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thedemonprincezephyr · 5 months

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The Demon Prince- The Never Ending Legacy of the Void pt. 1

The sun beamed into my eyes as I awoke. Disappointing honestly that I'm not dead. I sit up for a moment, catching my breath. Waking up always feels like such a violent experience, like my body physically hates being awake and feels better in slumber. Probably has a lot to do with my depression but who's worried about that? I have to get ready for work, again. I begrudgingly stand up and put pants and a shirt on, then make my way to the bathroom for the usual morning piss. I look out the window at the sky to check the weather because I cant be bothered checking the forecast anymore these days. Looks fine, a couple of clouds are in the sky but nothing looks dark or stormy, so that's good at least.

I finished getting ready and gathering my things together to head to work, an hour drive there if I'm lucky, if there's any traffic though I'm for sure going to be late. With that in mind, I went to work, dissociating on the road to make the time go by faster, and so I don't have to get into my own head too much.

I do that a lot, get in my own head. too much for my own good sometimes. I can't control myself, and all of the intrusive thoughts come flooding in like the blood out of the elevator in "The Shining." Then it's just a fight not to let them win and let them take control. Though sometimes I wonder: what if i did let them win for once? Could it really be all that bad?

What if I finally show all of these mother fuckers who I really am? What if I finally get to be the center of attention for once? Instead of being locked in the background of my own FUCKING story.

|Is this really what you feel The deep, breathy voice rang in my head like a dark and dank omnipotent presence. Gods... I went Spiraling again didn't I? sigh.

|I can make everyone r e g r e t that they ever did you wrong, you'll be successful, but in order to do so you must suffer|

What the actual fuck is happening right now? I shook my head and gave my temple a firm smack so I knew I wasn't dreaming. Apparently I made it to work, don't know how, but I did. The day went on as usual with no other weird disembodied voices booming in my mind like a narrator for some 80's style dark fantasy. I clocked out of work and heard it again on the way to my car:

|d o n t i g n o r e m3 p e A s a n t|

Okay, first of all no need to call me names; second of all who the hell are you?

"What did you say?" my coworker chimed in.

"Did I say that out loud? Oh gods" I panicked and got in my car and darted back home as fast as I could. It was about 5 miles away from my house when I noticed other things happening. First. the highway street lamps seemed to be growing and shrinking at random as I passed them. Then, I noticed there were no other cars on the highway around me...It's supposed to be rush hour traffic right now and I'm cruising comfortably around 5 mph over the speed limit. This isn't normal. Nothing is normal. Then, a shadow wafted around me life a sheet of rain, at this point I pull over and look up, because, what the fuck?

There it is.... the sun.... I could see it so clearly because it had turned black (reminds me of Soundgarden), but it was still undulating and pulsing with plasma, but the rays emitting had turned a deep purple, like someone had turned the sun into a giant black light for some reason, the trees started to glow with a purple-white and green fluorescence, everything else having that hauntingly purple-white glow around it. I looked around, still no one, but a looming sense of doom shrouded me in a veil of anxiety. I swiftly got back in my car, taking a moment to catch my breath. what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck?!?!?!?!

I started doing my breathing techniques, in....out....hold.......in...hold...out...etc... and counting my fingers: five on the right, one. two. three. four. five....five on the left, one. two. three. four. five. ok, I'm not dreaming so my panic is valid..... just breathe it out.

I drove home taking deep breaths and watching the road in front of me start breathing, the ground raising and lowering like a breathing chest. As I got closer to home, Only just around the corner now, you got this, the breathing waves of road got deeper and deeper, slowly but surely, as if I were getting closer to the source.

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Each part of the story will have a corresponding playlist on Spotify for better immersion: So here's the part 1 playlist:

#dark #dark aesthetic #original story #story #horror #existential dread #Spotify

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isoldio · 2 years

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pumpkin /// mint choco / sparkling

AAAAA ANON IM SO SORRY,,,,, I STARTED WRITING THIS LAST NIGHT AND I FELL ASLEEP,,,, SO SORRY :'D,,,, HERE IT IS sorry its bad (he/they for mint)

As Mint Choco stepped into the seemingly empty bar, the smell of sugar cookies almost instantly hit him as he shut the door behind him. It was past closing, but Sparkling had told them that they were always welcome as long as the lights were on, so he didn't feel too bad about just entering as he pleased. He took a few steps in, looking at the tables with halloween patterned tablecloths draped over them and unlit black candles in the center, before it hit him Halloween was in less than a week now. Of course Sparkling's busy setting up, holidays always were a handful.

He barely even noticed the bartender getting up from his spot on the floor and coming over, holding a carving knife and an apron draped over his pajamas. "Mint," He smiled, "you're here awfully late. Forget something again?"

He went to hold his face, but quickly retracted his hand as he remembered his hands were still covered in pumpkin. "Not at all. I just wanted to see what you were doing, is all, you never leave the lights on when you leave. Whats with the knife?"

They almost giggled at his realization, cupping his cheek with a gloved hand and kissing him. The soft fizzing from the other's hair got louder as it often did when he was embarrassed, although they paid it no attention. "I always forget to set up for halloween until its too late... I'm almost done with the interior, but the outside is a different story. I have the streamers and garland for it, but I need to set those up and I still need to carve the rest of these pumpkins..." He sighed to nobody but himself, holding the hand on his cheek and unintentionally smearing orange on their glove.

"An extra hand wouldn't be too much of a bother, would it?" They offered, gently leaning his mint candy violin on the wall near the door. "If you'd want to, I'm sure I have enough supplies... But aren't you going to get your clothing dirty? I only have one other apron, even so, your gloves and sleeves will get dirty, wont they?" Sparkling gently lifted his hand off of his cheek, holding his freezing hand in their soft one.

"Oh, that doesn't matter to me, darling. Even if it does get messy, I can get the stains out. Promise." They kissed his forehead. "I wouldn't be here if I didn't want to come." Sparkling blushed just slightly. "I know, I know. You've told me plenty of times." He lead him to the spot where he was sitting, 2 dozen pumpkins sitting next to an area covered in pillows and towels and carving materials. One had been finished, and another had a knife stabbed into it. "Sit down, get comfortable, I'll get my laptop and we'll decide on a movie for some background noise." He let go of his hand and quickly rushed off to the back, where he kept most of his personal belongings.

Mint only giggled to himself as he sat down, taking off his gloves and rolling up his sleeves, removing the knife from the pumpkin as he waited for his love to return. Once he did, a laptop in hand and an apron in another, he gave the apron for them to put on as he opened up his laptop, sitting down. "Any particular recommendations? Doesn't have to be a halloween movie." He asked. "Hocus Pocus, maybe. Or any of the Child's Play movies. Whatever you want." They offered as he looked up both, deciding on one and putting it on.

"Right then. You have the other carving knife, I'll get another pumpkin. No limit to what you can or cant carve." He instructed, putting a pumpkin on their lap and taking the one with the cut in it. "You might want to empty the insides first though. Unless you don't want to, for effect, or whatever reason you might have."

They nodded a little, taking a few moments to decide what they wanted, but they couldn't stop staring at Sparkling. He way he instantly went back to focusing, the way just being around him could make the most angry people calm down, the way he so effortlessly had them wrapped around his finger without even knowing.

It only made him smile as he started working on the first pumpkin of many.

#;; asks #;; writings #;; ships <3 #this was waayyyyy longer than it had to be :'D

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ratsoh-writes · 3 years

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Hi ratsoh!! heres my match up info!!

Im p open minded but im generally p shy to people i dont know and really hate starting conversations. im also p introverted and have really bad anxiety sometimes. Especially in crowds/crowed rooms....im the type of person who likes to go slow in a relationship. Id really like to be friends and get to know each other first before we date/become a couple

Some of the things i love are cozying up on the couch with blankets and watching movies or reading a book while the tv plays in the background, watching others play video games and watching YouTube videos. I dont mind sitting hours on end with someone and never actually saying anything. Those are honestly some of my fave moments lol. Music is a huge part of my life, too, and I also have a kitty named gabby who i love v much!!....but she can be a lot sometimes. there probs isn't going to be a time where i dont have a scratch from her!

