#but yeah i guess im done rambling now

[wazzuppy]

its less that i think old kids properties shouldnt have darker, adult reboots and that they're inherently bad, and more that i think that most of them lack an understanding of why those original works were special and enjoyable in the first place and attempt to overcompensate for it by falling back onto tropes the cw popularized in order to seem more "mature"

#tara says stuff #yes this is about the new scooby show #i wanted to like it so bad but the vibes are just SO off #i rlly like the premise and art direction and character design but uuugghhhh it already seems so overwhelming mean spirited #and i mean like #we've had kinda mean spirited scooby doo content before #but the reason that i think it works for most of those instances #is that its meant to be contradicted by the gangs inherent goodness and likability #like yeah #i'll admit it #as much as i enjoy velma in mystery incorporated she could be way too hard on her friends sometimes-- ESPECIALLY scooby #but the reason that i can overlook that is bc velma still obviously LOVES them a LOT #theyre her FRIENDS #and i just. dont care to see the gang split up when i know its gonna be written like some unrelatable and unfun riverdale bs #like the other times its happened i think it worked bc they leaned into the wackier outcomes and comedic aspects of it #when they split in mystery inc shaggy gets sent to be in the goddamn military and SCOOBY breaks him out #like cmon thats so goofy and silly and fun #but yeah i guess im done rambling now #i just rlly like scooby doo its very special to me and my mom and the good memories i have of us with it make me very passionate abt it

[thedisablednaturalist]

Office disability culture is so fucked in environmental science and fieldwork. Like the mindset that to do the job you have to be in perfect physical health or you should just quit. Like I'm not talking about something that is 100% physical labor here, everything is mostly achievable with aids and you don't need to be able to do every single thing. But there's this weird like..pride..that my older coworkers have. They work out in the gym and brag about how many reps they did. They tease each other for having medical issues. They don't ask for accommodations because they fear that their legitimacy will be hurt. That it means that they can't do their job anymore. That they won't be TRUSTED to do their jobs anymore. That it will get taken away.

So they FURTHER hurt their bodies by not resting, not taking breaks, not using ergonomic equipment, not using safety equipment. Not drinking enough water. Not using mobility aids when they are so old that it's supposed to be acceptable. They don't use the scooters at the grocery store, they don't use their handicapped placard, they don't use knee pads or compression gloves.

And here I come in, 24 years old, looking perfectly healthy. And I use walking sticks, I sit down a lot, I have my care bag, I have a ton of gadgets for making fieldwork more comfortable, I have boundaries and limits, I wear braces and knee pads and compression gloves. I use my handicapped placard.

They react in one of two ways:

1. How DARE I. I'm so lucky to be young and no one sees THEM having to do all those things (literally nothing is stopping them but pride). Like old man if you need a break take a fucking break. I'm not going to hurt my health to make you feel better about hurting yours. I'm not risking a flare up to spare the 65 year olds feelings. Im gonna take my break and use my equipment cause my boss doesn't care as long as the work gets done. I'm tired of glares from 100 year olds making themselves struggle across the parking lot when they could also be using the fucking scooter. (I never take the last scooter, there's always another available. Also it's not my fault if walmart only provides 2 scooters for the whole store).

2. It shows them its okay. Its okay to need aids. When I first showed up at my job it was very...macho..everyone was afraid of seeming old (theres probably only 3 of us under 30 in the whole department, most people are at least 50, mainly 65 year olds). Then they saw me using my walking sticks, taking my medicine openly, bringing a chair with me when working away from my desk, using my TENS unit. I overheard one lady ask her granddaughter what fibromyalgia was (apparently she had spotted my pain tracking journal).

My older coworker with a bad knee got a walking stick like mine and beamed when she showed me. The grandmother uses a cane and a walker interchangeably and more often. I get asked where I get my little portable fan and pocket heaters and special clothing. Even abled coworkers are doing it. My coworker who's younger than me sets alarms to take breaks now just like I do. People seem more comfortable using things that help them now.

My boss has really struggled. He has a lot of internalized ableism and hates thinking of himself as crippled. He spent his whole life physically active and strong and all these health issues and overexertion are catching up with him. Like he did environmental testing in areas with fucking radon. He did work where they threw asbestos around like snow for fun. He's done a ton of really hard physical work. He grew up with the mentality that pain was just something everyone has to push through. But I think seeing a young person make the choice not to push through is helping him a bit. He wants to make his own walking stick, he goes to the doctor more. We bond over having constant medical issues and I even gave him the name of my surgeon. Yea he still says stuff like "shoot me if I have to use a wheelchair" (not as much anymore since he now knows I use one) but he's getting there.

