#but thats also not the whole context of it yk

[qualityrain]

#idk what to say anymore theyre just rotting my brain #i think the nice thing abt hny is how it sets up things that will obviously change over time #to show progression. i am eating it up #the obv one being the wont u give me ur heart? ->ill give it to you -> i dont want it #but thats also not the whole context of it yk #because sakoto says smth like i dont care if you kill yourself before that #so from that to i dont want you to die #firefly wedding #hotaru no yomeiri

[strawglicks]

flint fascinates me bc he comes off as rlly polite and kind

but also. not really. at all

they apologize often and it seems like they try to be nice to others, but then u look deeper and take into account different details

one of the biggest things abt flint that gets overlooked is that he likes drama .

i dont think liking drama itself is bad, why else do we have reality tv shows yk. but i think they actively indulge in it and one of the biggest things that points to this for me is how they treat the satellite investors

he seems to talk bad about them behind their backs, then can't handle the comeuppance of cosmo yelling at him.

this is further implied with cosmo saying they're "goin' around spreadin' lies", meaning flint does actively talk shit on what might be a regular basis. and flint saying "oh, no, I shouldn't have said that" implies FURTHER that they KNOW they're gonna get yelled at for it but continue to do it anyway with the hope cosmo wont find out. like hes not sorry for doing it, only sorry for getting caught.

cosmo gets HEAVILY neglected both in the community as a whole and whenever flint is brought up even though they have a really interesting and honestly hilarious dynamic (but thats for another post..)

whenever cosmo DOES get brought up in the context of he and flints relationship, people defend flint and blame cosmo for being "mean" to him. but tbh, i think cosmo has a fair point in this particular text. Flint can talk all he wants, but at the end of the day can't handle the consequences of it and lacks the confidence to put his foot down. He's a follower, not a leader (unlike cosmo, who flint looks up to canonically. WHICH NO ONE TALKS ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!)

flint also seems to have an interesting habit of apologizing even though he actively and intentionally attacks the toons right after

which i think is interesting. i think it's just a habit of his to say sorry when he knows he's doing/has done something wrong (especially bc he doesnt like facing the consequences), even if hes not actually sorry. Considering this is the same person who claims they like setting toons on fire, i dont think any of these apologies are sincere:

speaking of not being able to handle the consequences, when flint does get defeated by toons, there's a line that sticks out.

Specifically the "i'll be back" feels vengeful. Like he takes the defeat personally, and doesn't want to give up because it makes him feel weak and he wants to come out on top.

something else i find interesting and almost jarring in flint's dialogue is some of their Power Trip dialogue:

this dude is incredibly power hungry. he craves confidence and the ability to be a leader, given how he looks up to cosmo and is drawn to graham, who also appears confident.

speaking of graham, i think it's important to note that earlier, when flint was talking shit abt the satellite investors, he was saying that specifically to graham, who encourages flint not to "let people walk all over him".

graham encourages flint to feel more confident, which is not inherently a bad thing. confidence is great! and its something flint deserves. but i think there's an issue with how they choose to express this "confidence" on the rare occasions they do.

shown throughout this post, flint's way of trying to be confident is being power hungry, talking shit, and fighting toons . i think it's pretty clear that flint has been walked all over in the past and present, and it's caused them to become shy and a bit of a doormat. which he clearly doesn't like (more evidence of this is the fact that he explicitly dislikes belittling.)

and on the rare occasions when they're "allowed" to be confident, they proceed to belittle OTHERS, like toons. in a lot of their dialogue, they come off as condescending towards the toons, even if it's pretty awkward.

i think Flint deserves to feel confident, but the way they go about it is unhealthy. They've clearly been treated like a doormat and is fed up with it, and it seems like they lash out as a result. I think he has a good and genuine heart, but he almost comes off as bitter due to being walked all over constantly. its rlly interesting to dive into flint's flaws and the way they act due to their desperation for confidence, something they really lack.

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #flint bonpyre #toontown firestarter #my big juicy brain in full effect #hi. flint was my first favorite. he has a very special place in my heart #i needed . to make a post talking about them. #i rlly do think abt em constantly #and the brainrot has been huge lately now that ive thought more abt their lack of confidence #and their lashing out bc of it #this post started as “flint is kind of an asshole actually” #then turned into a “his lack of confidence is what sometimes causes him to act like an asshole” #idk. its a messy ramble. but it works. my point is made #flint is my 3rd fav #or maybe. 2nd fav? since cathal and graham are tied for first #i intend to post abt him more. and also abt he and cosmos relationship bc its both interesting and hysterical

[andro-dino]

heya, I think your vampire and school au for takasakyo pretty cool and want you to ramble more about it. mfb school au's are endlessly hilarious to me, so how are they're doing?

WOOOO YEAHHHHH I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THIS AU‼️‼️‼️‼️ I will start by saying the first thing I made for it was this fic (which was originally gonna be a mini comic but I didn’t feel like drawing it)

I’m pretty sure I came up with this au in the first place just bc I was thinking a little bit too hard about sakyo’s fangs and then that led my brain to go to vampires, and now we’re here. The thing that I thought abt that I find really amusing (which is what mostly inspired the fic) is like, a subversion of the usual vampire trope of biting on the neck, bc when you really think about that, tis a tad bit intimate and also probably not the most convenient, so I had it so that Sakyo bites Takanosuke on his arm instead (much to taka’s surprise). I also did that kinda thinking about like, actual blood drives and stuff, and I’ve personally never donated blood but they have opportunities to do so at my school sometimes and I know they always give people like snacks and juice afterwards, so I thought it’d be cute to have Sakyo do that to.

In general Sakyo’s character is probably the thing that’s most different in this whole au because although I tried to translate some of his actual character arc and motivations into the context of him being a vampire, it’s a very different lens overall. and like also yk it’s just me making Sakyo a lot cuter just for my own funsies BUT THATS THE LESS IMPORTANT PART. in the actual series his motivations are a lot more “because I’ve inherited dragoon and am ryugas successor it’s my destiny to Cause Problems On Purpose and be stronger than everyone and fuck everyone else up and be a loner and I’m gonna take pride in that,” but vamp Sakyo feels a lot more shame in being a vampire so his motivations are more like “it is my destiny to be this horrible monster and despite the fact that I don’t really like most people anyways, I don’t really wanna cause any real harm either so I’m gonna Cause Problems On Purpose so that they stay away” yk. And also again the aspect of him not drinking blood often basically makes him hangry like all the time so that also adds to the Issues.

