#but it never completely convinced me

[mikimeiko]

His Dark Materials | Season 3 (2022), Jack Thorne

#his dark materials #hdm #jack thorne #i really really wish i liked this more #i love the books #and this show was clearly more... everything than that horrible movie they made #but it never completely convinced me #something about the tone the cinematography the acting was just deeply not my thing #tv shows i watched in 2023 #i made this #i just want a tag for the things i personally put out into the world

[lenin-it-to-win-it]

Frodo: Sam hates Gollum, but that is what I shall become once I have lost myself to the ring... he’ll despise me... 

Sam if Frodo did turn into a Gollum: That’s a very nice fish you caught with your bare hands, Mr. Frodo, and its very smart of you to eat it raw, saves us the trouble of starting a fire. I knitted you a sweater in case you get cold running around in that loincloth of yours. Is the sun hurting your eyes? I’ll kill it if it’s bothering you. I’ll kill the sun

#lord of the rings #lotr #samfro #something something frodo would never end up like gollum bc gollums whole thing was that he was completely isolated #and frodo is loved and cared for even at his worst #also it took gollum all of 3 seconds to go full murder mode and it took frodo like 17 years and also Physically Being Inside Mount Doom #before snapping #but anyway sam would stubbornly love and care for horrible wretched gollum!frodo and nothing will convince me otherwise #pats his lil bald head and wipes his mouth after he tears into raw wriggling flesh for supper #kisses his bony little murder-hands #gives him snuggleses

[wu-does-art]

so many times in fics ive seen people describe mike giving will awestruck eyes while he's just laughing about something, and i think thats really neat!

#stranger things #stranger things fanart #byler #mike wheeler #st mike wheeler #will byers #byler fanart #mike wheeler stranger things #st mike #st will #im sorry that its not comics or something i swear im just like. doing my best #was debating about posting the other two but a friend convinced me to keep em so i hope you guys dont mind that #im so indecisive on how i draw noses and thats mainly cause it never looks right #hope this isnt completely shit im trying my best #if no one enjoys this ill probably delete it and thats a-okay!

[wikitpowers]

anyone ever think about how kit is literally ty's best friend? like kit was the only one who ever showed that he truly cared about ty as a friend, that he accepted him exactly as he is. he's the only one who laughed with him, not at him and the one who understood that ty works differently than others and didn't view him as weird or strange because of it, but rather loved him for all of those things?

nope? just me? okay then

#and ty never thought that kit would leave bc their friendship just felt so different from all the others #like i bet when kit leaves ty remembers all the times people who claimed to be his friends turned away from him #and i know that kit leaving hit so much harder bc of it #like it actually broke ty in a completely different way #bc he was convinced that this time it was different and so special and- #oh no im making myself cry goodbye #side note: ofc ik livvy is ty's best friend <3 but she is also his sister so it's different from other friendships #i hope i made this clear! like ofc SHE gets ty in a completely different emotional way (they make me so freaking sad </3) #but others who have claimed to be his friends have hurt him so badly until ✨kit✨ came along :( #thats what i call friends-to-lovers <3 #god pls dont let them be parted for much longer #i am going insane #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #tda #twp #tsc

[triptychofvoids]

How would you feel if your doves started liking one of the other mercs more than you?

im shocked that you would even insinuate such a thing....

#but in all seriousness many of my doves are part of their own bonded pairs #and while they do belong to me and are certainly very fond of me #they also enjoy each others company just as much #if not more #and many of them do like the other mercs! #though i doubt theyd change their minds about me for someone else #i suppose the chance is never completely zero... but i sincerely doubt it #and you would never convince archimedes to favor anyone else #it simply would not happen #what a preposterous idea.... #the doc is in #tf2

[enden-k]

wanted to draw some au stuff, ended up redrawing and redesigning my first ocs/first ever comic and completely lost myself in it until 4am 🧍‍♀️

