#bc i am just Sad. big sad. all the sads.

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Charles, walking into MC and Vlad’s bedroom in the middle of the night: I had a bad dream. MC: What was it about? Vlad: No, don’t ask him that! MC: Why not? Vlad: Cause he’ll answer!

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp vlad #ikevamp charles #ikevamp mc #ikevamp incorrect quotes #i am convinced charles will live and die(?) a baby girl #albeit a very traumatized and hecked up one but a BBG NONETHELESS #i also will just never be over the purebloods like 'Yes I Am An Adult' #and then MC shows up and they're like 'its hoochie time. everybody GET OUT OR GET MAULED' #truly ikevamp captures the only spirit of vampires that matters to me: possessive and unbridled desire #and if you must know i absolutely imagined charles in like. adorable period footsie jammies #with those big round wet sad eyes holding a plushie bat vlad gifted him years ago #man im sobbing bc my brain was like: you fool. you forgot to add the funniest bit of all #faust skulking around behind the doorway like 'rookie mistake mc--you never ask charles what's wrong' #meanwhile he's already concocting some shit to help charles sleep more peacefully at night #I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE JOHANN.

[h0estar]

finished the new archon quest

#omfg i never thought an archon quest would be able to top sumeru but genshin proved me wrong #and i am glad it did fr bc that was the best archon quest i've ever experienced #i AM SAD #IDK WHAT TO FEEL #it was absolute perfection and i have no words!!! #furina has my whole heart i love her soooooooooo much #i might just have to pull for her fr bc i absolutely adored her and i admire her tenacity and willpower #to be able to play a fckn role for 500 years without shitting herself... i applaud and commend she deserves all the happiness in the world #i loved it so much i'm upset i wasn't able to get neuvillete #i love furina so much like yall pls understand i want to give her a big fat hug fr #the way the events played out perfectly to reveal this grand storyline #i love how it was just so satisfying. all the questions answered (fontaine lore) and the climax #+ buildup was absolutely gorgeous #focalors is a badass i love her so much #i love this archon quest sm bro i will NEVER shut up abt jt #genshin impact #archon quest 4.2 #genshin impact 4.2 #furina #focalors #nuevillette #navia #traveler #childe #archon quest

[jonny-b-meowborn]

I wish Road 96 had a game mode where you can just replay specific scenes without having to replay the whole game. Maybe like, if you achieve all endings, or the best ending, you'd unlock that scene mode. Or like, a mode where you go through one specific character's story, having all of their scenes in a row. And yes this wish is 100% motivated by my love for Jarod and my desire to replay his scenes over and over. Of course it is

#i wanna see all the dialogue and all the deaths without having to deal with fanny and zoe in the meantime #fanny is a cop so ibv im not a big fan of her #and zoe isnt a bad character shes just annoying #but also id replay stan and mitch scenes over and over #because i love them a lot too #i know im mainly thirsting over the Sad Gun Taxi Man but i am also deeply in love witb the Dumb Robbers #and that mode would be really cool also bc some scenes are kinda rare #i know its all random but still i played this entire game four times and there are scenes ive seen only once #road 96 #bee buzz

[lunarharp]

various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted] #and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!? #I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just.. #combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO... #CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so.. #*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ???? #you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

[moeblob]

This is really weird but like hello hi I like games that let you make a protag design then let you design someone else to be like. Your follower/ally. And you can make em different heights. I feel the need EVERY TIME to make a tiny protag and a tall secondary character.

I also am so weak for the secondary being non-human, too. Please let me love my weird companions.

#freedom wars #this is outta nowhere supposedly but like lmao i tried a different game and i was just reminded of fw #and im like dang i really liked my sinner who got the title accessory-obsessive and never changed it #weird fact of while i prefer to be called salmon myself very much so?? #i named my sinner in fw something different then named my accessory salmon #he was the love of my life #i still love him tbh #he hates me for spending my life running around not fighting abductors bc im too busy gathering #its true i drew a comic for it ages ago #im a useless wittle fella #my wonderful prison warden beloved salmon hello i love you all these years later #its like in dd:da where you have the arisen and pawn #there is something deep in me that has a profound love for my pawn my beloved weird humanoid pal #listen i just like having tiny trouble makers and tall rule abiders who are very done with my antics #bc tbh i suck at games i am so bad at playing games if my life depended on being good at games i would die #theres also a secret third game that i am very much not mentioning out of shame that i started last night where you can do this #and my only complaint is i made the mc a guy and the other guy a guy and i feel so sad #that the height gap isnt as big as it was in fw and ddda #im not gremlin enough in the secret third game

