#broke my heart all over again

[mmmairon]

The tags on your latest post really threw me for a loop oh my gosh 😭 I’m so sorry to hear about the break in?! I’m glad ur okay, wishing safety for you!

ah yeah omg 🥲 long story short, when you live on a farm, you are a prime target for people breaking in with stolen vehicles… they’re usually looking for fuel, guns, and other vehicles to steal. anything else they find is just gravy.

we have two huge steel gates (we have two driveways) and they somehow rammed them both open with a stolen truck. i was in bed at the time, but the noise of a truck revving to ram a gate is something i am unfortunately very familiar with. it definitely scared the shit out of me.. by the time i ran to the porch to turn the lights on, they were at the fuel tanks, and someone was right at the door. definitely cussed them out good and definitely shit some bricks over it.

however, i am ok, but still a little shaken over it. i am just very lucky they didn’t use any of the rifles they had.

#this is the 4th time in 2 years this has happened. #the first time #we got broken into a few weeks after my dad died #2 trucks came in with maybe 7 people in total.. ransacked the yard.. took all the fuel #stole my dad’s truck that still had all his things in it because i didn’t have the heart to take it out yet #some people are truly so awful #when we got the truck back it was completely destroyed with nothing of my dad’s things #broke my heart all over again #lol the last time we got broken into was halloween which i think took a couple years off my life #the police still haven’t found the guys from the most recent break in.. whatever it’s it like they caused thousands of dollars of damage on #our gates #asks #citrussaurus #thank you for your concern omg.. i started rambling when i got fired up about it all over again LMAO

[guardian-angle22]

911 LONE STAR REWATCH 2024 -> 3.08 parallel for @lemonlyman-dotcom

#911 lone star #911 lone star rewatch 2024 #tk strand #owen strand #gwyneth morgan #tw: food #gif request or suggestion #my gifs #!!! rewatching this episode with y'all was so fun 💜💜 #it broke my little heart all over again and i'll never recover... but fun!

[makedonsgriva]

actually i will never stop crying over xiao xingchen, song lan and xue yang! hope that clears up everything!

#xiao xingchen #song lan #xue yang #mdzs #also xiao xingchen low-key gave me xie lian vibes with that bandage around his throat and that broke my heart all over again #mxtx #like im not kidding i sobbed for 15 minutes straight after that Greek tragedy of a story

[doggolol]

HE ALMOST SURRENDERS TO THE KISS

HE WAS SUPPOSED TO SURRENDER TO THE KISS

IM SOBBING

#did I post abt this yet #I've had this in my mind for over a year now but ig I forgot to mention it here lol #no but I'm actually sobbing the way he did want to give in and kiss alice but decided against it to save her ☹️☹️ #its not that obvious in the vid bc it all happens so quickly but u could see him soften up a bit after alice's line like :( #also semi side note I read a fic once years ago where alfred wasnt able to stop alice from kissing him in time and so they just wait the #sickness out together and it absolutely BROKE ME #give them their happy ending PLEASE #also for some reason a bunch of my abh libretto posts are getting traction again after almost a year #and out of all of em the stoned post is the most popular lmao #I love that there's still active members in this fandom #hi guys this is for yall <3 #I should post abt abh more #alice spencer #alfred hallam #abh #alice by heart #doggo rambles

[moviesstoriesandbooks]

Chay goes to Wik's fanmeet and sees Kim in cat ears and a black leather choker .

Later when he performed on stage he wore his crop top and suit ensemble, along with the God awful choker.

He had never in his life had to hide an awkward boner with so many people around , but luckily noone was looking at him.

After the session ended , he found Kim in the vanity while he was just about to take off the choker after removing his rings.

Chay took Kim's hand in his own , turning him around in his chair to kiss the blood red glossy lip that Kim had yet to remove. "Can you keep it on till we reach the compound?" Chay asks , Kim turns around and looks at Chay's flushed cheeks and bright eyes in the mirror , and Chay leans down to kiss Kim's neck.

