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“Who are you?” “I’m the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition.”

“And why would an angel rescue me from hell?” “Good things do happen, Dean.” “Not in my experience.” “What’s the matter? You don’t think you deserve to be saved.”

“My superiors have begun to question my sympathies.” “Your sympathies?” “I was getting too close to humans in my charge. You.”

“For what it’s worth, I will give anything not to have you do this.”

“You made an exception for me.” “You’re different.”

“We’ve been through so much for together, you and I.”

“We’re making it up as we go.”

“I'm hunted, I rebelled, and I did it—all of it, for you.”

“Don’t ever change.”

“I gave everything to you, and this is what you give to me?”

“So what, I'm Thelma and you're Louise, and we're just gonna hold hands and sail off this cliff together?”

“Cas, not for nothing, but the last time someone looked at me like that...I got laid.”

“You are not the burnt and broken shell of a man I believed you to be.”

“Cas, we’ve talked about this. Personal space?”

“Dean and I do share a more profound bond.”

“I wish circumstances were different. Most of the times, I’d rather be here.”

“I’m doing this for you, Dean. I’m doing this because of you.”

“Next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest thing I have for family.”

“So if I’m asking you not to do something, you gotta trust me, man.”

“Where were you when I needed to hear it?” “I was there. Where were you?”

“Dammit, Cas! We can fix this.” “Dean, it’s not broken.”

“I thought you said that we were like family. Well, I think that too. Shouldn’t trust run both ways?”

“Dean, I do everything that you ask. I always come when you call, and I am your friend.”

“We were a family once. I’d have died for you. Almost did a few times.”

“Don’t make me lose you too.”

“I remember you. I remember everything.”

“Part of me always believed that you’d come back.”

“I'd rather have you. Cursed or not.”

“Yeah well, I'm probably gonna die tomorrow so...” “Well, I'll go with you. And I'll do my best.”

“I prayed to you, Cas! Every night!” “I know.”

“I have a price on my head and I’ve been trying to stay one step ahead of them to... keep them away from you.”

“Let me bottom line it for you: I'm not leaving here without you. Understand?”

“It’s like you just gave up, it’s like you didn’t believe we could do it! I mean, you kept saying that you didn’t think it would work. Did you not trust me?”

“I did everything I could to get you out, everything! I did not leave you.”

“Look, I don’t need to feel like hell for failing you, okay? For failing you like I failed every other Godforsaken thing that I care about! I don’t need it.”

“Nothing you could have done would have saved me because I didn't want to be saved.”

“I’ll watch over you.”

“I won’t hurt Dean.”

“Cas, fight this! This is not you! Fight it!”

“I know you’re in there. I know you can hear me. Cas, it’s me. We're family. We need you. I need you.”

“You didn’t trust me.” “Dean, I thought I was doing the right thing.” “Yeah, you always do.”

“And I know that you think that I am pissed at you. But I don't care that the angels fell. So whatever you did, or didn't, do, we'll work it out. Please man, I need you here.”

“You were stupid for the right reasons.” “Yeah, like that matters.” “It does. Sometimes that's all that matters.”

“Dean, you know I always appreciate our talks, our time together.”

“Cas, you just gave up an entire army for one guy.”

“Cas, I need you to promise me something.” “Of course.” “If I do go darkside, you've got to take me out.”

“I'm coming with you.”

“And when you turn—and you will turn—Sam, and everyone you know, everyone you love—they could be long dead. Everyone except me.”

“It was our best shot, and you stepped up.” “I was just trying to help.” “Well, and you do help, Cas.”

“But you’re always there, you know? You’re the best friend we’ve ever had.”

“You know this world—this sad, doomed, little world—it needs you. It needs every last Winchester it can get, and I will not let you die.”

“You mean too much to me. To everything.”

“You’re not weak, Cas. You know that, right?”

“Thank you. Knowing you; it’s... it’s been the best part of my life. And the things that... the things that we’ve shared together, they have changed me. You’re my family. I love you. I love all of you.”

“It’s a gift. You keep those.”

“We will find a better way.” “You mean, we?” “Yes, dumbass. We.”

“I just wanted... I needed to come back here with a win for you. For myself.”

“How long was I gone?” “Too damn long!”

“‘I’m your huckleberry.’”

“Dean, I was—I was dead.” “Temporarily.” “And I have to believe that I was brought back for a reason.” “You were. Okay, Jack brought you back because we needed you back.”

