#baby believe i will never do this again

[sintiva]

ship your moots !

and if i say i ship them all with me you’d be upset 🚶🏽‍♀️ (to anyone left out just know you’re shipped with me)

@arlertwitch pairing with mr.arlert himself. kels and armin are madly in love with each other and they give me high school sweetheart vibes. they “we can’t keep our hands off of each other ther” type and it just fits them. 😚

@chrissshub GOD IDKKDKDKD UMMMM, MEEEE DUHHH. 💕💗💗💗💗

@dejwrites okay so i’m gonna ship dej with choso, because i truly think they’d be a hot ass couple. Dej to me seems like the out going type and choso is a bit reserved and i feel like that’s the best couple dynamic to exist. dej would always drag him out but i just know he fucking adores her😭 honorable mention: ran (that’s home ig) 🙄

@eiflawriting i’m definitely shipping you with nanami. it just makes so much sense to me. i feel like you two are what the other needs in their life. the “missing piece to my puzzle” type thing, where nanami’s the puzzle and eifla’s the piece. i feel like nanami just wouldn’t be able to resist you and i love that for you 🥹

@handvillain *deep sigh* i’m gonna give you aizawa, respectfully. i think you guys would be a hot couple. the the type of couple where i would beg to be in y’alls relationship. ON MY KNEES. you seem really like bubbly and just an overall sweet person so i feel like you would make aizawa buckle, because your whole personality is PRESSURE😚

@hellavile *sucks teeth* imma say……. e-er-er- (IT HURTS) y’all already know who the nigga is don’t be suprised. he got the black girlies on they tippy toes and can you blame us. are we victims? no, never! but mocha already knows what she got and he knows too😌

@okhotel lix and toji go together real bad. that’s it there’s really no discussion, cause who finna handle toji like lix😒

@poohbea whewwwwwwwwwwww. baj- ME! 🤤ofc! NEXT ❤️

@princess-jaeger you’re getting yuta 1000%. i’ve never seen dedication to a relationship like you and yuta. the love, the passion everything is there. there’s no other correct answer, because you two have been locked in since the formation of earth🫡

@sailewhoremoon lord have mercy, imma have to say ichigo, cause y’all are THEE couple. the type to be at every fashion week, its giving high mf fashion, boujee couple vibes. but like people are always doubting ichigo’s ability to bag you, but they don’t know what be going on in them sheets🚶🏽‍♀️

@satorhime this TOO easy. lolly respectfully has ownership of satoru. when i see him i think of lolly, when i see lolly i think of gojo. when i think of them together i think of sugarstream and ultimately i think of the bible because THAT is the story of our beginning as human. no soul is fit for gojo like lolly is and i’m sticking behind it🥱

@snake-titan you getting paired with jean. whenever i go on your page i always think of jean. you two are smitten. madly in love with each other and it’s e sweet relationship. you two go on so many dates, but you two don’t mind a little movie night. especially jean because he just loves to cuddle with you🥹 (he’s such a sweetheart)

@tenyaiidasslut i truly do not know. just cause your name is tenyaiidasslut doesn’t mean i believe it. i feel like you should be wit nanami. you’re a nanami whore and you know exactly where home is. 😎

@venusflytrapstar oml why is this so freaking hard. i feel like i’m gonna have to say gojo because, v be thirsting for him consistently. it’s like a friends with benefits thing that turns permanent cause v always laying it on him🤭

@wh0reforlevi i’m pairing you with either sukuna or shigaraki. causeeeeeeeeee you a villian fucker for sure and i feel like they the perfect one’s for you. yeah they’re assholes to the world, but to you, you’re their little angel 🫶🏽

#baby believe i will never do this again

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by the gorgeous and fabulous @cordiallyfuturedwight and @aprylynn for february's roundup:

tagging the usual music favs: @jiminsproof @thvinyl @jimin-gaon @visionsofgideontheninth @spicyclematis @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi plus @kimtaegis for the amy macdonald of it all 💜 and also you, dear reader. MWAH

