….. so right. i loved that

it also felt right that she had to leave to bring simon back. that’s true love babey! 

gunter came full circle. he became the original gunter because they both wanted the same thing 

finn and jake were immortalized as heroes if the statue in the 1000+ intro was anything to go off of. good for them 

okay so we can finally unpack 1000+ now that we know that gumbald lost the war and that marcy is no longer living in the cave. is she living in the apartment complex inside the guardian with pb, or are they living somewhere else entirely? i guess we may never know, but what we do know is that they’re living together

and i guess marcy finally convinced pb to give up ruling over the candy kingdom

fern/the treehouse got amazing closure 

can’t believe that stupid piece of shit cosmic owl killed him tho

just kidding he had to die, but still

not entirely sure yet what finn losing his (metal) arm means, but the fact that he was ok with it certainly means something

i looooved when pb thanked finn for disobeying her orders, then kissed him on the cheek and remarked that he’d grown taller. what a perfect moment to encapsulate their dynamic and how far they’ve come!! 

and ok holy shit can we talk about that moment where pb decides to listen to finn because she sees shoko’s arm………… like holy shit

the second coming of golb was (mostly) averted through music! that is truly adventure time at its core and in another context or handled differently it could’ve been a cop-out, or saccharine, but AT had been building up to that for so long and in so many ways that it was just very poignant actually 

1000+ sweet pea truly has a most luxurious beard 

nice to see the lady-jake lineage is still growing strong after 1000+ years

i like how maja basically only existed for the purposes of bringing pb and marcy closer together. that’s so funny she could’ve been such a threat but like….. nah she’s just gonna confirm that pb is still deeply in love with marcy then DIE

also the margles thread not getting resolute closure. normal man just coped with his grief healthily and stopped obsessing over her. a staple of adventure time, and i’m so glad that’s how it worked out. also he’s good and i love him 

BMO IS the one true king of ooo

marceline going into a berserk, vampire-king-essence rage when she thinks bonnie’s been killed was....beautiful

pep butt’s storyline was very bittersweet. he was one of the most interesting characters in the entire show, and very dear to pb (because morally-ambiguous gay/lesbian solidarity, obvs) so it makes sense that he was the catalyst that propelled her into blind-rage mode. hopefully he’ll get to grow up again

it didn’t feel cheap; i’m so glad marcy got simon back. it’s what she deserves

finn gets to see minerva again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s what HE deserves!!!!!!!

still not really sure what’s with the jewels and the enchiridion. not that every single part of a mythology needs to be explained, especially when we primarily see it through the eyes of one boy who doesn’t have time to question that shit 

i also wanna know how ooo got it’s name…. i kind of wish it had at some point in the final season been revealed, but i’m fine with it just being some metatextual wink to the audience about the nature of contemporary fantasy worldbuilding (like a lot of the mythological questions left unanswered) 

we now know why marceline’s house was redecorated: because she no longer lives there! but if they ever do wanna confirm where she lives, i don’t think anyone would mind a spinoff set in 1000+ …… here’s my resume adam muto 

anyway

the end where shermy held up finn sword and it glinted all heroically..

this show’s timeline spans thousands of years…….. and yet every character gets so much time & attention…… that’s television at its peak! take notes babes!

music hole singing come along with me was perfect thematic closure

like those talented bitches really knew what they were doing huh 

anyone who had the NERVE to doubt this show and its creators??????? can rot

i expect to look back on this show as a turning point for animation, not just in writing quality, but in how something’s written. it pioneered this narrative structure that eschewed all the standards of prestige tv (heavy serialization and a linear plot) and still managed to reach prestige while maintaining its own unique tone 

they could totally continue the show if they wanted to and i honestly wouldn’t mind (as long as the quality was maintained and they wanted to continue working on it, i mean) 

i guess the point is…… the fun will never end 

IT’S FUCKING ADVENTURE TIME BABEY!!!!!!!!!!

