#but summer drains me

[moeblob]

I'm so close...... NY!Hrid is at +9. One more and I can drop the game.... I just love him so much and this alt is so happy and I need it for him...

#fe heroes #hrid #man i was looking back at my hrid art and i wanted to reblog some of it but then im like #mm nah most of my followers have seen it i wont force it upon them again #but i really do love hrid so uh here im so close to being done but i have to grind orbs #because my luck is abysmal right now as i glare at the red he shares with his sister #as i stare at the singular reds that drain my orbs just a bit faster than multiple reds #i mean GRANTED im at least GETTING reds but still #wild to me that i pulled a ny unit on his banner as a four star special after pulling her on her rerun banner #like i didnt already have her .... and it wasnt a red #so at least my pity wasnt broken by it but still wild that i pulled a ny rerun hero on a ny rerun banner that wasnt hers #i think i actually traded a couple of ny!gunns for feathers previously bc i keep pulling her instead of hrid #this alt is so much fun and i love it for him he deserves it ! since is doesnt want to acknowledge him otherwise #i say as i stare at last years summer banner casually name dropping him to say #wow sure is a shame hrid isnt here with us - maybe he will be next year #let hrid have nice things 2024 challenge

[pathologicalreid]

if you've been following along, i have an important update to share with you all

I JUST FINISHED MY LAST FINAL LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO

#FUCK FINALS #ALL THE HOMIES HATE FINALS #this semester drained me #i feel so devoid #yall im so happy #and i have like three weeks until summer semester starts #so i can finally fulfill my destiny of writing x reader fanfic #my requests aren't gonna know what hit them #yapping #margot v grad school

[noa-ciharu]

Sometimes I think how growing up with depression fucks up your ability to enjoy things and makes you be satisfied with minimalist lifestyle

I see people online buying mangas and paying for streaming services and go like "why waste money when there are free sites online for that?". Similarly with media I find myself dropping 90% of it cuz I just can't get into movie/series/book. I see a cute outfit and think how I don't really need it since I have enough clothes already. I see others pampering themselves with takeouts and going to restaurants and go "well, I have food at home that's more economical". I get money for bday and parents are like buy whatever you want and I just don't buy anything. I guess partly cuz I have no real desire for things and partly cuz part of me feels guilty for buying stuff that aren't a necessity

#each summer mental health goes down the drain i can't believe it #tho i guess frugality is partly cuz im a student hence no income #but on other hand financial situation ain't bad rly i even have parents encouraging me to want stuff #and i just don't cuz nothing really bring me joy #anhedonia #mental health

[pirateboy]

anyways a good personal thing to share now: I got top surgery last week!!?!?!!! insane cos I went in to the hospital for a breast reduction and like. a few hours before the surgery the doctor without me saying anything said she could gimme top surgery instead. um yes pls so epic based???

#hasnt quite sunk in yet lmaoo but im sooo happy #^the reason i was gonna get a breast reduction was cos my mum is anti my being a trans so idk i guess she thought it would fix me #And i wouldn't have been able to get top surgery on my own finances for ages and i agreed cos it would be better than nothing #that went SO much better than expected omg #also rlly funny to me that i still dont have a gender dysphoria diagnosis or have been through any official medical channels at all #since ive been diying t as well #anyways still in the compression binder/drains/everything is so uncomfortable stage of healing #but soon... hot boy summer incoming or something idk #marchibald's #trans

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

if i had a genie lamp id wish for Three Things: 1) spiders stay the fuck away from me & out of my spaces. 2) infinite moneys. 3) draw quickly.

