#because i’m very religious

[comixandco]

ik that taako’s voice in the first episode was because justin was still figuring out his character but i like to imagine that before joining bob taako put on fake accents to avoid being recognised, since he was wanted for the whole poisoning incident, but also for the bit

and then kravitz changes accents mid-fight in crystal kingdom and then drops them during their date at the chug ‘n’ squeeze and taako’s like oh 😳 same hat 😳

#taz balance #the adventure zone #taakitz #taz taako #i’m relistening to the entire balance arc and idk i just think it’s fun to take little abandoned details from the early runs and make them #into headcanon’s. like the whole taako and lup went to a religious boarding school headcanon bc of justin’s one-off comment about olmec #taako can’t even remember his god’s name but he is very religious you guys. they definitely got expelled from the school. #merle gave up on pan between the beach and bob bc his most religious experiences and connections w pan were wiped from his memory. but #exploring and something about his new boss sparks a nostalgia for his og god and he tries to re-build his faith. #magnus’ knife is lowkey prophetic but nobody notices (while riffing on it they mention a +8 weapon that deals an incredible amount of damag #e aka the sword of doom; and they say how in the final arc a dragon will appear from nowhere and has been there the whole time and it loves #you aka lup) #merle doesn’t trust gundren because he has so few memories of his cousin/his family there isn’t anything to gauge his intentions from #sildar hallwinter is barry’s go-to undercover name #y’know. stuff like that #i like re-contexting old information to fit with the new

[dragonseeds]

there’s a horrible sickness in me that makes me want to stop and replay da:i whenever i start a different game. how am i supposed to resist the story of my own unwilling apotheosis? especially as lavellan, who doesn’t believe in the maker and who has every right to hate and mistrust the chantry but chooses to use what power they have to try save people, to fix what’s broken, no matter how afraid they are or how careful they have to be. walking side by side with the great trickster god/adversary of your people without knowing, befriending him, changing his mind about this world but ultimately not his choice. he understands what’s happening to you because it happened to him once and he gives you his castle, built over the place where he sundered the world, and paints your story there in frescos that will last long after you’re gone and after the story has been retold and reshaped so many times that the truth of who you are and what you did is lost—just as he did his own story, which was lost and perverted by war and propaganda, and he shows all of this to you knowing you’ll understand because you’ve lived through something similar, grown into something larger than yourself and your true name, and it doesn’t change anything but. he wanted you to see him just for a moment, even if he can’t tell you everything (or almost anything) and you can’t save him—because he owes it to you as a someone who is a friend, almost an equal, and because there’s no one else left who knows: a direct result of what he did to your people and which he now seeks to undo at the cost of this world.

#dragon age #solas #literally i am ILL #i love religious trauma and stifling hypocrisy and walking carefully so carefully through a place i don’t belong but i’ve chosen to be #and questioning everything and losing and discovering myself over and over #and accidentally becoming friends with my work colleagues #and most importantly dating an actual god who is just a nerdy little guy who keeps fucking everything up #he’s such a liar but he wants to badly to tell the truth but he can’t he won’t #yet he only really lies through omission and speaks carefully so as not to give himself away #ok and also he very much wanted the anchor and manipulated that whole situation #but he also shows you who he is and tells you a sliver of the truth #and he didn’t have to do that! but he chose to—he wants you to see him and on some level to save him from his path i think #also i debated sooo long about the phrasing ‘almost an equal’ because i think he does consider everyone as worthy of life & choice as him! #but ultimately he is making the decisions of a god whether or not he acknowledges himself as one #he is deciding for a whole world—so i think there’s some cognitive dissonance there #and i went with almost #i’m fr stalled out in the middle of bg3 like i miss solas i miss my work friends

[anicehomicidaltree]

Would you look at that! More priest Mind!!! This time it’s some random angst :]

#as if this entire au isn’t angst lol #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #priest mind #NOT SHIP BTW i don’t really care about how you decide to perceive it but just know this is all from a platonic point #mind is very loyal to heart for a long time because he’s a devout man and he’s literally talking with an angel #he starts to doubt his faith in heart and harmonia after the shot #didn’t think u were gonna get lore huh? well I’m full of surprises #tree's art #tw religious imagery #religious imagery #tw religion #religion

[ava-does-dumbassery]

Egyptian pharaoh names but I’ve turned them into ancient cat names

1. Tutankhbastet (Tutankhamun)

This is the most obvious name on this list because literally all I’ve done is change out the name of one god for another god. I’m not doing that for any of the others I promise.