#i doubt anything will fill the void AT left any time soon.... #though i guess we've said this about a lot of shows over the years lmao #ask #asamis #at ramblings

[icharchivist]

Ramble about the Hisoka&Chikage dynamic (w/ spoilers for the two Winter Play Events and chapter 5) and more personal stuff under the cut

Either way the thing i found really cruel with the Chikage arc is that, Hisoka was already on top of my fav list, but since he was amnesic he wasn’t defined by much aside from “his amnesia most likely come from his trauma”, and learning that he has a guilt complex/is responsible for someone’s death and it’s likely that this death is what triggered the amnesia, and that’s it. 

and i thought i was safe with that bc What Could Go Wrong meanwhile i could relate on being a Sleepy Bitch like Hisoka (hell i used to be able to sleep ANYWHERE before and often fell asleep in class or in a corner on trip, before anxiety indulced Insomnia started to kick my ass.) and i have memories issue, trauma babey, so like, My Kin Now:tm: (i have more reasons but that’s the funny short version)

but then the Winter Chapter ended with the April’s cliffhanger and the thing is that i was aware of Chikage’s cards and i knew of that one card from the “past self” set which was matching with Hisoka, so it was obvious that Chikage=April and that Chikage and Hisoka both were spies

and it fucked me up and from all the rookies’s build ups from the events it’s Chikage’s that fucked me up the most bc he specifically appears in Winter chapter, makes it clear he’s lurking on Hisoka LIKE THIS IS CHIKAGE’S FIRST APPEARANCE

IS WHEN TASUKU PICKS UP HISOKA AFTER HE COLLAPSES.. AND NOW WE KNOW IT WAS CHIKAGE’S ROLE..... HE LITTERALLY SLIDES ON SCREEN TO DECIDE TO TAKE ACTION ON HISOKA WHILE SEEING SOMEONE FILLING HIS ROLE OF CARETAKER OF HISOKA.....

And then Chikage leaves Hisoka flowers saying it “means a lot to him” to send those flowers and considering the whole Flower Language in the game it had to be on purpose so i checked up the flowers he sent Hisoka and i’m a crying mess

Second Winter Play:

(red pre chap 5, green post chap 5)

Third Winter Play:

and i’m a messssss because while the first one can have resentment in it it also showcase the specific grief Chikage denied himself to feel??? even the grief he felt FOR Hisoka. But the second one is so positive and hopeful like Chikage doesn’t WANT to turn on Hisoka like he planned and i’m a fucking disaster.

COUGHS anyway i got lost but, the thing is that, the fact the direction they took with the complex relationship between the three siblings is. The sort of sibling relationship i connect with because this is closer to what i can relate. 

it is a similar reason why i’m fascinated with the Wales brothers in gbf, with the fact the youngest brother had to bear the burden of his older brother disappearing and his other brother going off rails and taking it out on him, before being torn by guilt and realizing he ought to make it up to his brother. 

And if you boil down the Hisoka/Chikage/August storyline it’s the same thing happening, except Chikage specifically BLAMED Hisoka for August’s death, and Hisoka felt guilty and responsible and beared that burden.

And honestly i already connect much more with sibling dynamics when the youngest of the bunch is bearing the burden of their dynamic bc, mood.

But, as someone who had my eldest sister ran away from home when i was a kid and my other sister turning on me and pushing me away because, as she told me ways later, she badly lived the abandon and she knew i was closer to my eldest sister so she pushed me away in a form of jealousy AND the fact we were not allowed to talk about my runaway sister, we had to act like she never existed, and it was extremely frustrating so my sister shifted the blame on me

bc Chikage was always a bit jealous of how close Hisoka and August were and then when August died, with the inability to process his grief, he had to blame Hisoka.

And like, if the Wales Brothers’ dynamic punched me in the face, this was a suckerpunch because bro that hit, ways too close from home??? on a character i already kinda can project on?? (even though my behavior and coping mechanisms are closer to Azuma bc of the shared Abandon Issues and all but man it’s not like i had nothing on Hisoka yaknow?)

And, meanwhile, Hisoka and Chikage fixed their relationship. They opened up about their trauma, they cleared it up, they decided to heal together and getting better, and this is something that’s fucking me up a LOT because... it’s not something i can have? My sister and I shared our trauma but we’re still so distant and so caught in our parents’s bullshit that my sister KEEPS shifting the blame on me for anything going wrong with our family, especially lately with our dad. 

It was something that made me irrationally emotional with the Wales bro already but here destroys me, the fantasy of /fixing/ it. The fantasy of, after this hardship, managing to realize they can rely on one another and be there through their trauma. And, for Hisoka and Chikage, this desire to rebuild their family, in a less toxic environment. It’s something i can’t have, and don’t even really /want/ because the relationship with my sister is too damaged and we’re too different as people, but the fantasy of it being a possibility somewhere makes me weak on my knees.

