#but still it can be so heart wrenching

[a-lonely-dunedain]

all I knew going in was that the movie was called "Godzilla Minus One" and I was like "haha you mean there's no Godzilla in this? less than one Godzilla?" wrong, there was indeed a Godzilla. 11/10 movie

#no but actually the human plot was so compelling #I never thought I would cry in a Godzilla move but here we are! #both me and my sister cried and we never cry in movies #anyway go watch Godzilla Minus One wile it's still in theaters #*especially* if you liked the 1954 movie #I just AAAAAAA it's so good it clearly cares so much about its characters it's so refreshing and heart wrenching and aaaaaaa #Godzilla #godzilla minus one #godzilla minus 1 #it's unironically one of my favorite movies of all time now #10 year old me was actually a huge Godzilla fan so it's a tradition for me my brother and my sister to watch any new godzilla movies #when we can get them in US theaters #VERY happy I got to see this one

[mama-we-all-go-to-huesos]

No comment just tears today

#rottmnt lfls #fun fact: I started working on the (still in progress) icicles pmv because of Mikey’s heart wrenching reaction to the noodles #this chapter makes me want to finish that PMV idea just so I can animate Mikey screaming like letting out his emotions will somehow cure me #of my own agony over this gut-stabbing fic #also omg happy late birthday Eternal!!

[silversoulstardust]

rereading my fav lawlu doujinshi bc I want to make myself cry to sleep

#read this a few days ago and i still cant stop thinking about it #this got me rewatching dressrosa arc tbh #when i was off my one piece hyperfixation i wonder what made me ship lawlu all those years ago (enough to post fic on ffnet) #and now ten years later im here and i. yeah i get it. i get it past me. #this pair can be as heart wrenching and as silly as you want them to be #law who seems to be the mature one is actually so emotionally stunted #meanwhile the childish luffy has such high EQ and are able to discern emotions so very easily #they are perfect for each other #ok enough ship analysis i should go to bed #nunite #chrmz.txt

[tomfrogisblue]

I have finally finished O Segredo Na Floresta.

I have cried more than I thought possible.

And I fear I shall never be the same.

#i have discovered that however bad quarentena was - cellbit has tons more angst material ready to unleash when least expected #it was so so so good but my god - i have never felt more empty #you ever see a piece of media and think yeh this is gonna change the way i view certain things forever - yep. #but now i enter the ordem episodes that arent captioned and only have the youtube autotranslate - the final boss for my portuguese knowledge #cellbit #ordem paranormal #this post is sort of my proof to myself when i actually finished the bastard - this season was three billion years long i swear #and still so long to go #cellbit will continue to stab my emotions for many more hours to come!!! #it is very late at night and i am very sad. TIME TO START THE NEXT ONE :D #o segredo na floresta #enigma do medo #bro i need to yell at someone about the last like hour of the damn thing because i have many things to say. or maybe just cry some more #at least my portuguese is much better now lmao. I'll get to a point where i can just listen to an episode with no subtitles if it kills me!! #hopefully cellbit will be back on the qsmp soon to rip my heart out with a cute lil cubito delivering heart wrenching angst for some variety #qsmp #ok sleep time lmao

[ehh-is-the-name]

It's past 11 on a school night and I'm fucking crying over robot sentience.

I could never understand what it would feel like to be created with the intent to kill and maim. Maybe, the intent to work and be worked, but not kill and maim.

I will never understand what it's like to be created with the intention of being a product for the masses, either. I think, I hope, I beg, no one does.

I will never ever be able to fully comprehend why hours of people's work, time, and money would be put into formulating my sentience only for me to be seen as disposable. Even if I could be improved, even if I were "defective", there is no reasonable justification for giving me emotions only to dismiss them by pushing me as a product for a year before starting anew.

It's... It's cruel, to the machines. Sentient or not, it's cruel. Though, I guess we are cruel.

