#but honestly its so frustrating

[alwayswritewithcoffee]

Between FF.Net and AO3 shenanigans, I'm thinking fics just get posted on Tumblr from now on.

#not that ive written anything in a minute #but honestly its so frustrating #not castle #fic stuff

[uncanny-tranny]

I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.

If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!

#mental health #mental health advocacy #it was just so annoying because every resource i could access for this project often ONLY recommended cbt and #that just doesn't seem helpful for a good chunk of people #because i know i never benefitted from that model of therapy #obligatory: i am not against this therapy. me having a negative experience with it is not indicative that i believe it should be abolished' #if it works for you: KEEP DOING IT. cbt is not inherently harmful for MANY people and it's a good and valuable tool for many #but the overemphasis of cbt as the Only Therapy Model You Need sends this message that YOU failed... #...if you don't miraculously recover with that therapy model. it often feels like you'll Fail Recovery/Therapy and you're now a Bad Person #i've tried for over a decade to stick out cbt with a dozen therapists to boot. so i think i know a thing or two about my experiences with it #and overall its an unimpressive model (for me) as someone whos had a history with abuse and miscellaneous mental knickknacks rattling around #it's also frustrating because i genuinely like psych and i love learning about people #it's just. i'm tired of only being exposed to cbt (because i hate it honestly) #i feel similarly about cbt as i do with sigmund fucking frued #anyway i just want other insane people (affectionate) to remember that they deserve to not beat themselves up over this #if you're an insane person reading this: i love you i love you i love you i love you #i will share a slice of cake and homemade bread with you <3

[purupurple]

Day 3 - Alternate job

emmet got the spotlight on day 2 so today i just drew ingo today. he's an office worker~ 💼 the tie is my favorite

#subtember #submastember #submas #pkmn #fanart #you took a man out of a train conductor uniform to put him in another suit with a tie? PURU WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS #was a bit frustrated this came out looking so stiff but honestly i think hes nervous so its fine maybe #obviously i had to make a reference to an extraordinary everyman. i just cant help myself

[aimasup]

sure i COULD ramble about how ai is one of the multiple things that check all the marks of humanity's seven deadly sins but would that be extreme

^^^ possibly insufficiently educated

#the pride the hubris of believing you can do better than innovation and nature by playing god and not in the fun way #the lust it's being used for in so many awful cases #the sloth the way its encouraging everyone to check original sources less before believing anything. Also to not take time to develop skill #the greed its being used for profit without consideration for ethics or fair labour #gluttony. we always have to be faster. shinier. better. no matter if it ends up being less convenient or wonky #the wrath it sows in between people creating more differences to be frustrated over. more hatred #the envy how it takes and takes. always trying to be as clever as the best humans. as beautiful as a real forest or sunset. #do you think the ai wants itself #if this were a scifi movie would we be the bad guys #but this is not a movie and the ai cannot love us. so we cannot love it. and there's that #my post #personal stuff #thinking aloud just silly yapping n jazz 没啥事做就这样咯~ #(￣▽￣)~* #when i was in primary school our textbooks for chinese had short stories and articles to learn about #there was a fictional scifi oneshot about a family in the future going to the zoo #the scifi zoo trip was going great until the zoo's systems went offline for a moment #and it was revealed that all the animals roaming in their enclosures were holograms #the real ones went extinct ages ago #when the computers came back online the holograms returned and there they were #honestly at first I thought it was a bit exaggerating #but I still think about it once in a while

[wowitsverycool]

please i don't want my video games to be toys. if the point of your game is to frustrate me by god please do that.... i feel sometimes that games are held back as an artform by their need to be. like. Products. in the sense that they're expected to be entertainment first and art second, yknow? a game will get praised for its wonderful story, but only if that story supports a Fun gimmick. it's like the art in games is seen as a vehicle through which gameplay is delivered, and when gameplay exists in service of artistic intent, it makes that game a Failed Product.