...I also really really like food and i dont mind cooking from time to time.

Some of the things i really dont like are fighting, or just people yelling in general my ears are really sensitive, someone judging someone else before even meeting/talking to them, making fun of someones appearance, and leaving the house if i dont really need to lol. I also really really hate doing the dishes. I will do literally any other chore besides dishes i mean...ill do them but ill hate ever minute of it lol

Some deal breakers for a relationship with me are forcing me to do things i dont want to do, not giving me space when i need it, and not liking cats.

Some specific qualities im attracted to are someone who will stand up for me bc i honestly cant lol, someone who's kind and easy going, and someone who's willing to help with the house work if we end up living together.....mostly dishes. Also...if they can help me learn to open up that'd be a really big plus lol

My flaws are that id just rather do things on my own instead of asking for help. I can be really stubborn over the smallest of things and sometimes if i really really dont want to do something i just wont do it. It doesnt matter what it is, i cant be persuaded or bargained with. I have a hard time talking about my emotions and if i end up fighting with someone i would just let the subject drop and forget about it instead if talking it out.

My strengths are that im v loyal and supportive and would go to the end of the earth for my loved ones if i had too. I have endless amounts of patience and understanding and am very forgiving of/for them too. Im very respectful of others and try to treat everyone with kindness if i can.

Also, if it matters, im five foot, chubby, and i have shoulder length brown hair.

Thank you!!!

Alright, I have just the guy for you!

Let’s match you with…………RED (underfell sans)!

If you like the slow burn, then he’s definitely the slowest burn of all my guys. A relationship with red always has a rocky first meeting, but if you stick around and actually get to know him, slowly he softens and opens up. Then you’re stuck with the most loyal friend you can possibly get! You’ll have to be the one to confess though

Red makes a good match for you because he’s both protective but also loose with his SOs. When he’s with them, he’ll always stick up for them, but his SO is also free to make their own decisions whenever they want. He’s good for a pushover or shyer SO since they can feel safe but still keep their independence

Red also has a kitty named baby bones! He’s a little tuxedo kitten who can get along with pretty much anyone. You two can be doting cat parents together lol. Sometimes you do wonder if fed loves you or your cat more though.

Reds ideal date is a cozy movie night in. If you don’t mind cooking, he’ll do the dishes no problem. He can cook as well, but he’s kinda limited to bbq or Mac and cheese.

The only issue I can see in this relationship is the communication. Part of that is helped by red only dating those he’s already close to, but you two will Ha be to find a way to address when one of you is bothered

#matchups #underfell

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shecallsmesammy · 5 years

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Some things I love about you, @juicedoranged .

1. The way every day has a afternoon nap as a requirement. You're always down to cuddle

2. When I say something dumb and you tell me you love me. It reminds me that even in my silliest moments you care.

3. No matter what I hand you be it my laptop or a game you get absorbed into it and I can just watch you be.

4. You're competitive. In a good way. When we play together you always want to do the absolute best and you hate losing

5. The way you complain when I dont cuddle you while I sleep. It makes me feel like you need me even when I'm not conscious

6. The way you make me jealous but playfully and then I will get upset and you will smother me with attention.

7. When you dance. Especially when it's in the kitchen while we, you, make breakfast.

8. When you post something about me just because you are proud of me.

9. The way that you're still a little nervous. If you're sad in the night and you're afraid to wake me dont be. Go all out! Throw water at me! Anything! The moment I see you need me I'm there.

10. That you love me in a way I have never known.

11. It's never too soon for anything. You want to try everything and it feels like there are no boundaries.

12. You go out of your way to make me happy

13. You get upset when I dont do things like open the door for you and it's cute

14. @juicedoranged

15. When you get upset you want me to spam you with everything I've got until you talk to me. Deep down you want me to be there for you when you try push me away.

16. You can't push me away. Sometimes you try but I always come back and you appreciate it.

17. Being away from me makes it feel like you genuinely miss me. That every moment apart is unbearable.

18. You want a photo of me in every moment. And it's not a photo of us but of me. It shows that you are infatuated with me.

19. I can feed you anything I pull out of the cupboard and you're happy.

20. There's no limit to how much I can annoy you or how upset I can be. You always want me no matter what.

Gonna try do these continuously and add more as they come. I love you for you @juicedoranged

21. You always stand up for me. For us.

22. You always argue with me. You want to be right and dont care if you're wrong but I love feeling the fire in your eyes.

23. You say what's on your mind no matter how saucy it is.

24. I love the way you stare at me but the minute I force you into eye contact you get nervous.

25. I love the way that when you're mad i can call you a thousand times and eventually you will answer because each call makes you want to more and more. I love the way you always answer in the end.

26. I love the way you love me.

27. The way you will end a call when you argue but always answer when I phone back.

28. The way you love your friends. You are so full of love.

29. I love it when you give me attention even when you're busy. You're always free to love me.

30. I love that you're with me and I love it more when you're here beside me.

31. You always have food when we have a phone call. You hungry!

32. Gotta make you laugh and snort like a piggy. Oink oink you're mine girl.

33. You have to be right. All the time or you sulk. And no we can't both be right. Plus you can't pronounce regatta.

34. I love your middle name. Plus I like saying your initials outloud like it's a word.

35. No matter why a phone call starts it always ends with the biggest smile on my face. Even hearing you laugh over the phone is like ecstasy.

36. Hot damn can you overthink. It's cute though. Talk about doing more than the bare minimum.

37. You get really upset seeing the lives people from under privileged backgrounds live. You're very humble.

38. You always enjoy a good sexual innuendo. Amongst other sexual things.

39. You find blood to be very aesthetic.

40. You like to plan things out and i love the idea of you planning things out with me.

41. You love English. You love finding ways to correct my English. I love seeing how passionate you can be about the things you love.

42. You are an amazing artist, an incredibly talented individual. The world is not ready for the caliber what you have to offer.

43. God the way you speak about the megalodon. I love how sucked in you can get.

44. I love how often I find new things to love about you. I love learning about you.

45. I love how you take interest in my interests. Even if they are not your own.

46. You love French music. It's so cliche.

47. You love cliche night outs. Dinner and ice skating. Every moment with you is special.

48. You're an incredibly light sleeper but still need the comfort and cuddles during the night. You're like a cute little baby having nightmares.

49. Your eyes drive me bonkers. Never have I been so captivated someone's eyes. Wow.

50. The fact that this post is barely a week old and I've already named 50 things i love about you.

51. You are some dark souls level of difficult!

52. The way you bite me as hard as you like bit complain when i do the same to you. Yes you bite me that hard.

53. The way you try so hard not to let yourself feel sometimes. I really want you to feel.

54. If i leave you alone for 2 minutes at a party you will find a way to get as drunk as humanly possible.

55. When you’re drunk you deny things like there is no tomorrow.

56. You are so difficult in the morning. I thought I was hard to wake up but you! ah!

57. You will go out of your way to show people you are with me. To show them you have a boyfriend,

58. The way I can sob on your chest and its ok. I apologize for it but its still ok because you’re there for me.

59. You hold me when it rains or when there is a lot of thunder. You love me regardless of my fears and you make me feel so safe in your arms.

60. The times you get really feisty. With me. Where you tell me what you want and I give it to you.

61. The fact that for the first time in so long it feels like I have someone and always will have them.

62. You nasty. I love our competitions of who can smell the worst!

63. The way you jump from a scare in a horror no matter how much you claim its not scary!

64.The way you get embarrassed when I stare at you. I cant help it.

65. The way your tears run down your cheek. The way they glide. Its beautiful.

66. The way you walk around my room to see if you forgot anything and still miss multiple things. Tired nunu cant focus.

67. You have no shame about the hickeys or the scratch marks you give me. You don’t care who sees them. Until my mom does!

68. My body feels like it belongs up against yours. Its like a perfectly fitting puzzle piece.

69. The way you fuck me.

70. The way that even if you don’t see a purpose or feel a sense of belonging i know that you belong in my life purely because of the amount of joy you give me.