#mainly the Draw Quickly one #i scribble so so so so slow #i could share So Much More if i could do more than one full doodle per night #like that one butterfly!howdy thing where he jumped off the roof? took me all fucking night #im not even exaggerating lmfao it took Hours #i looks at people cranking out a+ doodle posts and im sadly gazing from behind my rain-streaked window a la kermit #except its not rain streaked. i havent seen rain in months i think #absolutely unprompted #oh while im here lemme give a spider update No One asked for #yeah so yesterday the Biggest wolf spider i have Ever seen decided to set up camp in my bathroom. bc of course it did. #i mean that thing was. disturbingly big. freakazoid city. #i had to chase it into the bathtub with my spider-fighting broom #and then i uhhhhhh febreezed it until it couldnt move. #then i washed it down the drain with a high powered jet of shower water #do i feel bad? yes of course. but there was no other way that i could handle. #im assuming that when i go get a Snack right after posting this another spider will be in the hallway or in my bathroom #its summer. unfortunately. there will only be more and more crawling inside #edit: my cat magically Appeared in my room. i stg both of them were out when i closed the door

[larabar]

Pride hcs you say???

My favorites are quoiromantic Amy and Surge (Quoiromantic means you have difficulty differentiating platonic and romantic affection)

I also really really love transfem Silver and her friend he/him girl Blaze 😌

oh these are so good,, you win

i could only do two of them but man i love all of these, tysm for sharing !!!!!

#ough the one for amy and surge.. just like me fr !! #also blaze n silver bring me so much joy your hcs are really really good #!! #asks #doodles #sth #amy was reaching out to surge but theres something about her that makes me physically unable to draw her #i think ive only done it once #so anyway thats why shes not there #OH AND SORRY FOR DISAPPEARING AGAIN it is. summer and im so drained in the summer💥💥💥 #but ill get back into it soon ! hopefully ! #PRIDE HCS WOO!!!!!!

[raposarealm]

Here are the quest victory quotes for Momoe Nagisa (Mizugi ver.)! I took the first screenshot, and credit to @muffinrecord for the second and third screenshots.

Top: Candy-sweet cola will set me free! Middle: One drink and you’ll be hooked! Bottom: I’m not fired up… One more time!

As always, friendly disclaimer that my Japanese isn’t the best, as I’m still learning. If you spot a mistake, please let me know, and I’ll fix it!

#wait is nagiswim the only swimsuit unit this year?? at least as of now #huh #i guess they were trying to rush the puella historia units #i'd rather have puella historia events than swim events but i guess that's just me #and my bitterness about ulala spooking me on amaryllis's banner... 80 rolls down the drain.. ;-; #magia record #quest victory quotes #momoe nagisa #momoe nagisa (mizugi ver.) #summer pop festival #Summer Pop Festival! ～ Nagisa's HOT Summer Break ～ #rapo translates

[robinsversion]

Not me just now remembering that i recently bought and read a manga volume just because James somerton recommended the series in a video

#it’s ‘the summer hikaru died’ btw #hated it #thought it was just down to a difference in taste #but now I’m starting to realize that it was so much different than how James portrayed it #not necessarily the plot or main events but more like the pacing and style #he made it seem more like Heartstopper but horror and with a weird conspiracy side plot #if he had portrayed it right I would not have even thought of buying it #I guess that was what $12 down the drain cuz I chose to trust a guy who turned out to be a plagiarist misogynist hack #welp #hbomberguy #todd in the shadows #james somerton #why are you booing me i’m right

[crybaby-bkg]

I’m writing my first fics for both Miguel and tengen respectively and I am????? so nervous????? I haven’t written anything outside of mha/jjk for so long and it’s scaring me. what if these other people boo me and throw tomatoes at me

#two years ago I wrote everything but bnha for a whole summer bc the fandom was draining for me #and it was SO FREEING #now I am but a mere little hermit crab used to being in the same safe space #especially since the kny fic is about grief and someone made it very clear that they weren’t happy about that idea lol #I wanna finish them tho!!! they’re both started and like 1-1.5k words each #I’m just struggling to get into the groove of writing again + they’re new characters for me!!!! #hopefully my cramps aren’t too bad this week so that I can finish at least one before the semester starts!!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[impishtubist]

The bad news is that tomorrow is the start of summer, the absolute worst season, and also the longest day of the year.