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[petrichorium]

Happy anniversary of the time I wrote 20k words in a week and got ghosted by the artist who was supposed to make art for the fic lol

#it’s been a year I can be bitter now right #for a SINGLE DAD BAKUGO FIC r u kidding I should have had artists lining up to make the art and instead I get shafted #I don’t fully blame the Big Bang staff. I think it could’ve been handled better but it’s mostly on the artist #but wow that rlly happened huh LMFAOOOOOO #shoutout to Shay for being the most supportive friend through all that truly #I got to live vicariously through her assigned artist who was amazing && also she drew me some stuff that was adorable 🥺 #if anyone wants to know why sleeping is taking so long to write it’s bc I was fueled by spite and a deadline for the first chapter and now #I am just. kinda bitter and sad abt the rest #which sucks bc I love the fic I rlly do #hopefully I can get over it bc it’s silly to let something like that ruin the fic entirely #SO insane tho. the way I was the only one who made the cut and didn’t get art too #not even bc I didn’t get picked but bc my artist was a sham. nice. love that truly #the staff was okay. I’m not gonna pretend I felt supported but I get that it’s a complicated and stressful event #and it was a difficult situation bc my artist insisted they were working on stuff. never got an official ‘sorry I’m dropping out’ message #so I get it. but I’m also still pissed :) abt the whole situation not. at any singular member or staff or anything #mostly at the artist #but again could have been handled better fr

[ducktollers]

imma keep it real with u guys idk how im gonna stand the anxiety this semester . and i must stand it i have no choice

#grin and bear it. i am so TIRED of grinning and bearing it #actually im not grinning . im glaring to stop my eyes from watering or staring at my hands fidgeting while i bear it #university is just like. i dont belong here. i shouldnt be here. ur all so passionate abt this and i didnt even do the reading. #im too scared to make eye contact or talk . and then i get sad and insecure abt always being the odd one out. while i glare at the floor #every semester i say my name and lie and say sheher pronouns and it makes me taste bile. and i cant stop sweating. and i hate it here. #someone has to sit right next to me and suddenly my breath probably stinks. i probably stink. my skin looks so bad. my hair looks so bad. #and i stare at my lap and see my big ass thighs and im like Oh yeah im a woman. thanks i hate it. if i dont wear a binder i feel sick #if i do wear a binder i cant breathe and cant stop sweating #im tense all day. my whole body hurts. im too anxious to eat. i should bc my stomach will growl.if i eat my stomach will gurgle loud anyway. #i need to get out of here. im so close to the end. ive been dying inside for years. ive never been anything but a student. im terrified. #🙂 #u know. its like that #x

[microwavepopcorn]

#I don't know when the last time I washed my hair was #this one is adding a bit of my personal life into the bertgif world #I'm about to probably overshare so if you don't care to know about my lore then stop reading now lmao #I have had a ROUGH month LMAOOOOOOOO #my cat is sick and needs surgery and ive been putting literally all of my mental energy into helping him and making sure he's ok #so I've been struggling and it's been so wack bc my birthday is this month and since I'm a Leo I like to make the whole month about me(lmao #but this month I haven't been able to do that and it's just been weird and sad and it hasn't felt like my birthday #and I just havent really had anyone to vent to so I guess I'm word vomiting here #it just feels so stupid #also my basement flooded and insurance won't cover the costs to repair it and to prevent it from happening again in the future #and other rlly big stuff has happened this month that's super shitty and out of my control and it's just been a huge bummer #fjadksfjsdkjfkdsahfkdsjfkldsafjdskfjdsklfjs #i am not okay #but no I am okay #it's a bad time #not a bad life #it will pass and things will be good again #and I will keep making my silly little gifs #and doing my silly little tasks #and maybe tomorrow I will wash my hair #but maybe not #and that's ok #sorry for being depressing #bo burnham #bert gifs #bo burnham inside #bo burnham make happy #bo burnham what #egghead #robert pickering burnham

[orbitfalls]

thank you @lilysrosier and @sugarsnappeases for the tags<33 catch me rambling in the tags as ever<3

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @scrxpz @sophyayayayaya @theicarusconstellation @svphart @stillagoodwitch and @spaceandotheroddities as well as anyone else who wants to!!!!!<33