I feel like the context I’ve built up in my head is kinda vague in all the ways I’ve tried to post about it but like, the idea was that similar to the anime, in Sakyo’s pursuit of causing problems and just being a general asshole, all the same people who he battled during his introduction also got into trouble with Sakyo at some point during the school year. I made this joke to some friends I was telling about this au but like, Sakyo through and through is a dorkass loser. In the show, people take him seriously bc he has the bey and the power to back it up, but outside of that he is SO lame and such an edgy teenager, and in this au, he has the exact same attitude he usually does except now he doesn’t actually physically fight people to the same degree so everyone basically just sees him as this edgy emo asshole who hisses at people in the hallways yk. And so everyone just kinda avoids him bc nobody likes him. Except for Takanosuke that is, who still has his whole thing with Sakyo and ren, and similarly, becomes intrigued with Sakyo afterwards. Call it intuition or something, but immediately after actually having an interaction with Sakyo, he can sense that there’s something else that he’s not letting on. That’s when he starts following Sakyo and trying to talk to him, but Sakyo continually ignores him. It’s after school one day where he finds Sakyo in like, an alley or something, basically doing as bad as he could possibly be doing, and at this point Takanosuke’s already been connecting some of the dots, but seeing Sakyo as he sees him there is the final confirmation in the realization that he’s a vampire, and that kinda explains a lot for takanosuke. It makes all of Sakyo’s strange behavior and aggression make sense to him and he also realizes, seeing the state Sakyo’s in, that he’s really just hungry, and feels compelled to help. That’s when they make their whole deal and their friendship begins.

It’s funny because Sakyo has like absolutely no idea how to go about any of this now, both because he hasn’t really had a friend in like ever, but now that he has a steady source of blood, he doesn’t really need to be doing like everything that he’s been doing, and doesn’t really know how to go about that. At school, he really only hangs out with Takanosuke now, and basically everyone else has taken notice to it and how he’s basically changed completely pretty much over night. A lot of people start drawing their own conclusions. If Takanosuke’s with his other friends, Sakyo usually stays on his own somewhere else, unless he really needs a refill, in which case he and takanosuke will go off on their own somewhere so that no one else sees that. Everyone else still has no fucking clue that Sakyo’s a vampire. This does not help with the conclusions (I really wanna make a mini comic about this too)

In general, the two become pretty attached at the hip for the most part. Their arrangement basically bonds them for life in vampire culture or whatever, and in turn, Sakyo becomes pretty protective of Takanosuke. I think it’s both an instinctual “defending my food” kind of thing, but also a way of keeping their deal even. Takanosuke gives Sakyo blood, and in turn, Sakyo becomes very loyal to Takanosuke. This is mostly where the “uncharacteristically cute and caring” Sakyo characterization comes in. This is another one I wanna draw but this not only comes in the extremes of “is this guy bothering you do you want me to kill him for you,” but also in little ways, such as the post-bloodsucking juice boxes, Sakyo offering to carry Taka’s bag or walk him home, general things like that. It kinda catches takanosuke off guard bc he really wasn’t expecting much in return, but Sakyo insists on it. And again, to people with zero context of their dynamic, this is all VERY interesting.

Thinking about later down the line, although idk how it’d really happen, I think Zyro being Zyro would eventually find out about Sakyo being a vampire as well and help him out if he ever needed it. Perhaps it could start a chain reaction of people suddenly becoming a lot more tolerable of Sakyo, ensuing even more kooky hijinks involving Sakyo suddenly needing to understand how to have a social life

#vampire au #axel’s silly little thoughts #god they mean so much to me #I forgot to mention this but like yk also maybe they kiss at some point too idk #anything can happen nature is beautiful yk #I honestly cannot stop giggling about the idea of people seeing their relationship entirely out of context and immediately being like #‘oh yeah they’re definitely smooching’ #they’re so stupid I love them so much

[munamania]

ok and now i need to talk this out on here cause like in all reality idc that much but this is just a little. awk. i might do this under the cut just so i can talk in a bunch of little paragraphs if thats chill ok ty

sooooo right ive mentioned that sam has been talking abt having beef specifically w his roommates but also that friend group at large bc they went on spring break trips w/o him. The roommate took a duo trip with fellow dyke and everyone else did like a big thing together erm

right thats just the context idrc except for the amount of times sams vaguely alluded to it and idk any other details. um but he has called his roommates like the 'poison pills' of the whole ordeal since they literally live together (but they havent been that close. prob since their freshman year when sam was out for a semester. which isnt inherently er bad but hes acting like hes been victimized for the last few years)

and like last night after this long sesh of working on our assignment sam and i r walking to the bus stop and he says something about finding out just like shitty awful drama and how it sucks having to live with 'two of those people' lmao sorry im not laughing im just like. whatever

this said i have plans to see. should i name sams roommate. ok i cant do that rn but we have plans to hang on monday and i would be seeing sam like immediately after for class. and esp if we're hanging out on campus like we might have a repeat of last time where sam spots us out and im not sure if he'd approach and hang this time. but hes obviously aware that me and them like chat

so it's like not so subtle that hes trying to get me to either ask abt the roommate or flat out not trust/see them anymore and i just havent engaged which might come across as "fake" but like. well ill be honest man theyre all a year younger than me and that doesnt mean much but it does feel very immature to handle things this way idk the whole story but im not gonna get roped into the like Omg i cant talk to this person bc of beef idk about...

and maybe i should feel worse abt not being #loyal to someone who is or at least at one point was considered a friend esp when it comes to someone that yeah ig he does know better than i but i dont... sorry ive been talking abt this bitch like cady and regina george except im not psychosexually obsessed im just like. hes been more insufferable than i remember lately yk.

i feel the Tiniest bit bad and like oh have i taken advantage of u bc yk we've hung and smoked and had dinner together often at ur place and def wormed my way into talking to the roommate via u etc but then i remember the way sam talks abt like anything and i dont feel all that bad

and theres this whole thing abt the eclipse i dont have plans to go see it it might happen last second but now after sams asked me abt it and messaged me like yeah idk we (him and his bestie) could maybe take a bus but we'd need a place to stay (asking to stay w my family bc i mentioned it like once on my close friends) and then theyre like going to a diff city anyway like oh my gooooood it's gonna be seen as shady and i dont really CARE i just need assurance that this is stupid as hell and its ok if im a little bit of an asshole about it. i dont think being mad abt the eclipse would hold up but w/e

has not been at the top of my worries and still isnt but now that this is all coming up in the next week im like frank g*llagher voice (sorry) oh Jesus Christ. you know

#abby talks

[her-midas-touch]

it is the middle of the night and i have made the extremely healthy and logical decision to watch barbie movie edits on my laptop, my mother will walk in and immediately disown me and i will not even blame her lmao

anyway, my fav lines from barbie:

"who cares if she's exciting fresh and fun" "she sounds like a deodorant" hurfhueefefvhivrfj so this kevin character from barbie diaries was a total king, the animation sucks ass and looks like an armature made it, but thats what makes it so funny

also my favourite barbie character, the best villain of all, you know him, you love him: Preminger  all his dialogues (the iconic "sChOoL bOy") will never not make me laugh, he's so queer coded like omg i love his flamboyant dramatic evil ass

why am i just noticing, in the twelve dancing princesses movie the dancing in circles around e/o and the weird singing and whole vibe was so cult behaviour of them

the pets and side characters had so much /flavour/ yk!!! like they were so funny and perfect and had so much personality!!!

alr good night. praise our lord and saviour bibble bibble supremacy, your wifey

can’t even say anything because I brought this upon you by gushing about barbies around midnight lmaoo (on the other hand you were watching barbie edits and didn’t link them?? Need my daily dose of madness)

I liked barbie diaries omgg (but it gets me every time I stumble across edits because I swear the animation was top tier when I watched it as a kid 😭)

"she sounds like a deodorant" HELP I don’t remember that but it’s so chaotic out of context

PREMINGER lmaoo (please he is) (the affronted gasps and over all theatrics just crack me up) (its so unserious)

(it’s a cult but it’s a cool one tbh)

(side characters carried these movies lmaoo)

(LIKE those twins from diamond castle too lmaoo “what..NOO.” “mother should’ve told us”)

#asks #lovely moots #siri😏💐✨ #gorgeous people in my asks <3

[renslo161605]

Just how he is I'm afraid

Super emo deep please read caption a bit i beg please :) ?

