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Double Platinum || DadKNJ Part 3

➜ Summary: “ I'm just trying to look out for your best interest! Because what if you end up making a stupid mistake that'll cost you your whole career!"

" A stupid mistake? You mean like me? That is why you decided to leave me, right? Because I was a stupid mistake that could have costed you your whole career?"

➜ Pairing: Unspecified for now

➜ Genre: Daughter given up for adoption, Becoming an Idol, Harshness of the idol industry, Namjoon reconnecting with his daughter, journey to forgive, messy one sided beef with other group

Warnings: Adpotion, giving up child, Heartbreak, implied racism, strict dieting, controlling career, abusive manager, abuse, being singled out, harsh social media comments, depression, profanity, idol life, learning to forgive

➜ Word count: 3958

-- { Jaelah's POV } --

My body twitched a few times as I started to wake up from my sleep. It took me a couple of minutes to actually acknowledge that I was awake and open my eyes. I really didn't want to wake up. Not right now, but I knew that I had to.

As soon as my eyes peeked opened and I took a breath in and let it out, all the events from yesterday came rushing back to me, and even after all the amazing things I experienced yesterday, the thing that took over my mind the most was the rejection of all of the entertainment companies.

At that mere thought, the darkness I felt pinching my heart came back, swooping me up and encasing me in sadness. I just didn't understand. My mind just couldn't wrap around that. How was I not accepted into a least one company? Is it conceited of me to say that I think that I had a really good audition video? I put my all into it, showcasing my skills of dancing, rapping singing, writing lyrics, acting, everything that I could think of.

I sighed to myself. Sighed at the reality. I know that there are probably many applicants that did the same thing, hell there were probably many other applicants that were way better than me, even so, I just can't help but think my talents had nothing to do with why I was rejected by so many companies. I just can't help but to think that maybe my skin tone played a role in that too.

I spent all morning wracking my brain on that thought. Walking up to the door of the store, I took my key out and unlocked it, flipping the switch to the welcome sign, opening the store officially.

I walked over to the door that led to behind the counter and unlocked that as well, walking over to the phone that we used to clock in and out and punched my numbers in, a "clocked in at 8:07am" flashing across the screen.

I sighed, as I sat down in the stool, pulling my phone out to scroll through my twitter. I wish I could just close the store for today. I really didn't want to be bothered today, I just wanted to bury myself under my covers and soak in a stew of my own self loathing. With another sigh, I scrolled more and more, that dark feeling swallowing me a bit more every time another mutual retweeted a newly debuted group on to my timeline.

" Why can't that be me?" I muttered to myself, feeling my eyes start to tear up.

Ding ding ding. The bell above the door sounded as a customer walked into the store. I immediately wiped the tears from my eyes and stood up straight, placing my phone in my back pocket as I put a smile on my face. " Good morning! Welcome to Kim's Corner. Please enjoy your time shopping with us." I said to the customer.

The woman bowed her greetings to me, then went on about her business. I took my phone back out of my pocket and sat back down, my thoughts taking over my mind once again.

— Should I just give up? I just don't understand the point in keep trying to force something that's obviously not meant to be. For years I've been trying to get into a company. Making excuses over and over for why I didn't make it, thinking back then that my talents weren't good enough and that I needed to improve more before I would be accepted, when that just wasn't the case. Maybe I should just accept the fact that the idol industry has an image that they want to uphold and I just didn't fit that image. I wasn't apart of the beauty standards that they uphold. —

My frown deepened at my thoughts. I honestly felt as if my brain and my heart was locked in a heated battle. My brain trying to rationalize to the circumstances, while my heart just wasn't ready to let go of my life long dream.

I saw the woman making her way over to the counter with her items in hand. " Hello. Are you doing well today?" I asked her, taking the items from under the glass and begin scanning them.

" Yes I am. Thank you." She replied to me me as she started digging around in her purse.

I finished scanning her items, looking at the screen as the total amount popped up. " Your total will be ₩19,483.35. I let her know.

She held up her card, letting me know that she was using it and I nodded and pressed the card button on the register. " You can go ahead and swipe it now." I told her.

She did as I said and swiped her card. The register taking a little longer to process her card before "declined" popped up on the screen.

