#but really it depends what im doing

[tittyblade]

okay ive been thinking.

rb with your answer + what your interpretation of barbie/ken is

#mcyt #technoblade #OKAY this is really dumb but bear with me DBJSBDJ #(dont read my og tags before u vote i want to hear ur own interpretation!!) #to me a ken is like a himbo. just living his best life unbothwred #and barbie 100% knows what she wants and how to get it shes a capital g Girlboss okay #SO IM THINKING. techno’s obviously a barbie have you ever watched any of his videos #BUT AT THE SAME TIME. being a barbie all the time would be so exhausting youve got sm shit to do #so in conclusion i say. hes a ken that can be a barbie whenever he wants. will he be tho? who knows #depends on the weather or wether he took his adhd meds that day

[kabutoden]

bug trolls… i am interested in kankri vantas. if that isn’t too much trouble. your buggy guys are so silly and interesting and i am a fan

here is kankri and his baby brother…. they don’t get along!! i wish they did though id love to see these two go on an adventure together where they look out each other. since kankri is a beforus troll and a vegan, his shell is pretty thin because he’s not getting enough iron. on the other hand, karkat’s shell is heavier then it should be due to stress. thanks for the RQ!! im soooo glad ppl like my sillies :D

#kankris picking up karkat because karkat said fuck you im going to come over there and cram my scythe down your ignorance shaft #kankri said no you arnt. you’re not going to do that. im not letting you do that. #karkat vantas #kankri vantas #homestuck #trolls #buggy trolls #want to see these 2 depending on each other to survive in alternia. i think it would be very hard for them to do #but i think they could grow and develop in interesting ways if they got to be brothers who fight #enrichment in the isopod tank #redbloods #these two are natural drama that’s engaging story!! ive never really read a fic i liked that rlly got into their companionship as brothers #like there’s quite a few abt dirk and dave as brothers #most fics that have both of them focus more on their bonds with the sufferer #if anyone has a recommendation I’d love to hear it #give them crabdad no sufferer make them struggle in this cruel world. highly protective kankri grumpy wrathful karkat #they can’t stand each other but also rely on each other. redblood moment #given that isopods are comparatively social and good natured to many of the other troll buggy species I’ve picked out #that’s what I’m SAYIN #^silly #ok bye

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

today i learned there is a patreon (free) that has audio files without the filter applied

so i downloaded 1 just to test and compare to see if im doing the filter right-ish... and yes i am.

its just that it never sounds right cause the clips from the stream already have a filter applied + are lower quality + I dont do the bitcrush effect (which makes it low quality on purpose) turns out that effect was a lot more important to the sound than i thought. but im still not doin all that lol

ANYWAY. you can ignore my yapping and listen to this bit from the community memes 2 vid that was cut. 3 also has cut audio but you can go find it yourself teehee

#if you want to hear it without the filter just go to the patreon and search ultrakill #the filter from this clip was me adding it as a test #which helped me narrow down the exact number to delay the echo audio by #but after months of doing it i already knew what it was lol (its .25 to .55 depending on the audio) #i was just trying to see if i could fix the filter and i cant really #cause the audio from the stream isnt 'clean' #not that anyone but me prob cares im just crazy i know #rambling post i suppose

[anemonet]

what if we just got really weird about iterator wires ok (wip im totally gonna finnish tomorrow)

#i just think it could be funky hairstyles actully #five pebbles #rain world #in case ive strayed to far from the actaul desigs ahem #anyhow felt like posting something unfinnished #this possessed me and woildnt let me go so like yippe i guess #anyhpw anyhow one day i will settle on an iterator designs #for now it will just change depending on what type of art im doing #anyho snyhopw #song oofff the daaayy uuhhhhh well ive been listning to spring awakening latley #still really good so i guess mamma who bore me?

[dreamsy990]

on the first day of school one time one of my teachers was asking the class to share all their opinions as like a get to know each other thing and one was 'is cheating okay' and apparently my opinion on this. did not align with almost anyone else (that couldve just been because they didnt want to admit it in class) so i am asking the people. to be clear when i say grade school i mean from grades 1-12. This is NOT about anything past that.