King Tutankhamun is the one pharaoh everybody knows about, which is ironic since his birth name literally means “the living (ankh) image (tut) of the Hidden One (Amun).” (“Tut” can also be translated as “likeness” or “statue.”)

Amun was the Egyptian god of, uh… stuff (he’s hidden. His whole deal is that he’s hidden). Bastet was the Egyptian cat goddess. Sometimes she was portrayed as a lady with a cat head, but sometimes she was just a cat. If you switch Amun’s name out for Bastet’s, it becomes “the living (ankh) image (tut) of the Cat Goddess (Bastet).” Truly, a name that only the most dignified and elegant cats deserve.

Transliteration: twt-anx-bAstt

You could also say it “Tutankhbast” if you prefer.

2. Hatmiushepsyu (Hatshepsut)

Hatshepsut’s name means “the foremost (hat) of noblewomen (shepsut),” and it turned out to be really good name for her, since she became pharaoh and all. If you want to change it to “foremost of noble cats” it becomes Hat-miu-shepsyu, “miu” meaning “cats” and shepsyu meaning “noble.”

Transliteration: HAt-miww-Spsyw

3. Nedjestiti (Nefertiti)

I am aware that calling Nefertiti a pharaoh is controversial since there’s a chance that Neferneferuaten might have been her daughter and not her. But finding names of pharaohs that you can do this to and are also popular enough to be recognized is hard so shush.

Nefertiti was supposedly the most beautiful woman in the ancient world (although we can’t confirm that because Nefertiti and all the other ancient women are now dead). Her name fits this, because it means “the beautiful one (nefert) has come (iti).”

“Nedjes” is a word meaning “small,” so changing the name to Nedjest-iti makes it mean “the small one has come.”

This is a good name, because if your cat is bad then you can use it in a derogatory sense to call them a penniless little beggar. Unfortunately, it only really works for girl cats, because the masculine version is “Nedjesiu,” which loses the pun quite a bit.

Transliteration: nDst-ii.ti

4. Miumer (Narmer)

Narmer was the first pharaoh to rule over all of Egypt, and like other early pharaohs the only name used for himself was his Horus name instead of his throne name or birth name. (You know that TS Elliot poem about how cats have a bunch of different types of names? Pharaohs are like that too). Because Narmer was his Horus name, it was written inside an enclosure called a serekh instead of a cartouche.

The name itself means something like “striking (mer) catfish (nar)” or “fierce (mer) catfish (nar).” To change it to “striking cat” or “fierce cat,” you need to change nar to miu: Miu-mer. (Yeah the English translations of this one are stronger wordplay than the Egyptian versions, sorry.)

If your cat is a girl then the name should be Miutmer instead.

Transliteration: miw-mr

5. Bitokris (Netiqerti/“Nitokris”)

Queen Nitokris was either a cunning murderess, whose name lurks in the shadows of history… or she was a 3,000 year old transcription error. The only potential record we have of her name in hieroglyphs is the name of a pharaoh called “Netiqerti” on the Turin kings list. This could be Nitokris, or it could be a mistake made by a scribe while trying to copy the name of the name of another, completely different pharaoh.

If Netiqerti is Nitokris, then her name means “Neith (Net, a goddess) is excellent (iqerti).” Bit-iqerti/Bitokris would mean “honey (bit) is excellent (iqerti).”

