#can’t stop looking at the pages

[sallytwo]

... The poem may be an elegy for childhood losses.

(On Dream Song 29, Thomas Travisano)

#myart #hollyleaf #power of three #warrior cats #MY MAGNUM OPUS!!! #AUGHHHHHRHGHHHHHHH #GUYS. DREAM SONG 29. DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #okay here are all the details: ‘if he had a hundred years’ with the mountains is supposed to bring to mind the ancients #everyone is supposed to be faceless except for holly. on the second pace the bottom 3 silhouettes are leaf crow and squirrel #and their eyes are white with colored iris to look even MORE uncanny. the fire cuts across holly’s throat foreshadowing her death #the entire second page with the fire is showing how this once event has completly collapsed her life it’s everywhere she can’t escape it #lightning on 3rd page also represents the storm. and the fact that holly was scared of storms after the fire with is so :( #i also imagine holly used to be a lot lighter gray as a kit/paw with tabby markings. just personal hc #ashfur killing scene again you don’t see the action you don’t even see her face just the aftermath. she wasnt there it didnt happen. etc #the leaf has the tufts of her fur that were in his claws from the fight the only ‘evidence’ of it happening. #and the last two shots show her alone in the tunnel dreaming of her family (squirrel bramble fire sand leaf and lion and jay) #vs lion and jay. and the prophecy. who don’t even stop to grieve her because they’ve found the 3rd cat. nobody is ever missing

[pebbleyoufindonthestreet]

I was doodling yesterday and now I can’t focus

I’m sorry I can’t stop staring at him omfg

can he hold me like that hghgggggggh

#look at his sweet smile omg #wasn’t feeling it and now I’m like “wow I’m the artist ever’’ #I wanted to make a full doodle page but I can’t stop staring at him #like bro stop I can’t focus when you look like that #lemme squish your cheeks #sans #does this count as anomaly!sans #anomaly!sans #sansnomaly #please look at him #are his eyes full of adoration or am I delusional #hrghgrgrheh #bye

[marshmellowtea]

MEAN TO HER???

#instead of sleeping or working on my fic like i’m supposed to i am once again looking at the nope tv tropes page lmao #i can’t stop laughing this is so uncalled for 😭 #she’s probably never seen one before be NICE!!!! #nope 2022 #marshy speaks

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

[ebellaart]

The store was all out of black ink pads, sorry morphy.

I know you tumblr pals enjoyed the last Sandman print so here’s a helm!

#this series is just so perfect for ink based mediums I can’t stop #I have three whole pages of my sketchbook dedicated thus far #and the store was actually all out of black ink pads which made me very sad #but this brick color does look very pretty #the sandman #the sandman comics #the sandman netflix #neil gaiman #sandman #dream of the endless #the sandman fanart #morpheus #printmaking #linocut

[boxbug]

• THE CHAMPIONS OF MCC20 •

My piece for @winnerspovzine - done in collaboration with @revancy who knocked it out fo the park!

You can get the zine for FREE just by clicking on this link! Every piece is amazing, I can’t get enough of it. Trust me, even if you don’t know what mcc is, it’s a treat for the eyes.

A huge thank you to the mods for all their hard work, this was an amazing project to work on and I am genuinely honored to have been a part of it.

#winners pov zine #mcyt #geminitay #antfrost #5up #hbomb94 #mcc #mcc20 #i’m not even kidding when i say i can’t stop looking at the zine #every so often i just open the pdf and stare at all the art #this was the first time i worked on a zine that was collaborative #not only do i LOVE working with people #but it also made the end result so unique #the diversity of artstyles is shown in full force #and they mash so well together on a spread #definitely my favorite thing #it makes every page so unique and vibrant #gah ok i’ll stop ranting in the tags now #didn’t want to make the post too cluttered <3 #my art #zines

[loverslakes]

it will be a normal day and then i’ll watch this video i posted of me and my best friend where i’m clearly the happiest i’ve ever been and they see right through me they see right through me can you see right through me they see right through they see right through me i see right through me i see ri

#i stopped posting after she moved its been 2 years it’s soso bad for me #me.txt #i think its less about me being in love with her bc its not like that anymore and we’re still close but just. not being able to change how #it looks from the outside. like thats the reality of what happened im the man who can’t be moved #right where you left me etc etc and its just like. broadcasted on my abandoned instagram page like a sad time capsule

[coffeeshopdaydream]

Our Wives Under the Sea is one of my favorite books I’ve read recently. Gorgeous prose and a gothic ocean setting. A meditation on trauma, grief, and love. A haunted house story about a house and a submarine and a relationship and a mind. Miri and Leah’s relationship was heart-wrenching and honest and made me hopeful about finding something like it someday (as a queer disabled person, it hit even harder).