#kimchay #suffice to say Kim had to rewear his suit jacket to cover the hickey on his way out #and Chay and Kim broached the subject of maybe Chay topping and if it's something Kim would be okay with #and Kim just turns quiet #chay starts apologising and telling him it's not a necessity and he just wanted to know if that's something he was open to trying- #and before he could get the entire sentence out kim looks up with feral eyes and starts kissing chay again #with renewed urgency and clearly aiming for a round two #only to follow that conversation up when they broke apart panting heavily some time later into the night with #'i think i might like that by the way' and a gorgeous blush on his cheeks that Chay had never seen before . kim also said he wanted to talk #about other stuff he wants to try in the safety of their room if that was okay and chay looked in wonder at the redness spreading all over #Kim's ears through his chest #while his own heart gave a huge leap in his chest #anyway that's that I'm feeling very insecure about my writing at this moment so don't come for me if u don't like it pls #thai boys love series #thai drama #thailand #kinnporsche #thai bl series #kinnporche the series #asian lbgtq dramas #kimhan theerapanyakul #porchay pichaya kittisawat

[standardlilith]

oh hera baby nooooo 🥺😔

#here i am yet again screaming into the void about lore olympus #my heart broke into a million tiny pieces during this episode and then all over again when i remembered about the screenshots #and for kronos to be like haunting her or whatever on top of her husband already cheating on her every chance he gets???? damn 🫠 #lili reads #lore olympus #lo #lore olympus webtoon #lo webtoon #lo hera #lo kronos #lore olympus hera #lore olympus kronos #hera #kronos

[oatbugs]

today was ok good great bad 😭 rant in tags lets try to be normal abt this

#it's not tuscan leather， but they do smell like mint and cherries and a fireplace. they kissed me #all over my back， and my hand， and my shoulders. i only ever kissed them on the lips. i only ever kiss them #when i'm about to leave them at the station gates. some red-eyed bloodhound cancelled their own plans and i laughed with them like a friend #i asked if they want me to bring them a hot water bottle or painkillers or a pair of lungs for them to eat. #the person in front of me has 4 lungs and 2 hearts and a brown leather coat and those bright radiance-incarnate kind of eyes. #you know the kind i mean. their hands are diligent with the pen. they say that i'm an angel and i'm right and i decide #the truths-in-all-possible-worlds. they say they only perceive the parts of me that i'd like perceived. they say all the right things. #the dog doesn't mind at all. the next station is edgeware road again. the dog says don't come over baby. its all slurred and deep and #shallow. returns a falsum. i really like you， baby. let's just be nothing， baby. i can't comprehend that anyone was raised unhappy. #she has free gaza painted on the back of her designer jacket， and she says she can't believe people suffer. there's something wrong with me #baby， why else would i turn down two perfect girls? she broke my nose， baby. ye zendegie dige ashaghet misham azize delam. #she might be a rich bitch but i only lived in kensington， baby. sunshine says they can't have kids because they plan to be #an enemy of many states. i offered to meet them but i look up and i notice the blonde streaks in their hair moving in the light. #i tell sunshine i'll never sleep with them. they want me in such a kind way it almost hurts. #they say we have a lot to teach other. i put the dog down again. my friend is wrapped around me. my friend walks me to the station. #i kiss them goodbye at the gates.

[treeprince]

started reading dungeon meshi yesterday after work

finished reading dungeon meshi about 20 minutes ago and have begun chanting to myself

#dungeon meshi #EAT WELL. SLEEP WELL. AND EXERCISE!!!!! #im so sorry senshi i broke every one of ur rules so i could devour of all of dunmeshi in a day (╥﹏╥) #did absolutely crack up at the very end tho bc now i am also cursed to never have my hearts desire fulfilled #(reading dunmeshi again for the first time) #mayhaps the adhd will help me forget important details or swap plots with another series someday and i can experience it all over again

[merverelli]

👼🗡️ toddiel, the golden sword of the inconquerable dawn. 👼🗡️

#brennan lee mulligan #fallen for you #just like art #love this boy #yes this is fanart of a 7 year old video #but in my defence: im currently recovering from surgery so i can do no wrong rn #also: i got surgery to hopefully help my chronic pain!! it was a minor surgery too thankfully so im all good rn #the hospital i went to had VERY good homemade mini margarita pizzas and that was basically all i ate there #fucking ruled actually #and the worst part of recovery should be over (excluding physio etc) so thats cool too! fuck crutches all my homies hate crutches #been using recovery as an excuse to get into traditional art again bc its easier to do than digital art after my surgery #turns out im bad at traditional art #i fucked up lining the first try of this and had to redo the whole thing. i then fucked up lining the second try near the end. #i then decided to try to save it. #you need to ignore the white out stains because there was no way i was gonna be able to attempt lining this a third time. #i then found out i have neither a peach tone coloured marker or pencil. #this fanart damn near broke me. #fuck traditional art. my heart goes out to every traditional artist. #so theres my life update!! v busy (i have fused to the couch) #hope youre doing good champ ily thanks for reading i love our lil chats

[yourqueenb]

You have no idea how happy I am to see that other people like you don't like blades 2 as well. Like yes it was decent, but on the same level as book 1 in the LEAST.