Transliteration: bit-iqr.ti

#Ancient egypt #egyptology #ancient languages #This list ending up having more girl pharaohs than boy pharaohs on it which is neat (even if one of them probably wasn’t real) #A lot of the famous names of male pharaohs I first thought of using are things like ‘the justice of Ra is strong’ ‘Thoth is born’ #Or some other combination of god name + religious meaning #And just switching another god out for Bastet gets very repetitive so I was only willing to put one version of that on this list #And the king Tut one works the best because Tut and Bastet are both well known enough that some non-nerds will probably be able to get it #Also because ‘The living image of Bastet’ is just a great name for a cat #The Nitokris one also follows that format but I was able to think of something that wasn’t just another god without completely changing it #And I’m so proud of myself for thinking of that. Bitokris is a great name. #I put this list in order of which of the pharaohs on it are most well known. If it was in order of the best names Bitokris would be first #and Tutankhbastet would be second #Ava has thoughts #Id in alt #ancient egypt stuff #Long post

[laniemae]

Not gonna get into danganronpa another spoilers because this whole scene is something else that I’m still processing but I absolutely love this line. Like to bring up milgram I think this is an idea which can reflect on lots of the characters as well. The idea of basing your entire existence off of a certain thing/person/ideology and then for something to happen that completely destroys that. Your entire person has been stripped away and just what’s left? You can’t comprehend your own existence or meaning without that specific attachment and you start to question all of your actions based off that…

I can only really think of John, Kotoko, and Es here (and possibly Amane and Mikoto to an extent). And John bases his life off of Mikoto, Kotoko upholding justice, and Es being the warden.

John’s idea of his whole existence and reason for being is Mikoto. It’s the only reason he believes he exists and if he were to fulfill his role he’d “disappear” as he would be completely worthless without him. John tries to repress and ignore his humanity and reduce himself as a tool to protect Mikoto and that’s all he can see himself as. But now Mikoto’s starting to not deny his existence and feels pure hatred for everything about him. And what will happen to John, when the person he’s dedicated his entire life to and desperately wants praise from, denies his existence? What will he be but some worthless existence that is only a burden, to him.

Kotoko. An ideology of upholding justice and punishing evil that has completely overtaken her. She has pushed herself into a role of a “fang” for justice, protecting the weak and persecuting evil. But even so matter how much she tries, she knows her goals are unreachable. She denies relationships and attachments to other people based on this ideology. Kotoko admits that she does feel attachment to the prisoners, but has to deny them in order to fulfill the role as a tool. And believes that pain and violence is necessary to achieving a greater good. Trying to deny any regret because wouldn’t it be easier to believe you’re entirely in the right? She latched onto Es, believing them to be similar as the warden who carries out judgement on wether the prisoners are forgivable or not. But now, Es has denied her whole ideology, her whole existence due to the pain she’s caused. Kotoko wants to believe that what she did was right and that Es, another enforcer of justice would accept her, because that’s how it is.

And Es… they’re the warden of the prison. There’s nothing more to them than that they believe. Es has no memories of their identity or past before Milgram and immediately latched onto the identity given to them, of being the guard. Es took this role as their entire identity, an extension of the milgram system in order to interrogate and judge prisoners. I think Muu put this best.

“Warden-san, we call you "warden" because that's what you are, right? And I was assigned the role of prisoner, but that doesn't mean I'm now nothing but a prisoner at heart, too. After all, I'm still me.”

Es has an unstable sense of identity, to the point they latched on to the first thing they were given in order to give themselves a purpose and a meaning for existence. And Kotoko calling them “imperfect caused them to question their identity. But as the story progresses Es will probably begin to learn about the audiences control and the truth behind what they assumed to be their verdicts. That their will never was 100% their own. Who knows what Es’ past was, but eventually they’ll likely have to tackle it and their whole identity, the warden, the arms of milgram, is gone.

gonna think about Mikoto and Amane here as well. Mikoto, although may not seem to be as first, focuses his entire identity around other people. He’s the friendly sociable guy who’s easy to chat with. But that’s all he believes he should be, I guess. As perhaps this mindset is upheld by an inherent fear of other people rejecting him, so he focuses all his attention and identity on being a social person. He’s never truly friends with people, as perhaps that would be “too close” and open up the possibility for danger. He doesn’t completely deny his identity like the others, but he molds and shapes it in a way that is acceptable to others. He likes what everyone else likes and does what everyone else does so the fear of being rejected for being different won’t hurt him. But now he’s stopped denying John’s existence and his DID, believing himself to be crazy, and to be completely rejected from other people, his entire sense of identity to an extent. And especially with John scaring other people off with the mindset that will help Mikoto, he has now been completely distanced from everyone else and now has to come to terms with himself, but not the ideal persona he put on to be acceptable to other people.