" I'm sorry. Let me try a different card." She muttered to me, going back into her purse as she searched around for a few seconds. She pulled out another card, looking at the front of it before nodding her head. " Here it is." She said holding up the other card.

I nodded once again and pressed the button, gesturing for her to slide her card. It took just one second and her transaction was approved. I had bagged her things and handed them to her along with her receipt. " Thank you for shopping at Kim's Corner. Please come again." I said with a bow.

" Yes. I will thank you." The woman said bowing her head slightly as she left the store.

And it was back to me and my thoughts as I sat back down, taking my phone out and continued with scrolling through my timeline.

I guess time really do fly by when you have nothing to do. It had been about two hours since I clocked in and just like yesterday, customers were scarce. I spent more time scrolling through twitter and watching youtube videos then I did anything else.

As more time ticked on and no one was showing up, I stood up from the stool, grabbing my keys so that the door wouldn't lock behind me and made my way out of the room. I walked down the isles of the store, seeing what products I needed to stock up on before I went back to the storage room and grabbed a box of extra spicy ramyeon. I walked out of the storage room with the box in hand, hearing the familiar ding ding ding of the bell.

" Hello. Welcome to Kim's Corner, thank you for shopping with us." I said to whoever it was that walked in.

I was a bit preoccupied with the box that took up most of my vision as I walked over to the isle that houses all of the different varieties of ramyeon " Seems like these are selling well these days." I said aloud as I placed the box on the ground and started pulling at the tape that sealed the box shut.

I started taking the packs of the ramyeon out of the box and placing them on the shelves when a scream ripped from my throat when a voice behind me spoke. " Yeah they are. I actually came all this way just for these." The voice said.

I placed my hand over my rapidly beating heart, my breath shuttering as I looked up at the young man that towered over me, his wide does eyes stared at me apologetically. " I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." He said frantically, bowing his head in apology.

" N-No it's fine." I said to him as I stood to my feet after placing the last of the ramen in the box onto the shelves. " I'm just a bit of a scary cat." I said to him, moving a curl the escaped my ponytail form my face.

We both laughed awkwardly. It was then that I got more of a good look at the person I was speaking to. My words were caught in my throat as the smile on my face faded and my mouth opened in shock.

" Hello!" He said with a smile. " We met yesterday right?" He asked.

I schooled my face, remembering that I was at work and I wanted to be professional. " I- uh yes I did! It's nice to see you again. I hope you enjoyed your package." I said to him, my heart beating a mile a minute although I tried not to show it.

A real smile graced his face as he nodded eagerly. " I did! Jimin-hyung and I ate mostly everything in the box! Thank you for packing such great snacks for us." He said to me.

" It's no problem at all. It's my job." I responded to him, moving over from blocking the shelf of ramyeon and gestured for him to go head. " You said you came here for this right?" I asked him.

" Mmh." He sounded, walking over to the shelf, grabbing multiple packs of the extra spicy ones.

I walked away from him, going to break the box down and to put it with the rest of the used boxes then I made my way back over to the door, unlocking it before making my way back to the register. I looked around seeing Jungkook still walking around the store, his hands filled with packs of noodles and other snacks.

I was glad I had some time to breathe to myself. Trying to hold in my inner fa girl was a bit taxing but I think I did well. I don't know what village or town I saved in my past life, but for me to meet Jungkook two times, back to back like this, I must have been a real saint in my past life.

I saw him walking over here with his hands full of snacks and ramyeon, placing it all messily on the counter.

" Oh wow." I said to him, not holding back the giggle that escaped me.

He looked up at me with a sheepish smile. " I wanna make sure I don't run out so soon again now that Jiminie-Hyung isn't there to eat all of my food up." He explained to me.

" Ahhhh." I sounded, nodding my head as I reached under the glass, grabbing the items and scanning them and bagging them as I went.

We fell into a comfortable silence as I continued scanning, when not too long after that, Jungkook spoke up again.

" You know, I've been out all morning looking for these specific ramyeon packs and everywhere I went they were sold out." He said with a slight whine. "'And then I come here, but not only are the ramyeon here, you are too, but I supposed I shouldn't be surprised you're here. You do work here after all." He rambled on.