#its a story i completely abandoned and never looked again for years #bc it contained a lot of dark scenes and my adoptive father snooped in my room and stole the comic #to show everyone the cringey smut parts or dark scenes to convince ppl im deranged and get me hospitalized etcetc #(it wasnt that dark even) #so yea it brought bad memories up #now 10 yrs later and im finally touching it again and changing stuff and this feels like #being at peace now or smth??? #anw if i go silent a bit its prob bc im having a blast w my stuff HHVSHS #babbles #tbd

[mythos321]

Finally finished that slightly angsty Clay drawing idea I had based on Epic The Musical song “Monster”

It wasn’t everything I wanted it to be(in part cause I have VERY limited drawing skills) but I am happy with how it came out!

my writings terrible so I’ll type out what I wrote for it:

Is the Icewing struck with guilt when she kills? is she up in the middle of the night? or did she end my sister without a care or whisper and sleep knowing she has done her kingdom right?

When the false seer takes dragons to save his kingdom, is he going insane? Or did he learn to be colder when he got older, and now he forgoes the pain?

When a queen comes through the night and makes Dragons fight, is she scared that she’s doing something wrong? Or does she keep us in check so we must respect her? And now no one dares to piss her off?

Does a Dragon use all they have to kill defenseless enemies because they are Vile? or do they throw away their remorse and save/take lives with a Smile?

#wings of fire #epic the musical #god I yap a lot on posts don’t I- #i should make a tag for this #wof art #wings of fire art #fanart #clay wof #clay wings of fire #fun fact I almost didn’t do this drawing because of this one WoF confession I saw that completely got Clay wrong #one of my best friends convinced me to go through with it though #art #dragon art #clay they can never make me hate you #I just realized the picture is slightly blurry god damn it- #eh it’s not to bad- #Oh another fun fact! I had the bottom part be orange and blue in the first half to represent Peril #while the second part of it is orange and brown to represent clay himself! #idk how interested anyone will be by that but I thought I was a genius for it- #wof

[infernalurge]

I thought I read somewhere there's a way to ally with both Orpheus and the Emperor but now I'm googling and I can't find it?

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #more reason not to bother finishing act 3 lol #I find the writing in the final act relly sloppy #and I thought you could figure a way to make peace with orpheus and emperor #but if you can't then I don't even care about the ending #I swore I read that ifyou bring Lae'zal #you get a dialogue tree involving her #that allows you to convince Emp to free Orpheus #but now I can't find this anywhere #no offense but stuff like this is why larian kind of suck and why I won't be buying their next game #I hate psuedo-intellectual garbage in my rp like this stuff #there's literally no reason not to let my high CHA avatar convince Emp and Orpheus to chill #it's just railroaded becaause OMGGG SUCH TOUGH CHOICE GUYSSSS #fuck off larian this shit is boring #you didn't give me a super hard conflicting choice all you did was make me roll my eyes and never finish your game completely #because the ending and epilogue are lame as fuuuuuuuuuck

[s0fter-sin]

so lately i’ve been obsessed with a 141 dancer au

gaz runs classes, has a youtube channel and quickly becomes one of the most sought after choreographers in the music video scene. soap is his dance partner for his classes, he helps run them and does demonstrations with him

ghost is also a choreographer and he’s gaz’s Arch Nemesis

he's famous for never performing his routines, never doing public appearances without his skull mask and being highly exclusive with who he allows to perform his choreo which earns him his name (since he’s a ghost creator). gaz however is a social media darling, his classes and videos regularly doing huge numbers

they both popped up around the same time and are neck and neck in terms of popularity and skill and they immediately rub each other the wrong way

gaz accuses ghost of not actually choreographing his routines himself bc no one has ever seen him dance and ghost thinks gaz is a clout chaser who's just in it for the fame instead of passion

he became a dancer as a way to channel his rage after years of being an underground fighter, the discipline and physicality helping him more than fights ever did. he hates the thought of someone just using it just to get famous when it literally saved his life

deep down they know their accusations are wrong and they have a grudging appreciation for the other's talent but they'd both rather die than admit it

price is a famous dancer turned director they both work with frequently and they always fight over him; trying to get their routines picked for his music videos. he's also the only one in the industry who's ever seen the ghost perform (before he got famous and before the Incident™)