#by googling cm to feet ive come to discover that i am in fact 5 feet 6 9⁄64 inches tall lol #<-168 cm #i have red hair!!!! and blue eyes + freckles #tho those are mostly prominent during summer #i hate the feeling of nail polish AND im too impatient to wait while they dry. so when i do paint them it always looks so crusty #i smile all the time i cant stop it #no resting bitch face HOWEVER i just look really sad when i relax my face😭 #do i play sports? not if i can avoid it #i'm banned from the kitchen BUT my baked goods are unmatched yall!!!! unmatched!!!! irls dont you dare come for me abt this if youve never #tasted my cookies #i have friends ive known for 5+ yrs but not BEST friends.. never did well with those bc i kinda get too easily lost in the codependency yk #but i love love love my friends mwah<33 #and no only child would be this ill about sibling angst. methinks #big brother is a content creator in this fandom too.. very scary stuff lol

[izzy-b-hands]

Reason number idk to keep my shot day more consistent (tho tbf i had been doing really well on timing up until last week lmao):

Shot day being off means i get extra weepy over just. anything. everything. My brain looks at anything and goes 'oh yeah, that's like (horrible traumatic memory), you 'member that? Yeah, sure ya do! here's a recap of that particular time for ya too.'

and like??? I am not a fan of it today. i mean i never really am but, I have shit to do rn lmao (dishes and i keep having smutty ed/izzy and nathan/pickles ideas that refuse to actually flow on the page once i open a word doc.)

#text post #typing this up more as warning that i might be extra messy the next few days #there's an in person work thing this Friday im terrified of bc my transphobic supervisor is gonna b there and like #it's abt four hours counting travel time so i know I'll need the bathroom at least once while im there and he made a Big Deal of it b4 #and i just. am not looking forward to figuring out how to handle this in addition to it being So Many Ppl in One Small Room w/me #my brain deciding that anytime i have even a minor hormonal shift means weeping and constant memory reliving time is not helping that either #all the more reason to keep next week's shot on fucking time!!!!! #but. yeah. might be some sad lil text posts like this and reblogging a lot of my usual fixations to distract myself #but for now: dishes while i consider my ed cockwarming Izzy's strap idea & #my nathan panic proposes to pickles post apocalypse w/the ring he made for Abigail idea #that one is actually mostly written but. doesn't feel quite right yet #i do like the detail that nathan got it in pickles size & planned to resize it for Abigail #bc he didn't know her ring size but he has pickles' memorised along with all his other measurements tbh #so it just. fits right away and is revealed that they designed the ring as their shared dream engagement ring during a frienderbender #and 'whoever finds the right person first can use it with them' but oh. it was made for the right person all along. right there #a stitched up charles officiates while they're just. sitting in a pile of burning rubble aksndjfngn #anyway enough of this i must dishes and address the anxiety stomachache starting now that i thought abt the work thing 💀

[vogelmeister]

uni week one: boring. where is my stalker.

#i actually have a whole um semester on why thats a bad idea #i looked into that classroom today and it shimmered with the ghosts of my past #anyone reading this and is concerned i just had a guy in a class who really wanted to date me #all he knew about me was i liked eurovision and wanted to go to the netherlands #which uh i know thats a big part of who i am maar it is not enough to date me #but the way he did it made me terrified of this class #its sad too bc the class itself was fun #but he would always just be super invasive and disruptive #niet lekker geen slay

[mooodyblue]

tags again. ignore me 🥸

#hello venting again #i have not been doing very well #and i am very sad that i can't ever fully regress n have to just put it all into my writing #and i want a cg !!! i want to ramble abt my interests to someone n show off my pretty little pictures !!!! #and it also sucks because a few weeks ago i lost everything i used for my regression forever and starting over sucks so bad #all my plushies r gone and i only have a few now and i don't have many coloring books anymore which is the worst part of it #n i've been like ... considering joining that side of tumblr too but i rly can't be bothered to make another blog :( #i am just #vvvvvv sad #i always have to be big cuz i have to check on ppl or someone might need me for something i can never be fully tiny n i hate itttttt #n i know i need this badly right now cause my brain has not been treating me very well recently and i'm trying to not Do Bad Things #but i'm grateful for this blog cuz i can ramble abt elvie n my love for him without feeling like i'm annoying anyone but #i still feel so aloneeeee #nobody is gonna read this but if u do that's my bad #ty for listening to my vent #sometimes i have to wonder if being here is a curse or a blessing bc writing is what made me feel more comfy abt my regression but #now im sad bc i can't even be little majority of the time #ok i will stop talking now #lily.txt