" Do you do this often? I would think that a huge idol like you walking around so freely would cause a lot of mayhem to happen." I said to him as I scanned the last item in the pile, placing it in the bag.

" Yeah it would, that's why when I'm in the mood to shop for myself, I go early in the day so that I don't attract attention. I also cover up so I'm not as recognizable." He explained, gesturing to his outfit.

"Ahhhh." I sounded again, nodding in understanding. " Umm your total is going to be ₩100,014.53." I told him.

He reached into his pocket, pulling out a black card. I pressed the button on the register and gestured to him that he could swipe with he did and immediately the transaction went through.

I slid his bags through the hole in the glass along with his receipt. " Well thank you so much for shopping at Kim's Corner again. We really appreciate your business here. Feel free to come by any time" I said to him with a bow.

" Of course! Thank you for such wonderful service yet again." He replied to me, bowing his head again.

I watched with a heavy heart as he started to walk away. I wanted to open my mouth to ask him another question, but I didn't want to keep him any longer than he had to be here, and plus I didn't want to seem unprofessional.

" I- uh Jungkook-shii." My mouth open and spilled the words beofre I had even realized what I was doing.

Jungkook stopped in his tracks and turned around to look back at me. " Yes?" He asked.

" I... I uhh... Can I ask you a question? You don't have to if you don't want to. I just-"

My ramblings were cut short with a laugh. " Nonits fine. I'll be happy to answer your question if I can." He said to me.

My heart felt like some of the darkness was rising off of it.

" I just..." I took a few seconds to collect my words beofre I spoke again. " Donyounhave any advice for an aspiring artists that's trying to get into the idol industry?" I asked him, my cheeks warming as I watched him toss the question around in his head for about a minute.

" We'll for starters, being in this industry, I would say you'd have to have very tough skin. You have to realized quickly that not every thing is gonna happen suddenly. A lot of things in this industry takes time, sometimes a long time before things are a bit smoother. For me, one thing that I take very seriously is my craft. I work to perfect my craft because knowing that you can be better than you were before is motivating for me. And most importantly I would say to not give up, no matter what. No matter how tough times are, or how much things just don't look like it's gonna get better. Don't give up. Those are thoughts that I hold close to my heart, even now." He answered, sincerity dripping from his words.

I took his words into myself and soaked in them. I felt my eyes tear up and I couldn't catch the tear that dripped down my face fast enough before he saw it. His face held concern at first before a look of recognition appeared, a small smile coming to his face.

" I don't know your story, but I just want to tell you to push on. If being in this industry is something that you want that bad. Don't give up. If this is a dream of yours, then you hold on tight until you can fulfill them. Fight through your hardships, because there will be many, push through and you will prevail." He said to me.

The tears wouldn't stop falling from my eyes, but I continued to wipe them away. " Thank you for your kind words. I'll hold on to them and keep them with me on my journey." I said to him.

" Please do. I was in your place not that long ago and somebody had to tell me something similar." He told me.

" Mmh." I sounded out as I continued wiping tears from my face, nodding at his words.

" Fighting!" He cheered out before he left with a wave.

I watched him walk out with his bags on his arms before he stopped in his tracks, taking his phone from his pocket and holding it up to take a selfie. He looked down at his phone, typing something in it before putting it back in his pocket, then made his way to the black Mercedes that was parked out front.

" Wow... I really just got advice from an international superstar. One of my ultimate faves. I'll never forget this moment." I said to myself in somewhat of a daze, wiping the last of my tears from my eyes.

" Thank you for shopping at Kim's Corner, please come again soon." I said to the customer as they walked away with a bow.

I turned to put away the extra bag when I jumped, hearing the store door being aggressively pushed open. My eyes shot over to the door seeing Youngheun run in, her breath heavy as she bowed in apology to the customer she almost plowed over beofre she rushed over to the door and started beating on it.

I was alarmed. Why was she so frantic? I rushed over to the door letting her in, " Youngheun? What's wrong? Are you ok?!" I asked her, looking her over to make sure she didn't have any bruising or anything on her.

" Stop stop stop! I'm fine!" She said moving my hands from checking her beofre she placed my hands on her cheeks. " Tell me I'm dreaming Jae. Please tell me I'm dreaming." She said to me.