he finally gets fed up with them constantly being at each other's throats and hires them both to work together and choreograph a joint routine. they're both famous in their own right but this video is for a huge artist so neither of them can refuse no matter how much they hate the other

gaz has a gymnastics background but also a ballet background which lends him to a more fluid style whereas ghost’s style is stronger, more masculine with sharper movements so they naturally end up butting heads

then there's soap who has a completely different style altogether, focusing on a more modern, breakdancer style which makes him see everything completely differently

but it also adds to his self-doubt bc he didn't have a formal dance education, he built his entire repertoire by himself. people see him as inferior to gaz who has that very formal, highly disciplined style. his insecurities about only ever being seen as gaz's demonstration partner and that he can only do gaz’s routines so all his skill is just an extension of him instead of being seen as a dancer in his own right forces him to adopt a rigid - destructive - perfectionism in himself and his body

soap meets ghost before the first rehearsal. he gets to the studio early to practice when sees this beautiful man dancing

he has no idea who he is but he moves so seamlessly, almost better than gaz, and he immediately falls a little in love. the man catches him watching in the mirror and he flusters, getting worse as the man just smirks at him and flawlessly completes the routine

soap tries to save face and asks him to teach him the routine he's doing

the man agrees, introducing himself as simon. the style of the routine is familiar to soap but he can't focus on it when simon's hands are on his waist, guiding him through the steps; his chest pressed up against his back. they work together beautifully, picking up each other's body language and dancing together easier and better than they've ever danced with anyone

then gaz arrives and the vibe in the studio immediately changes

simon's easy confidence becomes hostility, pulling up the skull gaiter he'd let hang around his neck as he practically pushes soap behind him to square up to gaz

soap’s shocked when gaz hits back with the same energy until he realises it's the same way he acts whenever he talks about ghost and his stomach drops

he steps out from behind ghost to side with gaz and the betrayal in simon's eyes hurts more than anything he's ever felt

from there it's romeo and juliet; camp gaz versus camp ghost as they fight over every step of the choreo and soap is the poor bastard stuck in the middle

soap tries to channel that “you’re my best friend’s rival, i have to hate you,” mindset but he can’t forget the way it felt to dance with simon

and how much he wants to do it again

#my friend mimi introduced me to gymnast gaz which made me think he grew up in competitive gymnastics and left it to be a dancer #whether his family was disappointed in that decision i havent figured out yet #the Incident™️ was roba getting simon directly from the underground and manipulating him into working at his strip club where price finds h #and pulls him out when roba tries to force him into sex work too #soap earned his name for being such a clean dancer and never making mistakes during performances #which just make his insecurities worse bc now he has to live up to his new reputation as well as fight of the gazs partner image hes gotten #farah and alex are definitely team gaz and i think nikolai would be his manager #then im thinking alejandro and rudy are team ghost with laswell as his manager #then bc soap is the odd man out hes used as tie breaks when they get into arguments about what move should go next in the routine #the pressure of picking correctly and the routine being essentially on his shoulders freaking him out just as much as having to choose #between his best friend who expects him to always side with him and ghost who always has good ideas #this isnt a negative haz au btw i think it would be a good way to explore his arrogance and stubborness #hes decided ghost is his enemy and nothing can pull him away from that #(except for what eventually does but im not sure what that is yet lmao) #i want soap at some point to completely overwork himself and his bad knee swells and gets irritated and finally gives out #and its ghost who forces him to take a break and convinces him that working his body to death wont help him be a better dancer #cue tender wound care and ghost backstory as he reassures soap that he is an amazing dancer #he offers soap a no stress space at his studio if he ever wants it & gaz overhears and thinks soap is betraying him and leaving so cue angs #we’re a team. ghost team #coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #save post #john price #cod 141 #soapghost au

[spocks-kaathyra]

.

