#but it's not the same

[marigoldendragon]

Floyd was later found dead

#twst #is my art #twisted wonderland #floyd leech #jade leech #I miss the octatrio already #I know they'll show up in book 4 #but it's not the same

[bleaksqueak]

The people who do facial reference sheets, pose sets, stock reference and figure drawing sets are absolute gods. Absolute goddesses. Heroes. Saints.

#my design doll shortcut on my desktop is nicknamed “I Miss Figure Drawing” #because I do #I deeply do #it's not the same drawing from photos or online #gestures of people out and about in real life comes close #but it's not the same #but drawing from these photos and videos is still an absolute lifesaver #it's the best you can get without being there in person #and the ppl who provide these provide them anywhere from free to a name your own price to a shockingly affordable fee #so ty from the bottom of my horrible little heart

[yarpharp]

Some people who are game nerds eternally seek the return to nostalgia; a game that makes them comfortable or fond or experience the same level of thrill. People playing Harvest Moon end up loving Stardew Valley. Folks who played Pokemon are probably still playing Pokemon, or one of the popular catch-em-all copycats that are essentially Pokemon but with better gadgets.

But me? I eternally chase after a game that mentally and psychologically challenged me in the same way Myst did. I remember when my sister and father played it; they played together and they had fifty pages worth of notes and it took them months to beat the game. My sister had a special edition copy that came with a puzzle with the entire Myst game map on it. The music was haunting yet terrifying yet dreamy in that eerie sort of fashion. When I finally got a chance to play it, I became absolutely Apeshit Obsessed and I loved how it looked and played and everything.

Do I have four different copies of Myst? Yes, for four different game platforms. Do I have the remake available on Steam? Yes. Have I played their other games? Yes, but they do not capture The Vibe or The Challenge.

But good fucking God, I crave a game that drives me bonkers like Myst.

#myst #games #rambling #storytime #god i want a game that drives me insane like that again #some people have suggested Tunic for its encouragement to make notes #but it's NOT THE SAME #gaming #games that force me to take notes and drive me bonkers with lore and puzzles #Zelda wishes it drove me crazy like Myst

[what-breaks-my-heart]

#look I'm just OBSESSED with the way they gaze at each other okay #they are literally each other's what the arabs say qurratu ain #we have the word in my language (I don't speak arabic though I just learned it back in school) but I don't know what the English equivalent #the closes I can think of is apple of the eye #but it's not the same #the concept is similar but not the same #anyway #this post is about #GAZING #yeahhhhhhh #nothing but you #cdrama #wu lei #zhou yutong #ooopps I forgot the most important tag #THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP PROPAGANDA!!!

[spockandawe]

Okay! I'm rapidly reaching the point of needing some creative self-care, or I'm going to crash even more viciously than I'm already starting to. Bad things: work is about to be SO fucking intense for the rest of the month, and while my home is unpacked, it is Comically unorganized. Good things: being unable to walk to work leaves me with more free time and less exhaustion per day, and I've recently refreshed myself on what supplies i have. I also am all set to start figuring out how to paint a house as soon as I can test my samples and clear a room. This will scratch the novelty itch, so i can be responsible and avoid buying new things. But i also can't lose focus on the organizing or I'll Adjust and never finish 😂

Let me see

Crochet in general: crochet is what I've been patching the mounting anxiety with, and i DO want to use up yarn, but it's hard on my wrist already, I can't afford to get too deep.

Baby blanket: almost done, could probably finish tomorrow in meetings, but because it was pretty bland, it won't be that fulfilling

Big Boi blanket: god, it's been years, I want to finish, but i WILL need to buy some yarn

Rocky horror lips: tedious single crochet, fun concept, but need to avoid wrist fuckery

Cross-stitch starscream: yes! I want to do this!! But this will be the opposite of quick gratification

Art........?: ALSO YES, goddammit, i want to figure out the stupid tablet! But good LORD, it's hard to decide what to do. And I'm in one of those phases where I'm not FAST, and I'm not vibing with what i make. The solution is just to draw more often, i know. But fuck.

Hc/mq: had a conceptual breakthrough, maybe? But i still don't know how it will proceed, so idk whether to commit the energy

Bwx/xl: this is half done already, AND outlined, I don't know why I can't do it. If i make myself, maybe i can find my groove

Lqg fic: it'll be long and intimidating 😭

Bingge lite: it's been 84 years...... But i really really really really love it and want to be able to share it. But the scope will be Horrendous, it may need percolation and warmer weather

Raksura core: i, uh, um 🫥 (i want to finish it! I really do! I can't focus worth SHIT)

Quilting: that would be good! Use up stuff! I want to be better! But god, the PREP WORK

Addendum: can i think of a fandom quilt i could pull off? Even if it was. Idk. Bingqiu colors. That might help me focus. But i also need to use up my stash :T

Long furby: would be good. I've had the materials for-fucking-ever

Pyrography: ooh, maybe. Especially if I can find art i dont have to compose. But if i set off the smoke alarm while it's this gross outside ill Die

BOOKS: heavy lifts and decision paralysis all around. Could be star wars (long, not for me, have to match existing volume), cnovel (several wips, but each is so much work to format, good god), ofic (not for me, also have to revamp formatting), ilcbt latest edition (needs the luxury treatment, which requires brain), pof latest edition (needs the luxury treatment, which requires brain), and all of the most appealing projects need a lot of materials, and I'm still in debt, lmao

Peerless fic: I've had the concept locked down for years, but i need to refresh on more of their late-stage characterization before feeling confident

