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elsa-fogen · 17 hours

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what do you think about the fact that al likes doodling?

i have a head canon that he has some sort of scrapbook or sketchbook full of little doodles of things going on at the hotel and just in his life, I feel like he would draw really stick-figureish (is that a word?) but I read a fic that depicted it as the same art style as an Invader-Zim obsessed scene girl and I could not stop cackling.

I also feel like he would either guard it with his life from everyone (exception to Rosie, of course) or just not bother to tell anyone and one day they just find him doodling schoolgirl style, kicking his legs in the air, LMAO NEW THOUGHT WHAT IF CHARLIE OR LUCIFER FOUND IT

OH! OH! Now that you mentioned it - i LOVE that about him! I just absolutely ADORE little thing he made for the add in the first episode. And i love this fact because 1) he's the first character i like that likes to draw canonically (okay maybe also toothless from httyd?) 2) Me and Alastor share so many similarities, and even drawing???? This just makes me love him even more (i'm sure we would hate each other irl tho AHAHHAHAHA or maybe not, idk)

SO, SINCE ME AND AL ARE SO SIMILAR, I'M GONNA PROJECT ON HIM MY DRAWING HABITS >:3c Forgive me this one, i usualy don't do that, i usualy project characters on myself haha

He DOES have sketchbooks just to draw, and they are ORGANISED. He's numbers every sketchbook and counts every drawing in them since the first one. He also has two numbers for each page - through one sketchbook and through them all. He has over 300 of sketchbooks by now (I have less, only 56). They are stashed somewhere in a very safe place.

Every sketchbook has a date of first and last drawing. Also amount of drawings. It looks like: NOTEBOOK 253 (number of sketchbook, also he doesn't call them sketchbooks) 03.06.1978-05.07.1978 (dates while it was active) 119 (amount of drawings) 29961-30080 (which numbers of drawings are in this sketchbook) He would cound something else, but he's just too busy to spend time on it. He can remember something thinking about what he was drawing in that period and vice versa

He used to draw at overlords meetings, pissing off Carmila and everyone else, because it looked like he hadn't listened to them, so Carmila banned drawing at overlords meetings (Alastor is still angry about it)

But he doesn't progress too much - most of his progress was made through first 10-20 sketchbooks, now he only has slight style changes sometimes when he feels like it

Tho he's really proud of his current skill and used to think that he's literally the best (used to get angry when reminded that it's not true) (now he kinda knows, but still likes his own drawings, doesn't accept criticism and doesn't try to purposely improve)

He likes showing his drawings to people, he knows and if he does, you have to say that it's literally So Cool, show enthusiasm turning pages and say that everything is just amazing. If you don't, he'll be OFFENDED. He also can leave a sketchbook opened on a page with a drawing he likes the most, and it's like a sign "NOTICE THAT I'M DRAWING AND SAY THAT YOU LIKE IT"

If he considers you a friend (well not like Rosie, but at least like Charlie), he'll be showing you his drawings regularly (and you have to be enthusiastic about it!!!!!!) He has showed it to Charlie, but somehow her enthusiasm is... too much. She's too patronising about it. He also shows his things to Husk, he knows that Husk is annoyed and doesn't give a shit, and he just enjoys his annoyance. He also shows his drawings to Niffty and she gives him Just Right amount and vibe of enthusiasm. (He sometimes draws something for her fanfiction if he likes something enough and enjoys Niffty's reaction (she explodes from happiness)). BUT!!!!! He never shows anything to Mimzy. Because she's like, person from the real life, and he feels like she would laugh at it. To Rosie he shows only things he considers his best and her opinion is the most important to him. He can even forgive her criticism (wouldn't take it tho) (she never critisizes him and absolutely ADORES his drawings). Angel kinda likes his drawings, but isn't enthusiastic about them enough

He doesn't take requests (Angel tried "draw me like one of your french girls" shit, Alastor never did (also his ass did not get the reference and he was like "i dont??? have??? any french girls????")) (Vox also tried to make Alastor draw something for him, Alastor was just "that's interesting, i'll think about it" and never thought of it again)