“It’s good to have you back. Just don’t get dead again.”

“You’re the engine, but I’m behind the wheel.”

“I could go with you.”

“Dean, if there’s a spark, a hope—then, I have to try. You taught me that.”

“But I swear, if he did something to her, if she’s... then, you’re dead to me.”

“Dean, I failed you.”

“So maybe you can stick your head back in the sand, maybe you can pretend we actually had a choice. I can’t.” “Dean, you asked, what about all of this is real? We are.”

“You used to trust me, gave me the benefit of the doubt. Now you can barely look at me.My powers are failing, and—and I've tried to talk to you, over and over, and you just don't want to hear it. You don't care. I'm dead to you. You still blame me for Mary. Well, I don't think there's anything left to say.” “Where are you going?” “Jack’s dead. Chuck’s gone. You and Sam have each other. I think it’s time for me to move on.”

“I already apologized to you, you just refused to hear it.”

“Maybe if you didn’t just up and leave us.”

“I left, but you didn’t stop me.”

“Cas? Cas, I hope you can hear me. That wherever you are, it's not too late. I should've stopped you. You're my best friend, and I just let you go. Cause that was easier than admitting I was wrong. I don't know why I get so angry. I just know—I know that it's—it's just always been there. And when things go bad, it just—it just comes out. And I can't—I can't stop it. No matter how—how bad I want to, I just can't stop it. And—and I, I forgive you, of course I forgive you. I'm sorry it took me so long—I'm sorry it took me 'till now to say it. Cas, I'm so sorry. Man, I hope you can hear me. I hope you can hear me."

“Cas, I need to say something.” “You don’t have to say it. I heard your prayer.”

“I’ve got you.”

“I always wondered, ever since I took that burden—I took that curse, I always wondered what it could be. What my true happiness could even look like and I never found an answer. Because the one thing I want—it’s something I know I can’t have. But I think I know now. Happiness isn’t in the having, it’s in just being, it’s in just saying it. I know— I know how you see yourself, Dean. You see yourself the way our enemies see you. You’re destructive, you’re angry and broken. You’re daddy’s blunt instrument. You think that hate and anger; that’s what drives you. That’s who you are. It’s not—and everyone who knows you sees it. Everything you have ever done—the good and the bad—you have done for love. You raised your little brother for love, you fought for this whole world for love—that is who you are. You’re the most caring man on earth. You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know. You know ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of hell, knowing you has changed me. Because you cared, I cared. I cared about you, I cared about Sam, I cared about Jack, I cared about the whole world because of you. You changed me, Dean.” “Why does this sound like a goodbye?” “Because it is. I love you.” “Don’t do this, Cas.” “Goodbye, Dean.”

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destielfanfic · 6 years

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I’m Your Huckleberry

"He really likes cowboys!” “Yes, he does.”

And so do we! Whether set in the Old West or on a contemporary ranch, there is just something about our boys, and cowboy boots that just gets the heart racing. Ya know what they say, Save a Horse...

Be sure to also check out our western au tag and our first Western Destiel rec list as well as our Wild West and Cowboy asks. Most links go to our reviews or submitted rec posts. Newly added fics are marked with asterisk *

I. Contemporary Westerns/Ranch

Blackstrap Molasses by Neonbat [NC-17, 40,000 word count]

Castiel has come back to his small Kansas hometown to work as a veterinarian while he aids in the care of his smallest siblings. An influx of new patients has him a little busy, but when he finds himself making home calls to an old acquaintance from High school his life takes a turn. Dean pulls him into his orbit, and the two must deal with the perceptions of hometown life, bigotry, and self-sabotage if they want a shot at things together.

Broomstick Cowboy by jupiter_james [NC-17, 18,000 word count]

Dean Winchester is one of the finest circuit riders of his generation, right after his legendary father. He's got the life he loves, with the exception of one thing - one person: his biggest sponsor, Castiel Milton. Despite being a ranch owner, Milton is only interested in one thing, and that's making money, even at the expense of animals past their prime. At least, that's what Dean's animosity has been lead to believe. However, coming face to face with his misunderstanding makes him reevaluate a lot of things, including his feelings for Castiel.

Fire N Ice by WincestersRaven [NC-17, 71,700 word count]

Dean and Jimmy Novak met a year and a half ago and they’ve been dating for eight months. When he meets Castiel Novak, Jimmy’s identical twin, Dean’s shocked to say the least. Jimmy never mentioned having a brother, let alone a twin brother. The more he gets to know Cas, the more he finds himself falling hard for the man who has his boyfriend’s face, but is different in so many ways. Author’s note: Dean doesn’t cheat in this fic. There is no three-way with Dean and the twins.

Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy by palominopup (submitted rec) [NC-17, 67,300 word count]

Sam and Dean Winchester are owners of Winchester Farms, a large Quarter Horse ranch. Sam loans their bunkhouse to a writer so he can get some privacy to finish his latest book.

Texas State of Mind by palominopup [NC-17, 69,800 word count]

Dean Winchester was once an award winning country music star, but fame came too early. Now, he’s fifteen years sober and owns a ranch in western Texas. He’s happy with his life. He has horses, a nice herd of cattle and so what, if he’s alone. He tells his friends that he’s happily single. Back when he was touring, men and women threw themselves at him – but he knew they only wanted him for his fame. Cas Novak just won his fifth CMA award. He loves singing, but the touring was getting old. Living in a bus nine months out of the year was slowly destroying his creativity. He hasn’t written anything new in over a year. Then he hears an old song on the radio. He vaguely remembers the handsome singer and wondered whatever happened to him. Before he knew it, he’d written a new song. The only problem was…it was a duet. A duet that could only be sung with a voice like Winchester’s.After locating the man’s ranch, Cas makes a surprise visit. Will he be able to talk Dean into joining him on stage after all these years? Will the two men find what they’ve been looking for all their lives – someone to share a future with?

II. Historical fics set in the Old West

A Road For Home by hymnaries (submitted rec) [NC-17, 17,880 word count]

It’s been six years since Sheriff Castiel Milton last saw Dean Winchester, three since he left his life in Massachusetts behind for a lonely outpost in New Mexico Territory. In this self-imposed exile, he’s at last begun to separate himself from the man he used to be. But after a tragic event causes Dean to reach out to him once more, Castiel not only finds himself confronted with the past he so desperately tried to forget, but also with a newly grown-up Dean who has not so easily buried the feelings that propelled their unconventional relationship into uncharted territory those many years ago. Against the backdrop of the Reconstruction Era West, the two men revisit the events that led to their separation and tentatively explore the possibility of a future together.

Down by the Water by Cas_Wings (submitted rec) [NC-17, 88,400 word count]

When Castiel loses everything dear to him due to a botched river crossing, including his supplies, livestock, covered wagon, and even his wife, he has no where to turn, no way to survive stranded in the middle of his journey. That is, until he meets Dean Winchester, who offers him a life saving deal: In exchange for help on his farm, Dean offers to provide much needed room and board. But how will this decision affect Castiel as he moves through his grief, and discovers feelings he never would have expected? Fighting with injury, pain, grief, and even the threat of death, Dean and Castiel find themselves in the one place they would have never expected: down by the water, struggling to accept their unforeseen love. ((Set in 1853. AU.))

Eldorado Canyon by TerenceFletcher [T, 92,800 word count]

Sam and Dean Winchester are hunters. Finding new supernatural cases, solving mysteries, helping innocents to survive—things most ordinary people can barely even imagine—are all part of their daily routine. Life is sometimes easy, sometimes tough, but almost always dangerous. When they get their new appointment in Nevada, they hit the road without thinking twice. The only thing is—it’s the fall of 1861, the Civil War has been ongoing for several months, and the enemy is nearly invincible. In a world without cell phones and cars, the only gear the Winchesters have is their black stagecoach and precious Colt gun. And a weird local preacher who is trying to help them. A DCBB 2017 fic

Hope on Fire by Ltleflrt (submitted rec) [M/light NC-17, 32,600 word count]

The Civil War ended, but left Castiel weighted down with guilt and shame. In an attempt to start over, he moves West, building a life for himself outside the small mountain town of Purgatory. Five years later a storm blows in, bringing the Winchester brothers and bitter memories along with it. A DCBB 2014 fic

Hunter's Caress by Ltleflrt [NC-17, 161,100 word count]

Castiel Jameson won't rest until the outlaw who murdered his brother faces justice, and Dean Winchester is the only man alive who can help him track the villain down. Some say Winchester is a cold-blooded killer himself; others say he'd been wronged his whole life. All Castiel knows is that the desire glinting in Dean's green eyes is even more dangerous than he is. Castiel fights to keep his mind on business, but during the long nights on the trail with the dangerously handsome hunter he finds himself dreaming of yielding to Dean's illicit kisses and losing himself in lawless passion. Dean Winchester is about to hang when Castiel saves his neck with his crazy plan. But dying might be better than spending day and night playing nursemaid to such an infuriating city slicker. He appreciates the stubborn detective's desire for justice, but he'd appreciate Cas a lot more if he'd stop being a lawman long enough to just be a man. He certainly has all the right equipment. Dean aches to run his fingers through Castiel's dark hair, yearns to know how Castiel's golden skin will feel against him. And before the coming of the next dawn, Dean vows to teach him the pleasures and sweet rewards of a Hunter's Caress.

