#but i wasnt

[chainedspectre]

halfway through newsies and i was not prepared for the sheer use of the word crip jesus christ

#i feel like i should have been prepared for this #but i wasnt #typing this through santa fe btw #crutchie being taken away has shook me a bit #wasnt expecting the absolute aggression #newsies #crutchie #crutchie morris #crutchie newsies #tw c slur

[leelum]

Mother chose today to trauma dump on me to try and explain all her shitty behaviour. Truly glad if she's ready to get help and realizing this stuff and improving.

#but i wasnt

[moony-ghoul]

SHOUT OUT TO THE KIDS WHO HAD ROLLEY BACK PACKS IN SCHOOL

#I WAS ONE OF THEM #I MISS THAT THING IT WAS SO GOOD #THEY WERE VERY POPULAR WHEN I WENT TO AN INDONESIAN SCHOOL THEN I CAME BACK TO AUSTRALIA AND EVERYONE THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD #BUT I WASNT #I WAS BETTER THAN THEM

[sillverstreets]

this is me being kinder to myself i guess

#telling myself this is a big deal and it is NOT okay #instead of the opposite #yeah sure he was unaffected by it #but i wasnt #and i hate it #but im accepting it

[xdominiklivakovicx]

He is a baby

#dominik livakovic #football #dinamo zagreb #goalkeeper #IF I WAS AT MY HOME TOWN I WOULD LIKELY ASK HIM TO SIGN MY SHIRT #BUT I WASNT #I WANT TO GO HOME >:0 #omg he wore pink kit #we all know u livi

[numbereightforever]

SMTV hard

#i thought i was ready for the boss #but i WASNT

[lunarsapphism]

i hope that someday this will all get better

#i know it wont #thats the nature of the situation #but i can hope right? #sometimes it makes me wish i had been raised religious #so i would have something to believe in #something invisible feeling like it was supporting me whether it was really there or not #but i wasnt #its lonely yknow? #what an isolating experience this one is #nobody understands #and i dont mean in that cliche 'nobody could ever understand me' way #but like they truly will not and cannot ever understand my perspective to its full extent #and thats fucking terrifying to me #everyone i love will continue to see examples of my bad days and still they will never get to know what it feels like #of course i wouldnt wish this upon any of them but sometimes i do wish at least just one of them knew what it actually felt like #i guess it would make me feel better somehow #cause right now they just sort of have to take my word for it #i dont know why i want to be understood so badly #but i do #maybe it would help #maybe it wouldnt #i dont know #i always say i hope this will all go away #or that it will get better #but i think i just hope it becomes something i can bear more easily #im so exhausted #aiilov-personal

[theartofsimpleomens]

Nick’s character that goes with my tiger gal. We will ultimately have a tiger, a raven, and a fox themed character in our group so I made a little limerick while tipsy:

A murder, a skulk, and a streak

The adventurers make a strange clique

Each one of them doomed

But safety’s assumed

Alas their outlook is bleak

Also: my girl is Indian, nick’s is Norse, and bart’s is Celtic. ANd they all have connections with divinity, my girl thinks she is a reincarnation of a god, nick is making a character based on Munin aka one of odin’s birds and is also a cleric of an ice god, and bart was blessed to be able to “steal luck” by his god. idkkkkk i just really like the trifactor we have going here

#I know a group of ravens isn't a murder #it's an unkindness #but murder worked better for the flow #and this was made on the spot #because i thought i was hilarious #but i wasnt #i was just drunk

[its-just-the-chemicals]

i dont think people understand that i would kill for a friend group. a group a friends to do things with.

but no. sometimes i remember how absolutely alone i am and it makes me want to scream and kill myself. how is life worth living if i have no one to spend it with.

sure i have a couple friends here and there but even those friends have friend groups and sure i know some of them but im not a part of it. i just watch. observe. hate myself.

i am ultimately just the background friend.

a permanent outsider

#im just sad #sad poetry #i guess #not really #autism #neurodivergent #bpd #depression #i hate it here #im starting to wish i was successful #but i wasnt #so here we are #somehow #the universe better have a fricken plan for me or im going to go full villian mode

[catmask]

does anyone have like an anti aesthetic. like something you look at and can recognize as a complete fashion/interior design/artistic movement and understand it but it makes you shudder seeing it. i am not talking like “its morally bad” “its poorly structured” like just sheerly devoid of joy for you actually invites a repulse response.

