#bc my mother said that word

[inrainbowscd]

my body dysmorphia is a family project actually saur 💁‍♀️.. today my grandma told me i'm too skinny but also somehow said i'm fat in the same sentence, earlier my mom said i "look an*rexic", then my aunt, who a few months ago straight up told me to my face that i was overweight, said i'm too skinny while sizing me up and down like a fucking weirdo.

oh and it's my bday btw. my family: happy birthday! let's all make comments about your body like any of us have any say in the matter! here's some money bc i don't know you as a person so idk what to get you! bye!

#its saur funny actually #this happens every time i see my aunt and if i don't see my grandma for like a week. and it's my mom's favourite hobby so #that and gaslighting me (unironically) lol #anyway <3 peace and love. my mom is so fucking stupid too godbless her calling me that when she knows what i've been through etc etc. #then my brother. who is v matter of fact abt it. he's like. look. ur skinny but u have no muscle mass why don't u go to the gym #(he's obsessed with going to the gym. probably has some issues of his own.) #ed tw #bc my mother said that word #body image tw #idk what to tag this i needed to vent ok i hope these are enough

[obaewankenope]

I've given myself heat exhaustion AGAIN (heck, I hope it's only heat exhaustion, rip) and I am not here for it ffs so to make sure y'all know about it, imma share the signs of heat exhaustion!

Heat exhaustion is quite literally your body getting too hot and Exhausting itself to cope. Heatstroke is your body Failing To Cope.

Heat Exhaustion signs include:

You get a headache that Will Not Go Away

You feel confused and dizzy (balance who? Idk her)

You don't feel hungry but you feel sick as well (this sucks and happens a lot in high heat so try and snack regularly)

Sweating and clammy skin like the kind that has people go "you're freezing!" because you've sweated so much you literally end up with a chill on your skin

Cramps. Feckin cramps. Arms. Legs. Stomach. They suck ass.

You have a heckin fast pulse or you're hyperventilating like you've just had a Scare

Your body temp is over 38°c (because you're literally boiling like a lobster in a pot)

You are Beyond Thirsty and no matter what you drink it Does Not Abate

If you end up experiencing any of these symptoms, or multiple, and you're in a hot/warm environment, then sit your ass down in the shade, get something to drink, and get a damp cloth on your head or a change of clothes that are cool.

Basically, stop what you're doing and give your body a chance to Not Keep Boiling

Heat exhaustion is NOT THE SAME as a heatstroke.

Heatstroke is So Much Worse™.

Heatstroke signs include:

Still feeling like utter shite 30 minutes after you sat your ass down, rested in a cool place, and rehydrated

Not actually sweating even though you really do feel like a lobster in a pot that has the heat up High

Your body temp is 40°c+ (which is bad btw, that's temp for causing your to pass out etc)

Hyperventilating/fast breathing or actual shortness of breath (I struggle with this because asthma so I'm always like "idk if I got this oops)

Feeling confused but in a like "I don't know what's going on, I can't think, I have no idea about anything, someone help me please I'm crossing into traffic and don't even realise" way

Having a fit/seizure because your body temp is so high your brain is Actually Getting Boiled In Your Skull 🙃 [upside down smiley emoji]

Passing out and not actually responding or waking up from a brief fainting spell (this is the Serious™ kind of passing out that has doctors going "oh shit, we need an IV STAT!" or whatever it is they say when Shit Is Going Down)

Heatstroke can be really dangerous if it isn't treated quickly so please don't ignore these signs. Right now, I'm in a cool environs, with hydration, and am avoiding moving and am gonna have a nap because I'm going very dizzy, can't focus properly, have a headache, and am only coherent here because I'm HyperFocusing on this post. I can't even understand words being said to me right now hence nap, hydration, and cool environs.

So please, y'all, take care of yourselves. Seriously.

#Health #Heatstroke #Heat exhaustion #Advice #Tips and tricks #Life hacks #Help #Kat talks #I literally am a fool #A fool who genuinely didn't understand anything my mother said to me #Except 'dog has been fed' #That's it. That's all I understood of the words she said. #I was so dizzy and my legs were literally shaking I had to stumble to sit down #I've eaten and that's helping but I feel sick for having eaten #I'm still woozy af #My head feels like it's wobbling on my neck even tho it isn't #I'm in the house tho now and it's cool inside #I have water and tea so I'm good asbweol #It's just gonna be a case of resting and hoping it's just exhaustion and not a heatstroke #Bc I don't wanna be in A&E for 8+ hours with heatstroke when it's boiling in there #Anyway #I need to stop talking