#personally! yes i do think it is okay to cheat!!!! #im fine with admitting ive cheated before #i think everyone has at some point #dont get me wrong i think school is important #obviously learn the material know what youre doing etc etc #but i think the actual class is way more important than test grades #i think my latin teacher has the right idea honestly #he completely cut out test grades from his class. he doesnt give tests he doesnt really give homework #your grade depends entirely on the amount of effort you put in #its learning for the sake of learning instead of memorizing things for a test #and i have learned just about as much latin from 2 months of classes with that teacher as i did in the couple years of spanish i took #i think the way tests in schools work is fundamentally flawed honestly. it works in theory but thats about it #okay im gonna stop now but. im curious!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

for some reason im really feeling the Queer Euphoria in this chilis tonight, specifically: being so ambiguous its hilarious. there is No label to describe my orientation/gender. like yeah i use nonbinary bc technically it fits but also bc the flag Fucks. if asked, my only correct answer would be "Wildcard, Motherfucker!"

#both change on a daily basis #gender depends on vibes. weather. A Cool Art Piece I Saw On Tumblr. a dream i had the night prior. what im doing at the moment. song playin #i use & prefer they/them but really anything is free game For The Bit. i am willing to play pretend and try on different hats! #orientation depends on who im looking at in the moment. like i consistently surprise myself with who i do/dont find attractive #it also happens.... less than id expect. but when it does happen its a very strong Ohhhhhh. Ohoho Hi Heyyyy<3 moment #BUT OH ITS SO FUN TO BE UNLABELABLE #thats not a word! except yes it is! #i take the boxes people try to put me in. i make a sickass fort outta them & add blankets and pillows & paint #there is a drawbridge and a moat. and origami dragons! #its so so fun #but also very annoying on the rare occasion im asked what i am #like! fuck if i know! this is my first time being alive! its none of my business! i have bigger omelets to burn! #its like.... #'are you gay' yes but also no 'are you a lesbian' yes but also no 'are you bi' yes but also no 'are you-' Yes But Also No. #again: wildcard. #absolutely unprompted #its like... oh man if i wasnt so squeamish about syringes i could make my gender Soooo Me <3 #bc i want a deeper voice but i like my body how it is. mostly. its literally just my voice that i dont like #& facial hair would be nice but also do i want to deal with the hassle that is shaving. no i do not <3 #still i cherish the two hairs i have on my chin. theyre so neat #i wish skirts were comfortable. i need a better eyeliner pen. i need more tank tops and a good binder. i want to confuse people #and then like... women with deep voices and men who're all dolled up and ambiguous folks who are so visibly queer- #there is so much to love everywhere and i do not care for the generally excepted/used fences people keep putting up #im ripping up their signs and kicking over the fences. Let Us Roam Free Range #shoutout to all my fellow Idk What The Fuck I Am And I Like It That Way homies. we're so funky #and you're So fucking valid. you don't need a label and you don't need a description. you are so so so awesome and rad as hell

[mystmesstolemysoul]

Am I the only one who feels like on every single route Seven becomes like my best friend?

Like. He's making me laugh. He's offering me advice. He's hyping me up and supporting my decisions. He just wishes the best for me and wants me to be happy.

Like. Wtf am I supposed to do with that??

#no matter what route i go for seven always feels really important #maybe my simp is showing #but like #hes always just. there. #helpful. dependable. caring. #im convinced this man would do anything for me no matter who i was trying to seduce #he'd die for me but i really dont want him too #ughhhh #i am unwell #mystic messenger #mysme #saeyoung choi #707 #mystic messenger 707 #mysme 707

[dennisboobs]

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#absolutely do not want to argue because i get where the post is coming from with but im gonna give some thots #re: dennis autism!!!! ok!!!!! #ive talked about it before but there is WAY more to him being autistic than just the buzzer noises. when i first watched that i was like #is THIS really why people hc him as autistic. :/ and i get it! i do! i think he has misophonia inherited from glenn personally #its actually why i captioned the noise sensitive den gifsets as that rather than just. autism. #but personally i see his scripted social interactions and i go. yeah. me. me fuckin too. #and his outbursts. which are VERY personally relatable to me #i have uh. basically the same triggers? very similar triggers at least #i think dennis' neurodivergency presents itself differently because of his upbringing and thats why a lot of ppl go ???? when you say. #'yea i think den's autistic actually' #and like i said i was absolutely like. what the hell are people talking about. he's not autistic #but uh. on rewatches? hm. #dennis quite literally masks almost 24/7 #charlie has no qualms about being perceived as like. weird. but dennis masks SO hard. SSSSSSOOOOO hard #i once saw a post like. charlie has boy autism and dennis has girl autism which honestly fucking hate that but its... kiiiind of true #ASD presents itself differently in adults depending on early social conditioning #mac fights gay marriage. group dates. new wheels. dee day. celebrity booze. all the big ones. all the hits. #look how he acts when he goes off script and is forced to speak off the cuff #the way glenn describes him as being very emotional but unable to adequately express his emotions too like. yeah. same. #theres so much more than the noise sensitivity #i could go on and on about how many fucking boxes he ticks but i honestly hate that shit. i know how autism works and that bitch is autisti #im going to refrain from commenting on the reasons why i feel charlie is more acceptably hced as autistic vs dennis because mmmmm but #dennis being 'hypersexual' (not about the sex. at all) and socially adept (has scripts/systems. charlie is more emotionally intelligent) #smells a lil stinky. smells a little bit like infantilization on charlie's part. #ada speaks #ok ill spare you guys. someday ill write a proper meta on this. ive talked about it before but.