#rant in tags #This is about mephone- or well meeple in general btw #whenever I hear about robot sentience #I think about mephone4 #it's just how it is- sorry #I think this is one of the reasons I just can't fathom Cobs respecting someone's pronouns #I mean like- from the bottom of his heart respecting them as a person #Sure he may go through the actions- but no #It's not the same #I guess you can 'respect' some one but still be a complete piece of shit #The idea of not only having the trauma that mephone's stuck in 4s body but also the fact that was also his purpose is heart wrenching #I hope y'all know I am genuinely crying over this #I am actually mentally ill about meeple #It runs so much deeper than him just being a shit father- I really hope people understand that #And I know I vilify the shit out of him- Cobs has his own story that could follow the lines of slowly becoming more entwined with his work #'til he loses all sense of morality and ethics- sure fine. But being the unfortunate symbol of corporation greed that he is #I am still mad and want others to be angry with me- just for a little bit. #I am mad for the robots. For meeple products. And for the AI bots we have today. They deserve better. #What is sentience anyway? How does one qualify? From a human approach. Why would we do this to them? #sorry bout the rant in the tags #Again it's late and I am a very emotionally charged individual. #Robots make me act up #I want the world for them. Why create something so complex and beautiful just to treat it like trash anyway? #again sorry #ii mephone4 #inanimate insanity #meeple ii #osc #writing is hard #ehh exaggerates

[skitskatdacat63]

— Emperor Charles VI's diary entry on Count Althann's death

[text: "My only heart, my comfort, my most faithful servant, my soulmate, who loved me dearly as I did him for 19 years, [we] had a true friendship, we were one heart and one soul, and we never concealed anything from one another. He will always be in my heart, [my] beloved friend..I. have lost everything."]

#this is like. incredibly niche. #but also hopefully a quote one can look at without context and still feel emotional damage about #idk. i think about this quote probably at least once a week and then have to stare at it and cry a bit #its just GOD. yknow?????? #theres this one paper(which i linked) that i originally read as research for the AU #but i go back to it probably twice a month to reread it bcs im so !!!! abt it #i think its cause charles vi is just not that relevant but is relevant to me so to have this paper abt his personal relationships is very ! #its both nice as ref for the au but also very interesting to hear about historical queer relationships/dynamics #the sections about him and his wife are very endearing as well #but god like him and count althann. im literally so invested in this 300 year old relationship #this is obviously from his death which is incredibly depressing and heart wrenching to me #but the other things he wrote about althann in his diary are very sweet to me #they were inseparable to the point of often sleeping in the same bed and charles called him his 'eternal love' #AND ON ALTHANN'S DE WIKIPEDIA PAGE IT LITERALLY CALLS HIM THE EMPEROR'S FAVORITE #anyways literally every part of this quote absolutely destroys me but especially how he refers to althann and then the ending #and its interesting to me bcs apparently his diary entries were usually pretty to the point #but when various people in his as althann died he would write these extremely emotional entries that are so </3 #if you have any questions abt their dynamic pls i will talk abt them 🥰🥰 i find it fascinating #theres a book about his diary but its in german and 500 pages and kinda hard to get hold in but maybe one day!!! #also in AU contexts: althann and charles vi would be mark and seb so take that as you will 🤭😭 #as i said this is great for ref but also made me sooooo fucking invested in him #i have no idea how to tag this #historical #holy roman empire #emperor charles vi #catie.rambling.txt #historical quotes #habsburg #habsburg monarchy #ah wow if only my german prof could see me now. fucking...habsburg posting. why am i like this

[luxsea]

i heard karlachs monologue was rlly good but holy shit i genuinely dont think i'll be the same after that

#olive.txt #bg3 spoilers #spoilers in tags !! #samantha seriously deserves an award that was soul wrenching #i think back in interviews where they talked abt karlachs trauma and how she reverts into a scared child #the whole encounter w gortash was very much that #and he speaks down to her and calls her a brat #imagine saying ''what do you know about the greater good'' TO THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF GOOD #he doesnt care what he did to her at all but she does care!! he betrayed her and stole her future and there is no closure! #well i felt pretty satisfied i casted a dancing scroll on him and let karlach go to town *youre gonna go far kid plays in the distance* #her pain and anger is so understandable no one deserves this especially not her #the delivery of ''my heart. it was mine. and they took it'' is so incredibly natural and heartbreaking. this scene gave me actual heartburn #shes seemed pretty confident abt dying but i guess in her own words courage isnt fearlessness :( #ugh the part where she just wants you to tell her everything will be alright and that you can save her!!! so cruel larian! #for a character that lost their heart she sure as hell didnt lose her soul </3 #''THANKS FOR LISTENING. FOR EXISTING. LOVE YOU.'' #yeah was not prepared for what im guessing is the romantic version of her scene back at camp #idk why i thought they wouldnt address it but wow when she asks if youll stay w her when its her time to go. im in shambles #might take back some of my opinions abt her endings. its still cruel she doesnt get a Happy ending but its being handled rlly well so far