[josephtrohman]

getting older is like everything my grandparents do makes me sob, i called my nana today to wish her a happy easter and during the call she asked me if i was getting excited for our trip next weekend and she even was practicing the name “fall out boy” cuz she never remembers what the band is called 😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ but she said it right!!! she remembered!! ❤️

#she asked my dad to remind her what the band name was again cuz she said ‘i always remember the word boy but not the rest’ #and her practicing it to remember has me fuckign crying my eyes out i love that woman so bad my favourite woman in the world 🥹❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #dare i say i get so emotional with how much i love her bc shes the realest mother figure i ever had :( <3<3<3 #hashtag MOMMY ISSUES POST!!!! my mom was around and raised me but she SUCKED!!! nana forever !!!

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Found some cute earrings while Christmas shopping, am in love with them

bonus crushed soul, courtesy of my mother;

#i am not mad that she dislikes them #not at all #but i was happy with how i looked and while criticism is good #sometimes unsolicited negative criticism isn't always wanted #i ended up taking them off bc my self confidence shattered for a bit lol #idk maybe i'm overreacting but damn feelings hurty #anyway i'm wearing them now while i'm drawing #a classmate from my japanese class said they looked sick and he's super stylish so i'm taking his word for it #the duck is once again happy with the earrings but will still not wear them around their mother #ANYWAY DO Y'ALL SEE THESE DUCKS WHAT THE HELL #THEY'RE SO CUTE WTF #vent art #<- I guess technically #doodles

[minglana]

girl help my mother has achieved what she couldnt achieve in 23 yrs (give me an ED)

#thanks to the doctor making me go to the nurse this summer and putting me on a 'diet' #WHEN THE NURSE HERSELF SAID I SHOULDNT BE TOO CONCERNED ABT MY WEIGHT bc im young and i shouldnt worry about this #and now my mom wont. stop. making. comments. on what i eat and the excercise i dont do #and the way i eat and when i eat #and its finally eaten at my brain. and now i think about it constantly #and i wanna make it stop bc i cant fucking believe that i didnt listen to her at all when i was at my most vulnerable (a teenager) #but her words have had their effect when i am/should be more ok w myself (not a teenager anymore) #like genuinely how do i stop making myself feel like this and think about this all the time i feel disgusting. i dont enjoy eating anymore #bc im constantly thinking about /not/ eating. or how i shouldnt be eating. or that i shouldnt be hungry #z xarre #AAAAAAANNDDDD i have to go to the n*rse next month to get weighed. and i already know that ill have gained weight. bc at the dorms #i cant like. follow the diet they gave me or whatever. and i eat more and im also hungrier. its so hard to think of eating #as something enjoyable now. literally wanna kms ive never been like this. we've always enjoyed food in my family #bc its the main way we connect and i can connect w my family and my ancestors and my culture. #and i dont wanna stop enjoying food. but the nurse and doctor AND MY MOTHER are making this so hard. #ed mention #weight mention

[hua-fei-hua]

at church reading the hymn lyrics like "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from translating song lyrics so that i could write genshin fic!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and finally "omg i learned that word from the king's avatar"

#花話 #it's funny bc i Objectively know more cn than the last time i was here seven years ago which is great #bc the last time i learned any cn in a classroom was seven years ago lol #and i think that's probably a combination of Very Much Not Wanting To Lose What Skills I Have +gnshn n similar giving me occasional practice #but yeah of the words i Remember where i learned them it's like 85% gnshn 14% lyric translation n 1% king's avatar lmao #been trying to connect my laptop to the mobile hotspot i have here and Suffering(tm)... pain and agonie #i mentioned this on main but apparently i just Cannot have a line acct for w/e reason #(i suspect it's bc i made an acct in america on my phone number but temp sim card --> diff phone number here) #(and since i didn't expect this i didn't tie the acct to an email --> i am unable to have line) #however my mother and i have graduated past emails and are now just using regular texting to communicate it seems #ANYWAY i get to see the jade cabbage today. i hope. and other things i also hope!! #i was going somewhere w/the line thing OH it's bc on the way home from church my mom saw a sign that said 元氣 and was like 'genki desu!' #it is always kind of a surprise to hear my mom speak jp bc it sounds simultaneously clumsy and full of confidence #she has friends in japan (college roommate + old pen pal + i have no idea she's lived Quite a life i feel) n i once found her old letters #and was kind of surprised bc they were like entirely in jp so obviously she could read n understand a lot #but anyway my mom went on to talk abt how taiwan continues to have significant japanese influence to this day n i was like yes... weebs c': #it's also interesting bc we'll go sightseeing n she'll be like “ye that's from american/jp occupation times but they gave back the land' #'so now it's xyz' n i'll be like. almost 'tails.jpg A Colonialism.'