The good news is that, after tomorrow, the days start getting shorter 😎

#cannot WAIT for the sun to set before 6pm again #i would like to be a human who is productive again one of these days #and i can't do that when it's over 70 degrees at night #give me 20 degree nights and 40 degree days and i'm so fucking happy #also i would like it to rain again one of these days #the sun is so fucking draining and depressing #i have reverse SAD #summer makes me want to die #winter gives me the will to live again

[forestofsprites]

there's so much to experience on this ludicrous little planet of ours. it is devastatingly thrilling, absolutely calamitous, fun and stupid and ridiculous and beautiful and awful and loving!!!

#I don't know how I've come to have this bizarre spirit #I'm in a disease relapse within a disease relapse- and I'm exhausted & stressed & frustrated & scared & my body is completely jumbled up!! #it's mid winter and COLD and SNOWY and everything hurts and I'm tired ! I'm drained!!!! #but I saw some little birds huddling against a roof heater today!! and one of the sweet deer twins from the summer! and #in a week or two- I get to start my veggie seeds for spring! and my sweet stupid son (cat) and my sweet stupid old man (also cat) #both came to give me cuddles this morning!! #and I am SO exhausted and I'm so fed-up but I also never want this to end #and it's SUPER confusing & I know I'm never going to understand the nuance of it all- but for all the pain and the trauma and regret and #messiness- I still look forward to spring #I can't wait for snowdrops and crocuses #I can't freaking wait for the swamp to melt and fern sprouts to peep out #and this spring is going to be so different in the wake of the hurricane- so much has changed and I'm still not to terms w/ it!! #my health is crappy!!! ahh! #but spring is a definite #it's coming! and it'll be warm! and green! and the ducks will return! and the baby deer! #and I can sit outside in that warmth and in my tree and BOY #despite it all #despite it all!! #thoughts #no grammar here bc im tired <3

[swaggypsyduck]

Y'all we need to get them some sun asap look how cold they look 😭😭

#i can feel the melanin draining out of achraf my the second #this is making me wish for summer again #even tho im a winter/fall girlie (canadian) #i hate my skin in the winter i look dead #psg #achraf hakimi #sergio ramos

[darlin-djarin]

guys after this semester i will be SO back

#(<- said that they will be 'back' at least 300 times by now) #i'm sorry guys this genocide and the state of the world has drained me so much in the past months #inshallah things will get better by the summer #oil.

[magentagalaxies]

i have so much work to do for finals season which is frustrating bc on the one hand i'm very glad all my classes have project-based finals where i get to be creative instead of just doing an exam or a paper. however. i have a bad habit with every project-based final ever of accidentally getting an idea that's way too ambitious and creating more work for myself than i need to do

however this semester even tho i fell into that exact same trap my two most elaborate final projects each involve 1. editing a video essay which contains an interview i did with paul bellini and at least 45 seconds of it are bellini talking about why he thinks i have great potential as a comedian, and 2. editing a ten minute reel of the documentary footage i got on tour with scott. which of course involves rewatching various videos of me and scott being extremely chaotic together. so i stay winning ig