Slight TW: mentions of abuse and blood (no graphic detail or anything)

So some of this has like- personal meaning which I won't get super into but I was fairly proud of the idea.

I also use "he" alot. Anyone can be an abuser. But i imagine this wolf and buck to both be males. And my situation was between two males so yk. But of course a man can abuse a woman, a woman can abuse a man. Non-binary can abuse men ect. Abuse isn't defined to a gender. Just thought i should make that clear.

For context- canines will do something I think people call "muzzling" where they bite eachothers muzzle. They may yelp, or growl and snarl while they do it and it's often between pups/cubs.

This is a play on that being that the wolf does not know any better, this is how he was brought up. Of course, the deer knowing this is how he shows his love, but quite clearly it's hurting him. Still he doesn't look phased or in pain. He just takes it.

The take on this is basically emotional abuse/manipulation. I am a believer that many abusers are like this because they've suffered abuse themself. The wolf having only known this as a sign of friendliness does it to show his love. This could be someone constantly venting, maybe they take their anger out on a loved one because they TRUST them. Maybe they became their "favourite person" of sorts. Maybe it can even get physical. Lots of different forms.

The tie is that the wolf is biting down on the deer in what would be considered a friendly way how he was brought up. But it's not a friendly way. He has drawn blood and it hurting the deer, maybe he doesn't realise it. The deer, knowing his worth to the other person is not turning away. He is just taking it.

For me in my situation. This was'

*verbal/emotional abuse/ manipulation/dumping his issues onto me as a literal child ect. (He had no friends LMAO)*

*me "just taking" it so it doesn't get worse"

The deer "just takes" the bite.

If the deer tried to break away, the wolf will surely bite down harder and the deers pulling will make the wound deeper. So the deer has no choice but to just take it.

If you look closely there are darker spots on the wolfs muzzle where the wolf may have also been bitten.

The real sad part is the abuser ("the wolf") in this situation will probably never change. Especially if they're older. They just are that way. It's the only way they've ever known.

Of course experiences are different for everyone.

Summery:

The wolf bites as a sign of love. This is the only love he has ever known.

But this is not love. The deer is hurt, still the deer takes it because if it tries to pull the wolf will bite down harder, making the wound deeper.

Emotional abuse CAN be built from an unhealthy attachment. But when the person starts pulling away, the "wolf" will only dig deeper, desperate for them to stay, perhaps not realising or not accepting what they've done despite being told many many times.

ALSO WHEN YOU'VE BEEN TELLING SOMEONE ABOUT HOW YOU MISS THEM BUT THEY SHOULDN'T (a whole other kettle of fish) AND THEY GO "Thats just how he is" OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES. LIKE YEAH?? I WAS THERE?

Every since i was younger i loved to draw animals, my "wolf" would often watch over me. Infact one of my first good tonal drawings was of a wolf, he saw it and said it was amazing.

Now adays aswell as just drawing animals because they're fun, I'll draw them with kind of hidden meanings and interpretations, like this one, usually i keep them secret my for me i like to see people online with like- similar experiences or interpretations to experiences? So maybe someone can relate?

Also, the flowers at the bottom each have meaning aswell as some of them just being a bit personal to me. But if you want to look them up the flowers are:

(from left to right)

Rose

Daisys

Rhododendron/azalea

Lavender

THIS IS SUPER EMO AND DEEP LMAO I'm well aware of that

But i liked the idea and it made sense.

Sorry for rambling, I'm bad for writing alot without actually making a point. Hope you guys understand tho. I'm genuinely kinda proud of this tho <3

Ik I'm not amazing at it, it's 2:40am, i was having a bit of a moment and this came to mind. So bababooe you have emo post now.

YES i have added a filter because the contrast on the original one was a tad off bc i don't have them fancy 6b pencils n stuff.

No matter what someone has been through it DOES NOT excuse abuse. You are not responsible for that, you are a victim of it. And all i can say it leave, don't even stay in contact, leave. I tried to have a foot in both worlds by leaving but staying in contact and trying to sway him in the right direction. It was draining, and every time i took a step forward with him i was thrown 100ft back and I was always the one in tears.

It's a brave thing to leave. It's scary. But it's brave. You prioritise you. You love you. And find someone who loves you the way you need to be loves.

Ty :)) <3

#artists on tumblr #artwork #art #traditional art #sketchbook #sketch #tonalism #amateur artist #meaning #art with meaning #deer #wolf #slight vent #??? #awareness #nature #flowers

[insert-neologism]

maybe by flower face - notes

Im sorry abt the blocks of text in the middle omg it was NOT supposed to be this long but im citing ppl! very exciting.

STILL WITH COLOURS but now its harder to explain bc its not pov; theyre being talked to. so im gonna just keep the original colours from the planning doc (wich is mostly who is shown rn)

jackie blue, shauna red

You cut so deep but

she cuts herself. p obvious i think. but its not only physical (more or less) but also jackies words (in the context of the whole scene)

I’ve always loved you deeper

1we know cannibalism is a sign of love (at least i think everyone whos found my edits does. idk the fanom rlly apart from tumblr). shauna has always loved jackie (even though she doesnt know it), through the years of feeling inferior to jackie (until the end). 2jackie cuts herself to give to shauna but its like more outer layer ig? anyways shauna eats like. her whole or at least not 5 cm flesh

Those voices in your hallway, if you let her in,

sort of resembles a hallway//obvsly th hallucinations started before she ate the ear but it was like the start of the hungry thing

You’ve gotta keep her

love the eye thingy omg. same as above

who’ve you been talking to

more like 'what have u done' but u get the picture

What do they want you to do?

also like. obsvious i think

Baby, I’m afraid you’ve been reckless with my heart

NOW jackie is talking. no more 3rd person narrator.

anyways yeah i dont rlly know what to explain here. she tore the last connection jackie had to their friendship and uh @amygobrrr said it better than I could rn

bc "Shauna was supposed to be the one person who truly loved her. The one person who loved Jackie, not as a soccer captain (like the team did), or as just a girl (like her boyfriend did), or as the mirage of perfect daughter (like her parents did), but loved her as her, as Jackie. Shauna's journal reveals even that to be a lie. [...]