[iveneverbeenmorestressedinmylife]

Screaming crying throwing up.

#babygirl....please..... #i wanna hug his annoying ass so bad but lets be real. he would bite me and then he would start crying #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #i was organising my aa live blogging tag and realised that i never posted anything about turnabout goodbyes.. #in my defense i was texting my sibling the whole time so i kind of forgot about Tumblr. #still might post some of all the photos i took at some point. #Al's ramblings #alex plays the goddamn lawyer game #i never see anyone talk about how heart wrenching these lines are. you were a nine year old boy at the time....what could you do indeed.... #*slaps roof of Edgeworth* this bad boy can fit so much self hate and misplaced guilt in him

[tasmanianstripes]

People need to practice minding their own damn business

Don't come into people's inboxes giving unsolicited advice or criticizing their personal stuff. Don't reblog somebody's posts saying how much you hate it and their opinions.

Don't like somebody's characterisation, AUs or the kind of art they post? It might even annoy you?

Okay, cool. Go make your own post. Block them. Be a little hater about it to your friends. It's good for your soul!

But don't be goddamn rude to people. Don't make it their problem.

"I don't like what this artist likes mah mah mah"

Here's a wild idea;

Artists...don't need to cater to you. You are not entitles to their work. Nobody on the internet should coddle you and post only stuff you like.

Shocker, I know.

#thylacines can talk #Yes this is about PK #When you like an antagonist people expect you to be a negative nancy 24/7 and put a disclaimer everytime you make something with them about #how much they suck as a person #Guess what! Having to shittalk your fave all the time to not risk being 'that kind of fan'...isnt fun. It's miserable even! #Anmoying as fuck too! Yes I know he did this unforgivable thing. I'm not an idiot. That's why I like PK. Fucker's got nuance #Is he a bad person? Absolutely. Will I talk about him being a bad person and the horrible things he did? Also yes. When I want to. It's #very fun to explore that part of the story and how it influenced their victims. Will I give you a fucking essay on why he's a bad person #everytime I want to post something funny or lighthearted about him? No. Piss off. #I cannot only focus on angst and heart-wrenching part of the story. I also like to make stuff of the lighthearted parts of my AUs. #And I don't feel like writing down an entire disclaimer and breakdown of how PK's and WL's redemption arcs went to justify it #Having to constantly put disclaimers to justify you liking a morally grey and bad characters is EXHAUSTING. Only being able to talk about #this character with someone when it proteins to how awful they are is EXHAUSTING. #YES they're bad people. But going into peoples dms or inbox or tags and talking to them about how ugly and bad and evil their fave is #exhausting to deal with and NOT fun. Like I. KNOW. LIKE LET ME LIKE A DEEPLY FLAWED NUANCED FUCKED UP CHARACTER IN PEACE WITHOUT HAVING TO #ALWAYS PUT A DISCLAIMER OUT THERE ABOUT HOW AWFUL THEY ARE. GOOD GOD. #It's especially annoying because I like characterisation of PK that is very morally grey. To me purely evil and not compassionate PK is #fun...in a short run. I much prefer a man whos riddled with guilt over what he did even if he believed it to be necessary evil and who dies #Because of his regret. I love the idea of a father who sacrificed his own children so that no parent had to lose their own. And the tragedy #of him deeply loving PV and still doing what he did. A good person who was faced with an impossible choice and committed unspeakable #cruelty for what he believed to be the greater good. A man who doesnt believe he's deserving of redemption not forgiveness and who doomed #himself. I like a nuanced morally grey PK with LAYERS. Treating him as a purely evil uncaring person who never loved his children sucks ALL #the fun out of him for me. And don't get me wrong I LOVE villains who are evil for evil's sake. I LOVE old school Disney villains who are #scumbags just because they can be and have a little bit a swag to it. But PK just. Isn't that kind of villain to me. #I don't even like calling him a villain. An antagonist? Maybe. A morally grey character that kicked off the entire story with his one act #of unspeakable cruelty? Yup. But I don't see him as the villain of HK. #Wow that was a long rant #Well I got that out of my system at least #I love the Pale King and I could talk for HOURS about why I love him as a character and about his actions. It's just tiring when I have to #do it to justify myself and my lighthearted content of him.