Yeah so I've had this in my drafts for a bit and I wanted to update that my boss has been walking around with a fucking broken ankle for the past couple of weeks. He thought it was just arthritis pain and eventually couldn't take it anymore and went to the foot doctor. The doctor has no clue how the fuck he's been walking on it. Now he has to wear the boot and he's banned from fieldwork while he heals.

Older people and the elderly need to learn that it's okay to not push through the pain and ask for help. Everyone needs to learn this, and not be like my fucking boss. Go to the doctor, get that sore joint checked out. Get those tests done. Use that aid. Stop walking on a broken ankle just because you can.

#chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #disability #from the field #wrenfea.exe #literally fucking flabbergasted #he walked in after leaving for a bit to go to his appointment and came back like so yeah my ankles been broken #BUDDY #everyone needs help sometimes you dont deserve to be in pain #like thats some catholic guilt shit im pretty sure #this man has had 4 major back surgeries so i guess a broken ankle is nothing compared to that #but still...jesus fucking christ #not sprained..BROKEN #and thats along with all the rest of the pain hes in #like i get being used to pain but if i stub my toe during a flare up I can't handle it because it pushes my pain level over the edge #so it actually makes me less tolerable since im already in pain #but im used to a higher pain level than abled people are #ok im done rambling for now im gonna go play Minecraft

[beatcroc]

comic planning/roughs on the clock at work 👍 ok. this one's still a few posts out though

#god i really do just need to get a tablet or. something #some way to draw digitally on the go bc my laptop is um #at least 200% less portable than your typical old clunky laptop. its a whole ordeal #and as u can see tradish scribbles are barely usable #though i guess it would help if i ever remembered to grab something besides a shite pen at work lmao <-hates pen forever #mad bc i think this one is kind of mid+redundant for what i'd intended it to do bc of how some of the previous ones shifted #but i still gotta draw it bc one of the later ones uses it. buh #when i said these werent chronological or connected btw i lied #though only VERY VERY LOOSELY so. enough to bother *me* if i don't do them in order #but not enough that's really going to be noticeable to anyone else. they're each still intended 99% as standalone. #the arc is very minor but its there. for me. for anyone else it probably just amounts to a couple easter egg references/ consistencies #by the by the pizzaposts before this arent part of the series. #one small quickie thing and one i would...really like to get done sooner rather than later bc i need it out of my system #former's like 70% sketched im just waffling on execution #latter is uh...theres a lot there but it's harder to work on And harder tell how close to done it is. #unrelated its funny how i Always forget brick until i start putting anything down and then its like oh god yeah i can do bg Jokes with him #funny in the sense that one of my webcomic protag oc's is a...spatially similar deal as him [little kid with a big bear companion] #and i ALWAYS forget the bear when im scripting it. until i start messing with the layout and its like fuck theres a bear. #i have to do things with this now. fortunately thus far it hasn't been too hard to adapt #much rambling tonight goodbye. i haev to go block all these damn bots

[awkward-smirks]

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#the one time i went to get my nails done was when my bff took me to get gel #which needs to be cured under this hot af lamp #i didn't know that so she was warning me that it might burn but just to take it out if i can't stand the heat anymore #and i was like hm ok #so i went in and IT WAS SO PAINFUL WTF FELT LIKE MY NAILS WERE HOT COALS AND WOULD BURN THROUGH MY FLESH #but i sat there like 🙂 bc I didn't want to be difficult to my nail tech 😭 #and my bff was like 'wow! i guess ur taking it well bc your nails are strong/thick' #and my nail tech was like 'yeah! her nails are extremely healthy so she probably isn't feeling too much pain' #LIKE NO YALL I AM CLOSE TO TEARS LMFAOOOOOO I JUST TOLERATE IT WELL #anyway just thinking about it bc im picking at my nails right now lol #sandy rambling

[elegyofthemoon]

no one asked but the music in argenti's quest was driving insane for a while and i was wondering why only to realize that they both sound very ff13-esque.