And I agree, book 3 seems like an excuse to get fans off of their back about the writing. The finale felt extremely disappointing, compared to the thrill you could feel in book 1 end

Yeah, I’m still gonna play book 3 and (foolishly) hope that it’ll be better. But those hopes aren’t too high because book 2 was not a good set up for book 3 at all in my opinion. There’s so much going on. I don’t like that Valax is a part of our friend group now. However, the group dynamics were off long before that if I’m being real. Mal’s route was ruined for me.

When I was going through and deleting my screenshots the other day, I reread the “You slept through it scene” and just felt a renewed sense of hurt and anger at him and really all of our friends. Mal caught a lot of heat from me specifically because he’s my LI and the one who said such an awful thing. But honestly, the rest of the group essentially agreed with him by expanding on what he said (Imtura and Nia) or not saying anything at all (Tyril) and only getting on one accord to exclude MC.

And then on top of all of that, there are quite a few holes that really should be patched up. The plot was a mess for the majority of the story. Tbh it was almost giving Endless Summer because they were locking important information behind diamond scenes and in the lore tablets.

So all this to say that at this point in time, I no longer have faith that PB can handle complex storytelling. Their parent company and higher ups (unsurprisingly) only care about money. And the writers themselves are too lazy and too biased. Does that mean they can no longer write enjoyable stories? No, of course not. But I do think they need to rein it in and be a bit more realistic about what they can handle right now because there’s nothing wrong with a simpler book/plot that’s aware of what it’s trying to accomplish. And it’s clear that they were far too ambitious with Blades 2

#choices bolas #choices blades #blades of light and shadow #choices stories you play #playchoices #if book 3 is as disappointing as or worse than book 2 I’m just gonna ignore them and only consider book 1 canon #and then just make up my own headcanon for what happened after lol #I think i and quite a few other people have been operating off of the notion that PB could tell great complex stories #but they weren’t because cheap smut is what sells #but now I can’t even believe that anymore #they just don’t have the range #and maybe I should’ve come to this conclusion sooner but 🤷🏽‍♀️ #and back to the Mal thing for a second I’m being so serious when I say rereading that scene broke my heart all over again #when I first read it my initial reaction was anger so I couldn’t even really focus on anything immediately after that #but upon rereading my heart just sunk for MC #bc if the writers did one thing well it was making the rift between MC and the rest of the group palpable #and it was also very obvious that she was hurt by that and ended up internalizing Mal’s statement/the group’s sentiments on that year #‘Just a little blood No scars Nothing I was asleep for all of it My body works fine’ #so I’ll just close out by saying enjoying the book was a challenge for me #and it shouldn’t have been because I *wanted* to enjoy it #book 1 was so good and it getting greenlit for a book 2 was such an unexpected surprise #plus we waited so long for it but it just did not meet expectations #choices #choices app #choices ask

[cosmikirby]

Have yall heard of the MRD Broken Heart DLC Concept I helped my friends make?

Here's a little assortment of doodles I made for it, old and new 💚🐀💚

tldr rat god is back and wants to take control of heart's clock by mentally tearing him down, so what better way to do that than to take form of his dead boyfriend? simply a girlboss doing girlboss things<3 I love mad rat dead

(also yeah some of these are anthro shshshsh)

#my art #doodles #mrd spoilers #mrdbrokenheart #mrd broken heart #cw eyestrain #cw eyes #cw body horror #cw angelic imagery #mrd anthro stuff #cant believe tumblr broke the shit out of this post after one edit and i had to do it all over again smh

[lonelydncers]