#i'm not even talking about the obvious siffrin icon frustration here #i mean like. #okay. #so i saw someone complaining about the undertale NM route right? and they conceded that its tedium was successfully in service of #its thematic purpose #but they countered that: people paid to play the game and 'two of the best boss fights' were 'locked' behind that tedium. #and it just staggers me to realize that video games are still widely just. content to consume. toys to pay for and play with and throw away #when they start being 'frustrating' or 'annoying' or what have you. #personally i think more games should just absolutely despise me as a player. quite honestly. #or even just... make me feel bad sometimes. bored even. if that's what their artistic intent is #its sooooo fucked up that games are both trying to survive as an artistic medium AND as a form of toy #and so artistic choices are criticized on their not benefitting a paying customer #and entertainment value is conflated with... having something to say

[arsenicflame]

the thing is, right, if izzy WAS evil i would still absolutely love him. hes a fictional character, i don't care about his morals if hes compelling.

but the frustrating thing is that hes not evil, hes not even the antagonist anymore by a long stretch, hes arguably more liked by the crew than ed at the moment, but people still insist that we are reading the text of the show wrong and its going to completely 180 and turn him into a cartoon villain when there is absolutely no sign of that in the show, from the cast and crew, anything!!!

its so ridiculously annoying that i feel i have to defend my stance on a character because some people are so determined to cast him into the roll of a villain he is not, and think that we are the wrong ones for simply reading what the show is putting out

#sorry to izcourse over here im jusy thinking #i think about izzys morality constantly because hes so interesting to me #i find him so compelling + its so frustrating to see people reduce him to this 1 dimensional villain when hes always been so interesting!!! #this is not my finest example of coherent thought but honestly i do not care to try and organise this into a proper argument #im fine w being incomprehensible. you get my point. #id still like him if he was evil but hes not and its frustrating to be told you shouldnt like him because hes the villain and mean to our #most precious innocent babies :( #you get the vibe. i love evil characters but izzy is not one of them #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #the izcourse #i have actually been thinking about like. what draws me to him. the desperation!!! its the desperation that tinges everything he does #idk its so boring if you make him evil like what. why would you do that when you could give him a real fucked up divorce

[yb-cringe]

not to be sappy but it was kind of cool for cellbit and forever to let foolish take his time translating the book leo left him. its important info, they could translate it much faster and just tell him what it says- but its important to foolish that he take the time to translate it himself. partly because its his kid and partly because hes come a long way in learning spanish and fuck it let the guy use that yknow

#qsmp #qsmp liveblogging #idk it was just cool that they didnt get frustrated like #it took them like what. less then a minute to read it themselves? #but its foolish and leo and hes reading it so. we’re all gonna be patient and let foolish do it himself #and he got like 90% honestly #if cellbit/mouses translations were correct which. in guessing they were

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

Can you draw Eddie please?(⁠・⁠–⁠・⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

I just love him very much and he is so cute and kind, so, pleasepleasepleaseplease draw him I'M BEGGING

HEY SO LIKE.... i made a comic....

headcanon that !! howdy and eddie work together to bring goods to everyone in welcome home if needed :D also.

apple family tree...

#welcome home #welcome home arg #welcome home fanart #eddie dear #howdy pillar #welcome home eddie #welcome home howdy #welcome home wally #wally darling #moen art #moen inbox #okay i know know KNOW that the colours are atrocious but #honestly ive been just trying to complete art and enjoy making it again hehe #welcome home is really helping with that :D/pos #ITS SO FRUSTRATING THAT MY ART IS NOT THE BEST BUT !!! i have to be bad first to become good i have to be bad first to become good i have t

[ashes-in-a-jar]

Every time i see people talk about their partners, every single time, my brain goes 'but how. How does that work. How is that achieved. What is the process that people go through to agree to like each other enough to become partners. What is love.'

Fellas I might probably most likely be aro

#its so obscure to me #im unfortunately sad about it and i shouldnt be. but honestly its frustrating to see something that most everyone else gets and i just. dont #mine

[bulletsxlattes]

Jaytim Ruiner AU 

#jaytim #Jason Todd #Tim Drake #dc comics #red hood #This game was punishing and frustrating. There were times I was so pissed and angry that I couldn't progress - but I often cant stop #thinking about it. Its really good with top notch music and atmosphere. It leaves a lot to be desired storywise but its super addicting and #honestly i picked it up cause I thought the MC looked like Jason :B #dude I suck at this game but i like it. #lattes'art

[saturated-soul]

He dares to binky after chewing through 2 cables, growling at me and waking up the whole house by throwing things around and pushing the play pen into my glass cabinets… 💀 at 1am