"Cosmic Sacrifice for Love" sounds like "Giant's Fist" by Naoshi Mizuta

"A Gentleman's Fantasy"... I can't even pinpoint exactly which Masashi Hamauzu song it sounds like BUT IT USES A LOT OF SIMILAR HAMAUZU MOTIFS AND ITS REALLY GOOD LMAO just like listen to "Blinded by Light" :)

#I WAS WONDERING WHY I WAS FIXATED ON THESE SONGS IN PARTICULAR I CRACKED THE CASE #THE CASE IS I HAVE NEVER MOVED ON FROM THIS GAME #i would ask to leave but unfortunately ff13 owns my soul and i don't really want to take it back #no this is not a push to make people play ff13 what hahaha hahahahaahahahhahah #nah i just. i miss ff13. but whats new LAKSJDHLFADSKJHLKJH #like every other day ill go 'man i miss ff13' and do nothing about it. bc i really cant #i MEAN TECHNICALLY YES I CAN BC BY IMPULSE I DOWNLOADED THE GAME /AGAIN/ GUESS WHY GO ON LMAO #but yeah #no anyways if you do like those songs i recommend masashi hamauzu ^7^ he makes such good songs #im not too much of a fan of naoshi mizuta i think... but i mean some of the songs in ff13-2 are super good #most of the ost is a little. funky though #but he did also make promptos theme? home sweet home? i think? #bro that song makes me baaaawl its very very beautiful but thats bc i do really likethe sound of cello myeheh #no one asked for the ff13/hsr ramble yet here i am :) ✨✨✨✨ #i just thinkitd be funny if they looked into ff13 for inspiration for the ost 👀theyd get a + from me for that #i just wanted to share ff13 music. or. share. ff13 anything really. hi <3 #hahahaha now if they did a wittle more and pulled more hamauzu style songs for penacony ? eheheheh <3 i think i might have found my favorit #favorite place <3 i already kinda see the potential for it being to my liking BUT WE SHALL SEE #okay im done rambling HI !!! #snow plays hsr #... should i tag my ff13 rambles? #i guess lmao #snow plays ff13 #i feel like a different song sounds more like cosmic sacrifice for love but that was the first thing that came to mind probably bc #the only things that ever stick in my brain in ff13-2 is yaschas massif 10 af 😗😗

[aroacesigma]

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#ramblings #stressing tf out rn so quick rant ignore whatever just need to get it out usually makes me feel better #my school has its awards ceremony in two days #and this year theyve decided theyll only tell you if youre getting award not the ones youre getting #which is fucking stressful #as bad as it sounds i dont really know what im going to do with myself if i dont get top of the grade #i know it sounds really fucking full of myself but like #at this point i feel like if i dont get it im a failure absolute fuckup because ive gotten it 3 out of 4 years #really all i have is mya cademics yknow im pretty bloody useless otherwise #anyway this year has been . yeah . #like ive done well but i dont know if ive done the best #they never tell you who got top of the grade until the night but you can usually tell from who gets the most subject awards #but now theyve changed it and i genuinely have no clue and its so sosososos stressful #oh and all this makes me feel like im so incredibly self obsessed and full of myself which is wonderful #whelp itll be over in a few days i guess .

[percyjacksonfan3]

Hope y'all like some smut with your edssy 😁

#me starting this fic: #hmm i can see them hooking up during this at some point i should rate it m to be safe #me actually writing the scene last night: oh okay so i need to up the rating to explicit. #alright #i get so weird about writing smut too cause you know! it's smut! give me sappy conversations that's my strength #also it's sooo revealing lol #tay was reading what i have done (bc she's an angel bless her) and she was like lau your kinks are showing #and im like i know okay! i cant help it! #if they didnt want me thirsting over eddie they shouldnt have designed his character to look like that #hands ppl! with rings! and big soft brown eyes? #what's a girl to do? #but yeah so spoilers for anyone reading my edssy fic i guess #bc expect some smut in the next chapter #which is another very indulgent edssy chapter #im so excited to post it #it's over half done #alright ill stop rambling now #edssy #eddissy #stranger things #i still dont have a fic tag sorry guys #<- maybe that will be my tag #bc i suck #put your lips close to mine #screw it that's the tag

[todayisafridaynight]

Snap you are the king of sexy funny back when you did Yamtien just goes to show you have a talent for humor and cheesecake.