SOME OF HIS DRWINGS TURNED OUT TO BE PROPHECIES but he notices that only when something happens and then he goes back to his old sketchbooks and accidentally finds it. They are just coincidenses tho, but it's fun and Alastor makes a big deal from it and screams to Rosie like "I PREDICTED THAT SHIT 27 YEARS AGO" when finds out. (it's how i predicted many plot points from SU and literally TOH hunter's possession before the show even was a thing JHJDFJHFGJFDHKH i wonder if i predicted something from Hazbin, i need to look through my sketchbooks now)

If you dare to mess with his drawings and vandalise them... oh... you better pray to whatever god you belive in to make your sufferings be enough to redeem your sins and go to heven.

#hazbin #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #sudden ask lol #alastor hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #the radio demon #alastor the radio demon #radio demon #radiorose #platonic radiorose #hazbin headcanons #hazbin hotel text post

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ros3ybabe · 3 days

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Daily Check-in: April 24, 2024 🎀

Wednesday started out so rough, I had a really bad stress breakdown from the pressure I was putting on myself for the exam I have today (Thursday), but luckily my dad was able to calm me down over the phone and my boyfriend motivated me and encouraged me. I don't feel as stressed out anymore, I know that I know the material and I'll do great! (it's a chemistry exam)

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied chemistry for a good bit

completed 3 chemistry homework assignments

scheduled a make-up quiz for my psyc class

did the Total Body Pilates video from Blogilates

did the 11 minute Wake Up Yoga from Yoga with Adriene

did my morning skincare and journaling

actually, just did my entire morning routine and felt great about it

shipped off shorts I sold on depop

went to chemistry lecture to review for the exam

went to my virtual appointment with a registered dietitian and set some goals for the next 2 weeks

decided to join a step challenge with my health insurance company to win points (they have some cool things in their points shop, plus extra steps during the day is good for my health!)

washed my laundry

made a brain dump list for the remainder of the week

💞 Good Things That Happened:

I really like the dietitian I met with and have another appointment with her in 2 weeks

I really enjoyed using my new 40oz Simple Modern insulated tumbler cup

didn't let my stress breakdown make me go home, very proud of myself for sticking to my plans

went to sleep early

sold another item on depop!

I felt very reassured that I know the content that is going to be on my upcoming exam

the guy who makes sushi at my campus food court made sushi for me and held it until I went to get it so no one would buy it, i could've cried it was so nice of him

I drank coffee on campus and it didn't hurt my stomach for once!

💔 What Could've Gone Better:

need to put less pressure on myself

had some issues with food after my dietitian appointment (sometimes thinking too much about food can be triggering for me, tbh, but my goals are nutrient based which is helpful!!)

started crying before I went to bed because I was feeling oddly emotional (I think I'm starting my period soon)

had to turn down a work shift because I had too much school stuff and that appointment (I need the money so bad tho)

did not drink near enough water

need to be more patient and gentle with myself

also need to really figure out what's going on with my priorities, I keep struggling to do the things I say I'm going to do which is difficult for me to deal with sometimes

need to remember progress over perfection, 50% is always better then doing 0% of something

💗 Stuff For Thursday

clean my room

listen to a podcast episode

maybe do some more laundry

make a grocery list

clean my bathroom

therapy today over video call

reschedule a morning appointment

chemistry exam tonight

try to ship off the shirt I sold on depop

do some more planning and organizing for my life

that's all for now! Thursdays gonna be good. My exam is gonna go great! I have confidence in myself, and my knowledge and I know I've got this!

til next time lovelies 🩷

💕 Song of The Day: Baddie by IVE

Gotta remind myself of this sometimes <3

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tfc-does-arts · 24 hours

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Updated Anthro designs! Still not too sure about Saint... but the rest, I'm very proud of! Details about them, and a full line-up will be under the cut!

Also I see some of you, curious about what's up with Monk: and here's your answer: Monk is also Nightcat here! I made these designs before the Watcher was revealed. Also, I promised myself I'd hold back on making a Watcher design until we see their powers.