Jackie is hurt, not over Jeff—though he provides her with a convenient excuse to the others—but over what Shauna being willing to sleep with him says to her about how Shauna must view their friendship. Shauna has told her that love and friendship don't matter. The romantic love Jackie knew she didn't feel for Jeff, the romantic love she believed Shauna didn't feel for her, and the platonic love she believed Shauna did; none of them mattered, none of them ever existed. [...]

Jackie is, at this point [the arguing scene], totally convinced that no scrap even of the friendship she was so desperately clinging to really exists. Everything she feels for Shauna is unrequited—everything except, of course, the anger and the hurt."¹

anyways thats why she died

While i was sleeping you slipped in and burst apart

sleeping = death. thats my humor. bursting apart references the panic yk sorta

God knows i love you so, but i won’t be your ghost

(^ thats not wjat ure hungry for is sorta love to me. idk why but i always have to think of that. one day im gonna analyse that)

ghost/hallucination idk. jackie tells her 'what? actually, you dont know. [my death] was totally ur fault'. shes not formless, passive, not just like hanging there (obviously its more shaunas pov as shes the one imagining the whole thing. so its shauna making jackie reject her again? (nvm the 'but we were just children' rn) maybe bc its because thats the most prominent memory shauna has of jackie; being rejected constantly. bc of jeff, bc of her giving her attention to other ppl, by telling her what to wear etc and therefore directly rejecting a part of shauna herself.

in her hallucinations jackie is way more like sharp and mean sorta; thats how shauna remembers her. this is how she lives on in her memory; for shauna, jackie is saying: im not yours, i never was and i never will be, even after death. even when literally nobody else can see me (REGARDING THE LYRIC. NOT THE ACTUAL TEXT i should probably say this.) doesnt matter if that is how jackie really was/felt about shauna bc thats not what it is about. not anymore, not for a long time; its about how shauna sees jackie, and herself through jackie. jackie doestn exist anymore; shes a mere mirror through which shauna sees a distorted version of herself whcih she attributes to jackie. (i feel like i should make a post abt this (esp bc you can reverse the whole thing) if somebody is rreading this (hi) pls tell me if i shouldd)

You’re the one who’s in my body ripping at the seams

(still jackie talking like vo style) I LOVE THIS its about shauna living jackies life. she lives the normal, homecoming-queen, married-her-hs-sweetheart life, not the went-to-brown life. instead of jackie - bc she 'killed' jackie (for the sake of this symbolism). thats shes in her body is a bit more extreme than that shes just living her life but like i get it? she has assumed jackies role, she literally married jackies boyfriend. shes not living a live similar to the one jackie wouldve led, but literally living her life.

but its ripping. bc shauna is not jackie (but fundamentally different.) shes not the normal housewife; if its only bc she cheats or her violent tendencies (outright murder) or her past alone. stuff thats like bigger than jackies body? idk how to say that. rabbits dont symbolize that but they remind me of like innocence almost? childlike maan idk how to say that but stuff that shauna is decidedly not; stuff that jackie probably would be. to me, it shows the difference; shaunas assumed life vs her real self. shes keeping the ceramic rabbits, shes keeping them, shes trying but shes still sb else. its not her life, it was never supposed to be

You’re the one who’s crashing on the highways in my dreams

(now shauna is talking) the bridge has aways been symbolic with dreams for me. probably bc its night there idk anyways jackie is haunting shauna, similar to a nightmare. when she turns jackies gone; it becomes abundantly clear that its not real, its a dream but shes still dead

maybe i won’t, maybe i will

yeah. maybe shell stay outside, maybe shell come inside

haven’t slept so easy since you left me in the wild

rlly love this bc technically shauna left jackie outside, in the wild. and she didnt sleep that well out there (she died). BUT i love it more to interpret this as 'jackie went outside, jackie died and left shauna alone to spiral into madness or something close to.' also shauna hasnt slept that easy after tbh

I wish i could have loved you right

bet she does wish that. bc they loved each other! they really, obviously did. but they (here shauna) didnt know how to do it right;

but i was just a child

(which makes sense consiering their circumstances etc). and they were children and like its normal to make mistakes and idk its probably not that normal to cheat on ur bff with her boyfriend but the point is children make mistakes. only normally they dont die for it. and i dont think shauna was cheating on jeff for jeff but for jackie (which is like. wildly popular thought (?)(has to be bc ive heart of it lol) so i dont think i have to explain it much) (or at all rlly) bc she wanted jackie and the only way she could have her was by getting with her boyfriend (the only person with which she was physically sort of closer than shauna). smell jackie on him and pretend its her etcetc

maybe I won’t, maybe I will

she was with jeff, she is with jeff, but in the same way jackie was and is still with her.

Run back to you

always (shows the progression, jackies always there frfr)

There’s something dark inside me and i can’t get it out

violence etc; its obviously still in her adult years

My thoughts ring in your voice now and i can’t make a sound

like i said above. shauna projects her thoughts onto jackie

You loved me holy with your cross and your disease

eating=holy??maybe. cross stands for faith; technically christian faith but it says YOUR cross and its a heart so its their faith into each other. disease bc idk made sense in my mind

Did you feel that close to god when you had me on my knees?

actually not sure abt that one; either its jackie asking: shaunas finally standing her ground, being bigger than jackie, confronting her and jackie is subdued (on her knees)

OR its shauna asking (in the context of the argument) if jackie ever felt that close to god when she idk put shauna under herself?? how do i word this (in shaunas pov) and jackie responding 'what? no'

If you don’t love me now, well then we all go down

if shauna doesnt go outside to get jackie inside then theyll succumb to cannibalism. and jackie dies (which is what happens, bc shauna does not 'love her now'

I’m your sweetest parasite, you fill me up with pesticide

shauna still loves jackie. think thats clear somewhat. (=sweet) jackie basically nests herself in shaunas brain, wont let her go (=parasite). pesticide doesnt refer as much as like. 'go away fuck u parasite' but, U GUESSED IT, the words that jackie says. bc she doestn actually say them (bc shes dead); thats shaunas doing.

bleed me Baby, gemini, hurt me til you feel all right

she bleeds. she loves her. idk what else to do. she does tell her; twist: shauna still is very much not alright

and i won’t, no, i won’t

she wont

You got into my head and now i’ll never be the same

'parasite'; as we see the violent tendencies have carried on into the adult life. also I rlly like her look here I think it rlly captures the essence of what i was trying to say

My trigger finger twitches every time i hear your name

well she does look uneasy

And maybe I won’t, maybe I will

maybe

Run back to you

literally spends the rest of the song running back to her. BUT ITS NOT RLLY HER OMG

you can find the edit here

¹whole cited post

#mitos incredible life #long post #like fr guys every time im writing these i get possessed halfway through and go completely off the rails #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water - notes #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water #god dont i love having Too Many Tags #anyways