I was so confused and had no idea what she was rambling on about. " You're not dreaming. And you're early today." I said to her, glancing down at the time that showed on my phone screen.

" Ok. I'm not dreaming. So then that means this is real." She said to me as she held her phone up to my face.

She held her phone so close to my face that I had to move her hand back and when my eyes focused on what she was showing me, I realized it was twitter and on the picture was Jungkook, posing with a smile on his face and a the bags in his hands right in front of the store with a caption that read,

— " Did this just become my new favorite store? They have so many good snacks and the worker there is always so nice. 10 out of 10 recommended." —

My eyes widened at the post as I rushed to pick up my phone, unlocking it with a swiftness. I pressed on my twitter app, seeing the blue screen with the bird appear before my timeline had loaded up. My entire timeline was freaking out about Jungkook's post. Some were pointing out how they didn't live too far from the store and we're gonna come here just because Jungkook did. Others were responding how jealous they were that they were too far away to come.

I was shocked. Did Jungkook do this knowingly, giving our little corner store more exposure and potentially business?

" Oh my gosh..." I said absentmindedly.

" Jaelah you..." Youngheun had paused her words as she took in a breath. " Jae this is your second time meeting Jungkook. Second time in a row! This isn't fairrrrrr!" She said whining. " Why am I never around whenever he appears!" She continued to whine.

My mind was still somewhat gone as she spoke. " Yeah, he came in about 20 minutes ago looking for ramyeon. We talked for a bit and he gave me some great advice." I rambled on.

" And you're this calm about it?! I don't know if I would have been able to handle it. I would have probably fainted." She said dramatically.

" I appeared calm on the outside to remain professional and not freak him out, but on the inside, I felt like I was dying and going to heaven over and over again... until it got kind of serious and I was crying like a baby." I said, trying to rush that part out quickly.

" Woah Woah Woah... you got serious? Crying? What happened." She asked, her sunny demeanor suddenly not sunny anymore.

" No no, it's not anything he did. Heunnie he's honestly so nice and sweet. It didn't even feel like talking to an international superstar, but like an old friend or something." I explained to her.

"Mmh. So what happened? Why were you crying." She asked me, her eyes never leaving mine.

I suddenly felt embarrassed. " I kinda asked him in advice for getting into the idol industry and he gave me some really good advice that touched my heart. You know I'm a crybaby." I explained to her.

" Oh wow. Getting advice from one of the artists you admire the most. What village did you save in your past life?" She said to me.

I laughed. " I said the same thing." I told her. " But yeah, it really made me feel so much better. I was so sad this morning. I felt like I was slipping into a depressive episode. I was really ready to just give up on trying to become an idol." I said to her.

Her eyes widened at my words. I could read her face like the back of my hand. First she looked confused on why I would do that, then she thought for a second before realization set in for her.

" Oh Jae. The auditions didn't go well?" She asked, sadness for me appearing in her eyes.

I shook my head. " I was rejected by every company I applied for." I said lowly.

Youngheun kissed her teeth, pulling me into a hug. " Those bastards don't know what they're missing." She said to me.

We pulled away from each other.

" Before hearing Jungkook's words, I really did want to give up because I felt like, what's the point if I was just gonna keep getting rejected by the same companies. I've been trying to get into an entertainment company since I was 12 years old, back then I understood that maybe I was too young, but since when was that ever a problem in kpop? I just feel like the older I get, the more I realize that maybe they just don't want to accept me because I'm mixed." I explained to her.

Youngheun's ears were open as she listened to me and let me rant before she spoke again. " I just don't understand why that would be a problem. There are plenty of mixed idols that debut in groups and a lot of them become popular." She said to me.

" Yeah heunnie, but what's the difference between them and me? Most of the time the mixed idols that debut and make it big are mixed with either another Asian nationality, or their mixed with white. You never see an idol with darker skin debut." I told her.

A deep frown came to her lips. " Now that I'm looking at it like that, you're so right." She said with a deep sigh.

Silence falls between us as we let the reality sink in.

" But the encouraging words from Jungkook makes me want to keep fighting. He told me to keep fighting for my dream and I will prevail. I know that's a gamble, but it's a gamble I'm willing to take." I said to her passionately.