there's something about the title 'king of sexy funny' that's really tickling me thank you so much anon ill take that crown with honor

#snap chats #please 'king of sexy funny back' was my fathers name #the joke is that my dad would Nonstop play Sexy Back in the car every day he drove me to school. also hes funny. #which was every day while i was in elementary. and then he and my mom got into the Theyre Practically Divorced fight #and then Love The Way You Lie was added to the playlist theyre filipino they dont believe in divorce yk the works #not even a fight my dad just finally called her out.... anyways... #thats a dusty as hell crown i havent drawn yamtien in literal years #OH YEAH I DID DO SEXY HUMOR I GUESS I REMEMBER SOME OF MY COMICS BEING SUSPECT AS HELL #but of course... need the funny.... #im a different man now. i havent done humor like that In Literal Years 2x #like truly the last time i did that WAS those comics #what even was the last sexy or sexy/funny thing i drew...... its just been family sitcoms in my brain for months now.... #checking my folders hang on OH JO yeah. #ASIDE FROM THAT THO i really dont do anything. Saucy anymore #someone remind me to delete that actually ive been meaning to go on an art purge but i keep getting side tracked #not a MAJOR one just ones that keep bothering me #ik on the internet eveything is forever but id like to scroll through my own blog without getting flashbanged by stuff i dont like anymore #ive been meaning to delete some ao3 fics too but again... keep getting sidetracked... #THIS TAG RAMBLE IS SO DAMN LONG IM SO SORRY utterly off track.

[amatres]

love that through the power of notes i get learn how many ppl don't want to kill their warden ever. couldn't be me, i would kill all my protags if the games would just let me and i liked the narrative reasoning

#ama mumbles #dragon age #i Will champion killing off alistair and your warden but killing hawke in the fade is boring to me #and makes no sense. yeah kill off the random civilian in favor of the grey warden i guess. #unless you want to reason it away as your inquisitor Absolutely hating hawke and taking the chance to kill them off #and still look good lol #or i guess wanting warden support so not killing off the warden so they can have a better standing? idk #now if i could have hawke be murdered by meredith? thatd be fun #granted when i first played origins i had surana convince alistair to do the ritual #but that was out of pragmatism not out of 'no i dont want to die!' once i let her sit in my head for a bit #i made a character who Wouldn't do the ritual and so :) and of course she believes shes at fault so she makes sure alistair cant #anyway im done rambling

[mikrokosmoswrites]

THIS WHAT I GET FOR BEING NOSY CAUSE NOW I’M LIKE SDHSAKJDSKAJK 

#frenchie rambles #the crush saga #< new tag cause I know y'all were kiki-ing it up with me the othernight #but yeah so I saw a thing and now i'm like omG IS IT TRUE?! #LIKE #@ ME?! #I'M AHSDKJAJKDJA #LIKE AM I SECOND GUESSING YES #BUT ALSO LIKE #AHSDASJKDLASKDHJAK #CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW RIGHT #BUT I'M DEADASS LIKE OFMSHJFHSDAJ IS IT ABOUT ME? #i'VE BEEN HAVING SUCH A KNOT IN MY CHEST ABOUT IT #LIKE I FEEL LIKE I GOT PUNCHED SUPER HARD #THAT'S HOW NERVOUS I AM #LIKEEEEE #I KEEP SYAING LIKE BC I'M SO EADHASJDHJKASJDKSD #ALSO IF SHE SEES THIS RIP #DAS IT IM DONE

[luwupercal]

also! as an off topic post b4 i log off for the night: Holy Shit, Pathfinder 2e is Fun as Hell

#off topic #guess what i played recently and will be playing again tomorrow #we're branching out from dnd in my home group for a buncha reasons and Pathfinder 2e is Fun as Fuck #i really like how spells work out actionswise bc it makes me feel like im playing slay the spire #(<- videogame i am fucking normal and definitely not unhinged about) #you should also play slay the spire. its a good videogame #i dont play a lot of videogames with little story purely for the gameplay #but when i do theyre fucking fun as hell #yeah this is my ramble about things i've enjoyed recently for the day. i'm good now i'm done akjfdnskjnf

[brine-in-my-eyes]

life's really all abt growing up and maturing *is finally eating the onions and pickles in my burger*

#tw food #ehm yeah #i guess pickles taste fine now #so do tomatoes #ily veggies #idk if ill do my exams again today cuz its like the weekend and i always have tomorrow #but my arch nemesis.... time scehdules and deadlines... make that very difficult #i might as well TT #hate exams alot #rambles #i at least let myself do art and writing earlier that was nice #an when im done with exams i get to play play as much i want yippee :))) #*wags tail* lalalala

[tgcg]

an open fly walking

i didnt like this one but i thought id finally air it out since its been sat in my folders for months now

TG: hey karkat

CG: YEAH?