71. The face you make when you concentrate.

72. The way you play with cats is too cute.

73. You would play games with me till the sky turns dark.

74. You're willing to sit with me in an emergency room when I do something stupid.

75. Seeing you spend time with my family makes me so fucking happy baby.

76. You cant keep your hands off me even when I sleep.

77. Waking up with you is like waking up with a sunrise of my own every morning.

78. You like to clean. Even my room. It bothers you and its cute.

79. You dont like it when someone thinks bad of you.

80. Every second with you fills my heart with more joy than every day without you. I cant wait to see you again.

81. You are willing to be friends with my friends.

82. When you're upset if I hold you long enough you calm down and it makes me feel like I comfort you.

83. You some how make fun of me in a way that I can laugh too!

84. Sex can be extra messy with you. Fuck is it hot in here.

85. You either take the mosquito bites for me or hunt them while I sleep.

86. That you love me and I swear I just know you do.

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btsjimln · 6 years

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💌

My prince my sunshine my love and light of my life my love and joy and literally the left side of my heart and soul, I genuinely don’t know how to start of this letter other than immediately jumping into my thoughts and feelings that keep me up at night that make my heart swell and grow in size that have feelings of love and joy rise to the point where i have to let it out which this time resulted into the beginning of this letter.

Often when i go to bed at night I think about you actually most the time. I think of your laugh and your smile and I genuinely and effortlessly start subconsciously smiling and the feeling of love and joy starts bubbling up in my heart sometimes i even think of how clumsy and goofy you are on stage just to fuel the feeling thats bubbling and growing inside of me and sometimes i think about how nice and kind you are how loving and caring you are and my heart kind of deep dives and swarms over with love and this time my thoughts went into that direction.

This time when I was laying there in the dark I thought about how whenever I’m upset in any way, whenever something goes wrong for me, whenever i feel something negative or even see something negative I just think back to you, I think of you how thoughtful you are how kindhearted you are how considerate and caring you are and I find comfort in it i think about how situations related to you are so easy and smooth and I even compare negative sights to your positive light

Because of that you have taken away the ache in my heart countless of times, pried away the ugly feeling that cluthes onto it and overflowed it and had it swell in sizes with nothing but love and joy, you’ve had it even grow and bubble over with pride and delight over the kind of person you are. you’ve even made it ache and hurt because of it but only in the best way possible (those times are the times i’ve wanted to give you the world for the kind of person you are but have never managed to do it)

You really are my happiness in this world. You genuinely bring me so much joy you make me so happy you make me smile and laugh -like genuinely when not much actually makes me feel that joyful. I also feel grateful for your happiness for your laughs and smiles I wish I could always see you like that I literally wish I could give you my happiness sometimes for at the end of the day you are the one who caused it, so you can be happy all the time and never know of any sad times . Your happiness your laugh your smile it makes my heart click in place and I always want to see you at your happiest

Whenever I think of you of how kind and sweet you are how lovely you are my heart swell it literally swells in sizes it feels like it’s engulfed in love thinking about all your random acts of kindness and I truly find myself feeling bad for the people that miss out on your existetence but I truly am grateful I found it

You know what I love about you I love so much about you I love that you love moon and sun and stars so much just thinking of something as simple as you looking out at the sky and admiring the view makes me want give you the sky and all its colors stars the moon sun all it bestoves and holds

I love how simple things make you happy how the sight of fireworks are enough to fill your heart with love and joy it makes my heart filled with love and joy and feel happy and content

I love how you’re so entranced by the sight of the world the beaches and seas sunsets and sunrises the amount of times I wished to be able to show you the world are countless. I’ve wanted to take you everywhere and show everything worthy of seeing i’ve wanted to have your heart filled of sights and views to the point where it can never feel empty you are truly one of the very few if not only people i know who appreciate the beauty of this world who looks at everything with a childish glint in their eyes and with so much awe

I love how kind you are how sweet you are how the person you present yourself as to be , is who you are , how you once said you just want people to know how since you are and I see it I see it and others do to and people talk about it and even when you dont bother to show all the kindness you constantly give to the world it slips out for the world to see and admire it all

You were raised with so much love and kindness in your heart I cant believe there was once a sweet little boy feeling the need to return 50 cents to the police station

I really always wish you happiness I wish it for you for when the world can see you, when you’re at concerts, when you’re performing but I also wish it for you for when you are alone and the lights are out and the world is asleep I want you to be as happy as possible, always

No letters is enough for you because you are so amazing and wonderful you really really really are to the point where letters are enough

Your heart holds so much and feels so much and I admire it so much i admire the happiness you feel at the simplest things I admire the pain your heart must’ve carried I am in awe of what your thought processes must be, for the things you sometimes blurt out are so mind blowing. They’re always so thought through so cleaver and wise it makes me want to hear more of them to learn from them I fucking love how empathic you are I couldn’t give a single shit what others think about it the fact that you cry at the sight of someone else crying is so endearing to me you heart is so big and loving and caring and would run across the stage whilst in the middle of a performance to comfort someone whos crying

Park Jimin you’re such a gentle soul I cant believe you exist in this world I get so overwhlemed to the point cant believe you’re out there and you’re real and you’re this amazing

To me your eyes hold so much warmth and love and kindness and gentleness and I hope everyone sees it to for I know it’s not just me being too in love or anything like it your eyes are a peak into your soul every single emotion you feel shines through your eyes your kindness your compassion your caring and loving nature everything shows through your eyes theyre literally pools of warmth and love

Your voice makes my heart swell in sizes and makes my soul feel alive sometimes it makes me shy sometimes it brings comfort to my heart sometimes it relaxes me sometimes it makes me smile and laugh

I love you so much I genuinely love you so much

I made a list of a ll your good words and deeds but I feel like it faded in the background and failed to show all the kindness you give to the word but I do hope your kindness is seen wherever you go and that none of it is taken for granted for your heart and soul are SOSO SOSOS SOSOS pure I genuinely wish I could give you the world

I wish I could take your random acts of kindness and put it on pieces of string and showcase for the world to see you don’t know how badly I want to do it to have you recive all the love and joy you deserve to have people understand all the love and joy that’s in my heart

You have proved to me that one can be the kindest and still get so much negativity you don’t deserve any of it and I’d literally give my left arm for you to never feel bad about anything ever again your heart knows no limits your soul is never dull nor dark you are so amazing and wonderful I love you so much I can’t believe you exist Park jjimin the kindest soul to be put here

Please don’t ever cry please always smile and if your heart gets heavy sometimes please remember how amazing you are how loved you are how cared for you are

You are the light in this world the world would be nothing without your laughter and smiles without your giggles and cute squeaky sounds without the kindness you show for random cats on the street the love and care you show for your members

You are everything you are genuinely everything and I love you for it

Park Jimin I have never been good with words but with you I’m like a a poet rambling up novels of idioms and metaphors you make me feel so much so much I want to let it all out or else it feels like my heart will burst or else it feels like im so engulfed with emotions I’ll explode from it

And i know sometimes things get hard i dont understand it at the extent you do (which sometimes breaks my heart because i feel guitly being unaware of your pain and enjoying myself like your worries and struggles dont matter) but i know sometimes things are rough and you take it heavily to heart. You don’t know how much it hurts me not seeing a smile on your face or seeing your exhausted face after a rough day it has my heart actually feeling crestfallen i wish to take all your worries and struggles away i wish i could carry them sometimes i genuienly feel like a parent whos hearts aching for their child thats hurting . Thats why i cherish your laughter and smiles why i thrive in how happy you are why i feel so good knowing you are at the top of the world and not being dragged down by any negative emotions

I wish I could tell little encouragements to you I wish I could tell you all the things about yourself that I love so much about you your eyes that hold genuinely so much love and kindness your kissable and boopable nose your pretty plump lips that wear the cutest pout there is how you never show your struggles and worries because you wouldnt want to burden anyone

But I also want to tell you that I love you and that I cheer for you that I root for you that I appreciate you that I’m grateful for you for your existence for your smiles your laughters your presence your sosoo bright presence