#heads up! here comes the director's commentary: #16 Carriages - now listen. i love texas hold 'em as much as the next daddy lessons supremacist #but holy shit. it doesn't hold so much as a candle to this track. #just unbelievably stunning. i'm begging you to give it another chance if you skipped over it the first time #Don't Forget Me - me and kayla and apryl all having ms rogers in this month's list... i think we might be better than everyone else actuall #End Of Beginning - good GOD we couldn't gatekeep djo any longer but it's worth it if only for all the bear tiktok edits. #and thus i have fallen for this track all over again. yes CHEF #Showtime - now if you've known me long enough you'll know i'm an absolute sucker for british indie rock bands #especially if their frontman looks like they might not make it through another winter #so you can imagine catfish has had an inexplicable hold on me. anyway their comeback single is actually pretty good #This Is The Life - fantastic tune. 2007 if you can believe it? #what a time to be alive and at the school disco and you're singing the songs and thinking this is the life and so on and so forth #Loving You Will Be The Death Of Me - tom odell can do no wrong in my eyes (ears?) anyway. lovely lovely new album #Never Need Me - been loving rachel for a while now and this single is brilliant. highly recommended. #plus the video features florence pugh and if that doesn't sweeten the deal then christ i don't know what will #Baby Now That I've Found You - i didn't even realise this was a cover of the foundations until hearing it again recently #because alison krauss just has an incredible way of making them her own and thus it's been on repeat. #Deeper Well - okay so now i'm seeing the country thread through this month's picks. #this is another lovely new one. hearing it on the radio and the fact that they have to censor “i used to wake and bake” is hilarious to me #shoutout kayla again because great minds.. #Stay For Something - CMAT is phenomenal and if you haven't listened to her yet i can't recommend her entire discography enough. #she had her arsecrack out at the brits last night and well. i would die for her #(speaking of the brits. raye... i literally cried for her. go find the recording of her live at the royal albert hall. #-watch it twice and then come back and thank me) #artists-wise - most of these guys are consistently up there. #katie melua is a new feature this time because all my amy macdonald-ing put me back onto nine million bicycles. #used to get that one mixed up with 99 luftballoons but they're really very different. i'm a fool #so tl;dr: fantastic tunes. do listen #tag #receiptify

[bottombaron]

psst hey baby gays

attributing power dynamics to top/bottom positions when advocating the validity and equality of queer ships to hetero people who have no understanding of it and probably already view queer sexuality as something k-inky and imbalanced compared to hetero sexuality…

you’re being a part of the problem

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo #queer ships #no it doesn’t change anything who penetrates and who gets penetrated #that's not how this works #i…i can’t believe i have to explain this #i literally hate talking abt this it’s the least fun thing about my favorite subject #explaining bottoming to the baby gays like sheesh #hets already attribute harmful gender stereotypes #maybe don’t equip them with inaccurate and harmful stereotypes abt the top being the ‘aggressor’ #and has ‘the power’ in the relationship #this is literally how you get bottom phobic people #people who can’t just enjoy the act for what it is and the pleasure it gives them #b/c they’ve been conditioned to think of it as an act of subservience #ok i never want to talk abt this again thx

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

Ok,but hear me out

Baby pac purring when he is held by one of his folks.

Or him teething,and zac is just cry bc his son is growing up...and his finger hurt bc pac is chomping him.

you had me at "hear me out" yugo

#you've got mail 📬 #pacman and the ghostly adventures tag ! 🟡🍒 #adventure awaits #pacfam #pacman and the ghostly adventures #pmatga #sunny pmatga #zac pmatga #pacster #<- ? it's him as a baby but i believe it counts #anyways i am so fucking mad namco never elaborated on their family life before it all went downhill. WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALL!!!! #WE COULDVE HAD CUTESY DOMESTIC MOMENTS W/ SUNNY AND ZAC!!!! AND THEM TAKING CARE OF PAC #*WE COULD HAVE HAD YURI* AND TOOTH ROTTING FLUFF BUT NOPE. NO WE CANT HAVE NICE THINGS #i have to do EVERYTHING myself in this HOUSE!!!!!!! /J #i'm still salty about this 10 years later. sorry. i'll be salty about it again forever and ever. oopsie daisy

[bisexual-horror-fan]

Omg Bexxx!!!! Been a fan for the longest time. Everything you write is just so hot! Ive been dying for an update on Through The Heart Is The Only Way.! My roomie showed me how to jailbreak ChatGPT and I fed it the whole fic and the little preview and the AI was able to finish the fic for me!! IT WAS SO GOOD!!! If you're still having trouble writing the next chapter you should def try using it to help you finish!! <3

Wow. Okay. So. Hi there Anon. 