[fagdykepearlescentmoon]

hey guys I got styung by a bee yeshterday and it's all red and swollen I thimk it's fine tho :3

#It's cause I took the stinger out the wrong way and squeezed in the venom :[ #And I might be mildly allergic bc my dad is #Father said it was fine tho #My mother freaked out when I went to her place tho and made me take an antihistamine #So we'll see if that helps #It's annoying but like yay character building or smthing #just saying words

[caramelmochacrow]

number one thing that i hate translating tagalog to english is that i cant show the intricacies in speech.

like. the word tomboy. it means a WHOLE OTHER THING IN TAGALOG. i've apparently been called a lesbian almost my entire life and i didn't know. that or my mom used the english meaning in context rather than tagalog when i was a kid then used the tagalog meaning when i got older.

i love intricacies in language, dont you?

#crow talks #yk what even more funny? my mom and dad also use spanish words instead of tagalog sometimes. #some tagalog words ARE taken from spanish but they legit will just use a spanish word rather than the tagalog one that's RIGHT THERE. #they'll use the word then me and my siblings r like “huh??” and then they use the tagalog word. MOTHER FATHER JUST USE THE WORD. #also yeah im ignoring the fact my mom called me gay lmao. #it's a word filipino people use for lesbians. so. a ton of people use it in a derogatory way. #my cousin uses it in a non derogatory way bc they dont wanna use lesbian in public w probably homophobes around. #also my aunt. she's literally gay. so. yeahhh. #WAIT MY MOM ALSO SAID THAT WHEN I WEAR MASC CLOTHES I LOOK LIKE HER. WHA.WHAT DOES THAT MEAN-- #woops rambled. gonna stop now hahah

[meatmensch]

The people that have abandoned me really need to stop talking to me like they have any right to tell me what to do, or I swear to God, I'm gonna get the FUCKING hammer.

#inspired by my bitch of a mother sending me a text that basically said u need to get ur life together #as i always say! LET HE WHO IS WITHOUT SIN CAST THE FIRST STONE! #this woman's life is a dumpster fire #and she specifically said 'i won't financially support u. i'll always be there for u but that's a conditional statement' #which is INSANE because that don't make no sense AND she has NEVER financially supported me? genuinely why does she think she has any #fucking right...😭😭😭 #meanwhile. my dad. during the shitstorm that has been my family's existence lately. is being way more lax about me getting a job and moving #out than he has been in the past. because some fucks despite being shitheads aren't total assholes #this post is also inspired by my insufferable sister who fucked off to another fucking continent when i was 7 and treats me...well. exactly #how u would expect an upper middle class dumb jock to treat her awesome nerd little brother. and is always telling me i'm making #the wrong fucking decisions and judging me. #these ppl r so funny bc they think this is normal and that i will endure it bc the power of love or what the fuck ever. wrong! i have been #on the brink of cutting off my entire family since i was fourteen. now that i actually have the power to do some cutting off i'll be honest #i feel pretty great #it is all of course a horrible nightmare and i wish things were different etc etc etc. but in the words of supernatural. i was always going #to end up here. #while i am thinking about such things what's my other sister's deal? she has not reached out to me for years. it was like i turned 18 and #she was like ok who cares abt this dude now #which was incredibly bizarre and makes me feel like a stupid idiot who did something wrong but i know i didn't. and she was always the most #supportive of my siblings. i don't know what her problem is #in her defense her life has been weird lately. but 'lately' has lasted long enough that it's just her life now. and whenever i try to be th #one to reach out she basically gives me...nothing. #while i am thinking about such things i will acknowledge the slays. my one totally kickass sister who is the only other one of my siblings #who understands anything. i am rly grateful for her and she has been so good to me for so long especially during the recent shitstorm #she is moving very far away and that has brought up my abandonment issues but i genuinely am so happy for her and her family and she is ver #adamant about me visiting and PAYING for the visit (or at least doing the scamming that pays for the visit so i don't have to pay lol) and #making sure i'll be ok. #it's not all bad! i am going to be ok! there r so many people in my life who love me and love me in a way that makes sense to me and doesn' #make me feel like the world's worst man #personal log

[geroya]

this migraine of mine is atrocious.

#☼.txt #MOTHER CURSED ME btw. #she hexed me. wicked mother. #said oh its been a while. yes sure has. and look at me now. shriveled up and deceased. dying. all bc of her cruel cruel words. #i almost put face wash on my toothbrush to brush my teeth #i forgot entirely what i was saying to my brother today MULTIPLE TIMES and looked like a fool bc of this cursed thing #this is all HER fault.

