#but you know i'll hold out hope

[astarlightmonbebe]

the atypical family is everything so far. they better do the father-daughter relationship justice.

#star stumbles #the atypical family #kdrama #i want ina to fight it out with her dad already just say what's on your mind !!! let's communicate! #i'm hurting for her. they're so distant and you want gwiju to do better #like man. you need to be there for you daughter. but also depression is a serious illness #and i'm not 100% convinced the show is actually going to do that portrayal justice either #but you know i'll hold out hope #it looks like she did have some sort of power and it caused the accident? or her mom did? not sure #but yea.. he keeps giving her a rabbit every year very caught in the past but also #like 'i could not protect you/i can no longer protect you' so i'll give you this rabbit instead #year after year as an apology for not being your father

[amethystina]

Hi hi, I was drooling all over the tags of Who holds the devil again and I remembered to ask if the kidnapping will refer to Ga On? Or if it's a big spoiler then maybe you could please tell if we'll see protective Yo Han because you write his feelings so well I just can't get enough or over it, you're so talented.

I wouldn't call it a big spoiler, exactly, since I think most people can (correctly) guess that it refers to Ga On xD I mean, what kind of BL fanfic would this be if it was someone else? Gotta check all those dramatic romance boxes!

That said, I will repeat what I've said before, which is that it won't happen anytime soon and, if I were you, there are other tags I would be more worried about. But that's just me ;)

As for Yo Han being protective, that will feature quite heavily as a part of another plot thread long before the kidnapping tag comes into play. And I do mean protective as in full-on Abyss — with all the violence and ruthlessness that entails. To be honest, one of the scenes I look forward to writing the most right now is the culmination of that whole plotline. Partly because writing Yo Han when he's like that is so much fun, but also because Ga On will do what Ga On does best.

That's to say: Place himself in front of Yo Han and be the immovable object to slow down the unstoppable force.

And it will be delicious.

Because with all that Ga On has learned about Yo Han at that point, he's going to realise that the best way to calm Yo Han's desire for vengeance — and remind him of his humanity — isn't to get preachy or aggressive and demand he stop. It's to go soft and vulnerable and needy and a little desperate and just say:

"Please come back to me."

... I think we ALL know Yo Han won't stand a fucking chance.

So you've got that to look forward to, I guess ;)

And thank you so much! I have a lot of fun with Yo Han's emotions, not going to lie. He's got a pretty unique way of both showing and dealing with them and it's particularly interesting to try and convey that from an outside POV (Ga On's in this case). Because even if Ga On is correct in his observation the majority of the time, there are still times when he misses certain details. He often gives Yo Han the benefit of the doubt when he maybe shouldn't, for example x'D

Like, there are times in this story when Yo Han may seem kind, caring, and vulnerable but, in reality, something COMPLETELY different is happening inside his head.

Chapter 39 was actually a good example of that, specifically when Yo Han was pressing his thumb against the scar on his palm. Ga On automatically assumed that had to mean Yo Han was in pain, but that's not it at all. Not even close. Pressing the scar (which was first established in The Gentle Light, which I wrote over a year ago now) has become Yo Han's way of curbing his less-than-moral impulses when it comes to how he approaches his and Ga On's relationship.

Yo Han wasn't pressing the scar because it hurt (though he does have flashes of psychosomatic pain, too) but because he needed to remind himself not to do what he ACTUALLY wanted. Which certainly wasn't to resign himself to being rejected and go: "Then I won't."

In that moment, Yo Han wanted to claim and possess — not surrender.

And it was a struggle for him to choose the path he knew Ga On wanted him to.

In short, both Yo Han's protectiveness and possessiveness are sometimes hidden in the small things he does, which might not always be apparent to Ga On or the reader. Remember that Ga On is an unreliable narrator and while he is astoundingly good at reading Yo Han sometimes, not even he sees all.

And that, on the whole, Yo Han is a lot more vicious and immoral than Ga On wants to admit. It may not be as apparent now that Yo Han is without a revenge quest and more focused on doting on his family, but it's by no means gone. Just dormant.

The Abyss will never fully stop abyssing.