#my other finals include ''powerpoint presentation detailing the historical significance of mel brooks the producers'' #and ''live sketch show that i actually don't have a significant role in but that's fine i have a different sketch class next semester'' #(this sketch class was technically ''creating characters and solo performances'' and i really wish i could've done more) #(but also that whole interview-footage-debacle drained so much of my creative energy so sometimes doing the bare minimum is self care) #so i don't have a solo piece in the show. but i do get to say my favorite line in the whole show in a group sketch which is great #and i did sign up to perform an aubrey monologue in a sketch show in a suburb of boston next week #which is gonna be super interesting bc i've been looking to do more performing outside of my college #bc i've found that i don't think college kids are actually my target audience??? or at the very least i want to perform to a wider audience #it's frustrating bc for that show i have to trim the monologue down to 3 minutes but it's the tightest monologue i have and it's 5 minutes #so trimming it down feels like a game of jenga since it's so tight lmao #but honestly even if the performance bombs i'm mostly doing this so i can tell bellini about it lmao #he's so supportive of my comedy and he's been such a great help with my aubrey monologues i feel like this is bellini homework lmao #anyway i probably won't post the video essay publicly bc it's not the style of video essays i want to make #and it's too specific to the class it's for #but if people are interested in watching it i'll send you the vid when it's done #and for the tour video i'll probably post that or at least some version of it #bc that's just gonna be a fun teaser of ''here's the level of behind-the-scenes content you'll be getting from this doc!!'' #and also a fun way to be like. audiences don't know me nearly as well as they know scott #but they will definitely know me by the end of this bc there are so many wild interactions i have on camera of me and scott being chaotic #anyway this post was mostly to organize my thoughts of what i still have to do this week #i am so ready to be done with school lmao i'm gonna be spending a full month in toronto this summer #and it's shaping up to be such an exciting time i can't wait

[kosmicfeelings]

I worry this wound will never close and will continue to bleed

#I want to stop hurting so bad but im worried I never will stop hurting because of how much it still hurts and how it leaves me confused. #It’s been a few months and I still cry about it. My heart still aches and breaks when I think about it. #I thought they were someone who wouldn’t hurt me. but I guess I was fooled. I guess they always were that someone. Just hidden #it hurts to know that someone who I thought was a close friend and an ex got “together” in a way. #They aren’t exactly together together but together in a way where they’re kinda fucking #And that’s where it hurts. To know what they’re doing. #that was my closest friend. my actual soulmate I believed. and thats my ex. They got “together” a month later after we broke up. #after talking about it to a few people.. were they attracted to each other even when my ex and I were together? If so.. what was I? #And how could they do this so easily? Or am I just overthinking/overreacting?? I don’t know. I need someone to tell me #I look back when my friend & I were still friends. I think I started to lose them during the beginning of summer last year #I just tried believing I wasn’t and things would fall back into place soon. but they weren’t. #They just said one thing and left. Leaving me alone in the dark. #I don’t know.. I get it in some way? I was in a bad place and probably draining for them to stay but like #Idk.. I guess I can understand why they left me. but why get with someone who I dated and start.. fucking. #im so hurt by this. I’m worried this wound will never close and that I’ll be a wounded dog chained to the tree forever.

[imreaallyasorry]

Late night doodle….

#art #digital art #character design #if you guys were wondering why I don’t yap as much or get on tumblr as much anymore it’s because I only get on super late at night #I’m busy with school and my naps #mutual’s if I reblog your posts with no tags it’s not because I don’t have anything to say it’s because I’m too sleepy to type it out #I’m gonna get back into posting my Loki and Thor art #I don’t wanna post any because it’s just all incomprehensible Thor doodles #I’ll probably render a few and then add Loki there too #or just do a bunch of solo Loki drawings because I love drawing her #my favorite character is Thor!!! proceeds to never draw him #I’ll probably hunt down some of my mutuals ocs and draw them when I have time #I actually don’t have a lot of mutuals with like public ocs #they draw their favorite character #soooooo I’ll have to draw their design of that character #sighhh #it’s so late guys #(it’s like 9 pm) #I usually go to bed at 8 #though I’ve been staying up later for some reason??? #don’t know why but I don’t mind the extra time #still not waking up any earlier though #I should stop waking up 20 minutes before I have to go places… #my bed is so comfy!!! #sighhhhhhhh sometimes self care is doing the hard things #(is kicking and screaming clawing at my mattress) #((I have to go walk my dog)) #unemployed activities #I’m gonna get a job in summer because I am not working on TOP of school #I’m sorry my art commissions I do once every 2 months drain me enough