Amane is a more different case as she in a way has rejected that idea, but not completely. Growing up in a cult it’s very likely that she was always conditioned that she was just a servant for god. That all the good things she did were actually god blessing her and all the bad things a fault of her humanity, herself as a person. She is in a unstable relationship with the whole submitting her personhood to her religion, as she sacrificed her ideologies in order to help a cat. But at the core, that wasn’t about herself and her identity, rather a focus on the cat’s life. Amane’s murder was her will. Rejecting everything and fighting for her life in direct opposition to what she has been taught her entire life and how her identity should be, a rejection of that and a glance into “herself”. But once again, this murder wasn’t entirely self motivated. She’s still broken enough that she can’t fully grasp herself as a person besides god and religion. And a large cause of her murder was out of the death of the cat, rather than simply protecting herself. Amane still slips back into the belief that her personhood is entirely dedicated to god. As she tried to convince herself and Es that the only reason she killed is because they deserved religious punishment and she is in the right for carrying out god’s will, once again denying her personal reason for doing so. Reducing herself to “we” on behalf of her religion, that this isn’t herself anymore. Amane is in a limbo between rejecting her personhood for god, but at the same time rejecting the suffering she’s been through in order to save “herself”. Amane’s case is so interesting, as there’s no clear answer of what she believes in here, and it is truly fascinating.

#milgram #Milgram theory #milgram analysis #amane momose #mikoto kayano #john kayano #john milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #es milgram #uhhhh this was meant to be a quick analysis how did this turn into an exploration of the identities of 5 characters #And comparing it to a scene from dra which focused a lot around the loss of someone’s beliefs completely destroying their identity? #May analyse that scene directly because the whole philosophical and psychological concepts coming into play there is just soooo cool #and man I was kinda figuring out stuff as I was writing this but like I said it’s so interesting how Amane isn’t completely dedicated to go #Like the other characters I mentioned who have dedicated their whole identities to something #And Amane’s at the struggling between her true self and her perfect religious self #But perhaps she doesn’t entirely realise this conflict going on within #Which is interesting as a realisation of their identities would probably cause the other characters to lose it #But Amane it’s coming to her in a different way #She’s so strong uahhhahhajajshshshs #Tw cults #Ok now thinking about this more I’m starting to see this whole ideology apply to other dra characters as well #Man this is just so interesting #Like Kinji although having nowhere near as bad of a situation of amane was in a way forced to repress his emotions his entire life #Due to religious reasons and to devote his life to god and reject personhood #Surprisingly he’s actually not a bad person but still is very stoic and avoids other people due to being taught those values #And kinji’s a whole parallel to Tsurugi so this would be really interesting #I would talk about Tsurugi here but this is primarily a milgram post so for everything he’s like kotoko with a dedication to justice #But handles it in a very different way #His story is just way to long to analyse now #But hey this is an invitation to play (or watch bc downloading the game is hard technically) danganronpa another

[communistkenobi]

I’m curious if other communists have like a religious relationship to their political beliefs for lack of a better word? That’s not a good word to use but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m solidly atheist but all of the feelings and emotions religious people talk about, revelation and spiritual connection to community and so on are all things I experience pretty regularly and I interpret those feelings as fundamentally communist. the way I take in and absorb information in particular feels revelatory in a religious sense. I’m pretty sure this is fairly common with MLs but I’m curious about it in general

#disabling rbs because I don’t want this to leave my blog #I’m using religious in a deliberately loaded way because I lack the language for alternatives #I joke frequently with my friend that communism is the religion of science but like I do unironically believe that lol #also not claiming marxism is ‘just another religion’ I do not think that’s true or useful to think of it in those terms #but if you take political theology seriously the belief in a socialist state is like the modern version of a desire for religious authority #anyway sorry extremely complicated things that I’m not remotely expanding on enough #I’ve just been thinking about it a lot recently #it’s like a totalising force in my life and shapes the way I interpret and understand the world and my relationship to it #I remember reading marx for the first time and in a very real sense I ‘converted’ to being a communist #I need to read more Benjamin because he goes into like jewish mythology and stuff in his work #but like him talking about the divine violence of the state made it click for me and is partly responsible for me making this post