MONK - He/They

16 years old

Little Brother to Survivor, of course. Gourmand is their Auntie!

Aroace

Transes this little guy's gender.

Aside from being quiet, they're just a sweet lil guy.

They have some pet lizards... one of which is a red lizard named Jewel.

The bag contains snacks!

SURVIVOR - They/them

22 years old

Older sibling to Monk, of course.

Panromantic asexual

Sees a lot of themself in Big Sister Moon... often just sits with her to vibe.

Dating a scavenger named Blue! Only Blue is allowed to use she/her with them.

Found two slugpups while wandering with Blue, and is taking care of them, with Auntie Gourmand's help.

HUNTER - She/it

24 years old

After making it back to No Significant Harassment, Sig realized that Hunter was so fast that they could remove the rot before it became too late.

Lesbian

Why are its legs plantigrade? Well, she was a test tube baby!

Can't really talk, an unlucky strike from a scavenger cut her throat.

It knows sign language though, and have lengthy conversations with Spearmaster, who's like family to her.

Wants to help Five Pebbles out.

GOURMAND - She/her

38 years old

Aunt to Monk and Survivor

Bisexual

INCREDIBLY good at cooking. Can turn basically anything into a meal that can fill you for a while.

Dating Artificer, helping her heal from her deeply broken heart with kindness.

That and she will just hold Arti until she calms down from seeing red.

ARTIFICER - She/her

35 years old

Mother to Bubble and Seafoam, both are deceased.

Lesbian

Gourmand found her about to kill a scavenger. She hadn't even noticed the large slugcat until she was lifted in the air, arms pinned to her sides. Gourmand held on despite all the struggling, giving the scavenger time to escape... but it was only when Arti finally stopped struggling was she set down and talked to.

Under the long clothes, she's underweight.

Nobody really sees her eye underneath her hat... but Gourmand has. It always flusters her when Gourmand compliments her.

She's... hesitant towards slugpups. Her terror of losing her own still sticks with her.

Gourmand helps her a lot... she hopes one day she can repay the kindness she feels as though she does not deserve.

SPEARMASTER - They/it

31 years old

Aroace

Like Hunter, because it was a test tube baby, its legs are plantigrade!

Most messengers have their iterator's insignia on their person. In Spear's case, the amulet on their choker is the symbol of who their creator is.

Working with Hunter and Seven Red Suns to try and help fix Pebbles, or at least get him out of his superstructure before it collapses.... even if it itself is reluctant.

Pretty chatty actually! They and Hunter's conversations can go on for hours.

RIVULET - Any

27 years old

Polyamorous Pansexual

This little guy has been many places, though their favorite places to visit is the region that surrounds the iterator Chasing Wind.

They never stay in one place too long, but they always make sure to visit whenever possible.

Though you see him less than Saint, she's still always willing to tell the latest gossip... Very popular with the Scavenger King's group in the Outer Expanse to learn what scavenger politics are going on.

The only one who knows what Saint is capable of and takes it incredibly seriously.

SAINT - They/them

26 years old...?

Aroace

Quiet. Not mute, just... very quiet. Prefers listening over talking.

Very rarely do they ever show up. But it feels as though they're more... waiting for something.

Really only ever talks to Monk.

Some iterator logs think they saw Saint leaving Sliver of Straw's can... but that's not possible. Saint is still young. Sliver's death happened so many cycles ago....

ENOT/INV/??? - Any

???Adult???

What is even going on with this guy.

Never front facing... somehow.

Hurts for Moon to look at her for too long... other iterators get a malfunction in their systems.

Often found in deep in the Subterranean... most likely getting snatched by Train Lizards.