(Yes, I am definitely making this fic and the characterisation unnecessarily complex with breadcrumbs sprinkled across stuff I've written literal years ago — thank you for asking)

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Who Holds the Devil #I almost feel like you all are going to be disappointed when the kidnapping eventually shows up in the story #I'm not sure if it's going to be as amazing as you all seem to hope >_> #I mean #I WILL be dramatic #But a lot of you are REALLY looking forward to it #And I feel like I'll disappoint you #But that might be because I know how it'll all play out I guess #And have for at least the past two years #So it's not very exciting to me xD

[scramble-crossing]

Twewy acoustic

10/10 FANTASTIC album! Your ocean, Voices, and Breaking Free were the highlights for me :] Voices especially! I never really payed special attention to that song before but man...it's so good

I kinda wish we'd gotten at least one more fast-paced song but maybe that's not in the acoustic spirit? Idk I'm not much of a music buff. Shibuya Survivor, Unpainted, bird in the hand, or Storm would've been really fun to hear though! Or yknow what fuck it. We're Losing You. Don't ditch the screamo vocals just throw in a guitar player and listen to them hang on for dear life in the background I'm sure that'll sound great

No Twister? Really? We got a twewy album WITHOUT a millionth Twister remix?? I'm shocked

It's So Wonderful didn't really feel super different to me (I think mostly because what I always remember best of it is just the opening riff) but I like it on there anyways. Feels right yknow?

Calling though. It did feel just a smidge unnecessary to me. There's already been a ton of great Calling remixes and this one's just kind of...eeeeeeh. It doesn't really stand out against the crowd.

Disconnect Me I'm a huge fan but where did you come from. I swear to god I've never heard this song before in my life it's driving me crazy trying to remember it

Get that Final Fantasy song out of there right now THIS IS OUR MOMENT!!!!!!1

So...no Transformation?

#I actually don't care about Transformation not being on there it's just for the bit #of course they're gonna prioritize the neo-original songs! it would've been cool but alas. I will live #I hope we get more acoustics in the future! I don't know how likely it is but I'll hold out hope! #or even just any remixes in general. Final Remix that thing!!!! #and while you're at it please please please put Emptiness And anywhere. just anywhere. #neo-remix deja vu + emptiness and I'll always long for you.....

[mashmouths]

i know it just came out but why hasn't chan covered "silly" by miss troye sivan i can hearrrrr himmmmm singing it, he would transition from falsetto to a belt where troye switches to a talk tone i know this to be true. he could even change the "boy"s to "babe"s if he really needed to for hetero man reasons and i would probably accept it........... bang chan pick up the phoooooooone.........................

#what do i do if i have creative direction ideas i contacted jyp studios and they ignored me. imagine an edit. might make one actually. #like i'd use it often enough to warrant just making one and i'm not holding out a lot of hope for this paper happening tonight :( #anyway who is with me i know i'm right. listen to the song and tell me i'm wrong i will wait. #sorry to be aggressive about it i'm not even tipsy this time i'm just home alone #whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrr nino give me a call if you ever get lonely i'll be like one of your girls or your homies................

[pendraegon]

i don't quite know how to put it into words because i still feel so very small and stupid at times and like i've never really grown up at all and stuck even though i know that's not true and i'm someone i never thought i would ever be but like... being told by someone that i'm their role model or being told by my baby cousin (she's going to college in the fall, where did the time go??) that she chose her major because it was what /i/ did and that she's always admired me growing up, people telling me to my face that they got their bipolar diagnosis and that seeing me live my life the way i do gave them hope like. i. i don't know, i guess on some level i never really let go of that brittle helplessness/hopelessness inside me and honestly i don't think i'm ever worth the praise or the attention or the time or the love or the whatever people give me even now but it's like...maybe my little space here on this blog or in the world or even just traipsing through my usual haunts are worth it if it means that i'm of some service, that i can see some spark of recognition in someone's eyes. it's the feeling of a hand against mine in the dark when for so long all i felt was nothing but air. or whatever you know.