#vent #wow I will never be able to let myself have friends huh #I am unwanted and inherently unwantable #I have it all figured out I just can't DO anything right. why is breaking silence the hardest thing to do #I can't bring myself to make/maintain/deepen friendships bc I'm convinced that I'm unpleasant to be around and unpleasant to be friends with #my company is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy #<- completely unjustified belief. I am kind and friendly and capable of responding appropriately in the majority of social situations #they reach out and I shrink back every time. no matter how much they reach towards me I can't believe that they actually want me around #and ofc the reasonable thing for them to do is stop reaching! when I never reach back! why would they expect a different outcome this time #so I can't blame anyone. I can't sit around waiting for a saintly mindreader who can see that my actions contradict my feelings #I know I just need to reach out. but how could I do that when I'm convinced it'll only hurt them? #my presence makes their day worse. I'm a mangy dog begging for scraps I don't deserve at their table. I am harming them with my presence #how can I beg for their attention and company and time when I know their life would be better without me in it #<- false belief. when I reach out I make them feel wanted and they feel more comfortable reaching out to me when they know I like them. #everyone appreciates being reached out to. I am pleasant to be around. they like being liked by me. my company is a desirable thing #company in general is a desirable thing. my company is better than no company. people like being liked. #logically I know all this to be true. emotionally? they hate me and I deserve it and the more I show I like them the more they'll hate me #sigh. what a banal problem to have. I'll stop being 18 years old one day. I can't wait until I have better things to worry about #replies appreciated. btw. in the interest of asking for what I want instead of expecting ppl to read my mind lmao #narcissus's echoes

[mariathechosen1]

Was Anyone But You a good Much Ado About Nothing adaptation? No, not at all, but fuck it was fun!

#y’all know I have many thoughts about this play and these characters #but even though the movie didn’t completely live up to my expectations as an adaptation #I still really enjoyed it! #and I really despise all those people making posts about how sydney sweeney can’t act #idk it seems a little rude #my main problem is how they messed up the benedick and beatrice characterization and dynamic #I love that they played up the ex lovers thing (which is left up to interpretation in the play) #and i love love queer Hero and Claudio!!! #but their hatred of each other didn’t really pack the same punch as in the original #I suppose I wish they weren’t afraid to make the characters bigger assholes? #ya know- give them more flaws? #because right now the enemies part doesn’t really feel believable for big parts of the movie #They really could have leaned more into making Bea a bit of a cold and snappy mess (as she is in the original) #and Ben more of…ya know…actual human disaster who can’t commit #both of their characters in the play are driven by their desire never to marry and their distrust for the opposite sex #They included this a bit with Bea (her not believing in true love and all that) #but her break up with Jonathan (because he was too nice???) didn’t really convince me of it #They also keep insisting that Ben is a fuckboy but we never really see it demonstrated? #I personally don’t mind the fact that they changed up the whole ‘convincing them that the other secretly loves them’ bit #especially considering this is only loosely based on much ado #but I do think they made it a bit messy considering they included the gulling scenes but only as a joke #I wish they’d either leaned fully into the much ado plot or ditched it #I think what a lot of adaptations get wrong is that they’re either too afraid of leaning into their og media #or too afraid of seperating themselves from the og media #oh god I’ve reached the tag limit help #anyways- rant over #anyone but you #maria talks about things #much ado about nothing #beatrice x benedick

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

pls i agree with the previous anon. like i need to see how your mind works. LIKE THE AMOUNT OF LORE YOU PUT INTO THIS STORY? no wonder you was struggling to write this chapter. no wonder you had to split it. YOURE PUTTING EVERYTHING INTO IT. i adore you.

i just love how you do megumi justice. like from what we hear from others (oh my god he was such a menace. jumping out of vehicles? biting people? willing to summon his ace just to spite everyone? trying to electrocute his uncle?) he has so much fire in him. he’s such a little shit. i love him. i’m so tired of everyone portraying him as some emotionless bland character. the dudebros don’t know him the way i do 🙁.

i’m honestly just itching to see yuuta spill the beans on his attachment to megumi like…would gojo actually be willing to kick that kid ass. IF ANYTHING gojo should consider this a win. the son he birthed from his gojoussy (i was there. i was the one cutting the cord ofc shh) has a loyal protector.

but in all honesty i have so many theories. like about mai, she might pop out to get the books & shit for her nephew? who knowsss.