[iyxv]

jb at variety playhouse in atlanta — sept. 4, 2021

#julien baker #boygenius #this isn’t boygenius but they’re getting tagged anyways #back with more from atl #because i miss it so bad #i had a religious experience on this night #i’m so serious #i also got blackout drunk the next day 🤥 #very healthy people coping mechanisms yes 👍 #the tags are literally my void (free therapy) #stfu jess #literally stfu lol

[goldensunset]

what if they gave you the actual arcphone instead of just a case

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#WAR FLASHBACKS… it honestly felt like a mockery of my pain to just run into bonsly right away in violet after how long it evaded me in pla #LSFSGHDBDJBSJDB if they’re gonna make the ‘pAsT LiFe’ claim they should commit to it #naw but i’ve already decided my characters from both games have very different personalities #my pla girl is just akari pretty much like how i imagine akari in canon to be only i’ve given her a new hairdo and outfit #my violet girl is just like ummm ok. i’m here to do and say what i want; no more no less. i’m cuter than you uh i mean uhh #it would be SO funny if you just. actually randomly got a text from arceus like in pla in this game instead #like hello???? #this seems like a much less religious society too #as opposed to the people of hisui #arceus also misremembering akari’s name is soooo funny given that she was its chosen favorite #asks #vivi-mire #pokémon #sv spoilers #legends arceus #goldie’s pokémon violet liveblog #you make my character look so cute i already changed her hair though lol #i went to the hairstylist and saw something that would make me look more like my pla character #idk if it suits me though tbh i only committed because i thought i’d already paid upon entering like you have to in pla #kinda wanna change it back already and get my hat back on i like the bob

[compacflt]

I was wondering if you had thoughts about how Ice and Mav's politics don't fully align with their actions? There was a post where you said Ice's politics are more socially liberal than Mav's but Mav is also the one who goes out to La Jolla to hit on guys before Ice, and later again when he's broken up with Ice, but Ice only goes out with women out of fear for his honor or whatever. Same with their respective thoughts on feminism, with Mav's mild respect for Charlie (telling Ice not all women fit the stereotype) but later Ice is the one who sends Juno to Mav's Top Gun class without telling him she's a woman and Ice has a respectful friendship with Juno. I think you said Ice is vaguely on the ace-aro spectrum (demi-homoromantic) which is a sort of fascinating irony that he doesn't have the words for it whereas Mav is the one with the theories about Ice's sexuality. Though with their hypocrisies and inconsistencies this all just feeds into their characterizations of the fact that they keep divorcing their actions from their spoken words from their identities.

okay going to take this point by point

1. yes i have addressed their politics in relation to their actions before, so maybe read this post and this post before you read this one, just to see where my other thoughts line up

2. gay republicans and conservatives do exist (at the very least certainly republicans and conservatives who have gay sex in secret)

3. before maverick is a political actor he is a human being, and the characterization that we are primarily given for him is that he is impulsive and reckless and doesn’t think through his actions. As ive written about many times before—from a story construction standpoint, his thoughtlessness is his number one most important character trait. He is both thoughtlessly dangerous (his hero’s “fatal flaw;” he can’t stop himself from making bad decisions) and thoughtlessly brilliant (the navy’s best and most daring and heroic pilot). He does what he wants without thinking about it; and he makes excuses and hollow promises whenever that plan doesn’t work out (“I know better than that. It will never ever happen again;” [it happens again] “I’m not gonna let you down. I promise.” [goose dies shortly thereafter]). His thoughtless impulsiveness overrides everything else. Maybe the act of having gay sex (to address your “he gets fucked in La Jolla before ice” point) is politically subversive, but for Maverick’s thoughtless character that we are shown in Top Gun, the most subversive possible thing would be to LABEL the gay sex and think through the consequences of it. To call a spade a spade and call himself gay or bi or queer or whatever. That would be the most subversive (and with mav, entirely unbelievable imo) possible thing. That takes conscious effort of thought, something maverick is near-incapable of doing. As long as he can get away with it without thinking about it, he’s politically in the clear, with regards to his character & character arc. If that makes sense. “Don’t think. Just do.” That’s literally his motto lmfao. He represents thoughtless action as an archetype; his politics come secondary to his desires

4. Their “respective thoughts on feminism” are divided into two camps: 1. “Professional as required by the law” and 2. “Sex pest mode.” They’re naval officers in the 1980s. Whether republican or democrat, that’s kind of par for the course. How men treat women can be a performance to other men. Any respect i made them show towards women had broader, more metatextual “need to move the conversation/story from A to B” reasoning behind it. See the first post I linked for much more on that.