#idk. just ruminating after my last manic/depressive episode earlier lol. #i feel more stable and grounded than i have in months which is nice and i'll hold on to it for as long as i can but there's just... #something about people wanting to be like you when you never wanted to be you and when you wanted to be anyone else but you. #like. why would you want that? why would you want to fashion yourself after me? but i did that myself. i built myself up little by little #and even when im worn down it's easier going to rebuild time and time again. maybe that's all we can do for each other here where we #are. let's continue to reach out and hold each other tight. love you guys. thank you for always listening to me. i hope i'm just as good a #listener back. 💌🫶 #on another note my role model has always been my halmoni bc she's scary as hell and she's the strongest person i know lol

[worldwhampion]

hi i'm the (evil step)parent of @cosmordial's ocs (as they will all suffer a great deal) in our future fanfic!

also just casually dropping the fact null is a part of it too (along with artemis and apollo!!!!!)

#hope the first chapter would be out this summer break #denny if you're seeing this hi!!! #you know i've never been THIS invested into a project #the 23 page google document we've been working on is a part of me now #i'm pretty sure its size will double up by the end of this month as there's literally nothing to hold me back now that exam season has ende #man i'll THRIVE this summer thanks to you!!!!!! #no man's sky

[lanwangjihouse]

#I need to talk lol #my dear followers! #I really like the theme of bunnies in wangxian arts but I can't find what I want on this topic- especially on tumblr. #there is only one way out- then do it yourself #*throws up hands* - please treat with understanding lol #this is my first fanart (and I've only been holding a graphics tablet for three days) #I hope I'll learn. thank you all. hug. #fanart #my art #ps I don`t know why to see a large size you need to open the picture in a separate window #so I cut out a piece to make it look bigger #wangxian bunnies #wangxian art

[fruitsyrups]

Random yes but thank u for making that frusan art awhile ago it's adorable and i love seeing more art of this underappreciated ship :D!!!

ahhh thank you!!! frusan is so underrated FOR REAL, i guess it's probably because after Islands they all but disappeared (like i think they were only shown twice after that and that's including in Fionna & Cake (which i actually missed when i watched it bc its such a brief glimpse)) but like. still. I actually have a little idea for another frusan drawing (frieda and susan talking on a roof grown-up edition) but I have to break up the dialogue into parts & think of more Susan Reactions so it's not just Frieda monologuing at her lol

#frieda is such a compelling character to me augh because seriously living on the islands sounds like. idk. scary in an existential way #like if I lived on that tiny(?) island always with the same people and didn't have hope that I would maybe someday get to explore someplace #new and meet new people. i would explode i think. #and frieda HAS hope & the drive to follow through with it #but then susan goes robo-mode and like surely any hope is just GONE after that #thats such a crazy interesting dynamic can't believe everyone else on earth isn't also insane about this #obviously it's not susan's fault that she went robo-mode but it's still recieved as a betrayal yk. so sad :( #and then susan went after finn & they probably all assumed she was dead #AHHH??? i can't even imagine how that would have felt for frieda?? like imagine you're trying to get off the islands and your favourite #person won't go with you but she helps you. but then she betrays you (not her fault but yk) and then (i'm assuming its not even that long #after) she's sent off the islands and she goes willingly #like wowww way to rub salt in the wound susan omg (i love susan this is not susan negativity) #my little angsty hc about that is like. frieda still holds a little bit of resentment towards her for what happened but she knows she #shouldn't because what if susan was right? what if she left the islands and it wasn't safe and she DIED? #but then also what if she isn't? what if she just left and it wasn't worth coming back? what if frieda wasn't worth coming back for? yanno #stuff like that. AGHHH hhh i love frieda #and then they go adventuring together and work it out and kiss on the mouth #uhhh i'll stop myself there before i write a whole essay in the tags (or maybe i already have ahahah...) but yeah. i love frusan :3

[marinehero]

sorry i know i haven't been around here in a long while but recently read dungeon meshi and senshi's my favourite character. Then I started to watch it, but i. I swear I recognized senshi's voice. So i looked it up. It's garp. It's. god damn Garp--