#also if it wasnt clear this isnt ‘its bad its lazy’ there is a level of like #completion consistancy i am thinking for with this #personally i really do not enjoy the like. vintage chic long red nails fur coats noir esque aesthetic HOWEVER 💥💥💥 #i can recognize that it is put together it is Intentional #i feel like a lot of people are going to say minimalism on this so LET ME SAY 🫰☝️ i recognize that minimalism is Considered an aesthetic #but i *PERSONALLY* do not consider it an aesthetic i consider it the void of one #it is a lapse in aesthetic or personality in the same way a silence in a song is still technically a ‘beat’ but no music is played #however the importance of Space or Breath in design is more akin to a purposeful silence in music #because that silence matters in the same way rhythm and breath in design do #so i guess minimalism is more comparable to like. white noise. the sound of a fan #very little effort and there is a comfort in it i suppose but its not. A Design. okay #TO ME 🤫 #if minimalism has one hater its me if minimalism has no haters im dead

[lacaidadeedgar]

Thinking when I was forced to attend basketball lessons as a kid cause all my friends went And when my mother picked me up once she asked the instructor how I was doing and he said “Well, at least she’s having fun”

#but I wasnt

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this. #but like. brain. why did you do that #literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me #it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought #my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt. #i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case #because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now #also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay

[sunlit-mess]

I can't get enough of this deer

#messyr #doodle #artists on tumblr #i swear guys he wasnt even my fav since pilot until the show came back and got me hooked to him #hes got that ace rizz and it's too strong #AND IM CUPIOROMANTIC (but bisexual) #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel charlie

[wolfythewitch]

Statement begins

#art #sketch #jonathan sims #tma #the magnus archives #do i think he sits like this? no. do i think its funny to imagine? absolutely #brought to u by me who has sat in each of these positions #if he wasnt so absolute in caring for the files he'd probably nest in the boxes and files

[odetoscavengers]

Something that could have been

#femurs art #carolina parakeet #quagga #great auk #extinct animals #extinct species #this was for a school thing #this series was made for ME #also this isnt supposed to be realistic #so like. i know that thylacines wouldnt make very good hunting companions but that wasnt the point of the piece #thylacine

[crows-home]

part of my nimona viewing experience. idk why but i got super emotional in the first five minutes.

ID by @peachygos

[ID: A comic juxtaposing screenshots from Nimona 2023 and drawings of a person watching the movie. The first screenshot is Ambrosius's introduction; he grins at the camera as the news anchors introduce him, his name in big print on the screen. The person watching thinks with a bored expression, "Ah. Ok. This guy is gonna be the jackass. Typical golden-boy stuck-up prince that thinks he's better than the underdog. I see where this is going.

The next screenshot is of Ambrosius and Ballister on the platform above the arena, Ambrosius doing his news anchor bit and saying, "Aaand will Ballister be broody on the biggest day of his life?" Ballister laughs at his antics. The person watching now has a small smile, as they think, "Huh! Aw, they're actually nice to each other and are friends! I wasn't expecting that, that's nice-"

The third and final screenshot is a shot from behind of Ballister leaning his head on Ambrosius's shoulder. The caption reads "the knighting ceremony is just moments away." The person watching now has a touched, soft expression, like they're holding back tears. They think "OH." as a partially transparent doodle behind them bends over crying and blubbering, with another doodle showing their heart shot through with an arrow. /end ID]

#nimona #nimona movie #my art #i dont know WHY the relationship between these two made me so happy. genuinely. but i was tearing up when they held hands #idk man. just- the feeling of 'ah. friendship between these two men like always. i see-' and then #'OH. oh god theyre in love. that so sweet. i wasnt expecting that what the fuck.' #im not an outwardly emotional person