" We'll that's great. And besides, you can always come apply to DRMusic with Dahye and me. It's a very small company, but hey, we have to start somewhere right?" She said to me.

My eyes widened and I smacked my hand against my forehead. " That's who I was forgetting. I forgot to submit my audition to DRmusic because I fell asleep. Ughhhh I'm so dumb." I told to her.

Youngheun laughed at me, pulling me into a hug. " I'm glad you're gonna keep fighting. We got this this Jae. I'm determined to see our dreams come true." She said to me.

" I am too." I responded back to her.

We were in our hug for a few more seconds when we begin to hear chatter outside of the store. My eyes had widened.

There was a group of people beginning to form, taking pictures in front of the store and posing the same way Jungkook did.

" Oh my gosh." I said in disbelief.

" We're about to be so busy." Youngheun finished.

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bantansworld · 2 years

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Double Platinum || DadKNJ Part 5

➜ Summary: “ I'm just trying to look out for your best interest! Because what if you end up making a stupid mistake that'll cost you your whole career!"

" A stupid mistake? You mean like me? That is why you decided to leave me, right? Because I was a stupid mistake that could have costed you your whole career?"

➜ Pairing: Unspecified for now

➜ Genre: Daughter given up for adoption, Becoming an Idol, Harshness of the idol industry, Namjoon reconnecting with his daughter, journey to forgive, messy one sided beef with other group

➜ Warnings: Adpotion, giving up child, Heartbreak, implied racism, strict dieting, controlling career, abusive manager, abuse, being singled out, harsh social media comments, depression, profanity, idol life, learning to forgive

➜ Word count: 3,660

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[ Jaelah's Pov ]

I think it really goes without saying, but I am so tired today. I am absolutely exhausted. Time seemed like it had begin to fly by, winding down quickly. The days were only getting shorter and our debut felt like it was peaking its head right around the corner.

Everyone on the team had become a bit stressed out lately and I completely understood why. Preparing for a debut wasn't an easy task, especially not coming from a small company debuting a nugu group.

Everyone had been working hard to make sure everything was going to go well and according to plans. The CEO was working hard behind the scenes, seeing if he could pull some strings for us to get at least some decent promotion, but ultimately, the promotion might just have to fall on the members and I, which honestly, I was already expecting.

Our choreographer, HyoYeon-eonnie was working hard with getting our choreography together and since DaHye was the main dancer in our group, she had been working more closely with HyoYeon-eonnie these days.

Our camera-eonnie has been following us around more closely, getting footage that we could upload to our newly made YouTube channel. Manager SungJae had gone over the concept of our channel, it was gonna be vlogging type of content. It was gonna be us being ourselves and just giving the fans a peek behind the scenes of the things we do daily or if we just wanted to talk. It was nice that he gave us free reign to do what we wanted with our channel, which I was grateful and a bit surprised about.

The members and I of course were working hard as well. We knew we couldn't afford to slack off, not even a little bit. That's why Youngheun-ah had to get on Larissa a couple of times this past week for doing just that, and it was kind of eye opening to see. I've never seen her use her leader and oldest member authority ever, but Larissa was a bit of a stubborn one to deal with some times. Besides those minuscule setbacks, everyday we are here at the company at the crack of dawn, seven am on the dot, doing what we needed to do to prepare for our debut.

We started off every day the same way. Exercise and endurance first. Of course it was drilled into our heads by Manager SungJae that we had to keep up with our appearances. If any amount of body fat was visible to him, he would make us exercise two times as hard as before. " No one wants to see your body jiggling while performing." He would always tell us.

It was a bit taxing to hear that constantly, everyday we came in the exercise, but I guess that's just how things are in the idol industry, right? I guess he was just preparing us for what the outside world would say about us if we weren't at our best. It wasn't the best ways to motivate, but this was the life that I wanted to get into, so it's better to take any constructive criticism, than to to offense to it.

We also spent a portion of the morning at vocal training as well, our vocal couch made us get on the treadmill sometimes while singing, he made us dance as well. He told us that it was a great way to test our vocal stamina, and I had to agree with him on that. After that, we usually just took a break for about 20 minutes, then we had to get up and do it all over again.