5. i never said ice was on the ace/aro spectrum, or if i did i DEFINITELY meant it sarcastically. That could not be further from what i believe. This isn’t something I’ve ever discussed on this blog before, but a MASSIVE part of the philosophical discussion I’ve been trying to moderate within this project over the last year is the question— “do labels even work with characters under these very specific and extraordinarily extreme conditions and societal pressures?” It’s a question I took from my time studying early American history—the contexts of certain environments, and I would definitely count the elite officer ranks of the navy in the 90s and 2000s as one of these certain environments, simply Are Not Conducive to the easier (path of least resistance maybe) ways we civilians handle sexuality and friendship and trauma. There are so many variables and external and internal pressures within an environment like the upper ranks of career navy officers that sexual orientation labels lose all nuance and accuracy. I don’t think Ice (as i have written him) is gay. I don’t think he’s straight. I don’t think he’s bi. I think he’s an unlabelable product of too many variables for labels to have any effect on how he is perceived. Which, in our society built around labels and categories, is admittedly difficult to wrestle with. But doesn’t make it any less worth wrestling with.

6. Yes, ice and mav’s hypocrisy is the linchpin of the entire story.

They’re both trying to have their cake (“honor” and moral superiority based on the harmful traditional subjective morals arbitrated by elite navy officership) and eat it too (a fulfilling relationship with the love of their lives). & the point is that they cant. they have to settle for one.

#adam & eve can either stay in eden or eat from the tree of knowledge. but the moral authority told them not to eat; so they can’t have both #or—they can have both but they can’t ACKNOWLEDGE having both; they have to keep it a secret even from themselves. that way it’s not sin. #(the navy is ice/mav’s religious institution as i keep repeating) #re: ice and labels. #like i am both joking and not joking when i say he’s mavericksexual #simply because maverick represents both the guilt Ice must deal with re: the death of a friend #AND the recklessness that would inspire him to realize (in the actionable sense of the word) the full extent of his sexuality #no one else can do that. he and maverick were made for each other like that. #same thing where ice is the only one who can legitimize maverick in the eyes of their overbearing institution. #they’re made for each other in a way that imo transcends sexuality and labels. #I’m not going to touch the politics of ‘demi-‘ labels because i know people feel very strongly about it #and you come to me for Top Gun not necessarily my thoughts on modern identity politics #but suffice to say i don’t believe either ice or mav are demi anything. #they’re just guys. they’ve killed people and killed with each other and killed for each other. they don’t need labels. just let them be #tom iceman kazansky #pete maverick mitchell #top gun #icemav #top gun maverick #asks #edts notes #thanks for the ask! hope it isn’t coming off as aggressive or argumentative #* argumentative yes. you can argue with me. #but the labeling issue has been on my mind since DAY ONE & influenced much of how i wrote the story #human beings are so much more complex than most labels give us credit for

[strangenessandcharrn]

something so personal about the parallel that is travis saying "quit acting like such a saint" to natalie (someone who is constantly being thought guilty of sin- though they never had sex) and shauna loving the saints because 'they were all so tragic' and then eulogizing jackie as a saint (someone who travis had sex with before her death)

they're so who is the lamb and who is the knife coded

#not to mention shauna wanted to have sex with jackie / travis wanted to have sex with natalie but couldn’t bc of societal implications #jackie is thought to be a priss for not having sex with jeff but it was bc she didn’t love him and wanted to save herself #and natalie is thought to be a sl*t bc she didn’t save herself even though she wanted to do it with someone she loved #and she was always going to be thought of as one bc people will make their own assumptions of you #which is the only reason why jackie even stays with jeff #beyond that they’re the perfect example of self preservation over selfishness #or rather it as a concept because they’re both hiding from themselves in the real world and in the woods #(and I love them both for it) #natalie sacrifices herself daily willingly and jackie wouldn't lift a finger at least when stranded for anyone unless she were forced to #bc I think deep down natalie has put herself in danger both for others but also bc she’s suicidal and jackie is rightfully selfish bc she #doesn’t want to die. but we’re not ready for that conversation #natalie indirectly caused the death of another person and jackie unintentionally committed ‘the ultimate sin’ but only one will be damned #just thinking #also this isn’t me saying that having sex or sex before marriage is a sin I’m only referencing christianity/religious imagery in the show #nor is su*cide or thoughts of su*cide #yellowjackets #they are NEVER beating the laura / audrey allegations (and yes I’m aware they’re very different) #natalie x jackie #jackienat #k