[orcelito]

Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.

Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.

Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.

It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...

This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.

I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so... #jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader. #because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly. #and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up. #it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out. #the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed. #but thats how it goes with any art piece i think #the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it #they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider. #is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad? #is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day? #that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own. #but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it. #it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person. #i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down. #puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world. #and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session #it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet #no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic. #(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol) #& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much #i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast. #even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it. #I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me. #i... really do love my fic y'all

[1tsjusty0u]

wow this has such majoras mask vibes! (guy who is currently playing majoras mask)

#this is about botw (an au for it) #just. if you take it as ganon hurting everyone else like hes been hurt (being trapped under tbe castle forgotten for ages and ages with nob #ody but himself and the people who trapped him directly above him. also corrupting the sheikah tech used against him (thats a stretch consi #dering the only way he was able to do that was that the king 10000 years ago was awful and buried the tech UNDER THE CASTLE while chasing t #he sheikah out)) + the eye motifs? (majoras eyes being indicators for bosses weak points and ganons malicw eyes) it just. huh #though in botw link doesnt really. well he sort of calls out to people (the champions which could be interesting for character arcs) but ot #herwise its kind of just. three people having a 2 v 1 in a ruined world that just ended up hurtinf all of them #literally nobody can turn back to what they had. not ganon in the past. not link (though i Do have feelings about pre cal link but thats al #l hcs so im not putting that here). and not zelda #and not the champions either (though the only ones grief we really see is miphas. maybe revali?) #its just. literally everything Is There Still. #the guardians. the older ruins like the forgotten temple. the great plateau #on one hand i see the destruction of the castle/monarchy great and will lead to good. but also People Died #deya village. the tabantha village. the characters couldve seen the time before the calamity as Great (even if it wasnt? it all depends! bu #t nostalgia and all that) #so. yeah. #i dunno what the thesis is here i just think its neat #also that one image i can stretch botws theme as much as i can concieve #this also gives me a fic idea. however i feel like i would be doing characters dirty in it

[deermook]

House is bpd coded i will not be elaborating v

#i WILL be elaborating actually I like to lie #just like. the way that the second he senses abandonment its like a switch flips in him #like ok. cuddy is going to abandon me time to display genuinely concerning behavior #in an attempt to eother drive her away or gove her no choice but to stay out of worry for what he’ll do #unstable relationships marked by dependence and manipulation #relationships few and far between but very intense^ #extreme defense mechanisms to stop from being hurt by extreme tides of feelings #(acting like an asshole and never letting anybody in ever at any time) #dangerous reckless or sexually promiscuous behavior #drug addiction is also common in ppl with bpd but i donnt know if that one actually counts coz u know. his leg #idk hes like. textbook to me maybe im reading too luch into it coz im bpd amd i love house #house can have a little autism/bpd combination as a treat #ugh it really is hatecrimes MD 💔 god hates him #greg house #house md

[pepprs]

ok. moving out update. today i:

talked to my beloved ex supervisor / mentor (<- SCARY!!!!!) to ask her about her experiences living by herself esp as a short woman (which is not a big deal except for how it is + how my parents think it is) and get her advice abt how to navigate that experience psychologically and practically. i asked her if we could talk abt this very impulsively on thursday after not having the courage to do it for almost a year btw (<- BRAVE!!!!!!!!) and i was still too scared / embarrassed to ask her some stuff abt safety / self defense lol but it mostly went really well!