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egg-emperor · 3 days

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this bday feels more special than usual because there's a lot of big changes coming up in my life and this begins to kick that off in a sense so I've been reflecting on a bunch of stuff

I feel like I'm really on the other side of so much bad painful soul sucking shit now. like I feel I can truly confidently say it this time. FINALLY. I held onto bad things that were doing me so much harm mentally and physically for years and I really struggled to finally let go of a lot of things I should have for the past couple. but now it's really all over and like I can start to move on and heal for real

some huge changes to my personal life are coming up, most of which I'm not going to share but I'm pretty excited about and think will have a big positive impact on me. I'm working hard to make beneficial changes to my life in every way I can now in health and living, as exhausting as it can be with my constant chronic pain and fatigue. I finally have the will and determination to try

it's a waiting game in regards to my health with waiting on referrals but I've done what I've needed to so far with appointments to set it in motion and I'm proud of myself. after years of neglecting myself and my suspected condition, I've finally started it! and I've found out that stress factually affects it very badly, so I have to let go of the things that hurt and stress me out for good

I'm also truly accepting that I'm not a very well liked person to a lot of people. it doesn't matter because there are surely as many who like me too. I see kindness and support from others just as much as hate and I need to put all my focus and energy into the former alone. I want to look as grateful and appreciative as I am, not caught up in negativity. my mind can be a negative place but I'm working on it

and of course as usual, I'm going to keep being myself and following my heart and expressing my passion the way I want. because I'm never going to give up the things I enjoy and repress myself because of the disapproval of others

I feel like I can start looking forward and I'm feeling much more positive about things over all. in a few months time my living situation, hopefully my physical health, and my mindset will hopefully be improved. and it actually has me looking forward to seeing what the future holds

I've been through a lot of tough shit and pain and did some stupid shit along the way but I learned a lot about myself and what I want and need through it and I'm happy to finally be making all the right changes. I'm really glad I feel like I'm on the otherside of it, especially after how bad the past couple of years have been especially for me

and I just wanna say thank you to everyone who has supported me and stuck around when I was struggling and will be here to see the better version of myself and enjoy my blog. it means the world to me 💜

now I'm gonna go out and have a good bday today!

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hippolotamus · 4 months

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Sunday Sentences

Well, here we are then at the final not even remotely 7SS of 2023. Because I'm great at ignoring rules, I'm offering two POVs of come close (let me be home) from the same section today. Follows this snippet (all prev snippets here)

Buck

Not that Evan was specifically looking for him. He should focus on Maddie, but he’s unable to tear his gaze away from Viscount Diaz and his, frankly, rather clumsy partner. The poor girl seems to be counting her steps under her breath, trying and failing to dance without tripping them both up. She resembles a newborn fawn using her legs for the first time. Evan chuckles to himself, noting the tight, annoyed sort of grimace on the Viscount’s face and the way he occasionally glances skyward as if some heavenly being might suddenly decide to help. His patience is admirable at least. For one startling moment, Viscount Diaz ignores the ceiling and the fumbling girl, locking eyes with Evan across the sea of people. The expression is both spontaneous and intentional, filled with curiosity and an innate recognition. It makes his heart flutter and do something complicated in his chest, daring him to ask if he could cut in and relieve the young hopeful from making a bigger fool of herself. It makes him feel seen. A voice in the back of his mind whispers about etiquette and rules and things that shouldn’t be meddled with. He ignores it in favor of taking a tentative step, feeling drawn toward the center of the room where honey brown irises stay trained on him as much as possible between turns and spins.

Eddie

Agitation builds in his chest with each partner, filling him up until he’s not sure he can breathe properly. One by one Eddie mentally crosses them off, deeming them inadequate. Dull blue eyes, too brunette, can’t waltz properly, reminds him of his mother, stepped on his toes, doesn’t speak latin, prefers having daughters over sons. Some time near the fifth or sixth partner is when he notices. The sensation of being tracked. A familiar prickling that crawls up his spine, making the hairs on the back of his neck stand up. Between twirls he attempts to locate the source and finds piercing blue eyes staring at him. Flashes of a mischievous smirk, a strawberry pink mark and cool breeze against his face invade Eddie’s memory. He still doesn’t know the man’s name or what his business is. Maybe tonight he can find out. Eddie’s daydreams are interrupted by stumbling feet and a too small hand grasping his in an attempt to stay upright. “Oh, my! I’m so sorry,” the young woman — Miss Clark or Martin, whatever her name is — apologizes. “No harm done," He lies. "Are you alright?” Other than needing more dance lessons? “Yes, Viscount, thank you.” The song ends and he gratefully takes the opportunity to excuse himself. He needs air. The crowd, and the idea of spinning around one more husband-seeking idiot, is too much for him to bear at the moment.