I dunno where to even start with this. 

So you say you are a really big fan of mine, and have been for a while. So where were you when I reblogged this post? Talking in depth about people plugging fanfic into ChatGTP, and me wholeheartedly agreeing that it is fucked up. Oh! Or how about this time? Or this one? Orrr this one? This one too. I said in the tags of those posts if anyone does this to me I am going to riot, so get ready for a fucking riot.��

I have posted and reblogged several, SEVERAL TIMES, that I am not okay with and do not consent to this shit. I will repeat now, with my whole fucking chest, so the fucking nosebleed seats can hear me, like a goddamned theater kid trying to impress a broadway talent scout level of volume, straight up BELTING TO THE BACK ROW-

I AM NOT OKAY WITH AND DO NOT CONSENT TO MY WRITING, TO MY ART, BEING PUT INTO AI PROGRAMS! 

This is just, so far removed, I don’t know why you would think this is even remotely okay!

I write for the love of the game, for the sheer love of CREATION ITSELF! Do you understand how much my writing and love for it and the media these characters are in and those same characters themselves permeate my thoughts? My days? I pour so much care and thought and effort into my shit behind the scenes. Hours and hours of thought and parsing, re-watching, writing that you don’t see and I do it not because I am getting money, not for likes, or comments or followers but because I fucking LOVE it. The urge in me is literally uncontrollable to do this. I feel proud of what I do! Do you have the smallest conception of the time, effort, blood, sweat, hours of sleep lost to my craft and this hobby that gives me creative satisfaction? I do NOT want this discounted or tramped on or heaven forbid forgotten.

How about we really break this down so you understand it. Let’s do some math. 

Through The Heart Is The Only Way has not gotten an update innnn a little over two months, sixty four days to be exact. But. How much writing have I posted in that time since I last updated that fic, the last chapter of which was, if you remember, is twelve THOUSAND words? I have posted, in the past sixty four days, since that last update, thirty eight thousand words. 

Wow! That is a lot of words for slightly over two months! 

It is almost like I care so much about TTHITOW that I am purposefully taking my time with it, not rushing it and writing it when the inspo grabs me by the fucking ovaries and will not let go. I re-watched the entire movie franchise and the tv series for this fic, I have a doc with piles of ideas and character study, I have chapter ten plotted, outlined and had it started! But shit like this? 

It doesn’t make me want to write it Anon.

It is demoralising. 

I feel disrespected as fuck right now. 

I KNOW what I am doing with this fic, I KNOW where it is going, I have the ending already planned, we are about half way through this fic AT BEST! I have probably another over sixty thousand words in me to tell this story the way I want to but knowing me? Definitely more. The fact that you think the only reason this fic isn’t updated more frequently or isn’t done yet is through lack of thought, from not knowing where to go? Is insulting as fuck. Me taking my time with this fic doesn’t mean I don’t care, it doesn’t mean I am not obsessed with it or love it. Frankly, it means the opposite, me dragging this out is because I love it so fucking much and I want to do it right. 

I have a ton of love for lots of movies, lots of characters, I want to give them all attention, I want to follow my muse, I don’t want to FORCE myself to write something when the mood isn’t right. The readers deserve better but so DO I! This is my love, this is my hobby, I want to do it my fucking way, because I guaran-FUCKING-tee, that whatever the fuck ChatGTP pumped out for you is a weak, pale, pathetic, whisper of a God forsaken SHADOW of what I have planned to unleash for this fics ending. 

