#but maybe it'll get me to draw again

[zialinart]

My submission for the fan book for Black sails tenth yeah anniversary

Thank you so much @tobys-walrus-crew for organising this ! Can't wait to see the book !! Also thank you @myfavoritespotonthecitadel for doing the text

#black sails #toby stephens #captain flint #james flint #captain james flint #black sails fanart #no but seriously i'm so glad to have done this because i'm so behind at art right now #i've done two things in 6 months #depression is shit #but maybe it'll get me to draw again #a little #things

[ipxakachi]

Guilty Challenge but he also got stuck

#haha radio silence only to come back with Genshin oop #Hi I love Itto #He's rly rly fun to draw and im mad at myself for not drawing enough of him #I've been going through months of burnout and demotivation when it's come to art due to various things happening in life #only now am I feeling the desire to draw again #idk or maybe it's also coping with my last sem of school lol #Anyway I wanna draw things tht interest me again #It'll be nice to get back into the ease of uploading too...but man social media's daunting and tiring hghfgf #man does drawing Itto's canon body bnring me joy #his canon body that clearly not been nuked in game #canon buff idiot that's canon to me and you cant tell me otherwise #im not in denial shut #genshin impact #arataki itto #guilty challenge #redraw #10 points and a head pat to those who know where the 2nd pose comes from #taemin guilty

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since. #debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me. #bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?' #also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see. #and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has! #xangoeswah

[sysig]

Bucket Bucket Bucket ♥ (Patreon)

I literally gasped, my original Bucket <3 <3 It was all worth it

#Doodles #The Stanley Parable #TSP #Technically a spoiler under the cut but it's a drawing of an optional route so lol #I assume double optional! Gosh this game's beautiful event-flag system <3 <3 <3 #Me when the Stanley Parable: ❤️💖💕💗💞❤️ #Anyway! To the Very Important New Character! Lol #It's very funny to me since I knew there Was a Bucket in Ultra Deluxe but I really didn't know anything else about them #And now here I am anthropomorphizing them so much! I was just like ''Ah. Bucket'' and now it's like ''BUCKET!! YES!!'' lol #I understand the hype now #Although now that I've found the 3 Button ending I'm sad! Then again Stanley's relationship with the Bucket is very full of strife haha #The Bucket embodies all archetypes and character relationships <3 Bucket GOAT lol #The first two were mostly my reaction to the Narrator being against Stanley keeping the Bucket haha - he gets so jealous ♪ #The second was from the Apartment ending - that new Apartment is so nice! Nice layout very spacious #The image of Stanley sitting with the Bucket on his lap enjoying TV together <3 Innocent! #I wasn't specifically thinking of where Stanley would end up if he followed the Adventure Line™ while holding the Bucket but uhhh #Just don't worry about it lol it'll be fine maybe probably #But gosh the amount of time and effort put into the new locations and objects hhhh stop I'll cry if I think about it too hard #More silly Bucket spacefillers haha ♪ Don't trust them they've got a knife! #Look at all those characters that love Stanley haha ♫ New and old faces alike! He's just very lovable #Employee 416v2 cameo for funsies >:3c #Oh yeah and I didn't mention it in the other ones but I think it's more noticeable in this one :0 - #I was a little lighter on editing for this page haha #My attention hasn't been great lately >:P I /want/ to edit things so they're nice and pretty but it takes too long and I end up frustrated #There's a lot of things I can see here that I'd change if I had more patience but I just want things OUT already hgg #And I'm not really sure how noticeable it is to not-my-eyes haha #If I hear dissent maybe that'll be a good motivator ♪ No way to know!

[defness]

→ drawing the same pose over and over again and feels cringe

→ realizes that these drawings are simply pre-ref drawings to figure out one's design so I can Draw Them