[toxictranny]

hey sisters, i know u (my fans) were wondering what i’m gonna wear to my ex stepdad’s wedding because i’m best man and there’s gonna be 200 ppl there who haven’t seen me since i was single digits so it’s a rly big event BUT i’ve got no clue what the fit will be because the dress code he gave me: wear whatever you want. GDNKE.???ATFJJF...!!! ARE YOU OH-FUCKING-KAY???? WHATZVER I WANT ??????THEY WONT EVEN GIVE ME A COLOUR SCHEME WHAT THE FLCUKC ALso no i can’t wear a wedding dress it was the first thing i thought of but i asked my mom and she said that would b mean :/

#his estranged brother’s gonna be part of the wedding party so i’m ?! not sure how this will go. #they’re estranged because his brother has some sort of religious belief that lead to him hating me/my mom for having a kid with another guy. #stepdad met me when i was nearly 3 and his brother met me+my mom 4 years after that #the brother’s thing was that my mom/me are devilish or whatever #he also said shit about us stealinh my stepdad’s money but my mom was the breadwinner #tbh i don’t really understand this stance but it’s very common. he just Doesn’t Like Me. we’re not #biologically related and that’s literally the only reason #he thinks it’s disrespectful for a woman to divorce her husband first of all but second to let another man raise her kid #yawn. gross asf. BJT LIKE HOW DO THEY FEEL ABOUT ME BEING LIKE THIS?! #everyone knew i had a Condition ™️ but i didn’t uh #do anything? lol #i was seen and treated as A Little Weird. not like a third gender #we could all tell i was going with the sex and pronouns assigned to me simply because that’s what i had #so i THINK i’m gonna be valid but rly truly if someone tries to explain why there are only two genders to me i’m going toLOSE ITTTTTT #ooh i can wear a wedding dress to the rehearsal dinner lol #my stepmom got me a neon green suit jacket .? so #maybe that’ll come out #toxictranny

[crowsyart]

Some of these have way more meaning than others some are just vibe based I’m a bird guy I gotta birdify the soul eaters

Maka - Carolina Wren

Soul - Osprey

Black☆Star - Common Kingfisher

Tsubaki - Black Heron

Kid - Black Vulture

Liz - Red Tailed Hawk

Patty - Rough Legged Buzzard

Crona -Kauai o’o’

Ragnarok - Loggerhead Shrike

Medusa - Crested Serpent Eagle

Marie - Buff Orpington Chicken

Spirit - Red Crested Cardinal

Stein - Harpy Eagle

Death - Andean Condor

Justin - Turtle Dove

Giriko - Hoatzin

Eruka - Potoo

Mifune - Snowy Owl

Sid - Ostrich

Hero - Grey Catbird

Asura -Magnificent Frigatebird

Naigus - Groove Billed Aini

Asuza - Western Jackdaw

#soul eater #I’m not tagging everyone there’s too many people here maybe I’ll come back to it later and do it #honorable mentions #kid:collared inca #stein:shoebill stork or bleeding heart dove #asura: adolescent california condor #also important to note I am both a Marie fan and a chicken fan #this is not a diss on Marie I selected the buff Orpington because they’re both a very sweet breed (also orange) and chickens are also tough #obviously #hoatzin for giriko is because the babies chicks have little like dinosaur fingers and also they smell really bad #the kauai o’o for crona is because theyre known for that recording of one singing half of its duet #as the last one of its species and I was like yeah that seems crona-like #crying out for something they’ll never receive #and if you wanna get cute about it maka could learn the other half #speaking of maka wrens are known as the king of birds in some British cultures I believe? so she has a legacy to live up to #black heron for tsubaki besides its color and tallness they make a shadow tk catch fish and i was like yeah rhat seems ninja like and clever #kingfisher for black star is kind of obvious you have king and star type deal plus small and blue #He is a peacock in my beastars au but thats different #hero catbirds are unremarkable and good at mimicry #Justin turtle dove religious symbolism Azusa jackdaws are corvids and therefor clever also they have her piercing eyes #the condor and vulture w kid and his dad are fairly obvious w the death and decay stuff because vultures #ospreys look like awkward teens trying to be cool to me #I almost did a chickadee for soul to match maka being a small bird #harpy eagles eat monkeys so it’s kind of like that dissection of people thing w Stein i guess? #trying to remember all my reasonings is hard I sat on this for a while lol #anywyas hope you guys enjoy #soul eater birds #oh uh frigatebirds being theives and scavengers and attacking other birds I’m sure could be drawn back tk asura somehow like #somehow

