#but im rlly tired so maybe tmrw

[artemis-moon101]

theres something poetic about being young and picking up the little yellow dandelions and calling them flowers. and every single time an adult says no thats a weed. don't give it to me thats not a flower thats a weed. its ugly and its bad because of what we call it. so you stop picking them. you stop putting them behind you ear or tying the stems together. nobody likes weeds anyways, right?

#dandelions #does this count as poetry #i want to make it like. an actual poem but idk how #poetry #flowers #there could be another part about unlearning this thought process and picking them again #but im rlly tired so maybe tmrw

[marsbotz]

goodnighttttt everypony [demons clawing at me]

#ok ok. ok. its fine #i have defineitly got so bad again lol oh well #its whatevr im excicted bc i get to play side order finally tmrw #but i also have to go shopping and i think maybe to the drs???? or smth idk i forget what they said #whatever [curls up into a teeny tiny ball like a bug] #[curls up so small i disappear and u cant see me and have to use a magnifyibg glass so u dont step on me] #whyyyyy why whyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!! ^_^ ohhhh the agony ahhhhhhh #[starts tearing away at the floorboards w my teeth but i look rlly cute so u dont say anything abt it] #i wish i cld put images in tags #or like custom emojis i wish we had custom emojis on here #im so tired but im gonna set my alarm early tmrw againi love getting up early #and i need to get shopping done before 11 so i can get back to opick up my switch #bbbbbbbbb #ok this actuslly sucks im going to sleep now bye

[soldier-poet-king]

At all times there is a child in my head banging pots and pans together desperately wailing 'UNLOVED! UNLOVED! UNLOVED!'

#franposting #the child is louder theyre harder to ignore sometimes #like when ive been thinking abt love and faith and guilt and redemption and desire and pride and romance and everything too much #its not true. maybe. my few friends care in a distant way. my family cares as well as theyre able i suppose #im just. I'm not loved in the way(s) i want to be #and sometimes im tired of carrying burdens i pretend i dont even have #im tired or being brave and strong and determined all on my own #its for the shire sure. but im tired and often it doesnt feel like it has a point #im tired of life dragging me over hot coals and pretending it's something i chose for myself #it makes it easier sometimes. that self deception. but its ultimately untrue #i am so weak and afraid and lonely #i can only romanticize the solo burdens and duties and obligations and lonelt sad heroes for so long before i crack #all my heroes die all alone. tswift was right. the archer is rlly it #im going to bed. ill deal with this tmrw. probably badly. but oh well it's rhe weekend #cant go work it off at the gym bc pain hasnt passed. will be a few days still #so ill just. stew ig

[bunnihearted]

.

#lied in my bed for 11 hours but i only slept maybe 40 minutes #the anxiety was just too much #anyway im tired but also i just feel so sad so idec #i should rlly study the entire day today so that i can take a test tmrw #but there's the construction RIGHT OUTSIDE. the constant noise is insufferablr #headphones or earplugs and closed window dont help #the bangs reverberate in my entire body #i miiiiight make myself go to the library and study for maybe an hour. and then study later when the construction is done #idk im so sad i dont wanna do anything but.... if i dont take this test tmrw i risk failing and i cannot fkn afford that #i dont care but i have to

[yukinyaminyato]

every day i tell myself i'm gonna dye my hair today and then i don't.

#i get home tired & realize how much hair i have & be like 'ok i'll do this the next day' 🤪 #but maybe i'll do it tmrw fr (or during the weekend at the latest) 🤧 #im so bored of how my hair looks but im also scared of dyeing it bc it's a whole project that takes so long #sectioning is a pain but i also don't want the result look super patchy #tho my hair already looks patchy bc of how the previous dye has faded 🥴 crazy to think i haven't dyed/touched up my hair in 2 months #this time i rlly think im going blue tho. which is extra scary but. yolo. #my posts

[lightningfilledsaber]