tagged by the always lovely and talented @your-catfish-friend (go check their update to in my head btw) @thewolvesof1998 @daffi-990 @jamespearce9-1-1 @wikiangela (posted a new Christmas fic today) @spotsandsocks @honestlydarkprincess @buckaroosheart @underwater-ninja-13 thank you loves 😘

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#nope these two are not interested in each other *at all*#not one bit #also #there's a section of eddie's pov that i didn't post #but it contains the words 'predatory debutantes'#and i just needed you to be aware of that #because i'm very proud of myself about it #happy 2024 and all that #mwah <3 #seven sentence sunday #but not seven at all #hippo writes #fic: come close (let me be home) bridgerton #buddie wip #bridgerton au

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museenkuss · 9 days

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I unfortunately can't find the poll about locaring the US-States, but it inspired me to do a poll about locating countries in the EU. We never had to learn the US states (obviously, I guess), but we did have to learn the countries at some point, so I'm really curious.

Take this Quiz to test how fast/correctly you can locate countries in the EU.

disclaimer: this is a first attempt test with no prep, so if you do poorly, don't feel bad. I find this site is a very helpful tool when it comes to learning where countries in general (or US states) are located, and if you're interested in it, you'll get better in no time! I promise! :) Knowing where certain countries are located makes it a lot easier to understand historical events, cultural influences and contemporary politics, which makes it useful and fun. This isn't a marker for intelligence and this poll isn't intended to be condescending or mean-spirited.

#btw I was incredibly bad at geography #I remember getting maybe 5 countries on that test because I hadn't been aware #that we'd be tested on them. it was awful haha. one of my core memories from school.#so trying to learn them now is really important to me to overcome that shame #BUT I still did poorly when I did it for the first time after a long break the other day. I got like 55%#the small countries by greece really did a number on me :( very shameful #BUT at this point I'm at a solid ~80%!!! I'm very proud of myself :)#edit: I did. it again just now and got 100%! :)))))) im very happy about that

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enhanced-operatives-division · 12 days

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Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me...#im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months??????????#what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts.....#but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art]#THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

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mieux-de-se-taire · 6 months

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Demolition Lovers - MCR Interviews

89.5 WSOU FM Interview - 7/11/02

6:48-7:02, 20:33-20:57, 30:48-31:03

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Interviewer: And then it all ends with “Demolition Lovers,” which is like the climax. Gerard: Yeah, originally, the song-- um “Demolition Lovers” was supposed to be called “I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love,” but I just hate it when, like bands name-- Interviewer: (Dramatically) The title track of-- Gerard: The title track! Yeah, I just don’t like title tracks.

Ray: (After being asked his favorite songs) And the last song “Demolition Lovers” because that song took us just about 6 months to write. We had that song very ear-- like, parts of the song very early when we first started the band, and it just took 6 months to finally get it right, and to hear it...like how it sounds on the CD, was just-- is just incredible. It’s really moving, for me, and I think for all of us because it-- it took so long to get right.

Gerard: This song is called “Demolition Lovers,” and…there you go. (Laughs) It’s about uh-- you wanna know what it’s about? Interviewer: Yes Gerard: It’s about uh…a willing to dish out and receive bullets for somebody… (laughs) because you love them that much.

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HardcoreNJ Interview - March/April 2003

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Interviewer: What is your favorite song on your album and why? Matt: Easily “Demolition Lovers” because, it was the one song on the record that was more of a project to us than the other songs. It took like 6 months till we got it right, so the song really felt like an accomplishment when we were finished. It shows a wide perspective of what we can write.