I know that a lot of people look down at sexual content which is what 99% of what I do is. Lots of people view it as base, lesser, shallow, no care or thought or heart. That is not the fucking case, certainly not for me. Sex has deep personal meaning to me dude, I CHOOSE, actively make the decision to write and do these fics in the fashion I do. I write these character explorations and studies centered around sex and sexuality and write them through that lens because that is what I want to do, that is what speaks to me, that is what is important to ME and what I want to contribute to the fandom space.

I am human. I write to an inhuman degree, (remember last week when I posted three fics, totaling over eight thousand words in one day? Crazy that still isn’t enough somehow and you felt the need to do this-) but I am still a fucking person. I am an artist, a writer, an author and I deserve the most basic respect of my supposed “FANS” patience and ability to WAIT. That is the barest minimum. I write so often, I give so much of myself to it but some days I just want to come home from work and watch a movie. I want to have a bath, I want to cook or bake or spend time with my husband and those times, those breaks, make my writing all the better. My writing, all writing that is worth a damn, is inspired and pulled from real life experiences, hence why AI writing sucks, there is no actual life experience or interpretation, no fucking soul. All it is capable of doing is vomiting back out what is put into it and the idea that my shit is in there, that you took my writing and it is contributing to that writhing mass of technological horror that is doing this to countless other artists and writers? It is genuinely fucking upsetting.

I am so unbelievably mad it is insane. 

This was so gross, never do this again, to me or anyone else. And if you ask what to do when you are having trouble waiting for a fic? How about you leave some detailed comments? Try to talk to the author? I bet that most would LOVE to be talked to and asked about their fics, they are the prime people who want to talk about this shit, they are writing the fucking fic, clearly have a lot of love for it and get it, and also if you talk to them about it and show interest it might kick start their inspo again which means you will get that real and authentic update from the artist themselves. Also. Re-read, just re-read or explore more new fic, like me for instance, I have, again posted over ONE MILLION WORDS IN THREE YEARS OF POSTING! I have so much backlog, go read some of that while you wait for the updates man fucksake. 

I don’t want to hear this is too harsh, I don’t want to hear this is too mean, I do not fucking give a singular goddamned shit at all. You fucked up here hard Anon, take a good look at yourself and do fucking better.

And in case it wasn't obvious, my writing? Isn't for you, not anymore.

#I literally cannot BELIEVE YOU ANON #The fucking BALLS on you #Like WOW #I know I usually try to be nice or calm or measured but this is SO fucked up #Never do this again to me or anyone #Full scorched Earth #Like this is legit heartbreaking #How dare you attach this to my baby to my long fic over year long passion project #My GOD #THE AUDACITY #BHF asks #I am sickened

[oatbugs]

today was ok good great bad 😭 rant in tags lets try to be normal abt this

#it's not tuscan leather， but they do smell like mint and cherries and a fireplace. they kissed me #all over my back， and my hand， and my shoulders. i only ever kissed them on the lips. i only ever kiss them #when i'm about to leave them at the station gates. some red-eyed bloodhound cancelled their own plans and i laughed with them like a friend #i asked if they want me to bring them a hot water bottle or painkillers or a pair of lungs for them to eat. #the person in front of me has 4 lungs and 2 hearts and a brown leather coat and those bright radiance-incarnate kind of eyes. #you know the kind i mean. their hands are diligent with the pen. they say that i'm an angel and i'm right and i decide #the truths-in-all-possible-worlds. they say they only perceive the parts of me that i'd like perceived. they say all the right things. #the dog doesn't mind at all. the next station is edgeware road again. the dog says don't come over baby. its all slurred and deep and #shallow. returns a falsum. i really like you， baby. let's just be nothing， baby. i can't comprehend that anyone was raised unhappy. #she has free gaza painted on the back of her designer jacket， and she says she can't believe people suffer. there's something wrong with me #baby， why else would i turn down two perfect girls? she broke my nose， baby. ye zendegie dige ashaghet misham azize delam. #she might be a rich bitch but i only lived in kensington， baby. sunshine says they can't have kids because they plan to be #an enemy of many states. i offered to meet them but i look up and i notice the blonde streaks in their hair moving in the light. #i tell sunshine i'll never sleep with them. they want me in such a kind way it almost hurts. #they say we have a lot to teach other. i put the dog down again. my friend is wrapped around me. my friend walks me to the station. #i kiss them goodbye at the gates.