I FUCKING WALKED 6.5 MILES IN ONE GO TODAY

#mud rambles #I'm still catsitting lmfao and because my tire AND rim is fucked and it's sunday i do not have a car!!!! #and i can't leave those cats unfed for an entire day!!!! #I was able to get a ride home but i wouldnt have been able to get a ride there in time and i was already not there as early as i wouldve lik #on the bright side. she is supposed to be home tmrw so i shouldnt have to do that again EL OH EL #i give credit mostly to the testosterone and my naturally large calves for being able 2 do that because. #this is not a normal thing i do. i dont work out consistently at all #im. like. it sucked i had to do that but also the fact i was able to makes me rlly proud #and getting to be outside and just walk was nice especially once i caught that second wind LMFAO #having to wait for. like two hours to be picked up kinda sucked but it was peaceful. it was just too cold and getting dark so i couldnt walk #all the way back home safely because the walk is. already not fucking safe lmfao and i was wearing ALL BLACK #yeah. not fucking chancing it #i had sidewalk literally for like. 300 FEET. MAYBE #like. I live in the fucking rural ass northeastern part of the appalachian mountains. we have main routes but it's still assfuck nowhere #i am not walking 6 and a half miles IN THE FUCKING DARK especially when we're in the middle of a warm front #we have coyotes and bears and while mountain lions arent typically in my area... it would be my fucking luck to get fucking murked by one #and like. deer may not be predators but. nepa. rural areas. NIGHT??? I am not chancing coming across something ELSE. ifykyk #anyway. i am home now. all is well. but goddamn i am having an eventful ass start to the fucking year huh

[insert-neologism]

ome tthing abt me is. that u can send me anything n i care

#mitos incredible life #otam #like. even if it's the most mundane shit ever (esp then) like Idk 'saw a cat today' (though tbh everyone would want to know that) #or 'my bathroom floor is white tiles' #like tumblr is literally the nightsky and all of us are stats. n we see each other n everything but that's abt it rlly #(pretend discord doesnt exist that's like second base or smth) #n sometimes part of a star will Idk fall in another one and thats meeting irl but it's comparably rare #forgot where i was gojng with this. anyways i mean I do jnteract with modt of yall at lesrt weekly #OH RIGHT i meant im judt a star and im får away etc so it's pretty reasonable to judt. Not care that much. yk? #and we're all just a blip in each other's lives. maybe my phone breaks tmrw and I forget my tumblr login and will neve come back #and thats it with user insert-neologism n the tide washes over and I will be forgotten #maybe it's bc I love ppl. and connection I think thazs important to me but I do think even the modt mundane thing sbt you is important #it be bc we love in different cultures. or judt bc ure another human n live differently ans evesthjng #i love learning sbt ppl and I might forget yalls names but u have nicknames anyways fr #yeah thazs abt it dont even know if I got my point across but im top tired to read it all. love you

[lovecrazedpup]

idk

#i wanna cry but honestly i dont rlly know why #idk why the anxiety of doing certain things is so bad but #he just doesnt understand and i dont get it like im trying !!! #you arent !! really helping !! #i dont even enjoy the game man im literally just doing it for you #maybe if i was prettier he would be happy just being in call and staying with me lol #whatever its fine <3 #this is so doomed hes just gonna wake up tmrw and leave me #i dont care anymore #gonna fucking cut myself yay why cant i do literally ANYTHING RIGHT #i wait around all day bc i assume hes busy ?? wrong #he tells me he isnt working and doesnt ask to call so i leave him alone ? wrong #i play with friends ? wrong #im so tired i just wanna end it #i dont wanna be alone rn i really dont im gonna do smth i regret but its fine #just kill me already pls #jamie.txt

[thalassic-p4rk]

hello and welcome to our reaction to the first like 5 minutes of ring of fire while half asleep. we’re gonna keep watching it later cuz i’m in school currently and don’t wanna get like bullied or sum shit lmfao so yeah have fun 😭😭

yall are gonna hear our thoughts for this actually.

holy shit it’s fkn gorgeous already gd

aaand we get the sleepy theme? hell yeah

LMAO NOT THE SAME BITCHES FROM THE BARRIER REEF

YUH SING IT HALIBEET

OMFG IS THIS ANOTHER MUSICAL??????