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WVAU Radio Interview - 3/26/03

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Interviewer: What is the meaning behind “Demolition Lovers”? Gerard: “Demolition Lovers” is-- the meaning behind it is-- the song’s about wanting to do something for somebody or trying to prove to somebody how much they mean to you, and I wanted it to have this very like Ro-- not so much Romeo and Juliet, but very Bonnie and Clyde type feel, like two people out on the road together, willing to take a bullet for each other, kinda very like true romance type style. And it also goes out to somebody very special, and um... Interviewer: Aww Gerard: It’s kind of a way to tie up the whole record.

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89.5 WSOU FM Interview - 7/3/03

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Gerard: Bullets was more like wistful. It’s more like about Romeo and Juliet type, star-crossed lovers and stuff like that. Like “Demolition Lovers” captures like the theme of the whole record, you know, two people willing to die in a gun battle for each other and stuff like that. The next record’s stepping a little away from that kind of romanticism about it, and it’s going more into the like coming back from the dead to get revenge.

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MTV Interview - 6/23/04

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Gerard: We had a song called 'Demolition Lovers,' from our first record [I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love]. In the end of that, the main character and his girlfriend get gunned down in the desert. So, on this album, he's in hell looking for her, and the devil tells him she's still alive. And he says, 'I have to be with her,' and the devil says, 'Then bring me the souls of 1,000 evil men. I'll send you back to earth, and when you kill the last one, you'll find her.'

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MTV Interview - August-October 2006

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Gerard: And we had been working on theme and concept songs since Bullets. “Demolition Lovers,” the last track off Bullets, basically leads you into Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge, so there’s even like a thematic connection.

#mcr #my chemical romance #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #bullets #demolition lovers #interviews #song interviews #and that's the end of bullets!!!#very proud of myself #not entirely looking forward to revenge because of how much they talk about certain songs #but still excited!#as always if you think I'm missing something #please tell me!#i like these to be as exhaustive as possible

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rhys-ravenfeather · 1 year

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Listen, sometimes in life you’ve just gotta ignore canon, and even certain headcanons/AUs you don’t like or agree with and come up with your own/a version of the thing you like. As a form of self-care. This is a moral I live by, I think anyone who knows me knows at this point.

But for all that is good and decent in the world, you still absolutely need to be respectful towards others, even if what they made does not gel with you, personally. Especially if they’re the original creator(s) of the original, canon work.

#rhys-ravenfeather signing on #fandom stuff #a reminder to myself and others #case in point: there's a CERTAIN fnaf character a friend and i have VERY different opinions on #she loves him; i...DON'T; and he's one of many i've elected to keep out of my fnaf au(s)#i don't spend every hour of every day whining about how much i dislike this character out of spite because i love my friend and respect her #also what would it really accomplish lol :P #there's also the time someone told me my ahit au was boring because i just made snatcher a good dad who's trying to become a better person #instead of a soul-stealing baddie #like...i know my au isn't the greatest thing ever but i still love it and love my versions of the characters; snatcher included #and i'm really proud of the story i came up with #bottom line: be decent to each other people

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littleoddwriter · 3 months

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Because I keep questioning my own writing a lot; especially in terms of ending a short story... sometimes, it really is easier to just treat what you write like a movie or a TV show you're watching. Especially if it's a short fic that is basically just a single scene. Like... Would there be a scene change now and it'd feel complete? If yes, then it's an appropriate ending. If no, then either you write one more paragraph or let it rest for a bit, come back to it, and see how you feel. Or you find a spot a little earlier because sometimes scenes can drag on for too long and need to be cut shorter in order to be satisfying and make sense.