#{ ooc } ✗ 「 wenp reporter 」 #tbd. #[ i feel incredibly called out head in HANDS #[ what do you meannnnnn what do you Meannn #[ sounds closer so i recognized. head in hands. #[ it doesn't rly sound like anime garp bc va's lot more energetic/loud bc. different characters ofc but op.la japanese dub garp #[ senshi beloved..................... i cannot believe this. haunted by old men blorbos #[ sniffs. i miss my old man rat holds garp for various reasons (fixations on ut.dr rn; writers block/not feeling like rp'ing) #[ haven't been around but. jumpscared by garp's voice. god dammit--- #[ hope y'all are doing well n taking care heart heart don't know if i'll b writing 😔 but miss you all and my old men blorbos

[copiasblair]

we're like. a week out from the end of re-imperatour and i will be real with you guys i am So Fucking Scared <3

#like. i know it has to happen eventually. i knew when i first fell for copia that his days were numbered from the outset #but. i don't feel like i'm ready. it doesn't feel fair #like part of me is still holding out hope that something bad isn't going to happen #but like. it feels like that's what they're building to. it's what they have been building to with him #but. i just don't know how i'm going to cope #it's uhm. going to be really really really tough time for me #i've never felt this way about someone and so if he dies I don't know what i'll do #and i know i know he's just a fictional character #but he still means the world to me. #what do you have to say doll?

[keeps-ache]

oooooo what if i reblogged literally everything i've ever drawn for pink space

#just me hi #oooooooo #yelling at the sky spinning in circles !!!!! #/i'm trying to work on that thing (you know the thing (small writing wip explaining some world lore bc my brain is v disorganized + i #want to explain quick n neatly lmao)) and i forgot once again how cool this is to me hfhs :D #/LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE [simply stares at you] #i just think they're so neat (<- just some guys and one (1) thing standing there) #though technically they're all Things that either forgot or confused themselves to be human #that or they're lying to themselves. very neat! #see that sounds much more interesting than what's in my brain hfhs #/anyway i hope one day i can get my. things in order enough to finish it bhvfsh #i've come to the time-old trouble of 'but it won't be as good as i want it to be' and so i'm fighting that behind a 7-11 later lmaoo :> #//i hold hands with cosmic entitiesss i'll take this tube out if i pleASE i got this sweet tooth baby YEAA i got this sweet tooth baby- !!! #//okey on my way now hfvhs :D

[lestatlioncunt]

— OCS AS LOVE LANGUAGES

i was tagged by @indorilnerevarine @jacobseed @denerims @morvaris @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms and @lightwardens to take this quiz for my ocs, thank you all so much ily <3

tagging: @arklay @uldwynsovs @steelport @reaperkiller @swordcoasts @faarkas @cultistbase @girlbosselrond @brujah @nocticulas @shadowglens @celticwoman @shepardgf @katsigian @veisshaupt @risingsh0t @druidgroves @jendoe @florbelles and anyone else that wants to do this mwah

a story that ends in blood

The world has always been unkind, and when you have turned to yourself for comfort you have come face to face with an empty pit which seems to be laughing. You don’t care if it kills you but once you find someone whom you love and who loves you back, you will make sure nothing happens to them. They are yours. You will make a tear in this world and create a new place for you and your love if it comes to that. Because it has always been about love, and it is how it always ends.

consumption of a heart unloved

Here’s a dining table, here’s a set of plates. Here’s your heart, red and bursting with love. You have tried to love people all your life, but no one seems to understand you. Your own mother perhaps forgot to teach you how to protect yourself, maybe people whom you trusted chose to look the other way when all you wanted was a hand full of love. All you want is someone to take from you, all you want is someone to dig in your heart and eat it and kiss you afterwards - bloody and red. You want them to tell you that you are what they have been looking for, you want to be the one who ends their hunger.

a story that ends in blood

The world has always been unkind, and when you have turned to yourself for comfort you have come face to face with an empty pit which seems to be laughing. You don’t care if it kills you but once you find someone whom you love and who loves you back, you will make sure nothing happens to them. They are yours. You will make a tear in this world and create a new place for you and your love if it comes to that. Because it has always been about love, and it is how it always ends.

an undoing influence

Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.

a knife called grief

You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything.You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.