i don’t think it is BUT I NEED IT TO BE

OMFG BARNACLES

MY DEAR SWEET BABY BOY OMGOMGOMG

BUBBY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

HES SO *shakes him*

HES SO SILLY OMFG

AHAHA KWAZII WHAT ALARM IS THAT

K FUCKIBG LOVE YOU

getHOLY SHIT THE SONG!!! ITS THE VEHIMAL’S THEME!!!! I FKN LOVE THE VEGIMALS THEME!!!!!!!anyways get it peso fhjgdghhf

ooooooo funky instrumentation

BRO SHELLI WHAT THE FUCK ???? SGJFSFHFD

BBBBBBB

this is a rlly nice frame i’ve paused on actually, you can really tell the movie budget is working lmao

the lighting is fucking gorgeous, and i can tell they got to be more creative with the character rigging. for example, the way barnacles is standing rn in combination with the rendering makes him look very realistic with his relaxed posture and pose. very well done.

EEE HIS VOICE IS SO BOUNCY N HAPPY :DDD

AAAAASFGSFJFDHGD OMFG I LOVE HIM THEY DOD HIM SO GOOD IN THIS

HIS *STANCE* BRO ITS SO

*screams into pillow*

i think m too tired for this actually

mayb like finish this one scene? yeah ok

SO PRETTY

SO HAPPY

ALL MY BBS

LIVING THE DREAM

ah shit i can see where this is going

that’s incredibly unfortunate 💀

OOOOO YAS BITCH GET THAT OPENING CARD

SAY THAT TITLE

WERK

SGJFFJUF

EEEEEE SILLY

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

HES SO HES SO HES SO

*MMMMMMMMMMMM*

pretty boy prettyyyyyy boyyyyyyy im

i live him literally so fucking much it’s unhealthy

HES SO PRETTY 🥺🥺

“good morning, i hope you had a good night sleep! ^-^”

sobbing

shellington and dashi being besties yes please

that is

so unfortunate

DFHGDHHF HES SO SUPPORTIVE HHHHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

HELP I JUST I JUST

IDEK

IM ON MY PERIOD AND I JUST LIKE FUCKIN

LAUGHED?? SQUEALED?? SCREAMED???

SO HARD AND NOW WE HAVE A ✨PROBLEM✨

BUT ANYWAYS-

THE WAY HEEEEEEEEEEEE

yk that one trend on tiktok where ppl like run/dance/flip/overall be dramatic asf to “when he sees me” from waitress? that’s the best way to describe what i am mentally doing rn.

i am unwell i don’t think i should keep watching rn i don’t have the energy to be feeling these feelings. that sucks, oh well, ill rewatch some comfy episodes that won’t give me an aneurysm yeah?

see yall tmrw nini

#octonauts #octonauts fandom #captain barnacles #captain barnacles is so babygirl coded #he is everything to me #he is so silly #i am going through it #i am not doing well #i think ive lost it #octonauts reaction #reaction #unhinged screaming #help #octonauts and the ring of fire #why am i like this #it hurts #the brainrot has consumed me

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

Ykno the two things i want in this world are awesome sexy badass horns and a way to have everyhing hurt less all the time so if i ever play dnd again my characters gonna b a tiefling w mobility aids n they will live out my dream and be awesome and cool. And kill ppl w hammers. The end goodnight im so tired and my back hurts so much anddd gonna finish off gomens2 tmrw bc yeaaaaa ok

Actually no yknow how sometimes u get like phrases that circulate round n round in ur head yknow. Like. Sometimes itll just be a noise ive heard a lot in the day or w/e. Rn i have like 3. Onebein the charlie slimecicle corn video but specifically the "whats up mother shuckers my name is cornelius cornwall whatevwr the fuck idk man the third" part. Another is some southern old guy sayin "yknow back in my day we didnt have" and then it cuts off there n loops. Another is actually alsooooo fuckinnnn. Its a bitb song itsss wandering around galloway. Its bee playin on repeat like my own custom horror movie bg music except its rlly unfitting for my current situation. And the final thing is amth that is just always circulating my head, and its the conversation err fuckinnn nathan n chloe have in lis rght before nathan shoots chloe fuck ok omg i forgot nathans name 4 a second bc lik i KNEW it was nathan but i was like dude what if im making this up bc of nathan hanover bc his musics in my head rn but nah hes nathan prescott. Got a lotta nathans in my head. Got a charlie and a Old Guy and a nathan and a nathan and a chloe. Wowie. Anyways my heads bein soooo loud rn like i also got rolan deep in on this action talkin abt shoelaces. Ok yea bye mother shuckers im sleepy tired now anddd tmrw i bake cookies w my frienddd anddd watch gomensss andddd maybe watch some more prime defenders oooo i keep typing pride defenders by accident but that works 2 those mother fuckers r gay ashell godnight