You don’t know how happy you’ve made me how much you’ve done for me how much you’ve done for the world what an impact your existence is to the world how many people you inspire and how many people you have want to move forward

I hold you so high in my eyes I see you as someone who would light up every star in the sky who would take their clothes of their back I genuinely cant see you anything but kind

Jimin I love you I adore you I care for you my heart literally holds so much love for you and my eyes pour out all the adoration I feel for you you should literally see the way I look at you sometimes it genuienly feels like love pouring out my eyes I would give you the world each and every single star anything and everything you want you are my love my joy my heart my soul my everything in this world I can feel your presence in the right side of my heart in the right side of my soul I can literally feel you tugging on my heart stringes there and making that part ache you make me feel my heart in my chest

I cant evene express how immensely thankful I am for someone who cares so much for fans like you do I feel so cared for and yet I’ve never met you you make me feel so loved and appreciated and seen you are so amazing I have never met you nor have you met me yet just from your constant words it feels like Ive met you multiple time from it and spoken to you as a close friend who you constatly comfort

Your heart is golden you soul is so pure there’s so much good in your soul I love you to the point where there are no word im literally geting overwhelmed just thinking of every single thing you’ve ever done for someone you loved to the point where my hearts swelling in sizes at the thought, Hushsusjiddjddjjdjdjdjdjdjd im trying not to cry writing this but I love you so much

Do you evene know how golden your soul is it literally has me cryin doyou know how kind you are compared to the next person you’re so gentle. It really aches in my heart for all the people that only see you for your looks because you are so much more, there is so much more to it. I wish to god I could just express everything here all at once every single word thought feeling I feel when I think of something simple a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone and explain just how I feel from that but I cant

You are literally my comfort and my safe place you are my happy place and the place I search to come to when I feel alone. Jimin I love to so much. i love you with all there is in me I really really live you with everying in me. Your heart knows no boundaries when it comes to kindness your soul is so wise. I don’t even deserbe to write this letter I genuienly feel like I’m not doing you any justice but I honestly didn’t know you’d be this important to me and that I woukd come to love you like this to the point where my heart is filled with so much love from simpöe seeing a picture or a video

As astounding as it might sound your smile is the first smile I love and adore so much the first smile I’ve genuinely fell for the first laugh I’ve fell for I’ve never understood the adoration and love people hold for someone’s smile until I saw yours and now all I do is think about it when I go to bed at night

I see the pieces you give I see the parts of your soul you hold. The amount of times I’ve said this man must’ve never held any bitterness to anyone sure you’re human and some negative emotions you must have felt sometimes but the way you look st your friends when they achive the tiniest things the big smile on your face the pride in your eyes, the kindness and care you show towards animals and strangers its so easy to see how good you are as a person jimin

The time I saw you react to the bird with a misssing leg was probably the first time I was genuinely shocked and blown away with how kind someone can be istg I had never ever ever seen such a genuine reaction before like this it took my breath away it genuinely blew me away i didnt know how to even process it

You are so considerate caring thoughtful and loving you are so much good and more you are so important my love

You don’t know how much you matter how much you light up the world how precious you are how important you are

Thank you for being such a big and significant part in my life

happy birthday jimin i love you so much

#i was writing in my notes and thought itouldnt be do much #but i like it #i wouldnt sayits organie its more ofa jumble of myb thouhgs but im glad i ethtis out #jimin's birthday letter

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bastardrobocop · 5 years

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on fallout 76

so, because im a fool i pre ordered fallout 76. frankly, i was going to buy it on release anyway because im starved for anything fallout and new california was a complete bust.

anyway, this means i have had access to the “B.E.T.A.”, which isn’t really a beta. it’s just server stress tests. i’ve done every pc round so far and i feel like i can say pretty conclusively that it’s just not very good.

sorry, this is going to be a long meandering post

i dont know if its something they can fix in the like, week before they launch the game, but the delay/latency/feel is so fucking whack it’s unbelievable. the multiplayer fallout new vegas mod feels like it has better netcode. in addition, it is dreadfully optimized. i play on a laptop, so maybe take my perspective with a grain of salt, but i’m not the only one who has pointed this out. i use an nvidia 970m, which runs fallout 4 at around 50/60 frames per second. fallout 76 tops out at around 10-30 on average. just wandering the world, the framerate is atrocious. performance is best in small interior cells and in wide open spaces with nothing in it. in more dense and enemy populated areas, the game stutters hard. more than once ive had the game freeze for several seconds during a firefight. its honestly inexcusably bad most of the time. with poor latency and framerate chugging, the gameplay experience is trying. it makes literally everything painful, including just inventory management and crafting.

the gameplay itself isnt too awful in that its just fallout 4 again but without the pretense of minimal rpg elements. performance problems can make some engagements suck, but most common enemies aren’t too hard. however, the real nasty ones that are higher level than you can be nigh on impossible to take down solo, which sucks because my friends arent always available and dealing with online randos is always bad. but it’s also the only way to get like, good weapons. but anyway, the core gameplay loop is almost the same. i say almost because the ‘workshop’ storage is your only storage. and it has a 400lb limit. which takes into account anything you put in it. this should seem like an obvious issue; you basically cant afford to store things if you gather valuable resources. im currently stuck carrying this big fucking rocket launcher which is useless right now because i dont have any inventory space for missiles, which weigh a ton. also, ammo has weight now. and you can’t scrap ammo for ammo parts like gunpowder or lead. and you can’t sell ammo either. so instead you just have to like, dump hundreds of rounds just on the ground since you can’t store them in the workshop because you need space for steel and adhesive and that M2 Browning that you can’t use yet but want to hold onto because it looks bitchin. however, you can bulk scrap with plastic, which reduces weight by about half. however, therein lies another problem; plastic becomes a precious resource because you can’t make a bulk pile of wood without it for some reason. plastic is currently more precious than literal gold. still, you get stuck holding a bunch of valuable scrap in your inventory which you can’t put into your stash because it’s full and you can’t go out and find more plastic because then you’ll be over-encumbered and you cant afford to drop this circuit board and you can’t build any more things in your camp because the budget is painfully low and even when you DO get enough plastic to bulk things the bulked stuff goes into your inventory and wont necessarily fit back into the stash and i’m still carrying this fucking missile launcher please god let me put down this missile launcher please oh please god

the ui is a disaster. it’s like they turned 4′s console/gamepad control scheme and doubled down on it; on pc, random keys are bound to multiple things and then also bound to a separate key, and you can’t re-bind things individually. so that means middle mouse is both ‘open favorite item wheel’ and ‘enter third person’ and ‘enter build mode’ when there’s also V which is also ‘enter third person’. you cannot change this. there will always be one button for this. there is still no separate binding for bash and grenade throw, of course. if you press escape, it opens the map. if you press m, it opens the map. to open the pause menu with things like ‘options’ and ‘microtransaction store’ and ‘quit the game’, you have to open the map with either escape or M and then press Z. there is no direct button to take you to the pause menu, as far as i can tell. when you go up to a workbench, there are three options; E to craft, R to scrap, Space to repair and modify. from this menu, if you want to scrap an item, you must mouse over it, and then select it. however, DO NOT MOVE THE MOUSE UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. even if the prompt is open and asking if you want to scrap, say, a pump action shotgun, if you mouse over and the highlight moves over to your only power armor chest piece, it will scrap the power armor chest piece. even though it was asking if you wanted to scrap the shotgun. its potentially one of the most hostile interfaces ive ever seen. the bindings for ‘scrap mode’ and ‘scrap item’ in different menus also change. if i’m in the repair menu, G scraps an item. if i’m in scrap mode, spacebar does. the only good thing ive seen so far is the favorite wheel and also you can set it so you can see through your pip boy background while browsing it.