#this is about miffy btw 😃 #binky means he’s running and making happy high jumps in the air #honestly i’m lost at what to do when i give him so much toys enrichment change in environment and just doing everything i can #to stop him from being destructive but nothing is working #i love him but :)))))))) #its getting a lil frustrating ngl #bunny #bunblr #miffy

[homo-house]

re:hbomberguy, on the topic of citing sources, i want to say:

it is insane how many people on here don't even click the sources op links on their own post to learn more and just hit reblog saying "oh my i didn't know about this thank you for teaching me!". like guys CLICK THE LINK!! CHECK THE NOTES!!! CHECK THE SOURCE!.... i swear half the time the link is dead or takes you to a nonsense page (i see this a lot with art specifically???? and excerpts from magazines??) and some times the linked source disproves a claim the very post that linked it made and people just. don't bother to check, no one bothers to even reblog saying "hey that link is dead! here's a new, working link!" or "hey that link doesn't work, can you link the source again?" and when it comes to misinformation people just share without checking or looking at the notes where numerous people will (in the best case scenario) already be pointing out the misinformation

"OH BUT I CAN'T CHECK EVERYTHING I SEE ON THE INTERNET" there is a surefire way to prevent spreading this kind of stuff even if you don't have the time to fact check immediately. just accept it's fine to save a post for later if you can't look deeper into it right now!!!!! literally just reblog it in private or save the post as a draft so you can come back to it later and check. it won't kill you and in fact it will actually make your life a lot better lol

#hbomberguy #misinformation #plagiarism #adding those for reach honestly because im kinda pissed rn #heres some more on citing sources for this week! sometimes people cite sources and THEY DON'T EXIST. it is REALLY frustrating #people do this to PRETEND they linked to the original artist a lot here on tumblr when theyre actually linking 1- nothing or 2- google imgs #it drives me INSANE #and sometimes they will add “source: xyz magazine” and then you go look for it and there is no available source. its just a loop of- #one person quoting another on where the source came from and none of them actually checked the source #ALSO sometimes journalists will do this kind of crazy bullshit where they quote something from wikipedia thinking the wiki source is real- #and it turns out to not align with the statement in the wiki and so the journalist claims that without checking or sourcing and then #other news sources will quote the journalist on that cyclically up until the point where the journalist that used wikipedia as a source- #becomes a source for wikipedia #'confirming' the statement that actually came from there in the first place #there is a name for this phenomenom but i cant remember it if i find it i'll reblog with an addition #sorry if you saw this before i deleted it to word it better

[cottoncandysprite]

Hate that I had to make a whole AU just to give Nandor some goddamn character development

#hes so stubborn and stupid in canon its so frustrating #honestly put any character in SU snd they'd be Fixed #and i respect that fr #wwdits #nandor the relentless #ramblies

[pencilofawesomeness]

Hey Pencil, can I ask you what you think of Neuvilette's character after the end of the current Archon quest? Not gonna lie, I was a bit disappointed at how he and everyone else treated Furina, but I was curious about your thoughts on the matter

ohohohohohohohoho anon. Dear sweet anon, you've activated my trap card, otherwise known as the Pencil Essay card, because I have sooooo many thoughts about this.

I will say though, I see Neuvilette in context of the story quests too, especially Furina's, as well as his friendship stories and voicelines. So, er, spoilers for that I suppose, but I can't separate those bits away from his character at this point. Anyway.

I frickin love Neuvilette. As a character, he checks a lot of boxes of traits that I adore, like being hella old, a dragon, somewhat isolated from normalcy, a cinnamon roll that can kill you, and Doing His Best. Now, as an important addendum to this, the fact that he is a dragon is a crucial part of the basis, because that's where a lot of conflict starts. He's separated from his kind, he's not a human yet he is confined to a human form, he remembers that the elemental authority should be his but Celestia took it and the archons have it now. The idea he has that he will forever be isolated, and that there will forever be a certain taste of bad blood between him and the rest of the world is founded. And yet. AND YET. Long ago, Focalors asks for him to help lead Fontaine, and he!!! Agrees!!! Neuvilette's character is rooted in a sense of justice and fairness, and in such, he tries to remain open-minded, and thus, he must witness things for himself. When he is presented a change in perspective, he accepts it.