#night thoughts

[coeurify]

i feel rlly tired and sick so im pretty unhappy w my writing tm(just cried over trying to write a req lol) . feel free to leave some reqs (ellie or abs plzz.. maybe some smut🫣 or fluff) and if i feel better tmrw ill write some.

i currently am abt half way through a farmers!daughter x farm helper! ellie, meet cute w ellie, and subby!ellie req so expect those too haha.

#rin talks ❀.

[boycannibal]

bro im.

#ed tw #we stayed up til 5am and at some point he turned on the camera for some time #and at some point i joked i might turn on the camera too #and we talked about our preferences in people like physical ones #and he said hes not rlly a fan of round faces and very eagle noses #and like at some point he asked me to turn on the camera and i did because well i dont really care and i like him #except that apparently i do care. because i got so insecure about my face i straight up dont want to eat anything tmrw #like yeah its an oval because everyone tells me it is but also i probably have body dysmorphia so i think i look fat because im a healthy #weight.. #and after i turned the camera on and off (quickly because i got insecure fast lol) he said he had to go to bed #which fair because its 5AM ! but also that timing was so unfortunate it made me feel a little like he went to bed bc i wasnt worth talking #to after he saw me. #which i know is so ridiculous because he saw me before and if he thought me disgusting he would NOT ask to see me on camera again #even if i suggested it #so i might be at least ok to look at which is an improvement to how i feel about myself rn #so like. rational thoughts please fight it #the plan is i think that tomorrow i do my hair actually nice and maybe do a little makeup on my eyes and get nicer lightning #and tell him that yesterday i looked like shit because i was tired #like man. i know he doesnt mean any of it but also hearing him say that he doesnt like chubby faces is not good for my psyche #because it makes me right away think about how much i weighted tomorrow morning and guilty for the chocolate i ate (that still ended up #at my maintanance calories but whatever) #like man thats not even good nutritious food i feel so bad about it.

[bo0zey]

my friend who doesn’t have adhd and just wants an adderall perscription: i definitely have adhd like i never pay attention and i’m such a procrastinator omg lol btw i’m at the library studying and doing homework that’s not due until 3 days ugh what are you doing have you started studying yet we have those worksheets due tomorrow remember and it’s already 6pm! omg what do u mean u haven’t started the paper yet it’s literally due in 3 hrs omg no it’s ok i’ll just send u mine bc i’ve been working on it all day haha and omg i’m trying to pay attention to the lecture can u stop talking to me why r u reading online manga in class the exam is in 2 days pay attention! also i need caffeine to stay awake i love monster energy drinks they work so well i won’t be able to sleep tonight oh no also i took adderall 3hrs ago and now i’m super anxious but it’s not the adderall lol ugh i won’t be able to sleep tonjght ughh