#tag games #this took 4-5 business days to get to jskfk the holidays u know...btw hope all my sexy mutuals are having a good end of the year <33 #what can i say here. looking directly at ves & nix results bc somehow they complete each other and it's making me slightly insane i hope #u all know it. vesper and her unlovable disease is so important to me i want to hold her in my arms forever btw. if u even care. #violante got my same result so like <333333 girl we are unfixable sorry to break this to you. the part about the gentleness lacking since #forever took me tf out bc vio has never known gentleness which is..girl i'll show u what love is..if you don't try to kill me too before i #succeed. before i even say hi to you?? anyways i love them all. maybe the real treasure is the love ur creator has for you <3 #oc: moira #oc: vesper #oc: fenix #oc: violante #oc: selene

[mashmouths]

save me paramore after laughter

#hhhhhhhhhhgjjgjhhjgjjjgjjhhhhhhhhhjjjjj never had i been more 15 than when this album came out my god. if i smile with my teeth think you'd #believe if i smile with my teeth think i'd believe me.......... hold onto hope if you've got it they say that dreaming is free i wouldn't #care what it cost me................ #hard times are literally gonna make you wonder why you even try hard times gonna take you down and laugh when you cry and i still don't know #i even survive hard times !!!! fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i'm underwater no air in my lungs my eyes are open and i'm giving up you are the wave i could never tame if i survive i'll dive back in !! #save me hayley williams.............. #ALL OF CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE SAVE ME HAYLEY WILLIAMS #(also yes i've heard idle worship i love idle worship i'm just quoting the meme and finding solace in the fact that she's survived this too) #a post

[aspiringnexu]

I have not yet watched the second season of The Bad Batch, mostly because I’m too busy with Uni and currently being eaten alive by Witcher fandom things and I have little processing space for more hyperfixations, but damn if the little spoilers I’ve been getting on my Tumblr dash haven’t primed me for a deliciously angsty binge.

#star wars #the bad batch #bad batch season two #I was worried after the first season that they wouldnt go all out #you never can know with Disney holding the ropes #luckily we have reliable ol' Dave to really ramp it up a notch and give us the proper angsty Star Wars content we need #this man gave us the brain worms and I hope he continues to traumatise us for years to come #I'll forgive him for the shittiest parts of Rebels if he keeps hitting the angsty high notes

[ofhope-a]

“So... hey,” admittedly, there was a lot to insert after that 'hey'; getting a Vision came with its own bouts, some of an extraordinary sort, some all too ordinary (on the chilliest of mornings, she still holds it in her hands, its value reduced to a handheld hand-warmer) — but Yoimiya was of a less... existential sort. “Did you ever find that thing you were searching for? You know, that thing you and the Traveler searched for! They never concluded its whereabouts, or even what it was, once you guys' wrapped things up, so... I was curious!”

Bao'er held many secrets, but to pry was to, well, pry. To force comfort where none had yet to form would be to act as a stranger, to detach a part of herself -- and though guilty of shoveling others' into a sometimes unwanted spotlight, Yoimiya had some sense of grace.

“What were you searching for, anyway?”

@mysticallities // starter!

#mysticallities #ic‚ yoimiya. #I hope you don't mind this being shorter! I know you've been stressed out so I didn't wanna give you too much and overwhelm you. #Thank you for being so sweet Silk! I'm honored you like her so much! <333 #And you already know I hold Bao'er very close to my heart because of you! But I'll say it again! I love her sm. #I hope you're doing okay! May this weekend bring you lots of you time and happiness. <3

[owl-with-a-pen]

Maybe we'll get a surprise cameo from Brainy 🤞🤞🤞

Oh man if only. 🥺 They were pretty extensive listing who was confirmed to be appearing on the Flash's final season so while I don't hold out much hope, I can still dream. 😉

#supergirl #the flash #brainiac 5 #my asks #not writing #i mean you never know! i'd love to see jesse's brainy again. #if all we get is a throw away line mentioning him i'll take it but i can always hold out hope for more