→ no longer feels cringe

#jic ur wondering why all of them are drawn w that same arms out legs semi open pose #do i obsessively worry about this to an unhealthy degree? yeah #do people not verbally tell me that seeing me draw the same pose over and over again is Boring or Lame or stupid or smth? yes but i get #like. stupidly anxious and start thinking about things like that which i obviously know probably isn't the case and that in actuality #no one cares about how i draw more than i do #but it's still difficult not to ruminate on thoughts of people subconsciously rolling their eyes at my art because its so plain and boring #and static and stiff and it doesnt feel lively and dynamic like the artists i aspire to be like #but then i also remember im only just starting my art journey. by this year I'll only have been drawing for 4 years. 4 YEARS. #which seems like alot honestly? especially w the progress I've made #but most; if not everyone who isn't me have spent 7+ YEARS of drawing and i remind myself that. oh #yeah! im on the same path they were #maybe they had the same issues i did #but ill get through it :) i want to experiment more this year w my art #i say that but i need to COMMIT #i need to commit. to actually put in effort to learn posing and perspective instead of trying to lazily scrawl color on a digital canvas #but it all seems so daunting #but; you know; in time it'll come. seeing the difference only a few months has done to my art is also truly refreshing #it lets me know that im still learning and improving my technique and that really helps iron out any anxieties i have. #sorry this got super rambly super quickly lol

[bonestrouslingbones]

have officially hit the point where i kinda wish people i would like to call friends drifting away for the millionth time in a row actually WAS personal so that then i wouldnt feel so fucking stupid for getting so upset about it every time

#dont read this its just for me #shoutout to every single one of my goddamn roommates not telling me they weren't planning on living on campus next semester til just now ✌ #housing applications start next week . thanks guys #it'll be the same drill as every other friend i have had forever i can already tell #we wont have school keeping us seeing each other every day but say we'll hang out when we have time and then never speak again 👍 #maybe thats too pessimistic but its always the fucking same. as in there is not one person i have called a friend that hasnt done that 😁 #it already happened over winter break anyway #but of course this time its right when im finally opening up about the shit i genuinely enjoy for the first time in my life #actually beyond the most surface level “yeah i write fanfiction and draw undertale fanart” bs and keep everything else to myself #because for the first time ever it feels like someone actually halfway gives a fuck #and im just supposed to be normal about this information now. alright! #i'll just go back to writing my essay about how isolating my home growing up was. thats fine #i can get new roommates i can make new friends but im so sick of restarting. i dont want to fucking do this anymore

[vitiateoriginator]

I'm finally taking a fucking vacation from my job next week

#I've never gotten the chance to use my vacation time at work before quitting #but Im not currently able to leave where I work and I'll lose my PTO on my anniversary date (sept 13th) #so I decided to say fuck it an use ut the first week of September #wish I could have saved it for the second week since my birthday is September 15th but again my PTO gets reset the 13th #so this will have to do #I'm not going on an actual vacation this year. just planning various enjoyable activities and day trips throughout the week #Im hoping on the first day to attend a local flea market #and the next day or two to go swimming before the pool in my apartment complex closes for the year #I also plan to visit a historical town thats about a half hour away from where I live #and I'm definitely going to sleep in a lot of these days cause I need to catch up on some sleep finally #I'll probably draw on my less busy days #and maybe I can knock out a chapter or 2 of the story I've been writing #tbh luck is never with me so the chances of me actually getting to do half of this stuff is slim #but at least I can say I have plans #I'm gonna try n do this stuff even if I have to go alone #I hate waiting around for others so I can go out and have a good time #like yeah some of these activities are better with other people #but people often find excuses to get out of hanging out or going places. or they're busy with work #and I don't want to waste the 7 days Im gonna have off so Im gonna try n do something meaningful during them #the weather also will effect how my plans turn out. I bet it'll rain the entire week lol. that'd be my luck #but Im still gonna try and have a decent time off #at the absolute least I am going to relax and unwind. thats the bare minimum I can doo #sam's rants about life

[nutcraxker]

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#I want to quit drawing #it's useless... last time I checked it only reached people who don't give a flying heck to my drawing #if you said why are you trying to get more like? Genuinely because I want more people to reach it #So perhaps I can open commission or something #maybe it's my drawing that sucks as hell and not the algorithm #I'm a garbage for real! Useless piece of shiyt I guess #why do I bother drawing at all... no matter how hard I try it'll never reach more people #even my friends ignored it #so I guess yeah it's alright #I hope I don't need to draw again because now I hate it soo much #I hate how people near me made drawing is good only if it is famous or something #I'm tired #can't I... can't they stop? #I wish I have someone who remember what I like... just one person is enough for me #I'm tired being the one who always have to do the best for people #but they'd... they scarcely remember #I'm happy with that drawing but I feel reaaly stupid for hoping that it'll reach more people #I thought I can get new friends... I guess no #it's alright I'm the forgotten one. It's not their fault.