me, someone who actually has adhd, pre-diagnosis: studying is so hard and i don’t want to do it and i literally can’t until hours before the exam and by then i’m so exhausted bc it’s like 3am but if i drink coffee or monster or bang i just get sleepier also i procrastinate entire research papers including the research hours before the due date even tho i knew abt the paper for a month and i wrote it in my assignment notebook every day knowing i needed to do it and i drink coffee before bed bc it relaxes me n makes me sleepy im constantly moving and shifting in my seat in class and i got paid 4 hrs ago and bought $500 worth of amazon products and now i don’t have any money for groceries for the next 2 weeks my thoughts go so fast and they’re so loud i can’t follow a conversation let alone a class lecture paying attention to anything i don’t care abt but am supposed to is impossible if i don’t write everything i need to do down i will forget about it and if i put my keys or vape or anything somewhere besides it’s designated spot for 1 minute i will literally forget where it is and if something isn’t directly in my line of sight i will forget i have it so i have to place everything in my line of sight for me to remember to use it and ok i’m at work i have a 14hr shift and a set of tasks i need to complete omg i’m so overwhelmed and frazzled i write down the list of tasks every shift and check off boxes to remember to do things but even then i still fall behind and why am i overwhelmed i know what i have to do please don’t ask me to do that thing i’m already trying to remember to do one thing ahhh ok i’m so exhausted it’s 12am and everyone’s asleep i have 3hrs left of my shift omg i’m so bored and tired ok i will have coffee and an energy drink to wake up bc i don’t wanna fall asleep here and i have an hour drive back home and oh wow i am now driving on the way and dozing off i am so sleepy sleepy sleepy why can’t i stay i awake i had 300mg of caffeine like 2hrs ago i’m going to crash the car why isn’t this energy drink working and hmm ok it’s now monday night i have school tmrw it’s 11pm i guess i’ll try n sleep i have class at 9am oh wait what is this sudden wakefulness i feel i am very awake i think i will maybe try to do homework to get tired actually no i think i will go on the internet instead hmm look at those cool show i think i will watch it ugh ok that was the longest 30min of my life i will not be able to watch another episode for at least 2 days probably oh it’s 3am i need to sleep but i can’t shut my brain off ugh oh no this sucks i hate myself why can’t i just get my shit together i know what i have to do but i just can’t fucking do it it’s so frustrating i’m trying so hard but i keep self sabotaging why why why

me, after being diagnosed w adhd and starting medication: wow for the first time in 8 years i’m actually paying attention in class and actively following what my professor is saying. i think i will do some homework now so i am not overwhelmed later. uh oh my dishes are starting to stack up i think i will clean them instead of starting a new pile. hmm my room is getting a little messy i think i will put things away including the clean clothes on that chair i’d been avoiding putting away for a week. i am following our conversation and i will wait until you are finished until it is my turn to speak instead of blurting out or interrupting you. oh i just got paid! hmm do i really need all of that online shopping stuff..? i think i will wait for a little bit and come back to it if i rlly want it bc what if something happens during the week and i need money to pay for it? oh i have to go to work it’s a 14hr shift; i am able to complete the tasks i need to do with ease bc i know what to do and when to do them and am no longer overwhelmed. i don’t need to drink that energy drink bc i know it will just make me more sleepy and i’ll doze off at the wheel on the highway and i don’t want that! ok i’m home yawn i think i will try n go to sleep it’s 11pm and i am genuinely tired.

#like just say u want an adderall perscription and go don’t fucking claim to have adhd its so invalidating to ppl that actually have it #and then she has the nerve to say i don’t have it when i literally check off almost every symptom and she doesn’t even actually check off 1 #also my mom had it and my lil brothers also definitely have it like it runs in my family no one in hers has it #it’s just so frustrating and invalidating bc stimulants honestly changed my life im so grateful #and she’s like lol how r u going to have adderall n NOT give it to me wtf our other friend does and im like bitch because #you and that other friend don’t actually fucking have it that’s why she’s so willing to give u her meds #but i literally need mine to function on a daily basis #also ever since i started adderall my DPDR is waaaaay less prominent now like i barely have episodes anymore unless i’m in a depressive epi #ok sorry rant over lol #ramblings #actually adhd

[caruliaa]

okwait it isnt late but i do neeeed to try and sleep bcuz i have an exam tomorrow morning 😳😳 which. i think i am going to do poorly on anyway but bring tired wont help KSBDJDBHDBDHSH LMFAO…. so yeah sorrie if this is short but i did justwant to say!!!!!! that getting to vc today was such such a highlight of my day. (like always!!!) like in fact the most good fun part of it and im just so grateful to know you and get to like chat w u and hear ur voice and hear ur thiughts and watch a blorbo show together w/ u and enjoy the lovely ship carulia together and enjoy sm w u bcuz u are sosoo amazing and i trulie rlly do love you so much!!!!! and i care so much for you and about you and i know you do for me to and i rlly rlly appreciate that smmm and it makes me feel so warm and safe and stuff so yeah!!!! you rlky are a true true friend i love youuuuyyyyyuuuuu!!!! (hugs u tight if you wld like to!! 💕💕❤️❤️💕❤️❤️❤️)