Manager SungJae had been monitoring us a bit more lately, making sure we didn't slack off in any departments, especially with our dieting. He was very strict on us about dieting. He was very strict on us about the type of things we could upload to our social media, and he made sure to grind into our head that we were on a strict dating ban.

It was all typical things that mostly everyone already knew about idol life. I was expecting it, but living it was a whole other story. I didn't really care about the dating ban, I wasn't interested in dating at the moment anyways, but the dieting was something that I was struggling with. It was hard for me to ignore my stomach when it was literally screaming for me to eat something. This soup and water diet was ridiculous.

But it's what I signed up for.

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I trudged out of the doors of the company, my arm wrapped around Youngheun's, my head laid on her shoulder, as DaHye followed after us, and Larissa following behind her, typing something on her phone. Manager SungJae walked a head of us, leading the way to the parking lot and over to the company van.

The members and I had gone through our usual morning routine of exercise, vocal lessons and dance practice. Now we were headed to the studio where we would be taking our debut pictures. I had to admit that I was a bit confused though, our team still haven't let us know almost nothing about our debut. We didn't know what the concept was gonna be, what look we were going for, all we had to go off on was the song that we had already laid our vocals down for and the choreography we had been practicing lately.

And if I was being honest, I wasn't really feeling it. The song was ok, but the rap they had wrote for me, I wasn't feeling it all that much, and the choreography was ok as well, but it was a bit repetitive. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I'm thankful to my team for working so hard for us, but I just had something totally different in mind for us and this just shattered my expectations and not in the best way. That meeting we had CEO Yoon a couple of months ago when we had just begun training as a group, he told us that our input mattered, that they would take our ideas into consideration, but no one has asked us what we wanted, and from the late night talks with the members in the dorm about this very thing, they aren't to thrilled with whatever this was that the team was putting together for us either.

I sighed to myself just thinking about the whole situation. I guess it was obvious that I wasn't in the best moods right now, but I kept on walking, Youngheun tightening her hold on my arm as we continued our way to the van and getting inside.

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We all looked around in awe when we walked into the bustling building seeing the many different sets that were constructed.

A woman had begun walking out in our direction and we immediately bowed to her. She barley spared us a glance as she walked past us.

After that awkward interaction, we continued waiting in that same spot for a few minutes. Just waiting for anyone to approach us.

" Annyeonghaseyo." The members and I called out softly, bowing to the staff who passed us by once again.

And like the woman before, the staff had barely received a greeting back from the staff as they buzzed around the building busily.

Manager SungJae cleared his throat, making our attention go on to him. " Alright girls. This is your first photoshoot together as a group. The staff know what they are doing, so please follow closely to their instructions and take their criticisms seriously as they have seen many groups, successful or other wise walk through these very doors. Let leave a good impression on them, yeah?" He said to us, looking over every single one of us with a firm stare as he put his thumbs up.

" Yes Manager-nim." Youngheun said answering for us all.

Manager SungJae nodded his head as he walked over to one of the staff directors of the shoot and begin talking to him for a few seconds before they both begin to walk over in our direction.

" Alright. We are gonna get you girls into hair and makeup. Then we will begin with the shoot. This will not take very long." The director said to us.

We all nodded at his words, thanking him as he led us to a station that had vanity mirrors lined up with salon chairs in front of them.

The members and I were all sat down in our own designated seats. A woman walked up behind me, a soft smile on her face as she nodded at me and me quickly bowing back to her.

" So is this your first time at a photoshoot?" She asked me as she walked over to the vanity, opening up the makeup box that sat on top of it.

" Umm yes, it is." I said replying to her.

" I can tell. You seem a bit nervous." The woman said to me.

" Oh, no I'm not really all that nervous. I think I'm more so excited than anything. Being at a photoshoot for my debut is a really big deal for me. It's like my dreams are starting to come true." A smile was on my face as I spoke to the woman, and she returned it as well.

" Well I wish you and your group all the luck on your debut." She said to me. " Shall we get started?"

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The members and I stood on set, standing in front of a plain red backdrop. I sat posed on the small white chair, Youngheun right next to me on the arm of the chair, DaHye on the ground in front of us and Larissa standing up behind us. We held that pose for a few more seconds before the photographer to taking shots and put his camera down.

" And that's a wrap." The director called out as the staff begin clapping their hands.