[raveartts]

Perhaps the prison guards played darts with Cutthroat, y’know, to keep him entertained in confinement :)

#raveartts #akudama drive #blood #akudama cutthroat #thank you again chloe for suggesting prison guards bc it gave me this idea #i wanted to draw more guards in the background #maybe cheering or whining for a turn to shoot #but uh I already spent like an hour just trying to figure out Cutthroat's prison restraints hgfhjs #and he still looks awkward af but I cannot be bothered to fix it #I have more whumpy ideas in mind #< with swindler/unspecific angels #i can't really decide if cutthroat is a masochist or not tho #so it'll be difficult to get his expressions right for those drawings #he likes self harming #but he never reacts happily to swindler hurting him at all #though he doesn't seem to care at all when he's stabbed by Master #and he does smile while Master flings him around like pizza dough

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna do some thinking. so its 10pm on friday night and im stuck here in the lab for another half hour and ive gott be back here at #6.50am and ill be here until 3. come back at 9pm and stay to 10.30 again #and what im doing is pretty mentally draining. and ive got a million other things ive gotta do #and im not happy. im v not happy. ive got at least 2 more projects like this lined up #and my pi is like: ah this data is interesting! and i just cant even summon a little bit of emotion about it #someday im gonna look back on this time in my life and it'll make me sad. just a blur of the same draining nonsense everyday #like whats the point of that? somethings gotta give #but i feel obligated to do this bc my weird necrotic behaviors mean im v efficient at it. so i generate so much data #and then i open up the data and feel nothing. like my body had to physically adjust to the idea that i was gonna have to start taking #measurements again. like 2 weeks agon when i stopped the last project i felt so far past burnout that #i was just numb and i feel like that would be easier to maintain than trying to enjoy anything #and i just keep getting more of these projects and its not even what im really interested in #thr project i wanna do just keeps getting pushed further and further back. and idk maybe i should just accept that its not gonna happen #and shut up abt it. i mean shut up to myself. i dont actually complain abt it #and if i did it would be like ahaha im in pain but im laughing so u dont take it seriously #bc whats the point in letting ppl kno ur hurting when u dont intend to do anything abt it? at that pt ur just infecting ppl with ur stress #i kno i keep saying this but ive gotta find a new lab for a phd. but im so burnt out and i have so little spare time #and i wanna draw but that takes so much time. like do i take a bit of happiness or do i b productive? #maybe that's what ill do when im stuck here at night. look for an interesting lab. somewhere not in the desert #i dont wanna live in las vegas or in California. i wanna go somewhere with trees #idk. im just tired and sad :-/ #and my pi mentions a student coming here in the spring with similar interests to me and im just like so numb im just like #wow. i wish i could manifest even a little bit of his passion. im just staring at open docs like. i want yo lay down and decompose #somethings gotta give sooner or later #like my single friend came over last weekend and asked me if id made any friends in my 'new' position and its just like #the only human contact i have is being around ppl in the lab and our lab manager jokes thst im so quiet she wouldnt kno i was there if not #for the machines buzzing. #i spend my time in my apt and the lab and i run around my neighborhood once a day. thats basically it. thats all i do #its stupid. i wish i was at home listening to thr sounds of bugs and frogs or on the lakeside #in the woods. not thinking

[astrologysvt]

what about opening a yt channel? you could do so much content!!

ahhhh i did think of that! my thing is idk how much i'd have it in me to make consistent content if that makes sense? with the community concept I can work one-on-one and actually get into detail in ways I just can't do with general readings. and tbh doing general readings for sun/moon/rising is so common, and i fear that they're a little toxic (cuz learning discernment for those things is super hard!) so I kinda worry more about the misinterpretation/misuse of my readings than having a large audience if that makes sense. plus the human connection aspect is another factor, I think having that small group of people would be nice and in a perfect world it'll be super supportive and constructive. again idk how many people would be interested, i think even just a silly group of 5 people would be nice! plus i think if you're someone who is struggling with just the sheer saturation of astrology/tarot content on the internet, and know it's not healthy, but still want it in your life -- this would be a safe place to explore that! i dunno, just thoughts! if anyone has any ideas for tiers or perks, lemme know!