[theautumnriverleaves]

living at your parents will truly make you do the most juvenile shit. currently i, a fully grown adult, am giving someone the silent treatment for literally the first time in my life

#its my parents bc my father said *im the king of this house. that means i dont need to listen to a damn word you say* #and my mother wouldn't even go *yes that is a very fucked up thing for him to say* #i need my own place so bad #but first i need a job that would pay for a place where i could take my dogs #im considering Salesforce admin training #explicitly me

[ouchhq]

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#i need to vent sorry #living with my mother is impossible. she is absolutely impossible #she gaslights u every single day and plays the victim when she is so manipulative and toxic #yesterday was my parents wedding anniversary and she thinks its all about her #she didnt get my dad anything while my dad HAD to get her a present bc if he hadnt she would have made him pay for sure #we do things for her out of fear because she could throw a tantrum at any word u say #u use the wrong word? u use the wrong tone of voice? she throws tantrums #my gandma called to ask if i said happy anniversary to my parents and i told her i refuse to #that is not a marriage. its a dictatorship #i refuse to celebrate a marriage that has been dead for over 10 years but needs to keep going just because my mother threatens god knows #what whenever they fight and my dad says he cant do it anymore #i know he cant stand her anymore. and i feel so bad for him #and i cried so much with my therapist some weeks ago because she has these moments where she lovebombs u and she always says im the most #important thing in her life but she has these behaviors that would make anyone want to scream their head off. she drives u insane #and i feel guilty about having so many negative feelings about her but she has destroyed this family and refuses to get treated for the #disorder she so clearly has #even my grandparents cant stand her anymore #god…… i need to get the fuck out of this house #i feel sorry for my dad though

[s4pphoiduser]

blind (2022) is driving me insane. im begging my friends to watch it but theyre either busy with exams or almost exclusively fluff/romance-watchers . i need to talk ab this w someone just hit me up or something GOD

#kdrama blind (2022) #blind 2022 spoilers #tvn ocn blind (2022) #so my theory is the same as other peoples' its confirmed that 13 yoonjae is sungjoon so im thinking sunghoon was there too (somehow idk) an #that hes 11 and jung inseong the juror is 12. 11 and 12 seem to be real brothers? bc in ep1 11 said 'go meet mom' and not 'go meet your mom #and maybe 11 and 13 escaped together after hiding under the floorboards? since sj Was adopted maybe he was taken in when the parents found #sh after they escaped together? and the thing is everyone is involved somehow so if the mother was like in a high position at the center (i #i didnt the lady at the start of ep7 for someone else) then how was sunghoon there? idk i havent gotten that far on my theory except that #hes 11. maybe they were Both adopted? so the next to die is either the lady idr her name or the producer guy. 24 + 7 r confirmed dead now #13 is sungjoon. and inseong is def connected to this somehow like the rest of the jury. ergo my theory that hes 12. also i think the body #they found w ahn taeho's phone in ep8 is jung yoonjung's (yoonjae's older sister) bc of the necklace and the size of the skeleton. so now #they've found one body from the events of 20 years ago that happened at the center. all the jurors' kids will be killed as revenge for the #parents turning a blind eye on them as kids so theyre being punished by having their beloved children taken away from them. i think its #amazing how theyre all connected they dont know it at all. choi soongil was the only one who recognized ahn taeho (bc of the scar) and #yeom hyejin didnt know her father was sending kids to be abused and enslaved. kang youngki saw kids in numbered uniforms doing hard labor #never said a word bc keeping it a secret earned him money that he spent on his own kid who wouldve been around the same age as them. #from ep8 we see that the producer made a docu on the center and just buried it. and ofc mr baek who was the ringleader of all this. #his daughter killed on her birthday and kang youngki's daughter killed on her wedding day as retribution. im sad that ahn taeho died living #a life of guilt and fear moving around all the time but at least hes free from that now. im glad he got to apologize to 'yoonjae' for it #honestly i cant be mad at ahn taeho bc he was a survivor and a child and terrified. also is it just me or did sunghoon look disappointed #when ahn taeho confessed? like thats all the evidence i have supporting my theory that hes 11 i think. ofc theres the vibes? that he and #sungjoon have more history than the shows let on so far but if he was 11 he would be so disappointed bc he planned their escape #anyway come talk to me about this its driving me crazy