#i treat all of my writing like it's a movie or something because i'm a very visual thinker and i imagine everything vividly #so it comes naturally and that's the only way i can somewhat assure myself that the cut i made or the ending is appropriate enough #sometimes i'll still be unsure but heyyy it is what it is i guess #if i keep rewriting it any more i'll delete the whole thing eventually so whatever #anyway this is about the fic i just posted because holy fuck i was so proud when i finished writing it this morning #then i kept re-reading it to make sure it all makes sense and there aren't any grave mistakes #and every time i read the ending paragraph i got more and more confused #until i had rewritten it like 10 times and deleted the entire paragraph to end the scene a little earlier #because if this short fic was a scene in a movie or a TV episode it'd have been fine #there's no more to it necessarily #and the ending paragraph was just to wrap it up some more but it wasn't at all necessary #hopefully it doesn't feel too abrupt now tho omg hdsffhkds #jesse.talks

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harmcnia-gropius · 5 months

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"Did you know? Chili is a lot of things!

Chili's (restaurant)

Chili (food)

Chili (spice)

Chili (person)

Chilly (cold)"

#⊵ UP TO SNUFF! (I'm On Fire) | Shadow Triad Chili IC ⊴#⊵ Trauma | about + headcanon ⊴#VERY ok to rb because i am so proud of myself for this

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lord-squiggletits · 8 months

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whats ur fave megop fic uve written?

I'm not sure honestly 😔 I'm one of those people that hates rereading my own writing, and even though I will sometimes reread my own stuff and go "wow, past me was so smart and cool and clever for writing that," I'm not sure I enjoy any fic in particular? It's not just a matter of self-esteem either.

When I write a story it's sort of like me exorcising a set of thoughts from my brain, and once the story is finished I more or less stop thinking about it because when I finished writing the story and posted it, that act allowed me to say everything I had to say and resolve all the thoughts that prompted me to write the story to begin with.

I guess Pay Unto Evil is probably my favorite fic mostly because of how proud I am about it being such a long project (178k words I think) that took me a year and a half to finish, but it's literally the first novel length project I've ever completed. That being said, I'm not really proud of the earlier chapters of PUE (like... 1-4 or 1-5) because I feel like even though they're good, I didn't have as firm of a grasp on the characters back then as I did around chapter 6/7 and onwards. So it's a mixed bag honestly.

#squiggle answers #i'm not proud of myself and my accomplishments in general and it's a problem i'm actually going to therapy about #it's not that i have low self esteem and think negatively about myself #it's more that when i have positive attributes or do positive things they don't affect me very much #i'm kinda just like. k. that happened.#and it's sort of an endless cycle with writing bc the more i write the better my current stories become in comparison to the older ones #so it's something that i'm gonna have to grapple with and overcome eventually #also... not coincidentally PUE chapter 5 was the first chapter that quetzal beta read for me #and ch 6 was when she started betaing as i wrote #now she did beta read for other stuff like EATP at the time #but probably part of the increase in PUE's quality was because of her being involved more in my process #can't sing her praises enough. good beta readers literally are worth the world

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bookwyrminspiration · 8 months

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just found out apparently there is a song in hozier's new album abt language! wanted to rec it to you both because. it sounds very beautiful and also obviously because lyrics: butchered tongue

Oh, really? Cool! I've seen that Hozier songs have been coming out, but I haven't kept close track and didn't know there was a whole new album now.

I'm listening to it now and ough. Okay wow yeah that hurts. Especially that "Until the distance has been shown between what is lost forever / And what can still be known" line, that's incredibly reminiscent of several of the convos we've been having about trying to reclaim what we can, but how it will never be quite the same as what it could've been. And trying to reconcile and be okay with who we are while still feeling the righteous anger at what was taken from us culturally and linguistically.

And then "A butchered tongue still singin' here above the ground". I don't even know how to explain it, but you get it, right? We are butchered tongues, we're alive but with this piece cut from us. But we're still singing, we're still trying, we're teaching ourselves as many sounds and words as these butchered tongues will accept because we're not letting our language passively go. And despite our difficulties and how it's never be quite the same, we're still persevering.