#my other thought was streaming #but a factor for sure rn #is the fact i don't have any recording equipment lol #i mean i could do lives on my phone but again i just #don't think i have a large enough following #nor is the goal having a big following u know #anonymous #answered #i'm thinking like having a $1 tier and i will post content but that wont be the main draw #so that's how you access that and ask me questions #then there would be like #and inventory for 5 slots to get monthly readings and forecasts and i was thinking maybe like #once a month over the phone tarot readings #i wont stop checking this every now and again #but i'm also just at a point where #i have too many responsibilities and not enough free time #to really be able to commit to anything #unless i know it'll help pay my monthly bills :') #and it'll allow me to have structure so I can actually #pace myself and have a routine if that makes sense

[keeps-ache]

i should learn to make hash browns

#just me hi #the diner style is my favorite :> #that and sonic tots. i love those sm #oh and there's a gas station that makes these little fried potatoes with cheese in the middle! 15/5 would recommend !! #potatoes... #also i wanna learn to make alfredo pasta #love it v much but the restaurant i liked it from filed for bankruptcy and thus exploded hfbsh ;w; #that and chicken pot pie #the frozen ones you can just pop in a toaster oven are GREAT #but i don't want to company to explode one day and i be left chicken pot pieless. it would be utterly devastating hfhs #and in that vein - menudo as well. best food on the planet nothing else to say nothing else to compare #i always put So much lemon in though hfsh - one day i'll just be eating lemon juice with some seasonings thrown in lmao :) #anyway can you tell i'm hungry. i'm hungry hfbvshf #//but in other news oh my lllllllaaananndndnsnssssjhdhbshf #fighting for my life against my lack of motivation for anything rn #poking my brain with a stick. with another stick. and another stick. and another. and another #maybe if i use more sticks it'll start to do somethin i dunno lol #i COULD be drawing. or writing. but.. i'm not. ? ????? #why? that's the big mystery baby !!! :D [<- slowly dissolving into a goop (not the epic kind)] #i'm not feeeeeeeeeeeelin it and i think that's. it's. it's SILLYYY #it's just ridiculousssssssssssssssssssssssssss #preposteroussssss wwahauhauha #and my head feels a tad weird. is that a symptom or a cause? i will investigate further and gather more clues [<- will wait for it to go #away and then not think about it again] :3 #really though i hate how i get halfway through something and then Stop #like ?? hey ?? i was still using that ?? what's up ?? #and my software will go 'oh this :) no yea i see that :) but it breathed around me funny dude :) no yea yea it's going into the #fridge (it won't return) :) yea nice chat dude see ya :)' #criminal. absolutely criminal. it should be the deaths sentence for this ! who's with me !!! #/lol but yyyea

[medicinemane]

The problem with people who are "right" because they insist they're right, and the only way to be right is to simply perfectly follow their every dictation on the subject unquestioningly is this...

Ok, let's just take it as a given that you're right... the problem here is that if that's what's right I'm afraid I have to dig my heels into being wrong. If you are as righteous and just as you insist you are then I've got no choice but to be the villain because I can't stand what you're saying I'd have to do to be good

Shockingly I even think it's wrong, which is odd because we've already defined it that you're inherently and unassailably right... yet here we are

Worst part is there's a lot of these things where I'm not even full stop against it, I actually might be on their side if they could stop and address a couple of issues I consider kind of important... but they won't, because they're morally right and don't have time for addressing nonexistent issues I'm clearly just dreaming up

Undoubtedly right they are, the defect must surely be my own... and yet here we are. Vile and wicked as it might make me, I still can't just go along with you

#mm tag so i can find things later #and whatever you think this is about and however you've already decided it agrees with you #I'll say this is about like... minimum 2 topics at very different points in the political spectrum... and probably like 20 easy #so like... it may well be talking about your own behavior on certain subjects #I'm talking about not even being willing to entertain good faith questions #and especially about labeling anyone who doesn't tow your exact party line a horrible person #...the amount of shit where it's like 'you know I actually agree with you... except for this one major sticking point' #'just tell me how we deal with this one pretty big thing and I'm fully on board' and... well actually you're terrible for that #or the amount of places where it's like I agree with your goals; but not your methods but... I don't think arguing would do a damn thing #you've already dug your heels in so deep and maybe you're even right to do it.. but I'll never go along with it no matter what that makes m #and the number of overall good people I know who this post is honestly about #they may well be far better than I am; I've never claimed to be good; quite the opposite #and yet I'm afraid I have to say that... to me you're wrong; wrong in concrete ways #maybe you could even address my concerns and help me see with my stupid brain why these aren't issues... but you won't #because you're right; and you know you're right; and so you'll never be wrong #and this isn't just some idle whataboutism... or maybe it is; I'll never say I'm the moral arbiter; again I could be wickedly wrong #and there's a variety of reasons someone believes what they believe; but... there's often blind dogma at the end #I may be stupid; but I can usually draw a line from my stance to something in the world #maybe it's a stupid nonsense line and I don't see my mental gymnastics... very well could be #but I can draw a line... it's not just circular logic; it's not just bouncing between two points #and I often can actually point to places I'm not happy with how things are or will be... we live in the real world and that sucks #example that... man it's more politically charged than I like getting; but ok #I really want this Ukrainian aid to pass even though I don't like the Israeli aid attached... but I get that's the only way it's passing #I want the Ukraine aid because I see residential houses getting stuck by missiles; but I don't want the Israeli aid for the same reason #and it comes down to that I think that the aid amount is sufficiently higher to Ukraine to make it enough of a net positive #I could be wrong... but you can at least see my work; I'm coming at it from a perspective of bombing civilians is wrong #I could be stupid; I could point to two people I know on here who would tell me I'm stupid for at least one part of this... probably all #yet there it is... and... it'll be hard to convince me otherwise