[lovelylionh3art]

okay listen rq guys, yk hozier’s new song “too sweet” i CANNOT stop thinking of a situation where james says this to lily when they break up in reference to regulus. the first analogy being the surface level,

“You know you're bright as the morning

As soft as the rain

Pretty as a vine

As sweet as a grape

If you can sit in a barrel

Maybe I'll wait

Until that day..”

so here it recognises james love for lily, shes lovely. he cares about her. but he doesn’t see depth in her, he doesn’t see harshness and darkness. and then,

“I'd rather take my whiskey neat

My coffee black and my bed at three

You're too sweet for me

You're too sweet for me

I take my whiskey neat

My coffee black and my bed at three

You're too sweet for me

You're too sweet for me”

he needs someone who has darkness, who has layers and takes work to love. he needs the challenge. and after thinking he was in the relationship he always dreamed of, the perfect easy love. he realised that thats not how he loves. he loves because he wants to, because he dares too. and lily has become too natural and too easy, boring even. but not her as a person. just in a romantic sense, james needs excitement. and lets not even talk about, “my coffee black in my bed at three” like its literally regulus black cmon.

also dont get me started on “Don't you just wanna wake up

Dark as a lake

Smellin' like a bonfire

Lost in a haze?”

THE LAKE ARE YOU KIDDING

this gives me such drunk on love vibes too, like he needs that adventure and adrenaline it takes to love someone as intricate as regulus black. im nor saying liky isnt intricate, but im saying james is not the right person to see all those parts of her. in the right way anyway.

basically what im saying is james wants dangerous love, he wants a new obstacle every day and regulus can give him that, he will give him trial after trial and love him to smithereens through all of it, but lilys love cannot because shes “too sweet”

obviously this whole idea would be in a very specific context and situation. i would imagine it as a conversation after their break up, maybe even a couple months or years where james has started his relationship with reg, or maybe not and hes just inlove with him but already finds so much joy out of attempting to knock his walls down. or something idk. but they may have reconnected or lily has asked james why exactly it couldn’t work for them. im not entirely sure but i just couldn’t get the idea out of my head. if anyone has anything to say or add or even if you wanna take this and run with it for a fic pleaseeee let me know cus id love to see 🩷🩷

#jegulus #ex jily #hozier #too sweet #marauders era #song analysis #fanfic

[bigmack2go]

My mother complained to me about how my generation sometimes uses single letters for whole words especially in English and i cannot hahahaha😭

Edit:

I decided that imma do a list and explain what they mean

A: Obviously: a

B: to be

C: to see

D: i dont think thats a short cut but „D:“ is a emoji

E: i think its an emote bjt im not sure tbh

F: F in the chat

G: gee

H: age

I: obv: i

J: i dont think

K: (o) kay

L: looser

M: am

N: and

O: i dont think thats a shortcut

P: i dont think thats a shortcut either

Q: neither is this but in combination with t its cutie

R: are

S: i dont think thats a shortcut

T: I don’t think that’s a shortcut

U: you

V: I don’t think that’s a shortcut

W: if its without context its like „you’re a looser but thats okay“ but also „with“

X: I don’t think that’s a shortcut

Y: why

Z: set

Conclusion: we can and will take every single opportunity we can get to use one letter only if it sounds like a word.

Some other shortcuts include:

Yk: you know

Idk: i dont know

Imo: in my opinion

Lmao: laugh my ass off

Ppl:people

Lol (even tho she was literally part of the generation that invented that): laugh out loud

Ydek: you dont even know

Cya: see you!

Smt: something

Typo (but im not sure u can call that a shortcut): like when u misstype

And more!

Edit number two: feel free to use this for ur parents and anything else under this tag 💀💀

#parebt guides tag #gen guide tag

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

1, 7, 19, 20 for the TOH ask game!!

Hi!!! Thank you for the ask!!

(Here's the ask game if anyone wants to see the list)

I have already answered questions: 2, 5, 8, 11, and 16

1.) What episode got you invested in the show? Why?

So I think I briefly touched on this before on a different question but the episode that got me into the show was Enchanting Grom Fright back during 2020 and season 1. Previous to TOH I was hyperfixated on a movie in that time (Booksmart) and used Instagram to talk to some people who from said community wrote fanfic for on ao3.

Anyway, during scrolling through the front my feed at like September or so of 2020 was FLOODED with edits of that episode. Like everyone was making edits to the clip of Amity throwing that note behind herself "So... Who did you wanna ask out??" that whole thing. Everyone was doing it from what I saw. People were FREAKING out.

And at first, I was like almost mad at it kinda. Like "why tf is this show all over here!!" like not hate but why was everyone so obsessed with it. I couldn't escape (still haven't but thats another story later on haha). But basically, as I dove deeper and understood it's context on why people were so into it, I realized "Hey!! This show is gay- or on the verge of hinting so strongly of WLW representation!!" and because of that fact, I was hooked in a sense. I was there when Lumity was a crackship and everyone were still speculating and theorizing. I never knew it'd get this big but I'm happy that it's cannon.

7,) Has the show ever made you cry? What scene(s)?

Yes!!! Dude the timeskip scene made me start bawling my eyes out. The soundtrack just- and the "BYEEEEEEE" dude. Man, like the sentimental aspect of TOH and how much it meant to me- seeing it and understanding that the show was finished- I was crying because I didn't want to loose it. It was a comfort to me-- But hey! That's what fanfic and fandom is for, huh?

19.) Least favorite episode?

It's not an unpopular take but Once Upon a Swap. I know people are growing to appreciate it nowdays but it just doesn't hit the same as s2 does in comparison. I know like its not good to compare them because during s1- It's clear that Dana was getting that footing then, but dude-- That ep was kinda.... Idk. Not it. I did like the Lilith moments in it though!!

20.) Which character do you relate to most?

That's tough. Definitely Amity. Just her entire character and growth of both learning how to be herself and show her true self while also battleing her insecure nature toward not feeling "good enough" for Luz because of Luz seeing her as she truly is and through the guard she forced up due to her parents.

I mean I do kin Luz because I do like the nerdy part of her too. I'm just one big nerd who writes fanfiction so. Yk ehhh. I can't decide between them both!!

Thank you sm for the ask!!