I love this language...partnership? Camaraderie? Connection? Solidarity? we've accidentally discovered--thank you for sharing this song with me <3

#hozier #quil's queries #soryasongsaa #ough the guilt and grief and everything wrapped up in having a butchered tongue #that song just punched me in the chest #and also reminded me. gaelic is another language I'd like to learn #there's irish ancestry on my dad's side. I don't know how much but they're very loudly proud about it #so regardless of the amount because of that I understand that part of my family (and therefore myself) as irish #though I don't think...they speak the language?#idk I'm not close with them #but anyway!#just thought of that since. the song

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shoechoe · 6 days

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I only lurked on the Internet for a long time and still do not post on most websites I visit but it really is nice to have a place where I can talk about things like animated shows and music and other assorted interests without being judged

#personal #i will go on and on and on about the things i like and IRL it makes people sick of me #especially because my friends when i was younger were mean about my interests #i remember one time (i was 13) i was hanging out w/ my friends and we were watching shows so i put on invader zim #and then in the middle they said ''turn it off this show is so stupid'' and the rest of the night they watched superstore #i had to uh... resist the urge to run and jump out the window the rest of the time #people including my parents would make fun of the music i liked since i was like 11 #it would get to the point where i would snatch my headphones out of people's hands and obsessively clear every tab so they wouldn't see it #i would also get made fun of because i was bad at drawing (by my own parents too) and was kind of awkward in general #it made me very self conscious about so many aspects of myself i really wasn't happy #i think i am only starting to get a little better about it #and i'll be honest i'm not innocent when it comes to making fun of people for harmless interests too. the behavior is contagious i think #i try not to do it now i'm not proud of it #not to be too incredibly vent-y. but i really like feeling more comfortable talking about things i enjoy somewhere #i have found more friends that have some similar interests to me now and old friends have apologized and gotten less harsh #which helps. but also posting paragraphs on the internet about random shit helps too

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beauleifu · 1 year

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Hi, just going to come clean with you. I read your story and it really triggered me for some reason? You keep hinting at a reader 'backstory' and that trend is getting so old. Giving the reader a backstory literally takes away the whole essence of it being an X READER. I was not/never will be a nurse and I don't see why people like to put readers in someone else's shoes like god damn, just make it a Syntax x OC fanfic, its not that hard, we won't be upset or mad at you for making something self indulgent.

Literally. You wrote in the tags??? That it was self indulgent?? That self indulgent shit go woo?? Honey. Just come clean with US. It's really pissing me off.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

uwu

no <3

#sorry buddy. last time i made an OC was in 2010 so #there's no way i can know the actual reader's backstories and find a way to incorporate that into the story #but i dont want Y/N to be a blank slate #common courtesy #i had to give readers something to work with #i'd explain myself further but i think the readers understand completely.#also if you dont like. dont read. simple as that <3 #also first hate comment in awhile DAMN I LOVE YOU ANON #ask #beau answers #you must be a novice reader because there are millions of fics just like mine that you have yet to complain about #but like. please dont because they dont deserve your harassment #we are making shit on our own for FREE with our own damn imagination #writing fanfiction is literally one of they VERY FEW things i'm actually proud of myself about #so watch me skip off into the sunset with my fic and leave you behind #or i'll drag you with me and you'll see how it ends LIKE A SOLDIER SO BUCKLE UP BUTTERCUP I KNOW YOU'RE NOT LEAVING JUST OUT OF SPITE

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sparrowmoth · 1 year

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so pleased with myself rn because at 20K, I just broke my personal record for longest published fic with The Show Must Go On. I know that's not very long by some writer's standards, but for me though, it's a lot and I am going to reward myself by writing something very fluffy and cute and shamelessly self-indulgent as my next project

#personal #i'd like to thank the crows for possessing me #honestly they're keeping me on my toes but also so inspired??#chapter two had me YELLING but the fact I pushed through??#self-care is being really proud of myself about that <3 #i'm just very happy #the crows make me happy #wesper makes me happy #much happiness #and so for my next trick I think that I will.......#quite probably write drunk!Wylan #because I deserve to write something funny #and the comedic potential is too much for me to resist #can't wait to put jesper in a situation with drunk!Wylan #rubbing my hands like a wee trash panda

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