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TG: you ever noticed you like

TG: walk weird

CG: WOW, OKAY.

CG: HAVE *YOU* EVER NOTICED THAT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT?

TG: pff

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TG: no listen because i got my ears scoping that shit im like a scouter for dude activity

TG: ok maybe me mentioning it to you is gonna fuck up your ecosystem or something but

TG: you have the heaviest feet of the century man

CG: I DO???

TG: just thrust them straight down into the ground like youre trying to homebrew a san andreas fault

TG: viciously tamping on tectonic plates hoping for top score on the richter scale

TG: waging war against solid particles and the basic flow of gravity

TG: i could ID those footfalls out of a million i mean it

CG: SERIOUSLY?

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TG: i mean theres nothing wrong with it but

TG: yeah

CG: I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU'RE FUCKING WITH ME RIGHT NOW.

TG: im not fucking with you striders honor

TG: when have i ever lied to anybody about anything

CG: NOT UNPACKING THAT QUESTION WITH YOU TODAY.

CG: BUT SHIT, HOLD ON. LET ME SEE.

TG: yeah take the umbrella go over there and just walk to me

CG: ON IT.

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TG: see you just kinda slam em straight down dude

CG: THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY RIOTOUS FUCKING JOKE OF A LIFE.

TG: dont your feet ache

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CG: MOOT POINT. THIS MIGHT SOUND INSANE BUT I'VE ACTUALLY HAD MY STRUT PODS FOR A WHILE. ANY KIND OF PAIN THIS WOULD'VE BEEN CAUSING WOULD BE TOTALLY FILTERED OUT OF MY SPONGE BY NOW AS BACKGROUND NOISE.

TG: damn i didnt think that through

TG: my shades

CG: ALRIGHT, GET BACK UNDER THE SHITTING UMBRELLA AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME.

TG: look ive fucked myself over here too i dont have shit to clean these with

TG: ugh

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TG: guess its karma

CG: HOLY FUCK. HOW DID I NEVER NOTICE THIS BEFORE?

TG: i dunno but im gonna assume having a dad thats a literal crab monster is probably a contributing factor

TG: im guessing thats not a great role model for this kinda thing

TG: just conjecture i mean

CG: YOUR ENVY IS OVERWHELMINGLY OBVIOUS DAVE. AS A DISCLAIMER, HE WOULD'VE ABSOLUTELY KICKED YOUR ASS.

TG: yeah probably

CG: THAT'S PRETTY MUCH ALL THERE IS TO SAY ON THE MATTER.

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TG: but see bro had me stringent on feather feets

TG: i bet i could slip across a bike horn warehouse with nary a fucking toot

CG: HAHA. ASSUMING YOU DON'T MAKE A TOTAL ASS OF YOURSELF, AS PER USUAL.

CG: IF YOU WEREN'T CONSTANTLY RUNNING YOUR GASH ABOUT EVERYTHING AND BEING AN INIMITABLE CLOWN I SERIOUSLY THINK YOU COULD BE ON PAR WITH YOUR CUSTODIAN.

CG: THAT IS A MONUMENTAL "IF".

TG: well look at it this way

TG: im basically doing you all a favor by being a dumbass

TG: never gonna get caught off guard by the bozo patrol

CG: WOW. GOOD POINT.

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TG: also screw this can i use your shirt

TG: this stupid hoodie is just smudging my lenses up

TG: i cant see dick

CG: UH

CG: SURE, I GUESS.

TG: cool

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TG: so yeah i could be prowling around like a goddamn verbal assassin sniping convos left and right

TG: but no ive got the decency to go bunp in the night

CG: YEAH.

CG: IT'S DEFINITELY COMPOUNDED BY THE CONSTANT INANE RAMBLINGS.

CG: BUT

CG: IT'S ACTUALLY PRETTY RELAXING, Y'KNOW? IT HAS ITS OWN RHYTHM.