the world feels desolate and boring. the lack of human npc interaction has been replaced with finding some dead persons holotape. there are robots. there is at least one AI. but all the questgivers are pieces of paper, holotapes, or voices on a radio. sometimes it’s a robot. you don’t actually interact though. there’s no interaction beyond listening and being told what to do. while im bitching about how the world feels, lets talk about factions. bethesda has kind of casually hyped up factions as being some kind of meaningful, cool choice. they’re literally nothing. there is no indication to other players what faction you are in. you can join every faction and reach top rank in every faction. you cant see if anyone is a member of your faction unless theyre in your faction specific base. there is no inter-faction conflict, there are very few faction quests aside from random events, and once you’re done with the main faction quest, you’re basically done for good except for repeatable ones. i honestly expected factions to be a meaningful choice, which was probably my mistake. i was hoping it would force you to commit to your current faction once you joined it, or would prompt you to abandon another faction in order to join a new one. but there’s just nothing. i was expecting something like, i dunno, destinys faction thing. like joining new monarchy. and maybe butting heads with members of other factions, like i figured the Brotherhood faction would be my enemy if i joined the enclave. but it’s just nothing. the world is nothing, the quests are nothing, everything just feels pointless.

this is also a personal gripe, but there are like no energy weapon alternatives to small guns aside from the errant laser pistol, but ammo is extremely rare. the only new energy weapon i’ve seen so far is the plasma gatling, which is a big gun. otherwise, it’s just the crappy pistol/rifle converting laser and plasma rifle. no plasma pistol, just a pistol conversion. no laser pistol, just a pistol conversion. i’ve always loved energy weapons and just like. not getting any variety while guns and melee weapons get tons of variety is grating. there are many new ballistic weapons that look neat. the 10mm smg is back, and i am admittedly fond of it. however, 10mm ammo is painfully rare. i spend basically all my lead making more ammo for it. i can kind of get by with my laser pistol and my shotgun always makes up however much ammo i lose because a lot of enemies use shotguns, but my 10mm just goes up in smoke and there’s none to be found elsewhere. there’s a shocking amount of .308 because almost every early/mid enemy uses a hunting rifle, but i guess it makes sense because the big MG-32 thing takes .308 so they want you to be able to use it when the time comes. still, i’d rather be using an energy weapon. i want like. a recharger pistol. or the plasma rifle with all the tubes. or a pulse gun. just like. anything other than the ugly aer9 pistol conversion. i think the folks down at bethesda just dont like energy weapons very much; theyre leaps and bounds less viable than small guns.

the enemies look okay. instead of raiders, you have the Scorched. they’re Marked Men, but weaker and also a cult formed by radioactive bats. there are super mutants, because bethesda cant be bothered to go outside of the comfort zone of Things People Recognize and also they hate lore i guess. the wild animals are kind of fun. theres a big toad that looks cute, and frogs that have MASSIVE arms that they run on, which looks funny. theyre small though. things like the mothman and snallygaster look neat. the flatwoods monster is okay. the grafton bastard is big and kind of easy to cheese out. there is a monster named after a flawed and racist interpretation of indigenous beliefs. theres a big sloth, who i love. the mole men (called mole miners) are intimidating and ANNOYINGLY precise with shotguns. they’re later game enemies and very aggressive. they drop a neat looking unarmed weapon that ive been using, called a mole miner gauntlet. it’s like a power fist with big claws. there’s a big bee called a honeybeast. ive basically covered all of the new monsters, though. everything else is from fallout 4 and dlcs. this includes things like anglers, which had obviously evolved on far harbor along with the lure plant so it doesnt make sense for them to be there, and gulpers which are big salamanders so i guess that’s more okay. there are swarms of bees that are just he same repeated png of a bee, spinning around. oh yeah, there are a couple new insect types; ticks and fireflies. both use the animations of the radroach and bloatfly, respectively.

solo play can be kind of boring and difficult. most randos you meet will either ignore you or call you a slur and run away. ive only had one guy break into my house and i murdered him. however, even though he had a bounty on his head, he was still allowed to get ‘revenge’ on me which meant he could spawn right next to me and this time he had a power armor suit, so he killed me a couple times before logging out to avoid my wrath. coward. if you’re out there dude, i’ll kick your ass. also, quick note about the bounty system; its kinda rough around the edges. i tried to save someones garden by shooting a ghoul that was stomping their flowers in the back. however, my shot somehow curved around him at point blank and broke a blackberry bush. from then on, i had a 20 cap bounty on my head. i had to hide from people in my secret enclave bunker and get my friend to kill me so i could perceive other people on the map again and also not live in fear of every tom dick and larry with a power armor frame and a bad attitude.

i feel like i should wrap up. fallout 76 is not very good, but if they can work out performance and latency it wouldnt be too bad for just dicking around with friends. in terms of being like, a fallout game, it’s worse than 4. i haven’t gotten into story spoilers, but its not great. and it feels remarkably desolate for a game thats advertised as being a cool time with your buds. maybe itll be better when there are more people playing. i dunno. its just not very good. i dont recommend it.

#long post #fallout 76 #i just want a good post apocalyptic role playing game #is that too much to ask

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marvelandponder · 7 years

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Through the Fire and the Flames, We Carry On

So, Honest Apple. This is the first episode this season I’m rating more negatively than positively, I think.

It’s not really my style to rail into things, and as a super fan I always find little things to love even in episodes I consider less than stellar, so this post isn’t a rage-boner, believe you me. I know some fans have grown averse to hearing criticism of the show they love because other fans have been so scathing in their analysis before, but hopefully we can take the burn out of it and focus on what’s interesting about it. Plus, yeah, there’s a number of cool details I can’t wait to get to.

I’ll start with the major stuff, and get to the fun part later.

The major problem with this episode is characterization and the pacing of it. It’s not that it’s out of character, really, but that it’s paced in such a way that it might feel out of character. Sounds like a weird problem, but its a problem nonetheless.

The big one is Applejack.

Spelling it Out

It’s no secret that Applejack has a stubborn streak and can be stuck in her ways. She’s had to deliver hard truths even knowing the price. And, of course, she and Rarity notoriously tease each other for their frou-frou and rustic lifestyles respectively, so AJ doesn’t understand the appeal behind fashion.

Yet, I think this episode portrays her as too inconsiderate too fast.

Other analysts have pointed out that even if AJ doesn’t get the appeal behind a fancy hat, she could respect the amount of work that went into it. And if not that, her at this point long history with Rarity has clearly taught her to respect Rarity and her line of work a great deal.

And if not that, there’s the fact that Applejack usually isn’t thoughtless to other ponies feelings. It can happen if she’s, say, very angry or yes, even just very stubborn on an issue, but in most situations you’ll find her going out of her way to make her friends feel better.

While you can argue that it’s in-character, especially after episodes like Hearthbreakers and Winter Wrap-Up, the pacing almost makes it feel a little too far out of character. Going from reasonable and level-headed to not understanding the difference between opinion and fact as fast as Applejack does doesn’t quite work.

And I think this is mostly because of how the moral is handled.

Rarity needing to spell it out for Applejack, as funny as it is, makes AJ seem almost deluded. It takes her an exceedingly long time to figure out ‘wait... my opinions aren’t the most important thing???’ and at this point I’m talking in circles, but you can sort of see why this episode’s exploration of a character’s flaws doesn’t entirely work for me. It’s a little too much too fast.

The only other big negative is one that wouldn’t make or break the episode on its own, and ironically it’s one of the funnier gags the episode has to offer:

Rarity breaking out into a metal solo.

Immersion Break

Why is it a problem if it’s funny? This is a Pinkie gag.

Pinkie is the one able to bust out the Random, the fourth-wall breaks, and the meta-humour. There’s a reason its usually limited to just her breaking out into 90s-inspired rap sequences or pulling Back to the Future references out of nowhere.

When you start allowing other characters the same powers as Pinkie or Discord, it messes with the immersion of the world. Now, I can totally buy Rarity having a Drama Couch on hand at a moment’s notice and not needing much of an explanation because as cartoonish as that gag is, it’s in her character to be that prepared and that, well, dramatic.

The guitar solo joke isn’t really. You don’t expect Rarity to be able to do that, which is why the joke works and even could be considered a subversion, but again, you don’t expect Rarity to be able to do that.

Reason being: she’s not even really playing an electric guitar, meaning this is a meta joke for the audience where they even break out a flaming background. Meaning, she doesn’t normally know how to shred, she’s just illustrating a point to you.