the answer to how my mind works is “not well.” imagine a waiting room where the staff are only in attendance for 30 minutes per day (it’s never the same 30 minutes) and there is a hamster inexplicably lose. there are fish tanks but they are empty ones. you do not know what the business is or why you are waiting. dont stop me now by queen is playing on endless loop

#you cannot convince me that baby Megumi was not completely feral #that’s a kid who bit people I’ll die on that hill #there is something about Mahoraga that convinces me that it’s just the ultimate act of reclaiming control for Megumi #fundamentally Megumi does not have control over his own life #from a very young age he was locked into a profession that /would/ kill him one day #and again and again he displays this almost suicidal decision to summon something /guaranteed/ to kill him whenever he thinks hes going down #megumi never got to decide his life but by god he has decided upon his death #I think a part of him has always felt doomed from the beginning and got a bit of solace in knowing he’d die on his terms #he would die but he would not die having been beaten #like I think you just CANNOT underestimate the twisted relief that can be gotten from controlling the way you die after you’ve spent your #entire life under the shadow of your own death sentence #of course this means that the Zenin took even that comfort from him #megumi thought he was going to die and it was going to be in a way that robbed him of the only control he ever had #there’s a unique helplessness in that #I think the fact that he couldn’t even die on his terms hurt him more deeply than almost anything the Zenin did to him #he spent his entire life knowing he had an ace that couldn’t be taken from him and they still managed it #the Zenin made him feel weak as a child when they were abusing him #they made him feel weak when they spent that week hurting him #and they took away the only thing that ever made him feel truly strong #he wanted to hurt them back and it was a tremendous loss to not even have that #sea glass gardens

[quietwingsinthesky]

8!!!!

8) How should the afterlife have been “resolved”? Did the fixing of Heaven work?

no, see, i think it’s hilarious that they spent like 11 seasons trying not to be Heaven’s bitches and then got stuck in there anyway by their son-god like dogs put in their crates while the owner goes to work. they live down the street from their toxic dad and girlboss mom who are, (presumably) due to being heaven assigned soulmates, also damned to being trapped in their coerced marriage in the afterlife for the rest of time. eventually, sam’s kid and blurry wife are going to die and make this even more weird and awkward. it’s amazing. my only note is that supernatural seemed to think this was a happy ending <3 they should know better <3

(but as for how I would fix it. i mean, that would require also rewriting the last few seasons of Empty shit to be more. final. rather than a revolving door that Cas and Lucifer keep wandering in through. And then I would throw everyone into the Empty!!! go the fuck to sleep!!! peace when you’re done jesus christ!!! would have also killed sam and dean together in either a freak accident or a murder-suicide :3)

(and. okay i swear last one. but for my most self-indulgent “fix” of the supernatural afterlife, i would have brought amara back and had her eat all the dead souls, heaven or hellbound. and eat anyone who dies in the future. and then through her destruction, give jack (new baby god!) the power to create. if we have to have a semi-happy ending here. i mean, i regard this cycle of reincarnation as a happier ending then eternity in heaven/hell/the empty, but then again, supernatural is very christian at the end of the day, and i am very Not.)

#ask #amara picks chuck up by the scruff and punts him across the galaxy and bonds with her grand-nephew instead #spn #but really tho. your posts esp have completely convinced me that supernatural’s afterlife ending should stay exactly as it is 😌 #it’s awful terrible and they will never escape it or each other. #u know. at least sam has experience with being stuck in a cage. so he’s got that going for him. maybe jack will even come stick his fingers #through the bars sometimes to pet sam’s nose. before dean starts barking and biting and jack leaves them locked in alone again.