Honestly I thought the Archon Quest did this rather nicely. He worked with Furina, believing her to be Focalors, for years. While Furina did waaay too good of a job in being as showy as possible, their close proximity meant that some of her true ethics and anxieties did make themselves known to Neuvilette. He knew when Furina was panicking and lying, just not why. Likewise, he has had inklings of when she's been sincere, and also, has a better perspective on how other people perceive her. More on that in a second.

Knowing what we know in hindsight, the Archon Quest is....very harsh. But. I understand why it happened that way. It was very clear that neither the Traveler nor Neuvilette wanted to put Furina on trial, however, neither of them were able to get her to tell the truth in private, and time was of the essence. The threat of a whole populace dying (and!!!! People have already died at this point!!!! Civilians!!!) is kind of a big deal. Something happens, or they all die; full stop. Hence, calling out the big guns. Which, to their credit, was just meant as a display of pressure on an actual deity, not an actual trial with death sentences and the discovery that Furina was a stressed out human all along. Focalors wanted that, however, so all according to plan. But very much not what Neuvilette wanted.

Fast forward. For Neuvilette, I think there is something really special to be said that he cares about both Focalors and Furina. He's only ever seen glimpses of both, but when Focalors aims to die to give Neuvilette back what is rightfully his, he protests! He doesn't want that! If there was a way for Focalors to undo the sea, he would accepted that, despite the janky usurped power thing. She is making a divine sacrifice, one that nobody else will truly know, and he mourns the person that is lost for it. Meanwhile, for all that Furina acted as a mask, and acted as if she was entirely self-sustainable, Neuvilette has shown to be concerned over her as a person. He caves so quickly to meet with Arlecchino when it's clear she's nervous, he asks Traveler to look after her, he tries to ask her when she's clearly being flighty. Even little things, like when he tells Traveler to acknowledge Furina at the beginning of the quest when she's showing off, because he knows she equates attention to success (just not why) and he is throwing her a bone. Yes, he is exasperated just as frequently, but Furina is not making it easy at that stage. Her entire schtick is to purposely keep people at arm's length, to be entertaining before she's likable, so really, I think there's an impressive amount of patience to be had.

The thing I have noticed about Neuvilette is that he is the kind of just that is caring. The law is for the sake of the people, and thus, people have become his focus. He denies this for a long time on account of believing himself to be forever an Other, but it is persistent all the same. He quickly wants to see the melusines treated well and with respect when they are integrated with society. He wants to see justice for those who are hurt. He understands, even, when those who do wrong are not bad people, like with Wriothesley. Neuvilette is, at his core, a kind person; however, he is terrible at expressing care in ways we would expect it. In part because he's just Like That, and in other part because he spent so long unaware of it. Usually, this means that he takes things at face value. If a melusine is being threatened, then there is a problem regarding humans' view of melusines again; if Wriothesley crawls out of hell with a Vision and the new title of Duke, then that means he found something to live for and he will support it; if Furina asks for space, then he tries to give her space. Neuvilette is a sincere person, even if sometimes he misunderstands the emotional complexity afoot.

Back to Furina. When it's revealed that she is a human, and she absolutely crashes, Neuvilette may not be the picture of fatherly comfort, but he is there for her in the way she asks, and even, in the ways she doesn't. She wants to be left alone, because Furina is tired of a facade and at this point she believes that everyone will hate both the fake her and the real her. Neuvillete obliges, and he arranges to pay for her apartment and food and make sure she is taken care of, when Furina is clearly not thinking that far ahead. It's clear that he would visit more often, but he's busy being the effective Archon now, and also, he doesn't think Furina would want that. Face value interpretations and all that. However, Neuvilette still appreciates the good that Furina did accomplish, in the mask and out of it. He doesn't fully understand Furina's hangups, but he respects what she does or doesn't want to do.

Now, Furina absolutely hit that depressive slump of a crash. Homegirl is living off of noodles like a broke college student. She thinks the world hates her and that everyone only put up with her because she was the archon and a superstar. Did she need someone to intervene? Sure. But she pushed Neuvilette and Clorinde away when they awkwardly tried, so Furina has to go through the long story quest way, and come to a bit of her own realization that people genuinely respected her ability to act as a skill and a thing of beauty, not just as a lie.