It’s a bit too close to meta for comfort with a character like Rarity. Pinkie, I would have no problems with, but even if I find this funny, it did sort of pull me out of the world the first time I saw it.

So, I just spent a lot of time talking about the two things that bothered me, but do I really hate this episode? No.

In fact, there are some really neat things to love about it!

Details, Thoughts, and Whatnots

Sometimes you’re rewarded if you pay close attention to colours in Friendship is Magic. In this episode, when Applejack apologizes to Rarity and Rarity forgives her, the sky itself blends orange and purple to match how close they feel again:

The valley girl pony chokes on how much she can’t even. She’s actually gagging because she can’t even so hard. I love that the show staff interpreted ‘cant’ even’ as ‘can’t even breathe properly’

Goth pony and Maud would make great friends, don’t you think?

APPLEJACK WITH HER HAIR UP CONFIRMED FOR THE CUTEST THING:

The episode is 1000% worth its faults for that right there

I love how Applejack’s just walking in the background when Rarity announces her name. It makes for great staging and really funny sight gag when you know it’s coming. Good use of foreground and background, for sure.

While it felt sort of unnecessary to cutaway from Applejack’s decision after building up tension for it, that ending scene with Rarity and Applejack joking with each other is pure and adorable, more of that please

As always Pinkie showing up just to make funny jokes and help the main characters of the story is always, always welcomed. I love that her wanting guitar lessons could be its own subplot.

Speaking of characters that have an appearance in this episode, oh hey, Spike still has a crush on Rarity. I honestly thought he’d gotten over that in Inspiration Manifestation when Rarity told him how much it means to have him as a friend, but I guess the little guy still has hope. I would ship it harder if he wasn’t a dog compared to a Rares the human in the EQG/ human universe

I can’t get over how savage she was to Applejack. It’s the best thing. Just like, oh hey? You spend your entire life dedicated to this thing? It’s the worst fruit and full of worms and you disgust me kthnxbye~

Applejack crying when she realizes what she did wrong is a thing of beauty. I swear, this season seems to be the season of tears (which sounds like an insult but it isn’t)

Photo Finish and Hoity Toity! Long time, no see! Photo Finish is still clearly the superior pony, just announcing everything she does, but you know I love me some continuity, so it’s good to see them back.

There’s some good dialogue in this episode. Like I said, even if I didn’t buy how fast Applejack turned from in the right to extremely unreasonable, I love that her commentary on some things makes sense for her to say, like how she will never understand ripped jeans (she says, hiding her ripped shorts under the bed...)

So, all in all, definitely not the worst episode out there, but it’s problems are the first thing I think of when I think back on this episode.

There’s some good, there’s some bad, but in the end, all of that is just my opinion anyway, huh?

More pony stuff? Yeah, I’ve got that! I’ve done other reviews, editorials, and here’s the last three things I’ve done, just to make it easy on you:

Trailer Analysis, Comic Con Coverage, and Hard to Saying Anything Review

Year of the Pony

Special Thanks to Millennial Dan on Deviantart, who made the Microphone vector for the logo!

If Someone on Staff Doesn’t Ship Rarijack, I Lose Ten Bucks

#honest apple #year of the pony #yearofthepony #applejack #rarity #pinkie pie #spike #mlp #My Little Pony #friendship is magic #mlp:fim #mlp: fim #cartoons #animation #analysis #mlp analysis #mlp reviews #mlp season 7 #mlp s7

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randomthingsthatilike1 · 7 years

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So this is regarding the Supercat AU I just posted about yesterday (link here)--who in the supergirl cast would fill what position?

So first thing’s first: Press Secretary.

As Annabeth put it, for 6 years CJ Cregg managed the press through charm and disarm, a seduction. And yes Cat could do it, but you know who would both be good at it and enjoy it?

James.

Alex is obviously chief of staff (and for more comparisons between Jed and Leo and Kara and Alex, I p much already wrote like 2k already tbh). But I will leave here: you gotta best friend? Are they smarter than you? That’s your chief of staff. (And yeah former Surgeon General and army medic turned chief of staff Yup that’s Alex)

As for Lucy? Lucy I can see so much as Deputy Chief of Staff. She’s smart and determined and never sleeps and has So Many contacts in DC—former lawyer that briefed the joint-chiefs-of-staff, General Sam Lane’s daughter, and a Democrat? Yeah, she knows the game. She speaks Republican, since she was raised by one, and knows exactly how to charm and intimidate alike. So many Republican asswhipes just see an attractive woman or a shy little girl and just get absolutely hammered by Lucy. Very few see her coming. She’s been in Washington before sure—but there’s a new Congress every 2 years, and a lot of them have either forgotten or never knew that Lucy wasn’t just a damn wave, she was a tsunami (she was military back then. And her job consisted of keeping her mouth shut, both regarding the secrets she knew and her opinions on the (then) current political climate. This isn’t opening up a debate or anything but even most of the staunchest Republicans were like ‘that’s legit’ when former General Mike Flynn got fired for bad mouthing Obama when he was in uniform. People never really realized she had the blinders on, pretty much always.)

Oh man, and VP Hank Henshaw (yes I know his name is really J’onn but I’m making Hank his middle name and Henshaw his mom’s maiden name. He’s going into politics—a name like J’onn Jonzz doesn’t exactly play the best), former General and joint-chief, Kara’s foil. Most people see the sunshiney optimism, her youth, and her career background and forget that she’s former military. They see Hank, all of his experience with foreign affairs and military and wisdom and are comforted because there’s just one meter in which you judge the Vice President—on their ability to assume the Presidency. And this is politics—they don’t only want him as VP because he’s black, but it definitely made it easier to make that decision as opposed to Chief of Staff.

Winn. I blame @civilorange for this but cat and winn really could have a potential for friendship and really lbr Winn is Sunny and Awkward enough to be this version of Sam, the two of them the Batman and Robin of the White House (and oh man—the scandal isn’t that he accidentally slept with a call girl. The scandal is he’s the toymaker’s son). The boy can write, can knock socks off and has a phenomenal grasp of written oratory and syntax. But he’s completely fucked if he tries to do it in front of like. Anyone he doesn’t know very well, he just freezes up. The Toymaker’s son didn’t exactly have a sheltered childhood, filled with encouragement and support. He learned how to trust, but it’s tentative. He’s not right for Communications Director but as Cat’s deputy? That’s enough.

And then Kara. My kiddo. The star of the show. Like I mention before she was a ROTC college kid, didn’t have access to her trust fund because she was put in witness protection as a kid—her parents’ killer Non is apprehended when she was a sophomore in college but her parents very much instilled a sense of duty in her. She kept going. She comes from a very wealthy family sure, but she can’t access it until she’s 25 anyway Her mom was a Supreme Court Justice and her dad an astronaut at NASA (less of a commute than you might think when you have your own small private plane and are a pilot. Kara grew up knowing that the sky was never the limit), her aunt one of the youngest generals in military history—yeah, a lot of people wanted them dead. She’s a bit aimless in college, Art and Political Science and Linguistics, double minor in military science and astronomy. I don’t think most people realize just how smart Kara is, not to mention easily she bores. She likes being busy, being faster than any thoughts of her past (also no way does Astra ‘I love my niece more than anything in this life’ not teach kara at a v young age how to fight. Kara is very good at it)

She does her requisite 4 years, spends the next two years kind of just enjoying life as an artist, taking it easy and dealing with both childhood trauma and the shit she’s seen in the past 4 years and just slowing down a bit. She sells some of her art, not because she needs the money but because she wants to have it out there. She’s still in her 20’s when she starts working as a diplomat—her record definitely helps. She never really got to travel much but now she does—and damn does she just soak in languages like a sponge.