The members and I all stood up, smiles on our face as we bowed and gave our thanks to the staff, our camera-eonnie coming over to us with her hand held camera to film us.

" So how are you all feeling right now?" Our camera-eonnie asked us.

" I can't believe we're really doing this. We are actually preparing for our debut." DaHye spoke up, making a mock crying face into the camera.

" I know! It really doesn't feel real. Like it feels real, but it hasn't really hit me yet that we're gonna be making our debut soon." Larissa said.

" Well it's happening, and it's happening soon. I hope our beautiful fans and supporters are ready for us." Youngheun said as she blew kisses at the camera.

" And how are you feeling, Jaelah?" Our camera-eonnie asked me, shifting the camera to focus on me.

" I'm so ecstatic right now. I'm just ready to show the world what our group and our team has been working so hard towards. I hope our supporters accept our hard work with open arms." I said giving a finger heart to the camera with a smile.

" Ohhhhhh." The girls cheered out as they all came over to circle me, patting me on my back and shoulders mockingly.

" Please take the words of our cute member Jaelah to heart and support us as much as you can. You wont be disappointed." Youngheun said to the camera with a pout.

" Is there anything else you all want to say to the camera before you have to go?" Camera-eonnie asked us.

" Please keep safe and keep a look our for us. We will meet with you soon." Youngheun said, giving the camera a finger heart as well.

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" Yah Leia, gonna wash up so Judy can go next. Dinner will be ready soon." I heard Youngheun tell the maknae.

I walked into the kitchen, just as Larissa was walking out. DaHye sat at the table, Youngheun was over at the stove, mixing something in a skillet and I made my way over to the table as well, sitting in the chair across from DaHye.

" It's gonna take some time getting used to using these stage names, huh?" I said to Youngheun, taking my phone out of my back pocket and unlocking it.

" Yeah. I know well most likely be using their real names while at home and at the company, but I'm gonna start using them now so when we start with our schedules, I can be used to using them then." She replied back to me.

I nodded my head at her even though she couldn't see. I was on my Twitter account, setting up my tweet for when I post my cover. I just needed to rewatch it one more time, and make sure it was seemingly perfect before I gave it to the fans.

I got up from my seat, going over to the room that I shared with Youngheun. I opened the door, walking inside and going over to my bedside table and picked up my earphones, connecting them with my phone and putting them in my ears.

My eyes were sharp as I pressed play on the video, making my way out of our room and back to my seat in the kitchen. My head subconsciously nodded along to Jimin's voice that blasted through my earphones. My eyes carefully watching my every step as I danced along to the song.

When the video ended, fading to black with me breathing hard while looking into the camera, I allowed myself to smile approvingly. I can honestly give myself a pat on the back, I think I actually looked well in the video.

" Yah, DaHye-ah. Can you look over this for me please?" I asked her, handing her my phone when she stretched out her hand for it. " I finished editing my video, but I just want another opinion on my dancing before I upload it to our channel." I said to her, sitting back in my chair, biting my thumbnail as she nodded and pressed play.

I watched her as she watched the video. DaHye toon dancing very seriously, especially with her background in underground dancing. She used to be apart of a dance group before she joined the company. If there was anyone that I would want to impress with my dancing, it was her.

She continued watching the video closely, nodding her head every time there was a move that she thought I executed a move well. As the video ended once again, she handed me my phone back, her dimple popping out as she smiled at me.

" Wow. Eonnie, your dancing has seriously improved lately. You were good before, but now your moves are more sharp and precise and still graceful. You embodied the way Jimin dance very well. You should upload it. The fans will love it, I promise." She said to me, excitement shining in her eyes.

I took in a deep breath and released it. Hearing her say those words put me at so much ease.

I nodded my head, going to the YouTube app on my phone. I clicked on the upload button and selected my video. I typed in what I wanted the title of the video to be and the description of the video then I pressed upload video. My heart pounded in my chest when I saw the bar slowly loading as it begin to upload my video.

" It's uploading." I said out loud.

" Are you nervous?" Youngheun asked me.

" Of course I am. I've been promising this video for the longest and I'm finally uploading it. I just hope they like it." I said to her.

I looked back down at my phone and saw that the video was loaded at 59%.