[grandtourz]

i have so many thoughts about gohan and goten its kind of unreal

#and what am i gonna do... write about it? get serious #what can i say i love siblings in media :( #gohan who hardly got a childhood and spent it solely around people twice his age and maturing way faster #than he should have and then his dad dies (again) and he has to take care of his mom and his new baby brother #and he is 10! #and goten who got to experience peace thanks to his mystical legendary warrior of a dad and everyone tells him he looks like him and #how amazing and great he was and all he grows up seeing is the damage done to his family and then BOOM he just. comes back. #and listen i love goku okay im not a goku is a terrible father believer. he loves his family. but hes not a good dad by any means #gohan is trying to grow up while taking care of his mom and making sure his little brother never has to go through anything like he did #and at least goten has trunks! the only same aged friend gohan gets is dende and thats only because #hes off on a space mission at SIX YEARS OLD??? and then he gets his fucking neck broken and almost DIES #i could keep going.

[mimiatmidnight]

Will you be commenting on the Taylor drama?

I love the way this was worded, like I'm one of the siblings on Succession and the press has cornered me outside my penthouse to ask if I'll be releasing a statement on my family's latest scandal. Hehehe anyways.

Sorry but I just don't understand how anyone is shocked. Truly what has that woman ever done to successfully convince people that this is out of character for her. Like I don't want to diminish anyone's pain or anything but I see all these stans on here and over on Twitter in all this distress, having their very first epiphanies like "Hold on . . . does Taylor . . . suck??" And I kinda just have to chuckle at them cause like bless your hearts babes, but omg catch UP 😭

Lol because 1) she is a severely emotionally stunted person who thinks edgy British "bad boys" are hot like she's 12 years old, 2) she has no true deeply-held moral principles outside of issues that directly affect herself, and 3) truthfully, she seems to be suffering from a serious crisis of identity after the end of the longest and most significant romantic relationship of her life, and in my opinion is pretty clearly desperate to prove something to the world/her ex/herself.

The first reason is cringe but not news to longtime viewers, the second reason is pathetic but also not news (to those who can be honest with themselves), and the third is . . . understandable in some sense, but not pitiable enough to make me willing to humor this insufferable little episode she's having. I wish her luck on this humiliating rebound journey, but she is gonna have to walk that road on her own.

Normally, I always roll my eyes when people make these kinds of jokes, but given the circumstances I feel justified in saying: I can't wait to hear the breakup song about him, sis 🤡

#the great thing about disliking your own fave is that they simply do not have the power to disappoint you lol #like her stans (at least those who arent complete sycophants—which sadly is not most) are breaking down over Babys 1st Cognitive Dissonance #meanwhile im just over here chilling lol #ive also just NEVER been particularly invested in her personal life anyways so im gucci on that front too #i didnt even realize specific songs were about specific celebrity exes until *several* years into listening to her music #thats how unplugged i am lol #she is unusually extremely visible in the collective conscious right now cause of the tour and this insufferable PR blitz #but the absolute best thing for me is when she disappears and i dont have to perceive her -- the actual person -- outside of her music #and then it can just be me and my lifelong companion the fictional character “taylor swift” (c)(r)(tm) #so personally the only real threat this hangs over my head is the thought she might put him on an album #like that does strike real terror in my heart im ngl #ESPECIALLY any of the rerecords oh my god #and given the way hes been tailing her in and out of that damn studio . . . its not looking good for me kids 🥴 #i cant believe she would be that dumb after making the same mistake with joe on folklore #cause even tho now she has to suffer the indignity of sharing a grammy with her ex (LMAO) #at least we can understand that at the time she thought they were in it for life #but if she pulls that shit again with a REBOUND??? just to like stick it to joe or further delude herself or whatever? #idk im gonna need interpol or somebody to step in and do something drastic like this is a cry for help #did you guys see that euphoria meme someone made about her deranged “ive never been happier!!!!” speech the other day? #it was SO funny ill go find it

[pocketsizedquasar]

i genuinely, sincerely, deeply hope, from the bottom of my heart, that every single person who spread and propagated that bullshit lie that israel didn’t bomb the hospital, destroying the whole building and killing hundreds of people, but it was a “misfired hamas / palestinian rocket” — i hope every single one of you rots in hell.