#thank you for the ask!! #ask game #billys replying to asks

[scaredofmyocs]

i am listening to PJ and Parappas album I Scream annd it is silly to me erm here are my silly thoughts that are mostly about the lyrics lmao

Ok first of all. I dont like parappas songs in this game, and all of these use those instrumentals. Its nothing in particular I thought I would like at least one but strangely not? but parappas VA is incredibly talented idc if thats like common knowledge gotta say it when you think it yk. ok now

first song: All We Need Is Music:

i posted the "WITH THE FUCK WITH THE FUCK WHAT THE FUUUUUCK" thing like a second ago and thats like my whole opinion on that song. im pretty sure katy is singing some of it and like i love her her voice actor was incredibly talented again gotta say the obvious. also the beginning where shes like "oh. (chuckles) ok." with like no context is so real so great. also what the fuck is happening in the video.

second song: The New Plan

the lyrics are just "im cool man and so is milk can and heres a bunch of stuff we did" Im very neutral about this one i have no thoughts other than yes you are cool and so is milk can

third song: Life Is Like A Sky

the song is basically just "remember guys behave yourselves!!!" but hearing parappa say "Stay away from drugs" is so funny again not many thoughts

fourth song: Why

THIS ONE IS SO SILLY TO ME bc he starts off with shit like "why. do birds have wings" like ok ok then "why. do boys like girls? girls like boys, boys like toys, and girls like curls?" interesting thoughts parappa "why do we feel hungry? why do we need money?" even further into interesting "Who created sunny funny?" her dad what "Why is fire hot? why does rain fall in drops?" yeah? "why do we have first and last names?" ok ok "And how come people die? And where do we go, from the sky?" damn ok parappa questioning the real shit at late hours in the morning. anyway yeah hes just slowly questioning everything in this song and it sounds really funny to me

last and sixth song: No Cuttin Corners

BAHAHA THE WHOLE SONG IS JUST "listen to your parents guys! go to school! dont do drugs! I hate the dealers at my school! i dont need cigarettes! playstation! Dont drink alcohol! Dont shoot each other! I go to school! my dad is yelling at me even though I did my chores! I have 4 paws but i walk on 2! Talk it out!

OKOKOK TO BE FAIR "We Are Milkcan!" is never going to be beat in terms of all over the place in tone and I love that song so Im sure that this one has its fans. I just think its really funny that parappa sounds like he was paid to make this album so much. Im sure he agrees with certain sentiments in it its just so out of left field given that he wouldve kicked those bullies asses at the beginning of the first game and given what I know about the second game (something about noodle and burger war?) I litterally dont think he cares about this as much as this album explores these themes.

Also parappa talks about school like hes in elementary school and not like. what 15? based on what Ive heard about the anime I dont like this, unless it was a deliberate choice ofc bc then idc as long as rodney or whoever isnt having their creations messed with.

not that I know what Im talking about I am rambling girl. hit post

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #Why is so concerning to me and only me and its so silly like parappa girly are you ok #are you being held hostage lmao #parappa #parappa the rapper #um jammer lammy now #katy kat #Sunny Funny #PJ berri #ramble #umjammer lammy #sorry if this is like the most mid post ever #i just wanted to write down what was in my brain bc it was goofy

[fellasleepinbaltimore]

so its like yk a pidgin is created by enslaved peoples in haiti formed from french, taíno languages, and the african (mostly bantu) languages carried over however, while the phonotactic patterns of the language was mostly influenced by languages of enslaved peoples, the language primarily lexified words of french origin (bc of french's elevation given the circumstances)

and when a pidgin takes those words it usually does so through the most common use of that word and also there alot about pidgins and how they *allegedly* well all of this is allegedly jujyjutf basically it could reveal a universal language (not conspiracy) as in the universal basic structure or well ugh it's like a universal set of ways humans will create language, the grammar aspect I mean, a bit like the consept of IPA (international phonetic alphabet) but for grammar teehee in the sense the IPA creates all the possible sounds a human can make, aka a set of universal ways humans can verbalize language

sorry that was a sidenote but basically I wanted to give context to the lexification process so basically in this case the process reflects phonetic units of language, so it's like basically enslaved people speaking their interpretation of the french language, how it sounds

and further, the most common phonetic instance of that word/idea (bc it's their interpretation) in the language (their interpretation thereof) so like friend, or in french, ami, in creole is zanmi... as in les amis, the plural of ami, or rather 'the' friends as it takes that liaison in les amis (lez'ami) and it's such a specific circumstance for that word or idea, les amis, there's las amis, l'ami and the fact les amis was the circumstance common enough to be the basis for lexification is interesting and might reflect socio-linguistic circumstances existent in the process of a pidgin forming

so now why do many, many verb forms in kreyòl come from a circumstance indicative of heavy use of the formal 'vous' or plural you (person) form... well bc it was the most common and most universally heard form of that word so vle being vle is wierd bc if it came from veux as in je veux (I want, in first person) it's wrong... as in... it breaks the pattern of its lexification's phonetic circumstance... bc the 'eu' in veux sound would always be 'e' or 'i' bc for exactly that 'vu', saw or seen, exists as a cognate in the form of 've' the u, the same sound as eu, becomes an 'e', so if vle were to have come from veux it breaks the pattern which newly fresh formed pidgins wouldn't bc their whole thing is trying to the simplest easiest (to say, and properly function to communicate to a foreign people) then it would mean vle has to have come from another form of the word from that language, probably 'voulez' the plural form, which is used to indicate respect or appropriate social distance, which says it was probably heard most often by most people, enough to have it enter consensus, and be the form for "want"

so I just think about like enslaved peoples saying "ke voule mesye".... and it makes me ugtjhityvv gh like

dlo from de l'eau bc de us often used for water (eau) when used with a verb, je bois de l'eau, bwa dlo, actually it's bwe gghjyth but anyway so I think oh gash makes sense je bwa dlo, je pale dlo, mwen vl- mwen vl-... but je veux is the most common circumstance! it's je ve!! je ve!! yes the same as 'seen' oh... wait is that.

. bbjj actually no omg ghtjyuu bad example actually 8mh ZDGHYJJ HUMILIATING WAIT THATS YHE WRING FKRM ITS MWEN GADE, REGARDEZ CGHGHYYH OOOPSSD NOLOL VE DINT EXUST UGH BAD EXAMPLE BUT THE 'U' TO "I/E" STANDS BC QUE IN FRENCH IS KI IN CREOLE SO... U TO I SFHYJYYH ANYWAY

so why is vle the form?? bc "I want" isn't the most common universally heard form of that word?? what... it's... "You want"??? WHAT YA BOMBACLAAAT FUK YA MADDA!!! FHHTYGGHH no it's like so they... collectively understood 'voulez' as the 'universal' form of that idea, existent in word.... like the fact 'you want' had priority over 'i want'....

bc they were fucking enslaved so... yk.... being fucking slave impacts how the creole you created the madda tongue y'all made fuckinh yourselves, to have one thing of your own.... and it's codified in the form that used by the descendants of those people like a stain they are yet to be clean of and that's so fucking fucked uppppp

in essence... you say vle bc papan was a slave ... AND THATS FUCKED BUT EVERYTIME I REACH TO TRY AND CONVERT MY RUDIMENTARY FRENCH TO CREOLE BC MAYBE KTS THE SAME I CANT REMEMBER THE EXACT CREOLE WORD MAYBE THE FRENCH INE CREOLIFIED WOULD WORD!! FHGHH and sometimes it doesn't and it's when I'd be saying "you want"... bc what they wanted didn't m- ykwim saying like dhththh and sometimes I think about that and it's not funny like it's really fucked up ig bribfbtnyjj and I don't know how to like process that sometimes bc it's... actually quite dark like...