GOOD LUCK ON UR EXAM MX !!!!! ok ik im answering this after uve finished it but !!!! i saw this ask at school this morning when i cldnt answer it nd mentally wished u luck so i hope maybe tht helped !! nd regardless of how u did feel free to message me abt it if u wish too (nd dw abt being it being short u dont eve have 2 esp when u have an exam nd need sleep !!! and oohhh ur so so sweett luce omgg ;; !!! it was such a highligh of my day too when we got 2 vc it rly was !! :'> i j rly love sm watching stuff w u nd talking w u nd hearing ur voice nd thoughts on things it makes me so so happyyy always always like i rmemeber on friday being so excited bc i was like "i get 2 call luce tmrw !!!" bc like whenever we talk it rlyrly does bring me sm joy nd it makes me soso 🥺🥺🥺 bc like i rlyryl do wanna make u so so happy too my belovedd ;; !!! bc u rlyrly do deserve sm joy and happiness i tihnk bc like ur rly such a wonderful incredible person my dearest nd u rly rly do mean thee world 2 me and yea i just love you so so so muchh my dearest i rly do !!! :'> *hugs you back sm and if u wish gives u a littol kith on thee cheek !!* 💗💗💗💞💞💞❣❣❣ /p

#i love you soso mcuhh sm ;'> mwah mwah mwah !! #flappy rambles #asks #lucy ! #fave

[legobatjoker]

mx u are so amazing did i knoe ilysm.. also um yeah i kinda wanna vc nd watch the third tinkerbell but im also kinda tired rn so we will see -___- maybe we cld vc a bit later even if it isnt long enough to watch the movie if thats okay w u ! regradless i think ill feel better tmrw so we can def watch it then if not today :>

YEA THAT SOUNDS GOOD tmrws better for me probably tbh bcuz today i should rlly be doing hw HSBSJSBJ

#if u wanna vc later lmk but no pressure !! if ur tired i 100% get that !! :>> nd we can just message nd stuf #mewtuals #castle.answers

[grvntld]

6 november 2020

— today was a lot

and still im not ready for tomorrow. you see tomorrow is my and my boyfie's target date to meet for our upcoming anniversary and i havent packed (i decided to do it tmrw instead). we are going on a staycation that's just in the metro. there's gonna be a bathtub. *wink w0nk

anyway, back to today... i was able to finish a lot on my job. i was also able to go above and beyond and give my boss a rundown of where we are in regards to my tasks. i feel like i rlly did an awesome job today — this week, if i say so myself. i finished everything by two in the afternoon; and while all that was happening, i was trying to book myself an ipl procedure. the clinic that i have been reaching out to since tuesday... well, let's just say it didn't pan out well. they responded to me only after i got home. maybe i'll give them another chance next time. i'll try their facials or whatever. they have good reviews, but sadly, from what i hv experienced, theyre not so good with responding to their communicaion channels as of the moment — and to think i hv reached out to them via ig, fb, and even mobile. ahck, right?

anyway, i was able to find a different spa slash clinic for my ipl needs. the people there were very nice and accommodating and responsive. in just a single call, i got a schedule for 5pm. i also got it for a very low price, bc theyre having a 50% promo for this month.

and then, i went to the mall and paid our internet bill. we tried to pay it online, but obvs, that didnt pan out well too and im already too tired to go blah about it. the ending is i was able to pay it still anyway, so it was all good.

lastly, i bought some stuff on my way home. i got a cleanser. i was supposed to get cetaphil, but as much as it is really great for sensitive skin, i remember using it before and i wasnt rlly that happy abt it, so i opted for neutrogena deep clean foaming cleanser. i also got myself a facial scrub, some sheet masks, alcohol, nivea creme, and another thing that i dont want to put here, so you'd die of curiosity, you litol boundary overstepper. just kidding! hehe.

#cookie #i actually enjoyed today even though im still scared and anxious every time i go out