#quasartalks #i’m so. #there are a lot of things about this that are breaking me. #but. this. #we knew all along it was israel of course it was. #but it’s now been confirmed over and over again and israel sent a warning to every other hospital in gaza that they would bomb them. #but like. we fucking knew. we knew. #1) hamas has NEVER had a piece of weaponry capable of the destruction we saw at that hospital. if they had shit like that do you think - #-they wouldn’t have used it against israel already?? #2) israel warned that hospital they would bomb them. they hit the same hospital a day prior with a ‘warning strike’. they said multiple - #-times they were going to bomb it. #3) THEY ADMITTED TO BOMBING THE HOSPITAL. then changed their fucking story when the PR got bad!!! #but y’all believed them when they said it was hamas. and then said it was a misfire. and then and then. u believed them despite already- #-having seen them lie for WEEKS about hamas and beheaded babies and everything else. u believed them. #but yeah the NYT has forensically confirmed it. british analysts have forensically confirmed it. multiple fucking sources have confirmed it #and of course a few days after that hospital was bombed EVERY OTHER HOSPITAL received warning of it. #genuinely. genuinely genuinely. if you spread that blatant zionist lie. i hope you rot. #if you spread those lies about beheaded babies and raped women. i hope you rot. #i don’t care if this is cruel or rude or unfair of me i don’t care #an entire fucking people is being genocided and all you can do is police what they say about it. #palestine #israel

[emile-hides]

Completed Side Order tonight, all pallets done!

Now I want to 100% it really badly..

#Get all the chips and all the flavor text for all the chips and enemies #And it's gonna suck but I need the prlz anyway so might as well work on them together #Never using 8's pallet again though thank GOD there's no special chips locked behind it #Because fuuuuuuuuuck that I love my hacks #I'm bad a video games #Lil Spoiler here but #Can't believe they said this DLC #Yeah Pearl and Marina ARE gay for eachother and here's their baby child they had together #I love you Smollusk sweet baby child can do no wrong <3

[manofmanymons]

.

#mom said it's my turn on the tags vent #so like #sometimes i trick myself into thinking #i cant have any mento iwness #i do well in school #bc despite me jokingly referring to whatever tf is goin on with me as the Mental Illness #im not like #diagnosed with literally anything #not even like anxiety despite the constant sense of dread that never leaves me and the Frequent Panic Attacks #like officially on paper i am 'normal' #but i digress #i really gotta stop using how im doing in school as an indication of mental health #cuz ive come to accept that im just a person who happens to be Good At School #baby sam living through The Horrors? still did good in school #fuckinnn 9 years old having cps and the police showin up at my house askin me a bunch of weird questions #still did good in school #height of my 'actually i fucking hate all of you' phase where i was constantly in the office for getting in fights #STILL did really good in school #completely gave up on life and legitimately believed i would never be happy again bc the only person who unconditionally loved me— #and was always there for me fuckin died #still got all a's in nearly all ap classes #deeply traumatized from almost dying during the pandemic to the point where i couldn't go outside without hyperventilating instantly? #would ya believe it i still did good in school #so i should #really stop going #nothing can be that wrong with me if im getting through school #bc even during times where shit was objectively severely wrong with me #it had 0 impact on how i did in school #lowkey don't even know where to start unpacking whatevers goin on up there tho #where would i be if my parents had listened to my doctor when i was younger who said they should take me to a psychiatrist i wonder lmfao

[cowardlycowboys]

just saw a picture of Kingston and remembered he'll never be a baby again and I'm literally watching him grow up and one day I will pick him up and hold him and sing him his song for the last time