etymology can have quite dark implications....

idk so yeah that's so... 'it makes you give it some thought' thing to the story of a kreyòl's word etymology.... so yeah ☹️

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

ok ok so if you like relating characters to classical myths…… what parallels do you think jet star makes?

ooooh okay, so, this was actually pretty hard to answer! theres a lot of characters where the parallels just jump out at me immediately and make so much sense in my brain and jts all just like. perfect (like party and icarus for example) but like, with jet ive never really given him much thought in relation to myths like this. i think bc hes already so intrinsically linked with the stars and the sky in my brain, i sort of see that connection as sort of the ultimate like. motif within his character. i never really related him to any other stories or anything like that bc hes always just been the sky and the stars to me

HOWEVER upon thinking about him with the specific context of classical muths in the mond, i have developed some Thoughts about... orpheus and eurydice. i know, i know, not really what i expected either but just hear me out okay

the story of orpheus and eurydice has always been one of my favorites; im a sucker for a good tragic love story yk? and ive always thought of jet star's character as, first and foremost, someone just filled with the most pure and genuine love for the world and everything around him. he falls in love with the stars and the sky as a kid because of stories his mother tells him, or because its the one constant in his ever changing life, or just bc he sees it as natures way of painting, of making art. he loves his crew in a similar way, where he sees them all as these sort of beautiful works, like these fucking blessings in his life that he never thought hed really get to have

he loves party and ghoul and kobra and the girl, and he loves his home, the desert, and the color and life that it brings. and so hes willinv to fight for them a till the ends of the earth, to hell and back

orpheus fails in his quest to get eurydice back, but i think the reason for exactly why is up to interpretation. maybe he doesn't trust that the deal he made was real, that she was ever behind him to begin with. maybe he turns around out of fear thats shes lost, or thats shes given up, or because shes begging him to look at her and he cant explain why he cant. wether or not jet star ultimately fails in his goals of saving his home and his family are also up gor debate, but i feel like no matter what he would consider himself to be a failure because he couldn't save everyone. i think he goes into bli's headquarters to pull his little girl out from hell, and hes so so sure that even if he doesnt make it, everyone else or at least someone else will along with the girl. he is going to save them all because thats what he does, he saves the ones he loves, he protects them and he goes down fighting.

and maybe as hes running towards desert with the girl and he chances a look back, thats when it fully hits them that no ones behind him like he thought theyd be. he failed and hes alone and suddenly hes eurydice falling behind the girl who trusts him to follow, and maybe hes icarus in a way, too, different from how party is because he chooses to fall instead

idk these were just my initial thoughts. just a whole lotta word vomit bc its like 1 a.m. and this is the first time ive ever really thought abt this in depth lol i might wake up tomorrow and completely disagree with all of this and write a response abt my ACTUAL answer to ur question (either way i will probably talk more abt jet and myths later bc i can im gonna be thinking abt this A LOT and im gonna have more to say later)

but yeah enjoy my thought process bc i was basically writing this down as shit came to me lmao

#asks #theres probably like a TON of super obviously parallels that im missing rn bc im Tired + when i think if them i swear ill yell abt it here #but for now this is what ur getting. i just took my first thought and kinda ran with it but i think it sort of fits. in a way? #if i articulate it right?? #danger days: the true lives of the fabulous killjoys #danger days #jet star #ddttlotfk

[elytrafemme]

OKAY SO it was where do we go now/wa hala2 la wayn and its this lebanese movie i got assigned 2 watch for cinematography class for the chapter on international cinema and it made me very happy hehe however. i have Thoughts. first off positive ones do you know how nice it was to hear just Genuine Lebanese Arabic in a movie it was SO nice. thats how i talk!! i use those turns of phrases!!! the old ladies remind me of my grandmas!!! the humour is also on Point like it feels very Classic Lebanese humour yk? and theres a great balance between humour and the more serious parts in a way that feels very true to the culture itself? if that makes sense?

less positive points uhhh why did they burst into song out of Nowhere like 3 times its not a musical it felt so. Why Is This Here. the last song where the women are baking is fun though. my biggest gripe with it though is. okay a bit of context so!!! the main plot in the movie is that its about a village thats half muslim half christian and they coexist peacefully and then they start hearing news of skirmishes between the two religions elsewhere and tensions start to rise and each side starts blaming the other for Every Little Thing that goes wrong and it just keeps escalating and escalating. and so the movie focuses on the women of the village devising various schemes to keep the men from fighting each other. its very much denouncing religion wars (which like. Yeah its a thing. my grandpa almost got shot once)

anyways SO all of that to say. the movie ends with the men waking up one morning and all the muslim men find that their wives have taken off their hijab and are praying to the virgin mary while all the christian women are veiled etc. and theyre basically saying well if you want to go fight them for being christian/muslim you'll have to fight me too and it makes them see the error of their ways etc. i. did nawt like this. i feel like theres better ways to get this message accross than basically saying "yeah religion is surface level and you can just violate everything you believe in just to make a point" like its not that they went i Look like them now its straight up they switched yk. like "this is who i am now". idk. left a bad taste in my mouth but maybe thats just me!!

the ending ending scene is the village going to bury a kid that was killed on his way back to the village and . like at the beginning of the movie we see the cemetery and its divided in2 tombstones with crosses and ones without but now the tombstones all look the same. and the title of the movie comes from the men carrying the coffin asking that yk. where do we go now. and i feel like that was a Much better way to get the point accross than the whole switching debacle sobs. anyways yeah!! those are my thoughts . this is so long i am SO sorry

YAY LONG REVIEW TIME!!! omg omg nice! i absolutely adore that, both the language part because that's so important but also the fact that it nails the culture down because? i feel like that's so hard to do with any culture, matching the humor and the specific phrases/customs with the generational trauma / more serious aspects of it. i really want to reconnect with more iraqi media for that reason because i really want to see how a film reflects that kind of thing

God movies where they just do random song and musical segments will never not be funny to me. this is a little different as to my understanding this is more expected in the genre, but watching bollywood movies with my friends was like. okay so there's a dramatic scene going on Oh wait now they're dancing on a shoreline in iceland. for the next eight minutes. this is fine and normal. like its so ABRUPTSDHKFJ

that's honestly a really really really cool concept for the film but i agree in that that's a really weird way to resolve it? i feel like in something like a film talking about religion its important that the religion component isn't entirely lost if that wasn't what the whole point was, does that make sense? like in this context it shouldn't take a person dneoucning their religion when the entire point of the show isn't about losing your faith just about reconciling with other people, it feels irrelevant and like the religion is being centered in the religious wars and not the violence. side note glad your grandpa didn't actually get shot that's a major yikes

man that other ending scene you described though... like imaginably this would be much more impactful if i had the visuals as well and could see this unfold in the film but like. your description even now feels really really emotionally impactful and. yeah. glad it has a good actual ending to it that kind of rounds it out i guess? seems like a good film overall but with some weird quirks and bad parts definitely

ty for the movie review! sorry if my response is scatterbrained im mulittasking rn but this was very cool to read :DDD