[kingethera]

Play Red Dead Redemption 2

Relate to and become attached to characters

Think about Red Dead Redemption 2 a lot

Cry

#I’m so normal about this game #very very normal #thoughts about rdr2 hurt me #i just think Arthur is really neat :) #loyalty to a man who’s lost his mind even in your dying days because you care about him and the other people that follow him is very chill #super chill mhm and totally not at all gut renchingly relatable #this game hits me in the religious trauma in ways I never expect games to hit #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #gaming #gaming thoughts #kingethera

[void-tiger]

…I think a lot of adulthood is just letting your inner child tantrum and cry and be angry and grieve with them. Nobody soothed you as a child. So as an adult you soothe yourself.

#tiger’s musings #mental health bullshit #trauma recovery #childhood trauma #school bullying #religious trauma #for me it was bullying. nonstop constant bullying and never being soothed. just made to feel Bad because the adults decided I’m worth less #then church lessons that legit groomed kids (especially girls/women) to feel worthless and ‘turn the other cheek’ #when to be frank: the og audiences were men. men with at the very least gender power. sometimes social power or wealth #for others it’s That and/or unstable homes vs highly critical or emotionally unsupportive parents #but yeah. it all leaves a mark on your psyche. which takes Time to heal from

[bugscufflebi]

Capitalism creates a society of self interest rather than communal good. It takes us to the place of animals; vicious competition between each other, rather than the acknowledgement that God has provided more than enough plenty for all of us. In capitalism we hold ourselves to the hierarchy of beasts and we build societies that are little more than towers to stupidity. When “Christians” reconcile the message of Christ with the society created by corporate oligarchy they are becoming those who will be spewed from his mouth.

#yes I’m a Christian #it shocks people a lot of times because they really like me and that makes me very sad #I 100% understand it though and trust me as a queer woman in a very strict Christian family i experienced some shit #I definitely disconnected from the faith entirely for a long time #but God is for the gays my guy #God is for everyone #God is for the gays #Christian #religion #religious #theology #capitalism #economics

[latter-gay-witchery]

My Witch’s Prayer

(A/N: I dunno why I decided to write this, probably in part to keep me grounded in my faith even as I pursue the craft. This is far from polished but eh. Maybe a dedicatory poem for my grimoire or book of shadows?)

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. In working my craft, my God I can’t forget.

For who made man’s mouth? And who made the Sun, the Moon, and the Stars above? Who made the owl, the cat, the raven, and the rat? Have not They who rule in Heaven and Earth?

The Lord my God: my Father and my Mother, who in Their holy image created humankind.

The Son, the only begotten, whom we call Jesus Christ. In Him alone is my salvation.

And the still, small voice we call the Holy Ghost - Heaven’s messenger, the believer’s constant companion.

United in purpose, separate in form. Let Them now hear my prayer:

Lead me not to ruin; remember your flawed, imperfect daughter. May your mercy endure forever as I strive to learn each day.

Amen

#christian witchcraft #christian witch #Mormon witch #(I add that since well) #(I fully admit my view of the godhead/trinity is very very Mormon) #(hence Heavenly Mother and ‘United in purpose separate in form’ bit) #… now #dare I put this in the queerstake tag? #it would be a bit much for general tumblrstake probably #as it is I’m not sticking this in the main witchblr tags because shy and cause this is so overtly Christian #and I don’t wanna set off anyone’s religious trauma either #witchy writings #faith and magic