started making a budget and determined that a) i may be getting overpaid somehow (😳) b) i may be getting double or even triple charged for my health and life insurance (😒) so now i need to call hr on monday and figure all of that out. and also c) i suck at math but we knew that. but i forced myself to figure out what i did wrong so that’s an achievement

made my first ever student loan payment 😀🔫

booked a tour of one apartment and attempted to book a tour of another (the same place i was looking at in may) but their website was glitching out and then they didn’t answer when i called to schedule it over the phone which. hm. 😒 but yeah the tour(s) will happen mid week next week and im going to ride the shuttle to the apartment complex(es) and back to campus to see what that’s like too!

posted on local subr*ddit asking for recommendations for those two apartments + other places in the area. haven’t gotten anything back bc i just made the post but 😎👍

read a bunch of old journal entries from 2021 to remind myself of what it was like to move onto campus and how i pushed through my family’s hurt and disapproval to live the way i needed to. haven’t finished reading it all yet but i will tomorrow (while also doing my stupid homework 🙄)

#purrs #i really hope im not being overpaid lol. because if i am being overpaid that means i can’t afford to move out 😍 but my paystubs #are saying thats how much im making every week and it is… significantly more then im supposed to be making which is absolutely not a bad #thing i just don’t understand why it’s happening + want to make sure it’s supposed to be happening so that i don’t depend on an error that #would devastate me when remedied yk. but yeah. also i haven’t factored car stuff into any of this yet sooooo erm. we’ll see what happens #anyways uhm this is kind of crazy like. i am really making a concerted effort to try to move out. SOON. and my family doesn’t know. #chuckles im in danger but also….. tess pepprs epic girlboss redemption arc i think. i am doing big scary things and i can do them. fuck yeah #like. i don’t have to live like this anymore. i can change it TODAY. i have that power. i have done my time. i’m ready to fly and no one can #stop me. i will not be held back anymore. i’m going to live the life of my wildest dreams and i’m on the brink of beginning it.

[mikkokomori]

Why do you call yourself sunny?

It feels more comfortable........... I'm not sure why............

#i do still go by the other name but it really depends on what i feel like being called at the moment #sunny though is the name ive felt most comfortable with as of late though #plus its more so....irl things..? im not sure... #i dont know how anything works so ehm ehe... #powercoreact asks #sunny talks

[skitskatdacat63]

Please god, can someone give me the strength to write ANOTHER 900 word essay in German, I DON'T WANNA I DONT WANNA PLEASE NO

#disliking this course more than i thought i would #oh yes german linguistics!!! okay!!! sure i love that!!! #and then my grade is dependent on literally only writing assignments #i actually want to die. this brings me soooooooo much fucking pain #i just really despise the whole idea of it #you put a bunch of people in one class with differing skill level #and then make them all write 900 word essays in a language theyre not 100% on yet #and the content is soooo much just him rambling in class IN GERMAN ! #and not all of it is on the slides so fuck if i remember #and even if i did remember its so much me trying to focus on catching what hes saying than actually absorbing it #and the topic even if i was writing in english would make me struggle #and you guys know!! im great at rambling!! BUT NOT AUF DEUTSCH #and then. when you finally finish slaving over this fucking disaster of a paper #you submit it. and his only comment is just: sehr gur gemacht. #yeah why the fuck would i feel the need to burn myself like this + #only to get feedback that feels like he only looked at the word count and nothing else #like not even going to correct my grammer or???? what am i learning other than writing the same kind of bs sentences over and over #i despise word count essays btw #youre not really writing for quality youre writing for quantity #bcs if the only real outline you get is that you hit the word count then why do i give any shit about the quality of it #like i submitted a paper for my other class and she gave like 100+ edits on it #not only comments but also grammer correction #and like????? why do i not get that from the class that is teaching me a foreign fucking language #yeah sure its not bad to correct the grammar of your first language but cmon my god please help me a bit or smth #but yeah its due on Wednesday and i just think im going to fucking die before then #choking on my stress tears or smth #as i said it would be fine if it felt like he was actually checking them in depth #but i hate assignments where im only doing it for the grade. like i actually want to uhhh learn yknow??????? #but yes i need someone to cheerlead me on or smth bcs itll take so much resolve to not just give up #and i wont give up bcs i want to keep my gpa but thats exactly thr issue isnt it? that i dont care about the content?