#if you’re looking for a new book HERE’S YOUR SIGN!! #our wives under the sea #I can’t stop thinking about it #and I feel like I need to write a 100 page essay about it #ugh i just loved it #book rec #tag: coffeeshopdaydreaming

[bambeebirdie]

Me: I’m going to try to not look at any Totk fan art! Avoid as much as possible until I beat the game! Absolutely no spoilers of any kind!

Totk Fanart: how would you like dramatic ass pictures with dragons and swords?

Me: well shoot I would love dramatic ass pictures with dragons and swords so please give me more actually

#so I haven’t been scrolling though tags yet #i will say those most of my fy page is totk and I haven’t stopped looking through it #it’s just Zelda fan art ahhh #it’s always so fucking good #i can’t just block the tag it’s so pretty #besides I live with other people playing it rn and they’re all ahead of me so I’ve already gotten spoilers #this is just further in the game spoilers and slightly more cryptic in delivery #i love this game and the art and ahhh #to my buddy who follows me and blocked the Totk tag you’re lucky I haven’t started rb yet #totk #legend of zelda #legend of zelda tears of the kingdom

[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

omg omg omg

#1970 #look at the FINGERS #he’s so pretty #i can’t stop staring #sometimes I’m so hormonal in a certain way that looking at him makes me cry #i want to SMOOCH him #john paul jones #led zeppelin #jonesy #classic rock #jimmy page #robert plant #john bonham

[fefairys]

birthday in 4 days family keeps reminding me but it hadn’t hit yet

#this one feels so unimportant #like i’m busy :/ i’m working on the comic…. #god btw i drew my favorite panel of the comic so far and i can’t stop looking at it #and i’m mad cause it’s like one of the last pages so it’s a spoiler of that chapter #so i can’t just post it #guys this comic is good… #it’s like funny and nice to look at too we are good artists :/ just saying #and it’s sooo funny and the characters are all so hot #i’m high sorry #personal

[pepprs]

#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start. #purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings. #forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest. #i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it? #delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 #also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

[summerofsmiles]

More serious post, but the last 4 years of Led Zeppelin is a prime example of the devastating impacts that the lack of emphasis on mental health and the exploitative and unforgiving nature of the music industry can have and it should be discussed more

#not to be music major on main but #we were discussing artist exploitation in class today #and Led Zeppelin had an incredible manager that really looked out for them #but still #they were pushed to the absolute limit #even when they should not have been pushed #and eventually all four of them cracked in their own way #and it’s not like they were four innocent victims who had the burden of this terrible industry befall them #but I can’t help but think #if there were just a few critical changes in the way things were run #the industry would spur so much more creativity and so much less trauma #(and ofc John Bonham would still be here and Jimmy Page wouldn’t have lost his fire) #idk #this is an invitation to discuss this with me bc I’m curious now #stop reading zep biographies and over analyzing challenge

[heartual]

why is the ulta website always working overtime when i need smth

#🍄.txt #i need foundation 💔 stop reloading bc the page went unresponsive pls 😔 #literally looked like a ghost on grad day with the last one i tried. me when i can’t shade match #they also have like zero shade range so i can’t go up a shade or two… absolutely sick i didn’t realize until looking at it online

[sgecls3]

..

#okay confession #i made a comment on a reel about a particular somewhat wellknown tiktok created #whose videos are all primarily about their weight loss/fitness journey #my comment was basically that her fat distribution/build before weight loss was a little unfortunate #(all of her fat was gathered in one place/not evenly distributed and not particularly flattering to her #BUT #that i was so proud of her progress and she’s looking amazing #and of course people took offense and took my comment as me insulting her #which i of course was not; i am in awe of her and she’s doing admirable work #but people started picking on ME and how i look #saying that my face or my body or my forehead or whatever was unfortunate #which at first didn’t really bother me #but as someone with an eating disorder… i can only read so many comments about my body before i can’t handle it anymore 💀 #but of course i can’t say that to people in some instagram comments because that’s just an excuse to get them to stop picking on me #and i didn’t want to delete the comment because that would just be giving in to people bullying me in a sense #but it ended up being the top comment on the video so. i was getting comments on my own posts on my own page and ive honestly had enough #so i deleted it #but idk #i still feel like ive given in somehow

[star-crossed-lizards]

Finally redownloading the tumblr app instead of forcing myself to use the horrible iPhone safari version cuz I was trying to get myself to not use it that way but actually I just use Instagram way more instead which is much much much much much worse for my mental state

#I’m like addicted to the explore page bc it’s like 10 pictures and 3 videos all at once on the same screen #But tumblr doesn’t have that which is good. I think I can be allowed to scroll the pretty pictures. But the explore page harms me #But I can’t stop it’s like an automatic habit. So I’m gonna use tumblr instead. Cuz u eventually run out of fresh content on tumblr #Gotta wait for people to reblog more stuff for me to look at instead of like jumping into a giant pit with 1 million things screaming at me #Which is what the explore page on Instagram feels like