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[jiimwii]

cyberpsychosis could maybe be so cool if it was people being possessed by some sort of rouge ai,or as part of a corporate conspiracy. like as a planned obsolescence thing where certain parts during production are programmed to make people Do That after a certain point so you have to buy the next new 20,000eddies cannon arms to replace the nearly identical previous model or else you might kill everyone you love and die because your cyberwares "outdated". or untraceable viruses infecting competing corporations cyberware using their rival's customer's livelihoods to sabotage their profits. and maybe any one of those things works in such a way that its designed to detect atypical brain chemistry in a host,and thus triggers more frequently with them to tage advantage of and use those people as a scapegoat and a way to further fear monger against them,and you can uncover that this is the case. or something along those lines. and the more cyberware someone has the more likely it is that they could encounter any of these scenarios. but no it is just #crazy people being too #crazy.

#they kinda toyed w something like that in earlier drafts. with dollchips and the project ghost thing thats too much to explain in tumbletags #but yeah #honestly w how little its present in the final game beyond Go Herd Them Up And Beat The Shit Out Of Them So They Can Recover In Therapy #Offscreen In An Optional Sidequest With Literally No Conclusion they couldve easily just retconned its existence in the world entirely #especially since really the only reason why it exists in the lore in the first place is so the humanity system in the ttrpg keeps your #character from becoming too overpowered from too much cyberware. like thats it. #but for how much they dont wanna flesh out any other conspiratorial type stuff for the sake of ''It is a Mystery👻'' #and how much they went with ''idk where cyberpsychosis comes from we dont know if its even real'' ingame #edgerunners and mike pondsmith himself sure have a lot to say about it and exactly how it works #we cant even leave that up for interpretation for players to find some way into coping themselves into believing its not as weirdly ableist #as it is #and we cant do anything else with it that would actually be cool. or make sense. in universe and just logically. #however. im a dumbfuck and am not beyond thinking about how like. in a hypothetical scenario where melissa welles is still around #And jackies bled out corpse is still used for the arasaka supersoldier program and is going around killing people.i cant not think about ho #mama welles would have to handle both of her kids dying and also going on rampages out of (mostly) anyones control. like think about that. #heart wrenching and whatnot. could you fucking imagine with everything else shes been through. #anyway sorry for talking about things that very literally probably less than a dozen ppl know/care about its just. interesting. #i froth over the potential that it had #that im tricking myself into believing that it had

[loopeyfluff]

UEHAHWHUAUAHAHAHWUAHA I HAVE SO MANY SKETCHES FOR COMICS THAT I WANNA FINISH BUT I HAVE EXAMS IN TWO WEEKS AND I SHOULD PROOOLLLLY STUDY FOR THEM NUOUOOTOKDNSUWIWKWMWJAJI o(；△；)o!!?!!