#nightmare.ask #ppl into films and cinematography r so cool

[outlaw-baby]

okkkaaayyy here's another little something. i just watched all of the bear, probably inspired by the dream i had (yk the one where i felt an intense crush towards carmen from the bear mixed with a professor I TAed for its whatever). here is how i want season three to start:

first off it opens with gay sex. thats fucking right carmen?? carmy?? he's fucking a man [salute emoji]

there's basically no context at first but jeremy allen white is acting his fucking ass off getting into this sort of fumbling, messy gay sex. there's some typical awkward dialogue, carmy is a little self deprecating, it's a little tender. they stumble through carmen's spare apartment, trip on some jeans idk. for a minute he's a little relaxed

that's right bisexual reveal ep 1

NEW YORK appears on screen

yes it is a sort of prologue, no fucking context on opening night bby but guess the fuck what? we do know carmy is biSEXUAL INNIT. and odds are good they'll pull some shit like this just watch (too cowardly to make carmen bi ofc)

i imagine the first sex scene has a funky song playing in the back and when we transition from "NEW YORK" to, ya, the kitchen there is a jarring lack of noise.

there is only the subtle clicking of silverware and the lightest sound of carm breathing as he's hovered over a plate with tweezers arranging things just so

the breathing, controlled steady, juxtaposes ofc his breathing during his gay sex

side note i will accept now that carm is bisexual and maybe there's something happening with sydney but also maybe jeremy allen white shouldn't be allowed to kiss ayo, have we considered that? so he can pine infinitely as she realizes she deserves better :)

Back to it, capital C Chef is revealed to be hovering over carmy's shoulder insulting him etc etc

i imagine much of the episode is a sort of day in the life at this restaurant, close up shots of elaborate food, finnicky plating, the ever looming presence of this guy who fucking seethes with hating carmy

during a smoke/panic attack break in an alley carmen is confronted with Chef who like pushes him against the wall, stands uncomfortably close and whispers insults into carmy's ear. carm only replies with yes chef. there are some uncomfortable seconds as we are so close up to jeremy allen white's face (is it just me or can u just like not look too close at the guy for too long?). anyways noise wise the chaos of the city (since it has been silent save for breathing and dialogue) slowly creeps in more and more and more until it is overwhelming and becomes piercing white noise

quick cut to the quiet, clicking calm of the kitchen

i imagine the actual running plot is that carm is being blamed for a kitchen related problem (he is verbally abused for his lack of focus by Chef). something along the lines of a new gelatin thing has to be made bc they can't find the old one and things are running late but it is the eerie calm of simmering anger.

"You fuck up everything," hisses chef. click, click, click and the kitchen runs on

The reveal will be the gelatin thing was behind something the whole time. the viewer definitely sees it but carmy does not. i think it is implied that either a) Chef did it or b) another lower case c chef did it bc of a sort of toxic jealousy within the ranks (despite carmy being abused) or c) and perhaps most interesting is that it was someone else's over site, just an accident, a mislabel but we see the correct label on the back or it just fell to the ground and carmy meanwhile blames himself

but it is mostly atmospheric, meant to hypnotize, meant to get you into the rhythm of this kitchen that is almost soothing, so cool and clean and finessed as to be sacred only for this toxic, leeching presence to ruin any sense of calm

the guy carmy fucked texts again, a scene at night with carmy in his apartment, but carmy throws his phone, screams and crumples to the floor.

cut to carmy crumpled on the floor similarly in the fridge still

Episode ends with carmy's inglorious release from the fridge and who is it but a handsome refrigerator repair man named terry?

The season arch is all abt carmy re-embracing his bisexuality after repressing it due to the toxic homoerotic work place abuse he faced which makes sense thematically IMO as the s2 ending shows him falling into a spiral abt how he can't have relationships and love

In typical bisexual fashion he awakens his relationship with hero terry while also realizing the deepness of his feelings for sydney but too bad she is Not interested but he can experience that ig and in the end his respect and love for her allows their platonic relationship to be stronger

#the bear #and they can hire me if they want #alas ik they won't listen to me #if u know me and ur reading this yeah idk if i'm well rn either

[stxrquotes]

might be slightly ooc quotes because im not fully acquainted with every character (im in the middle of xianzhou luofu quest) or which other characters they know well yet, so theres shit like i rly want all the luofu characters to know each other well n be good friends bc theyre all so. yeah. and im too lazy to look up their relationships and also too impatient to wait until i figure it out naturally

so think of a lot of these, if they seem ooc, as an impression of how their dynamic/relationship Would look if they actually were friends/acquaintances (if theyre not in canon)

what follows under the cut are mod’s headcanons that will run rampant through the quotes🦧also here’s a link to some ships i like and stuff

be warned before clicking that i am afflicted with a the overexplains disease which causes me to be deeply incapable of brevity (im autistic)

stelle’s in-game replies are more chaotic and reckless than caelus who, while he still has plenty of silly raccoon energy, tends to be more gentle than her. dont get me wrong hes got plenty of the same potential for absolute social devastation and havoc but there are genuine differences depending on which one you picked which is very silly. so yeah stelle is a little more loudly unhinged; caelus is still plenty unhinged just a little sneakier about it. like for a second you think hes normal but then its like ah. no he was weird all along. stelle is just a lost cause i think she’s an uncontrollable toddler and i love it .im saying all this as someone who uses caelus, this is just something ive observed and heard from others

i use the korean voiceover in which march refers to welt as “welt-ajeossi” (or ahjussi tbh idk which one it is bc theyre virtually identical to a non-native) which is a term of respect for a middleaged man (like 40+) but personally i enjoy understanding it as just “old man welt” meant entirely disrespectfully, though lighthearted, because its funny as fuck, although i’ve no idea if this interpretation has any grounds bc what i understand it can be either offensive or flattering depending on the actual age of the man youre referring to. like a REALLY old guy would be like omg :3 but a young adult man would be like the FUCK did you just say to me 🦧 (this is my very rough understanding so i am deeply sorry to any and all native koreans or fluent speakers🦧please correct me on any of this) so anyways. welt is an old man and i am deeply amused by the idea that march maybe started it out as a joke like “hey. old man” but then it stopped being a joke. and now its become habit and its rly wholesome. considering he genuinely is like 80 and hes like their peepaw (thats why idk whether its intended to be silly or serious, i wish i had the cultural context pls help)

fu xuan swears so much when shes mad

yk how guinaifen did her whole sword swallowing shebang in front of yanqing n shit, i think it would be funny if jing yuan heard about it and was like ah yes. i must see this intriguing performance for myself. and so he goes to some street performances every now and then and maybe even becomes acquainted with her because idk i just think it’s delightful how they would terrorize yanqing if they were really friends

#!stxrmod