#omg kiera no one cares #I'm gonna put a gun in my mouth #like it's weird but like I'm never gonna change his diaper again?? feed him baby food?? make him bottle?? #I've known him his whole life and i can't believe it's happening so fast like i am heartbroken and just want one more day of him as a baby #one more day of him as a one year old as a 2 year old hell even a 3 year old even tho that was like him a few weeks ago #that's my baby and it's all happening so fast WAAAAAAAAAAH #how do parents do this because I'd be jumping off a bridge

[xamaxenta]

Oda has confirmed he has already drawn Luffy’s father and mother

The crocomommy theory grows ever closer and I swear to god the euphoria of it being real would be insane

#i believe in crocodile is Luffys mom👍🏽 #crocodile has a baby realises oh never again and turns to Ivan san remember that crazy shit we talked about ? do it #and thats how crocodile got full gender reassignment surgery and im so jealous iva chan me next !!! please

[camptw1nk]

I dont think i have ever mentioned nick on this blog bc hes an oc that has. Nothing to do with kurt or in common w him but looking at him next to kurt actually is so interesting to me because they're both around the same age coming from abusive homes and trying to just do what they have to to survive and theres so many interesting parallels between them

#i think they both have this. put side to side its like. they have this spectrum of how grown up a person can be in their early 20s #kurt has a very young feeling to his age and you'd believe hes younger than he is. hes immature #hes incapable of a lot of things and depends heavily on his parents and as a single child hasn't had much opportunity to learn from others #and just generally tends to feel a lot younger especially since his trauma makes him shrink down and age regress a little #whereas nick. hes spent so many years being the older brother and while he did have joe being older he still felt this huge responsibility #and he put it on himself to be the protector of his brothers esp when joe went to college so he had to grow up young #and his history of abusing substances has in many ways aged him #and he has this thing this. he got out of that house and he got free but the moment his brothers need him he moves back in #he faces down the abuse again and almost dies for it because his brothers needed him #and its something kurt never experiences because he never has the protective drive for a sibling #when he ends up back at that house it is because kurt feels too weak to stand on his own feet #when nick does it its because he knows he can be strong enough to endure long enough to protect his brothers #and theres a Lot about nick that makes him more grown up than kurt emotionally #and i do think being a single dad to a baby is very very heavily involved in that but thats a whole other thing #if/when kurt has a baby he shifts to be more grown up tok but thats not the point of this #i started this saying they have nothing in common but they r v similar actually and maybe they should kiss #i ship a lot of my muses w kurt simply bc he deserves all the love #god i love nick i miss him catch me yelling on my multi ab him

[sscrambledmeggss]

I love my family so much, but sometimes I really just want to move out

#like everything just constantly feels so tense #i don’t think I have felt carefree in so long #my dad tries fixing something in the bathroom gets mad and now there’s a hole in the wall #and he’s always had these little man baby fits #but like it’s just so stressful to constantly feel like I’m walking on eggshells #i feel like so much of my life is just trying to make sure I’m not upsetting anyone #then he gets the nerve to be mad at my sister with how she handles her emotions #(which she could be way better at) but like where did she learn how to handle them from #literally the guy that would get mad a break toy balance beams in a fit and be like #“sorry I’ll replace it I just had a fit <3” #and then proceed to never do so #he’s not always like this he’s a very kind and loving father #but just when he does things like this it really upsets me #and I feel like they are being really unfair to my sister #i know she can be difficult at times #but like my mom sided with my dad after my sister got mad about *the hole he made* during a tantrum #it’s just so exhausting #and I just want things to feel easy again #things were never simple but I wish I had the childhood whimsy and ignorance to believe they are again #meg’s incoherent thoughts #tw vent

[nationalharryleague]

Tonight was a night

#the mustachioed moron bestie came over and fucked my brains out #we we laid in bed and talked for like two hours #I told him about the other guy I’ve been seeing on and off for two years now lol #and he gave me some good advice #and then I did some work #and then watched tlou #and listened to Pedro say baby girl #I can’t believe I have to work tomorrow #and do everything over again #I’ve been feeling very existential lately #mainly about how we’re always on the same never ending cycle of 5 days on and 2 days off #I feel very trapped in it #idk hopefully a new job will help me out of this dread