TG: see yeah i sound it off and

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TG: wait really?

CG: YEAH

CG: I DON'T KNOW

CG: FUCK. HOW DO I EXPLAIN THIS WITHOUT WANTING TO CRAM MY FROND DOWN MY PROTEIN CHUTE.

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CG: IT'S LIKE

CG: A SALVE FOR MY AGGRAVATION SPONGE.

CG: YOUR VOICE IS THE HUMAN EQUIVALENT OF ASPIRIN.

TG: uh damn karkat hold your hoofbeasts i was talking about the rhythm thing

CG: ALRIGHT, THAT'S IT. I'M TAKING US BOTH THE FUCK OUT RIGHT NOW. YOU HAVE REACHED THE BAD END OF THIS CONVERSATION.

TG: you think thatd be heroic or just

CG: IF I WAS STILL GHOSTING AROUND THE RUINS OF SGRUB'S ARCANE FRIGGIN GAME SYSTEMS, THE COMPLETE LACK OF SHIT AFOOT NOWADAYS WOULD BORE ME TO DEATH.

CG: LIKE. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME OUR THERMAL HULL LEVELLED UP, DAVE?

TG: hah

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TG: but uh

TG: i mean we had aspirin on earth

CG: NO, NUMBNUBS.

CG: I'M SAYING YOU ARE MY ASPIRIN.

TG: oh

CG: YEAH, TAKE THAT TO THE BANK AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR 20-KARAT ASS.

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TG: heh

TG: well get this

TG: i will literally talk at you forever for free

TG: you got lifetime priority seating for the davealogues

TG: never gotta go to the drugstore again you can just get doped up on my dulcet tones for the rest of time

TG: take that and some of this

TG: im packin punches

CG: OW, FUCK! NO! MY MIGRAINES!

CG: SWEEPS OF VEINCLOTTING AND NERVEFRAYING DOWN THE FUCKING GAPER. BECAUSE OF YOU.

CG: YOU ASSHOLE, THIS IS THE WORST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

CG: AND YOU'RE LAUGHING.

TG: chuckle up it only gets worse from here

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CG: BE HONEST WITH ME. DID FONDLING MY SHIRT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET EVEN DO ANYTHING?

TG: barely but yknow sometimes you just gotta deal the cards youre given

TG: ill just be astigmatic for a while its cool

CG: PFF… OKAY MAN.

#davekat #dave strider #karkat vantas #homestuck #comix #an open fly walking

[babyloniastreasure]

sometimes i like to play a fun game called ‘How long will it take my healthcare provider to see my Urgent Medical Message?’

So far, the answer is two weeks. :) as you can imagine, I’m fine

#jask is rambling about healthcare #i sent a follow up one just now #so. we'll fucking see i guess. #COULD i make an appointment and ask this in person? yeah but 1. Earliest appointment is FIVE WEEKS FROM NOW. #2. Its on a day that I dont have any transportation. so i couldnt go anyway. Making the wait time even longer than that #3. Its not even worth a visit. im literally asking to get a referral renewed. its 'hey doc can you renew this for me?' 'yes no problem.' #thats it!!!!!! there is no need for me to go in!!!!!!! thats why!!!!! its an email!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oh also for whatever reason mychart wont let me try and schedule with Anyone? only my PCP. which. is not usually how that works #and there also seems to be no option for telehealth when scheduling online anymore??? #so tomorrow im going to call my insurance and ask them for the soonest possible telehealth appointment with any doctor available #it doesnt matter who refers me. i just need it done #and whether the appointment OR my doctor gets back to me first--we'll see. gotta play two games at once. ugh. im tired

[kawaiianimeredhead]

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#my grandpa died and its really a back and forth of feeling #similar to when one of my uncles died #because i wasnt very close in any emotional and physical way #because we live a lot of states apart so i didnt see him often #and i also dont love my mom crying (well i guess who does lol) #but it puts me in a weird mood #but i am hung up on the fact mom was super excited yesterday to mail him this big photo she got done of her dog? #which was silly but funny so she was excited and telling the people around about it #and about how her dad was almost 91 #so the fact that it didnt get done is what keeps making me tear up rip #which like yeah yeah grieving and mouring in whatever way but it does feel a bit #incorrect for that to be the only sorta part im hung up on #well i guess one other sort of unfished thing too #idk #weird vibes today now #which sucks because even tho ive only been up for a couple hours i was already feeling so much better and more recharged than the last #couples days after being so socially exhausted #ughh #dont mind me #tag rambles

[mybelovedrin]

✷ ITOSHI RIN x reader. fluff, established relationship. reader talks a lot and rin listens. this is actually pointless. warnings: the writing is kinda messy, i think. note: i just really think that rin <3 ! sorry if there's typos.