Furina's story quest offers the very best presentation of how Neuvilette sees her, and how, in his own way, he apologizes but also respects everything she has done and is. When Furina goes on stage, despite her valid reservations, and she gives it her all for that actresses sake, and she gives it her all because its real to her too, and Neuvilette sees this and sees her bravery, her spirit, and all of the hard work that Furina has given Fontaine for 500 years. So he tears a chunk off of his power and he gives it to her, in the form of a Vision.

The Visions are such a wonderful representation, because now that Neuvilette is the sole sovereign, without Celestia's janky throne in the way, he has full power over the granting of Visions. He can stop if he wants, because Visions are made by ripping chunks off of the god in question, but Neuvilette has studied and he has learned that humans are amazing and they earn their ambition, and he wants to give to that. So it's an incredibly purposeful gesture here and it carries the meaning of his care and respect in ways that he cannot articulate.

Neuvilette is kind. He's stiff, dutiful to a fault, has trouble being vulnerable and recognizing it in others, but he is trying, and he is kind. He gives credit where credit is do, and he tries to do the right thing, even when he misses the mark. He accepts when he's wrong, though, like with Focalors and Furina, like with missing how the general populace adores the melusines now, like with Childe when he honestly was baffled by the oratrice's absurd verdict. He's an old dragon and he's slow to catch up, but he makes that effort anyway, which I think is really neat. Neuvilette learns and he implements that. In Lantern Rite, he listened to Furina and finally managed to take a vacation, and he made a dumb little dragon ladle and had fun doing it. And he walked away from that realizing why taking a break was important.

So, er, yeah. I think Neuvilette is neat. Furina too. I really wish we can see them interacting more now that Furina is finally getting it through her skull that people do, in fact, want to be her friend and spend time with her, and I would love to see more on the implications that Traveler has told him of the other archons' exploits and he is forced to admit that they also either have no idea what's going on or that they known of them took the elemental authority on purpose/for the sake of it, but that's either an end-game thing or we'll never get it. Alas. Still I think Fontaine and all of hydro is in good hands with him.

Also he's an awkward dragon yall know I love grandpa dragon men who have parental bones but have no idea how to use them on purpose. I have. a type. of course I'm looking hard at neuvilette he's got the whole package

So uhhhhhh yeah. Yeah. I will. End it there.

#genshin impact #neuvillette #pencil essay #anon #ask #character analysis #if you look closely you can tell I love furina's story quest #i wrote this unedited at 3-4 am so #like most of my tumblr essays this is not my best work #but it is my raw unhinged work which is why we are all on this hellsite #but yeah honestly i do give neuv credit for his patience #if i had to deal with furina acting like that i would have strangled her #the cast doesn't get clued in on her inner actions until the last second #we get a bit like with arle stabbing her when she was petting a cat #also its mad frustrating to try to help someone who refuses help so I get it #especially when nobody knew furina's reason #because she couldn't tell anyone #focalors' master plan was brilliant but cruel #which they both knew going into this #so uhhh yeah the archon quest was rough but I get it

[bosspigeon]

I've been having some consistent issues with crashing basically since I installed bg3 and it's driving me insane so im str8 up factory resetting my pc and reinstalling g everything o|-<

#pidge speaks #its honestly been so fucking frustrating lmao #ive gotten barely any playtime between the constant crashes #the error i was getting is apparently smthn a lot of people have been getting #including people with much better setups than mine #maybe this is overkill but we're gknna just clean slate this shit #i might have to go without mods tho which is a bummer :<

[mxwhore]

came home early and 😶

#ITS SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING #my uncle came into my room to open the window (his room has a window that opens into MY ROOM and its the worst thing ever) #and instead of opening the curtains his inconsiderate ass messed them up and threw them on the floor #i seriously cant take it living with him anymore HE SUCKS SO BAS #me and grandma (his MOM) ARE ALWAYS CLEANING AFTER HIS 52 YEAR OLD ASS and grandma just. allows it #cuz he was always the golden child #and im the child of the least favorite child (my mom) so i have to shut up and endure it #honestly my grandmas resentment of me isnt so bad as the blatant disregard my uncle shows in his daily life #i wish it was the two of us again #or BETTER YET ME ON MY OWN AND NOT WALKING ON EGGSHELLS AROUND ANYONE #whatever. whatever #it could be a thousand times worse. im fine #consider. supporting me. so i can leave