(+ tbh a3 is HEALING bc with the Wales bro, the youngest is still the most responsible one, he still has to carry this burden, he has so much on his shoulders, and it’s... heavy when you get to project a bit on his story. While Hisoka is, on the contrary, encouraged to rest in order to recover. He’s encouraged to keep sleeping, to do stuff he likes, to nurse himself back to health, and this is so HEALING to have to see the characters who’s trauma you relate to being told that they don’t have to just “carry on” but, that they can be safe to rest now. (likewise with Azuma who’s also encouraged to rest and take care and rely on others without being punished about pushing people away. Instead it’s his friends picking up how to read him to counter Azuma’s first instict that is to isolate himself, without lecturing him about how he shouldn’t do that.), a3′s way to tackle trauma and recovery is seriously getting to me SO BAD like, it’s really healing to me)

Adding to that that, independantly to it all, I genuinely adore Chikage, he’s fun, he’s sneaky, he’s an ass, but he cares so much, and everything is because he cares ways too much, he’s so damaged and was never allowed to have room to get better and now he does, and he built so much walls around himself, his lies are just that (i’ve seen someone call it gas//l//ighting and DEAR LORD learn the meaning of words he doesn’t do that AT ALL) he just lies to throw off people, he tells people right away that he lies, even when it would protect him to keep on the charade (see his lie to Sakyo to cover up when he kidnapped Izumi), they’re walls in order to keep people away, to keep them from asking about him, and like he says to Tsuzuru because there’s weakness to be exploited in the truth, which is a paranoia that is completely legit to have when he’s litterally an informant/hacker spy?? 

he’s completely different from my sister, which is ironic, but therefore i do not even manage to project this thing fully on him. Hell, i crush on Chikage. I have terrible taste but good lord he’s been appearing in my dreams every day lately what the fuck Chikage. (litterally my top 3 chara is just “1) Kin in regard to the lore, 2) Kin in the coping mechanism, 3) Crushing ways too hard on him, am a total simp”)

Also meanwhile the fact the whole ending is “we’re leaving the organization (which was their family), we have a found family now, but together” is peak fantasy for someone like me and i’m always crying over the Mankai Found Family, but just, going “screw the previous family”? but..... the two of them together? I’m a mess. Especially adding to the fact Hisoka got SO close to the Winter Troupe and with the course of the events it really shows how precious they became to one another, this found family remains so precious to Hisoka (hell he bothers Homare and Tasuku as much as he bothers Chikage dLKFJD) he just, wants Chikage to experience this happiness too instead of letting himself collapse under his trauma and i’m!!! aaaah!!

So yeah what i’m getting at is, that, I thought i would be safe from Hisoka’s arc, that i wouldn’t be this emotionally invested in it, i was already too emotionally invested in Azuma’s bc Azuma has my coping mechanisms, but instead the plot took me by the throat with the direct sibling dynamic i REALLY feel for, it hit WAYS too close from home, with a storyline i can HEAVILY empathize with, and feel pain for both Hisoka and Chikage because i get both sides so hard, and i HAD to fall for one of those morons.

I’ve been playing a3 for over a year, started playing when the EN server lautched, and i had been emotionally involved in all of it, a LOT, i’ve played it every day in over a year, i’m up to date with everything, i feel so much for it, but despite that i felt like i was keeping it mostly lowkey, like i wasnt /obsessed/

but this storyline ruined me. This storyline brought this lowkey obsession to highkey at full speed. 

And all of that bc i genuinely loved Hisoka before those truthbombs, that those made me love him even more, that Chikage became SO loveable and has been living in my mind rentfree ever since, and that the dynamic they touch is both too close from home while also being unrealistic (as in how they fixed their dynamic), but in a “fantasy i love to indulge in” kind of unrealistic and it is destroying me.

so yeah, A3 good, i can’t get over how GOOD the writing is, but also that fucking wrecked me. 

#i've been a mess for months now aaaaaa #ichatalks about a3 #ichapersonal #(i'm talking about some of my family issues under the cut so DLKFJDLFK that's why the warning anyway)