When she finally feels like setting roots, she goes back home, gets her grad degree in Astronomy—she’s always had a love affair with the stars. Maybe becomes a professor for a little while—you know the one, the one everyone has a crush on and is the one

And kara would 10/10 would be that person that stands up to some bigoted politician and just be absolutely Done with his policies and everyone else is just afraid of him, the guy’s been their district’s representative for decades and is corrupt af so she kind of gets into politics because fuck him she’d do a better job and she cares way more about their country than he does and oh man what if it’s like the Horton Wilde Campaign and the only other candidate has had four heart attacks (and God I’m just reminded of that line “There are worse things in the world than no longer being alive.”), so. She runs and lmao Kara’s surprised that she actually does win but 0/10 is anyone else because she’s dripping with charisma and sincerity and is so damn smart and inspirational and not to mention she’s pretty much looks like a Greek pantheon, along with an exceptional pedigree and has a spotless record (except—it’s not spotless. She was expecting it to come out, but she’s been discrete with any relationships she’s ever had, women with just as much skin in the game as she does. They don’t come up).

She wins, and then she keeps on winning. She moves from the House of Representatives to Governor and she’s two year into her second when her sister comes back to their home state, unannounced, with a crumpled up napkin she’s been carrying in her pocket for the past few days.

Danvers for America

And that brings me to my next point--Cat as Toby, White House Communications Director—there’s too much of a conflict of interest for the former (she takes a leave of absence) head of a media conglomerate to be the press secretary. Not to mention—Cat can charm the pants off of anyone but she is biting and sarcastic and sometimes a bit hostile. So can she do it? Sure. But more like a fill in kind of thing. There’s never any secret plan to fight inflation kind of thing. She could do it long term, but she doesn’t really want to. Cat was first and foremost, a journalist. A writer—there are very few people good enough to write for the White House, and Cat is one of them. (and you know who’s a grumpy cat? Toby. You know who else is a grumpy cat? Cat.)

Seriously, Toby and Cat would get together so well, they have such a similar sense of humor and idealism “it cant go far” “yes” “somewhere in this building is our talent”—or setting aflame horrible writing. She’s an award winning writer, able to inculcate hope and optimism into an entire city with just a few words, and almost completely on the fly. She takes a leave of absence from CatCo, brings Carter to DC—he’s young, he bounces back. She has plenty of savings that the lack of salary doesn’t really bother her.

And it’s been years but Cat feels re-energized, driven, motivated again. And it’s all because of Kara, brilliant, beautiful, wholly and sincerely good. She feels a tugging in her gut, fingers itching to smooth that little crinkle between her eyes, the one that shows up at the end of a particularly difficult day at the White House, one ending in body counts, absolute devastation in every glance and gesture because Kara takes everything so personally and Cat just wants to see her smile again. But Cat knows how this story goes. She tells herself that this is simply admiration, that she isn’t half in love with the most powerful person on the planet, that what she feels is just what the rest of the staff feels, and she’s misreading all the signs and gestures and body language because the President of the United States is not gay.

Except, that all goes right out of her brain whenever she sees Kara’s smile—like the sun. Kara’s sunshine, all of it, relieving warmth that envelops you like the softest, gentlest hug, rays of light breaking through after a snowstorm, light erupting through the clouds after a night you aren’t sure you’ll ever survive—the harsh, unrelenting, UV waves, burning everything in its path. Sunburns and melanoma, droughts, forest fires, sun’s rays harnessed to the point of combustion, going from pleasantly warm to scorching in a matter of minutes—the two Karas.

But Cat sees them both--and it’s not that she doesn’t care, because that’s the point. Cat does care. She sees both sides of Kara, and with every stolen moment, every conversation, every time she promises herself just once more—and it’s never enough. God help her if (when) Kara finally clues in, because there’s no going back—Cat is ruined. She’s fallen in love with her President, and Cat may be the woman with a plan but not this time.

#supercat #supergirl #the west wing #kara danvers #cat grant #tww #lucy lane #alex danvers #j'onn jones #winn schott #james olsen #i dont like how this ended #and this is just the original cast #the main original cast #i have plaNS #;D #superwing #superwing au

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pinksweatergettingbetter · 7 years

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MAYA I TRUSTED YOU

WHAT WOULD WILL POWERS SAY

ok he'd probably be like ‘hehe; guess I'm falling further into obscurity thats cool i was never amazing in the first place’

“theres only one!”

...that is rare

“i traded my watch to my kooraheenese friend! it plays the steel samurai theme when it goes off!”

I SMELL A CHEKOVS GUN

“it sounds just like the steel samurai theme”

“no it doesn't!”

mayas right, it doesn't sound like the steel samurai's theme.

it sounds BAD.

seriously i feel like my soul is physically rejecting it

put your arms akimbo at me again young lady and ill push you into your magic soul pool.

“that whole séance thing makes trials completely different”

meh

speaking of trials, we’re back to trials! ya–– i dont want to deal with nahyuta

“you have to pitch your terrible crossover!! i won't let you down”

as much as i disapprove of the crossover let it be known that phoenix is a sweetie pie.

“The sacred murder dagger was used to murder someone?!?!??! BLASPHEMY!!!”

“The lowest level of hell; the Hell of Tickling” IM KINKSHAMING KOOORAHEENISM

“They shall not escape on their /redtext/ Freedom Express today!”

she did it yaaaaayy!

U R DIARHOEA!!! KOORAHEEN!!!

well i

i cant argue....

oh god no t voice acting again

LOL YOU CAN SKIP IT AHAHHAHHA

AND THE DANCE TOO HJDSJSFAKJ

guess its not *that* important eh

the entire court just called phoenix a shithead.

i mean people say “Polkhunka” when theyre surprised, and the term is “polkhunan”. so yeah. either hellion, or shithead. nice.

phoenix: this makes no sense

me: ooh i cant wait for the bullshit excuse!!

Well ill be damned to tickle-hell. Rayfa’s a television aerial.

oh i see how they did that. i guess spirit visions have steady-cam?

.........he ran right into it

dude why

i just love this. “yes he ran directly at the killer, to fight them! with his arms flailing in terror!! it might look stupid and fake but actually it’s kooraheen’s biggest martial art, RonDeliteFu!”

every time Rayfa does her hand-flinging-out pose i mistake her sash for a stick and i keep thinking she’s a muppet

“we can’t let the special fires go out, so we make sure to remove the glass around them every year on top of a window mountain so that a woman can um...... walk around it i guess.”

i hate to admit it but these stupid pond vision things are really stumping my blind ass

i stg pohlkunka is the stupidest sounding made-up expletive ive ever heard

id rather heard cowabunga every time something shocking happens for godssakes

“wow he really does care about ema”

hey show dont tell lol

“i cant believe he's come to understand their value”

uhhh well

they stated that they still hold investigations despite their magic pool parties, so uhhhhhhh yeah???? forensic investigators are usually pretty helpful??

since Sadmad’s catchphrase appears to be ‘putrid’, i keep reading ‘purification rite’ as ‘putrification rite’

i cant believe they did a “what if... (EXTREME CLOSE UP ZOOM) PLOT TWIST?!”

STOP SAYING PUTRID

oh hey its dirty hobo man! ...also i guess the ‘sexy pan up shot’ is for every new character :/

hobo rangers go...

...Nahyuta named him A’nohn Ihmus. A’nohn Ihmus.

Well that just cements my idea that Kooraheenians are just a bunch of Americans that stole a landmass and made up a phony baloney culture.

It has been confirmed that they are legitimately just taking english words and ‘kooraheenifying’ them.

“i used my binoculars to spy on the rite at the inner sanctum”

A’nohn is just as perverted as his namesake from Tuhmbl’r

“Feh. I knew you were a fool...”

Cue Franziska crashing her plane into the court room to yank on Sadmad’s braid to scold him for taking her word.

“shall be reborn as a witless sea urchin with barbs limited to your posterior”

ok well sadmad, sea urchins asses are next to their mouths... on the bottom of them. completely opposite to the, uh, you know. Spiky part.

So I’m not sure if that serves to strengthen your point or just make you look like a moron

i mean i guess it served to enhance sadmad’s point since phoenix’d be totally smooth and unprotected, but then he wouldn’t even reach adulthood so that sea otter wouldn’t come in too early and...

...he just said phoenix will be reborn as not only mentally slow but also physically deformed.

...uh... nice one, sadmad.