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#cant sleep bc im thinking so many thoughts #hiding in the tags #i think im finally over her? #like today and the last time we hung out i didnt Feel it anymore #and its not like i dont love her anymore i really really do but now its in a best friend way only i think? #the Feeling wasnt there which i guess its a good thing #and like yeah maybe its the depression maybe im just not feeling anything rn but also like #thats why she broke up with me and even when her depression got better she never got back to Feeling it? #and last time My depression was bad i wouldnt feel anything at all except when we hung out #so it feels different now #not necessarily a bad different just Different #but im so fucking scared of losing her #like im so scared of when she starts dating again #and yes ive been thinking of dating again im desperate for a girlfriend #but shes the one who broke up with me and shes had to deal with this before with Him and she didnt feel bad #but when we started dating He felt bad so like. i get him #and im so scared of never getting into a relationship again bc she’ll Always have a part of my heart like even if i dont Feel it anymore #she’ll always be number one for me #and im scared ill never let myself love anyone else bc i wouldnt think its fair to them bc of her #and idk. #i really dont wanna lose her she means so much to me #and im so comfortable around her in a way that im not with anyone else #idk where im going with this #sometimes i really fucking hate being aroace #and not being able to tell the difference between different feelings #:( #whatever

[shaykai]

Not me crying over Baldur’s Gate 3, my Tav is slowly getting more and more morally dubious and it’s only a little bit their fault

#spoilers in the tags cause I’m rambling #I’m in act two and I made it to the little light village. absolutley delighted to see everyone again it’s great #and then of course everything goes side ways- and guys. #I don’t know. if you’re supposed to win that fight with Jenieha or whatever her name is alive #but everyone outside of my group (had astarion shadowheart and wyll with me) died #and it was heart wrenching #like it totally felt like that was supposed to be the safe place where we all get together and march out on the absolute and what not #and then it just fell apart so devastatingly and I’m not okay about it #and more importantly my tav (Zeilith) is not okay about it #anyways point is I think they a little bit broke down sobbing before deciding they’re going to kill everyone that they have to #instead of getting into a fight with the one spider guy down the road she lied to him to get the fairy light and sent him off into the #darkness with his group to die to the shadow demons djdjdjjdjdjd #she’s keeping the fairy in the lamp cause she needs it and she’s done taking chances #it’s w i l d #anyways I’m having a ball #Tav is going to commit manslaughter and also cry over Mol because that’s her kid now djdjjsjs

[hanabeeri]

been studying japanese as usual. God give me the strength to continue the same way even after my exams ahaha.

no real update, i just felt like journaling for a bit :))

on this note, i really miss summer, as usual. i cant wait for the weather to become warmer. i want to wear my dresses and skirts again. and i want to eat fresh fruits from my familiys small private garden. and i want to chase my nephews and nieces with water guns. and i want to eat my mothers fresh jam and drink her fresh kompot.

#summer is my lover that stays for three months and then leaves me for 75% of the year #its okay i still love her dearly #this is a very morbid thought but if i could choose a season to die in it would be on a warm summer day ahaha #20240209 #exams in three days.... surreal #i still remember when the semester started in october #so much has happened since then and at the same time nothing at all #i remember crying in the train because my best friend broke my heart again!!! but things have gotten better since then :)) #i sent him a package earlier this month and it arrived a yesterday!! we called for over an hour i think to talk too

[ghostampede]

no two episodes have done as much psychological damage to me as episodes 6 and 7 of trigun stampede has like. holy fuck. those episodes.

#trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #tristamp spoilers #in the tags now so be warned #but like #the way they presented ww and livio’s past was so beautiful #livio was there for one fight and he broke my heart all over again #the entire thing is so depressing #the desperation in ww to save the orphanage #and him and vash both arguing over morals while also #understanding each other sm #and the whole thing with meryl choosing to be brave again and again #even when she isn’t supposed to be the hero #she’s so well written here that scene with roberto was great #and the fucking plqnt reveal??? #i knew about the markings and his true identity obviously #but that scene was still so gorgeous #kills me so much #the turn around and pure shock on both meryl and vash’s faces #PEAK #also animation was amazing both normally and in flashback style but that’s a given #i cried twice watching these #the intensity of everything made my heart pound especially when livio shot himself #and i genuinely wasn’t sure if or how he was gonna get up #it still SHOCKED me even knowing he has to come back because half is story is missing #also legato’s speech?? who let this guy talk that was insane #the entire show is so beautiful god i love tristamp #dorian talks #rambles

[harrycore]

the past few days all I can honestly think about is that 3 year old girl who got killed because of the Israeli air strikes, Reem, the soul of her grandfathers soul. my heart breaks for her grandfather, they had such a cute bond

#reem you sweet girl I hope you’re getting all the fruits up there in heaven #honestly can’t stop crying #just saw a video about her #and my heart broke all over again #when will this end #free palestine #we need a permanent ceasefire 😭