[roobylavender]

although i have a lot of hard feelings about romance novels and often come out of them 9/10 times with hatred and embarrassment laced into my heart i do think most people can agree that romance novels at large have developed in response to the control over people's sexual lives and how that's subsequently led to a desperate desire from the sexually repressed to be equal participants in a sexual environment. it's not so much that women want to be in relationships with dominant men to whom they play housewife or baby incubator or worse. it's that women want to be in relationships at all. and because the standard for relationships at large is the nuclear family, this is what subsequently shows up in your literature. why do you think religious women in particular are such a huge audience for romance novels despite the often conservative environment they grow up in? it's bc the consumption of romance novels does not exist in spite of that conservatism but bc of it. to be gatekept from any expression of sexual desire until you marry or until you fornicate for the purposes of having a child is to breed in young women a desire for what we would now no longer consider practices entailing any self-respect. you're kept in an ideological cage all of your life, naturally you reach for what's immediately out of reach rather than consider that there could be more out there that is available to you. it sucks! it's sad, it's horrific, it makes me wanna cry. but i can also never quite blame women for it bc they're not the ones who've created this environment of sexual conservatism (ie the real puritan culture, the one that hypersexualizes virgins by obsessively protecting their chastity prior to marriage bc said chastity can only ever belong to one man). man has. religion has. patriarchy has. why would i focus my hatred on women who are merely coping with the status quo rather than the systems in place that we actually have to change to allow for more sexual freedom and agency?

#to be deleted #like to tell you the truth. do i consider myself to be more self aware than most romance novel readers. yeah #but i'm twenty six. i grew up in a household where dating and sex were completely forbidden and i still live in it #and at all times i feel like i am constantly yoyoing between 'do i want to get married just so i can experience what sex is like' #and 'sex sounds horrid and controlling and disgusting and i would rather die a virgin' #sometimes i feel insanely deprived of an outlet and yet i don't ever pursue one bc the associated psychological guilt is unbearable #and then on top of it i'm a born hater so whatever high i presumably /could/ get from romance novels i simply. don't #but that's not the case for every woman. not every woman is born a hater nor has the mental fortitude for that #some of them want to cope. and idk i feel so bad like it makes me feel actively. depressed that this is what they have to turn to #bc they genuinely don't understand that there's more. that what's being held away from them like a reward #isn't actually a reward. it's bare minimum. it's exactly what religion and patriarchy want them to do #and unfortunately i am nonetheless party to it! i am convinced i could never kiss or have sex with a woman even though i vaguely want to #bc the religious guilt is supreme. it rules my brain despite not ruling it in so many other areas

[zahra-hydris]

I love when I never get any gaming time (baby + sick partner + disgusting amount of work to do on my 'leave')

and I want to play a million things (bg3 + coral island when 1.0 comes out tomorrow + I bought mass effect legendary edition on sale + I have the urge to play ffxiv again)

but then I actually get some time to play and I just... do nothing or do something else

#I haven't played bg3 in AGES and I want to do another galemancer + play mirielle + a durge #and I kinda wanna finally do a complete ME run with blair (I never finished me3 with her...) #and I know I'm gonna be obsessed with coral island again once 1.0 comes out #and I miss maty..... #but here I am just mindlessly looking at websites and/or being convinced by the partner to play fucking diablo with him

[robotsafari]

this has to be a metaphor. for something

#robo ramble #im just going to read this as a thinly veiled metaphorical critique for the writing of the guild in xrd. #the writers made him faithful to the DQ blue raspberry misty float. all of his character development thrown in the trash completely #missing the point of the entire guild's story in favor of the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float coming back on the menu. #people liked the taste of the misty float but never got the point of its creation. it was only the taste they wanted. you could've easily #recreated this taste but they sought to return it in the worst way possible. without getting the point either. #that misty float ruined the lives of the people around him. and yet diary queen missed the point in favor of genre defining puppet characte #they wrote him back in and just made everyone around him feel like i guess everything is fine now??? its horrendous. #they made venom continue to be faithful to the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float. they tried to convince him that he had saved his #life all along or something?? #like?????? the fuck. thats awful. horrible taste in my mouth-- LIKE THE HORRIBLE TASTE OF THE DAIRY QUEEN BLUE RASPBERRY MISTY FLOAT. #like if you wanted to make the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float playable again then just revive eddie and only eddie like tf?? you #could've come up with an excuse to make him live without a host. i mean you came up with bedman suddenly reprograming his bed in his final #moments what that doesnt make sense but ok.......... #its better than diary queen blue raspberry misty float #i did it. these gifs have officially made me go insane. please dont read these tags.