AND MAYA PULLED A REACHAROUND ON THE PRIEST

YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST FROM THE HOLY MONK, GUYS

to be fair, she could have stabbed him with a reverse-grip or not; one doesn’t have to hold their hand at any particular to perform a reach around

oh well at least the contradiction is incredibly obvious

at least hobo ranger has an excuse to use words like “bucko”

i hate that,,,, theres a rule against climbing the mountains during the rite. that means that there have been perverts of yore who tried to spy on the lady changing

hes gonna see her shad–– (sigh)

yknow, i dont think shadows are detailed enough to know which way someone is holding a knife.

also moonlight isn't that bright

DWAAYYYYMMMN

sasquatch’d!!

ok so... does happiraki mean “hello” or “hooray!” because its been used it both contexts

i just realized that the Plumed Punisher theme song sounds like one of those posts where someone takes a recognizable song and fucks with it in a silly way, like pitch shifting it at awkward moments or changing the key

i cannot believe i have to use a fucking walkthrough for this game. I'm disgusted with myself. I'm better than this.

“no one was allowed in there and the only way up were the stairs!”

ah yes, the unguarded stairs surrounded by people who had their heads down. in prayer.

totally impenetrable.

“What?! This is insane!!” no no, phoenix, youre doing it wrong. you have to say “this”, then sadmad has to say “is” and then the judge has to yell “insaaaaane!!” because its funny when one person says one word of a sentence each!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

‘rah rah sis boom bah, fight, fight, phoenix wright!!”

um excuse me maya who gave you the right to be cute

why does sadmad only have one hand-guard-glove thingy

“my bag of bluffs” is an interesting and long way to say “ass”

they put... a maximum security prison... on top of their holy mountain. they put their criminals... on top of their. holy mountain.

they put a jail. in a church. in fact they put it higher up... closer to... god.

what the fuck. the fourth one. only accessible by helicopter.

who was smoking what when they decided this???

(sigh) mmmmm id been waiting to use that patchwork quilt

“hell of hangnails”

not as fetishy but still pretty–– actually you know what that sounds kinda fucked up. isn't that just kinda G rated torture anyway

wow that incredibly obvious lie deserves the terrible pursuit theme??

maybe its the last one (i hope)

“are you the rebel hunter!!??!?!?!??”

um well no, unless the rebel hunter is a criminal. jackass.

...cutting dirty deals with criminals, are we, sadmad?

“haha, the fact that the third person at the scene was a wanted criminal destroys your theory that it was the rebel hunter Keera that killed the high priest!!”

...wow... gosh i was wrong... and the fact that a wanted criminal was actually at the scene... doesn’t help me at all... because once i said that one person didi it, it couldn’t possibly be someone else... oh no... i guess it was Maya who did it... for reals... not the.... wanted criminal....

...hang on, his little power rangers dance was the defiant dragons dance? how... did nobody notice this?? sadmad really was colluding with criminals wasn’t he. gosh. what a trustworthy guy.

phoenix: oh no!! his testimony was a lie!!

oh no! the testimony that did nothing but damage your case was a lie!!!

??????

sadmad: get him!

hobo ranger: (does a little hop and daintily scurries off)

sadmad: ... (takes a good five leisurely seconds to stop the background music) put everyone on high alert. i want everyone after that guy

that guy who just. skipped out of a courtroom. past hundreds of crazy people and several bailiffs.

haha... the kooraheenes police. to quote phelous... THEY’RE THE BEST!

“what was the point of all that, anyway?”

search me, phoenix.

“well, i cant help but feel that entire episode was an enormous waste of time”

hey capcom? hanging a lampshade on it doesn’t make it better. it just amplifies how much it sucks.

“yes! i recognized that piece of paper because it looks exactly like the piece i have! thats covered in blood and unrecognizable!!!”

...nice

OH AND ITS THE PERFECT FIT TO COVER THE BLOODSTAIN WELL ISNT THAT JUST FUCKIN SERENDIPITOUS

“the ignorant lawyer has not bothered to learn out language??”

well A) he's not an international attorney, B) he was on vacation, not studying abroad, and C) fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. you’re all speaking english all the time anyway, you bunch of fuckin phoneys

i stg sadmad if you say putrid one more time i’ll cram a rotten egg down your pasty white gullet and show you the meaning of the word

“the criminal could have only escaped if the high priest helped him out, so why would he kill him?”

hey sadmad? remember that thing about using your putrid brain? yeah, doesn’t take too big a leap to realize that you might’ve just proved phoenix’s ‘idiot theory’ right. maybe the priest um... was a rebel??? who was going to do just that??? and the rebel killer offed his sorry ass?

perhaps, o foolish prosecutor, you should think before you open your rancid lips... lo, in your ignorance, you will be cast down to the hell of those who are kind of stupid....... the hell of perpetual fart smell. there you shall inhale the decomposing winds of ten thousand and one accursed mihtama, while fart fetishists gaze on in envy...

oh wow i didnt even need to go on that spiel, he just admitted it straight up. but yeah, apparently when Lady Kee’ra impersonator kills a rebel, it’s A-OK. But when Maya kills a rebel, well, fuck, she’s a foreign bitch, execute her!!

also the way he said it seems to imply that he knew all along so uh

maybe people should start suspecting this guy. he seems to... know a lot of rebel criminals.

every time sadmad shakes his head i wanna break his neck

man i remember being annoyed at edgeworth in the first game and wanting to hop my desk and rough him up, but never wanting to physically maim or kill him. you suck, sadmad.

WE GOT IT, FOLKS!! WE GOT THE ASSAULT!! IT’S UM, IT’S SUPERNATURAL FORCE ASSAULT THIS TIME.

FUCK BIRDS AND SWORDS, I GUESS? ACTUAL MAGIC IS THE WAY TO GO?

hey sadmad; tickling? bondage? can we... keep that out of the courtroom please?

also “oh no! i can’t point my finger!!” phoenix cries, forgetting that he has two arms. i guess capcom won’t spring for more than one sprite tho haha

“the keera we saw was the statue draped in the sacred robes!”

with a... knife sticking out, apparently. ok..?

also gosh, maya’s really fast, tiptoeing around the abbot, draping the costume just so, then tiptoeing back around? like lightning she is!!

he just cut off his own theme song.

“she used her fiendish tricks to fool the court room”

which didn’t work at all if you remember the beginning of this court so fuck you?

“she sought to use the divination seance to mislead us!”

good going, pointing out an absolutely massive flaw in your country’s legal system, sadmad.

i cant believe we had a flashback for absolutely no other reason than Sadmad to gloat. I FILE FOR A MISTRIAL ON GROUNDS OF MISUSE OF FLASHBACKS.

please oh god just let it end i dont have enough space in my stomach for any more ulcers

i can’t stand hearing him say let it go one more time please I'm begging you

oh no... phoenix has failed... he’s going to die... it’s really going to happen...

just get to the surprise witness or whatever already

oh thank god. love you, headband guy

“the dagger bears the finger prints of maya fey!”

wow. the police suck major ass at catching running people, but their finger print checking speed is second-to-none. ...either that or they waited a while before telling people about a dead body.......

oh gosh!!! its totally maya!!! she arrived 2 years ago and so did lady keera and

yeah no. it’s not her.

but even if it was, kinda awkward there, sadmad? she’s um. kind of a hero to you.

i dont get it why is everyone freaking out. i thought the keera impersonator was considered some kind of vigilante hero? why is it suddenly bad when they “find out” it’s maya? is it because she isn't kooraheenees?

I'm honestly really confused. everyone was rooting for the masked defender one moment, but now that its maya, it’s murder??

seriously what the fuck. like the gallery was legit going “ah!! lady keera has come back to save us from the rebels!”

and then its like “its not divine its some foreign bitch in a cloak” and now its like SERIAL KILLER. also, nice. we’ve never been allowed another day in court because there was a second charge racked up. awesome. (with the possible exception of Ron Delite, tho he was changing his charge)

sadmad can go choke on his own braid and the gallery can lick their own hypocritical asses. i can’t believe i stayed up till 2 am to finish this section.

#sulking over SOJ #soj spoilers obvs]#it just keeps getting better........ and better..........

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