Fourteenth year of chenghua fic: i also have the concept locked down! But i want to see the final evolution of wang zhi's relationship to the other two first

2ha fic: I ALSO HAVE THE CONCEPT LOCKED DOWN. but i still haven't...... finisheddddddddd, and this is going to need to be a fairly lengthy fic to wrangle xue meng in a believable way

#UGHHHHHH and I've wasted another day doing nothingggggg #that's not true i crocheted during meetings #and had meetings until 7:30 #but it's not the SAME #i think a crochet pattern needs to be a CHALLENGE to really vibe with this emotional need #long post/

[coquelicoq]

i should not be allowed to buy things in bookstores. when they see me coming they should corral me toward the order pickup counter and then escort me to the door as soon as i'm done. if that had happened yesterday i would not have ended up with volume 1 of the ranma 1/2 manga translated into french, nor a 743-page dictionnaire de synonymes that i'm going to have to somehow stop myself from reading cover to cover, nor the probably sixth copy of all systems red that i've ever owned because i keep lending my copies to people and then wanting to have one on hand in the meantime for emotional support. i mean i can see how it would not be in the best interest of the bookstore to keep me from doing that, but all the same i would appreciate it.

#the worst part is i do still have a copy of all systems red. it's the free ebook i got from the tor mailing list #but it's not the SAME #i want to hold it in my hands!!!! #the good thing is that i've never lent ASR to someone and had them actually give it back though. they always keep it :D #so so far it has behooved me to keep replenishing my supply rather than assuming an old copy will be returned #i tried sooooo hard not to buy the french thesaurus but it's so INTERESTING u guys!!!!!! #uughgghughghhhhhugughgggghhhh #i FELT very restrained at the time because there were like eight other french books i wanted to buy and didn't #but in the harsh light of day as i try to find room for these on my bookshelves crammed with >80 other books i keep meaning to read #i'm rethinking the accuracy of that feeling

[schumi-nadal]

Yep. I’m stuck with them and they’re stuck with me.

#fedal #rafa nadal #roger federer #they have something that the others don't have #still i have other ships #ruudettini #stefaniil #but it's not the same #tennis #tennis meme

[thirddoctor]

the problem with the BG3 companions you get in the later acts is that they're cool and all but I've spent so much time bonding with my og tadpole gang that I always want to hang out with them instead. they are my incredibly dysfunctional little family whom I love whereas the others are just my cool pals

#to be fair Halsin did spend a very long time hanging out in camp with us because I finished the refugee quest so early #in fact he's been around longer than Karlach #but it's not the same #Ranger's gaming adventures

[aflawedfashion]

I've been through the death of tumblr so many times at this point, so I'm just going to see what happens with this one too, but are there any other good fandom spaces that people are using and actually recommend - not just places people reluctantly go because tumblr 'dies' every couple years?

#i have twitter and anyone is welcome to follow me there #sometimes I start trying to post there but I usually don't maintain it #sometimes I retweet things #I have a friend who prefers to chat there so I'm around #If this place actually died that's probably where I'd end up #but it's not the same #also so much of twitter fandom is scary #it's nicer here

[sophsun1]

*me the past seven weeks crying over a new iwtv episode dropping each sunday*

*me after only one week without them*

#iwtv amc #is life even worth living i ask you #im reading the books so im still getting content per say #but it's not the same #*stares into distance* what was life before them #asdfjkl; #interview with the vampire

[supernovaa-remnant]

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#I don't think I'll ever be able to articulate how heartbroken I am that my family no longer has ties to our pre-colonial culture #the philippines has so many different ethno-linguistic groups #and it was home to so many different groups before the spaniards came #and I love researching the pre-colonial cultures and the different ethno-linguistic groups #but it's not the same #and obviously I'm very proud of my filipino culture in current times #because there are a lot of cultural things that emerged after/because of the occupation #and that's all so /so/ important to me and I wish I knew more about that as well #but the fact that my family's pre-colonial culture is pretty much lost is heartbreaking #because yes we're visayan and I know that I asked my mother about it #but the visayas are so so large and held so many different groups #idk idk it just makes me really really sad #I wish I could meet my ancestors and ask them directly y'know? #because everyday I learn more about pinoy culture despite being born and raised in america #and I'm about to finally start learning tagalog #but I just can't do that with the pre-colonial culture :( #stella rambles #personal

[secretariatess]

I would love to be married. For many reasons.

One of which is that I would love to be romanced and spoiled and all that. Not gonna lie, it's very appealing.

But I also want to spoil the crap out of my husband.

#inbefore anyone says #yes I have friends #and I love them to death #and would spoil them if I were given the chance and I love what we do together #but it's not the same #and I don't want to pretend it's the same

[singingkestrel]

More mako shots.

#i'm almost done with me1 #i'm gonna miss this physics-defying hellbeast #the hammerhead is nice and all #but it's not the same #team mako #mass effect #me1 #legendary edition #m35 mako

[oneshimaru]

I can concentrate in my little head bubble now ^^)

#talking #dood #it's ok I still had earbuds #but it's not the same

[susieandhobbes]

I found my tumblr password y'all - i'M BACK

#mostly to be insane about the bear #im being insane on twitter #but it's not the same

[kodzukoi]

jjk s2........ i need to watch it before i get too behind alkdfalsdkfjlsd

#I'VE READ THE MANGA #I KNOW SORT OF WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN #BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME #I NEED TO LIVE IT (metaphorically) EXPERIENCE IT PLAYING BEFORE MY EYES