Lost to the Flames by jinxedambitions (submitted rec) [NC-17, 29,700 word count]

Castiel was happy running a mission for omegas where they could live in peace and have power over their lives. When a group of alphas come asking to buy the land, so they can use it for mining, Castiel sends them away. However, they come back and burn the mission to the ground leaving Castiel a broken man. Sam and Dean are sent after an outlaw leaving a string of dead alphas across the western territories. They track him for months before they realize the outlaw is an omega hunting sadistic alphas. Sam and Dean must decide whether they agree with Castiel’s mission, whether they should bring him to justice, and whether Dean’s found a kindred spirit in the outlaw.

Mail Order Familiar by Amethystaris, BlueMasquerade [M, 62,000 word count] (previously recced here) *

Dean Winchester was a Familiar meant for the wide-open spaces of the frontier. An ad in the paper combined with increasing pressure from his grandfather to sign a contract with a Witch of Samuel’s choice was just the motivation Dean needed to leave the big city behind. What he expects to find is a year of hard work and rough living cleansing the land of magics that corrupted it centuries ago. What he doesn’t expect is that the Witch waiting for him just might be exactly what he has been looking for his whole life. Castiel Angelus is cautiously optimistic that the Familiar he’s agreeing to work with, sight unseen, will be a good fit for his power. He’s chosen to work on the frontier in order to escape his demanding family and their unceasing ambitions. He finds that Dean’s compatibility is beyond his wildest dream. Their bonds, both magical and personal, will be tested to the limits as they encounter the source of the corruption and seek to defeat it, before it’s too late.

Plain and Tall by destielpasta and mtothedestiel [NC-17, 69,900 word count]

Dean is a Kansas farmer who only wants to work his land and care for his infant daughter. With his wife gone and his brother moving on to a life beyond the homestead, Dean finds himself in need of another pair of hands. Castiel, a lonely drifter freshly arrived in town, may prove the solution to Dean’s troubles. Over the course of four seasons, the two men face the everyday challenges of prairie life, and learn to overcome the betrayals of their past to discover a new definition of family. A DCBB 2016 fic

The Right Side of the Law by elizaye [NC-17, 2,000 word count]

We stand here today, September 14th, 1861, to execute heavenly justice upon Castiel—on Castiel for the crimes of murder, fraud, impersonation of a priest, theft, desertion, and public indecency.

The Shawnee Trail by emmbrancsxx0 [NR, 166,000 word count] *

In 1887, Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak lead a peaceful life in Lawrence, Kansas. Dean and Sam are stagecoach messengers for Wells, Fargo and Castiel is the town doctor. When Castiel's patient, Kelly Kline, knocks on their door one night about to give birth, she asks for the Winchesters and Castiel's help in protecting her son against one of the west's most notorious outlaws. To fulfill that promise, the men set out on a journey full of shootouts, trouble with the law, gambling, and an important discovery: Dean and Castiel really need to define the nature of their relationship.

Vagabonds by amarillogrande [Nc-17, 87,000 word count]

Dean is a sheriff in a tiny town in Colorado, restless and unsatisfied with his life. It's not what he's read about in the dime novels since he was little, capturing dangerous outlaws and being the last word of the law. More like tossing the town drunk in a cell to sober up when he gets a little too rowdy. But his chance comes when a thief rolls through their town. Dean pursues the thief, and that puts him right into the path of Emmanuel, a notorious outlaw. When he's captured by the outlaw and his gang to be held for ransom, he starts off on a journey he could have never envisioned, and learns that perhaps there's more to Emmanuel than meets the eye.

We Dig In Our Heels, As Hard As We Can by AlreadyPainfullyGone (submitted rec) [NC-17, 11,000 word count]

Castiel is a union surgeon fresh from the civil war, Dean is a confederate soldier working as a prostitute in a dangerous town.

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