[neil-gaiman]

This may very well get lost in the flood, but if you see this, I just wanted to say that there were a lot of things I thought I wanted for good omens 2 (a happy ending for one, of course!)

But my favourite thing that a writer can do to my experience of a story is to make me go "okay forget EVERYTHING I said before, this is the outcome I didn't know I needed." This show took my hopes and said "no u don't actually :) i got something better" and it had the audacity to be SO RIGHT.

The finale I *thought* I wanted would have probably had me giggling and kicking my feet and then moving on with my day while in a bright mood for a bit.

The finale I got had me absolutely devastated, inconsolable for maybe an hour, and then just...immediately rewatching. And talking about it behind a fortress of spoiler tags. And writing, and drawing, and being invested in theories and trying to find all the easter eggs and just...falling in love with the story and the characters all over again. And I can tell that feeling will stay with me for a whole lot longer than a couple days.

I'm bad at brevity, I apologize! This is just a very long-winded way to say thank you (and thank you to everyone else on the team) for giving us these idiots (affectionately) to have Way Too Many Feelings about!! Thank you for sharing them with us.

I'm running GO in the background, crossing my fingers and looking forward to a season 3—whether or not it'll be what I'm *hoping* for, I am just beyond excited for whatever story it is that you want to tell us, and I trust that whatever it is, it will be wonderfully told! 🩶🩶

(But also, please, for your consideration...I am in fact soft and innocent, I can only take so much damage before I cry myself to critical dehydration—do with that what you must, I shall leave my electrolyte balance in your hands and hope for mercy. You did say everything would be okay, and thankfully we all know a writer would never lie!)

I wouldn't lie about that, anyway.

#good omens #go2 spoilers

[u3pxx]

WELCOME HOME, POLLY! ✈️☀️🪄

finally sharing the piece i drew for @aasiblingszine! :^D if there's one thing about me, it's that i will be VERY sappy about apollo and trucy <3

leftovers are live over on here! so feel free to grab yourself a copy of this siblimful zine if you wanna feel warm and fuzzy and maybe cry a lil bit about ace attorney and the siblingisms of it all pftt <33

extra stuff under the cut! :^P | like this art? it'll be a print in my shop once the leftovers are over! | like what i do? support me on ko-fi!

help i just noticed that the timelaspe i had of this didn't record me rendering the rest of the drawing 😭 oh well, here's the progress gif too why not pftt

it's been maybe more than a year since i drew this so very wild to see how my art style has evolved since this! considering that i'm currently in an art rut pftt, i've changed my inking pen so many times by now lol. but i still like this a lot! what's a den drawing without too many add (glow) layers and the sun setting down in it lmao

just looking at all the art and writing made for this zine was such a treat! so many heartwarming and heartwrenching scenarios so beautifully written and illustrated! flipping through this zine, i teared up a bit, my man!! i'm so glad to have worked with such talented peeps! :'^] <33

this drawing of mine is kind of an expansion of this old doodle i drew, i'm just a big enjoyed of trucy and apollo ending up being the same height after a timeskip AND i am also just very weepy about missing people who used to be always with you, mayhaps.

once again reminding you that leftovers are live!!! here's the link, go get this wonderful zine!!!

#ace attorney #apollo justice #trucy wright #aa4 #gramarye siblings #aa6 #ace attorney zine #sunnysidedraws #sunnysidezines #id in alt text #described #sunnysideattorney