" I'm manifesting for your video to go viral eonnie. It'll go viral and attract a lot of fans for our group." DaHye said to me as she crossed her fingers.

" Well I hope your manifestations come true." I said to her with a smile, crossing my fingers as well.

I looked down at my phone again, seeing this time my video was loaded up to 73%.

With a sigh, I stood up from my seat, leaving my phone on the table as I went over to the refrigerator, taking out a cold bottle of water. My throat suddenly started to feel a bit dry. I cracked the top open and took a few gulps of the cooling water.

" Are you that nervous Jae?" Youngheun asked me, a teasing tone in her voice as she glanced over at me.

I moved the bottle from my lips, swallowing the water that I had in my mouth beofre pouting my lips up at her. " Yes!" I said to her, turning and making my way back over to the table.

I sat back down in my seat, screwing the top back on to my water and sitting the bottle on the table. Taking another breath, I peeked down at my phone, seeing that the video had loaded up to 97%.

" Oh my goshhhhh~" I whined. It's almost done loadinggggg~" I said to them.

I watched my screen, seeing as 97 went to 98, then to 99 and as it went to 100. It was about a minute later when the video popped up as uploaded.

" It's uploaded now. I'm gonna text manager SungJae and ask if I can use our official twitter account now so I can post it in there and on my personal account." I said to Youngheun and Dahye.

I took out my phone and texted manager SungJae and asked if I could post the link to my video using the group's official account. I didn't know if I was able to use the account yet or not, so I wanted to be safe rather than sorry. He texted back about ten minutes later, letting me know that it was alright to use.

I went to my Twitter app, going over to the sidebar and pressed add existing account. We had already been given the information to the account so I just put the information in and when the account loaded, I realized it had been private. I unprivated the account and looked at Youngheun and Dahye.

" What should be our first tweet on the account?" I asked them.

It was quiet for a bit as we all thought about my question. " Wait let me see your phone. I think this would be good for a first tweet." Youngheun said to me.

I got up from my seat and walked over to her where she still stood over the stove, stirring something in the skillet. I held my phone out to her, after putting the spatula down and took my phone from my hands.

She took a few seconds before she handed meMy phone back. It took it from her hands and looked on to the screen to see what she tweeted.

" Waitttt Heunnie this is so cute." I said to her.

" Let me see." DaHye said as she came over, moving my hand down so that she could see the screen. " Oh yeah, eonnie that's really is cute." She said.

I brought my phone back up and went back over to the sidebar of the account and went back to my personal account. I had a decent amount of followers thanks to Jungkook-seonbaenim. So I think it would be beneficial for the group to bring some attention to our group account as well.

I went and searched our group account and quoted the tweet Youngheun-ah just made. It felt like the results were instant.

The likes, retweets, and comments had went up so quickly, quicker than I expected it to. Not only the engagements on my account, but the engagements on the group account as well.

I switched back to the group account, seeing the the number of followers had risen and the engagements on the tweet had as well. I smiled. Wow, I was truly grateful that so many people were waiting on us. It almost brought tears to my eyes.

I went down to the feather icon and clicked on it so that I could make a tweet. And after a few seconds, that tweet was up as well.

And just like before, the engagements had shot up fairly quickly. I scrolled down to the comment section to see what was being said.

The more comments I read, the bigger the smile on my face started to get. I was honestly so overwhelmed right now. I really couldn't be happier at this moment.

A sound of amazement left Dahye's mouth. I looked over to her to see her scrolling on her phone as well. " Wow. Look at the engagements on your tweet eonnie! They love your cover! I told you they would! And look at how many Jungkook fans are commenting! Some of Jimin's fans too! Wow. I can't believe this right now." DaHye said excitedly.

" Right! I really can't believe this. DaHye-ah, you should manifest things more often. Seems like the fates listen to you." I said to her with a smile.

" DaHye-eonnie. I'm finished with the bath. You can go and take yours now." Larissa said as she walked into the kitchen, she hair still wet from her shower.

" Mm." DaHye sounded, getting up from the table as she made her way out of the kitchen.

I continued scrolling on the timeline of the official account, constantly checking the notifications every time something new popped up. Retweet a tweet form an account that supports nugu groups.