[tricks-n-illusions]

@guardians-of-dreams Malachi@Silas The Jirachi looked at the Zorvul a slight concern on his face, “You look a bit hurt, I don’t mind giving you a bit of a heal pulse, but I’m not going to do it without permission,” he offered, “I don’t want to overstep any boundaries…” while he definitely seemed nice, but he also seemed a bit cautious

Silas quietly stared at the blood, he seemed... almost Indifferent to the fact he was injured, as if he didn't notice it in the first place. He showed no surprise, only taking a moment to recompose himself before he began his act once again.

The Zoroark grumbled dramatically, shaking the blood away. "Well, at least someone respects me around here. Congrats on being the only person on this stupid planet to care about "boundaries" with me. So, you want some kind of fuckin' reward? Brownie points perhaps? My undying gratitude? What will it be? Hm?" He scoffed. "Besides."

Silas's tone was uncaring, however, his gaze was nervously trained on the Jirachi, almost if he was scared they were going to be put off by his remarks. His words clearly did not match his wants at the moment. He gave some unintelligible spiel about pitying him before he let out an annoyed huff.

Silas sure as hell wasn't the type of person to openly admit when he wanted help, and it didn't look like that was going to change anytime soon. The best he could do was make a backhanded remark about it and hope the person he was talking to took his vague hint. Though this was likely the vaguest hint known to man sprinkled in with a side of unwanted attitude.

For a moment a sort of sadness return to his expression once he realized the position he was potentially putting himself in.

Though it didn't last long as his attitude came back in full force. Of course he had to bring in the dramatics eventually, this was Silas after all. It wouldn't be him without a side of drama.

"Put myself in a hole! Might as well make it my home at this point!" His tone was cheerful and fake. "Oh, Just wait yet, this is my redemption arc now! I repent for my unforgivable sins. All that murder? All those deaths? It was just a ruse for my pain and heartache. Obviously." For some reason there was a disgusting truth to his word. "Why don't I just do it in full force? Hm? Spill my guts."

"Oh, I can't wait to be loved and adored by the masses. Maybe North will finally fulfil her life goals and save me from my dark ways! Return me to that disgusting loving and stupid little fox I was!" "Always ready to please at a whim. Trying to make everyone love him in hopes of just a measly scrap of positive attention!"

"I'm not a fuckin' moron anymore." He huffed, "I actually grew a spine and decided to stop being everyone's cute little lapdog." His rant seemed to finally end as he gave a sigh, "As if you'd actually want to help me of your own free will. Doubt it. People ain't nice in this life. They just want something from me every single fuckin' time. You're probably that type of deity that's thinks I'm indebted to them for a merciful glance my way. Hm?"

→ Silas seems skeptical about Malachi's offer, though he's not denying it by any means. It's best to be careful with your words if your determined to continue.

[ Ask from @guardians-of-dreams ]

#tni: chrono #tni: silas rune #Silas goes on a tangent live #we got a little lurker in the background 😎 maybe someone should say something about that /hint hint #gosh im so happy to be posting here again I have so much fun with this blog I have more but depending on how this goes #that will determine what I get to do next heheh #i apologise for this blog getting word heavy alot 😅 #i really enjoy writing silas content hes such a breath of fresh air from my normal stuff #tni: calamity #TNI: Seance Mentions #Chapter 1: The Introduction

[crimeronan]

i'm always a polyshipper before anything else bc my own found/created family is a polycule & i base all my (healthy) written relationships off various irl dynamics of mine. i'm genuinely curious how opinions of my fave toh polyship skew amongst people here. answers to this poll will not change the way i post about them or how annoying i am about them though.

#please do not ask questions about whether the ship is hashtag problematic they are very very very tiring as a polyamorous person. #hunter and amity are typically metamours or qprs within this polycule; #hunter and luz can be either qprs or romantic depending on the author/artist; #them being romantic is not incest because they are not related did not grow up together and do not share a guardian. #ok questions Unrelated to these three things might be fine. i just know what the kneejerk discourse is and it is. So So So So So Tiring. #did my time in another fandom with a polycule involving a gay man and a woman as metamours and u would not BELIEVE #the level of viciousness hate discrimination and straight-up evil bigotry. i just Really Dont Wanna Do It For This Fandom #now that that soapbox is over. THEY #CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THEM. IM DYING TO TALK ABOUT THEM I WANNA TALK ABOHT THEM ALL THE TIME #toh #lavender winter