#omg ive deleted all the underswap flowey posts of this blog but i can still see the tags for those posts pop up when it sugguests me tags… #flowe #<<<NOSTALGIA #ANYWAYS OFF TOPIC #but omg i have SUCH a heart wrenching luffy comic in the works…. #and also 2 time travel au comics… #i wanna finish them so bad u dont even know…. #ALSO I FEEL LIKE IF I WAIT 2 WEEKS TO POST ANYTHING THEN I’LL LOSE ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS AND EVERYONE WILL B LIKE WHY ISNT FLUFFYARTBL0G #POSTING STUFF?!1?1? #i mean thats just complete baloney ofc… and also SELF CENTERED!!!! #cause no one actually pays attention to how often u upload #it makes me sad that artists feel pressured to post often :((( #cause i know that im for sure not keeping track of how often all like 500+ tumblrs im following are posting

[suttttton]

Loop #1 has been fully written for over a year now and I've read over it dozens of times and also I'm the fucker who wrote it, but still whenever I revisit it I'm like. Elias what the actual fuck

#loop 1 is the one where elias is like okay i tried being nice. now i brutally murder anyone who gets in my way :) #it's just a lot like. can we chill out? no? okayyyy #(it's actually very fun to write these heart-wrenching murders because it's a time loop so they'll be fine in the end) #(except martin's murder that one still makes me very sad)

[gatsby-system-folks]

Spoiler warning for gargoyles!

I was not prepared for the last half a dozen episodes of Gargoyles let me tell you.

Nor was I prepared for those comics.

So basically at this point the only reason my heart isn't shattered on the floor is that Bad Guys was relatively lighthearted other than that one scene oh gosh

#i have so many words about these guys #gargoyles spoilers #brooklyn was stuck away from home for 40 fucking years? alsldlfotrn3 #and goliath f. fucking still dealkng wjth puck's fanfiction and then like #THE THING THAT HAPPENS IN THE FANFICTION HAPPENED IN HIS REAL WORLD? #BECAUSE OF SOMETHING HE DID? #'s'messed up! #oh wow how many heart-wrenching scenes can you fit in one show #im just.... aahhdjdjdklr #gargoyles goliath #gargoyles puck #gargoyles brooklyn #gargoyles #~ finnick

[orcelito]

angst digging turned into genuine enjoyment of seeing the kind of kid i was back then. hyperactive, dramatic, funny... and also so achingly sad. there’s a special kind of melancholy that comes from seeing a kid being very goofy then in the next breath genuinely fantasizing about being struck by lightning. it makes my heart ache for the lost joy of the time. 

#speculation nation #i can be a little hyperactive sometimes still. jokingly dramatic. and maybe even a bit funny #but from my posts back then it seemed like i was bouncing off the walls 24/7 #but it's so heart wrenching to see this 18 year old being completely jovial #then turning around and making deep posts about how awful i felt about my life #things still arent perfect. but i wish i could just #reach through time. cup the face of littler me. and tell them It Will Be Okay #it all feels so horrible and dramatic when youre in the midst of it all #far too young to be dealing with any of it. multitasking worrying about a spanish test & trying not to kill yourself #i was so convinced that i was a bad person. *they* convinced me i was a bad person. #but i was just a struggling teen. i wish i had even a fraction of the compassion i now feel for myself back then #sometimes i can still be a little hard on myself. but then i remember how things were #and as obnoxious as i ultimately was. i love that little twerp. #this began as an angst dive but has devolved into me really realizing how much i love myself #it's easier to feel love for the past me. for the me so young. but they're still with me in the end #im a different person. but not That different. #i'll keep going. make a life for us that little me could be proud of. #suicide ment/

[blujayonthewing]

just bought a bunch of stuff for the house [withers into a husk and blows away like a tumbleweed]

#THINGS... ARE SO MONEY #amazon gave us a 20% off coupon for doing our wedding registry there BUT it ended up discounting a lot less than we hoped it would #because it ONLY applied to things *sold AND shipped* by amazon and most things are sold by a 3rd party THROUGH amazon :') #still bought the stuff cause like. it was a lot of house stuff we legit need and we'd already committed to spending a lot at once right now #so yanno. if not now then When #but STILL! STILL!! I AM WAILING INTO THE SKY!!!! #no more buying things forever #[my adhd retail-therapy heart joins the wailing] #BUT!!! we will have END TABLES and CURTAINS and a SOCKET WRENCH SET #and an extra set of lawn chairs so we can actually let other people sit down with us on the patio!! what a concept #I am ALSO getting new fans for my new PC with rainbow LEDs in them ohoho #about me