[risingsunresistance]

my aunt's sunflowers finally bloomed but. well im no expert but they look like they could use some work kdhfjhd. it's been raining way too much and the heat has been insane so maybe that has something to do with their skinny petals. it's her first time trying to grow flowers on her own tho, she's so happy they bloomed :]

here's some more flowers from her house, just bc they're pretty and i wanna share

this one was just wild up in the hills :0

#been waiting to see these bloomed #she planted them the week he died... that did Something in my heart man #like i said a while back. sunflowers have always meant a lot to me for a lot of different reasons #but in particular i associate them a lor with life and death bc of mother 3 #i know it sounds insane to let a game COMPLETELY change my outlook on life but. oh my god ive bever had an experience like that #mother 3 did for me what church never could KFHKFJ #but anyways- #quite a few things (mostly the rising sun) made me associate sunflowers with techno #i brought it up on priv a lot #but when the news cane out i just couldnt stop thinking about them #has another meaning to me now. they make me think of him #i told my aunt about his death and she had some really nice words to say even though she didnt know him #she couldnt believe the impact. i told her about all the people who knew him #i didnt tell her how much her sunflowers mesnt to me tho bc it felt too uhhhhh. spiritual? superstitious??? idk but something like that #it just felt like. one of those things that isnt just coincidence ya know #she comes to see me not even a week after he's died and the first thing she tells me about is how much she loves her sunflowers #felt like i was meant to hear that. idk. not good at wording these things #enough rambling im gonna go attempt to ride my bike o/ #chat #tw death

[likeshipsonthesea]

okay “you lied” fucking killed me just like i knew it would but i think the thing that exemplifies why critical role is so enjoyable is bc you can tell (even before ashley says it at the end) that the rest of the cast members were just as enthralled as i was the entire time and it’s just

this is their home game, a thing that started as a birthday present and became a fun thing to do with friends once a month and now it’s this giant, monetized, theatrical, audience-aware thing and it could so easily have become their “job” but they still love it, they love this game, and it’s evident in everything they do. the childlike wonder on the players’ faces when matt describes something breathtakingly beautiful, the exclamations of glee and amazement when matt brings out an airship piece for the battle, the wide-eyed enrapture in their faces when they get a front-row seat to a heart-wrenching bit of roleplay

it’s just so so apparent in everything they do that they love doing this and it makes it so thoroughly enjoyable to watch.

#eb catches up on critical role #critical role #i have so many words and thoughts on this that i can't get them out lol #also bc my meds just kicked in #but like #a friend of mine watched tlovm recently without having seen any CR stuff before #and we were talking about it and she pointed out this v small detail #that she noticed and appreciated #(it was scanlan's chest hairs losing their curl when wet lol) #and i said it then and i still mean it #tlovm and cr and everything they do #has so much love in it #it's a thing to behold #and there's something to be said #about the artists/creators having all the control #and not diffusing it through layers #of needing to be profitable #even my mom brought up to me recently #how the need to make money has affected movie quality in the past decade #my mother who rolls her eyes when i complain about the capitalist system lol #and it's really true #sort of related but i watched the menu last night #and i was struck by how much i enjoyed it #idk thoughts on that another time #but i think that's another thing #where you can tell how the people who created it #thoroughly loved and enjoyed the process

[zo1nkss]

that went horribly. Plz don't read the tags if u don't wanna know about how royally my mom fucked up tonight. It was genuinely so so bad.

#I was told my brother would be here that is the whole reason i came #guess who's NOT HERE #guess who bought the ticket and NEVER TOLD ME he wasn't here? #after telling me HE WOULD BE HERE #guess who stranded me 4 hours by car away from home #ALONE #and then started spewing holocaust denial #GUESS WHO TOLD ME I SHOULDN'T HAVE A RIGHT TO WALK AWAY FROM THAT CONVERSATION #AND TO TOP IT OFF #GUESS WHO PROCEEDED TO ASK ME 'well what if I just didn't want to call use he/him for you?' WHEN I ENFORCED THAT BOUNDARY #MY. FUCKING. MOTHER. #SHE SAID THAT ME SAYING I CAN'T MEND OUR RELATIONSHIP IF SHE DOESN'T RESPECT MY BOUNDARIES WAS A THREAT #A. THREAT. #I should never have come here I should never have come here I should never have come here #I had to cut the trip short bc I almost got myself stranded 4 hours(by car) from home at 4 in the fucking morning #bc my flight response kicked in so fast when she said those words to me I LITERALLY did not have time to make sound decisions #AND THEN #she called my sisger and ON SPEAKERPHONE #OPENLY MOCKED ME WITH HER #I FUCKING HATE IT HERE #THIS IS THE BAD PLACE #tw emotional abuse #tw holocaust denial