"shut up."

rin probably says these two words to you more than he says 'i love you'.

yet, he really, really does not want you to shut up.

it's been twenty minutes since you came from your dinner with your friend. twenty whole minutes of you rambling. twenty whole minutes of rin lying in bed, his arms feeling empty since you're too busy turned away from him as you change into more comfortable clothes. twenty whole minutes of him having to listen to your friend's husband's family's problems while his eyes stay locked on you as you throw on one of his shirts and then start removing your make up.

and again, he really, really does not want you to shut up.

but he would really prefer holding you while you ramble, and the fact that it's been twenty minutes and he hasn't even gotten a kiss yet is kind of starting to get to him.

"so anyway, she's basically hated by everyone from his side of the family— and i told her over and over that she should talk to him about it, but she just won't listen to me. god, why am i blessed with such stubborn friends?"

at this point, he feels like he's skipped eight chapters.

and yet he still listens, humming thoughtfully as he shifts in bed a little, pulling the covers over him just a bit more as he sighs in defeat, staring up at the ceiling as he mumbles, giving his own opinion. "shouldn't pressure her into it, though."

you groan, giving him a look as you still stand in front of the mirror while doing your skincare now. "i'm not, i swear! those people suck. she shouldn't be letting them do what they want and i'm sure that her husband would do something if he knew how salty they are."

his eyes go from the ceiling to you, blinking sleepily as he stares at the way his shirt looks on you. "when are you coming to bed?"

"almost done, rinnie."

he yawns quietly, turning around so that his back is to you. if he couldn't hold you yet, he could at least listen to your voice. "then does she really plan to just endure that treatment?" his voice is muffled by the pillow as he asks, setting you off on another talking spree.

"i guess she does. i hope everything goes well for her. but personally, i would not tolerate stuff like that." you say, shrugging as you finally finish your business, before going into the bathroom to wash your hands and brush your teeth.

the few minutes of you being gone and quiet make rin feel as miserable as ever.

he waits and waits, eyelids heavy.

when the mattress finally dips next to him and he smells the familiar scent of your skin products, he swears he's never moved this fast to turn around in bed and latch onto you.

you chuckle as he buries his face into your neck, holding him close as your little giggle turns into a quiet laugh when he groans in annoyance. "you took too damn long."

his hair tickles the side of your face. it's getting longer, you realise as you play with it gently, smoothing over some soft strands on the back of his head while he sighs softly into your skin.

"i talked a lot earlier, didn't i?" you ask quietly, your lips curling into a sheepish smile.

rin stays quiet for some time, his arms around you tight and firm as he presses himself against your side, even going as far as to place his muscular leg over you, caging you in against the soft mattress of the bed. "y'know i don't mind that."

"yeah, but im sure there's a limit—"

"there's no limit when it comes to you. 'kay?" he says quietly, his voice groggy and deeper now as he gets closer to drifting off— almost as if he was ending that discussion right there, not wanting to hear you talking about yourself in such a way.

"yeah, but—"

"shut up." he cuts you off, and you stop talking, only to let out another soft laugh. "if you're gonna complain about yourself, that is. now, more sleeping and less talking. i'll listen to the remaining part of your friend's story during breakfast tomorrow."

you snort at his devotion to listening to your silly stories, a slight wave of warmth creeping up your neck. "fine."

he nods a little, before holding you tighter.

"and i didn't get a single kiss from you ever since you came, by the way."

"oh, i am so sorry. my most sincere apologies." you speak, clearly joking as you shower him with light pecks on the side of his face that's peeking out from the crook of your neck.

he grunts, not being able to hide the redness under his warm skin as he feels your soft lips. his eyes stay closed shut. "ok. good night."

"no 'i love you' or anything?"

he sighs heavily. "shut up."

"...and i love you." he adds, before letting himself relax into his sleep when you let out a satisfied sound and say it back to him sweetly, your soft voice partially responsible for putting him to sleep.

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